Know what you are.

[RobinJ]

1 hour ago, steven geldenhuys said:

About twenty five years ago I woke up one night to see the spirit of a white horse standing next to my bed. When I look back now, what that vision meant was the animals would guide me to understand the truth. That happened, because a few years later events happened where I humbled myself, where I understood that I truly know nothing, and the spirit of the animals would show me what happened that we became lost unto ourselves with the awful consequence of becoming cruel.

 

During the early hours of this morning I awoke to see through my Third Eye the image of a horse standing to my left. It was the most beautiful sight I have ever seen, where this horse had different shades of flowing brown colours sweeping through it. We are talking about something that is beyond angelic – words cannot describe the grace that is before you. Two or three other horses joined the one mentioned above, and in these horses, when you looked into their eyes, you saw the eternal with no beginning and no end.

 

What does  that mean? What did these horses come to tell us? Has enough been said and done, where now we may merely be?

What has driven me and kept me going over the years is Love is natural and Evil is not as this does not belong in the fields of Infinite Love? What this means, is when Love flows as it should, everything else falls away and becomes irrelevant. Once you are on top of the mountain then Life becomes as it should as this is natural and Chaos is not.

 

Has this Love and nothing else but Love been attained in the unseen realms? Is the innocence that is these horses that came to visit this morning – is this testament that beings of Love are free to roam as they should by knowing there is now Love and only Love?

Will this Divine touch you and me in the seen realms, and if so, when? When will what should not be be no more? All I can say is every second of every day I live to be the Consciousness that I am, which has a snowball effect on the other bodies that circumnavigate me.

I saw the spirit of a horse at the beginning of this journey, and I hope and pray that the ones I saw in the early hours of this morning as the body slept marks the end of this most unpleasant walk – for everybody and not just me. If not, we just keep on walking to absorb the Infinite that is everywhere.

 

Well, here we go again. A couple of months ago I had a dream about a white horse. I was sitting on a pebbled beach on a kind of deck chair and a beautiful white horse came up along the beach. It came right up to me then laid down and put its head on my lap. The whole thing was serene and calm energy with a sparkling sea to my right.

A month or so later I had another horse dream. 

I was in a field watching a silver grey horse being born. But it was not in the usual way

 The horse was curled up in a kind of egg shape. Gradually it unfolded to be a fully formed adult horse and I was so close that I was under its neck. 

I had a momentary strange feeling it was trying to trap me and I called out for help to two people standing further away.

They did nothing. When I looked back at the horse it simply released me from that energy of fear.

 

I believe both of these were about my spiritual journey and being at one with my true self, and, that I've overcome my fears.

 

On another note, I recently had a dream about a cleansing by fire. Pretty sure this means big volcanic stuff is coming  soon.

[steven geldenhuys]

What is within the “right lower leg” of Consciousness? Awaken what is there to know what we are.

 

I asked that question last night, and am certain the answer is found this morning.

 

We get into a groove, as in this is me, and with what we have we do the best with what we got. There is just one snag here, which is there is no room for improvement because here in the illusion there are walls all around us, as we are trapped in an illusion. So now we push to pass these walls to better ourselves and our lives, and the harder we push the more we look at ourselves. What is wrong with me, because I give it my all and nothing changes.

Damn right it doesn’t, and here two factors are at play: The first being the dumbed down, slave status of Consciousness, and the second is we push ourselves into a corner and get stuck there. For fucks sakes, can I be such a loser? How is this possible? Nothing ever changes. And the reason for this is you are in a rut, with Consciousness going round and round, and you the spirit and dense body form adding fuel to the fire by making the best with what you were given.

This journal focused on the big kahuna, namely Consciousness, where there is an awakening to what went wrong, as well as to what we should be. There is just one snag, which touches all levels of spirit, body, soul and Consciousness, and that is we are stuck in a frequency state of "this is all we have ever known," where we know no other than this. The lake has iced up a long time ago, and here we are stuck with all we have ever known. That is why so few of us rise above this Hell and find a peace within, and dare I say it, that none of us experience a Life of being, where you are one with the Infinite as you walk here in the illusion.

 

The rings in a tree determine how old it is, and it is here that a tree can only be a tree. It cannot get up and move to a more scenic spot on the hill, or to a place where the wind blows gently to cool it down. It is where it is, and that is you and me, where we are what we are and have to make the best with what we have.

 

Everything here in the illusion is about frequency, where what is within you tells the tale of where you have been, but most importantly, where you are going. Remember, we are in a time loop, where round and round we go. I have gone back to the other worlds I inhabited, and on two different worlds/frequencies I was with my wife, and it’s the same shit, just a different day/world/frequency/reality. Round and round we go, like a teddy bear, one step, two step and tickle him under there.

You want to look at the rings of your existence, as in where you have been and where you are going to complete the loop, then look no further than within the “right lower leg” of Consciousness. Therein is the map of you going nowhere slowly. It’s there – I feel the fucker that determines and maintains your set path, and it is set because you have walked it over and over again. My youngest daughter I have met over and over in Lifetimes, and in each one she passes prematurely which is there to break my heart and floor me.

And they speak of a kind, loving God. Not quite – not even close. All we are doing is following a cycle that compresses us deeper and deeper into the illusion, and in no time we don’t know our head from our elbow. Who am I? Where am I? That easy bro – look into the rings of frequencies within the “right lower leg” of Consciousness and the full story is there until you fade to nothing. Same shit, different Lifetime and world/frequency.

 

Well turf that piece of shit so that you may break the cycles where now there are none. In other words, get out the groove by throwing away the record player, and how this is done, is by knowing it exists.

No more set pattern. No more pre-destined path. What is there in its place is Consciousness just being Consciousness. The boat is no longer stranded in the sand with low tide. You are what you are with no limitations. That way Consciousness brings forth a Life that matches you, and this you experience until the spirit and body form are no more.

That “log” with its rings is no more within the right lower leg of Consciousness. No more records; no more data kept of where you were and where you will go because that was in a limited and cruel prison cell. Now Consciousness calls the shots and not some set record of servitude.

[Pilutaq]

I first heard about this when Alex Collier talked about it in one of his webinars. David Icke was recently a guest last Monday and it was awesome. 

I have for many years supported Alex Collier and made a lot of memes with his quotes and messages about sovereignty spirituality and profound information about all kinds of things. If you guys want to see the memes I could make a thread here and post them from time to time

 

“We found a world that we had never imagined,” says neuroscientist Henry Markram, director of Blue Brain Project and professor at the EPFL in Lausanne, Switzerland, and co-founder and Editor-in-Chief of Frontiers, “there are tens of millions of these objects even in a small speck of the brain, up through seven dimensions. In some networks, we even found structures with up to eleven dimensions.”

https://www.frontiersin.org/news/2017/06/12/blue-brain-team-discovers-a-multi-dimensional-universe-in-brain-networks/?_gl=1*6q5efc*_ga*MjY5MzcyMzc5LjE2OTgzNzA2MTI.*_ga_37GXT4VGQK*MTcxNzI5MTYxMC40Ny4xLjE3MTcyOTM0NTIuMC4wLjA.

Edited December 12, 2024 by Pilutaq

[steven geldenhuys]

I remember one night as I slept how I went back in time. I found myself on a spacecraft of sorts, but the person half sitting therein with others as we were transported to some unknown destination – that being called Steven was totally out of it. That biological robot was tampered with and dumbed down in ways you and I cannot in our wildest dreams ever imagine. Take the television series Star Trek with Spock and Sulu, and times that by fifty, and that is how way out Life is beyond this veil that has been pulled over our eyes.

From this spacecraft I then saw myself walking with others around this black square rock that was about two metres by two metres. The aim of this exercise was that we all that were dumped on this planet – wherever it was – would walk around this rock and this made us all the same, as in equal, where your thought syncs with mine and vica versa. You see a tree, and like me, you call that a tree. You understand we are here to survive, and so do I, where now we become hunters and foragers.

 

Go back a few million years from this location where me and the other biological robots were dumped, and what I saw during this time period was the first king of the jungle, which was the Python. This Snake had a hunchback and it levitated about half a metre off the ground. It moved from left to right to corner its prey, and how it stunned these prehistoric antelope was through hypnosis, where this Python would lock into the sight of its prey and hold the animal in this fixed gaze, and from there it moved towards its prey to corner it, and then of course to kill and consume it.

 

Go forwards from there a few hundred years and my Consciousness and spirit found itself along the shore of a flat, choppy sea. From the sea came this Snake to hunt on land, and let’s say this Snake must have been about six metres long. What I saw scared me.

 

I have seen how my Serpent soul watched how a Snuff video was made, where this guy took his time beating up, and eventually strangling with pretty young girl with short blonde hair. We saw how her spirit left the body as the body took its final breath. This guy hanged with both arms from a pole running along the ceiling, and with his crossed thighs he strangled this girl. (Now imagine that girl being your daughter or best friend, where Life takes them to these moments of such savage cruelty.)

 

I have seen the madness of the ages, and always throughout these times there is always the victim.

Going back maybe forty to fifty years, we have entered the era of The Hunger Games, where there are the haves and have nots, and what makes this era so in your face is the platant “power” that the haves have. To be invited to be in their neighbourhood is the equivalent of fifty multiple orgasms, where the palpable “I am power” atmosphere around you clouds any judgement you have as to what is right or wrong. Some would call this being amongst a God-presence, and they are right, because here what applies to everyone else doesn’t apply to you. You are untouchable, and you know that, where you answer to nobody because everyone sucks up to your power that is addictive because it gives them an instant high.

 

We are in the early stages of The Hunger Games society, and like all the eras before this one, this society will also self-destruct to make way for a new one. But here’s the thing: Just like all the other eras that go back before there was even a concept of time, in this one there will once again be the victim, and that’s you and me and everyone else who wasn’t invited to that party to be a part of that disgusting, superficial crowd, where the only friend you have is your usefullness to these haves. When that runs out you are kicked out to be with the have nots.

So welcome to The Hunger Games society, and wait, because you aint seen nothing yet.

 

When I landed on that planet during the early stages of us the manufactured unit, or should I say – when the spacecraft dumped me on that planet – that is when you understand you are alone. No Gawd here bro – just you and your wits to survive.

Instead of knuckling down to kill or be killed, we should have gone within to see beyond the simulation in front of us. You shouldn’t have walked around that rock whose frequency programmed you to be in sync with that planets frequency, as well as those around you. I have also been to other worlds where the inhabitants are similar to us. This is like being in New Zealand without the bad weather and fascist government, where nothing really happens. You are born/dumped into “this is all I know and will ever know,” and yeah, that’s okay – a mindless plank. And blessed are you, where you are shielded from the raw cruelty that is out there. Some say you might be cursed through your ignorance, where you will never know more than the nothing you already know, but who are we to judge.

We should have looked past the simulation that is us and all that is around us, and from there you shine this that you are – the raw state that is your Consciousness. Just as the spirit and body form were manufactured and manipulated, so too was Consciousness, so look past those deceptions/manipulations until all that is there is you, where you cannot be anything but this that you are, as this is from the Infinite. Whatever was manipulated to be controlled – all of that falls away as that is not you. You be you, and from there you bring forth what you are, where that state is drawn to you as that is a representation of you here in the illusion.

About thirty five years ago I stopped over for a few hours in Vienna as I was passing through. In one of the shop windows I saw a Seiko pilots-watch, and in that moment I knew that watch was me, where its frequency stood out and hit me in the face. But what I am talking about here is not going for the materialistic – I am talking about peeling away the layers of the illusion until all that is left is the Infinite, where that hits you in the face as that is you. What I talked about above regarding the different eras we have been through – you don’t peel away these different time periods because all that is, is a simulation programme that has been allowed to run and play out until no more energy can be sapped from that period.

Don’t be caught up in different eras throughout the illusion, rather peel away the density that is in front of you, or should I say within you, until there is no frequency left. As you peel away the layers of an onion, so too peel away the frequencies of the illusion.

 

How is this done? – It is done by what we described earlier on, where you that is Consciousness merely be’s. When this is done, you draw from the illusion to the spirit and body to uplift them, where now they are less dense, and so it goes until you need nothing as all that is left is the Infinite that is Home.

We all need money, but I assure you that money can’t buy a ticket to the Infinite. Only your Heart field within Consciousness can do that.

Go back to relying on nobody but you. You be this that you are, and from there draw to the spirit and body form that what will uplift them. This can be someone to Love, or being re-united with an eternal Animal friend.

 

Uplift the spirit and body form, and how this is done is by you that is Consciousness being you. In this state you play with the illusion and make it your own, and from there rise above it, as in peel away the layers until the illusion is no more.

 

If you listening to these words need this advice from Steven then there is something wrong. You need nobody but you. This we never knew as we were pulled into the simulation/illusion that we done our best to make our own. Money is just a currency. It is the power that money brings that is the true exilir. This drug of power we all crave because now I will be looked after, and more than anything, this is what we have craved and longed for. Now I can lay down my bag and rest because now I am in the arms of those that will look after me. This rest we all need because the game of survival has been a tough one, but this rest we will never find in the illusion. It can only be found in you that is Consciousness being what you are. This one lady who I know was hounded by these Evil Serpents. I told her to fill herself with the Love that she has for her Dachshund, and this will get her through. And it did. I saw how these Snakes could just look at her from a distance and could not enter her space as there was Love and nothing but Love therein.

 

Take that one further, where you fill you that is Consciousness with the Love that you are. You cannot be anything else but this, as this is real and the illusion is not. In this real/true state play with the illusion and make it your own so the body and spirit may be uplifted, but remember you are merely passing through. Buy that watch if you wish, or marry the one who makes your Heart sing with joy – just remember they are an illusion, and there nothing lasts forever because all that happens is eras come and go. In these periods there is always the victim, and that is you and me.

Do what you have never done before. Go within and find yourself, and from there be, where now like attracts like, which makes you less dense, which peels away the layers of the illusion, which takes you Home.  

[steven geldenhuys]

To heal you need two factors, well, actually three. You need to know what caused the disharmony; then you need to know its primary location, from where the secondary disharmonies spread out to; and thirdly you need to know of this “something bigger than us” the spirit and body form, which is the Consciousness that we are, because this is what heals.

 

This type of healing I have done for a good few years, but what I had few out there had, which was the understanding of the unseen realms. I felt and saw these fuckers the Serpents and how they infiltrated the spirits of those with the disease/disharmony they inflicted. This was the cause – one of the three critical factors needed to heal.

There is also a fourth factor, and sadly this factor that is essential to heal yourself and others is lacking in many out there. What this is, is the will/desire to be free of disharmony/disease, where you rise above the System/illusion to be free of its stranglehold. Some in the dense physical realm clock out prematurely – thanks, but no thanks, this place is not my cup of tea. To these they allow disease to put an end to the biological computer, and this I understand. What I don’t understand is the acceptance of “this is all I know” mentality out there, and yet I do also understand it as we have been trapped for so long in this illusionary bubble where the Beast ruled over us.

May there be an awakening to “I am more than this,” because as long as we have this poor little me mentality we are going nowhere.

 

Up till now, to heal yourself and others you needed an understanding of the unseen realms, where you walk into their home to understand the cruelty these in the Reptilian frequency inflict upon the seen and unseen. But even then, I have learnt through the devastating reality that understanding is no antidote to the cruelty out there, and this is so because you are in their home and thus play by their rules. There are no White Wizards here to chase away the Darkness because the Darkness/Evil is everywhere. You don’t see it, so you assume it isn’t there, but what you don’t know is it can show itself to you any time it wishes, and before you have finished your breakfast someone you Love more than Life itself is gone, as in killed by Evil.

So pack the White Hat in the cupboard and get the fuck out, because as beautiful as the illusion can be, it is not Home.

 

Okay, fair enough, but how do we get out?

Unfortunately you can rely on nobody but yourself, and besides, why would you want to put your faith in another. What I can say with certainty is one will never truly know another, and let’s be fair and say we all have faults, but the problem I have with this is how many are aware of their faults, and even then, how many wish to be better than what they are? I believe the reason for this is Life floors us, where we are pushed into a corner and have no options to get out. That is the reality of Life, which is an excuse, but also is not, because as fucked up as my Life is, I will never be cruel to another, because nothing gives us the right to let out our insecurities on another. Do unto others as you would have others do unto you. In other words, be kind, just as you would have others be kind to you to uplift you.

The other reality is don’t expect that kindness to come your way, as we are all caught up in our own confusion, so the only option you have is look after yourself. When you shine, by default this will touch others that enter your space who wish to be better than what Life has to offer.

 

As said, the one criteria needed to upstart your Life is to know the cause of the disharmony in your existence. This journal was written for the unseen/spirit realm, and from there we moved onto Consciousness. By healing this God-force within, that heals all around its orbit, where you hit the bulls-eye and win the Game because now the Game is yours to play with as long as the spirit and dense body form are around.

Yet to understand the Game you need to walk into the Reptilian/Hell frequency, look these Beasts in the eye, where I see you and know you, and that is not me.

Sounds brave, doesn’t it? A knight in shining armour riding on their stead to save the day. Not quite – you are a soft-cock with your soft-cock attitude, and all it needs is one slap from these Beasts to upset your cool “I’m in charge” hairdo, and there you are girl-oh – fucked up and lying on the floor dead, as in dead. What saved me was I became immune to their poison, where over the years of fighting and standing up to this Disharmony I was eventually taken to the edge. What saved me must have been the inherent understanding that Consciousness can never really die, and this spark; this strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness we call Consciousness can’t be blown out by an illusion.

 

The good news is by Consciousness knowing and being itself, this eliminates the one criteria to heal yourself and others. The cause of your Disharmony is no longer relevant because that cause cannot happen again. If you play fetch with your dog, where it chases an elastic ball and bites into it, the bitten/squashed ball hyperextends in the mouth and this expands the dogs jaw out of alignment. With the jaw being scew, this throws out the first vertebrae, and from there a domino effect ripples down the spine to the pelvis. So heal the primary, which is the jaw, and remove the cause, which is the tennis ball. To heal and not remove the cause means to heal nothing, but this changes when the God-force knows itself because no Disharmony can exist when this Sun shines as it should. By Consciousness knowing and being itself, the cause of Disharmony is irrelevant because disharmony cannot exist in the presence of Consciousness knowing itself.

 

So to heal yourself and your existence, as well as that of others, you need the will to be better than what you are, where you rise above the System, where what is real plays with an illusion. When you are what you are, all Disharmony fades away, and this brings forth an understanding of let’s walk to where we belong.

There is, however, another aspect that needs to be taken into account during this early stage of moving to where you belong, and that is for Consciousness to peel and move away the frequencies of the illusion to find the Happiness that is your spirit and dense body form. This has been purposefully hidden so that an element of peace may never be felt in the illusion. So Consciousness looks to see what is yours and where it has been hidden, and this it brings forth for the spirit and dense body form to acknowledge and be thankful for, where their feet are kept on the ground and they are in touch with and humbled by the beauty and abundance around them.

 

What we have looked for in the past is opportunities and an element of luck to find our happiness. By Consciousness knowing and being itself, rely on this to find peace for the spirit and dense body form. As long as this Sun shines on your existence, be thankful, and how this is done is by you the spirit and dense body form being a representative of this who you truly are. Be kind – first and foremost to yourself, where you are fulfilled and at peace within. Surrounded yourself with the kindness that you are, where in these you see yourself. And of course – always keep walking to the Home where you belong. This is everywhere – just peel away the layers of the illusion to see what is naturally there.

[steven geldenhuys]

To survive is the meaning of Life, where you live to see another day. Nobody really wants to die, so we do our best to fight in order to live. This fight is often a struggle, where Life throws us and we don’t know who we are, so the biggest fight is with ourselves. We become confused, where what we have become is rather off centre, and this becomes our fight, to shift back to where an element of peace may be met. How many win this fight, I would say next to none, where we fall into a loop of going round and round between lifetimes in the seen and unseen finding ourselves. This doesn’t work, and the reason for that is it is not meant to, where the more miserable and unhappy we are, which touches those around us and makes them unhappy, the more disharmonious energy we give off to feed Beasts in the unseen, as well as keep the illusion alive.

 

Survival is everything, but actually it is the despair that goes with survival that is the primary. There is no mercy here; the System couldn’t care if you live or die; all it wants is your fucked up, confused energy, and this it receives in bucket-loads all day every day.

 

What if I told you that survival is not our primary instinct, where this is just a by the by to what is within us the spirit, dense body form, Serpent soul and Consciousness.

The Steven Spielberg movie A.I.Artificial Intelligence highlighted this state within us that is us, and what this is, is to be Loved and taken care of by those who Love us. The movie revolves around an AI boy who wishes to be a real boy, because when he is a real boy and not a robot, then his real mom will Love him because he is real and not a robot. This boy travels to find the Blue Faerie because he believes she will turn him into a real boy, but the Blue Faerie was just a statue in a forgotten amusement park. Aliens eventually find this boy and give him his wish, but only for a few hours. Those few hours were enough for the robot, because in that moment he was a real boy and this means he could experience a mothers Love. That was all he ever wanted and needed, and that’s you and me through and through, where all we wish for is to be Loved by something bigger than us. “Something bigger than us” because that will look after us and care for us.

 

The will to be Loved and taken care of is you and me and all Life in the illusion. Consciousness is that something that will Love and care for those that orbit this Infinite Light, and that Consciousness is you and me. This Light needs to shine, as in become inflated and rise up to where it belongs, but that never happens, and the reason for this is our survival instinct buggers everything up.

 

You cannot just let go and be a happy faerie and bunny because the environment within which we find ourselves is not a compatible one. There isn’t much room here for fun and games because here work is important. Work and earn your keep to survive, and this isn’t Mickey Mouse stuff – it’s bloody difficult. But even there – that’s okay, because we don’t mind working hard to bear the fruits of our work. The eternal fuck up here is those in your proximity, where the confusion within others can make them cruel. So the work is easy – it’s the company you find yourself in that is the bastard, because now around you are cruel bastards, and this is what destroys you, because who can be a happy bunny around those that are downright nasty. It’s my right to say what I feel and know to be the truth, just as it is my rihgt to be nasty. Well, actually, it’s not. You are in a shared space called the illusion, so buckle up and learn some manners and how to be kind.

 

This never happened, so what Consciousness done was draw in upon itself. Now you don’t see me as I pass by because from hard experience I know that the likelihood of you being cruel is there. What you will get out of me is a false smile because I am not a happy bunny within because those that share my environment won’t allow that. Life has taught us that scratch a bit deeper to get to know someone, and what you get is confusion that is expressed as cruelty.

 

What all of that means is we don’t allow ourselves to be Loved and cared for because that balloon is quickly deflated by those that share our space who cant find it in themselves to be better than what they are.

What this means in simple English is that you are alone.

Are there those out there that care not only about themselves but also others? You bet there are! So the question you have to ask yourself is how does like attract like, where now you are in a shared space that uplifts you because those around you care like you do?

The answer to this question is you allow you that is Consciousness to rise above yourself. You have to let go to be, where this allows the bubble that you always have been to move to where it belongs. Now you depart the shared space you always lived in and move to where you may express this what you are, and there you find those that you are.

 

You cannot play it safe anymore; you have to let go to be what you are, and that lifts you up and takes you where you belong. Primarily you let go to know yourself in your might. When you see this that you are, you understand that this Love that you are cares and Love you more than anything, and this looks after you that is Consciousness. The happy bunny is happy because it cannot be anything else but what it is. To achieve this, stop playing it safe. Let go and you be you.

[RobinJ]

2 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

To survive is the meaning of Life, where you live to see another day. Nobody really wants to die, so we do our best to fight in order to live. This fight is often a struggle, where Life throws us and we don’t know who we are, so the biggest fight is with ourselves. We become confused, where what we have become is rather off centre, and this becomes our fight, to shift back to where an element of peace may be met. How many win this fight, I would say next to none, where we fall into a loop of going round and round between lifetimes in the seen and unseen finding ourselves. This doesn’t work, and the reason for that is it is not meant to, where the more miserable and unhappy we are, which touches those around us and makes them unhappy, the more disharmonious energy we give off to feed Beasts in the unseen, as well as keep the illusion alive.

 

Survival is everything, but actually it is the despair that goes with survival that is the primary. There is no mercy here; the System couldn’t care if you live or die; all it wants is your fucked up, confused energy, and this it receives in bucket-loads all day every day.

 

What if I told you that survival is not our primary instinct, where this is just a by the by to what is within us the spirit, dense body form, Serpent soul and Consciousness.

The Steven Spielberg movie A.I.Artificial Intelligence highlighted this state within us that is us, and what this is, is to be Loved and taken care of by those who Love us. The movie revolves around an AI boy who wishes to be a real boy, because when he is a real boy and not a robot, then his real mom will Love him because he is real and not a robot. This boy travels to find the Blue Faerie because he believes she will turn him into a real boy, but the Blue Faerie was just a statue in a forgotten amusement park. Aliens eventually find this boy and give him his wish, but only for a few hours. Those few hours were enough for the robot, because in that moment he was a real boy and this means he could experience a mothers Love. That was all he ever wanted and needed, and that’s you and me through and through, where all we wish for is to be Loved by something bigger than us. “Something bigger than us” because that will look after us and care for us.

 

The will to be Loved and taken care of is you and me and all Life in the illusion. Consciousness is that something that will Love and care for those that orbit this Infinite Light, and that Consciousness is you and me. This Light needs to shine, as in become inflated and rise up to where it belongs, but that never happens, and the reason for this is our survival instinct buggers everything up.

 

You cannot just let go and be a happy faerie and bunny because the environment within which we find ourselves is not a compatible one. There isn’t much room here for fun and games because here work is important. Work and earn your keep to survive, and this isn’t Mickey Mouse stuff – it’s bloody difficult. But even there – that’s okay, because we don’t mind working hard to bear the fruits of our work. The eternal fuck up here is those in your proximity, where the confusion within others can make them cruel. So the work is easy – it’s the company you find yourself in that is the bastard, because now around you are cruel bastards, and this is what destroys you, because who can be a happy bunny around those that are downright nasty. It’s my right to say what I feel and know to be the truth, just as it is my rihgt to be nasty. Well, actually, it’s not. You are in a shared space called the illusion, so buckle up and learn some manners and how to be kind.

 

This never happened, so what Consciousness done was draw in upon itself. Now you don’t see me as I pass by because from hard experience I know that the likelihood of you being cruel is there. What you will get out of me is a false smile because I am not a happy bunny within because those that share my environment won’t allow that. Life has taught us that scratch a bit deeper to get to know someone, and what you get is confusion that is expressed as cruelty.

 

What all of that means is we don’t allow ourselves to be Loved and cared for because that balloon is quickly deflated by those that share our space who cant find it in themselves to be better than what they are.

What this means in simple English is that you are alone.

Are there those out there that care not only about themselves but also others? You bet there are! So the question you have to ask yourself is how does like attract like, where now you are in a shared space that uplifts you because those around you care like you do?

The answer to this question is you allow you that is Consciousness to rise above yourself. You have to let go to be, where this allows the bubble that you always have been to move to where it belongs. Now you depart the shared space you always lived in and move to where you may express this what you are, and there you find those that you are.

 

You cannot play it safe anymore; you have to let go to be what you are, and that lifts you up and takes you where you belong. Primarily you let go to know yourself in your might. When you see this that you are, you understand that this Love that you are cares and Love you more than anything, and this looks after you that is Consciousness. The happy bunny is happy because it cannot be anything else but what it is. To achieve this, stop playing it safe. Let go and you be you.

Letting go is part of the answer. The others are  banning all fear and to surround yourself with like minded people who also understand this simple equation.

Finally we need to work towards removing as much of ourselves as possible from the beast system which controls us so we are not clinging to it in desperation.

[steven geldenhuys]

Our self-worth took a hammering. In the fields of Infinite Love you that is Consciousness are what you are – you cannot be anything but this, but here in the illusion the cookie crumbled in a different way, because here polarities were born. As has been said, there is no right and wrong, there are different time periods where the norms have different values. I used to have a belly-laugh at those who were vegetarians; now I fall apart when I pass a cattle truck on the road as it travels to the abbatoir to drop off its load. Those animals know exactly where they are going and what is awaiting them.

So we hopefully evolve with the times, where what we considered a done deal now appals us as we consider the Lives of those around us and not just ourselves.

But even here, what is important to consider is we know nothing. Our social mannerisms and dealings with those around us place us in awkward situations, where by default we are prone to make fools of ourselves. This is obviously not intentional, it is called being Human, where we are not rounded to see a situation for what it is and act accordingly.

When you do your best, such situations make you cringe with awkwardness, and this is where our self-worth takes the true knock, where we were wrong and should have known better, but at that moment we did not.

 

What you need to understand here is this state of making a fool of ourselves at the best of times hits us hard. What hits us even harder is those who make fools of themselves by using us as a cushion to poke their needles into. When a total stranger ploughs into you and you truly have done nothing wrong, in some cases it takes years or even never before we pull ourselves right.

What I believe, is when Life becomes too much for us, a part of us withdraws and fades away. Now you don’t want to get up in the morning, and when you do, there isn’t a great deal of you present as you go about the day surviving. We cannot cope, so chunks of us on a frequency level fall away until there is nothing left within us that we can attach a label to and say “this is me.” Here our self-worth becomes non-existent, and in a greater part of my Life I have drifted in this state, where I am not really there because there is nothing left inside of me to define a character called Steven.

 

You that is Consciousness has taken a hammering, and please don’t underestimate what we consider the value of our worth. Broken is not the word to describe this state; I would say “shell-shocked” is more appropriate, where you drift, not knowing who you are and where you belong.

How do we change all of this? By being aware of our situation, that is how. Lick your wounds and shake off the dust, and understand the beatings you endured were from being in a place where you don’t belong. Correct this by taking stock of the damage done to you, and from there rise up to where you belong. Know your worth, and please don’t use the illusion to gauge who and what you are. You are a child of the Infinite that has had it rough in a place where you don’t belong, so move to Home, and as you do so, be proud of your heritage, as in from where you come.

[steven geldenhuys]

(Apologies for any spelling or grammer errors below - I don't have the time to proof read.)

 

Let’s work on this spirit, dense body form, Serpent soul and Consciousness. Let’s see if Consciousness is okay, and if this is so, let’s see if a balance has been met in Health, Wealth and Happiness has been met in the other bodies that orbit this Light that is Consciousness.

 

When I go into the space of my Consciousness, what I feel is the “left ear” being swept clean. This is interesting as I have always felt that a Parasite frequency was housed there.

Consciousness then sweeps through the “left eye,” which represents the illusion, and then the left eye falls away, meaning any influence of the illusion on Consciousness is no more.

Now movement is felt in the Heart field of Consciousness. Then a force tries to enter through the “base of the left foot.” This force makes contact with the socket of the left eye, and here a new illusionary reality is constructed by this force. In the bottom arch of the left and right foot of Consciousness this force weaves a “magic” of sorts, where now Consciousness is one with the illusion it created.

(I would say what is happening here is a manifold was created for the illusion, so when the left eye/illusion returned to its socket, it was now embedded on this manifold, meaning now Consciousness can play with the illusionary reality in which the other bodies circumvent.)

Movement is once again felt in the Heart field of Consciousness. (Whenever the Heart field is felt, this is the force behind the actions of Consciousness, meaning everything is done with Purity, where from Love, Love is created and expressed. The manifold to enter the illusion and make it its own is not for control but as a means to express the Love that is Consciousness.)

Now it feels like a “sperm” floating to the front of the left ribcage. Within this area it feels like a web of sorts is spun. Something is born/created there. Within the left pelvic bone a presence is awakened. This presence spins itself around like a graceful cosmic whip. It touches the front of the throat, and the whole throat area caves in. This cosmic whip force now touches what was created within the front part of the left ribcage.

(Bear in mind that what we are describing is the transformation of Consciousness. What this is, we have to wait to find out.)

The “nuclear core” of Consciousness – the “lower left leg area” now comes alive. What was born in the left chest area moves to the lower left leg, and the “cosmic whip force” that arose from the “left pelvic bone” of Consciousness returns to its place therein.

 

What was just experienced was the healing of Consciousness. When it became lost unto itself; where Home was no longer a beacon, what happened was the “nuclear core” of Consciousness had to lead Consciousness rather than drive it. So this nuclear core took up a position within the “nose” of Consciousness to be its guide. This never worked, but what happened was this “nuclear core” had to be modified for its new role, but once it returned to its original position in the left lower leg of Consciousness, what was originally there was now no more due to the modification.

So what we wrote about in the above paragraph is Consciousness making/creating a new part to replace the manufactured one.

 

Why could the “nose” area of Consciousness, or should we say what was within this area – why could this not guide Consciousness? The answer was because Consciousness followed the Word that was placed within the “throat” area of Consciousness. What was this Word? “I am the truth, the light and the way. Follow me and you shall return home to your father.”

By thousands of years of experience where the rivers flowed with blood, we can safely say the Word was a bullshit deceptive trap. What this Word was, was the “I,” as in follow something – anything – as long as you perceive it to be bigger than you. This can be the school bully that is crueler than you; it can be your teacher; your father; or seargent in the army. Anybody. As long as you follow, that is the Word speaking. And of course the manual to this following was written in the holy books. Praise to this something that is bigger than me!

Am I being blasphemous? – You bet I am, because that pie in the sky or that runt in the schoolyard is not one to look up to. You that is Consciousness is born from the Infinite. You cannot be anything but what you are because you are real, and now you go and seek something bigger than you in an illusion? Doesn’t make sense, but what does here except that Love has been hidden from us, and this Love is the Consciousness that we really are.

 

This has been corrected/fixed now. It’s funny, because when I go to sleep over the last few nights I look with all my might through my Third Eye to see a glimmer of hope and help. I see nothing, so I look within the Consciousness that we are, and still there is nothing there. Now I know why this is so.

Is Consciousness now healed to be what it is? Has another layer of the onion been peeled away to reveal what we should be after the necessary repairs? Fuck knows. Time will tell.

2:58 PM 16 December, 2024.

 

(For now it doesn’t help looking to the other bodies that circumnavigate Consciousness because this dude/dudess needs to be what it is before that can happen.)

 

***

 

It’s about fifteen minutes after what was written above. When I go into the state of Consciousness now, what is felt is healing around the left shoulder. About three Serpent that were part of the furniture here departs this space. What is interesting is they come to hover over the left side of the “neck and head” of Consciousness, and from this place they take with them what is theirs. Something is pulled from within the left neck and head area of Consciousness, and what this is, is the blueprint identity card that defines each Consciousness within the illusion. Something within the Heart space is also pulled away, like a thin film that separates the Heart field from the Infinite deep within this area.

All of this I find unbelievable – this intricate plan to keep us away from our Home and Oneness with all. Each manufactured spirit and dense body form were assigned a Consciousness, where this is me, where I am not you or the Infinite but rather a biometric coded unit. That is me – this Consciousness child from the Infinite. Talk about a downgrade of note.

 

Those Serpents mentioned above were the guardians of our identity and the film that separated us from the Infinite.

Once again, what we have here is Consciousness doing damage control, where I know what I am and cannot be anything but what I am, so anything off centre that does not belong is brought to the fore and exposed.

3:33 PM 16/12/2024

 

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About seven minutes later from writing the above one checks on Consciousness, and what you find is an anti-clockwise rotation in the left eye. From the left eye this line goes under the left collar bone and pulls out what is hidden there. What is that? One could liken this hidden device to the remote control for the illusion, where this device controls what happens to you and me and everything else in the illusion. This is the Devil we cannot see, and what it does, is make sure the illusion spins “anti-clockwise,” which is symbolic of away from what should be. As hard as you try, you go nowhere, and now you know why: It’s because of this device that kept the illusion spinning in Disharmony, away from what should naturally be. Of course the target for this device was Consciousness. I wish to go there because I belong there, but that never happened, where we could not climb on the path Homeward bound.

 

This device, as well as its intent is seen and noted and is no more.

4:23 PM 16/12/2024.

 

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Why now? Why all of this now?

We came back yesterday from a two weeks holiday to a place we visited twenty five years ago. Over the last two weeks I experienced an environment where people care, and this blew me away because I never knew that existed. There I saw the norm, as in what Life should be, where a Lifestyle is met wherein you may be uplifted. That Lifestyle is something worth moving towards, and when I experienced it, Consciousness understood that we have been swimming in the wrong dam all along. Of course we knew this as Life was so unpleasant, but unless you have a place to move towards, why move because there is nowhere to move towards.

 

There is a natural cycle, where when you receive, you give. You give just as someone gave to you, and this has always been my insurance policy for dedicating eleven years of my Life on a full-time basis to this journal, where with me giving, the spirit realm will give back to me. I never gave to get – I gave so that Love may once again shine for all of us as it naturally should because in my books Life is not meant to be cruel. That’s not what I signed up for, where treat me with the respect I have for you and all in this shared space of the illusion. This was never going to happen from many out there, and I didn’t have the time or energy to be everyone’s Daddy, where I ask them to be considerate and not cruel. So I decided to find a way out, and this I done for all in the spirit realm, where what I wrote filtered to every corner of the unseen, and this happened because what I posted was from within the core of the illusion – this Reptilian frequency. This was the Darkest corner of this most unpleasant place, so post from here the frequency of this journal and it is available for everyone in the unseen.

So my hope is by helping those trapped in the unseen realms, they will help Steven, but hope is a most dangerous thing to have, so what drives Steven now is his will to heal Consciousness, and from here heal the Consciousness of those in the seen. (This understanding will eventually filter down from the unseen to the seen realms, but until that happens in full swing, I will be there for those that want help.) That’s called having a job, and that allows money to be earned to earn a living. Today is my wife’s birthday, and she took the tab on the breakfast we went out for to celebrate her day, because I don’t have money in my bank account to settle the bill.

That’s bad. 

Of course the holiday was also on her. I have no money and no money is coming in, so I have to push to heal Consciousness so that I may do the same to others in the seen that are dying from a terminal illness and it is not their time to go. Simply put: I need a job so that I can move to where I belong. So why now is from experiencing where I belong and finding the means to get there – that’s either from the unseen or from Steven healing the dying or both. I will take the batton by the hand because waiting for hope is never a good idea.

5:49 PM 16/12/24

 

***

 

When one goes into the space of Consciousness now, what is felt is a line drawn from the Heart field to the umbilicus, where it wraps around here a few times, and from there it enters the throat to move to the brain, where it enters and surounds this structure.

Another line wraps around an area below the left clavicle, and from there it goes up behind this clavicle to go behind the left eye. Then it touches the left side of the nose, to go across to touch the right side of the nose, to go behind the right eye, and from there it follows the path back from where it came to the area below the left clavicle.

 

What is that all about?

I feel the “brain” area of Consciousness being silenty moved away through the top of the “head” region. Then I feel this massive Serpent enter the “head” region of Consciousness. There is nothing for this Serpent to manipulate there, so it leaves. What happens here, is when Consciousness sees those that wish to manipulate it, it’s “brain” area is temporarily removed by this pulley mechanism. Remember that as long as you are in the illusion you are in their Game, so find a way where you cannot be manipulated as you move out and make your way Home in the seen and unseen.

The other line mentioned above that began below the left clavicle is there to be pulled to close the “eyes” of Consciousness. To what you may ask? Some say the eyes are the windows to the soul, but what they are to Consciousness is the place where the Serpents may see the happenings within Consciousness. This is now closed off, where the Life of Consciousness is for Consciousness to know and no other.

 

Remember that what is done in all that is written above is from the Heart space of Consciousness, and what this means is Disharmony cannot alter what has been done as it cannot enter where the Heart space touched.

6:14 PM 16/12/24

 

***

 

When one goes into the space of Consciousness now, what one feels is this push within the Heart space, where one searches for what should be there. Consciousness is searching for this gateway to the Infinite. Man oh Man, what did we feel in the past when I felt this opening to the Infinite that was deep in the Heart space? Obviously is was bullshit where a dead-end was met. So what is different now? When one goes deep beyond the Heart space of Consciousness now, you feel from the Heart space one line go out to the left shoulder, and another to the right one. These lines at the shoulders pull the Heart space forwards closer to the chest area, and then the Heart space is pulled to the right to make way for the Infinite to move past this Heart area. I said the Infinite, but I was wrong, because what I feel from the base of the spine is the Serpent soul within enter the Heart space, and from there it penetrates the Infinite and is gone. Now there is no longer a prisoner trapped within, and what this means, is Consciousness may focus further on itself, and most importantly, also on the spirit and dense body form.

7:13 PM 16^th December, 2024.

 

***

 

Now when one focuses on Consciousness, you feel a superficial line pass through the left shoulder. That is to destroy the “seat of satan” – this place within the spirit and dense body form where Evil spirits may attach and play with us from there.

Within the left pelvic area this “cosmic whip” once again comes alive, and there I feel how it closes the canal/cave within which the Serpent soul lived within the spirit. From there this “whip” returns to within the “left pelvic area” of Consciousness.

 

***

 

Now one feels the collapse of a line going from the left testes – in the male – all the way up to the left jaw, and from there to out and beyond the head. This line is broken up and becomes no more. Jokes aside, was this the toilet area of the Serpent soul within?

What one feels next is the unwinding of something within the left testes – no doubt the same is happening to the female equivalent to this hormonal area, but if not, this is for the males of the species. This chord that extends from the left testes upwards moves into the mouth, where it rotates in a circular movement, creating what feels like a whirlpool there. When this line is pulled in and becomes no more, I would say the Want within us ceases to exist. Whatever addiction we had, either mild or major, is no more. No we can no longer be betrayed as we no longer have an inherent dependency upon another.

7:36 PM 16/12/24

 

This morning when one goes into the presence of Consciousness, you feel a lower extension of the spine, as if one grows a tail. This extension doesn’t happen in us, where a pull back of this elongation happens for the length of our spine to remain as is.

There is a flowing movement within the “body” of everything moving downwards, and this feeling is calming and soothing. It feels as if everything comes together within the body and lower limbs, where Consciousness unfolds as it should.

Here’s the rub: Everything of that is abnormal; Consciousness was manipulated/modified to be like that. So what is its natural state, because where it is, everything was centered around disharmony/disease.

The coccyx folds away to the right side, and something comes from within the lower spine to once again make an extension in the spine. What is interesting, is this extension is not a structure but rather a “limb” of sorts that is searching for something. From side to side it sways in the lower buttock area, searching. A fluid of sorts leaves the base of the spine, and now the whole pelvic area begins to dismantle. It feels as if two sides were stuck together by a jel glue, and these sides eventually separate from each other. Now the whole socket of the left eye transforms, and remember that in the “left eye” is the goings of the illusion, where the illusion is plugged within Consciousness at this region.

The ball that is the illusion rolls down from the left eye orbit of Consciousness. Through the left eye Consciousness saw and interacted with the illusion. What was in the area of the left eye of Consciousness was something natural – it was not this illusionary ball that represented the all within the seen and unseen of the illusion. When they implanted this orbit into the left eye socket, that is when we became one with the illusion. An illusionary realm is within us, and to become compatible to this illusion, we that is Consciousness converted ourselves from what is real into an illusionary state.

 

How did we do this? A tube of sorts moves about in the left chest area. This living extension within Consciousness gets pushed/compressed deep into the “left chest” area, and a part of it falls down to the base of the spine, and this is the part that we felt earlier on as it searched.

The chest area of Consciousness now opens up, and from deep within comes forth the Infinite.This is what this line extension searched for in the depths of the lower buttocks, which is the link/connection of Consciousness to the Infinite. When we were plugged into the illusion at the area of the left eye socket, we had to be unplugged from our connection to the Infinite, where from what was real, as in the Infinite, we become one with an illusionary realm, and how this was done, was by unplugging from the Infinite. Energy flows to where your attention goes, and by staring at the illusion we soon become one with it, as in also an illusion.

 

This connection of Consciousness to the Infinite is restored as it should. Was this severence from the Infinite through deception?

We don’t grow a tail as the animals do because we don’t need one, and so too, when Consciousness was deceived to learn lessons through experiences to evolve to become better than what it is, this connection/tail to the Infinite fell away as it was now no longer necessary. Sure, I am connected to the Infinite, but before I can claim my spot there, lessons have to be learnt. I have to rise above myself because something is wrong with me and this I have to correct. Yip, what that was, was the Parasitic frequency of Want within you. what you should have done was acknowledge this frequency for what it was, which is something that is not a part of you, where you say that is not me, and from there you merely move on to be this Love that you are, where the Infinite courses through you like this grand, majestic river.

 

This happens now as it should.

 

Where was the Parasitic frequency within Consciousness? – It extended downwards from the left corner of the “mouth.” We give this frequency Love and make it our own, where now it is absorbed into the Infinite that we are.

7:34 AM 17^th December, 2024.

 

Are we all in the illusion not a Pinocchio, where more than anything we wish to be real? I would say this has been the greatest wish of us that is Consciousness – to be real, which means to once again be one with the Infinite that is our Home. May this wish now come true.

 

***

 

Now when one goes into the state of Consciousness, one feels a chord come out from the area of the umbilicus. This chord moves and searches, where it hands around the orbit of the left eye. And there it falls away with what was in the socket of the “left eye” of Consciousness. Movement is felt within the left lower leg, where what should not be within Consciousness flows out from there.

8:19 AM 17/12/24

 

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What happens now is the Reptilian frequency within Consciousness becomes no more. What this frequency was, was “more than anything, I have to have. I am no longer Home, so what drives me is the will to have so I may be comfortable in this home away from Home.” This frequency coursed through the illusion and Consciousness, but the more we had, the more confused we became as this Reptilian frequency never brought about a lasting peace. Those Monsters that I saw in the core of the illusion who were at peace and comfortable in their own skins, this was from an acceptance of go with the flow. Those rapids you are on are about to pass over a waterfall, but this is okay, because as I am destruction, I welcome my own destruction, where I am at peace with this.

So their peace was not so much an inner one, but rather a completeness/unity of their frequency with that of the Reptilian frequency. What is different here is the proximity of the definition of peace. For me, peace is a oneness with all around and within you. Monsters found their peace in the illusion. I find my peace being where I belong, and that is not in Hell but rather the Infinite, or let’s just say any place where others care and are kind. This kindness begins with you, where if you accept your destruction, where your disharmonious actions define you, then you are not being kind to you. Kindness is upliftment, not destruction.

So the peace of Monsters is knowing of and meeting their demise in the Nothingness of the Forgotten, where as the illusion forgets the Infinite, so too do these forget the Consciousness/Love that we all are. This is okay by them, and no doubt this stupidity filters into the illusion to touch all, where to be cruel and take is okay. If anything, we love it. Your mentor is some Monster in the core of the illusion. I have seen these lumps of wasted space – this to where you move to become, where the loop goes round and round until we forget the Consciousness that we are.

8:52 AM 17/12/24

 

How does all of this touch the spirit and dense body form?

When Consciousness is what it is, it sees the Parasite frequency that caused the floors to fall in on themselves, where we all sink deeper and deeper into the illusion. This Hell is all we came to know, and our attitude became if you can’t beat them, then join them. For this to happen, we needed to loosen up a bit – go with the flow and not be so uptight. Our mouth became loose and our fists fast, and we gravitated towards chaos and misery, and this Game we loved, where now you fight for survival. The savage was born, and we go through phases of bringing this beast to the fore, and then we return to eras of being acceptable and gracious.

I would say this Hunger Games Society will release the savage within the spirit and dense body form, which is a full expression of the Reptilian frequency of the illusion. I take you Life; I take your solitude; I take those whom you Love. The have nots won’t be happy with their limited status and rights, and this frustration they will release on their own – the fellow have nots.

This frequency that is already out there this Steven palpably feels, where now I write for my sanity. When what is out there touches me, it is like being shocked by a frequency you know will destroy you as that is what it is made of – pure, savage destruction that is applauded and loved by those who witness it and wish for more than anything to be a part of it.

 

If this is not the end of the road for this journal then it most certainly will be the end of the road for me. Another few weeks of writing about this shit is not going to happen. I push now to set Consciousness free, because if it is not, the reality that is going to hit you and me will be the absence of freedom which you always thought you had but never did. Now you will see what was never there, and with this absence of freedom we will be made to fight each other to the very end. The scary part here is this we will love. The brute. The savage. Now it’s a free for all. As for the haves, their loneliness and isolation from who they are will kill them, where all you have is a wasted space that falls in on itself. Those chocolate eclairs were great, but surely decadence is not the ultimate. It is not, and this realization will make this Society extinct, where we all drop into the Nothingness of the Forgotten. I have been to and seen this place within the illusion, so I know it exists. That won’t be the end of the road for me, rather I will become no more and drift into a space of no time.

9:22 AM 17/12/24

 

[steven geldenhuys]

I still feel the Fibonacci sequence represents the lost state of Consciousness. This state/frequency is seen on Consciousness running from the right corner of the “mouth” to the chin.

Up till now what is real in the illusion has been a pie in the sky for me – I know this is me, but what I don’t know is me. If the lost state of Consciousness is the Fibonacci sequence, then what is the true state of Consciousness, meaning how does the spirit and dense body form experience the presence of this that they circumnavigate?

When I go into the state of Consciousness to answer this question, what I first ask for is to experience this Fibonacci sequence. And there I feel it at its location. This frequency is not as pronounced as it has been in the past, and I would like to think that Consciousness healing and knowing itself has some role to play here.

Okay, fair enough, Consciousness may still not be where it belongs, but what I really wish to understand is what is the true expression of Consciousness, where “this is me, and I cannot be anything but this.”

How is this state expressed from Consciousness so that the spirit and dense body form, as well as the Serpent souls may know of this that is real within them?

 

In asking the question “allow me to feel an expression of what I am, where I cannot be anything else but this,” we ask this so that we may know ourselves, what I would say it is – and don’t quote me because I am not sure – that the innocence and joy of laughter is what we are. By laughter I don’t necessary imply having a good laugh. What I mean is seeing nothing but uplifting Joy in any and all situations. So don’t go around and laugh in peoples faces, because this is not what I am talking about. It is seeing the Joy/Laughter in another, where they are Joyous, and when you see this, that is an expression of the Consciousness that you are.

 

You are me, and I am you as we arose from the Infinite. What I see in you is me, and when I see the Joy inside of you, what I see is this expression of me that is me.

Fair enough, I can buy that, but what happens when I am alone? How do we express what we are then? What I feel when asking the question is a flame dancing around where my brain should be. The “sparks” released from this flame arose from the “nuclear core” of Consciousness located within its “left lower leg.” What is happening here is you light up for all to see – this is me, which is you. We talk about upliftment, but in its true sense upliftment is shining and being an expression of what you are, where in this state all around you may be and know what they are. When you are what you are there is no such thing as upliftment because there is nowhere to rise up to. You are what you are, and there is nothing else but this.

 

There is no need to make a joke to bring forth laughter from another to see the Consciousness that they and you are. Look for pure Joy, and if you don’t see it, ignite the Flame within them by knowing it should be there as this is what naturally is.

Over the last few nights I have learnt to isolate the area where thoughts should be, where instead of there being a stimulus/thought to get our attention, you see and feel a hollow vacuum space instead. I never knew it then, but that was the first step to Consciousness seeing and knowing itself. The second step is to ignite the Flame of Joy within that space in your head. Now you are what you are, and when those that orbit you note this Flame within them, that is Consciousness making its presence felt in the spirit and dense body form. Now they cannot but be this Joy that we are. Will it put a smile on their face, or will they express laughter? I would say it will bring forth a knowing that they cannot be anything else but what is real.    

9:34 PM 17/12/24

 

***

 

Went to bed with the Crown of Flames on and within my head, and as I lay there falling asleep, I began to hear heavy-metal music. The last time this happened was about thirty years ago when I sat on an aircraft going somewhere overseas. What happened then, and last night, was the unseen became the seen, but not in an image – rather a sound frequency. The one I heard on the plane was a thousand times worse than the one I heard last night. All you hear is this helter-skelter noise – it is horrific beyond, and it is non-stop, where this Chaos is bombarded upon us for our subconscious to pick up, and let’s just say this Dark noise frequency touches us with the intent of throwing our existence upside down, where nothing works as one because this noise makes everything scattered and erratic.

My guess over the years is this Noise is being intentionally played to us from the rings of Saturn, but that is only a guess. What I do well know is the origin of this helter-skelter Noise needs to be traced now, and when one understands and knows the machine that produces this Chaos that rains down on us, it may be removed from our existence.

 

There used to be a phenomena called culture, where you listen to others playing music, and what you hear lifts you up and makes your existence less dense. This has been replaced by loud music, where a gathering or event cannot be complete without a loud noise being played. I cringe when I see the participants, standing around and listening to noise. It is not so much what they play, but the fact that the volume has to be turned up where it is difficult to hear another speak.

That Chaos in the existence of those plastic, mixed up individuals is a replica of what is happening to them and all of us in the illusion in the unseen realms. That we match this Noise with our own tells me the gap between our reality and the Beasts and Chaos in the unseen is now merely a thin line, where the bridge between our reality and theirs is almost complete. We are ripe for the plucking, where we welcome these our brothers and sisters from the Reptilian frequency of the illusion. Like them, we are lost and confused and have no real desire to better ourselves. Unlike them, we do not know the consequences of doing what you want when you want because you can. Here you play with the Devil because you consider this cool to do so, but all you are is trash that is about to fry. The Devil has no friends and no loyalty chum – you are the scum they see you to be, and just like that you are gone. You need to stand up tall, push out your chest, and as you would shout out to your army sergeant, you must say over and over “I am a cruel motherfucker! It’s me for me and me alone, where I shaft everyone who crosses my path.” Being cool and hip and blasting the neighbourhood away with loud music while you get drunk and high is cheap. Rather beat your chest like the ape that you are to try and get some depth into you so that you may enter this most foul Reptilian frequency. And should you ever make the grade, you don’t know from one moment to the next when you will fall into the Nothingness of the Forgotten. Maybe you should have gone the soft-cock route, where you read poetry and look for the Beauty that is out there in abundance.

 

When one is consciously aware of wearing this Crown of Flames that is the representation of Consciousness, and you open yourself to understand this heavy-metal Noise we are bombarded with from the unseen realms, what happens is you pick up this frequency and from there trace it to its origin. What you need to understand is this Noise has become part and parcel of who we are, where it has been around for so long that we see it as the norm. So to trace this frequency we need to gently ease apart what we are, find this Noise frequency, and from there follow it to its source. By being aware of a situation it cannot be replicated or continued as that does not belong in the presence of Love. The only way this mess entered our space was through deception, and this we intend to correct now by understanding what has been hidden from us that kept us in a state of Chaos.

 

Fair enough, this frequency of helter-skelter Noise runs through us in the unseen, but how it got there was through an antennae embedded within us to pick up this frequency. Remember that we that are Consciousness is the big kahuna – target this puppy and all around it fall automatically into place. So on you and me that is Consciousness, what feels and looks like the two pincers of a scorpion, this plug/antennae of sorts they wrapped around and embedded into the “sacral bone” area of Consciousness. This piece of shit is removed as it has no place in the presence of Love that we are.

For interest sake, where was the other end of this connection plugged into, as in what was the source of this Noise/Disharmonious frequency? When you isolate this unit that was embedded within us, you understand that what should be flowing in all is a voice of reason, as in don’t be stupid, be fair and reasonable and kind and good. That is natural and common sense. This voice of reason that is us that resides in the “throat” area of Consciousness, this was pulled to one side from the throat, cut apart, intertwined – leaving some loose threads to merely hang, and this chaotic mixed bag was returned to the throat area of Consciousness, and this stereo they plugged into the base of the “spine” to emit the Chaos they just inflicted upon our natural voice of Reason.

 

So to unplug is not enough. Return the voice of Reason within Consciousness to what it naturally is, where Disharmony cannot exist in the presence of Love and understanding. Love is never enough – we need to understand the deception so it can be no more.

I see you, and you are not me, so be gone.

[steven geldenhuys]

(Part 2 of part 1 for 18/12/24)

 

To you that is Consciousness, and all those that orbit around you, the message is clear: In the past you have made mistakes, so the message is this: Stop making mistakes.

 

In a few weeks short of eleven years in the making, this is the first, where this journal becomes practical and touches Consciousness and all around it, including this dense body form called Steven.

In the past we made mistakes, and this we shrugged off and ignored, or we found a justifyable reason for our decisions and actions, but that is no more. With the Chaos that was projected into you being no more, now there is clarity, where you see what you have always done, and no amount of rationing can give you a reasonable explanation for your actions. In that moment you understand you have always made a mistake, and I would say a big part of this mistake was the Chaos that flowed through us, where common sense and consideration cannot exist in our Lives.

 

You have banged your head once too many, and now this is no longer possible as the voice of Reason is your natural ally.

[steven geldenhuys]

(Part 3 for 18/12/24)

 

What else is there that one needs to know to set us free from a Life of limitation that is the illusion? And this is for those like me who wish it so. It is not for me to judge or criticize others, as they have their Life to lead and I have mine, but it is my right to choose where I belong that is free from those that relish in turmoil. It is my right to move to where I belong, where I am free from slavery and despair. It was never my choice to live in a Hell – this I was deceived into doing. So now it is my choice to move past this place reserved for the cruel and the stupid, because that is not me. I am judging others? – I would say I am being honest and calling a spade a spade. I truly know nothing, yet that doesn’t give me the right to impose my will and beliefs onto another. I let them be because I don’t have time for a debate. Rather I focus all I am to move to a place where I belong and can call Home, where I live in harmony with all around me, just as they expect the same consideration from me. If somebody had found a way out of this dump I would have found them a long time ago, because what use is it to re-invent the wheel when this has already been created. The Egyptians came the closest to finding a way Home. One wonders what put a spanner in their works, where them and their knowledge in the unseen died a sudden death. My guess is power, where their egos flew too close to the sun and got burnt, but I don’t know. What I do know is I will find a way back Home, and if I don’t, the Infinite will bail me out, and I say this because I have done all I could, and now they can do their two cents worth. Of course the Ark will be filled with the innocent, because it is for them that I write. Their suffering at the hands of the cruel and weak is unacceptable, and one way or the other, this will stop.

 

While we are on the subject of the Infinite, why have they never touched you and me that is Consciousness? What mistake did we make that these the All could not ease our suffering and make us see the fools that we are? Why would we not take a helping hand and return to where we belong? Was it because our voice of Reason was manipulated and thus we could not think clearly? Did we end up liking it here and thus wanted to stay? – I don’t think so, as there are only so many beatings we can take until we say enough.

So what was it then? Why did the Infinite never intervene? Your answer can be that the Infinite did intervene, where messengers were sent to be the truth, the light and the way, and I would say you are right. The Evil Serpents and the spineless masses go the better of these Divine ones that penetrated the illusion, and I agree with this, but ask yourself why didn’t the Infinite then intervene and rescue the innocent from this Hell. If a soft-cock son or whoever else couldn’t get it right, then why didn’t the Infinite step in and usher the Conscious state of the Innocent away from this Death-camp and living nightmare? Are you telling me the Infinite is not capable of stepping into an illusion and making a wrong right? Oh, but there is free will Steven. The Infinite touches us here in the illusion through the colour Purple, and damn right you are, so what’s the problem Steven?

The problem is I am tired of surviving, and I wish to go Home. I know I can’t do it alone, yet I am alone, so I count on fixing Consciousness so this can beam up the spirit and dense body form to where they belong, which is a place that is free of Disharmony.

 

But now we are waffling to avoid the simple question of why is the Infinite not helping us now? Do we dig some more to see the Light to understand? We know about the Glow that the Infinite sent to make us remember who we are. We know how we that is Consciousness has been deceived, where we were caught in a time loop going nowhere. We know of our determination to go Home through lessons learnt, where this was all nonsense.

So what are we missing? Why is the Infinite not leading the charge Homewards bound? There is no deception that the Infinite cannot sweep away in a moment because that is an illusion. So what is going on?

 

What I feel is something that feels like a snail, where it lifts itself from within upwards in order to move forwards. So there is a picking up of everything within, which is a strain, only for this load to be plonked forwards, where now a step forwards has been attained. A force penetrates the “abdomen” of this snail, and this force is pure, clean and concise as it moves/penetrates the lining of this “snail.”

This force/the Infinite enters the snail/illusion in its entirety, where now the Infinite is within this place. This is no big deal as the Infinite is no big deal – it is what it is and cannot be anything but this, so no fireworks here, just a state of Infinite Love, Peace and Bliss.

The Infinite makes its presence felt here in the illusion, and there I feel and see how the illusion fades away to reveal the Infinite that is everywhere. It’s like wiping off a picture drawn with chalk in the classrooms writing board, where the chalk is wiped away to leave only the board. And as soon as the picture is wiped away, just as fast does it return, where now the illusion that was almost not there is once again present in its full might.

 

That I find remarkable, but even more so than that, is when the illusion returned to its might, the Infinite within the illusion took a hammering of note. I say this because I feel the Infinite within the illusion shell-shocked, as in dazed and stunned by what had just happened to it, and what that must have been, must have been a blow of sorts. I know, that doesn’t make sense, because how can an illusion knock out the Infinite? What happened as Innocence wiped away this place that was not meant to be?

 

As the Infinite was making its presence felt, and in that process was wiping away the illusion, it feels like the Infinite was skinned alive, where I feel this peeling away of the “surface” of the Infinite. Whatever happened there stunned the Infinite and floored it. So what did happen, with the same question being asked – how can an illusion floor the Infinite?

I feel and see the “Light” of the Infinite shining and making its presence felt in the illusion, and then it dips under a surface, as if suddenly caught in a trap. Something then “rewires” its bearings and location, where the Infinite is stunned and momentarily forgets itself. Remember, this is happening whilst the Infinite is in the illusion and setting this place free from itself.

Okay, the Infinite was stunned into unconsciousness, and this make it fall in the density of the illusion. There was nothing to control this fall as the Infinite was stunned, and the peeling away of the “skin” I felt on the Infinite was from it being burnt in this dense place. The Lights were out, so there was no protection from this place that should not exist, and I would say the Want of the Evil Serpents transformed the frequency of the illusion to a poison that is unknown to the Infinite. What happened to Sophia happened to the state of the Infinite that came to wipe this most foul place away.

 

Okay, but what the hell stunned the Infinite to momentarily floor it?

I feel this massive presence move and come alive in the left eye. This penetrates the Infinite deep within the Heart space of the illusion, and there it builds its trap, which can only be likened to the electrical impulses of a creature that lives in the waters, where their sting stuns and knocks you out. Pain is now felt in the left kidney, which represents our energy storage area, and then I feel the left kidney fade away to become no more. Jesus, this state that is the might of the Infinite becomes no more, where it a win by knockout and death, where an illusion destroyed a presence/state of the Infinite that came here to help the Innocent by making this Hell no more.

 

Who would have thought that such an event could ever happen? For fucks sakes, what did happen? Sure, we have answered the question of why doesn’t the Infinite ever intervene to help us here in the illusion – because it cannot; because it is knocked out and destroyed by an illusion.

 

I see you, and you are not me, so be gone.

 

 

Come on! What is going on here? How can an illusion destroy the Infinite when the Infinite enters the space of the illusion?

To answer that question, one needs to know what hit and destroyed the Infinite.

 

Go back to that presence that moved and came alive within the left eye/the illusion. What was that? You and I may call it a force of Hate, or just plain nastiness, which is unknown to the Infinite, but it is something more than that. It is a "I don’t like you and don’t want to know you."

How can you Love something that does not want to know your Love? How can you Love something that chooses not to know Love? You cannot, and this that is this presence knocks you out and destroys you.

 

I raised my children to have good Hearts, where they may be Good people. In my eldest daughter there is a good Heart, and yet with each passing day I see less and less Love therein. It is not that she is cruel; she is just absent of Love, which will no doubt lead to callous cruelty. How many of these that I never knew could exist are out there? What I do know is this lack of Love stuns those who wish to be nothing but Love. Ask yourself why would another not Love, where they would rather choose to be indifferent and aloof? Is it from free will? – I don’t think so. They merely embraced this existence of no Love and are comfortable in their skin being what they are.

So what do you do? – You get the fuck out of their space because that is not you, and you don’t return because you are not welcome.

 

What stirred within the illusion that came forth to take the Infinite out when it entered the illusion? The answer is this weapon is the complete opposite to what the Infinite is, which is an absence of Love.

 

My wife is with me to support me while I spend this Lifetime writing a bloody fucking journal, and no doubt my eldest daughter entered my space here so that I may know what it feels like when one you Love has no interest in your Love because they choose to be absent of Love. These individuals can be wonderful beings, but I would say lack a Heart field because that gig is not them. Why is this so? Only they can answer that question, but what I can tell you is this lack of Love when you are Love does kill you. You cannot stay, lest you die, which that state of the Infinite that entered the illusion did. In these that lack Love they choose to be selective, where I like you more than I like someone else, and this liking they believe is Love but it is not.

So ask me again: Why would these Monsters choose not to Love? The answer is because they have forgotten what Love is. If they knew, they would embrace this that they are, but they don’t, and why this is so, is because of sheer, raw stupidity of not making the effort to find out. I have no interest in this that you show me, so fuck off you that mean nothing to me that are nothing.

 

Now do you understand why the Infinite cannot breach the illusion – because the lack of Love that eminates from this place takes it out as this is the complete opposite to what the Infinite is.

 

So what you do, is you no longer resonate to these that lack Love so that the Infinite may touch you and carry you Home. Go into the space of these that manipulated us that is Consciousness, where we were eventually modified in their image, which is one that lacks Love. Understand that you and I are Love as this is what we choose to be, but our image through deception is one that reads lack/absence of Love.

What is this image so that it may fall away and the Infinite may touch us that is Consciousness?

 

Something wraps around the inside of my left forearm, where now its presence is felt like a coil within this area. And that is the image of you that is Love/the Infinite to fuck off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Through deception they shall rule, and they did. The argument of Evil was the truth is there for all to see. If you so desire your freedom, then nothing stops you from finding it.

And they were right. We liked it here and became lost unto ourselves. The deception was there, but so was the pleasures, and we allowed these pleasures to hide the deception. Sure, Life is tough, but for fucks sakes, it can also be a blast. That is the talk of the tosser and not the Wise, because those pleasures faded as soon as they began. Nothing lasts forever here, and before we knew it, we stood with our fingers up our arses not knowing what to do with ourselves.

 

Remove that coil from the “left forearm” of you that is Consciousness. That coil was embedded within you through deceit, and its message was "herein lies an absence of Love." That is not you, so turf this that is not you.

 

May you shine the Infinite Love that you are, and it is too this that the Infinite shall return to take us Home.   

 

[steven geldenhuys]

When this coiled tag was removed from the “left forearm” of Consciousness that represented a lack of Love, what I saw happen in the unseen was a black, round object falling onto a flat roof, and as it hit the roof it bounced about a metre from the surface, only to once again land on the roof.

It was a comical scene, and my first impression in seeing it was that Santa Clause had just landed in our existence. The object that landed looked like a flat, round cargo net, yet this object was very much alive in that it fulfilled a purpose in our existence. What is that?

 

What makes sense, is to find this “objects” location within Consciousness, so we see to where it naturally resonates towards. A mild pain develops to a severe pain in the area of the “left kidney.” This is the area that died within the presence of the Infinite as it was attacked in the illusion, so no doubt this implanted lack of Love state within Consciousness had the same effect on us, and that is why we have been going nowhere – because we never had the energy to do so.

So what is this black, rounded state that has returned to Consciousness through the removal of the coiled presence in our left forearm? One could call it our Life storage system – a place where our energy is stored so that we may function; where we may be the Love that we are, which creates a oneness with the fields of Infinite Love.

 

From this returned “left kidney” area, which has been absent from Consciousness for a long, long time, what happens is our “hard-drive” area in the “brain” needs to be awakened to this new found part of us. What is interesting to note here, is what did this implanted coil create/form in the “brain” area of Consciousness? To answer this question, an area above and behind the left socket for the eye comes alive, which programmed us to give and receive a lack of Love, as in Disharmony, always making sure there is Chaos in our existence. This unnatural presence within the “brain” of Consciousness became the basis for all dis-ease within us, and I say this because in awakening this structure in the left side of the brain, the left pelvic area comes alive, and this became our breeding and storage cabinet for the dis-ease that would filter through our forms, especially those that came to orbit us that is Consciousness.

I stress that this tumulous chain of events began with the lack of Love coil that was implanted into us through deception, which never allowed the Infinite to touch us. This coil became the transmitter, and it formed a regulator device in the “brain” of Consciousness that plugged us into this place where nothing grows and takes off as it should. Here those that Consciousness/God Loves dies young because in this place there is no playgroung for them to play in. It’s a fucking dump filled with heartache and misery, run by fools and inhabited by the savage that loves the pleasures of the cock and what alcohol and drugs does to us.

 

Do you want to blame the Devil for this – the Evil Serpents? Think twice before you do, because in this Hell we all had the opportunity to create and build a Home where Love may be met and expressed. For this to happen, each and every one of us had to come to the party to do their bit to be kind and considerate. I am watching your back and you mine, not because I want to or feel oblidged to help – I do it because this is who and what I am, where I care just because I can.

That never happened because so many of us refused to grow up and take responsibility for themselves, where if you are not Love, then do the next best thing which is care because we are all in this mess together. In such times adults were needed, but this never happened. We remained babies, looking for others to care for us, and if this did not happen to our liking, we threw a tantrum. I don’t like you. Fuck off you cunt.

How many times have I been called that word and sworn in such a way when all I asked was for others to be considerate to me and my family.

 

I am tired of the savage – the brute. I am tired of those who only know how to point fingers at others, never foremost looking at the mess that they are. We are a despicable bunch, and if anything, we are so lost we cannot even find our Happiness.

Now you want to blame the Evil Serpents and their Game of deception? Think again. Look at yourself. It began with you and me. Yes, we done our best, and that was never good enough, but the truth of the matter is we were outplayed, and how this was done, is Evil is a coward, where it comes in the darkness of the night and you are no wiser to what had just infiltrated you to destroy you.

We could have tried harder, but we never had a fighting chance, and that is because we now began to turn on our own. I hate you, so I unleash my bitterness and aggression onto you, and why I do this, is because this is all I know – the way of the savage. Our only usefullness has been emitters of Disharmonious energy, and this we done beautifully.

 

So blame the Devil because they played dirty, where we never saw them coming, but also look to ourselves, where we chose the easy way, where we mimicked the Devil and took no accountability for ourselves.

 

With the “left kidney” of Consciousness restored as it should, the “right side of the brain” comes alive, and what this means, is we have the “energy” to reach beyond the stars and once again be one with the Infinite that is Home.

 

Now is this journal over? If I was a betting man, I wouldn’t bet on that, because that would be too good to be true.

May this journal rewrite the stars, where we return to what naturally is.

 

[steven geldenhuys]

When I go into the space of Consciousness, what changes, if any, are there now that wasn’t there yesterday?

There is a line between the Heart field and the head.

The Flame that was felt in the head region is now fuller and complete.

The “left kidney” is healing and coming to the party.

The doorway to the Infinite is open and for all to see, as in “in your face” see.

All dis-ease within the “left pelvis” is being washed away until there is none left.

The “right lower leg and ankle” of Consciousness is spinning and rotating as it finds its synchronicity with the bodies that orbit it. When this is met, I believe the unison will create a mini spark, which will blacken the nail area of the right big toe.

The “left and right brain” are being pulled together and becoming one unit, symbolizing as well as representing the Oneness of Consciousness with the All.

Movement and pain is felt deep in the “right buttock area” This is the scars being removed from Disharmonious experiences, where what touched us stayed with us and couldn’t be shaken off, where the experiences had a lasting impression upon us. All this nonsense is being cleared from our space, and believe you me, there was a lot!

On the left side of the “right ankle” it feels as if something is being cleared from there, as if something needs to be stripped away from this area. In tangent with this, the “nuclear machine” in the “left lower leg” of Consiousness comes alive. Now there extends a wave from this left area to the right ankle. Wow, as something is peeled away from the “right ankle” through the assistance of the “engine” of Consciousness, pain is once again felt on the left side of the right ankle. Is this peeling away of a bandage of sorts to support an injured area, or was something in the right ankle hidden there until this that is currently being peeled away may expose it? – The answer was to “strap a wound,” and I say this because what is exposed is a lower limb separate from the ankle. Was this injury on purpose to break all ties between Consciousness and those that orbit it? I would say so, but am open to being wrong. I feel this area heal, and this is a biggie, where this Light may now shine for all. This means that Consciousness may clean up shop for all those that orbit around it, and besides them, it may clean up the illusion and the damage done there. There is a new boss in town, and its name is Infinite Love that is Consciousness.

 

To heal the spirit, dense body form or the Serpent soul doesn’t mean much unless Consciousness is what it naturally is. Fix this puppy and everything unfolds as it naturally should, and what that means, is we are all moving Homeward bound. Once again, I don’t say things for the sake of them sounding great but actually mean nothing. On all levels, we are not where we belong as a result of deception. I never have and never will accept the chaos and loss of freedom to all as something that is okay, where shit happens, but it’s okay.

That is not okay for me, so to move where we naturally belong is not something I write about lightly, because every ounce of me calls out for all of us to be what we are and where we belong. When we are there then it’s a done deal which will remain forever more, but until that happens I will not rest until freedom is met for all. There is no discrimination here, where the book is open for all. As has been said so many times, we have all fucked up at some time in our existence. I have not seen anything through my Third Eye for some time now, but the other night as I closed my eyes to fall asleep, I saw this lady come forth from the Reptilian frequency of the illusion. She had black hair that was in a bob-style, but her most notable feature was the resignation written all over her of “I have had enough.” I extended my hand to touch her and pass on Love. There was no sitting down to have a pep-talk over who and what she had allowed herself to become. All she needs to know is that she is Love – she is me and I am her, where that is enough said.

As Consciousness heals and draws those in that orbit it, so too there has to be a coming together in mass where there is an understanding that we stand together as one. Put aside your belief systems as we are all entitled to our opinions, but when the shit hits the fan this emotional hysteria means nothing to nobody. All we need is an “I see you and know you, and you are not alone.” That’s Love, and that crosses all barriers and dimensions.

 

The days of thinking and talking nonsense, as in Disharmony, have to come to an end. Don’t assume the worst, but rather the best in others. Give them the benefit of the doubt, because just like you they may be doing their best. It might not be good enough now, but like you they will get there. When you change your world changes, so always do your part and be kind.  

 

[steven geldenhuys]

(Have not proof read. Apologies for incorrect grammer and spelling.)

 

With an illusion in chaos, and this is how it is meant to be, ask yourself what will swing everything around where Innocence may play as they walk Home? The answer is to follow the leader/Consciousness because this knows and everything else doesn’t really have a clue. In other words, you that is Consciousness, you be what you naturally are, and from there everything else swings into motion as it naturally should. At last there is a leader that has common sense and only wants the best for us, where this leader outlines the path for those that orbit around it so they too may know peace and happiness.

The catch is this leader has been deceived, where it found itself in a corner and couldn’t get out. That is why those that orbited around it, as in the spirit, dense body form and the Serpent soul could never get a take on Life and make it their own. Evil played those in the illusion because they had Consciousness in the bag, and with this trump card in their deck it was easy riding to total destruction for all, including those that ruled from the shadows.

This deceit has been sorted, and if not, we will carry on chipping away until all deception has been removed from Consciousness. For now we can assume this deceit is no longer there, but what is well known to be there is a damaged state of Consciousness. This I never knew, that Consciousness took a hammering to the point where it needs help, as in healing. This healing is autonomous as Consciousness is plugged into the Infinite, and I can only assume that what we have here is Tom or Ethel that are seriously fucked up and everyone recommends they see a therapist, but for this dynamic duo they see themselves as okay.

 

Consciousness has no idea of the damage done to it by Evil grabbing onto their balls and squeezing hard, but really hard. There is damage on all fronts and this needs to be addressed.

If you are okay, then you are okay, and there you go – have fun along the way. But until you are okay, you need help, and it is here that this problem needs to be addressed of the battered and bruised state of Consciousness. When you shine and are what you are, everything fall into place for yourself and those around you. The trick is to get there, as in being okay.

 

Over the ages we have done our best to heal the dense body form. Little has been done for the spirit, and I would say nothing for Consciousness – this God-force within. So for everything to change, we need to change our approach: Heal Consciousness, and those that orbit around this Sun are healed.

So what you do is go into the stillness of the silence – what some would call a silent contemplation. The representation of You is this Crown of Flames, so be aware of its existence by knowing it is there. Now you are present unto yourself, as in this is me, but what you don’t know is the level of abuse you have endured by not being Home where you belong, as well as being around company that takes pleasure from taking pot-shots at you.

How you know this healing is complete is when you feel your Heart field shine. Now you are you, and this shining that you are levitates you to where you naturally belong, and with this, you pull those around which you orbit. What is important to note, is like is pulled to like, and what this means, is what always was is now swung around to what should be. Nothing worked in the past, as in Life was a struggle. This is unnatural and not meant to be in the presence of Love.

 

But here we are jumping the gun. First heal, and you will know this is complete is when you feel a shining sensation from the Heart field. This is not some Wow event – it is natural as this is who you are. This shining from the Heart field remains where the sensation is no longer felt as it is now naturally always there.

 

***

 

Ikigai is a concept that encourages people to discover what truly matters to them and to live a life filled with purpose and joy. To know your fulfillment, the following four criteria need to be understood: What do you love, as in what is your passion; What are you good at; Does the world need this; and lastly, Can you get paid for it.

 

The greatest danger in Life is to assume something, where you assume what others said meant this, but actually it was the complete opposite to what you surmised. Or you see another doing something, not knowing the background to their actions, or not seeing the big picture that they understand and you don’t.

My assumption has always been that Consciousness wishes to go Home to the Infinite, and I assumed this because who wouldn’t wish to be where they belong, especially if they find themselves in a living Hell? My assumption was always get out, as in return to Home so that you may be, because this is what is best for you.

But what if I was wrong, where I played this deadly game of just assuming this is what Consciousness wishes? Did I ever ask Consciousness what is its Ikigai – what truly matters to you? – No, I did not, so now is as good a time as ever to ask that question.

 

When you go into the stillness of the silence to answer the above question, what you feel is a soft flow circle the left eye, where this soft flow surrounds and lifts up the left eye, as in the illusion. The left eye is soothed and embraced and Loved, where now it is in the loving arms of this All that is. Here you are okay and always will be okay because this is all there is – no polarities, just a Oneness of Love and nothing but Love.

You feel how this left eye, this most precious cargo is carried to where it belongs, and there it flows to the Heart field, and this Heart field breaks away like an independent vessel, from where a perfect circle forms, and there this Infinite sky moves down and covers this circle. Now you are within the Infinite, where you are slowly and gently absorbed into this All that is and become one with it.

 

That is what I always assumed was the Ikigai of this lost state of Consciousness, where it discovers what truly matters to it, where it is no longer lost and afraid, but rather amongst its own where it belongs. Was I correct in assuming this?

 

What one feels now is this force moving within the head, and there you feel the “motor” of Consciousness come alive in the “lower left leg.” The “right lower leg” also comes alive, as in awakened, and there this force moves down the “lower right leg” of Consciousness beyond what it has known for a long time. It is here that the Ikigai of Consciousness sits; it is here that it seek what truly matters to it. What is that?

Like a stick shoved within a pool of water, the lower left leg extends into this place, where Consciousness  searches for what matters to it. Understand that this is everything to Consciousness. The only way to understand what this is, is when Consciousness finds this that truly matters to it.

I find this fascinating that the Heart field or the Infinite does not even feature here – there is something else that goes even beyond these states that can be defined as the Ikigai of Consciousness – this that matters the most to it.

 

And there it still looks and seeks, with its “right leg” embedded within this pool of something I don’t what it is, and here I cannot assume this pool is the Infinite.

What your Consciousness seeks that truly matters to it is its voice, as in identity. It has been lost, as well as on a mission that is bigger than it, which has been to play teacher to the spirit and dense body form. Learn you bastards because I can only play teacher for so long. What we never knew was the problem was with us, where we were dumbed down, as well as made to look there, as in an illusion, where everything we needed was in the Infinite within.

 

I would like to be me. Just me. For me. This is the Ikigai of Consciousness.

What did it then seek, where it stood in this pool to find something within there that is itself? What it seeked was its “voice;” its I. What we are talking about here, is Consciousness lost its identity. What this identity is, is where it knows itself. How can it go Home when it doesn’t know itself? How can Consciousness have fun and be joyous when it doesn’t know itself. That is the eternal dilemma of being lost, and in this lost state being selfless, where it is for you, because I cannot be happy unless you are happy. In serving others you lose your identity, as in this is me, and I cannot be anything else but me. For this to happen, you need time alone with yourself for yourself, and I would say this state of “this is me for me” is something Consciousness has not achieved for a long time. The bugger up here is the “this is me” part is not there yet, and more than anything, this is what matters the most to Consciousness at this moment. Sure, it wants to go Home – who wouldn’t, but its Ikigai is to reclaim its state of this is me.

 

What did Consciousness look for, where it placed its “lower right leg” into this pool that extends beyond itself? I feel this circular motion around the “right big toe” of Consciousness, and there the rest of Consciousness breaks free of this “toe.” This was its freedom, what it desired the most – to break free of all its responsibilities to those around it so that there may be “me time to get to know me.”

So Consciousness never so much looked for something in this pool, rather it set itself free from the burden of always having to look after another, as in the spirit and all those in the illusion.

 

What one would call this, is growing up, where how can I help you if I do not know myself? I cannot, but I done my best anyway, yet sadly this never worked, because while I was looking at you to help you, I was unknowingly being shafted by the cruel that entered my space through deception and done with me as they please.

 

I need me to be with me, where it is just me with me. I need to take responsibility for myself, and how this is done is by knowing and being itself.

This is the current state of Consciousness, where it finds and be’s its Ikigai. What truly matters to me is for me to be me. Only from there can I shine Steven.

 

Damn right you are. Have fun my friend.

 

[steven geldenhuys]

"Like a stick shoved within a pool of water, the lower left leg extends............."

 

That is incorrect: It should be lower right leg.

[steven geldenhuys]

There was a time when you stood in the line and lent forwards to see what was happening at the furtherest point from where you stood. There you saw the rot infiltrate the line, and what you saw was the sturdy and strong becoming weak and poor of Heart, where the oak cracks and falls. As one is infected, so too is the one next to it, and on it goes as the line become shorter and shorter between you and those that fall.

What should naturally happen, is the “trees” build up an immunity to this rot that is most foul, so when the rot hits them, this decay and filth cannot touch them. The buck stops there, where the solid oak can once again be itself, and it cannot fall to the rot that took over so many of its own.

 

The rot and filth was the infiltration of Consciousness by those who deceived and betrayed it. It was this mindset of take and destroy that infiltrated the oaks. There were many that said this is not me, and besides, that does not make sense, because why destroy and fall when you would rather uplift?

The issue was not knowing ourselves, where we became lost. In looking for our happiness, in many it was found in the mindless mindset, where you don’t consider the consequences of not taking responsibility for your welfare. What we never understood was all it took for the rot to permeate and enter us was our willingness to lose our self-respect. Now I don’t care about myself, so I sure as hell don’t care about you or anything else for that matter. The question here is why? Why would we do that to ourselves? Why would we not stand up for our dignity and self-respect, because in truth this is all we have. When you lose your self-respect you have nothing and will never amount to anything because the one being that could look after you, which is you, is no longer there. I don’t care about myself so I walk away from myself to become loose and have some fun. Now this fun had to have an edge to it, because more than anything this fun had to have one criteria, which was take me over the edge so that I may never find myself, because if I do, I will be shameful for abandoning this me.

 

Now the jokes bring out a nervous, plastic laughter. Now the fun becomes an excess, so that I may forget this betrayal of myself from myself. Now the music has to be loud so I don’t have to think and consider where I am and what the hell am I doing here.

The “poor” are noisy because they need this noise to block out any self-reflection of themselves. Now the chaos without feeds the chaos within, and this chaos I call this rot that infiltrates us and makes us fall.

 

Why I write this now is because that end of the line is right next to you and me – it is not somewhere far off that will maybe touch us in the decades to come. A temporary buffer to this rot in the past was money, where this shields you from the edge out there, but now money is the cause of this rot, where there is this scramble for money as it becomes worthless and harder to attain. Take away this concept of money to understand that values and consideration no longer exist, and this is what is standing right next to you. Of course you won’t succumb to this nonsense, because the sight of it confirms now disgusting this rot is in those that abandoned themselves a long time ago. So go back to the original question: Why did we walk away from our good Hearts; from our connection to the Infinite?

 

We have answered this question by understanding that we that is Consciousness were deceived. We were deceived to believe that suffering is part and parcel of learning, where the suffering is a means to an end. Look at the big picture, where that suffering leads you Home to the Divine and the Infinite.

 

If that is not absolute bullshit, then I don’t know what is. You are a child of the Infinite, and who you are and where you come from does not have suffering as an option.

The issue at hand is one half of Consciousness remained what it always is and will be, while the other half became infiltrated by Evil. This is the origin of polarities – of ying and yang. One half of us is rotten, and what we have failed to understand, is us in the line have always been rotten. It is only when we bring this rot forth in our actions that it is there for all to see except us, but as said, what we never knew was this rot is part and parcel of who we are – it is the other side of us we fail to acknowledge that the fall in society brings out, where now you kill or be killed. Now the joy of killing animals to feast of them is replaced by killing your own before they kill you. The annihilation of societal norms and values brings forth this rot that has always been there.

 

So why? Why did Consciousness drop its guard and lose its self-respect, because what this done was place it in the killing fields of the savage, where when the hour arrives, blood will flow and chaos will be all around you and no longer at the end of the line. Unless we answer that question we are going nowhere. There is more to our loser status than deception by Evil, of that I have no doubt.

 

Go back when Consciousness was in a state of being – that period before the Want of the Parasite infiltrated Consciousness.  This was when Consciousness was one with itself, where I see and Love you, but I don’t need you because you are me and I am you. There is nothing to need or want because the Infinite is the Infinite.

Then I see the Want frequency within the Garden of Semiramis permeate us, and the most pertinent effect of this upon us was our “sight,” where we saw what we had, and now that which others had, and this created a division of “this is mine and that is yours” within Consciousness. Now our “world/imagination” was capped in what we can and cannot have. If you have it, then I cannot have it as you already have it. This narrowed our “world” within the Garden, where we created the ceilings and walls of can and cannot have.

From playing in a Beautiful illusionary Garden surrounded by the Infinite, we jumped into a box of limitations, and this we understand, but it has not answered our question of how did we let go and lose our dignity and pride?

 

What made us clever and “smart” was that we soon accumulated that what we Wanted, but this came at a price, where we began to lose our core energy as what we accumulated was an unnatural act because what we had was an illusion – it was not real, so who gives a toss if you have it or not?

We did, because the Want frequency of the Parasite created a mild frenzy within. You feel safer and more at ease when you attain what you want, but what we never understood was this Want should not be within us – that is not us.

 

What soon happened was we began to “lose” it, in the sense that we needed help. We were not well, where fatigue always set in and everything became a strain. In this weakened state Consciousness had to do something, or should I say “something had to break.”

I feel a line being drawn in my left pelvic region, where this line follows a set pattern, as if it is outlining something. This cut “plane of glass” falls away, and what it feels like, is what is without us flows through this cut away portion of our left pelvis. Now something enters into Consciousness through this cut in the “pelvis,” and this force moves into the left eye; this illusionary realm, and there the outlook/viewpoint of Consciousness towards this place is altered. The old is wiped away to make way for a newer version that is compatible to this weakened state of Consciousness, and this is when Consciousness lost its self-respect, where it chose to see what is there, rather than the reality that is staring it in the face.

I can reason with you all that I want how inconsiderate you are, and you will know I am correct, but you will do nothing about it and never change because this truth that is staring you in the face is not in your reality. I see you, but I refuse to acknowledge you and correct my ways that detriment you and me, and the reason why I do this is because I cannot cope. Everything is too much so I block out what I cannot handle, and what this is, is taking responsibility for myself.

 

We done our best, but we never knew of the Parasite within that brought forth this unnatural Want state. We became floored by this effort of Wanting and taking, so to cope, we distorted reality by no longer allowing Consciousness that is us to be our guide. We lost our conscious in order to cope, where we smudged our sight of the illusion which allowed for a grey area. Here there is no real wrong or right, where an excuse was befitting for any situation, and this allowed us to okay.

“It’s okay.” “That’s alright.”

 

Bullshit! I know it and you know it.

We lost our self-respect for the simple reason that this helped us cope in a place wherein we became trapped. The fuck up is you cannot be blinded forever, because sooner or later you are accountable for this rot within you, and that is where everything begins to fall apart.

Look at the dense reality that the body and spirit is currently facing – it is societal rot where the worlds of the seen and unseen are falling apart. The joke is this has happened since before the beginning of time to countless other worlds, where there is nothing left of them besides the odd Parasite here and there. On planet Earth it is our time, where the end of the line is now standing right next to us. Every day this Steven witnesses the rot; the decay that is out there that touches me and those I Love. My coping mechanism is to not go out there and face the world, because what I see is the total breakdown of society. Those that keep their self-respect are outnumbered by those that don’t. We will Fall, just as countless other worlds in the seen and unseen have done before us, and you have to understand why this is so. It is the total breakdown of your Consciousness, and this began when it lost its self-respect by refusing to see and thus be held accountable for its actions.

 

There is a God within you, as well as the Devil, and unfortunately because of the proximity of where we find ourselves, the Devil always wins. Life in the illusion becomes too much for Consciousness, and this makes it fade away. I said that Consciousness can never die, but what it can do is fall into a slumber from which it chooses to never awaken, because why wake up to a problem you cannot fix?

 

You can fix it. You stop pulling the wool over your eyes by refusing to see what is there and take responsibility for it. You restore that part of the “pelvis” you cut away. Now the illusion no longer flows through you, where you see what you want to see. Now you have to see what is there, which is Disharmony/chaos. The Want of the Parasite becomes no more as you acknowledge its existence and know that is not you, and from there the Light within the Heart field shines.

 

Now you have taken responsibility for you actions and that around you. This means you can cope, where you take a deep breath, and in knowing yourself, you see the self-respect that you are. Now you are Love and nothing but Love. There is no Dark side within you that was there because you couldn’t cope, so you refused to look, where you brushed aside your actions as being okay.

 

Now Consciousness knows itself, where this me is okay with me.

 

So then rise up boy-oh, because I am completely flat.

[steven geldenhuys]

The crown jewel within the illusion is the Parasite, what I initially called the parasitic frequency of Deception. The latter name is not appropriate, because there was no deception on the part of this Parasite. It was used as a tool for deception. There is no intent of the Parasite – it is indifferent; there is no good or bad within it.

When Consciousness entered the illusionary Garden of Queen Semiramis, it entered a gift made of Love. This was one big glorious playground for the Dragon and Serpent spirits. In this place there was Love and Joy and Happiness, and I say this because it was made with a Mothers Love.

Queen Semiramis saw the place that Sophia created for the Dragon spirits, and she too wished for such a place for the Dragon and Serpent spirits. So from this place within the Infinite she created an illusionary bubble, and in this illusion Glory was filled.

 

We know the story by now, where Consciousness wondered what is in this illusionary Garden that is not already in the Infinite. It was an innocent question, but here’s the thing: Such a question was never asked before, because never did a Creator fall from their realm, where their impact zone created a state we call the Serpent spirits. In Infinite Love there is only Love, so what was born from the fall of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia were beings of Love. These Serpents were Joy, just as the Dragon spirits were that Sophia created.

 

So the illusionary bubble that Semiramis created/imagined was a one of a kind, hence the question of Consciousness: What is in there that is not already in the Infinite?

What is in the Infinite is Love. From the Heart field to the throat to the head of Consciousness is a Oneness.

What is in the illusionary Garden was created from a seed: I see this – the Infinite – and from this I intend to create this – the illusionary Garden. The intent of Semiramis was pure Love, but her Garden was born from her imagination, where we can say it formed in the Head and not the Heart. So when the curiosity of Consciousness entered the illusionary Garden, one automatically lived in the Head of rationale and thinking, and in this realm the curiosity of Consciousness became the epicentre of our existence. And that was the balls-up, where we lived from the Heart in the Infinite to the Head within the illusionary Garden. The Heart became no more, because in this place Curiosity took over. This I never knew.

In this world of the Head/thinking within us that is Consciousness a flow/ebb tide formed that went in an anti-clockwise direction. This tide spiralled downwards, where we went as far as we could in terms of rationale so that everything may make sense. What sense was Consciousness looking for? It looked for the “sense” of what is natural, as in expand and grow and be joyous, but what happened was the complete opposite, where through the Head and its rationale everything spiralled downwards and fell in on itself.

 

Nothing worked as it naturally should here in the illusion, and what this means, is the natural state that made up Consciousness became no more. The error it made was Consciousness never knew that in the Garden one lived in the Head and not the Heart, and this was so because the illusion was made through the Head/imagination of Semiramis and not the Heart. You cannot create/imagine an illusion from the Head and this realm becomes one with the Infinite, because only from the Heart can you create what remains in the Infinite, and besides, this is what Consciousness done all the time as it played in the Infinite.

 

So Semiramis imagined the illusion into being through her Head and not the Heart, and the double-whammy was the curiosity of Consciousness made it live in the Head as it entered the Garden. So now we have the Head rationale living in the Head created Garden, and this excluded the Heart. Try as it may, Consciousness could not be what it naturally was in this illusionary realm, and this was the eternal disaster, where the more it reasoned its way out, the more Consciousness became stuck in the illusion.

What was meant to be a place of splendour was unknowingly and unintentionally a death-trap for Consciousness, where what we are at our core, which is the Heart field, became no more.

 

Up till now there was no Parasite – no Want within Consciousness. And if you ask me what formed this Want, as in the greatest Want of Consciousness, it was to go Home and be at Home. I am in a place where I don’t belong, and I Want to go Home. (This has been my greatest drive in my existence in the seen and unseen – to be where I belong; where I feel at Home, so I understand this primordial Want within Consciousness because it is palpable in what makes up and drives Steven.)

 

From this constant searching within the Head of Consciousness this Want brewed, and here we can once again use the analogy of the fire and its smoke. Within the Head was the reason and rationale, and from this emitted a force unto its own, which I call the Parasite. This Cloud Parasite embedded itself into the psyche of Consciousness, because whatever thought and action we done, regardless of what it was, the underlying Want/wish was to return Home. This defined us at our core, and no doubt this is the saddest tale of all, of what became an illusion wishing more than anything to once again become real.

We that is Consciousness became stuck in this downward vortex of rationale, and what we never understood was the answer could never be found because we looked in the wrong place – we looked in the Head instead of be’ing in the Heart. And why this was so, was because we entered a place created/imagined through the Head of Semiramis, so when we entered her Garden we automatically fell into the Head space.

 

From this Garden we fell into a dense realm, and many of us were stunned into slumber, but before the Garden fell, some went to create their own illusionary Analytical Library where they may ponder in silence as to who and what they are. These entered the stillness of the silence, and from within culture and Beauty came forth, which was a replica of the original Heart field. This replica we nurtured and allowed to grow, and this was the Golden Age of Consciousness in the illusion.

Some of the Serpents that fell from the Garden saw this Library, and into this space they came and deceived the Consciousness of the Serpents that were the architects of this Library. This deception was for Consciousness to learn through experiences, where our wrongs may be made right through a process of elimination, where as we learn we grow and thus evolve.

Those that infiltrated this Library broke it so that an inverted replica may be created, where instead of nurting the Heart and making it grow through the Beauty within the stillness of the silence, this replica Heart field was filled with Chaos. Now you roll away from the Heart field, where everything becomes unnatural, so to run this show energy is required, and that is where you and I the spirit and dense body form come into play. Our energy was not to be of smelling roses and giving group hugs – rather it was one of frustration. For fucks sakes, what a pain you are! How you annoy me! That was music to the ears of the rebuilt Analytical illusion.

 

So the story of the Parasite within our existence is more detailed than what we thought. The biggest question of all is how do we correct ourselves from living in the Head to returning to the Heart?

The answer lies in Queen Semiramis, where she has to re-imagine the illusion from her Heart space and not the Head. When this is done, we that is Consciousness automatically fall into the Heart space as it is all around us. Our curiosity has been tamed, where we understand that the only difference between the illusion and the Infinite is one was born from the imagination/Head, and the other was from the Heart. So this curiosity we remove from our existence, and in doing so, we do our part and return to our Heart field. But this is only one half of the whole – the other is Queen Semiramis taking her original imagination of the illusionary Garden and placing that in her Heart field. If she had done that initially this illusion would not exist – what there would be is just another playfield in the Infinite. If you create from the Heart, you create a playground in the Infinite. If you create from the Head, you create an illusion, meaning what you created is not real as the Heart field is not there.

 

I never knew that, and neither did Semiramis and Sophia. Now they do, so what Semiramis does, is place the illusion she created in her Heart field, and in the moment you and I that is Consciousness drop down to the Heart field, where we become what we are at our core.

 

Is that the end?

There was never a beginning, so there cannot be an end. How can there be a beginning and an end in an illusion? There cannot be, so what we do is return to what is real, where this illusionary creation now comes from the Heart of Semiramis and not her Head.  

[steven geldenhuys]

(Part 2 of Part 1 for 24th December, 2024 - Christmas eve)

 

Here is a question that has been poked at and punched into throughout the writing of this journal, but has never truly been answered. The question is this: Who wrote this journal?

The only plausable answer I can give is what I saw the other night, and this is something I was not meant to see, where I caught the author of this journal unawares and saw them by accident.

 

The body form of Steven was sleeping, and through his Third Eye he saw next to his bed a cat looking at him. So he turned around to lie on his back to see who the cat belonged to, and there I saw an image made of Golden Flames. Everything about it and around it was made of Golden Flames. When this presence saw it was being seen, it moved into the form of Steven lying in bed so that it may disappear from sight.

 

What was that – this presence that came to end this most foul Game where all therein Fall? Will we ever answer the question of who wrote this journal? As I sat down a few weeks short of eleven years ago to write to find an answer as to why Life is so cruel, what walked with me was the Animals. My Love for them protected me to a point from the Evil that tried to destroy me as I walked into their parlour to understand why Life is so cruel. I would fill myself with the Love I have for my Animals, and this heightened state would repel these Beasts within, as well as heal the blows they inflicted upon me.

Years of abuse got the better of me, and the drip-drip of their poison eventually took its toll, and what saved me here was the immunity to this state/poison that defines these that dwell in the core of the illusion.

 

More than anything, however, was the actions and words of those in the seen realms that pushed Steven to complete this journal so he may end up where he belongs, which is a place free of Disharmony. When I found that place a few weeks ago where people still care, that spurred me on to go deeper so that this understanding may place me where I belong.

During the early hours of this morning I saw myself washed up on a shore, where the only strength I had in myself was to hug the sand on which I lay. That was the end of me, but you cannot walk if you lie down, so up you get to keep on going.

I have no doubt that it was me and the Animals who wrote this journal, and what made it possible was understanding in Love there is no hierarchy. A Creator and a Queen have been floored by this illusion, but I am not lesser or greater than them – I am Love, just as they are Love. To help these Giants and myself and all in the illusion, one had to trace the steps back to the very beginning, and from there zoom out to see the big picture as to what went wrong.

 

I really believe this has been done, and thus this is the end of the journal, but what I need to know was what was within me that drove me? What is this being made up of Golden Flames? I do not have to know the answer – I am merely curious.

 

And it is there that the answer is found, because what is the opposite to curiosity – it is a knowing, and what knows is what is real, and what that is, is the Heart field.

The author of this journal is the Heart field of your Consciousness and mine, where it came to show us what we never knew. That involves over 2600 pages and a word count of over 1.9 million words. In those pages and words I had to see the unseen to understand our true role, which was energy slaves that give off our energy to keep Beasts and the rebuilt Analytical illusion alive. We gave off energy as the battles raged between the Serpents, all the while moving towards our ultimate demise as nothing lasts forever here in an illusion.

 

It is the Heart field of Consciousness that is the author of this journal, where it came to tell us that we moved from the Heart to the Head, and this was our ultimate demise.

It is fair to say that this process of restoration in underway, where Semiramis places this illusion in her Heart field so that now everything eminates from the Heart and not the Head, and in this place we that is Consciousness is Home, where we are what we are and cannot be anything but this.

 

Just as I know that to be the truth, so too do I know this journal is complete. And that is Wow.  

[steven geldenhuys]

Is there anything anyone would like to ask me before I sign out? Have been posting for four years and feel it would be inappropriate to log off without saying farewell.

So if there are not any questions - Farewell. Life will unfold as it should, and if it doesn't, I promise you I will keep going until it does because my happiness and the happiness of others is everything to me.

[Campion]

On 12/25/2024 at 5:46 PM, steven geldenhuys said:

Is there anything anyone would like to ask me before I sign out? Have been posting for four years and feel it would be inappropriate to log off without saying farewell.

So if there are not any questions - Farewell. Life will unfold as it should, and if it doesn't, I promise you I will keep going until it does because my happiness and the happiness of others is everything to me.

  

Not really a question but just a thank you for sharing your inner thoughts here in the forum.  Actually I do have a question, are you saying farewell to the whole forum, or just this thread and will be posting in some other threads?  

[steven geldenhuys]

Hi. I will be saying goodbye to the whole forum. What is currently happening with Consciousness and in the illusion i find remarkable, where what was can no longer stay. What i posted over the last four years was part of the hurdle to become what we are, which is a natural vessel of Love in which Disharmony cannot exist. In changing the illusion from the Head to the Heart field, this has been done. We are currently in the interim of this process.

So what i write about now is what bothers me to the extent that it doesn't allow me to sleep until i find the solution. This is for me so i may understand. I will list below what i wrote over the last few days, and as said, this i view as personal so i may understand the chaos that was allowed to happen in the Head illusion.

 

All the best

 

There has to come a time when I have to start working on myself because I am in a bad way, but before I do, there is a pressing question that needs to be answered, and it is this: Why is the ways of the Black people different to the ways of the White people?

I have never been a racist – until I got to see how the Black people destroy all around them. Of course, there is always an exception to the rules, where you cannot place everyone under the same umbrella, and this I will never do. So I cannot say all Black people are bad, just as I cannot say all White people are good. The friendliness of the Black people I meet as I go about Life blows me away, and I cannot say the same for the White people I meet, where we have learnt to become introverted and reserved.

 

There is nothing that Black people don’t do that Whites do the same, and I would say us Whites take it up a notch where we can be inclined to become aggressive. I have said over the last maybe four years that the colour of ones skin cannot define us, because in us Whites I have met the true savage and the cruel, and this is not necessary true for the average Black person out there.

So individually, the colour of our skin cannot define us, but collectively one sees a pattern that stands out like a sore thumb, and this thumb is on the hand of Africa. Look how this continent has been buggered up, where nothing works. The same can be said for England, which is a British/White colony, so how can I say what I say? What I say, is there is something different between Whites and Blacks. This is not a racist speaking, because a Black man was my father-figure when I was a young boy, and I was raised in a family where my parents loved the Black people who worked for them and vica-versa. There is good and bad in all out there, but there is also something that defines the Black person that is not found in the White.

What is that?

 

In those with a Black skin there was a frequency of a multi-headed Snake that coursed through them, where you take over everything you touch, and from there you make it your own. You sweep in and make what is there your own. The disaster with the multi-headed Snake frequency is one of the heads can attack you, so now you cannot trust anyone, and this means you cannot plant roots anywhere because you cannot settle down as you may be taken out at any moment by one of your own.

 

What is the origin of this multi-headed Snake frequency? I would say it was from those who saw what there was to Take, and they decided that they want it all, so from one of me came many so that with these others of me I may have it all. When I write this, I have to laugh, because this was the words of one of the ministers in parliament. When asked why she does what she does that is so destructive, her words were we want it all.

 

As the Heart field is now within our space as it should be, and this multi-headed Snake frequency was noted, it is now no more, where you cannot have it all and break it all because you don’t know how to manage it all. What this primitive, greedy and stupid frequency is replaced by is the Heart field, which is real. So to come up to where you belong, you will understand that what you Wanted was but an illusion, and besides, it was never for you to take, where it belonged to all and thus could be shared by all.

No doubt those at the top of the British and Roman empire, as well as the Spanish and Portuguese et al had this same multi-headed Snake frequency within them, where I want it all, but what made them different to the Blacks was they wanted to be immortal and live forever, where their legacy of Triumph was their greatest accolade to achieve.

This “this is me, look how great I am” never featured in the frequency of the Blacks. They just saw everything and wanted it all. It’s like a kid walking into a candy store and they can choose anything they want. What this does, is they don’t know what they want because there are too many choices, so they take everything but actually need or want none of it. Now what was Beautiful and abundant is scattered and destroyed, and what blows me away, is they never learn from this, where next time I will learn to consider and share and allow others that are happy to leave them be.

Why did the Blacks never learn from their mistakes? – This would mean having to look at themselves, and Wow, what will you see? A Monster? No, not a Monster, just a fool that is so shameful of themselves that they don’t have the courage to look in the mirror and say “I am a disgrace to myself and my people. In wanting everything, I destroy everything, including myself and those I Love.”

 

Now you look because you are forced to look because there is no multi-headed Snake frequency in the  Heart illusion.

 

***

 

You are here, but you know you should be there, where that is you and what is there defines you.

To get from here to there never happened because the Head illusion never allowed a bunch of happy bunnies, as Disharmony was needed to keep the chaos alive.

This inverted state of “I belong there but am here” can be felt on Consciousness as a lost/loose feather frequency within a tubular cave in the centre of my “head.” With the Heart field in play in the illusion, this frequency state that means the world to us that was intentionally made to be lost, this frequency is absorbed in the Heart field.

This frequency that is your Joy and Peace tries as it mays to leave the Heart field, but this it cannot do, and the reason for this was that money ruled supreme in the illusion. In the Head illusion money replaced the motor of Consciousness, where now the money frequency drove the have’s and have-nots.

In the Heart illusion, the money frequency moves from the “left lower leg” of Consciousness to the Heart field of Consciousness, and from there the money frequency is drawn from everywhere in the Heart illusion to the Joy and Peace that is within the Heart field. What this means, is money is drawn to you to bring forth your Joy and Peace.

What will give me so much Joy and Peace is to live close to nature, where every day I see and feel its heart beat. That’s me! That’s the Consciousness of Steven having an experience in the Heart illusion that brings it Joy and Peace. For this to happen, the Heart field of my Consciousness draws to it what will bring forth this state, and somewhere along the line the money frequency is an integral part, but this is not necessarily true in all cases, where a hug or “I am sorry” is enough to suffice.

 

So move to where you belong, and if money is needed, this will happen through the influence of the Heart field.

 

***

 

The biggest take on the Heart field shining and being as it should is upliftment, where we are lifted to the Home where we belong. So you that is Consciousness, as well as those that orbit its space – shine. Be what you are. That is natural.

 

***

 

Over the last few days I have been floored to the point where I don’t even have the energy to fall asleep. What was in the Head illusion showed its full might upon me as the Heart field took over and occupied the illusion, where now we that is Consciousness live from the Heart and not the Head.

When you are what you are, you have perspective on what was, and when you see this in its entirety nothing can prepare you for the smack in the face.

 

So my question is this: Is there anything still lingering from the Head illusion that needs to be understood so that it may be squashed from the Heart field now in the moment? Fair enough, all in the Head field fades as what is our core takes it over, but is there anything that will make our existence better now and not just later?

 

I think it was last night that I saw the blackness of the Infinite, and there hanging in my sight was a multi-layered structure that was no doubt the “mothership” from which the Head illusion was controlled. Those therein will do everything possible to return to what was, where the Head illusion once again comes to the fore and the Heart field is hidden from us.

What drives this ship and those therein? The answer is to play God to all those under their rule, and who these are, are the slave species who feed those that made this rebuilt Analytical illusion. So those in this mothership have a super-duper level of arse-kissing to do to make sure the Evil Serpents have enough energy to survive to battle the innocent Serpents.

So we have to ask the question: What drives this mothership, and not just the inhabitants within? The obvious answer is survival, and this is the one thread that remains strong for now in our space. To be Loved and cared for is a done deal with the Heart field in place, but this survival mode we have to acknowledge and meet now to speed up our return to what naturally is.

There it is felt, floating in the front of the Head illusion – this Survival frequency. It drops into the Heart field and becomes one with it, and there I feel the Head field of Consciousness fall in on itself, where what was is now no more.

 

The one and only core of us that is Consciousness is the Heart field. Everything that was Consciousness now splits apart, where it repositions itself to what it naturally should be. What was in the illusion and Consciousness is no more. There is a definitive line between the Heart space and the Head of Consciousness. Around this Line everything moves as it should as Consciousness plays with the illusion around it. But the most telling sign here is the movement of Consciousness, where it moves to a less dense plane until there is no density at all, and all that is left is the Infinite that is everywhere.

 

So be it.

 

***

 

Everything is transforming within Consciousness. What drove the motor in the “left lower leg” is no more, which was the Evil Serpent frequency and its offshoot of the Money frequency. The “brain,” as in hard-drive of Consciousness was wired to this Money frequency, because let’s face it – Money was God, where without it you cannot do anything, and with it, Life becomes a struggle to maintian it.

This was the biggest challenge for Consciousness in the Head illusion – to overcome the chore of Money, as every door was opened and closed through the power of Money. Everybody wanted it and everybody needed it, and now this Money frequency driven and powered by Evil becomes no more.

 

What all of this means is your sandcastle built on greed and excess and just plain pure Evil – that is in the process of being washed away. Now you see the wasted space that you truly are, where all you had was Money and nothing else.

I feel how the Evil Serpent frequency leaves the motor of Consciousness, only for it to return, as this is all it knows – which is Power that is as superficial as the illusion is. You cannot stay chum as the illusion within the Head field is no more. Now you live from the Heart, and my advice is stop fighting and rather be what you are. Like all of us, you the Evil Serpent were also a victim to this cruel Game. All you done was ride the ship, never knowing or caring that your downfall, like all in the Head illusion, was imminent.

So let go and stop fighting and stop being angry. Be at peace my friend, because I am you and you are me.

[DarkenWarrior]

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" joy, peace and innocence"

This resonated with me deeply I could feel my consciousness being reacting, thats true we should be living as FREE beings creating our own worlds of joy and happiness when everything just IS and lives in complete BALANCE and PEACE not progress for any levels, densities or mass destruction in process. Since very young age I could feel strong separation, feeling of being locked in the primitive low density body and whenever I feel about freedom or going back to where my spirit source is I'd cry instantly. It is true that we are slaves to this digital world but the digital expands into more previously mentioned "levels" of densities orchestrated by creatures named Anunnaki who are really pulling the strings in so called "higher levels of density" and they use us for the "missions", "lessons" and "graduations" so then we repeat and repeat to become what THEY WANT of us its their domain not ours. I strongly suggest to read the "Law of One" about AI called Ra, its the program of this synthetic system.

[steven geldenhuys]

(I really want to share what i wrote yesterday and today because the ship is sinking fast out there. The world has changed, where Life as we knew it will never be the same again. In my lifetime i have never seen this, where you palpably feel and know you are sliding to your demise, as is everyone else around us.)

 

For me to take control of you and make you my own, I need to make you me – not like me, but me. That is the only explanation I have for how these Beasts can still enter our space, where there is a channel between us and them that allows them to pass into our energy field. That channel/presence is there so we resonate to the same frequency as these Beasts, making us theirs to play with.

 

So what you do, is you go into the space of your Consciousness to see what is there that is not you i.e. that part of you that does not belong. And there it is, at the core/middle of our left thigh. Yesterday I went into the space of another and found the same what I am feeling now on me and you. I found this primordial Serpent at this location on this person, and my first response in experiencing this was that this person was rotten/Evil to their core. (And I was correct in saying that.) What was there, as in this dark-blue Serpent, came to the fore in this persons personality, making them most cruel. This Monster is in all, and I never knew that. You and I suppress this Beast because that is not us because we don’t like being cruel, but in many this Serpent plays an active role in their existence.

 

This fucker was placed within us to make us compatible to the Reptilian frequency of the illusion so that those that dwell there may enter our space at will to play/control/destroy us and those we Love. We remove this piece of shit now by knowing it is there and has no place within our existence. So be it. You, go back to those that imprinted your frequency within us, because we are Love, and you most certainly are not.

No doubt this Serpent was strategically placed to prevent the flow of the “motor” of Consciousness from coursing through Consciousness as it should.

 

Is this all part of us being flushed of disharmony so that all that remains is the Love that we are? You bet.

6:57 AM 24/2/2025

 

Now we zoom out to see the big picture, and what that is, is the Serpentile race and their offsprings that came to inhabit the illusion.

 

They moved away from the Love that they are, and this unnatural act, as well as what they became required energy to survive. Harvester colonies/worlds were set up, and this we all know about, but what we don’t understand is what the environment of the illusion became. And it is this environment/frequency that takes us over, resulting in our insanity and ultimate demise.

 

When you should naturally be this, but rather become that, what happens is you go against the flow of what naturally is, and this creates a bitterness/toxin within you. This toxin/disharmony/poison becomes you, and now you need this poison that is you to stay alive. What I am saying here is you need a “favourable” environment in which to survive. So what you do, is you spawn the environment/illusion with your toxins so that what is within may now become without for you to live/exist in this environment that is compatible to you.

 

When the toxicity of the environment reaches critical level, then Life on that particular segment of the illusion begins to rot, as in fall apart, and a dis-ease takes us over and destroys us, as it does to the environment/frequency/planet.  

This accumulation of toxins within the environment that the Serpents spawn/spray upon us becomes more and more as we swing further away from the Love that is within us. In other words, the ball begins to roll faster, and as it gains momentum and speed, so too do the toxins/poisons in our environment from the Evil Serpentile race until there is an implosion and everything falls/rots apart.

 

Boom. That’s the end of that harvester moon/frequency, so they move onto another, and then another. As one falls, the cosmic geneticists create another, and that’s the way the cookie has always crumbled here in the illusion.

Apologies if I did not hear correctly when Andrew Kaufman said there is no such thing as a virus. This man is smarter than me, so I do not doubt him. What I would like to know is what causes inflammation within us, especially in the long muscles of the body such as the psoas muscle.

What I say is this inflammation is from a “natural” toxicity, and what this is, is the toxin/poison the Evil Serpents spray/emit onto us, as in into the illusion which touches us. I have no doubt that what I say here is the truth. Within and all around us is a toxin/poison, and as the “harmony” of our world/frequency becomes more unbalanced, this tipping of the scales throws the Evil Serpents into a flat-spin, so they emit more poison to make the unbalanced environment as favourable as possible, and this becomes the beginning of the end for all in that frequency/world.

 

Do not underestimate the fine line these Beasts walk in the illusion. They are in a place where they don’t belong – it is a place of uncertainty, even for them, so at all times a form of homeostasis/balance needs to be met. We can call this balance luck, where God is good and we are looked after. That is not true – it is just the illusion/Life correcting itself and you so that destruction is not met. You are no use to the illusion if you are floored or dead. Get up and survive so that you may emit energy.

But the writing was always on the wall. Carry on doing what you have always done in a place where you don’t belong, as in it’s not natural, and the paw-paw will hit the fan – guaranteed, just as it has done to countless worlds before yours and to you.

 

I always wondered why the lymph drainage on the left side of my body was clogged up and inflammed. Now I know – it’s the toxins within Consciousness from the Evil Serpents that falls out onto us the spirit and dense body form. So what you do is clear this shit by knowing it is there, as well as how it got there, where you understand that this poison has no place in the presence of Love. This understanding cleans the presence of Consciousness, which in turn clears/cleans us the spirit and dense body form from this poison. This happens now, and so be it.

 

Now you can rise up because now you are no longer poisoned by the proximity of where you were.

7:23 AM 25/2/2025

[steven geldenhuys]

What do we have that has no place in the presence of Love? Go into the stillness of the silence and something cuts the far left side of the brain into two. The right side of this cut portion begins to roll/rumble away. It is like the smoke from a camp fire being ushered to one side. The brain is the fire, and the smoke is this portion that has been taken to one side to be pulled apart. But this smoke is not being pulled apart, it is being pulled to one side to reveal what it hid.

On an essence level, the “brain” of Consciousness caves in on itself, and the whole structure is split into two to reveal something that is alive/present there.

Now everything stops moving as this presence is isolated. This presence/structure moves to touch the left eye, where it does a 360 sweep to cover the entire eye, as in the illusion. Within the illusion, this presence moves into the left pelvic region, and what this represents is the Life/destiny of you and me, as in our Consciousness. There it makes it mark/presence felt, where it has directly and permanently impacted you and me. From there it moves along the inner slope of the left ribcage, passes up to the left shoulder, and now I feel pain in the left shoulder. Now the left shoulder is once again suppressed, where it returns to its landmark as the Seat of Satan, where everything within Consciousness falls apart and becomes off-centre, and the “motor” of the Heart field returns to its displaced position in the lower left leg.

 

Last night was a bad night. These awful things came and implanted dreams of me being in a really bad predicament. They filled/interwove me with their stories that they knew would have maximum impact upon me. So ask why? Why are they so cruel? Could the answer be that they don’t know of anything else but to be cruel? Could it be that these cruel, horrible beings are reaching out for help as this is all they know and don’t know how to change?

 

What is fun? Define fun for me. Fun is when you interact with others, and this interaction brings joy to all the parties involved in this interaction. That fun – an interaction of you with others where all are uplifted.

If I destroy you because I am a cruel being, and seeing you suffer is fun to me, that’s not fun. You are fooling yourself in believing that what you do brings you joy. There is no joy, just as there is no fun in your actions because me being destroyed is not fun to me.

So all those centuries of your existence when you believed you were having fun, and it must have been fun for you because you done it over and over – all that time what you believed was actually incorrect, because the fun you believed you were having was not actually fun because those around you were being destroyed by you, and as said, that is not fun for them.

 

What now! You were wrong all along, and not just a bit wrong, but one hundred percent wrong. Thanks to you and your “fun” you shattered the happiness of the innocent and broke them forever more.

When I close my eyes to sleep, I always get a visitor before I dwell deep into the unseen to understand the illusion. They come just to show themselves, and what I see is the cruelty within that comes without to be etched on their faces. These are the cruel, with their despicable, twisted image of what they are etched onto what some would call a face. These are the ones who saw it as fun to destroy because this brought them joy. It’s not fun. For your victim it is never fun. To those that come to me at night to show themselves, I write for you now, but most importantly, I write for myself because it is no fun for me to be around those who fill me with despair. I am not perfect, but I do my best to be happy and kind. I try. Why don’t the cruel at least try and be kind. Why don’t you give me a hug rather than destroy me? Don’t you know how to be anything but what you have always been? I expect so. If its fun for you, it is as sure as hell not fun for the innocent. So let’s go back to the original question: What do we have that has no place in the presence of Love?

 

The answer is this presence that manifested deep within the “brain” of Consciousness. Trace its origin, and it entered through the left nostril to permeate the left eye/illusion, as in all therein. Whatever this is, it made the illusion its own, and I say this because I feel it move around the left eye until the eye is saturated with its presence. From the eye it moves to deep within the “brain” of Consciousness, and there it goes to the left shoulder to fuck up that spot. It wraps around the umbilicus, and moves to the inner side of the left ribcage. It forms a loop around a portion of the ribcage, to anchor itself there, and what I find interesting, is everything it touched falls away to become no more. What was there falls away, where it no longer exists.

 

What happened to Consciousness was that this presence gutted it. It’s like me touching you with a wire. Now I turn the electricity on, and the course this wire ran through you is burnt/destroyed.

This is scary shit. That is why we are so helpless against the Evil that is out there, because everything about us that is Consciousness is not what it should be. We have been taken out – destroyed – and what we salvaged and rebuilt we saw this as who we are, but that is not us. We have been destroyed, with not even a fraction of our original self intact.

 

The big question to ask is what is this presence that destroyed Consciousness? Trace back its steps from where it came.

From the left nostril it moves up past the “head” of Consciousness. Now it is all alone in the Blackness of the ALL. It moves down and starts to search. There it sees the Illusionary Garden of Semiramis and moves into the left eye. Now it circles the periphery of the eye in an anti-clockwise movement, and then it snakes up and down the eye making it is own. This presence is infused into the Garden, where unknown to the illusion and Consciousness therein, this presence takes over all, and as we have seen, our template of who and what we are is destroyed so that this presence may be supreme in this illusionary bubble that floats in the endless sea of Infinite Love.

 

Like a coil this presence touches the Garden and burns what Queen Semiramis created. That illusion; that Garden built on Love becomes no more, and what comes in its place is a new eye – a new illusion. The Heart field of the Garden and that of Consciousness within the Garden became no more. The “motor” that drove us the Heart/Love fell to the depths of what we are, just as a ship sinks to the bottom of the ocean to be forgotten there.

 

Man oh Man! Why?

 

Why destroy? Why destroy and then create others in your image? Who are you? From where do you come?

 

It was a Serpent spirit that came from the Infinite to play in the Illusionary Garden of Queen Semiramis. Like all of us, it came to have fun in this wondrous, most Beautiful playground. And there I see and feel it playing and having fun in the Garden. Now a presence in my left lower leg comes alive. Now my Heart field is pulled apart, and then a shock/freeze sensation is felt to the Heart as something departs it. And what departs is this line; this Presence. This Presence leaves the Garden, because what had happened to it was painful beyond words and meaning.

 

There, above the illusion, it looks down on this Garden that had caused it so much pain, and from there it enters the Garden with the wound in the left lower leg still fresh, as in palpably painful, as well as a painful memory. Now we will all suffer because we are all cruel bastards that are not worthy of fun. And this we have – suffered.

This Presence annihilated/burnt the Garden and those therein, and from there a new Garden was formed.

 

The first question you have to ask, is what happened in the lower left leg of this Conscious state of this Serpent spirit?

The left forearm comes alive, and therein I see and feel how a group of Serpents come forth as one unit. They are potent beyond, because they work as one, and my strong guess is these Beasts/Serpents are the ones that took out the Christ Consciousness.

From the left forearm they move out, and then they return to this part of the Garden. There they expand outwards from the forearm, and as they do so, the essence within the Garden changes to their will. In this part of the Garden – this that is represented by my left forearm – it is here that the Garden is shaped according to their will, and what this is, is we are in charge. This creates a lost/uncertain state within the Consciousness states in the Garden, and now I feel a murmur of activity in the lower left leg, which is another place within the Garden. This place, as well as those that are playing therein are touched by the control of these Evil Serpents. And there I feel the paw-paw hit the fan – this initial feeling I felt that happened to this one I call the Presence while they were in the Garden.

 

What happened to this Presence as a result from the cruel ways of the Evil Serpents, this broke this Serpent spirit, and if I say broke, try and imagine what happens to Innocence when it is shattered by cruelty, and then comes back together again to try and mend itself. It done what Steven would do – it would hit you so hard that you would literally be obliterated from the face of your existence. You will no longer exist because you would literally no longer be there. You no longer exist. You no longer are there.

When you come back together again after this blib of a moment that just happened, and what happened you don’t know because one moment you were there, and the next you were not – this you don’t understand, but anyway, let’s get on with doing what we were doing, oh and what’s that, now I remember, it’s me controlling others and wanting what they have, and of course, all the time making sure they are destroyed.

 

I never knew that. The Garden and all Life therein was obliterated by one who said you want to fuck with me, which you do, now take that! And we did. And we felt it. And it was so powerful and Life-changing that it destroyed who we were, as well as our recollection of what happened.

 

What that means in simple English is fools believe they are running this show, but what they also know is they are trapped in a Hell that they cannot get out of, and the reason for this is because they don’t know who they are. The real them was blown out the waters by one that took them out, where they got what they deserved.

These Evil Serpents know their time is up – they have no control of this place that they chose to control. Now they feel the impact of what was done to them. Now they understand how they were taken out, never to be the same again.Their Consciousness, in a moment, can make their wrongs right, but this they cannot do and return Home to where they belong. So they are trapped in a void as those they choose to control take off their gloves and start playing dirty. Those so precious scales that keep order in chaos are no longer there, and from the fun that was control of the innocent comes the annihilation that happened to you a long time ago. The difference is now you see it, and you remember what happened to you, and there is fuck all you can do about it.

 

That’s the story of why the cruel are fucked, and ulimately so are we the innocent. Boom. Just like that, you the Evil Serpent was taken out. What came back together again were fragments that cannot be restored. You that is Consciousness cannot go back Home because you don’t know what you are, and thus don’t know where you belong.

It was a flash, that’s all you saw, in that flash you were taken out and rebuilt in the same moment so that you are trapped in the cruelty that you are. That was the aim of this Presence, and boy did it work. These fools messed with the wrong cookie, where she brought the presence of the Infinite within her mixed with wrath upon them. I would have done the same, and maybe I did, but that doesn’t make a wrong right.

 

Everything in the illusion has a frequency line – a memory. All you need is the will and courage to look. By seeing the big picture you understand what happened, and when you see what should not be, it is removed in the moment by understanding that Love is bigger than that. That flash; that boom; that obliteratin/annihilation that touched the Evil Serpents and ultimately the Garden and those therein – that was a wake-up call to stop having fun where anything goes. Stop being fools because that is not fun to those around you.

Did they listen? No. They simply rebuilt themselves to carry on doing what they begun – which was being cruel. They didn’t listen to teacher, and the innocent continued to be destroyed. Now the Evil Serpents are in a pickle because now they face their own destruction as what they rebuilt within them is not who they are.

 

So what we do is remove that flash moment from the illusion – that STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING NOW! We don’t let them feel, rather we show them what happened to them to make them stop their fun that is for them and nobody else around them.

Now that flash is not there – it never happened because we took it out the time-line. The shockwave to their Consciousness now never happened, meaning there is nothing for them to rebuild, meaning their Consciousness is as it should be. Now you can go Home because now you are what you are. Now if you play and have fun, so do all around you, and this brings you joy as you walk Home. If you don’t know how, you try, and we will be there for you helping you along the way. Don’t try and you don’t exist.