Know what you are.

[steven geldenhuys]

Freedom means different things to different people, and many would assume  freedom is to be free from tyranny with its many shapes and forms, be it being stuck in a nine to five job; living with an abomination of a partner; financial freedom, or any other of the countless examples of what freedom means to different people.

For me it goes deeper than that, where freedom means being what you are meant to be. When you are what you are meant to be, you are free from all, as you are in charge of you, which makes you automatically in charge of the System around you.

 

What we are is Consciousness, which in my limited vision I see as a speck of Light. We have not been what we are because:

·        We turned our attention to the illusion and made it “real” to satisfy our want need.

·        We forgot about our heart energy field, the place that nourishes and feeds Consciousness.

·        Consciousness came under attack by the architects of the illusion so that Consciousness made be a limitless energy supply to the illusion.

·        We forgot about kindness, which is a natural expression of Consciousness.

 

By understanding what should be, we invert ourselves to what should naturally be, meaning Consciousness shines from within without, rather than seeing the illusionary frequencies without and taking them within where we imagine them to be solid.

This understanding of what we are impacts the spirit and biological computer body form in the following ways:

·        Life, as in your life, unfolds as it should.

·        We understanding we are within an illusion made up of waves of frequencies, so by understanding the cause of the problem, as well as the primary problem, we can modify the disharmonious frequencies to what they should be.

·        The world as we know it becomes less dense, where we rise above the burdens of Life.

·        By understanding what we are, we know this is all there is, meaning the manipulation of those from the unseen disappears as we understand they have no part within our existence.

·        By being the Consciousness that we are, we can touch base with those that are in a position to help, where their help uplifts us from the pit we have been trapped within.

 

What has just been said is the truth, and I say this because I see the transformation in the animals that come to me for help. The impossible is made possible in the moment, and it is as natural as breathing, meaning it happens without us even being aware it happens.

 

So am I happy? – No, and the reason for this is I am missing something, and what this is, is feeling the presence of Consciousness within us, where we know we are always looked after and never alone. That this body form is a walking, talking illusion is something I am aware of, but what I am not aware of is this Consciousness within me that is me.

When the animals are healed I ask the owners to give me a day or two or three for the body to get used to the changes, or put differently, the body needs time to heal and adapt to what is normal, which is being free of pain and disharmony. This I believe is true for Consciousness within us as well.

When I dozed off earlier on the couch, in my sleep state I saw the table next to me. It was not so much that I saw the table, rather I was the table, and this is so as Consciousness is everything and everywhere. In breaking down what we have come to define and see as real needs to be taken with caution lest we lose ourselves to what we are by not understanding Consciousness. There is a fine line between sanity and insanity, and what keeps us sane is witnessing the breakdown of the illusion in baby-steps.

 

All of that sounds great and it makes sense, but there are times they can throw me in the deep end and I believe I will make sense of it. The point to make is the transformation is moving too slow for me. I have missed what I am for too long now and would like to feel the presence of this Consciousness that I am.

 

This morning I saw a dog who was born with a s-curve in the spine; the spine was not straight but rather curved at one section. By understanding there was a “chemical” blockage in the brain that prevented the spine from being fully straight, this animals spine straightened.

The other dog I saw grew too fast, where there was a growth spurt, where the left side of the body grew to completion, but the right side never did, meaning there were two halves rather than a complete dog. This understanding took the frequency of the left side of the dog to match the right side, making the left and right side of the body equal.

 

Now surely that is Consciousness showing itself, as of course this Steven is not capable of such a feat.

“Aaaaaaaaaah, but wait, Consciousness is helping Steven to heal others, but how is Consciousness helping Steven?” Yip. Is it okay if we ask how Consciousness is helping us the body form? For me, that is a fair question, because in the long term I cannot help anyone unless I help myself, the reason being if I fall there is nobody to help me but myself so I have to look after myself.

It comes back to freedom, where the illusion has constrained us because we have never been what we naturally are, which is Consciousness.

 

For me, when the biological computer and the spirit are at peace, that is when the might of Consciousness can shine through the spirit and the biological computer body form. For me, peace equals harmony in health plus wealth plus happiness, because let’s be realistic and say that as long as we live in a body and spirit there has to be harmony within them.

Something within me tells me that either I am right in saying this, or I am horribly wrong. What I do know to be true is Consciousness will lead the way and reveal all.

 

I believe I know what is best for me, and yet I know nothing, and that is the rub. May the baby-steps be shown and felt as we walk out of the illusion.

[steven geldenhuys]

So allow me to give you my take as to how us lesser mortals – the biological computer and less dense spirit form – may attain peace, and once again, it comes back to seeing the big picture.

 

The animals have unconditional Love, where they care more about the owner than they do about themselves. So if I am not well, and it’s early days for Steven, as in I am not aware that some disharmony is brewing within me, my dogs will pick up this disharmony as they are on a higher level than me because they have unconditional Love and I generally don’t. They will know all is not well, and their unconditional Love automatically kicks in, where they carry my disharmony to help me.

 

This unconditional Love, where I care more about you than myself, is a disaster of note, because by me helping you to carry your load, not only are you in trouble, but now so am I, where I care about you enough that my Love for you will warrant my certain demise. All I know is you have a problem and that I Love you, and if this carrying of your problem means my demise, then so be it, because I Love you and that is all that matters.

 

This unconditional Love was our answer to fix The System within the illusion, and all it done was create sorrow in those that truly cared, because I give everything to help you, and not only is this not enough, it destroys me in the process as well.

And that is why boys and girls – that is why it is vital we are in a position to help others that need our help, and how this is attained is by us looking after ourselves so that we may lift up others rather than carry their load for them. By “looking after ourselves” I am not referring to you and me, as we have done our best to look after ourselves, and for many – if not most – this has been a struggle. It is to the Gods and a Creator that we call to look after themselves, and what this means, is they return to where they belong, which is within the Infinite. Only when they are where they belong can they help those within the illusion. Holding our hand and being there with us means nothing to help the all, and the reason for this is because those that can help are not where they belong, and thus are not in a position – literally – to be able to help us.

 

This is what we would call “a mothers love,” where I am with you, no matter what, and through thick and thin, and I will always be there for you.

The disaster is this love never worked. The Gods and the Creator need to return to where they belong, namely the Infinite, and from there they may shine within the illusion and uplift us. This breaks the ceiling of the past, where there was only so much we could do. With those back where they belong there is no ceiling; no limitation to what can be attained, and this is so because there is direct assistance from those that belong in the Infinite that have the power to assist us.

 

In a nutshell, the peace of Gods and a Creator, by them being where they belong, their peace will filter down and become our peace.

As longs as these beings were with us in the illusion holding our hand, we were all going nowhere. I have always known that we need to be where we belong, as there is nothing worse than being somewhere where you don’t belong. This truth applies to Sophia and Semiramis and all the others that found themselves trapped within the illusion. We have found a way back Home for them by understanding how we got into this mess, now they need to depart the illusion – away from us – so they may lift us up into the Infinite rather than trying to carry us in an illusion.

They all leave the illusion now, which tears apart the ceiling of what can and can’t be done in the illusion, as now the Infinite touches us by those that are there – where they belong.

 

And once again I stress that the peace of Gods and a Creator by them being where they belong will filter down to us and give us a peace that we have not felt for a long time. I can be sipping pina-coladas whilst lying on my hammock on my private island, where I look at the setting sun and declare that everything is good and as it should be, but this peace will be an unsettling and temporary one because all is not well, as they said in Hamlet, in the state of Denmark. I have always said we need help, but this help will never be a coming unless those that are in a position to help are where they belong. By them being where they belong so too will we, in the short and long term.

 

So if you look for Sophia and Semiramis and my friend Earl, as well as the God of Wrath that done his best to keep order, and if you wonder where is the essence of the spirit of the animals and nature, they are in the Infinite where they belong. From there they can and will help.

[Origin]

5 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Gods and the Creator need to return to where they belong, namely the Infinite, and from there they may shine within the illusion and uplift us.

 

and this is so because there is direct assistance from those that belong in the Infinite that have the power to assist us.

 

In a nutshell, the peace of Gods and a Creator, by them being where they belong, their peace will filter down and become our peace.

As longs as these beings were with us in the illusion holding our hand, we were all going nowhere. I have always known that we need to be where we belong, as there is nothing worse than being somewhere where you don’t belong.

 

This truth applies to Sophia and Semiramis and all the others that found themselves trapped within the illusion. We have found a way back Home for them by understanding how we got into this mess, now they need to depart the illusion – away from us – so they may lift us up into the Infinite rather than trying to carry us in an illusion.

They all leave the illusion now, which tears apart the ceiling of what can and can’t be done in the illusion, as now the Infinite touches us by those that are there – where they belong.

 

I have always said we need help, but this help will never be a coming unless those that are in a position to help are where they belong. By them being where they belong so too will we, in the short and long term.

 

 

The Gods and the Creator need to return to where they belong, namely the Infinite, and from there they may shine within the illusion and uplift us.

Your so-called deities do not have to return anywhere because they have never left it. And it will never emerge as what humans want it to be.

 

and this is so because there is direct assistance from those that belong in the Infinite that have the power to assist us.

Maybe humans should help themselves at last. Do they do that in your judgement? You know the answer.

 

 

In a nutshell, the peace of Gods and a Creator, by them being where they belong, their peace will filter down and become our peace.

As longs as these beings were with us in the illusion holding our hand, we were all going nowhere.

No beings are present here. And if you could understand reality you would not be present either.

 

 

I have always known that we need to be where we belong, as there is nothing worse than being somewhere where you don’t belong.

Sorry. But you belong here. All of them. 

 

I have always said we need help, but this help will never be a coming unless those that are in a position to help are where they belong. By them being where they belong so too will we, in the short and long term.

Humans have to meet certain requirements in order to understand where they want to belong. And this will be measured with the sum of all experiences. You wouldn't understand where you would be and you wouldn't be able to bear it. Because you are unable to process what you then perceive.

[steven geldenhuys]

What does Divine Intervention mean? It means removing the parasitic frequency of Deception within us – the want where we always need.

When we are free from the parasite we start on a new page and on a new path, and what this path is, is being in the presence of Beauty that the illusionary Garden of Semiramis was meant to be.

The living, breathing tangible representation of peace is witnessing Beauty. Understand that this Beauty, in the absence of the parasite, is everywhere. The more one is at peace, the more this peace becomes manifest in your existence, and as said, this manifestation is witnessing Beauty.

 

Seeing the Love one has for another, be it a flower or an animal or whatever else, where when you see this Love you see Beauty. The more Beauty you see, the more you become imprinted into the Garden of Semiramis as she intended it to be, because her Illusionary Garden was Beautiful – something that does not take your breath away, but rather creates a peace within you. Let’s go back to what was so that we may be what we are.

 

We are all Beautiful.

[steven geldenhuys]

It must be end of days because what I see in my sleep state is really bad. The Darkness is leaving us. We didn’t know it, but amongst us has always been the living-dead. Just be.

[steven geldenhuys]

There has always been something that has bothered me, and what that is, is why is it so difficult to break free from the illusion. Let’s be honest and say that we were firmly embedded within the illusion, which is a remarkable feat considering disharmony is unnatural and harmony is natural. We should have naturally risen to where we belong because we do not belong in a dense frequency, let alone within an illusion. This place in its original state was meant to be a playground and not home.

How did they do it, where the disharmony around us we saw as normal because there was no other lasting alternative?

 

It was not so much an implanted dream my spirit followed last night during my sleep state, but rather a place where it found itself, and what this place was, was where death and mutilation were the norm. Bodies that were butchered to cause death were shown to me, and then to understand the big picture, my spirit was shown something that was not literal, but rather symbolic so that I may understand in my limited vision.

 

My spirit was shown a round field of tall grass. I hanged around within the field, and then after a while the field was clean, and from there I moved onto the next field, and so it went until each field was clean. And then at the last field, I was shown what was between the grass that needed to be cleaned.

From there my spirit found itself back in the room where my body form was sleeping, and I saw these zombie spirits that were departing the space of my spirit. They were hanging in midair holding onto me until they couldn’t any longer, and from there they were swept away from me. By “zombie spirits,” what I mean is grey coloured spirits with no defining features except that they were flesh surrounding bone.

 

Your spirit and mine is that round field of tall grass. All looks well, but when you shake up the grass, from between the grass comes the living-dead. And that is the truth, and I say this because I saw them depart the space of my spirit last night.

Between the layers of frequencies that make up the spirit are entities that keep us embedded within the dense space of the illusion. How they keep us fixed into the illusion I would say is by us merely being in their proximity. Shame, these zombie spirits are more dead than alive. I would say these poor souls are harvested from The Nothingness of the Forgotten, that place that is the end of the line for Beasts within the illusion, where they completely forget the kindness that they are that is Consciousness. What a sad sight to see these creatures that dwell within the space of our spirit, where the worms within them are more alive than what they are.

 

Release these fuckers from the space of your spirit by knowing they are there. Pity them, for they truly are the forgotten. Show them the Consciousness within you, and from there place a strand of Consciousness within them so they may remember what they are.

 

The lost; the living-dead were embedded within the space of our spirit so that we may remain dense and not naturally rise to where we belong. Who would ever have thought that those zombie movies, where these skeletons with flesh hanging from them rise up from graves and the ground – that this is real and within the midst of our spirit. Wow.

Release them and set them free so that we too may be free.

 

Shit! When will this journal come to an end? How much more is there to understand!

[steven geldenhuys]

Last night told myself and my wife that the cut-off time for this journal coming to an end is end of next week. Yesterday the plane was starting to take off with me not on it, meaning I went through a bad patch, where an anxiousness built up in side of me that everything is becoming too much.

This morning woke up and understood that the cut-off time of the journal has already begun. When you hit the final third of your Life, as in years remaining on planet Earth, one understands that the clock is ticking, and what is important is to live Life as each passing moment won’t come around again, so we need to start living as we are not here forever.

My existence has been a lost, lonely one, where as a child I was painfully shy. Steven was the type where you show him something then he can do it, and from there will take the reins and excel and be content. The disaster was nobody took my hand and gave me a grounding for Life. All I needed was about five years of someone holding my hand so that a platform and foundation could be built within me, and from there I could have stood my ground and grown. This never happened, so instead of living without , as in embracing Life, I went within, as in one who never knew himself and had no grounding. Up till past my teens when I sat in a room full of people I blushed bright red – such was I intimidated by those around me. My lucky break came when I met my wife, as now I could express this love that I had within me. I have always loved the animals, but with my wife I loved her even more. The only good thing that ever happened to me became the worst thing that happened to me, where over a twenty five year span she ripped my heart and soul into a billion pieces with no regret or remorse. That love I had for her she destroyed, which is really sad, where you are around someone and what you had which was so special is no longer there. Those that have crossed me I move on, where they are no longer a part of my existence, so it is for my children that I am still in this family, as well as my appreciation towards my wife for looking after me so that I may fulfill the task of understanding why Life is cruel.

 

Is this task complete? I don’t know. If it is not then I do not see myself as a failure as I have done my best and that is good enough for me. My biggest complaint over the years was riding this horse alone, where never were there beings of Love that came to say hello to me in my sleep state, so that I may know I am not alone. The attacks I endured by the cosmic assassins during my sleep state, where I saw my attacker and felt their blows happened non-stop for years. Eventually it was not one attack that got me; rather it was a wearing down of being exposed to their venom over such a long time period. My immunity to their poison saved me, and now what needs to save me is living in the seen realms so that I may live Life for my short time left here. I have lived in the night where I see and understand the unseen in my sleep state, and during my waking state was bumped and pushed by the cruel, callous brute that I call my fellow species.

It has been awful times, the worst being that this Steven is not what he is. Within me I know what I am and where I belong in this truly insane world, and that place and person I have not settled into, and that has been okay because more than anything I needed to be there for everyone so that the innocent are no longer touched by the cruelty of Life. There is no ways I can be happy if you are not. And so began the writing of this journal, and it has been a remarkable ride where few have seen those from the shadows and lived to tell the tale.

 

There comes a time where I need to have balance, where I live in the seen and unseen, where I wake up in the morning and Steven is okay. The reality is I need to start living. My closing words to my wife last night before I fell asleep was all I have ever asked for in writing this journal is to be greeted by beings of Love in my sleep state, where I know there is Love and this Love loves me and all within the illusion.

So when I went to sleep last night, what I saw through my Third Eye was this huge caterpillar of sorts leaning over me. It must have been about two meters long, and its standout feature was its circular mouth with rows of long pointy teeth. Slowly and rhythmically this entity moved its mouth right against my face, to retreat slightly backwards, and then once again up against my face. The I saw this lady standing next to my bed. She was broad, stout and flat looking, as in her features were wide – wide mouth, head etc. When she opened her mouth there was another form within her, and that was of a bird. So there she was – this lady standing next to my bed looking at me with bird features within her also looking at me.

And this is the weird and wonderful that is out there as we go about our lives looking for those specials, and hopefully getting a freebee here and there.

 

Those two beings that I saw last night – the caterpillar of sorts and the bird lady – were beings of Love. They care for and Love me, just as they do to you.

 

It is now that I would like to live the practical component of this journal, and that is living Life. Is the journal complete? The honest answer is I don’t know as I have never truly lived Life. When I step into Life with the grounding this journal has given, that is when I can give an honest answer. What I do know is I can no longer carry on just living in the night where through my Third Eye I see the unseen that is always around us. I need to start living in the seen because my time here is running out and up to this point I have been so terribly unhappy.

What today or tomorrow brings I don’t know, but I intend to find out.

[steven geldenhuys]

We could never receive because we were never present, meaning we were a wisp of what we should be as we never knew ourselves.

What this journal has given us is the big picture, and somewhere in that big picture we fit in. Know what happened at the very beginning that we all got into this mess, and from there understand what should have been. There has been so much that has been said and I have no interest in repeating myself here. All I would like to say is know what you are, which is something bigger than what you could ever have imagined.

 

I write these words now because earlier on when I went into the stillness to see how I am at my core, what I felt was this essence of Life fill me the spirit and body form that once were a blank space, as in there was nothing inside of me as I never knew myself and how this strange place that I find myself in came about.

Now there is grit; there is essence within us, meaning the Infinite can see us and form and shape us. Now we are part of something as we understand the big picture, and I say this understanding is there because we understand that to know is great but to be is everything. We could never be because we never saw the big picture, meaning that the big picture, as in Consciousness and the Infinite could never see us. Life is in the living, but this could never be done as we never knew ourselves. We were told of some God that loves us, and that was about it.

 

We are Everything, and I am not writing words that sound great but don’t stick to define us.

We are Consciousness, and in truth this spirit and body form should never have been created/manufactured as there was never meant to be chaos within the illusionary Garden of Semiramis. Shit happened, and that is the past, where we remove the chaos/disharmony by understanding how it came about, and from there let us embrace the joy of being and knowing who and what we are. We are Consciousness, and we are experiencing this realm riding on the spirit and body form. To be joyous and peaceful and in harmony with all is natural – don’t expect anything less than that because there isn’t anything else.

 

What today or tomorrow brings I cannot say, because as has been said, I have never lived because I have never know myself. What we are is the essence of the Infinite within us, and what this is, is Beautiful. When you see Beauty you see yourself, until the state arises where this Beauty that you see becomes a permanent state within you, and that is when you will understand when I say that Life is limitless.

[Sandrude_Mannstorm]

Is it just me, or are there other versions of David? 

Viktor E. Schoof aka Fritz Sprigmeier 

 

a legitimate question..

Sand Mann

[Sandrude_Mannstorm]

On 11/16/2022 at 3:13 AM, steven geldenhuys said:

It must be end of days because what I see in my sleep state is really bad. The Darkness is leaving us. We didn’t know it, but amongst us has always been the living-dead. Just be.

Same here - it's very much like I have seen the future (my dreams now feel more real than reality) and as a mother I feel that the future is NOT bright, if things don't change -  it's really not good at all - I feel like I'm losing my mind sometimes, I never used to believe in spirituality and such things but now I can't deny the facts - I think it's a gnostic thing? Old wine in new bottles.. ?

 

Edited November 18, 2022 by Sandrude_Mannstorm
bad wording

[steven geldenhuys]

And then of course there is you and I the biological computer. The frequency of the illusion flows through us, and what blueprint we got from the genome of our parents, coupled with our likes and dislikes, defines us the personality and where we fit into the Human species family. Let’s not also forget those from the shadows that pull our strings – something we would call temptation and our “justifiable” temper tantrums where we hate and attack and it is okay to do so.

It must be fascinating to see this world and its inhabitants in its true state, which is waves of frequencies.

 

Take away our wants and needs, and what is left of us? I would say that what truly defines us is to be, where we are living Life, and what this means is for us to longer be a slave to a System that doesn’t care – where you are an identity number and not a name. I suppose that is why heroes and role models played a big part in our upbringings, because more than anything we would have liked to be that person. What they were we should have been, but we are not, where yes, we have our own identity, but are a fraction of what we should be – and sadly we are aware of this.

 

For me, how we live, where we be, is to go beyond the borders of this frequency field that we call our personality that defines us. To say that we are droplets in an ocean is close to the truth, as such a strong percentage of our form is made up of water.

What is beyond our waves of frequencies that make up us the mind/personality? It is the state of being, where we are no longer defined and now merely be. That doesn’t sound so airy-fairy does it, where words sound great but don’t really do much to stick to our psyche and transform us.

 

To you the spirit and biological body form, go beyond you, where when you are beyond the waves of frequencies that defined you – go to this place and stay there, where you are no longer defined by what Life moulded you to be.

To you and me reading these words, we read and then we move on, and yet there is something within us that yearns more than anything to just live, and it is too this part within us that I speak. It is too this Consciousness; this speck of Light; this strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness; the one that is real within an illusion; the all that arose from the Source of the Infinite – it is to this state that I speak, as this Consciousness is what truly defines us.

 

Go beyond the borders that define the biological computer, and from there break down these borders, so that the state of merely being may be incorporated into what came to define us. Now the droplet is one with the ocean; now the borders that defined us the spirit and body form are incorporated into the Consciousness. The disaster we have is that we do not understand what freedom is as this is a state that is unfamiliar to us, and yet it is the most natural thing in Life as this is all that there is. We have become so lost and entrenched in the maze of the illusion that we accepted our fate that this is who and what we are and where we belong, so we made the best of a bad situation, but let’s be honest and say we have deprived ourselves of much.

 

In your little world that is defined by the release of a chemical state within us that we call happiness, in this world we have thought too deep and done our best to delve in the unknown when we don’t even know ourselves. And yet look at a beautiful flower or in the eyes of someone who loves you, and you will understand that it is too the simplistic that the truth is revealed.

 

The one that has been at the back of the class; the one that has been pushed aside so that the masses may sweep forth and take over, it is now that the spotlight turns to this Consciousness so that it may show us all what we are.

There will come a time when we go beyond words because there is nothing really to say as all that we are is the simplicity of everything.

[steven geldenhuys]

What was unexpected was the la-resistance from those within the unseen of the illusion to be where they belong, namely the fields of Infinite Love. To each their own, where if you wish to be what you are and dwell in this strange place, then so be it, because as said – to each their own. The cosmic assassins attacked and the Serpents took up dwelling within me to possess because this is who and what they are and all they know, but there are many within the unseen that took every possible measure  to make sure all remain where they are within the illusion, and by “all” we imply those in the seen and unseen. This is the indication that we live in a madhouse, where fools are happy with their fucked-up status and have no desire to better themselves so that peace may be attained within.

There are nasty’s in the seen realm, just as there are in the unseen that directly influence our existence, but the third element – where those held onto the walls of the insane and cruel frequency of the illusion to make sure it remains intact – this third element I didn’t expect.

 

Last night closed my eyes to sleep, and through my Third Eye saw this larger than life presence standing next to my bed. It was a structure more than a presence, and what the structure looked like was something between a highly sophisticated astronauts suit and one of those dive-suits where you screw the headpiece into place. This was not a first that I saw others from another realm as they were enclosed within a protective suit as our frequency is not compatible to them. I remember seeing this really strange looking person smiling at me in a sinister way from the confines of his protective suit, but last night I did not see those that dwelled in this bulky yet sophisticated protective gear. I felt their presence, and what it was, was one of haste. There was a panic about them, as in what they came to do to me had to be done quickly. This suit these beings were confined in (I feel there were about two entities therein) was also a machine that performed surgery, and I say this because I felt the incisions into my energy field. From there they embedded something within me, or they took something out – I don’t know.

 

A good six years ago I woke up from my sleep state, and through my Third Eye saw this ant with wings standing next to my bed – it was about a meter high. It took what looked like a white piece of chalk and drew a line around me. As all I saw during my sleep state was the reality of what the illusion is at its core, I safely assumed this ant was also there to mess with me.

The following night as I slept I saw this witch fly around the posters of our bed, and when she reached me, it felt like a nuclear bomb had just gone off next to my head. Never before have I felt such a potent force targeted against me. I heard she say that I was well protected, and then she flew off. The ant I saw the previous night knew of the impending attack and came to make sure I was protected.

 

So what I am trying to say is what came last night I cannot say for certainty is good or bad. What bothered me was that those within this machine never showed themselves to me, even when I looked for their presence, but to be fair maybe I am just being petty. So I cannot say if they were friend or foe, but what I done was place myself without the borders of the waveforms that define Steven as a spirit and a body form so that I may see myself in my full form rather than one trying to figure out what is going on within a limited space that I cannot see in its entirety.

 

To explain that better, you the spirit and body form go beyond the border of the waves of frequencies that define you. You know this border is there, so go beyond it, and what this means is now there is no you, as in you are outside of your defining waveforms. This sounds confusing until you understand that the real you is Consciousness, so what was within your space that defined your manufactured form of the spirit and body  with their personality is no more – all that is left is the real you and silence.

It is to this state that I return whenever I can, and the reason for this is I am up against those in the seen and unseen that have no intention of bettering themselves and the world they live in. My gut feel tells me those that came during my sleep state where there to suppress and destroy me, and I say this because if they came to uplift I would have been transformed by their invasion of my frequency field, but as I said, I don’t know for certain so I cannot point fingers.

 

Through all of this, there is one defining question that needs to be asked, and that is: “What keeps us from not being where we belong in the seen and unseen?” Remember, you have to go outside of yourself to see the big picture so that Consciousness within may see the all without our interference.

When this question is asked and there is nothing but stillness within, what I feel is this blackness rotating slowly clockwise. This blackness scans the space where the spirit and body form exist, and then the presence that is this blackness comes to rest over the umbilical area. It feels as if something is within a womb, and they push to be released from the womb through the umbilical/belly-button area. What I feel is wishy-washy, as in nothing is concrete over this area. It is like an astronaut going outside the spacecraft and their oxygen life-line being severed, so they just drift away from the mother-ship.

When I ask Consciousness what should be over this umbilical area, I feel the presence within this womb of sorts move up the body forms to where Consciousness is at the throat area, and I feel the presence of the spirit and body form attach to Consciousness there. All that Consciousness was, was a Light within us, meaning we saw it, but were never attached to it, and that is why we so readily forgot about it.

 

That is why we have never belonged where we belong – because we have never been attached to what we are at our core.

How sad is that?

Was there foul play? – I don’t know, and have no real intention of finding out as the answer is irrelevant.

 

You the spirit and body form connect to Consciousness by knowing our life-line/umbilical chord that attached us to Consciousness was severed. Now you know why we have all been drifters – we were detached from the mother-ship of Consciousness.

[steven geldenhuys]

You cannot change the world, because by and large the world doesn’t want to change. So what you have to do is change yourself so that your world changes. If you stay the same then so does your world.

 

Harald and Ethel are sitting in the pub complaining about council stuff. The useless council is not doing as they should. A UFO appears, popping in from a faraway galaxy, and beams up Harald and Ethel to get to know the life-forms on this planet.

Now here’s the thing: Harald and Ethel can’t converse with these aliens as the two species don’t communicate the same language.

 

And so it is with you and Consciousness and the fields of Infinite Love.

 

Who are you? If you give me a name, then you are plugged into this world, as you define yourself as someone from this world. What are the chances of you connecting with the Infinite that is beyond the illusion? – Zero chance. It’s like someone standing next to you that is screaming and shouting and waving their hands to get your attention, and you cannot see or hear them as they are on a different frequency band to you. My Third Eye can see the frequency band of those from the shadows that dwell within the Reptilian frequency, so during my sleep state I connect to them because I can. When I wake up this Steven connects to the frequency band of this world called planet Earth and its inhabitants, and yet, here we all are talking about this Consciousness thing and Infinite Love. How do we connect to these state that we discuss with such reverence? Harald and Ethel can’t connect to these natural states, and guess what – neither can you and I, the reason being is we and the Infinite are communicating on two different planes because we are two different perceptual states.

 

Who are you? “I am Consciousness, and I am using this body form and spirit to experience these realities.” Great stuff, but how does that solve the problems that the useless council can’t fix asks Harald.

To answer that question, one needs to take a few steps back to see the big picture, and what that picture is, is like attracts like. You cannot change this world, because this world does not want to be changed. You can protest all you like, but this is energy and time consuming, and the council members will fight tooth and nail to resist you because this is their world and they like the way things are.

 

You are Consciousness, and by you being this, you naturally connect to the Infinite from where you arose, and I promise you and myself that those council problems will be sorted as now they are not Harald and Ethels problems as these two are Consciousness and are communicating at a different plane to the council members.

 

What I am trying to say is some fights one cannot fight because there is never victory because The System likes things the way they are. Which fights do you fight? – I don’t know; listen to your good hearts and fight for what’s worth fighting for. As for the rest, walk away.

As for me, I cannot fight any longer as those I ask to be considerate have no intention of doing so – they have no intention of being kind and considering others. How often have we spoken about Divine Intervention, and what is this Intervention? It is you being uplifted and helped so that you are where you belong, yet there is no ways you will be uplifted as long as others cannot see or hear you because you are on a different plane to them.

If they enjoy complaining, then the council members will feed Harald and Ethel the misery they secretly relish, but when you choose to walk away from a fight to where do you walk? Where you walk to is amongst your own, which is beyond the place you find yourself.

 

Understand that you cannot be Consciousness as well as the person with your name that you identify yourself with. If you do, all you have is a pompous ego, where you imagine to be something while you hold onto your identity. “Look how great I am everyone, let’s go and give those council members a piece of our mind!”

 

I am Consciousness using this spirit and body form of Steven to experience this reality. The bad news is Steven is in a bad way. The good news is I can connect to Home and those that dwell therein to uplift this Steven so that he may understand there is beauty and joy and love in this strange place wherein he finds himself. There is good amongst all this bad, and as long as he is here, let’s show him the other side of the coin, as well as what is beyond the illusion.

 

Be what you are, meaning identify with your true state.You are Consciousness.

[Origin]

1 hour ago, steven geldenhuys said:

You cannot change the world, because by and large the world doesn’t want to change. So what you have to do is change yourself so that your world changes. If you stay the same then so does your world.

 

Harald and Ethel are sitting in the pub complaining about council stuff. The useless council is not doing as they should. A UFO appears, popping in from a faraway galaxy, and beams up Harald and Ethel to get to know the life-forms on this planet.

Now here’s the thing: Harald and Ethel can’t converse with these aliens as the two species don’t communicate the same language.

 

And so it is with you and Consciousness and the fields of Infinite Love.

 

Who are you? If you give me a name, then you are plugged into this world, as you define yourself as someone from this world. What are the chances of you connecting with the Infinite that is beyond the illusion? – Zero chance. It’s like someone standing next to you that is screaming and shouting and waving their hands to get your attention, and you cannot see or hear them as they are on a different frequency band to you. My Third Eye can see the frequency band of those from the shadows that dwell within the Reptilian frequency, so during my sleep state I connect to them because I can. When I wake up this Steven connects to the frequency band of this world called planet Earth and its inhabitants, and yet, here we all are talking about this Consciousness thing and Infinite Love. How do we connect to these state that we discuss with such reverence? Harald and Ethel can’t connect to these natural states, and guess what – neither can you and I, the reason being is we and the Infinite are communicating on two different planes because we are two different perceptual states.

 

Who are you? “I am Consciousness, and I am using this body form and spirit to experience these realities.” Great stuff, but how does that solve the problems that the useless council can’t fix asks Harald.

To answer that question, one needs to take a few steps back to see the big picture, and what that picture is, is like attracts like. You cannot change this world, because this world does not want to be changed. You can protest all you like, but this is energy and time consuming, and the council members will fight tooth and nail to resist you because this is their world and they like the way things are.

 

You are Consciousness, and by you being this, you naturally connect to the Infinite from where you arose, and I promise you and myself that those council problems will be sorted as now they are not Harald and Ethels problems as these two are Consciousness and are communicating at a different plane to the council members.

 

What I am trying to say is some fights one cannot fight because there is never victory because The System likes things the way they are. Which fights do you fight? – I don’t know; listen to your good hearts and fight for what’s worth fighting for. As for the rest, walk away.

As for me, I cannot fight any longer as those I ask to be considerate have no intention of doing so – they have no intention of being kind and considering others. How often have we spoken about Divine Intervention, and what is this Intervention? It is you being uplifted and helped so that you are where you belong, yet there is no ways you will be uplifted as long as others cannot see or hear you because you are on a different plane to them.

If they enjoy complaining, then the council members will feed Harald and Ethel the misery they secretly relish, but when you choose to walk away from a fight to where do you walk? Where you walk to is amongst your own, which is beyond the place you find yourself.

 

Understand that you cannot be Consciousness as well as the person with your name that you identify yourself with. If you do, all you have is a pompous ego, where you imagine to be something while you hold onto your identity. “Look how great I am everyone, let’s go and give those council members a piece of our mind!”

 

I am Consciousness using this spirit and body form of Steven to experience this reality. The bad news is Steven is in a bad way. The good news is I can connect to Home and those that dwell therein to uplift this Steven so that he may understand there is beauty and joy and love in this strange place wherein he finds himself. There is good amongst all this bad, and as long as he is here, let’s show him the other side of the coin, as well as what is beyond the illusion.

 

Be what you are, meaning identify with your true state.You are Consciousness.

It is like something still feral, comparable to a predator wanting to prey on something. You can never get too close no matter what the reason are why you are here.... 

[steven geldenhuys]

In the movie Horton Hears a Who, Horton finds a speck on a clover, and what this speck is, is the world of Who’ville with all the inhabitants that reside thereon.

 

There is one side of us, where we fight for justice and fairness, where we cannot comprehend the inconsideration of others as they go about inflicting cruelty onto others, and even when they are aware of what they are doing, they still think their deeds are okay, because as long as they are okay, all is okay, because they are okay. That is pure, undiluted insanity, and it touches all races, religions and classes – this madness sweeps across the spectrum and is not confined to one group.

That is our task in Life – to right these wrongs, or to turn a blind eye to them, and which option you take is determined by whether you have a backbone or not.

 

The other side of us is to enjoy Life, always looking for a good laugh, as these moments make Life worthwhile.

 

And so we go through Life balancing these scales; of facing madness and doing our best to be happy. And all of this is orchestrated from the shadows to feed Beasts and the illusion our energy.

 

Often I see this speck of Light around me. As soon as I see it, it disappears. When I say that this speck of Light; this Consciousness is everything, I mean that it is everything. In our limited vision we would see it in its true form as a slow moving grey/black mass, and please understand that this is everything – it is Infinite, and it is Everywhere, and it is all that there is and there is nothing else.

So what is important: Making a wrong right and finding a good laugh in-between, or being everything, as all there is that is real is this everything.

 

We have all been played; we have all been plugged into a simulation, where our emotions feed the Game and keep it alive. That’s it! Nothing much else to consider and ponder about.

What I ask of you is to lift the cover of the trashcan you have been enslaved in, and from there open yourself up to this everything that you are. Do not be afraid to return to what is real and natural. We are one of many worlds out there, and yet each one is an illusion.

Last night during my sleep state I saw how these giants walked past me on their trip back Home. As they walked past me they scooped up my waters with their one hand – they were drinking from me like I was a watering hole to them.

What you and I know; what we believe to be real, is truly nothing as we know nothing.

 

Open yourself up to once again be incorporated into this everything. Throw away the scales – they really are not important.

22/11/2022

[steven geldenhuys]

The further one moves away from what is real, as in your good heart and your consideration, the more energy you require as now you are walking in unnatural lands. The way of the Beast, as in raw savagery – which is suppressed within all yet brought forth by many – this raw savagery touches a chord within the illusion which is touching that which you are moving towards, namely your own decimation and demise. It’s like in the end of the Thelma and Louise movie where they hold hands and drive over the cliff to their demise – rather burn out than fade away, and these moments of glory, where these Beasts understand what they have become, and they embrace this brutal insanity – it is these highs that feed the Reptilian illusion and make it strong. The dudes don’t try and be anything other than what they are, so they let rip and destroy, all the while living in the moment.

We the seen are crueler than them, because we are two-faced snakes, where what you see is not what you get. We fool ourselves and the world that we are nice, yet for many they are merely opportunists – taking what they can at the expense of others so that they may be okay. Please understand that I am not writing with bitterness and from a negative stance – please understand that integrity and self-respect, where I honour myself so I honour you, these traits are almost extinct. Everything is plastic; superficial; skimming the surface, where no roots are planted and lasting foundations built.

                                                   

The question I have to ask is what gives evil/cruelty its power? The answer to that is one word – confidence. From the shadows dwell Beasts that do what they want when they want because they can. This frequency of “do what you want – fuck them!” filters to the seen realm, where we become the lesser versions of the savage Beasts that we follow. If they can do, then so can I, and this is the freedom that allows Beasts in the seen and unseen to release their inhibitions and do what they want when they want because they can.

My friend the God of Wrath fucked up many, but that is never the answer as anger and rage eventually destroy you. So what is the answer? What takes the power away from Beasts? Oh yes, eventually they all fall, but in the interim they sow destruction and heartache, and this needs to stop. Will I walk away from their frequency where I am this Consciousness that I am – you bet; am already on that path. But I would like to understand what takes the upper hand and power away from those within the illusion, and I ask this question because everything is upside down. The good are suppressed and destroyed while cruel people prosper and go unpunished. What will flip everything back to what it should be?

 

The answer is to remove the raw energy within them that drives them to their demise, all the while destroying all in their wake. What that chord of raw energy is, is the parasitic frequency of Deception within. This worm drove us to take, and in the Beast this take became a frenzy that came to be the norm.

From the left corner of your mouth down to your chin, this is the line where that worms dwells. To make sure our want was amplified so we may always remain within the illusion, a replicate of this parasite was placed at the right corner of our mouth extending down to our chin. The fangs of Dracula are symbolic of these two worms that give us the high when we take – most notably through our mouth as in what we eat or drink.

 

You want to pull the fangs of Count Dracul -  you remove the frequency of the parasitic frequency of Deception within him by knowing where this worm is and how it came to be within their form. You want to change the world to allow the innocent to rise up so that they may merely be, then what you do is you reflect within the Infinite/Consciousness what is within the illusion that should not be – these two frequency fangs – and then from there they are no more within the illusion. Now the frenzy; the high of the Beast is no more, and from there they drop from hero to zero.

 

Why am I doing all of this? – Because I am tired of living within the abnormal, where cruelty is okay and goodness is trampled upon. That’s why.

Those fuckers at the core of the illusion – those role-models to the cruel and insensitive – they are no more.

[steven geldenhuys]

The illusionary Garden of Semiramis was meant to be a playground. It was meant to be a whole unit rather than separate parts. The Garden was meant to be a perfect, pure crystal, and not one with a crack/flaw therein.

The want of the parasitic frequency of Deception that infiltrated those within the Garden, where those within the Garden also began to want – this want was spurred on from the parasite within. This want solidified the illusion, because if you want something, it has to be real and not an illusion, so our want need changed Life in the Garden by making it real in our eyes. Now we only saw what we wanted to see, and what was beyond the illusion became a blur, as there were more pressing matters staring us in the face, as in what I want that is in front of me.

 

As crazy as what I am about to say sounds, this want within all of us would soon have fizzled out, because when you want something, and now you have it, well so what! We would have gotten bored with this game of wanting and having, and in no time the wool would have been pulled from our eyes and we would have seen the fools that we were and would have returned to the field of Infinite Love – the place within the Infinite from where we dropped into the illusion.

The true disaster is that there were those that piggy-backed this want status with what they were within the Infinite. In the Infinite you are everything, where there is no hierarchy – there is only the joy and bliss and peace of being what you are. There were those within the Garden that wished for both because they liked the best of what the illusion and the Infinite had to offer – the want, and the I am everything status.

 

This “want” that piggy-backed on the “I am everything” flipped the illusionary Garden upside down, where everything became inverted – the opposite to what naturally should be in the Infinite which is everywhere.

Now we had Gods that were truly fucked in the head, where their power, coupled with their “me” and “I want” status began to cause havoc in a most beautiful illusion. A crack was now formed in a most beautiful crystal, and what this crack/flaw was, was the illusion became one-sided, where it was no longer whole. (The natural, as in the Infinite, was now coupled with the unnatural; this want within, and this created a high; a frenzy that Beasts within the illusion became addicted to – a sickness was born that flipped the illusionary Garden to the complete opposite to what it should be.)

There was a force that was leaning to one side that pushed everything within the illusion off centre. Now there was a force that was dominant over others, and this force became the foundation that gave the bullies and nasty’s of the illusion their power. There has never been a big, bad Devil – there has only been this force that swept across the illusion to suppress and knock down the innocent and good. Without this force the school bully and tyrants would be nothing, and now they are because this force is no longer there. The fountain has dried up because we understand this force has no place in the natural state of Love that is the Infinite that is in all, what we call Consciousness within us.

Now the illusion is once again whole. The power of fools is no more.

 

That is why we the masses never stood up against tyranny, because we were not so much fighting an individual but rather a presence within the illusion that took the illusion over. How do you fight a System that drives and controls you? The answer is you dismantle it by understanding how it came into being.

 

And this has been done.

[steven geldenhuys]

When one understands, one can move forwards, and what this means, is one can heal and be what you are meant to be.

The spirit understands the story of how we got into this mess, and this understanding returns the disharmony to harmony.

We wrote for the spirit to understand, and this has been done, but there is the other half of the story we have not covered.

When you are surfing the waves off the Californian golden coast all is well. The sun is shining, the waves are peaking, and Life is good. Now take a deep breath and drop five thousand feet to the bottom of the ocean and see how you feel there.

 

The whole story of our demise is we fell to a place where we don’t belong, in other words, the density of the frequency of the illusion suppressed us and held us down. It started with The Wisdom Goddess Sophia, where she exceeded her realm and fell. This would have been okay had we not dipped into the illusionary bubble and became trapped therein, because when things began to go pear-shaped there, we Fell to denser and denser frequencies, and it was these dense frequencies that prevented the balloon from naturally rising to the surface when held under water. The water became denser than the balloon and so we became trapped by the density of the frequency into which we fell.

Meet people that are joyous and at peace and they uplift you. Meet someone else who loves to complain and harp about the destruction around us, and you literally run away from them to get out of their space. The frequency of the latter environment we found ourselves trapped in as those that were bad in the illusion were the gods that saw themselves as everything (and rightly and truthfully so) yet they also wanted everything. So when these brutes Fell, they fell to a dense frequency where they belonged as they created this frequency from their negativity, and we Fell by default by being in their space.

 

When the cosmic assassins could not destroy me, it became a pigeon-shoot, where those from the shadows lined up to do what others couldn’t, namely destroy Steven. I saw these fuckers and felt their blows, and there is only so much you can handle before you drop. When things were going bad, I saw one night in my sleep state this lady lying on a metal grid above me. She rolled over with much effort to face me, and from there she dropped some of her spittle onto me. What I saw in my limited vision was The Wisdom Goddess Sophia, and this dropping of her frequency onto me was all she could muster to help.

 

When your loved ones fall into a pit, by reflex you fall in with them to help. You don’t think, you react, and you react in the now where your safety is put aside to help them. You don’t stand at the side of the pit and decree for all to hear “I am the one and only true God………..” Absolute bullshit. “I am great, obey me. I love you. You are being destroyed, but that’s okay because I am great and I love you.” That story falls a bit off the mark for me, especially as a parent, where you understand that those you creature you look after, and if need be you carry them back Home, but you never allow them to witness suffering as this is not who and what they are – they are beings of Love and thus should be touched by nothing but Love.

 

That Sophia jumped into the dense planes to be with her children is a given. Even if I did not see her in her destroyed state what I say is still a given. I believe Semiramis didn’t dive in lock, stock and barrel – she kept her distance to do damage control, but the pressure of what had unfolded in her beautiful Garden turned her Love to a twisted Love, as this was what the illusion became – a one-sided pressure cooker that had a raw/frenzy/savage streak to it.

 

This morning as I lay in bed after waking up, I asked to feel my spirit and body in their isolated state, as in just them with no other influence affecting them. What I felt was harmonious. Then I asked to feel these two forms the way they normally are, and this layer of pressure came to rest over me. The spirit and body form felt battered, and I mean literally battered, as if an army had marched over them.

 

The spirit and body form understand the big picture of what happened before the beginning of time, but where are they? – The answer is they are trapped within a dense frequency, and I believe it is this frequency that prevented help from coming our way as they could not enter the dense walls of the illusion.

To solve a problem one needs to know what the problem is otherwise there is nothing to solve and Life continues as it always has. How do we remove the dense frequency that keeps us in the illusion? The answer is we remove it by knowing it is there and has no place within the presence of Love.

You know you are Love – this Consciousness. You know of this dense frequency around you and all within the illusion. By knowing it is there and doesn’t belong it is removed in the moment. It is as easy as that when you know what you are and what is the disharmony around or within you that does not belong. When healing others this is what I do, and please understand I am not special or have some gift – what I do is as simple and natural as breathing.

 

The dense frequency of the illusion is no more. Now we rise to where we belong.

(It took a long, long time to get to that point where this may be done.)

[atenea]

On 11/16/2022 at 3:13 AM, steven geldenhuys said:

It must be end of days because what I see in my sleep state is really bad. The Darkness is leaving us. We didn’t know it, but amongst us has always been the living-dead. Just be.

Is the Darkness really leaving us as a collective?

[steven geldenhuys]

Some things you don’t mention because the entities you wish to talk about are not worthy of my time writing about them, and your time reading what I write about them.

So it is not so much about those that came to me during my sleep state last night that I would like to share with you, but rather the art of manipulation from those from the shadows on the spirit and us the seen.

 

Fell asleep last night and saw this face about a foot from mine. Such a face I have never seen before, where this strange looking man had a second mouth running along the side of his cheek. He was looking at something at my forehead with awe and reverence. Then three red sentinel spots were flown from this man to whatever they saw at my forehead.

 

That was all okay – what came next that kept me awake the whole night was impressive in their thought out planning.

The first thing I thought of (which was an implanted thought) as I lay sleeping was tomorrow first thing I am going to contact the people who I helped and tell them there is no need to pay me for the services I provided them.

What this implanted thought done, was drop my self-esteem to zero, as deep down in the past I felt I was not worthy to receive money, and this attitude of “don’t worry, keep it” was often used to those that wished to pay me.

So what this implanted emotional thought done was drop my defense’s where there aren’t really any, as in this state my self-confidence is absent. From there came the orchestrated attacks from a group of entities that looked Human that were in their mid-twenties to early thirties. Picture a massive expo centre, with different stalls spread out over this centre. They took me from stand to stand in this centre, and at each stall presented a scenario to basically fuck me up.

At the one place I felt pain in my foot, as if standing on a cactus. One of the entities looked down at my foot and gasped and said there was a snake biting onto my foot, and from there proceeded to pull the snake off me and show it to me. And all the time I must remember that tomorrow I must send those messages about people not having to pay me, which confirms there is no way I will make it as I am not worthy of money.

 

Moving between the stalls I saw this one young girl push a long stick up against my pineal gland and pulled out a drop of whatever my gland secreted. She swallowed this drop, and I saw another female looking on from a central coordinating  room, where she asked the female with the stick if she got it. When she nodded in confirmation the female overseeing the whole attack was ecstatic.

 

It was unbelievable what this group done to my spirit. Unbelievable.

 

Yesterday afternoon pressed the Emergency button that caused the red light to flash, meaning I know myself well enough to what I can and cannot handle. This last week have pumped up the intensity to complete the journal, where I know there is a limited time before I say enough to the madness around me and continue the journey on the less dense plane. I am merely being realistic, where I know there is only so much I can handle. You see, something has to give within the illusion through all that has been written in this journal. The Truth will set us free – that I know to be the truth, but what I don’t know is when, and the train tracks are coming to an end for me.

 

What more do I have say? What more do we have to understand? As I sit here writing these words I smell these Beasts from the unseen around me. Truly they see themselves as invincible. There are no words to describe these Beasts, as how can you get a thrill from the expense of others.  Maybe the same can be said of us as we drool over the flesh being prepared for us with a lemon-butter sauce and a hint of tarragon.

 

I don’t know what tomorrow will bring. All I know is I am Consciousness, and what I would really like is to see my world and yours transform to what they should be.

What more can I say? What will this night and tomorrow bring? Love will prevail. I would just like to know when.

[steven geldenhuys]

Why do Beasts do what they do? Or put another way, what removes their inhibitions where anything goes? The answer can be found in the want status. When you want, it means there is a gap within you that has to be filled, and if you are grounded and at peace within, you are content to merely be, thus no want is necessary.

I need clothes on my body to keep myself protected from the elements and so that I may be acceptable to others that are offended by nudity. Please don’t equate need to want. A need is required for survival and keeping society intact and respectable. A want is often illogical and doesn’t make sense as there is no need for it. A want is something you acquire because you can – but it is not necessary. Unfortunately a want often comes at an expense to others.

 

But there is something else that the want status creates, and that is a knowing that no matter what you want and receive, you will never be happy, because it is not so much having everything you desire, it is knowing this want within you can never be satiated, as you understand there is a frequency within you that doesn’t belong as it is no part of you.

So why want? – It is the chase; it is playing the Game; it is getting what you sought to want – it is the high of playing the Game and winning. That is why Beasts do what they do – to satiate this permanent high that keeps them happy.

These Beasts are not allowed to know of anything else other than what they are, because to them the high/frenzy is all there is, and every living moment of their existence is focused on achieving this high. Life is about the chase to satisfy the want.

 

And yet deep down, in the crevice of their twisted minds they know this want is truly nothing, as in meaningless, and so too are they nothing. And if I say they are nothing I am not being offensive when one regards these Beasts as wasted spaces, because in truth what is within them is nothing – no integrity, no honour, no self-respect, no empathy, no kindness, and of course no peace.

 

And how sad is that!

 

If they lose everything and have nothing that is okay because they know they are nothing. Ending up in The Nothingness of the Forgotten – so what. Life and existence is about riding the high of the Game, which is life within the illusion. Here the party rocks 24/7, and here is the sad part – you and I have been caught up in its wake, where we are used to keep their highs alive. This is not cruelty or being shameful on their part – it is pure insanity. How could they let themselves go at the expensive of others? What happened to their conscience? The answer is insanity took them over, where the abnormal and sick and twisted became the norm.

 

All of this understanding is good to know, but it is merely information. What we need is this God-force within; this Consciousness to awaken and be. This is Divine Intervention, this is living Life as we should, where we walk hand in hand with this God-force within, knowing we walk with who we really are.

Why this fucker is still sleeping I don’t know, but I intend to find out.

[steven geldenhuys]

The reason why Consciousness within is silent, is because it has competition, and we the spirit and body forms that reside within the illusion understand on a deep level what this competition is – where we focused on this and forgot about Consciousness, where if you don’t use it you lose it, where Consciousness eventually forgot about itself.

We have focused on the competition and forgotten about Consciousness, hence Consciousness is sleeping.

 

Here in South Africa we were a conservative nation. Television only came out in the early seventies, and the nations keepers saw the Devil everywhere. Pornography was obviously also banned. So in the late eighties the travel bug bit me and I backpacked through different countries for about a year and a half. In Hamburg I came across the Reeperbahnhof – the red light district. I walked in with curiosity, as to what is the fuss with all this porn business. When I opened a magazine in one of the shops my heart rate accelerated a thousand fold and my mouth got dry – “Wow, what is this!” Then, after a short while, I said “okay, so what?”

 

That personal account is there to explain that there is a focal point within us – a pole of sorts – that is always there to be fed a high, and if we are really truthful to ourselves, it is the highs of Life that make living worthwhile. When I am swimming in the sea I am on a high; when I am walking in the mountains I am on a high; when I give my dogs attention where I tell them I love them so much, I feel the high/frenzy within me that this love I have for them gives to me.

Seeing a beautiful sunset takes my breath away, in other words it gives me a high.

 

We are in the proximity of Beasts because we are lesser versions of them, where like attracts like. The competition to Consciousness within is the frequency of the want within, and this want became our God, where when we are euphoric we are closer to our God. Nope! Wrong! All we are is closer to the Beasts that dwell from the shadows that is our unfortunate destiny to one day become.

 

To remove the competition so that Consciousness may awaken and come to the fore, we need to understand this want frequency within, as in where it is. When I go into the stillness to find the answer to this question, what I feel is this presence at the back, lower part of the brain. From this presence circular rings wrap around this presence to enclose it, meaning this is all we are allowed to know. Is this presence the Reptilian brain, or what I would call the Reptilian frequency – that part of the illusion where the savage/Beast calls home?

 

To appease the want, we need a high, and this high is what we call the joys of Life. Sharing the company of those you love make moments that define your Life and make it worthwhile. Analyze the feeling of that precise moment and what it is, is a frequency high that feeds the Reptilian frequency and keeps the illusion alive.

 

The warning label on the bottle is this: Put to sleep the Reptilian frequency/brain within, and allow Consciousness to awaken, and everything within your existence changes as now you will experience the complete opposite of what was. And I say this because all we know is finding the high to feed the Reptilian frequency within. We know of nothing else but feeding the frenzy/high of the illusion and calling this Life.

What the warning label says, is understand you are nothing as you always wished to feed a want, yet this want frequency is literally nothing. So here is the indemnity clause: Expect your existence to be flipped upside down for the better, where you are what you are – where Consciousness can naturally shine as there is no longer any competition within.

 

My goodness. And so we live and learn.

Know of feeding the want/Reptilian frequency within and calling this Life, and understand this frequency has no place within our existence.

With this frequency switched off, by default Consciousness will awaken.  

[ohgeorge]

Thank you Steven, never stop.

[steven geldenhuys]

When one is unhappy, the first step to happiness is to admit you are unhappy. From there, you find someone that can help you – you don’t just plod along hoping for the best.

 

The trick is to find the right kind of help, where your happiness is everlasting.

 

What this journal done was find us help so that we may be at peace, knowing we are Loved and cared for, where all will be well. The dilemma is there has never been help for the innocent, so it was not so much a task of finding help, but rather understanding why we have always been alone to fend for ourselves, where Life becomes a struggle for survival that few, if any, find contentment in this strange place.

So to look for help is not really an option, as there has never been those to help us. This leads on to the obvious question of why have those that can help never done so? What we are talking about is those in the unseen realms – the spirit world, as this is where the mechanics of the illusion turn over and the real transformations happen.  We in the seen are just a side-show to keep the spirit occupied while those from the shadows play with and destroy the spirit. Deception is key to Beasts that prey on the innocent, and the cornerstone of this deception is to be hidden – where those that live in the seen and unseen are not aware of how they are played in a cruel Game. The core of the Game is harvesting energy so that the illusionary ball may keep rotating. That this ball is rotating to its destruction, and those that orchestrate the Game are aware of this, is testament to the insanity that projects from within the illusion to without. The madness you see around you comes from somewhere, namely the architects of the illusion who are in denial that they are the cause of death to all, including themselves.

 

We are not alive. We are all the living-dead, where we get up each day to do our best to survive. We live for the highs of Life, but these highs are bitter-sweet, because we know that around the corner the high we are on drops to a low.

Who we are and what we are doing is unnatural. We should be the complete opposite of our predicament, and one has to ask why is this so? The answer is those that could help were not in a position to do so. Sophia was floored by the dense frequency of the illusion, and  the Love of Semiramis became a twisted Love that hurts like hell. Others tried to do damage control, but the fuck-up was that those that were bad enjoyed being bad – they had no intention of going anywhere else but in this cesspit because they were happy. These Gods were pumped – “who’s the man? – I am!”  

 

To end this mess, we had to help those that were in a position to help us – the ones who became engulfed in the catastrophe of the illusion. And this is what this journal has done – it educated Sophia and Semiramis so that they may remember who they are, and most importantly, what happened that a Beautiful Garden went pear-shaped. Understanding brings clarity, and clarity allows us to return to what we naturally are.

Has this been done – have Sophia and Semiramis returned to what they are by understanding what went wrong? The answer to that question can be easily gauged to be truthful or not, and how this is done is by asking yourself if you are at peace – a peace that is eternal and everlasting that filters through the seen and unseen as the rotten core of the illusion is no longer there because now there is a healing from within to without that touches and transforms all and places them on the path Homeward bound.

 

Am I am peace? Before answering that question, let’s keep it simple and ask if anything has changed within my existence since writing this journal, where I have targeted the core/cause of Disharmony, and to do so, I had to walk amongst Beasts in the seen and unseen to understand what made these beings of Love savages.

Am I more mature; am I more grown up? You bet!

Has anything changed within my existence? – Not a damn!

Am I at peace? – Nope.

 

And yet I know that what I have come to understand as to why we are all in this mess is the truth. I can fool you, but I cannot fool myself, and this journal was for me and me alone, because if anyone else had the raw desire to understand why Life is so cruel they would have written this journal and not me. What I had that others never did was the Love of the animals. Through all of those cruel attacks, what kept me alive was holding onto the Love the animals have for me and I for them. That kept me going where so many failed before me.

 

Have I failed? When you look at my score card the answer is a resounding “yes,” but ask Steven what he thinks, because after all, he has walked into the shadows to see the big picture.

I know that the understandings of this journal have transformed Sophia and Semiramis to be what they were before they Fell – they are not one hundred percent there yet, but are healing and will return to what they were. I know this to be the truth.

Now I wait. I wait until they have fully healed, and from there see what happens. How long do I wait? – Maybe a day or two. I wait for normality to touch those in the illusion. I wait for Love to be projected from the core to without. I wait for everything to be as it should. And if need be, I wait for further understandings for all of this to materialize.

[steven geldenhuys]

As I move around the kitchen and lounge, making food and doing what needs to be done, I feel this nervous tension around me, and what I am feeling, for me, is the state of being where you don’t belong, as well as not being true to yourself where you are not what you are meant to be. I can cut the air with a knife – so thick is this presence around and within me.

 

The language of the illusion is frequencies, which are vibrations.

You go into the stillness, and the real you that is Consciousness assesses the state of the frequencies/vibrations that make up you the spirit and biological body form. As long as we are in the illusion, we need to define what is harmony, so that Consciousness may bring forth these states/frequencies into your existence. I would say that harmony equates with contentment within the illusion. Contentment is being at peace with who you are and what you are doing, what you have, and where you are. Contentment is about finding the enough of health, wealth and happiness in your existence, which brings about a peace within.

Our true nature is about making sure others are okay, and this is so because we are okay, so whenever we can, we open ourselves up to those that truly wish to be content. But this natural state of what we are cannot be fulfilled unless we are at peace within.

 

Consciousness needs to talk the language that the illusion may understand, and by understand, we imply Consciousness and the illusion needs to know what the problem is so that it may be rectified. I am not talking about a balance within our lives, because to be in balance is too unpredictable, where you can swing from here to there. We need to define the true state of Consciousness within the illusion so that we may be what we naturally are, and what this state is, is in the presence of Love, meaning disharmony has no place within our existence as it is on a different waveform/vibration.

The truth has to be simple, otherwise it is not the truth, and by simple we mean do nothing as you are nothing so that Consciousness that is everything may take the reins and do what needs to be done to bring forth contentment.

 

Are we going to solve world hunger? What we are solving is the unnatural frequencies within you so that they may be replaced with harmony and contentment. You change and the world changes, and in your world there will be no world hunger, as the contentment frequency within you touches all within your world.

Consciousness is altering what is within you, where what should not be is replaced by what will bring you contentment, and this is projected from within to without, and these frequencies that are without find you as they are within you.