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My mental health has plummeted the last few weeks.

 

I've for the most part managed my anxiety and depression for the last 15 years since it bagan around 18yo. 

 

Losing my contract I work over the summer has left me on universal credit which has meant coming up to 5 months of austerity and debts mounting up.

 

The worst thing for me is that my wages for this summer were going to set me up in self employment and now I'm back in the financial pit I got myself out of last year. I wish I could say I gambled my money away or went on a massive bender but no a questionable virus put me back in my place. 

 

I wish I could persuade my partner to drop out the system with me today, I think she will if they roll out mandatory vaccines.

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Seen this topic on mental health, and thought I'd post what's going on with me. I'm well aware of what's going on, and what's to come. Been trying to keep my vibrations high, and ignore all the masked sheeple walking about. I know about frequency and vibrations and how they affect us, also known about staying present and looking inside ourselves, meditalon etc, but last couple of days I've been rock bottom, honestly didn't feel like I want to be on this planet anymore, just wanted to go and haven't got anything left in me to fight all the bullshit there throwing at us. I'm a loving person love being tactile and hugging people, I don't judge people because we are all different, but life is just ridiculous now, went to a hairdressers other day,  didn't wear mask because I have sinus complications she was very nice and respected that, but it was awful, no nice cup of coffee and biscuit or any magazines allowed to read because of the convirus, wrapped from neck to foot in a plastic sheet, no music allowed, I was stuck in a corner because I didn't have a mask, and the others, we're talking about how pretty their masks were and complimenting each other on the patterns. I've been very low and I know that's what they want, but it's really hard when your the odd one out trying to get through this. I was brought up as a Jehovers witness and got out as soon as could at 16, so I know about Armagedon,  the book of revelation etc, all I had growing up was doom and gloom, and then when my family left my father got into info wars I think that's Alex Jones,  he couldn't stop talking about fluoride in the water, chem trails,  and how the bas####ds are trying to kill us. So I thought knowing all this would make me stronger, but I've been on the bottom. I don't know if its because those things have gone up in my area lately, counted 9 in my town, ive had headaches and been feeling dizzy, ive now got tinnitus,  I'm 54 and never ever had it before, ive got shungite and emf protectors, but I've realised there's only so much we can do to protect ourselves. Had a big cry today, actually got a big cuddle off the hubby, not like him, think he's worried about me, ive lost a bit weight with the stress and not talking so much now, I think it's the talking that's got him worried, he usually tells me to shut up. Lol. But thanks everybody on here, I feel I have people that will understand. Xx

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5 minutes ago, Chef said:

My mental health has plummeted the last few weeks.

 

I've for the most part managed my anxiety and depression for the last 15 years since it bagan around 18yo. 

 

Losing my contract I work over the summer has left me on universal credit which has meant coming up to 5 months of austerity and debts mounting up.

 

The worst thing for me is that my wages for this summer were going to set me up in self employment and now I'm back in the financial pit I got myself out of last year. I wish I could say I gambled my money away or went on a massive bender but no a questionable virus put me back in my place. 

 

I wish I could persuade my partner to drop out the system with me today, I think she will if they roll out mandatory vaccines.

try keep your chin up bro, there are many others in same situation as you. this is what the PTB want, people in self turmoil and desperation.

as for your depression i used to drink chamomile tea no coffee or tea and it calmed my moods quite well maybe try it. good luck my friend.

just reach out if we may help you, at least your not on your own here dude 

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5 minutes ago, Jaquiby said:

Seen this topic on mental health, and thought I'd post what's going on with me. I'm well aware of what's going on, and what's to come. Been trying to keep my vibrations high, and ignore all the masked sheeple walking about. I know about frequency and vibrations and how they affect us, also known about staying present and looking inside ourselves, meditalon etc, but last couple of days I've been rock bottom, honestly didn't feel like I want to be on this planet anymore, just wanted to go and haven't got anything left in me to fight all the bullshit there throwing at us. I'm a loving person love being tactile and hugging people, I don't judge people because we are all different, but life is just ridiculous now, went to a hairdressers other day,  didn't wear mask because I have sinus complications she was very nice and respected that, but it was awful, no nice cup of coffee and biscuit or any magazines allowed to read because of the convirus, wrapped from neck to foot in a plastic sheet, no music allowed, I was stuck in a corner because I didn't have a mask, and the others, we're talking about how pretty their masks were and complimenting each other on the patterns. I've been very low and I know that's what they want, but it's really hard when your the odd one out trying to get through this. I was brought up as a Jehovers witness and got out as soon as could at 16, so I know about Armagedon,  the book of revelation etc, all I had growing up was doom and gloom, and then when my family left my father got into info wars I think that's Alex Jones,  he couldn't stop talking about fluoride in the water, chem trails,  and how the bas####ds are trying to kill us. So I thought knowing all this would make me stronger, but I've been on the bottom. I don't know if its because those things have gone up in my area lately, counted 9 in my town, ive had headaches and been feeling dizzy, ive now got tinnitus,  I'm 54 and never ever had it before, ive got shungite and emf protectors, but I've realised there's only so much we can do to protect ourselves. Had a big cry today, actually got a big cuddle off the hubby, not like him, think he's worried about me, ive lost a bit weight with the stress and not talking so much now, I think it's the talking that's got him worried, he usually tells me to shut up. Lol. But thanks everybody on here, I feel I have people that will understand. Xx

Were both lucky to have someone there for us. My misses cant wait to go back to me bending her ear constantly.

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1 minute ago, karmaxxxx said:

try keep your chin up bro, there are many others in same situation as you. this is what the PTB want, people in self turmoil and desperation.

as for your depression i used to drink chamomile tea no coffee or tea and it calmed my moods quite well maybe try it. good luck my friend.

just reach out if we may help you, at least your not on your own here dude 

I knocked the caffeine on the head a few weeks ago it has helped.

 

So many people left in the lurch right now.

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8 minutes ago, Jaquiby said:

Seen this topic on mental health, and thought I'd post what's going on with me. I'm well aware of what's going on, and what's to come. Been trying to keep my vibrations high, and ignore all the masked sheeple walking about. I know about frequency and vibrations and how they affect us, also known about staying present and looking inside ourselves, meditalon etc, but last couple of days I've been rock bottom, honestly didn't feel like I want to be on this planet anymore, just wanted to go and haven't got anything left in me to fight all the bullshit there throwing at us. I'm a loving person love being tactile and hugging people, I don't judge people because we are all different, but life is just ridiculous now, went to a hairdressers other day,  didn't wear mask because I have sinus complications she was very nice and respected that, but it was awful, no nice cup of coffee and biscuit or any magazines allowed to read because of the convirus, wrapped from neck to foot in a plastic sheet, no music allowed, I was stuck in a corner because I didn't have a mask, and the others, we're talking about how pretty their masks were and complimenting each other on the patterns. I've been very low and I know that's what they want, but it's really hard when your the odd one out trying to get through this. I was brought up as a Jehovers witness and got out as soon as could at 16, so I know about Armagedon,  the book of revelation etc, all I had growing up was doom and gloom, and then when my family left my father got into info wars I think that's Alex Jones,  he couldn't stop talking about fluoride in the water, chem trails,  and how the bas####ds are trying to kill us. So I thought knowing all this would make me stronger, but I've been on the bottom. I don't know if its because those things have gone up in my area lately, counted 9 in my town, ive had headaches and been feeling dizzy, ive now got tinnitus,  I'm 54 and never ever had it before, ive got shungite and emf protectors, but I've realised there's only so much we can do to protect ourselves. Had a big cry today, actually got a big cuddle off the hubby, not like him, think he's worried about me, ive lost a bit weight with the stress and not talking so much now, I think it's the talking that's got him worried, he usually tells me to shut up. Lol. But thanks everybody on here, I feel I have people that will understand. Xx

indeed we do understand some more than you probably think. its a long hard road we chose to travel, because if it wasn't you would be swallowing the guff like the others around you.

remember you are among like minded people here and its all of us in it together we are ALL EYES OPEN sorry to say the others are not. chin up sweet heart it will be okay.

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6 minutes ago, Chef said:

I knocked the caffeine on the head a few weeks ago it has helped.

 

So many people left in the lurch right now.

yes my friend so many millions thrown to the shredder of selfishness greed and dishonesty, but they have power now but there is a much bigger force that will pay back every deed they've done, i dont just believe that i actually know it. stay strong know you are doing the right thing, by not following the crowd. did not even the sages of time gone by say the same. 

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3 minutes ago, karmaxxxx said:

indeed we do understand some more than you probably think. its a long hard road we chose to travel, because if it wasn't you would be swallowing the guff like the others around you.

remember you are among like minded people here and its all of us in it together we are ALL EYES OPEN sorry to say the others are not. chin up sweet heart it will be okay.

Thankyou, I just have to toughen up and take control of my thoughts. We are all going through this, I suppose it's how we handle it. Like my hubby said today, if I go into a shop and they don't let me in I'll tell them to f##k off, theyve lost my custom forever doesn't bother me. 

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2 minutes ago, Jaquiby said:

Thankyou, I just have to toughen up and take control of my thoughts. We are all going through this, I suppose it's how we handle it. Like my hubby said today, if I go into a shop and they don't let me in I'll tell them to f##k off, theyve lost my custom forever doesn't bother me. 

yes indeed your hubby is right, do you accept aliveness even if there are no safe spaces, or do you chose to be dead in ignorance? rise above such things allow no-one to have control of your self thoughts body etc. YOU are YOU and always will be YOU, allow no person to desecrate that you are a spiritual being, in such time i find doing a meditation helps me shuts down all the outside distractions, and stills my own unruly thoughts and puts me into a total calm sense of being , i dont know if it will work for you but you may want to try. good luck

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8 hours ago, karmaxxxx said:

yes indeed your hubby is right, do you accept aliveness even if there are no safe spaces, or do you chose to be dead in ignorance? rise above such things allow no-one to have control of your self thoughts body etc. YOU are YOU and always will be YOU, allow no person to desecrate that you are a spiritual being, in such time i find doing a meditation helps me shuts down all the outside distractions, and stills my own unruly thoughts and puts me into a total calm sense of being , i dont know if it will work for you but you may want to try. good luck

Thankyou your right, Id rather know than like you say be dead in ignorance.  I just lost myself and let my thinking take over and felt despondent. I have tried to meditate and quiet the mind, it has helped in the past, but I haven't found it as easy to do as some people. I do also believe that we are much more than this physical body or our thoughts. Its about taking control and not becoming wrapped up in our pain body, as ECkhart Tolle, says in his books. So I'm cheering up today, going to try meditation to see if it helps me stay grounded, and move forward through this. Thanks for your kind words.

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On 7/29/2020 at 12:43 AM, karmaxxxx said:

yes my friend so many millions thrown to the shredder of selfishness greed and dishonesty, but they have power now but there is a much bigger force that will pay back every deed they've done, i dont just believe that i actually know it. stay strong know you are doing the right thing, by not following the crowd. did not even the sages of time gone by say the same. 

Thanks for the input.

 

You are correct about being away from the crowd. I remember when I made the decision as a 13 year old to stop trying to be part of the crowd, I've felt overlooked since becaus of it however thats a small price to pay compared to a life time of social toilling.

 

I think to certain extent they will have their way, the flock will be culled and the free thinkers will have an opportunity to survive, so important that we take that chance whether Black, white believers of simulation or flat earther all must unite.

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My mental health has plummeted. I was seeing a psychologist with the NHS. I was not working prior to lockdown. Due to mental health problems. I can't express how bitterly disappointed I am with the way that the NHS has abandoned people who were seeing psychologists. There is no apparent end in sight for this abandonment either, at least not in the region I live in. 

 

The dumb sheep used to be a minor irritation. I already felt alone, have done most of my life. In a way I was always 'seeing through' falsehoods, and it can cause problems. But now these sheep are seemingly everywhere.

 

The feeling of aloneness got worse during the lockdown. It drops to despair like levels during which my chest area feels clogged and desperate. Nausea is common in these phases. As well as regular tactile hallucinations. I have to talk to myself a lot to get by, purely because of the human need to express oneself. I have a number of psychotic traits, and have pondered whether I am being possessed by archons intermittently. This is a horrifying prospect, obviously. 

 

Yeah, on a personal level I would be lying if I said I wasn't concerned about the future.

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17 hours ago, Ethel said:

My mental health has plummeted. I was seeing a psychologist with the NHS. I was not working prior to lockdown. Due to mental health problems. I can't express how bitterly disappointed I am with the way that the NHS has abandoned people who were seeing psychologists. There is no apparent end in sight for this abandonment either, at least not in the region I live in. 

 

The dumb sheep used to be a minor irritation. I already felt alone, have done most of my life. In a way I was always 'seeing through' falsehoods, and it can cause problems. But now these sheep are seemingly everywhere.

 

The feeling of aloneness got worse during the lockdown. It drops to despair like levels during which my chest area feels clogged and desperate. Nausea is common in these phases. As well as regular tactile hallucinations. I have to talk to myself a lot to get by, purely because of the human need to express oneself. I have a number of psychotic traits, and have pondered whether I am being possessed by archons intermittently. This is a horrifying prospect, obviously. 

 

Yeah, on a personal level I would be lying if I said I wasn't concerned about the future.


Hi Ethel, 

I wish I knew what to do to help.  But I’m glad you’re here.
I have no advice but to pray.  And I hear you.  ❤️

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On 8/4/2020 at 12:05 AM, Ethel said:

My mental health has plummeted. I was seeing a psychologist with the NHS. I was not working prior to lockdown. Due to mental health problems. I can't express how bitterly disappointed I am with the way that the NHS has abandoned people who were seeing psychologists. There is no apparent end in sight for this abandonment either, at least not in the region I live in. 

 

The dumb sheep used to be a minor irritation. I already felt alone, have done most of my life. In a way I was always 'seeing through' falsehoods, and it can cause problems. But now these sheep are seemingly everywhere.

 

The feeling of aloneness got worse during the lockdown. It drops to despair like levels during which my chest area feels clogged and desperate. Nausea is common in these phases. As well as regular tactile hallucinations. I have to talk to myself a lot to get by, purely because of the human need to express oneself. I have a number of psychotic traits, and have pondered whether I am being possessed by archons intermittently. This is a horrifying prospect, obviously. 

 

Yeah, on a personal level I would be lying if I said I wasn't concerned about the future.

 

Hey Ethel, 

 

Reading this I realised how similar our situations are. I too have been off work due to mental health (5 months now.. Pay is crap now..struggling to pay bills) 

And was also waiting for a psychologist.. Finally have something booked on the 7th over the phone. 

Can't think of anything worse.. Over the phone is what triggers a lot of my anxieties. 

 

I just want you to know that I am here for you. We will ride this roller coaster together (even though you don't know me).

 

Anyone else struggling, I am here if you need a chat. 

Please don't struggle alone ❤️ we can do this x

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Since I was 19 years old I've suffered from poor mental health. (I'm now in my 50's) I've been on a perpetual roundabout of psychiatrists psychologists counselling and more antidepressants than I can even remember. Nothing has ever helped me to feel well in myself. And I have tried and tried to find different ways to change my life but with little success.

Bizarrely, since lockdown arrived I've started to feel more alive and well. All my treatment plans and key worker meetings and counselling have been put on hold and although I initially felt worse through lack of human contact, as time has passed I've begun to feel like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders. 

Through isolation I've begun to rediscover myself with no interference from external sources. I've realised that I'm not a nutter lol I'm just different and that's ok. After all who would really want to fit in with a society that has little or no empathy, where money and status is king.

All of the great sages through history said that the truth about who you are and the answers to the meaning of life lie within your own being and I can actually see this now.

I'm not a label, a statistic, data on a computer screen, or a slave to the system. I'm an individual, unique and worthy. I am free to be who I am and free to live the way I want to. As the Lord Icke says, I am infinite awareness having an experience...

I may be alone in life but I'm not lonely. I have an open mind an open heart and I feel compassion for all beings. I am kind , caring and capable of feeling love, and my actions are sincere and genuine. I wish no one any harm and live my life from the point of view that all life is precious. 

So for anyone who is feeling low and isolated and disconnected I would say connect with yourself, love yourself, and your journey through life will become the amazing experience it was always meant to be. 

I'm not preaching lol these are just the thoughts of one person who like yourselves is wandering through the vastness of space that we all inhabit. 

 

Have a wonderful day 😊 The hour of awakening is upon us 😊

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4 hours ago, allymisfit said:

 

Hey Ethel, 

 

Reading this I realised how similar our situations are. I too have been off work due to mental health (5 months now.. Pay is crap now..struggling to pay bills) 

And was also waiting for a psychologist.. Finally have something booked on the 7th over the phone. 

Can't think of anything worse.. Over the phone is what triggers a lot of my anxieties. 

 

I just want you to know that I am here for you. We will ride this roller coaster together (even though you don't know me).

 

Anyone else struggling, I am here if you need a chat. 

Please don't struggle alone ❤️ we can do this x

 

Thanks x

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Ok my turn.  I have to have my shit together because I am needed at all hours of the day and night.  I’m trying to be the rock of sanity in my household that’s fucking hilarious.  I’m constantly surrounded by people at all hours needing me to be something for them.  I can never be enough.  It is mentally exhausting.  

 

I can’t keep up with current events discussions anymore it all just floats right through me.  I just don’t give a fuck anymore.  

 

I go out in the world and it’s a nightmare.  The TV is on at night and it makes me sick but I have to sit there so I don’t alienate my husband.  

 

I want to recede into another dimension and reside there permanently.  

 

I am thankful for the people on this forum for introducing me to prayer and the Bible,  something I was afraid of before.  

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I was thinking this morning that all this conspiracy truther information ... is not really helping me at all.  It is more disappearing in the eye candy of the internet.  And I actually find it just as stressful as the MSM.

I need things to read and watch and listen to ... but none of this is any good, it is painful and unreal.

It doesn't lead to a good life or a happy life or a healthy life.

 

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