Mind control victim needs help

[illuminated1981]

I was a victim of mind control, and I have a lot of terrible memories.  There's feelings of guilt from what I remember doing, and anger for those who did this stuff to me.  The memories cause me to drink, and I'm ruining personal relationships and my future because of how deeply this is bothering me.  What should I do?  The memories are pervasive.  A lot of times my mind wanders off into those memories, and for most of the week I can handle it because my mind stays busy on other stuff.  On the weekends and such, it gets pretty bad because I have all that time to zone out and focus on the memories.  I really don't know what to do.