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Old 11-03-2017, 08:35 PM   #34
JohnB
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It was just over 4 years ago when I started watching YouTube videos and reading online articles about David Icke and the information he was presenting the world with. I recall saying to myself "I remember hearing this guy talking about reptilians years ago" - It was just a faint memory of an interview he did with a native African(?), I'm not sure.

I was going through a rough patch in a relationship and at work, so I spent all my free time buried in my computer - the safe zone. I started bingeing David Icke videos, it was fascinating, but also very disturbing. I'd been brought up on the internet, so I'd seen and heard my fair share of what humans are capable of. However, the things that David was discussing were on another level of depravity. I was really struggling to come to terms with how something so sinister could be operating on a global scale. Perhaps I was too gullible, maybe it was my own fault for always seeing the best in people.

I watched more videos and read more articles. Not just David's vids, any and all vids connected with the topics. It was official - I'd been red-pilled, and I absolutely wasn't prepared for it.

My world was shattered.

I started distancing myself from others, especially my girlfriend who was the only person I ever trusted. I was in a different frame of mind, I didn't even know who I was anymore. I started talking about the world differently, as though it didn't mean anything. Questioning how and why there was so much evil.

She left me. We both knew it was going to happen, it was only a matter of time. We'd been together almost 10 years and was the only person I'd ever had feelings for. I remember the first day and night I spent alone. I'm almost certain that was the day I officially snapped and lost my grip on what everyone calls 'reality.'

I don't want to go too deeply into my mental state as it is right now, but there have been moments I sincerely believe that what I learned over the years has caused me to become psychotic.
Not the ranting and raving guns blazing psychotic, I mean mentally I've become unstable and not what society would categorize as normal. I believe I've lost my self-identity.

These have been the consequences for me coming to terms with the information.


I'd like to know if anyone has gone through anything similar.

Thanks for reading.


TL;DR - Got red-pilled, lost my self-identity, pretty sure I developed psychosis.
The native African who David Icke did an interview with was Credo Mutwa, a Zulu sangoma (traditional healer/shaman). It was actually through watching those interviews that I "discovered" David Icke. I had heard of Icke but hadn't paid him much attention until then, but I already had two books by Credo Mutwa. I've been fascinated by Zulu culture and history since I was 10 (I'm now 50), and in recent years I've even wondered if this was the Universe using synchronicity to lead me to David Icke (via Credo Mutwa)!

Maybe the mental "instability" you've been suffering from is a result of NOT coming to terms with what David Icke discusses. After all, Icke said his experiences led him to discover his true self rather than the fake self he had been identifying with before. Maybe you feel you've lost your sense of self-identity because you're trying to hang onto your "fake" self (or mourning its passing) instead of embracing your real self as David Icke did.

But whatever path you take, I hope you find peace and happiness.
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