loneliness

[angelwitch-freeman]

 

i have been lonely for almost all my life time. and this is one of those nights i really feel frustrated. many say, lonely people feel sadness, no, it is more frustration and

some kind of bitterness.

 

it started in the kindergarten through school years to adult years . of course there were always some so-called friends who weren't a real friends in the end. it is like a circle, which doesn't break up.  it is hard to make new friends after years of been alone. it doesn't  even work that way. it is damned destiny in this life. i have been practically 24/7 alone since some years, i quited drinking so those last idiots around me disappeared.  some days it is totally fine, because i am going to continue this journey and don't need another shitty so-called friends, but these nights are not nice at all.

 

the worst part was to understand those friends i had some 10-20 years ago weren't a real friends at all.  or is it possible most of the people here doesnt realize what is a true friendship. hard to say. understanding i didnt have any friends at all at the beginning makes sense. maybe in the so called next life then. i wish every night i won't wake up in the morning. better to continue journey. well, it is ok to live, but i dont need "their" insanity and not gonna take part of their games (example ukraine and killing eachothers for nothing, getting jabbed etc), to live under the rocks is just fine.  this is just one of those nights. maybe tomorrow i meet a decent human being who can share same values. good night.

 

 

Edited August 4, 2022 by angelwitch-freeman

[oddsnsods]

By now im sure youve gathered youre surrounded by soulless fake cunts Angel..stick around things might get interesting.

Keep your chin up.

 

[Anti Facts Sir]

My real name is Billy No-Mates.

 

Yeah it can be an isolating experience when you don't get sucked into the matrix.

[Wamrage]

Hang in there OP. 
People who are into this stuff are rare. I am in my 30's and i have zero friends, but i do have a girlfriend.

Most people are fake, even if a person is a conspiracy theorist it doesn't automatically mean that he/she is real. Nowadays fraud to real is 400 to 1 ratio.

[Golden Retriever]

On 8/5/2022 at 1:21 AM, angelwitch-freeman said:

 

i have been lonely for almost all my life time. and this is one of those nights i really feel frustrated. many say, lonely people feel sadness, no, it is more frustration and

some kind of bitterness.

 

it started in the kindergarten through school years to adult years . of course there were always some so-called friends who weren't a real friends in the end. it is like a circle, which doesn't break up.  it is hard to make new friends after years of been alone. it doesn't  even work that way. it is damned destiny in this life. i have been practically 24/7 alone since some years, i quited drinking so those last idiots around me disappeared.  some days it is totally fine, because i am going to continue this journey and don't need another shitty so-called friends, but these nights are not nice at all.

 

the worst part was to understand those friends i had some 10-20 years ago weren't a real friends at all.  or is it possible most of the people here doesnt realize what is a true friendship. hard to say. understanding i didnt have any friends at all at the beginning makes sense. maybe in the so called next life then. i wish every night i won't wake up in the morning. better to continue journey. well, it is ok to live, but i dont need "their" insanity and not gonna take part of their games (example ukraine and killing eachothers for nothing, getting jabbed etc), to live under the rocks is just fine.  this is just one of those nights. maybe tomorrow i meet a decent human being who can share same values. good night.

 

 

 

Frustration and bitterness are difficult emotions to deal with and sometimes I feel them too. 

 

If you are unable to connect with anyone have you thought about an animal to care for?

Edited August 26, 2022 by Golden Retriever

[andy1033]

I am glad i am alone all my life, that i missed out on love, and children, especially now, with vile monsters like bill gates wanting most people dead.

 

Being alone is something, you either are good at, or not. Loneliness is an energy and if you feel it, you feel it. If you do not feel it, you do not.

[EnigmaticWorld]

I'm not alone, but the older I have got, the smaller my circle of friends has become. Doesn't really bother me because I find a lot of normies to be insufferable. I have no desire to blend in with the herd. I want to be able to sleep at night knowing that my ancestors wouldn't look down on me as weak and deracinated.

Edited August 26, 2022 by EnigmaticWorld

[TetraG]

Hi OP.

 

I get (and near enough always have been) 'visited' (or requisitioned, pestered, whatever) by YES >>>loneliness <<<< THAT <<<< A LOT which is to say you could say like touching the void everyday in the mental solitude kind of reckoning and being very aware of sort of like the echo in the room as it were (not delusional, just a turn of phrase as I mean it)....  Anyway --- The stuff of loneliness I KNOW is enough to threaten the self by anyone not terribly good as self sustenance, even a relatively strong person from within....

Can put anybody out of synch or kilter seriously, or perhaps for some just out of tune generally... The length of time alone will determine this dramatically of course about the severity of effect on a person....but in more recent years of my life ==speaking on how I "get by" by me saying some taster of my experience here== I am actually a case-in-point (for good EVENTUALLY as per my slightly better luck lately) where I see not everything is all hinged on loneliness necessarily and not everything needs to turn out that way - in mis-shapen misery or whatever.  (partly then can turn around in some part, by joining up to this forum included in such remedial passage, which is not the full solution, but is someway a resolution, so whilst not the whole resolution, still not bad to dip in here on these forums, even when not uncommonly I don't agree with everything said on these forums, I doubt most people do agree all, but nonetheless it has been a turning point in offering to interact with outside the box types of people even so like I might claim to be myself!.....and as such will go some way to taking the edge off any sort of loneliness even when we know opinions here can vary quite broadly etc about the nature of conspiracies and how ANYTHING fits together at all that somehow makes our reality, personally - locally - or globally) 

 

Anyway, since I like that phrase quite some (the one I began this passage with), I'll say it again, that in the sense of touching the void (or even having it swallow you up at FREAKING WORST which is much less desirable aspect obviously if mental problems as well as social problems start to develop too far etc!!!)

 

However going back to the CORE EFFECTS >> and well, from me at least, it goes >> As one would expect EMOTIONAL SURVIVAL IS KEY TO LIFE FOREMOST, not just intellect or just rational alone, or some other singular trait YET BEING EMOTIONALLY SOUND IS and forever will be, what I would say for most people "packs in" such a lot, and you can bet for most of what any human alive may need to nourish them it provides, like love of any kind OR JUST SIMPLY HAVING SELF RESPECT & INTEGRITY & GOOD SELF ESTEEM if those issues too also come into question and possibly degraded aspects of a person due to too much loneliness].....~~

Well, loneliness can sometimes, be strengthening on rare occasions only I feel, and is mainly only for the head-strong on the whole but the realization must be loneliness CAN HAPPEN TO ANYONE, just like ANYONE can lose their home or such an event as that...

 

So anyway for lonely people, perhaps caught in a negative loop, etc....we sorts can risk experiencing instead getting much emptiness envelope us, rather than anything greatly positive happen (sadly)~~~ or sense of SOMETHING MISSING A LOT and yes of course emotional bitter-ishness (can enter the frame of course, and CAN if endured for a LONG TIME in particular, bite down hard on us also).... For reasons like experiencing either a desperate lack of emotion, or equally valid to say because of that unease if one is not greatly well adapted to being alone, that can become a SELF EMOTIVE Problem if not handled right (yes I would be speaking ABOUT MYSELF for the most part here granted but can alas help others I would imagine) but moving on..... where I say this too-> yes equally valid is to talk/ vent AND HAVE NEED TO EXPRESS when vital to do so, about emotional entanglement (past or present) ---concerning by the way  emotions in relation to either largely ourselves (due to being alone) and/or others that is to say--- and so as the story takes it's turn in each our lives, at anytime we MAY SEEM or MAY FEEL as empty vessels, WE KNOW BETTER, but cannot always know how to find a solution,, but still knowing that is NOT A "JUST WAY" TO LIVE OUR LIVES SO ISOLATED, well then of course realization of this hits home more & more with time, until it's time to break out.... Realizing "our lot" --or self rooted enclave in a confined space etc-- is not our total package of whom we're supposed to be ETC ETC ETC... and there is more to life that has greeted us, and especially by what any one of us has been dealt in life from a early age in our childhoods.... However, once established a broader interaction with the world, and with those of similar views, there is nothing to stop people enjoying or finding their little niche too, just as they were used to doing when in fact lonely - simply b/c we all need that tangible bit of personal space every once in a while as the yin to our yang!

 

So, let me come at this slightly more positive again now as THERE ARE some positives, as I did already say as per my own dealings of what I hope transpires, or that builds hope or confidence or creates better luck etc,,, and I will say again, that often is in the form of emotional support, about which once we straddle the void of emotions, by helping fill that empty space OR frustrated circumstances or aspirations etc,,,, emotional support by a friend or by simple acts of kindness in among as many good hearts as dare to be, is what ultimately gets us through any difficult patches, or feelings of isolation by however emotional support or outlet can be found and in whatever manner or manifestation that can best be resolved for best outcomes...

 

But meanwhile when still IN THE THICK OF LONELINESS, like Enigmatic and Andy1033 both say each in their own way}}... You gotta own it to some degree, (fully embrace if needs be, just like we embrace how we find the world by rejecting falsity and sometimes as the sort of 'playoff' not accepting  many things at face value as consequence of that- OR whatever wise to ascertain by whatever we perceive or claim to know better --- oh and YES *of course* NATURALLY inspiration in part there being conspiratorial of course)

 

===SUMMARIZATION???---  and then for those people whom loneliness is not meant or not permanently, the pressure of living alone can buckle them or bend them out of shape mentally.... but you don't have to become LIKE a victim to it ..(not to suggest you are literally OP or anyone, but that depends on your own discretion as much as good will of others, or desired direction to follow and broaden choices thereof where possible to influence your own destiny of course)

Edited August 27, 2022 by TetraG

[TetraG]

Short of going into DEEP psychological territory....

 

Not much more I can think to add atm (weathers heavy on the soul man!), and so JUST in this VERY MOMENT (until I am more flowing like a fountain, than an avalanche of rocks tumbling out my head).... to go beyond the above general message I've put out above, is somewhat unlikely **although I AM always OPEN MINDED** on this topic obviously AS I HAVE TO LIVE IT like others in my position too,,, but right now ~if for example my mind is temporarily unable to know what to suggest~ well that could be firstly there is quite often with me an endless stream of (quite personal) thoughts that go (looping if left adrift too long and can become insidious just for that reason) through thine head when you are LONG TERM ALONE especially......

 

Here's a little positive morsel anyway as per what I try TO DO->

Personally to stave off that sucker of whatever gets frustrating or irritating or sad or angry or sometimes even feelings of uselessness, I got a bit of a hobby to get me through the rough days which has made me creative for the last couple of years (or at least trying), which involves a fairly simple "craft" sort of hobby that can absolutely also come in handy in the real world on occasion..... (Ain't saying what it is specificly unless some genuine soul were to PM me and to ask......as in general where on a 'public knife-wheel' [sts] I am not providing an open invitation here for data reapers who maybe profile people whoever they might be, that's googles ignominious job, LOL).

 

Ermmm, going back to the OP= angelwitch-freeman a second....

yeah of course you need true friends, I salute that as a standard worth aspiring to, and if that means the bygone ones you had, had to go, so be it... especially as they never lived up to anything to make you feel proud or worthy or inclusive as an equal etc, then clearly they weren't worthy of your time and showed no credibility as friends, these drink fuelled whoever they were from way back in your life..

 

Keep looking forward if you can,, however ON OCCASION, yes sometimes it's necessary to observe in enclaves of our minds where we know bits of insanity reside, like fragmentations of us, repleat like the plague, it could be certain memories are over-played and are intrusive by their nature for example and annoy by the nuisance they create by being so up in our consciousness internally--- Such thought (DERACINATION to borrow Enigma's word)  is not hard to imagine for those living alone A LOT..... Past events or issues perhaps are they it could be~ (just speculating, as mirrors what some of what I contend with) and that which perhaps has gone not properly addressed in the creeping vine of time, that yes sometimes just maybe obliges/tempts us to look back over stuff to maybe piece together something of ourselves or reconstruct in a better way,, and so with that in mind we COULD POSSIBLY see value ON OCCASION in what sends us retracing old ground from history, occasionally it's for good reason, but don't let negativity spin out of control derived from unpleasant experiences that rundown and consume (basicly rob!!!) your new opportunities & productivity TODAY!!

Edited August 29, 2022 by TetraG

[tommydrifter]

It is a mind-pattern that I share with the other loners. In my life, I have made changes - no more alcohol, tobacco or drugs; ended toxic relationships (except limited contact with family); established a healthy lifestyle and daily routines - but an inability to heal subconscious trauma has rendered me, essentially, retarded. 

 

What has helped me is to put no pressure on myself to be or do anything except live. I tick off the days in my life like a prisoner doing time. If I achieve something, for example, this week I washed my car, then that is a bonus. (I am a retard in a family of high achievers, so releasing the need to be more than what I am, is quite the challenge.)

 

I empathise with the OP: I am sorry, mate, I wish I had a solution for you -- and me.

 

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little boys and little girls
sweet and gentle
in their own worlds

 

while the other children play
in pain and sorrow
dream away

 

the day

 

1

 

little children in despair
it breaks my heart
to see you there

 

the stars above (Heaven's Gate)
Eternal Light!
I await 

 

your return to me

 

100

[Certified Green of Heart]

This from whatever recent year I watched it, I found was a really nice video some time ago, I know I watched it & enjoyed it....
Sincerity of this person is confirmation of a true soul speaking from the heart, and from personal experience, but not only in aid of recovering from her own sufferings by isolation, she also seeks to help others in isolation too!... Enjoy!

 

Edited December 14, 2022 by Certified Green of Heart

[Anti Facts Sir]

She looks very attractive. You'd think someone like that would be too pretty to suffer from loneliness. But it can happen to anyone, if the only options around them are worse than being alone.

[Mr H]

My teacher once told me although we can be lonely we are never really alone.

 

But yeah I get it. I kinda cut myself off from normal society since the scamdemic.

 

Except for practical purposes I have zero interest speaking to normies. 

 

There are some benefits though. More time for self improvement and meditation and becoming more resourceful.

 

Does suck sometimes though as " the others" often appear to be having a hoot going along with all this crazy stuff. When you dig a little deeper though, you find most people are really lonely and many relationship are built on dependency or so they don't have to face the silence.

 

I think naturally humans have a lonely disposition because at our essence we are all one, the source of all creation. When we play the part of being a human, then we naturally have to overlook oneness and pretend we are all separate to have the human experience. So there is a longing in the background to return to our true nature. And this journey home is the spiritual path. to realise this, and live with this in our hearts whilst still enjoying the human experience..

Edited December 14, 2022 by Mr H

[LastOneLeftInTheCounty]

Loneliness. It’s hard, but in the long run it’s worth it. 
I had so called friends, and they ‘secretly’ bullied me since I was a kid, but I stayed in with them because I was a sycophant who didn’t want to be a loner, so I exchanged my self respect for temporary, fake popularity.
In my adult life they ‘secretly’ helped to have me falsely labelled. If I try to talk to any of them or some members of my family, community or even former or current employers, the police come down on me like a ton of bricks. Facebook, instagram and all other meta platforms will blacklist or delete my accounts if I join any of them. 
All aspects of my life have been cancelled. Whatever I do creatively gets copied and promoted as someone else’s, a bit like Miss Seven, although not as good or high profile. I’ve boosted many associates, private companies, businesses, ex girlfriends careers simply by being unaware of my surroundings and being unaware of who these people that gravitate towards me actually are- see secret societies. 
Some of the nicest, intelligent, outspoken and spiritual people on this earth are also the loneliest, because their instincts tell them they are surrounded by forces that are no good. 
Dont worry, you are not alone, none of us are, and merely realising this should make any lonely person reading this feel better. 
I love you; and every other lonely person

[Scott Kirkland]

Depends on the type of loneliness. You can be surround by family and friends and feel lonely.

[Stuart dorrans]

On 8/5/2022 at 1:25 AM, Anti Facts Sir said:

My real name is Billy No-Mates.

 

Yeah it can be an isolating experience when you don't get sucked into the matrix.

I find the village idiots round here just want to gossip about each other. I just stay well clear because I know they will take an innocent thing I say and twist it around to mean something sinister. You've no idea the amount of times I've been hated by society for something I didn't even say. These days my best friend is my dog. A giant pain in the arse but at least you know where you stand with him

[HumanPerson]

Hi there, may I suggest "being in the present" exercises while simultaneously withdraw from the toxic narration in your head. Really practice hard and consistently.

 

You may also find it practical to busy yourself helping others who really need it. Visit with an older person who is alone, ask the owner if you can walk that neighborhood dog that's outside 24-7. It's important to not expect anything at all in return.

 

That dumpy looking person who doesn't look "cool" but has a sincere smile-say hi and ask them what their name is and tell them yours. There are so many other lonely people out there with you. 

 

You are in control. Things in your life may not be how you expect or how you're thinking they should be, but, there is abundant opportunity for you to shed your loneliness.

 

Lastly, and maybe this goes with the "being present" part, but, accept yourself just as you are, loneliness and all.

 

 

 

Edited January 9, 2023 by HumanPerson

[DaleP]

Sorry OP if you feel this way. Each to their own.

I love my own company and even going to shopping is a nightmare.

I'd rather be on my own than surrounded by fake friends.

But you are never alone, username like yours, you ought to know.

Edited January 9, 2023 by DaleP

[DaleP]

On 12/17/2022 at 1:41 PM, Scott Kirkland said:

Depends on the type of loneliness. You can be surround by family and friends and feel lonely.

True. Look at Prncess Di, who was clearly loved and surrounded by many said she was lonely at times.

[DaleP]

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EMBRACE THE CHANGE YOU CAN’T SEE AND WOULD NEVER THINK TO LOOK FOR

If you are looking at a reality where nothing changes, perhaps it is because you are looking through prescription lenses called “nothing changes.” If you set up something that you want to see happen, such as a visualized outcome, and then nothing changes, you are in a reality subset called “nothing changes when I look at it.” In order to change a habitual experience such as this, shift out of your normal frame of reference. Focus in a new way. Perhaps you could try getting some distance on the problem and then view it as if you were looking at it through a telephoto lens. Understanding does not predicate or rely upon patterns generated by past ability.

 

The Physics of Miracles - Richard Bartlett MD