Know what you are.

[steven geldenhuys]

Over the years I have helped others, but I have never had the capacity to help myself. I knew of my faults, which was a good start, but I never knew how to fix them – on the contrary, they could not be fixed. If you ask why, it was because Life made me like that – it was me being imperfect in an imperfect world.

 

Now, when I look, there is no glass bottle at the bottom of the Ocean. I only see an Ocean – there is no illusion, and for the first time in starting this journal, what has been written has helped me. Up till now it has been setting the unseen free through understanding so that they may be in a position to help themselves and us.

 

You go into the stillness of the silence, and all you see is the bottom of the Ocean. You feel the flow of the current within you.

With your old limitations removed one becomes a bit flustered, as you don’t really know where to go to from here. This is where you fasten your seatbelt and you ask yourself what is really important to you, and when you know what it is, you pump the tsunami you formed at the bottom of your Ocean and direct it to what is important to you.

As an example, it is important to me that I am one with my Creator, be it Sophia or Semiramis. I Love them both, and both are our mothers.

We all need money  to buy what we need in the world we find ourselves, but look past the money and ask what is really important to you in the world wherein you dwell. From there you go into the stillness of the silence and you feel the Ocean and nothing else. From there, ask what you wish for – what is really important to you. When I asked, I felt this chord that was wrapped around my spirits right ankle disappear. This is what the System done to me when I still dwelled in the bottle – in the illusion. The System played with me; limited me; it was just being is plain cruel old self, and this is why what I wished for so badly over the years never came to be. The illusion wanted sad faces, not happy ones.

 

One needs to harness your new-found freedom and direct it to what is important to you – as in what defines you to be you. Do we really know what we want? Yes, we do. We want to laugh and be happy. We want to share our laughter with others so that they may also laugh. Our laughter comes from the joy of being one with the Ocean. This is who we are, and we cannot be anything else.

 

[steven geldenhuys]

As I lay in bed last night to go to sleep, I understood the importance of living in the stillness of the heart energy space – the stillness of the silence. I fell into the heart area and felt that rock that is the stillness there.

Then I fell asleep and a story was followed – it was something nonsensical. Then “the heavens opened” and it began to rain outside as I lay in bed sleeping. The downpour woke me up, and something inside of me said “go into the stillness of the silence.” This stopped the thought projector of the story going on in my mind as I slept, and what I felt when this story stopped, as I went into the silence, were these tentacles moving about in my brain. It was one of the most freakiest things I have experienced in writing this journal.

 

What I felt moving around in my brain, that I experienced as a story being told in my sleep state, was the Octopus/Watcher spirit playing with the “key-boards” of my brain.  It was then that the bombshell hit home and I understood who and what I am. We are our thoughts, and our thoughts are the Watcher spirit. Every time I tell my animals I love them – which is about seventy five billion times a day – that is the Watcher spirit. Every time I mow my lawn and these shitty thoughts play over and over inside of me – that is the Watcher spirit. This lost, lonely fart called Steven that wants more than anything to be happy and at peace – that is the Watcher spirit.

 

Boom!

 

This journal has answered some big questions, but the one that has been the most elusive has finally been answered, which is “who wrote this journal?” Every word – and there are well over a million of them – was written by the Watcher spirit; that Octopus that sits on the top of our brain and controls the show.

My goodness me.

 

This Octopus has told the story of what happened before the beginning of time, but there has been a catch-22 situation, which is: to be truly free, shut up and stop listening to me – stop giving me attention!

 

What more is there to say?

This “Beast” was born from our Fear. We put it there in our existence where it became us, and it has become trapped with our spirit, body form and Serpent soul in a place where we all don’t belong.

We gave the dense illusion our attention as we tried our best to survive and find a way out, but we should have gone within and just allowed the strand of Goodness/God within to shine to show us the way.

 

You are not your thoughts – you are not this Watcher spirit. You are the fields of Infinite Love – this strand; this speck of light within you. Do you understand this? Do you understand the one writing these words and the ones reading them want to be free of this illusion, so stop giving them attention. There is always something to be done – always something that needs to be cleaned up within the illusion. Stop doing this; stop following the thoughts of the Watcher spirit so that this Fear entity may be set free. It wants to be at peace; it wants to stop giving us instructions that we follow – it wants to be Home.

 

Be the rock of the stillness of the silence. Be this strand within that we all are. Be this, and we the strand shines, and all within are set free.

Do you understand what you have always been? Do you understand what you should be?

In the beginning was the word, and it was the word of the Watcher spirit. To be free of the illusion there cannot be a word. Live and be in the silence of the strand. Every time you think you entrap the Watcher spirit. Do you understand that you are not allowed to think, as this is not who you are? Do you understand that you be the silence as this is who you are? We are not living in a monastery now where we follow our vows of no speaking – we are living within the fields of Infinite Love. We are living in our Home. Have no pre-conceived ideas of what this is as you have forgotten this state. All I ask is open the door to Home by being in the stillness of the heart energy space. Know what you are – this stillness of the strand, and know what you were not – the mind of the Octopus/Watcher spirit. Shame, we created this monster and then we entrapped it within us.

 

Set it free.

Exist in the silence of the fields of Infinite Love.  

 

[Guest m754]

On 12/5/2021 at 8:42 PM, Truthspoon said:

 

It's a discussion forum stupid.

I have seen Steven here posting basically a relentless nightly horror. Telling us that the world is hell and being continually harassed by demonic entities. 

I see nothing beautiful in this story, instead I see the story of a man dealing with serious spiritual problems which could have very serious ramifications for him in the next world....

Steven however doesn't seem to wish to engage in discussion. That is his business. 

 

But I have a perfectly valid right to give my analysis without your acting as some kind of supercillious sycophantic fan club and trying to tone police me.

Thankyou.

 

What a strange rude comment. You have some problem, please seek help. You may think the meditation that you claim to be doing is helping you, but apparently it is not...

 

Steven is smart enough to know not to engage with the likes of you. He was reluctant to return to this forum but I'd asked him to continue sharing for the benefit of others..

 

You are here on this forum (and maybe others?) to seek some kind of validation for your 'knowledge' or 'historical' readings/writings. You are keen to be acknowledged for that knowledge and wish to act as a guide. That is your ego acting up...

 

When you do not get ego validation, you become very angry and start abusing people.

 

Zen meditation is for 'babies'. If you feel it is not helping you break this pattern, I could advise you about other methods. But frankly I do not think you are ready. You will need some more time..

 

In the meanwhile, stop calling people names. It's very childish.

 

 

 

[bobb]

9 minutes ago, m754 said:

 

What a strange rude comment. You have some problem, please seek help. You may think the meditation that you claim to be doing is helping you, but apparently it is not...

 

Steven is smart enough to know not to engage with the likes of you. He was reluctant to return to this forum but I'd asked him to continue sharing for the benefit of others..

 

You are here on this forum (and maybe others?) to seek some kind of validation for your 'knowledge' or 'historical' readings/writings. You are keen to be acknowledged for that knowledge and wish to act as a guide. That is your ego acting up...

 

When you do not get ego validation, you become very angry and start abusing people.

 

Zen meditation is for 'babies'. If you feel it is not helping you break this pattern, I could advise you about other methods. But frankly I do not think you are ready. You will need some more time..

 

In the meanwhile, stop calling people names. It's very childish.

 

 

 

So you get offended easily, so I have a question for you, do you:

A. Pluck out your eye balls.

or

B. Get over it and move on.

[Guest m754]

12 minutes ago, bobb said:

So you get offended easily, so I have a question for you, do you:

A. Pluck out your eye balls.

or

B. Get over it and move on.

 

Great..another asshole..How many of you are here exactly and can you please leave this thread and let OP write what he wants to...If you notice, I have not interrupted OP, until your friend T-spoon started having a hissy fit on here..Now that I have identified you correctly, I will try to find the button to put you both on Ignore. 

[bobb]

1 minute ago, m754 said:

 

Great..another asshole..How many of you are here exactly and can you please leave this thread and let OP write what he wants to...If you notice, I have not interrupted OP, until your friend T-spoon started having a hissy fit on here..Now that I have identified you correctly, I will try to find the button to put you both on Ignore. 

Ahhh, you're a pluck your eyeballs out type of person, it's fine, after all you gain nothing by placing others on the ignore list and it will be your loss and only yours!

[Guest m754]

14 minutes ago, bobb said:

Ahhh, you're a pluck your eyeballs out type of person, it's fine, after all you gain nothing by placing others on the ignore list and it will be your loss and only yours!

 

You seem to be alter ago of Tspoon, he has another such account as well.

 

Anyway, like I said, you are an asshole, but while you are here, could you do something helpful and tell me where the Ignore option is? I have somewhat patchy internet access where I am at currently and wish to do a few more tasks while online. 

[bobb]

1 minute ago, m754 said:

 

You seem to be alter ago of Tspoon, he has another such account as well.

 

Anyway, like I said, you are an asshole, but while you are here, could you do something helpful and tell me where the Ignore option is? I have somewhat patchy internet access where I am at currently and wish to do a few more tasks while online. 

Well I hope not with respect to T Spoon, and I do not know who T Spoon is other than a poster on the David Icke forum and that's all I can say about that, with respect to the ignore button I have no clue either as I would not use it even if I could, so sorry I can not help further with respect to your question.

[Truthspoon]

4 hours ago, m754 said:

 

You seem to be alter ago of Tspoon, he has another such account as well.

 

Anyway, like I said, you are an asshole, but while you are here, could you do something helpful and tell me where the Ignore option is? I have somewhat patchy internet access where I am at currently and wish to do a few more tasks while online. 

 

Oh dear.

 

 

 

[Truthspoon]

4 hours ago, bobb said:

Well I hope not with respect to T Spoon, and I do not know who T Spoon is other than a poster on the David Icke forum and that's all I can say about that, with respect to the ignore button I have no clue either as I would not use it even if I could, so sorry I can not help further with respect to your question.

 

I have a blog and a forum

 

Get to know me better. You seem like a cool fellow.

 

http://truthspoon.com

 

http://truthspoon.forumotion.co.uk/

 

 

[bobb]

Why do people converse with themselves with different avatars in a web forum?

Makes absolutely no sense at all, unless he/she/it is trying to evoke a response and lead others off down the garden path, and we all know what happens when we reach the bottom of the path, the shed of DOOM!

What a load of old shit!, yeah that one.

[steven geldenhuys]

Now that I know what my thoughts are – which is, I suppose you can say what I am – one has to ask how can we set this Fear free that we created that came to be us?

 

How do you stop thinking in a world that never sleeps – a place where the sun sets only to awaken somewhere else; where our very existence is the thought itself; where if we stop thinking we become a deaf and dumb mute?

The answer has to be simple and practical, and just like this journal, it has to be one of a kind, where what has to be done has never been done before. Nobody has been free from the illusionary Garden, because if someone was, they would have sent reinforcements to save the slaves and the Beasts from their nightmare they don’t know how to get out of. I don’t care how far you Fall – what a despicable Beast you knowingly and willingly have become – there are moments, and many of them, where you say to yourself that this is not the answer. What I am, what I have become, what I do, is disgusting, and there is no joy in what I do and have become.

You see, when we becomes cruel a rot sets in – in ourselves – and as we live with this rot we cannot avoid it. We become miserable with ourselves, which triggers unthinkable cruelty, which makes us more miserable. Now we are truly the living dead – devoid of Life and what made us Human. Our only thread to the realities of worlds are our fellow Beasts whom we congregate with – these monsters that we see before us that we have become. We look for Life in them, hoping to see what we can no longer see in ourselves, and yet all we see are ones drunk with power and self-importance.

These fools have lost touch with reality, namely that kindness is from where Life is born, and they become lost in the dystopian dream they imagined to be a utopia. They forgot the basics; the building blocks; the foundation – they forgot about kindness.

For me, my personal experiences with others is that we are too lost to be kind. We are grabbers and finger-pointers. We pull others down so that they may be as miserable as us. When we see how content others are it reflects how miserable and confused we are, so we hate them for what they are, instead of allowing their solidity to uplift us. Truly, we live in a mixed up Garden.

 

The problem is the thought – the Watcher spirit/Octopus that our uncertainty created that came to be known as Fear. This Beast that you and I are is the problem. We understand the cause of the problem – namely our uncertainty of finding ourselves in a place where we don’t belong. We understand the steps that led to our Fall in this dense space within the Garden, but what we don’t understand is how to fix the problem.

 

I saw a fifteen year old cat the other day that could not lift up its neck properly, and walked oddly at the hindquarters. On examination three lower neck vertebrae were found to be restricted. This was the problem. To assess the neck, I had to take off the flea collar. This was the cause of the problem: the cat was inhaling the noxious chemicals released from the collar which were settling over its brain primarily, as well as the neck and the kidneys.

By knowing the problem, as well as the cause of the problem, the disharmony within the cat was gone in the moment, and will not return as long as the collar is kept off.

 

That is the power and simplicity of understanding. No debate needed.

Our thoughts keep us glued to the illusion. That is the problem. The cause of the problem is the Fear we created from our uncertainty.

We understand the problem and the cause of the problem, so they are no more. This is the easy part, and it is the part that transforms us and detaches us from the illusion. But what keeps us here is the unknown. We fall back into our old ways because this is all we remember, and thus we feel safe with the familiar.

So now we have a new problem: what is this unknown – this stillness of the silence? And that answer only you can give me.

 

When I asked why Life is so cruel, I had to know the answer. I did not care where the answer took me – I had to know. I walked through a door to the world of the shadows where lost Beasts dwelled – a place that controlled the kind, where so many of the kind would eventually fall into. What I have come to see and understand has not made me a better person – I understand, but I am not free from my limited reality.

 

Of all the trillions of books written in this reality since the discovery of paper, this journal is a one of a kind, and I say this because if it was already written I would have found it. I would have chosen the easy way, rather than re-invent the wheel and walk through the shadows like the one before me. I went to other worlds to look for help and answers, but all I found was confusion similar to this world.

Now I will walk through another door. I understand Cruelty, now I will understand the Stillness of the Silence. My invite is for others to walk with me. Know what we do not know -  to be still and in this silence; to know and be everything, where everything falls back in on itself to become Oneness. I will walk through this door, just as I walked through the door into the shadows of Cruelty almost eight years ago to understand why we are all so horribly fucked up, even though we do our best.

 

The problem, the Watcher spirit/Octopus/Fear is removed, as well as the cause, our uncertainty; our not understanding. Now step through the door to reveal what is this place – this stillness of the silence. Stay there for as long as you can, until the chores of this reality pull you back. With each passing moment flex this muscle of silence where you make it stronger until you can control it at will and integrate it into this frequency in which you find yourself.

 

Only you can walk through this door. Through the previous one I walked alone. May I find company when I walk through this one.  

[steven geldenhuys]

17^th December, 2021

End of the journal: What the Animals Taught Me – a journal of self-discovery.

I wrote this journal to understand why Life is so cruel.

I understand.

(7 years, 10 months, 2 weeks of living, breathing and writing this journal.)

 

Now there is a new chapter in my existence.

I have known of and understood the shadows.

Now I will understand and be Love – what we naturally are.

[bobb]

3 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

Now that I know what my thoughts are – which is, I suppose you can say what I am

But where do they come from first, I am all on board with the collective unconscious, and when you know this then you know that the EVIL BASTARDS are constantly projecting into this space, and I fight back with thoughts of LOVE.

 

3 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

Truly, we live in a mixed up Garden

Exactly, but come into my Garden and mess with my flowers and I will drag you through a thorn bush backwards! Lovingly!

 

4 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

Our thoughts keep us glued to the illusion. That is the problem. The cause of the problem is the Fear we created from our uncertainty

And from uncertainty we have choice, but guide the choice by FEAR and you have no choice at all, keeping it in the dark so to speak.

 

4 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

to understand why we are all so horribly fucked up, even though we do our best

Now we are talking!

 

4 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

Through the previous one I walked alone. May I find company when I walk through this one

Yep, but you're buying the first round.

 

2 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

End of the journal: What the Animals Taught Me – a journal of self-discovery.

I too have been on this Discovery and I like Chicken and Beef to be best flavours, and no I do not wish to engage with conversation with my dinner before I eat it, something very unnatural about that.

 

2 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

Now I will understand and be Love – what we naturally are.

This is excellent observation, you see you need to be smacked around a bit before you truly understand the good things in life, just take it on the chin as they say, learn and move on, do better than before.

 

 

[bobb]

On 12/16/2021 at 2:53 PM, Truthspoon said:

 

I have a blog and a forum

 

Get to know me better. You seem like a cool fellow.

 

http://truthspoon.com

 

http://truthspoon.forumotion.co.uk/

 

 

We might have to put that off a bit, the synchronicities might rip a new quantum rabbit hole.

bj meet bj, weird huh.

[Truthspoon]

8 minutes ago, bobb said:

We might have to put that off a bit, the synchronicities might rip a new quantum rabbit hole.

bj meet bj, weird huh.

 

I have no idea what you're talking about....Should I?

[bobb]

12 minutes ago, Truthspoon said:

 

I have no idea what you're talking about....Should I?

Don't worry everyone says that to me, and no you should not, I am just saying hello, that's all, nothing more.

[JCP]

On 12/16/2021 at 12:47 AM, steven geldenhuys said:

As I lay in bed last night to go to sleep, I understood the importance of living in the stillness of the heart energy space – the stillness of the silence. I fell into the heart area and felt that rock that is the stillness there.

Then I fell asleep and a story was followed – it was something nonsensical. Then “the heavens opened” and it began to rain outside as I lay in bed sleeping. The downpour woke me up, and something inside of me said “go into the stillness of the silence.” This stopped the thought projector of the story going on in my mind as I slept, and what I felt when this story stopped, as I went into the silence, were these tentacles moving about in my brain. It was one of the most freakiest things I have experienced in writing this journal.

 

What I felt moving around in my brain, that I experienced as a story being told in my sleep state, was the Octopus/Watcher spirit playing with the “key-boards” of my brain.  It was then that the bombshell hit home and I understood who and what I am. We are our thoughts, and our thoughts are the Watcher spirit. Every time I tell my animals I love them – which is about seventy five billion times a day – that is the Watcher spirit. Every time I mow my lawn and these shitty thoughts play over and over inside of me – that is the Watcher spirit. This lost, lonely fart called Steven that wants more than anything to be happy and at peace – that is the Watcher spirit.

 

Boom!

 

This journal has answered some big questions, but the one that has been the most elusive has finally been answered, which is “who wrote this journal?” Every word – and there are well over a million of them – was written by the Watcher spirit; that Octopus that sits on the top of our brain and controls the show.

My goodness me.

 

This Octopus has told the story of what happened before the beginning of time, but there has been a catch-22 situation, which is: to be truly free, shut up and stop listening to me – stop giving me attention!

 

What more is there to say?

This “Beast” was born from our Fear. We put it there in our existence where it became us, and it has become trapped with our spirit, body form and Serpent soul in a place where we all don’t belong.

We gave the dense illusion our attention as we tried our best to survive and find a way out, but we should have gone within and just allowed the strand of Goodness/God within to shine to show us the way.

 

You are not your thoughts – you are not this Watcher spirit. You are the fields of Infinite Love – this strand; this speck of light within you. Do you understand this? Do you understand the one writing these words and the ones reading them want to be free of this illusion, so stop giving them attention. There is always something to be done – always something that needs to be cleaned up within the illusion. Stop doing this; stop following the thoughts of the Watcher spirit so that this Fear entity may be set free. It wants to be at peace; it wants to stop giving us instructions that we follow – it wants to be Home.

 

Be the rock of the stillness of the silence. Be this strand within that we all are. Be this, and we the strand shines, and all within are set free.

Do you understand what you have always been? Do you understand what you should be?

In the beginning was the word, and it was the word of the Watcher spirit. To be free of the illusion there cannot be a word. Live and be in the silence of the strand. Every time you think you entrap the Watcher spirit. Do you understand that you are not allowed to think, as this is not who you are? Do you understand that you be the silence as this is who you are? We are not living in a monastery now where we follow our vows of no speaking – we are living within the fields of Infinite Love. We are living in our Home. Have no pre-conceived ideas of what this is as you have forgotten this state. All I ask is open the door to Home by being in the stillness of the heart energy space. Know what you are – this stillness of the strand, and know what you were not – the mind of the Octopus/Watcher spirit. Shame, we created this monster and then we entrapped it within us.

 

Set it free.

Exist in the silence of the fields of Infinite Love.  

 

You write and express yourself well and I can relate with your words.

They remind me of an Eagles song called "Learn To Be Still"

 

I just watched a David Icke and Jean Nolan podcast that dovetails your message called "Our Reality is a Simulation". I think it is some of his best video work yet. He describes how we are living in a copy of Prime Earth, only deeply distorted from the original. Could this simulation be Hell and Prime Earth be Heaven? He also discusses love, fear, The Wetiko mind virus, manifestations, altered perceptions and provides many dots to connect. Here's a link:

https://api.banned.video/embed/61b7dbdd50c2701b6e1d7dde

 

Although I heard David Icke doesn't practice meditation, I do, and once my third eye was opened, it changed my life forever and opened doors that I never knew existed. I think it's a great way to remember who we are and does connect with infinite love. I've also found that dark forces can enter at that time too; but a quick reminder that it's my space, that they're intruding, and that they are not invited, is all it take to be rid of them. I consider praying talking to, and meditation listening to, the Creator. Thanx for your journal.

[steven geldenhuys]

The Stillness of the Silence

 

To enter this state, one needs to know what you are. To hang up your coat to enter a room, one needs to know that you had a coat on in the first place, and most importantly, to understand that this coat is not you.

 

We were doomed to fail before we even began. All we wanted was to be content – to be happy and enjoy Life. This was not too much to ask for, as deep down we are simple people, as in our roots are deep enough for us to understand that relationships build moments that build Life.

We could not look over the hill or over the seas, so we looked at where we were, and in this hamlet we found and built our moments. We done our best, but this would never be enough, as a Darkness began to shine over the lands, and the only weapon we had against this force was holding onto each others hands and standing strong. The animals learnt this early on. When a predator is in their midst, the group stands as one, and against many the lion has no choice but to retreat. Run and you die. Stand as one and you are safe.

 

There was no way that our peace could be maintained in our sanctuary as the innocent were being burnt in faraway lands. Eventually the fire would spread, touching us and those we loved. There was no chain to connect our link onto, and this was our inevitable downfall. Scatter the masses and you can pick them off one by one, and those that stand their ground, carrying on hitting them under they can no longer take the punch and they crumble, all the while knowing that you are safe as you decimate, as no one is coming to attack you the cruel.

 

We never stood a chance. We were always defeated, and always would be, as the scales were never in favour of the innocent, thanks to the proximity of our location, namely the illusionary Garden. The parasitic frequency of Deception – a worm – took over those within the Garden, and the Serpents that were Love became cruel Beasts. Worlds were built with weird and wonderful inhabitants, but always, we were up against a force we could not stop, as we were in a place where we should not be. Regardless of whether battles were won or lost, and even if there were no battles, our demise was inevitable, because no matter how hard we tried, we could just not get it right – our utopia and our simple, content existence was truly an illusion within an illusion.

 

It is only fair that one acknowledges this Beast that destroyed us time and time again by understanding it, and this we have. This monster is more entrapped than us, and eventually even the mighty fall. What a disaster. Nobody wins – not even the Darkness.

What should be moments of joy and peace are replaced by moments of orgasmic highs through our superficial pleasures of the flesh and our inherent nastiness within as we get the upper hand over the weak/innocent. Wow! And we call this Life.

 

To enter the Stillness of the Silence is not a fad; a new flavour of the month that is worthwhile exploring. It is not something we do so that blinkers may be placed over our eyes as our world around us falls apart. We are not running to hide, as this will never work. What we have always done has never worked, and this is so because what we apply and become is done in a place where we don’t belong. How can you build a sanctuary; a home on an illusion? It cannot be done, and yet we have tried again and again.

Step out of the swamp onto dry land, and from this new environment we can call it Home.

 

Now here is the bugger: I don’t know what this new environment is; I do not know what is this state within the Stillness of the Silence. I can give you my guesses and opinions, but I don’t know what it is. So the joke is I am telling you to enter something I have no understanding of. That is funny!

All I can say is that this new environment is the complete opposite of the one we know, and most importantly, I know that this place is where we belong. Can I be wrong? Damn right I can, but I am willing to take that chance, as where we are is not where we belong. I am tired of this place and have no intention of staying.

To enter the Stillness of the Silence requires a leap of faith, which I am prepared to take. To sit and wait for a helping hand is not an option, as God helps those who helps themselves, but would it not be Wow if the Creator walked with us. Who walks with us is not important right now, as we have to first walk through the door into the new room. How do we walk through the door?

 

The drivers within us; the first wave, is the Serpent soul and our spirit. We the dummy body form wait our turn as the soul and spirit enter this unknown that we have forgotten. How is it done; how do they enter this unknown?

 

The core of our survival, and I am talking about the Serpent soul and the spirit form, is making sure that we are safe. To be safe, we need to know ourselves and the elements around us, and from this intel, we may build our sanctuary to build a Life upon. I am not talking about bricks and mortar; I am talking about the understanding we have of ourselves and of Life. Zoom out into the unseen realms and understand that from here and our understanding of this place is where we looked to the future of our species. Many crossed over and embraced and became one with the Reptilian frequency of the illusion, and these Beasts became masters over us, yet the upper hand that we always had, which was unfortunately useless in the illusionary realm, was our good hearts. This is what we put to good use now, however to unleash this omnipotent force we have to release the core beliefs “that made survival possible” within the illusion. To step forwards through the door into the Stillness of the Silence, the soul and spirit need to step backwards; to zoom out, to see what they have missed to enter the fields of Infinite Love that have literally been right in front of their faces.

Throw away the building plans because they were a disaster and only brought disaster. What have you missed? It is something so obvious and simple. What is it?

What it is, is within our good hearts, and this why, on an unconscious level, we held onto our good hearts; our kindness as if our lives depended on it – because it did.

 

We ask the Serpent soul, our spirit form, and even us the body form to release what we have held so tightly onto. Release this now what we have forgotten, so that we may return to our true Home within the Stillness of the Silence. Just let go. Stop being afraid and uncertain. Release your good heart. I want to see what it is – this key to open the door to the Stillness of the Silence.

 

[steven geldenhuys]

Between last night and the early hours of this morning I went into the space of my wife and myself, looking for what we held onto within our heart energy space that we have all forgotten. The body and spirit form were scanned and assessed, but it was to the Serpent soul within that the search began in earnest, as this dude is the fastest link to the Infinite as it has been around the longest and thus knows the most.

 

Nothing was found.

 

When the strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness was found within our forms, what I found interesting was that its focal location is over the throat area, and I surmised this to be so as even on the physical body form there is a vast network of Endocrine glands around the throat area, and for me, and others, the Endocrine system is one of our connections to “out there.” Having the strand located at this strategic point connected our body and spirit to higher realms – this should have been the case anyway.

The strand should be over our throat area, but when it was discovered I found it hidden in our nose area.

 

It has been written in the journal about my mild infatuation with noses. When I express my love to my animals I have to squash their noses. Why I have always been drawn to this part of their anatomy to touch them with my love I never knew.

Everything within the illusion has been inverted. If you take the symbol of love, as in the heart, and you turn this sketch upside down, you will see the silhouette of a nose.

The reason why I never found anything in the heart energy field was because what should be there was not there – it was hidden in the nose area, as was the strand.

 

When a crack began to form within us and the illusion, as in something was wrong but we did not know what it was, this crack done what cracks do, namely it created division and separation. From one now became many as the parasite within created a want in us, leading to delusion and insanity. We trusted nobody, and we wanted everything, as in: “IT IS MINE!”

Those that kept their wits about them could see the writing on the wall, which was an inevitable clash of heads, and this is where what we were we hid. Love is Love. It is as simple as that, and cannot be simplified, as Love is everything. But within the illusionary Garden a force was manifesting, and our natural “weapon” to counter this force was the power of our Love within. This could never happen, as Love is Love and not something to be used to attack another in order to defend ourselves.

Remember, we were in the illusionary realm where there was a counter to what naturally was. The worm evoked insanity/instability and our Love within would not be used as a weapon, as this is not what we are. We are not fighters. We were not born to fight; we were born to create/play. What we were would not be tainted, and so what we were was dismantled and hidden within us. The heart energy field is the key to the Infinite, but this key was dismantled and hidden as it was of no use in the illusion. Now there was foul play at hand – something that Love was not allowed to see or understand, so it was laid to rest.

As a parent I understand this concept, where I shield my children from the filth of the world. For them to experience savagery does not make them a better person – it merely destroys them; it breaks the mirror.

 

Love is useless in the illusion because it has no purpose here, and this is so because it is not in its natural environment. The fall of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia created an impact zone, and from this zone the Serpent spirit was formed, with Semiramis as the queen bee. A queen bee may be the ruler, but in the hive it is not in control, and this was the case of Semiramis when she created her illusionary Garden and encouraged the Dragon and Serpent spirits to go and play therein.

It was our curiosity that fucked everything up. This unheard of state within the Infinite took a form within the Garden, and this parasite became the unknown God of all, as in it took all over. As was predicted when the crack began to appear, now there was no Love. Love is Love, but now there was purpose, as in do, and the reason why you do is to take; to hoard, to survive.

 

So understand that within the illusion Love is useless. Love exists within the fields of Infinite Love and nowhere else. Love cannot function in an unnatural environment because it is a state and not a tool or weapon. What this means, is to awaken and restore the Love within, it can only be used to return Home and for no other reason, because for anything else it is null and void.

 

From the nose area, release the Love that has been hidden there to fall to where it rightfully belongs, namely the heart energy space. This awakened space connects to the strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness at the throat area, and from here a link is created to the Infinite. When this happens you are Everything, but here in the illusion you are nothing, simply because an illusion is an illusion – it is nothing.

 

[steven geldenhuys]

Understand that what I have seen over the last seven years in my sleep state has not been our spirit Guides, or some Native American Indian that has crossed the Great Divide to come and give me a message, or aunt May that has come to ask me if I miss the cookies she baked for me.

What I see is real. What I see is the construct of the illusion. What I see is what happens to you and those you love as you go about Life, being content as long as the beers are cold and the specials at the sell-out sale put a smile on our face.

 

How many of us have the courage to understand and know what we are, where we are, and what controls us from the shadows?

 

I went to bed last night super-excited. At last I would see beings of Love. Knowing about the heart energy field, and how it was dismantled and hidden from us, and how this was restored was a breakthrough for me. I felt this new presence at the heart energy field and couldn’t wait to see what it revealed in my sleep state.

For the first time, I pulled myself out of my sleep state, anxious to see the goings on in the unseen. In other words, I woke myself up – the spirit and Serpent soul were awake like little excited children that were woken up early to drive to vacation.

 

The shaman of Carlos Castaneda says: “We have a predator that came from the depths of the cosmos and took over the rule of our lives.

They took us over because we are food to them, and they squeeze us mercilessly because we are their sustenance. Just as we rear chickens in coops, the predators rear us in human coops, humaneros. Therefore, their food is always available to them.”

 

They must have pinned me down and nailed me to the floor, because I needed every ounce of my might to wake up from my sleep state. I pulled myself up from a lying position, and what I saw was this Animal some distance from me. It was walking over others that were just like me – pinned down on the floor. As this Animal moved over each one on the floor it looked down at them, and when it was my turn for this Animal to be over me, I felt it draw my energy from my neck area.

I had found myself in my humaneros – my human coop, and this Animal was feeding from me.

 

Remember, what happens to me, happens to you. We are all trapped in a humaneros. We are food to Animals.

 

From this humaneros I found myself back in bed. A dream was implanted, and I was so disappointed that we had not moved on from being manipulated in this way.

I awoke from the implanted dream and saw these entities around my wife. They were all focused around her head. They saw that I could see them, and one of them flew over to me to get a closer look at me.

Take a piece of wire and bend it into a life-size form of a human shape. Now fill the shape of the wire structure with purple colour, then make the wire life-like and pliable, and this is what these entities looked like. They looked like purple wisps floating/flying around me.

 

I lay in bed and was beyond myself. It does not help to get angry or frustrated, but what would be helpful is to know when this shit is going to end. Come on man! When is enough enough?

 

I turned on my side to go to sleep again, as what more was there to do.

When I saw these entities around me, I spent a few minutes looking at them, and now and then I would flick them in the face with my finger so that they may know what I think of them. While they were around me, I felt these spasmic contractions just to the right and below my belly-button. Something was in my abdomen over this area that was about the size of my fist. When I turned on my side to sleep I felt another contraction there, and I thought to myself, “hold on, what is going on there?” I turned to lie on my back to focus on what was happening to me, and then these contractions of this fist sized structure within me got more frequent.

 

Within the illusion nothing is solid – think waves and frequencies and you understand that there is more to us than meets the eye. Between our legs, at the area behind our reproductive structures lies a canal within the waves and frequencies that make up us the spirit and body form. This canal extends from here all the way up to our heads. This is the cave of the Serpent soul/kundalini force within us. This canal, and this frequency snake is in all of us. If you are kind, your snake is Beautiful. If you are cruel, your snake is a Beast. What gives the Beast the upper hand over the Beautiful is its proximity – it is in the Reptilian frequency of the illusion, thus the Beast has the upper hand over the Beautiful. There are times when I feel the base of my left foot open and my leg begins to swell out. That is another Serpent soul; a Beast coming to attack my Serpent soul as it resides within its canal/cavern.

(The understandings of the journal are enough to close this entranceway, so don’t worry about that.)

 

So I lay in bed awake, and I began to hear the birds sing outside, meaning it is almost time to get up. But these contractions began to get more and more. Then I felt the canal open between my legs, and beings were released from this fist sized structure within my abdomen. I was giving birth to something within me, and if I say “me,” I assume it was the Serpent soul within me.

 

And this is the fun and games that happen as we go about life, wondering when will I move house, and will my car hold until I get money to buy a new one.

 

I don’t know what more to say or do.

[steven geldenhuys]

One must always carry on swimming – just because you can. Stand still and all you do is tread water; you never become better than what you were.

But there comes a time when one stops swimming, as you cannot swim anymore. You are not tired – you just know that you have gone as far as you can go. You know you have done your best, not just for yourself, but for others as well. You know that you have reached the end line, and there is only one thing left to do, and that is receive. What we mean by this is now there is no need to swim, as now you cruise down the river. You are carried by the current, and this is not wishful thinking, as you have always known the current is there – you just wanted to see how far you got going solo.

 

This is where I am now.

No more searching; no more needing to know. Now we cruise on the current of Infinite Love. There is nothing more I can do or say to set us free. I know I have done enough. What was experienced last night in my sleep state is irrelevant. Those purple wisps were beings of Love. Just as I have seen our cage; our coop, so too will I see our fields of Infinite Love.

21/12/21

 

Will everything be okay?

 

When you heal, you need to see the big picture – the seen and the unseen. From there, you need to understand the primary problem, and from there you need to understand the cause of the problem. Then you step back and do nothing, as something that is bigger than you heals, and I call this something Infinite Love.

That is how I heal – through understanding.

 

I have seen the big picture – the seen and unseen.

The primary problem was that we became trapped in an illusion.

The cause of the problem is the parasitic frequency of Deception.

Now stand back and allow this something bigger than you; this Infinite Love to heal.

 

Will everything be okay?

You betcha!

22/12/21

[steven geldenhuys]

IF

I COULD GIVE

YOU ANY GIFT,

I’D GIVE YOU

love

AND

laughter

A PEACEFUL HEART,

A SPECIAL DREAM

AND JOY

FOREVER AFTER.
 

   

[bobb]

8 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

IF

I COULD GIVE

YOU ANY GIFT,

I’D GIVE YOU

love

AND

laughter

A PEACEFUL HEART,

A SPECIAL DREAM

AND JOY

FOREVER AFTER.
 

   

 

Whats with the 'IF' statement, you mean I had to trawl through everything you have written, which must of taken hours of your time, and then find your all out of the essential spice called LOVE, IF? IF? IF?.....

No I am sorry but that aint good enough, i want , WILL statements, bucket loads of WILL statements, not, sorry, closed today we're out of stock...., what the frog, could you have not just said this in the beginning and be done with it.........                                                                                                                                                                                         IF                                                                                                        THE END.

 

 

There fixed it for ya!!!!!!

Edited December 22, 2021 by bobb
well that got horribly fuked up, meh

[steven geldenhuys]

When we Fell from the Garden, as in a place we were familiar with, we Fell into a more dense plane of existence, and the defining trait within all was uncertainty. We were all uncertain – what was without, as in around us, but most importantly, what was within – namely the parasitic frequency of Deception that made us who we are not meant to be.

Now fast-forward to the year 2021, and once again I am talking about where it matters, as in the less dense state of the unseen realms, as in the place where we go when we depart this physical body. When things began to go wrong in the illusionary Garden, as has been said, uncertainty was the defining and key state. Now, and I don’t know how long it has been there for, but the defining state within the unseen, and I will put my neck out and say it is in all the unseen realms, is “familiarity breeds contempt,” which is another way of saying that we lose respect for where we are – that Wow factor wears thin.

 

In the unseen Life goes on. Believe it or not, there is the drug trade there. There is the farmer there. Things are not perfect there as we slot into our new purpose. (There is a well-known actor whose spirit moves effortlessly between this physical world and the unseen/spirit world. He is a cruel man, and I have seen him carry out his ways of cruelty in the unseen while he plays his acting career here on Earth. He understands that the one is merely a less dense state than the other and has thus embraced both states.)

Somehow, somewhere, a part of us understands that we are not Home. Understand that the wool is knowingly pulled over our eyes, where exalted ones are con-artists who work for those from the shadows making us believe that this is all there is, but this deception is minimal, if not unheard of. You see, this place has to be home, otherwise what use was all the suffering we encountered in the seen/physical realms? We convince ourselves that this is all there is, and the reason for this is that there is no alternative.

For me, anything is better than this dump of the physical/seen realms. It’s like you going to visit someone and you don’t have to make food – what they serve you is a treat, regardless of what it is, as you did not have to make it. Similarly, when we depart the physical body, we go to something different, and let’s be honest, it is a beautiful place, but it is not Home. We are still caught up within the illusion, albeit a less dense state of the illusion. The fields of Infinite Love are real – that is Home.

 

What I am trying to say, is that there are problems in this false utopia in the unseen. What holds this place intact is religious beliefs. Now we are closer to our god, and this is Wow.

As below, so too above. When are we going to meet this great one? Familiarity breeds contempt, as in we lose respect for the lie.

I have seen and met Queen Semiramis. One night in my sleep state I was taken to her, and she showed me herself in a Human form. Looks wise, she was what I would call a stunner, and then as I went back to my body as it lay in bed, I saw her real form – half Dragon, half Serpent. Her presence is intoxicatingly Beautiful – you cannot help but bow down to her. Her power is something to behold – it is Beautiful beyond words. When you stop bowing, and lift your head up and look past your nose, you will see one that was the cruellest of the cruel.

 

Same shit, different place – the seen and unseen.

From seeing the unseen in my sleep state over the last few years, my new role as I lay in bed sleeping is an incubator.

Uncertainty is a bastard, especially when you know of those from the shadows, because one can never drop your guard down. The reality is that we are trapped in an illusion where Beasts rule, and how one overcomes this is by understanding the big picture. I have not experienced these fields of Infinite, but I know they are there, just as I cannot define this Love that is me and you, yet I know this is who and what we are. Understanding the big picture removes the boundaries of the illusion, and this knowing of the fields – which are what is real – pushes the illusion further from us.

What comes at night now, as with the Purple Wisps that came earlier on, are beings that plant the seeds of their offspring within the canal of the Serpent soul. They blow these “seeds” over my face for me to inhale them, and from there they settle to hatch within the canal. They know they are safe there, as the Game has been exposed, and the ways that always worked for control, as in stealth; the occult, cannot be played within this canal.

 

I write what I see and experience.

The reason for me writing now is to say that there will be a “wake up, shake-up” within the unseen realms to break this familiarity that breeds contempt. There will be a break in the old as the real reveals itself. This will be our final “Fall” as we begin the journey Home. The break in the ways of the unseen will be felt on the seen three days after it appeared in the unseen. What we are and what we have come to know as “all there is” will fall apart. The waves and frequencies that you see will begin to scatter and break as the fields of Infinite Love reveal themselves. This I have not seen or experienced, so one might say I have no authority to make such a prediction, but I say what I say because I see the contempt within the spiritual/unseen realms, and I know this will be no more – things cannot carry on the way they were because we have an understanding of the big picture.

 

There will be a wake up, shake-up.