Bullshit! You are afraid to admit you are wrong. It is a perfectly reasonable explanation for your sad confusion.   Explain exactly why it is not relevant.   Why the hell are you ignoring so much!?    The Moon penumbra "shadow" which is effectively a varying diminishing of the extremely bright Sun is very big: https://astronomy.stackexchange.com/questions/35635/during-an-eclipse-how-big-is-the-shadow-of-the-moon-on-the-earth#:~:text=Typically%2C the umbra is 10