Feel depressed and unmotivated

[BlueSky]

2 hours ago, Captain Falcon said:

I think I've always been a bit at odds with the world, like I've always felt a sense of emptiness. It's quite difficult to explain... I look at the rows and rows of identical houses in identical streets, and the rows of shops, and all the cars trundling along all the roads and I sort of just sometimes think, is this it? Is this life? I've also thought is it me with the problem? is it me who's empty?. I've always felt a bit out of phase with things, a bit out of step. I haven't quite got into the whole job, car, mortgage, wife, kids thing... basically what I think I'm trying to say is that I haven't bought into it because I've always felt that there's something wrong with it. Or maybe I'm just fucked, a nutcase, a coward, hiding myself away, which is what I've done for most of my life. It might turn out that I'm just a miserable bastard!

 

What I don't understand is why the masses, the mask wearers, trust the government and the media. I don't get it. They used to talk about Tory Sleaze, and how slimy Blair was, and how out of touch and incompetent they are, and so on and so forth... they lied to us about weapons of mass destruction. They lied about and covered up Hillsborough for 30 years! They've left old people to freeze to death every winter. They make promises they never keep. And on and on it goes. Suddenly everyone is like "oh we've got to do what the government say, they know best, they're trying to protect us". What!?! It's baffling and frustrating.

 

I do have hope though that we'll get through this thing and come out the other side into a better world. A world in which doctors become healers. Teachers will share knowledge and not just deliver a state sanctioned curriculum, they will inspire kids and ignite their imaginations. Governments will be smaller and will go back to serving the people... The people will make our own decisions about things and take more responsibility for our own lives. I think I'm just waffling now.

 

Whatever happens, I don't think we can go back to normal. The establishment have shown their hand and many of us can see it as clear as day. We'll never forget this moment in time when the governments of the world in collusion with a bought and paid for biased media launched a coordinated attack on humanity. They're committing a huge crime and breaking laws that go beyond the laws of man. More and more people are waking up to what's going on, and I think we won't stand for the evil and the bullshit for much longer.

 

I'm trying to follow my heart more, and listen to my intuition, but I'm angry and that is difficult to deal with. I'm looking at myself in the mirror and there are things there that are difficult to face, but I feel I have to face all of myself and heal wounds I didn't even know I had. I think this can be a time of healing for all of us. It's a time for courage also. I'm no tough guy, I'm quite sensitive which I've always though was a weakness, but maybe it's a strength, I don't know. We have to stand strong.

 

Now I really am waffling on. It's late, and sometimes I find it hard to convey in words what I'm thinking and feeling.

 

If the world can change for the worse in a very short time, it can also change for the better in just as short a time. We'll reassert our freedom and remain human. 

 

 

 

 

You're not waffling on. Well said. 

[Cassady]

On 8/20/2020 at 7:43 PM, Rachel Underhill said:

I think a lot of people have been given so many problems to think about including keeping a roof over their heads they can,t stretch themselves in any other direction. 

 

On 8/20/2020 at 7:49 PM, Yasmina said:

This is definitely a huge factor! 

 

 

It is. I went off on one a few weeks ago to my best mate for 40 years and his response was ' I've got my own shit to worry about '. He has as we all have but how can people but what gets me is what is going on IS everybodys shit . Its not on a personal level as in job , family issues etc but on a collective level this is everybodys shit and its going to get shittier.

[Captain Falcon]

On 8/23/2020 at 1:37 PM, Cassady said:

It is. I went off on one a few weeks ago to my best mate for 40 years and his response was ' I've got my own shit to worry about '. He has as we all have but how can people but what gets me is what is going on IS everybodys shit . Its not on a personal level as in job , family issues etc but on a collective level this is everybodys shit and its going to get shittier.

 

That's like being on a boat with someone and pointing out a hole "is that a hole? Oh shit we're taking on water!" and they reply "I've got my own shit to worry about".