Know what you are.

[steven geldenhuys]

We are a biological computer that has been programmed to be a food source; an emitter of energy so that those from the shadows (that we eventually also become) may feed from us.

As long as we feel that we have lessons to learn, and that we like and miss our world when we depart it, we remain in the loop of coming back (being reborn) into this frequency of planet Earth. The same is true for other species in other worlds.

When we become disillusioned and start to see through the lie, we once again Fall as there is no way out of this madness, and what I mean by this is that we lose our empathy – where we take of the energy of others to survive. This transition from “learner” and “do-gooder” to Beast is smooth and effortless, as already we the species of Hell feed from the animals and plants around us, and we destroy in the name of Survival and its close friend Greed.

 

I always wondered what gave these Beasts from the shadows the edge over us, where they do with us as they please, while we are a deaf and dumb paralysed mute against their cruel ways. The answer is us holding onto our beliefs, which creates the ignorance within us to what is out there and playing with us and our loved ones. The edge these Beasts have over us is that they accept what is within Hell and they make this state their own and play with it. We, on the other hand, hold onto what is Good, and we refuse to do what is bad. We are 100% correct in doing this, because what we are doing is holding onto our sanity in this awful, crazy place called Hell. We refuse to be cruel, because this is not who we are, and once again – rightly so. But, and this is a big BUT, we do not understand where we are. Knowledge is power, and the knowledge of these Beasts in knowing where they and we are, gives them the power over us.

We are in Hell boys and girls – we don’t know it, but these Beasts do, and this knowledge releases their inhibitions to embrace Hell and all that it offers. This broadening of their horizons opens them up to possibilities and strengths compared to us that hold onto our righteousness in a place where love brings primarily sorrow rather than joy.

Note that I say they have “knowledge,” compared to understanding. With knowledge you see the tree; with understanding you see the forest. The loss of empathy is the beginning of the end in terms of us destroying ourselves as all basic, common sense and reason is lost. We become stupid in the sense that we become insane, and one moment we are in bliss taking and doing what we want because we can, and the next we complete our final Fall into the Nothingness of the Forgotten, where we forget the Love within ourselves – what we are at our core.

 

There is something “bigger” than us, but this is not what many would call a God. It is a state of beauty that fills everything and encompasses everything. My children are not lesser than me – I would say they are their own individuals that stay in the same space as me. I am not “bigger” than them, just as what is “bigger” than all of us does not see itself in this light. Love is Love. There is no hierarchy or reverence in Love – it merely is, and it is beautiful in a way that words or the imagination cannot describe.  

 

The way out of this mess is to know what we are, so that from this foundation we may be one with this Love – the fields of Infinite Love.

We are a manufactured biological computer. Take my word for it when I say that a God – any God, would not create such a fragile piece of shit like us that has to destroy to survive. We have been manufactured within the realm of Hell, and as I have said before in the journal, I have been to these “laboratories” where Life-forms are made. The core of these Life-forms and Life itself is the strand of Love, and these celestial geneticists knew that in our quest to survive to meet another day the last thing we would look for is the Love within. We look without to survive – not within, and we live for the present and prepare for the future, rather than trace our steps backwards to understand how we got into this mess. It’s a Game called “go, go, go.”

 

This Love; this space of beauty is everywhere as it is everything. That we were manufactured by celestial geneticists to keep the Fallen Angels alive as their food source places us on a massive back-foot in terms of getting out of this mess. We are a raw, manufactured slate, which makes us absorb all the lies that come our way. We make these lies our own, and this gives us our personality and genetic traits, but my goodness me, have we ever taken a step back to look beyond ourselves?

Through seeing these Beasts in my sleep state practically every night for almost seven years now, I have come to understand Hell and its cruel ways. Through seeing these Beasts, I see what I don’t want to be, and as so many of my fellow species are like these Beasts, I shun those within our world as well as those from the shadows. They disgust me, because they go against everything that should be, which is laughter, joy, peace and innocence. The mistake I made was to not hold onto anything or anyone as I wanted no part of this mad world. I did not care to understand others, and the backlash of this is that I never got to understand myself.

In seeing Beasts through my Third Eye I was forced to see and understand myself so that I may not become like them, and most importantly, end up where they all end up.

 

You are a biological computer. To get an “upgrade,” you do the following:

·        First and foremost you must wish to be upgraded more than anything, as you understand that you are in a place where you don’t belong, and what you are is not what you are meant to be, as your essence is Love and nothing else.

·        Then be this Love that is everywhere by understanding it is there, and understanding that this is who and what you are. This Love becomes the core within you the biological computer.

·        Within the Game; the illusion, everything is energy/particles vibrating. Trust me when I say that these particles are not good for you, as they keep you dependent or suppressed with Hell. I make this statement as these particles are made within Hell for Hell, and not to set you free from this place. Understand that the core essence of Love that is within you allows you the biological Human body computer to play independently within this Game. In other words you are in the Game but not a part thereof. The first thing you play with is the particles/energy of Hell, as these particles make us some really cruel Beasts – in the seen and unseen worlds of Hell.  You play with these disharmonious particle/energy forms that contribute to Life and make up Life by not allowing them into your existence. All that you encompass (you, your Life and those you love) as well as all that encompasses you (the unseen) are shielded from this disharmonious energy/particles of Hell.  This is done because our time here is short, thus we don’t wish to fight off the seen and unseen nonsense within and around our forms. We choose to become a transmitter of Love and joy rather than a receiver to disharmony.

·        With the shield to disharmony up, now you are in a position to play with the frequencies in Hell. From your core state of Love, you wish for – you draw to you what would make your happy. Everybody would wish for money, as without money one cannot do much here, but as we all know, having money for the sake of having money does not bring happiness. (What brings happiness in our world is communication, where we share our lives with others. The joy of being in the presence of something that warms your biological heart energy field is what makes one happy, be it a person, animal, or nature.) So if you need a car to get somewhere as walking there takes up most of your time during the day, then go into the space of your silence and imagine the car you have in mind to buy. The car is not to show off, but to make Life more practical and comfortable. The frequency of the car now becomes yours – it is a part of you and will manifest within your existence. But before this happens, we need to go one step back: To manifest the car in your space you need to go into the showroom and buy the car – with money. So what you do is imagine someone you have heard about who has limitless money. Money is not important to these people as it is as limitless as the air they breathe, and this state has a specific frequency to it. You draw on this frequency that is around this person and you make it your own. Now the money will come to buy the car to make your Life more comfortable. My advice is draw frequencies to you that will allow you to lead a full life. Become an inspiration to yourself and to others. Be humble; be simple; keep your feet on the ground, by my goodness me – live a full life. One of the frequencies I drew to myself was of a well-known adventurer and traveller. I do not wish his life, as I have my own to lead, but what I am thankful for is sharing their frequency that they have created so that adventure and travel may come my way. This frequency I could have created myself as I wish for it from my core state of Love, but having a frequency that has “been-there-done-that” the experiences will manifest faster within my reality. Understand that we are not grabbers by taking on the frequencies of others. I promise you that when a frequency is taken/duplicated from a Life-force, one is given from you as well – if anything, it is your core Love. We are all in this mess together, and what makes one happy is communication, which is a mutual sharing because we can; because it makes us happy.

·        Next is to lose your biological identity – that form that is you and was molded by the greater or lesser extent that you held onto your empathy – the strand of Love within around which you were manufactured. This step is to prepare for the departure of our biological computer body form, as well as to open ourselves up to the wonders of the seen and the unseen while we are still within our planets frequency. Get in the habit of ignoring your thoughts so that spontaneity may come to the fore rather than predictable outcomes. What you wish for; the frequency you duplicate from others is a given – it is there, but now we need to get on with living Life. So we have to break the old mould so that the new may flood in. Ignore the predictable, routine thoughts, as well as the emotions of what makes us sad or happy. (Remember, this is to break the old you.) And lastly – and this is a tough one to understand – let go of everything you love. What we would call “love” has many definitions, but the general outcome is sorrow and heartache as this love is so disappointing, as we never knew who we are and from where we arose, which is a place called Hell. As you begin to depart this biological body computer, or decide to open yourself up to the wonders of what is, allow this Love that has become your known core to take you over. This Love, and you, as it is you, returns to the fields of Infinite Love where we belong. We are now Home and we stay there.

[rideforever]

You are not a computer, you a soul created by god, living in a very subtle living organism that is your sheath for this lifetime.

Certainly the only way out is merging with God, and that doesn't happen so easily.

Certainly our energy is being parasited by the low desperate dependent view of human life taught to us.

We are challenged.

We are on the cusp of a big transformation, and earth shattering transformation from an 'animal' to a creature in union with God.

It is a big big change, and it won't happen to everyone.

Life is a great journey, some perish on the way, like a river that runs, many things happen in it.

Make sure you make it to the source.

[steven geldenhuys]

nope. we are at the bottom of the food chain here in Hell. saw these fuckers every night in my sleep state. fill myself with the only true love that is here, which is the love within the animals. my saving grace was this love and seeing my attackers and possessors. many have fallen before me. i was lucky. i became immune to their poison. 

will reach the source, as this is what we all are.

 

thanks for the reply. all the best, steven

[DougASmall]

10 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

We are a biological computer that has been programmed to be a food source; an emitter of energy so that those from the shadows (that we eventually also become) may feed from us.

As long as we feel that we have lessons to learn, and that we like and miss our world when we depart it,

You got some parts right. 

Yes you are food for another race of beings. 

Biological computer, actually your body is a quasi crystal structure. 

Crystal's resonate to frequencies. 

They convert one form of energy into another. 

Your DNA is a transformer that has a 1:1 winding ratio. That's the two races yolked together. Energy comes from one race to the other. At that point it's tapped off to feed your locust. 

You can stop that easily. Do Romans 10.9. Sincerely. 

Everything you have said and done is recorded in you your DNA. 

 

Edited November 29, 2020 by DougASmall
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[steven geldenhuys]

hi Doug

 

Thanks for info. Appreciate it.

 

About seven years ago my Third Eye was opened. What this means, is that when my eyes closed to sleep at night i began to see what we are not allowed to see. What i saw was how these Beasts from the shadows feed from our energy. They access our sub-conscious mind and form what we would call a dream. When we follow the dream/story we give it attention/energy, and this energy they harness and feed from. This process i saw just about every night for the last six years and nine months. 

As i was not allowed to see this unseen, the cosmic assassins soon arrived to take me out, as well as the many snakes that possessed me. I would see the snakes, and then feel them inside of me as they curled up there to destroy or possess me. 

 

What i write is from person experience and not a belief system.

There is an evil system that is naive as their power is fleeting, as what they do goes against the natural order of what is. Yes, i understand these Beasts, as this ignorance is all they know. It is a pity they never looked further than their noses to see what else is out there. No doubt they enjoy their power, but it is fleeting - one moment they exist, and they next they are in the Nothingness of the Forgotten.

Surely it cannot be fun destroying others, but fun or not, one thing is for certain - they destroy themselves. I have seen this Forgotten place and those that dwell there.

 

Steven

 

[CosmoGenesis]

 

[Mateusz]

On 11/29/2020 at 4:52 PM, steven geldenhuys said:

nope. we are at the bottom of the food chain here in Hell. saw these fuckers every night in my sleep state. fill myself with the only true love that is here, which is the love within the animals. my saving grace was this love and seeing my attackers and possessors. many have fallen before me. i was lucky. i became immune to their poison. 

will reach the source, as this is what we all are.

 

thanks for the reply. all the best, steven

I think You are very right. I'm  only all the time afraid , I'm scared that these beasts invoke us make us born again and again on this earth. I'm very afraid that it won't finish, that after my death I will be born again on this planet not to go to heaven or other place but to be food of pain , fear again. I'm glad what you wrote.

[novymir]

20 hours ago, Mateusz said:

I think You are very right. I'm  only all the time afraid , I'm scared that these beasts invoke us make us born again and again on this earth. I'm very afraid that it won't finish, that after my death I will be born again on this planet not to go to heaven or other place but to be food of pain , fear again. I'm glad what you wrote.

The Truth in You, that IS You, Is Infinitely Greater and More Effective than any illusion or false idea. Re-establish conscious contact with that. Place your faith in that, not fear, trust in LOVE. Anything else is nothing, nowhere, only having the power/energy we give it. It's All in the mind, The Truth, and Reality, and the lies and nightmares. Faith means acceptance and believing in spite of seeming "evidence" to the contrary, the 5 senses cannot be trusted, perception is not necessarily true.

The difference between hallucination and Reality is the source; hallucination is sourced from fear, Reality is sourced from Love(Truth).

There can be much resistance--ego  is not our friend, it plays a double game, inferior/superior etc, it's the block, the deciever, it is the agent that attempts to block the door to Greater Awareness and Reality.

[DougASmall]

On 11/30/2020 at 12:40 AM, steven geldenhuys said:

We are a biological computer that has been programmed to be a food source; an emitter of energy so that those from the shadows (that we eventually also become) may feed from us.

Yes and No. 

You are consciousness. 

You are a light being trapped inside of the reptilian made body. 

You are definitely a food source. 

Your body is a crystalline structure. 

Function of crystal is to convert one sort of energy into another. 

Your DNA is two windings. 

You are feeding the reptiles and an insect doppelganger that will come out and feed on you. 

You are not supposed to be in a human host body. 

You are EXILES 

https://youtu.be/7v554QtlGKs

[steven geldenhuys]

thanks, but no thanks. 

the video was too disturbing. i know of the sickness out there - i don't have to see it.

[johnkim]

We are not “good” and they’re not “evil “ in the simplistic way.

 

perhaps we are “good” to our own species but we do breed, slaughter, and eat billions of animals and plants. We don’t blink a eye when we do that because they’re not the same species. 
 

same goes for the archon. We are their food sources just like how we eat animals. 

[steven geldenhuys]

My focus has always been on the big picture as to how we ended up in this mess. Am thankful I was pointed in the right direction within the unseen worlds – as this is where the nonsense breeds and grows from within the core of Hell.

Now I would like to touch on the seen world; our world, and then relate it to the unseen frequency/world.

 

As of 22^nd January, 2021 we hear of more people than often getting sick. Panic and fear is taking hold of many, and the bit of spontaneity and fun we had in our existence is slowly being eroded away. We are losing our essence that makes life worthwhile – we are losing our joy.

 

That our governments care for us and want the best for us is something I hold in great suspicion. I don’t believe they truly care about the man on the street. So when this world pandemic broke out, the governments were “there for us” – locking us in, literally, and destroying our economies.

Fools listened to fools, but they were only the cherry on top of the cake. The cake was pure, undiluted evil that began to roll out their long plan of enslavement and genetic mutation/modification of us the species on planet Earth.

 

Yesterday I listened to a clever man talking about the current state of the world in terms of the vaccination they want to make mandatory for this so-called pandemic. He is a clever man.

People have always gotten sick and died, but as this man says: “There is a new kid on the block” that is making people sick. He says it is EMF military waves. These electromagnetic waves can be broadcast through Wifi, satellites etc. This man says to treat patients without understanding the cause is meaningless, and how right he is. The EMF waves that the military and those that control/run it are destroying us, and I believe this to be true.

 

The difference between Sophia and Semiramis, is that Sophia is the silence/stillness of the Infinite, and Semiramis arose from the spin cycle of Sophia’s fall, which means that Semiramis is waveform in constant motion – the complete opposite to Sophia.

The worlds of Hell, as well as the frequency/space of Hell itself is made up of an electromagnetic frequency/waveform – this is the spin cycle that is Semiramis. This is the original EMF, and all the other EMF’s to follow were based on this original blueprint EMF that is Hell itself.

 

I cannot change the desk I am writing on from wood to water, as I am limited as a species and thus don’t have the capability to do so. Magicians can play with our seen world, but I cannot. But within the unseen world I can play, and the unseen always affects the seen. The unseen world – the world from which these Beasts rule – is less dense than ours, and in this less dense state I can play as I know this world and who reside therein for what they are – an illusion. I understand this world, as I understand how it came about, and with understanding we can play.

 

What I do know is stop the spin cycle of Semiramis – because I can, and because I Love her and all Life in her domain. Her spin cycle created a static energy, and this energy was harnessed to run Hell. What about the strand of the Creator within all Life? If this strand shone the way it should Hell would not exist. One moment you would be here, and the next you would be transformed.

The strand is the battery of Life, and if I said it was the power source of Hell, then I missed one vital component, and that is that the electricity that powers Hell is more from the static energy of Semiramis’ spin cycle.

This static energy flows in the opposite direction to the state of the strand within, and that is why everything is always in flux – we move from here to there, never knowing where we belong or what is real.

 

This static energy within the unseen world is grounded now by the Love that is – by knowing this static energy from Semiramis’ spin cycle exists. It is grounded/neutralised, and released with Love to Love.

What happens in the unseen follows on in the seen.

We were all going nowhere as long as we spun to the same frequency/waveform as Semiramis, and how Sophia is tied into this mess is through her fall that initiated this spin cycle.

This spin cycle is no more within the unseen of Hell. So be it. The seen worlds will follow suit. So be it.

1/22/2021

[atenea]

On 1/22/2021 at 8:15 AM, steven geldenhuys said:

My focus has always been on the big picture as to how we ended up in this mess. Am thankful I was pointed in the right direction within the unseen worlds – as this is where the nonsense breeds and grows from within the core of Hell.

Now I would like to touch on the seen world; our world, and then relate it to the unseen frequency/world.

 

As of 22^nd January, 2021 we hear of more people than often getting sick. Panic and fear is taking hold of many, and the bit of spontaneity and fun we had in our existence is slowly being eroded away. We are losing our essence that makes life worthwhile – we are losing our joy.

 

That our governments care for us and want the best for us is something I hold in great suspicion. I don’t believe they truly care about the man on the street. So when this world pandemic broke out, the governments were “there for us” – locking us in, literally, and destroying our economies.

Fools listened to fools, but they were only the cherry on top of the cake. The cake was pure, undiluted evil that began to roll out their long plan of enslavement and genetic mutation/modification of us the species on planet Earth.

 

Yesterday I listened to a clever man talking about the current state of the world in terms of the vaccination they want to make mandatory for this so-called pandemic. He is a clever man.

People have always gotten sick and died, but as this man says: “There is a new kid on the block” that is making people sick. He says it is EMF military waves. These electromagnetic waves can be broadcast through Wifi, satellites etc. This man says to treat patients without understanding the cause is meaningless, and how right he is. The EMF waves that the military and those that control/run it are destroying us, and I believe this to be true.

 

The difference between Sophia and Semiramis, is that Sophia is the silence/stillness of the Infinite, and Semiramis arose from the spin cycle of Sophia’s fall, which means that Semiramis is waveform in constant motion – the complete opposite to Sophia.

The worlds of Hell, as well as the frequency/space of Hell itself is made up of an electromagnetic frequency/waveform – this is the spin cycle that is Semiramis. This is the original EMF, and all the other EMF’s to follow were based on this original blueprint EMF that is Hell itself.

 

I cannot change the desk I am writing on from wood to water, as I am limited as a species and thus don’t have the capability to do so. Magicians can play with our seen world, but I cannot. But within the unseen world I can play, and the unseen always affects the seen. The unseen world – the world from which these Beasts rule – is less dense than ours, and in this less dense state I can play as I know this world and who reside therein for what they are – an illusion. I understand this world, as I understand how it came about, and with understanding we can play.

 

What I do know is stop the spin cycle of Semiramis – because I can, and because I Love her and all Life in her domain. Her spin cycle created a static energy, and this energy was harnessed to run Hell. What about the strand of the Creator within all Life? If this strand shone the way it should Hell would not exist. One moment you would be here, and the next you would be transformed.

The strand is the battery of Life, and if I said it was the power source of Hell, then I missed one vital component, and that is that the electricity that powers Hell is more from the static energy of Semiramis’ spin cycle.

This static energy flows in the opposite direction to the state of the strand within, and that is why everything is always in flux – we move from here to there, never knowing where we belong or what is real.

 

This static energy within the unseen world is grounded now by the Love that is – by knowing this static energy from Semiramis’ spin cycle exists. It is grounded/neutralised, and released with Love to Love.

What happens in the unseen follows on in the seen.

We were all going nowhere as long as we spun to the same frequency/waveform as Semiramis, and how Sophia is tied into this mess is through her fall that initiated this spin cycle.

This spin cycle is no more within the unseen of Hell. So be it. The seen worlds will follow suit. So be it.

1/22/2021

Agreed.

[steven geldenhuys]

There is a wild cat living on our piece of land. We began to feed it – as it looked emaciated, and when its hunger got the better of it, it would enter our house to eat our cats food.

Now the cat hangs around on the fringes of our garden. We walk up to it and give it affection and spend time with it, and this cat relishes in being a part of our lives. Every now and then it comes closer to the house and calls to us – it wants to be with us, but will not enter our house as our one cat is territorial.

 

My heart went out to this beautiful animal, as its isolation and loneliness are not normal. (This cat is not a lone leopard or tiger – it is caught up between worlds, the one the wilderness, and the other suburban life. It cannot find its place in either as it is permanently in neither.)

Take it from one who has been there and done that when I say: “No Man is an island – we belong together.”

For me, this is the crux of the problem within all worlds of Hell and their inhabitants, and that is that we do not belong here. We do not fit in; this place and what we have become is unnatural. No matter how hard we try, we don’t fit in here. And the reason for this is obvious: We do not belong here – this is not Home.

 

We are here, within Hell, but we belong on the other side of the river within the fields of the Infinite. How do we bridge this gap; what is the happy medium between the two so that our transition from one state to the next may be effortless?

We need to use what we have, and this is the strand of the Creator within, but equally important, we need to assess what we don’t have. The seat of power within our space is occupied by the Watcher spirit within. Incidentally, I have felt this entity within. When it reveals itself to me it passes down through my nose. Man-oh-man, this is not a pleasant sensation. This has happened only on two or three occasions. Of all the places within our forms this entity can take seat, it is located over our Third Eye region. Why there? Is there power there it is harnessing, or is it covering something up? I would say it’s a combination of both.

 

I need to dwell further to find that stepping stone between Hell and the Infinite.

So let’s start with the Watcher spirit within. To be more specific: What is this Beast holding and hiding from us?

What the strand of the Creator within us is, is access to Everything within the playing fields of Infinite Love. Liken the strand to a mirror, where through the strand the Infinite is reflected back at you.

This reflection has been blocked at where we would call the Third Eye region of our forms, and this is the true role of the Watcher spirit within: to block us seeing (and thus knowing) Everything. This knowing is part and parcel of the strand within – the one cannot exist without the other, but as has been said, this knowing from seeing through and being the strand has been blocked.

The Third Eye is not an organ or body part within our forms; it is a reflective location through which we become one with the Infinite.

 

Our awareness of a Watcher spirit within our midst was not enough to let it go and be free of it. Why was this so? I feel that we did not understand this Watcher spirit, and frankly I still don’t, but now we have an alternative to the Watcher – we can replace it with what should be. As always, we embrace this Watcher and give it Love. We never turn our backs on anything. If entities do not want our Love, then we walk right through them as they literally do not exist within our realm, as Love and the illusion are two different states.

 

The only way one can be oneself is by knowing oneself. Know and understand the role of the strand of the Creator within our midst. By being the strand we see and know all, and I am not talking about within our reality: what is implied is that we see what is real – the fields of the Infinite. This seeing and knowing that is “reflected” from the strand has been shadowed by the Watcher spirit within, and now this evil deed on behalf of the Watcher is no more.

Years ago, when I began seeing these Beasts from the shadows take my energy, I remember one night having enough of this nonsense. This entity was in what looked like a wheel-chair. I told him that my energy was not his to take, so he is not allowed to take my energy. I told him to give my energy back.

As hard as this Beast tried, he could not depart my space, as now he was caught out and didn’t know what to do. He gave me my energy back, and only then could he leave to go back to his world.

This is the power of understanding – of knowing what is, simply because it is.

 

And so it is now that the reflective “light” of the strand is once again allowed to shine as it should within our forms. This is our stepping stone into the Infinite that is in truth everywhere, as this is all that there is. Hell is an illusion – it is not real. That dummies chose to take control and have power within an illusion is beyond me, as what you have power over is nothing. You hold onto the air around you and you have nothing, and thus all your power is just that: Nothing!

 

The truth will set us free.

[steven geldenhuys]

A week short of seven years ago I needed to understand why Life is so cruel. Now I understand.

What I also understand is that unless we have touched the fields of the Infinite, we know and understand NOTHING, as this existence is where what Life should be exists. To be a master and a king within an illusion is not a title worth having. To have your little sanctuary amongst cruel beasts means nothing.

 

So now I ask: “How does one be within the fields of the Infinite; how does one be within the real realm; how does one be Home – a place where disharmony cannot exist?” Just as a doorway was opened so that I may understand Cruelty, now I ask that a doorway be opened so that I may know Beauty.

Have been there, done that, got the T-shirt – have had enough of this frequency and its insanity. Now I would like to know and be what is real – this realm behind the illusion that is everything.

Just as the wild cat that once lived amongst bushes and had to hunt to eat is now lying on the couch next to me and has found its home, so too would Steven like to find his Home, as this is where we all belong.

Have had enough of Serpents. Silly little fuckers that live on the high of an addiction and the misery of others. Truly a lost species within an illusionary realm. How low they have fallen. What a catastrophe that the innocent are their play things.

 

I walk out of this mess now, and the door that has been opened to the Infinite I leave open should these beasts too wish to enter. How low we have fallen. How cruel and insane we have become. May we forgive ourselves for being so shallow and self-centered. I forgive myself, for I never knew any better. We had no right to touch others with our insecurity. How could we be so insensitive?

This mess called Hell has spun out of control. With a door being opened to the Infinite, may the Love that is shine through and touch all of us.

[steven geldenhuys]

People speak of the heart energy field; the Love that is there, and so have I spoken about this all-important vortex many years ago in the journal.

The power-plant of energy that should exist within this place within our space is not there, and this morning by accident I understood why.

 

My youngest daughters eyesight is deteriorating. I needed to understand the cause of this phenomena, and what I felt was that the vibrant energy in her space stopped at the throat area – the head was devoid of this vibrancy, most notably over the eyes.

What is important to note is that this natural vibrancy within her was waning with each passing moment. What was also perplexing was that she was born with good vision, and then at some point in her life her eyes went bad. Why is this so?

Through some investigation it was found that at age seven things began to go tits-up, and what happened at this age (and this is with all of us) is that her Innocence was taken from her.

 

You cannot mix water with oil; you cannot have unpleasant beasts in the same space as the Beauty of Innocence, and this is so because the two states vibrate at completely different levels, which means that the one does not even know the other exists.

But what happens when you remove the “heart” of the Angel? The obvious answer is that the Angel falls – into the space of unpleasant beasts, where now it is a free-for-all.

How did Beasts get close enough to Angels to clip their wings; to remove the essence of their innocence? That’s easy: the Angels are in the space/frequency of Hell, so anything can be done to them, as here the laws of Hell prevail, which is: Do what you want when you want because you can – just don’t get caught out, otherwise the eggs on your face, and all see you for what you are, which is a cruel bastard. This is your bad luck, as your mates can continue doing what they always have from the shadows, and you have to lie low for a few thousand years.

This “being caught out” rarely, if ever happens, as the truth is twisted by the beings of Hell so that Hell may continue running as it should. The truth exposes cruel Beasts for what they are, and what they are, are powerless cowards that rule through deception and lies. With time they come to believe that their power is real, but it is not – all they have done is managed to control and destroy the Purity of Life, which allows them to no longer have a conscience as there is no Goodness out there staring them back in the face so show them what they have become.

That is why, at our core, we have all been touched by the Cruelty of Life, as this cruelty has been allowed to pervade into our systems. None of us comes away unscathed. We either become cruel, like these beasts, or we become shattered and drift aimlessly through Life. We exist, rather than live.

 

Can you imagine our world filled with the joy and laughter of innocent children? Can you imagine a world where children never grew up – where we all remained carefree and Beautiful?

What took away our innocence? Why did we stop playing just to play? Now I know the answer. At age seven our Innocence was taken from us, so that we may fit into the dense frequency of these cruel beasts in the seen and unseen. When our physical body dies our Innocence is returned to our astral forms, and thus we see the less dense plane as “Heaven,” but this heaven is not without, it is within – it is our Innocence that has been returned to us.

 

Years back I saw in my sleep state this lady that I called The Keeper of the Innocent. When you walk into a fancy restaurant they take your coat and hang it up for you in an open wardrobe. This was the image I saw of this Keeper – she took our Innocence and stored it until the time came when we would get it back.

I said in the journal that our Innocence is stored when we enter this dense plane of one of the “physical”  worlds of Hell, but this is not the case. If we entered a dense world in a dense state we would die off like flies within the first few weeks of birth. We need a catapult; a “lift,” and this is our Innocence that is with us when we are born into a world.

What is this Innocence? – It is an expression of the strand of the Creator within us. The Light/strand of the Creator is what it is, and how it is expressed is through our heart energy field, where we are Joyous and play. When I say they took away our Innocence, what is meant is they took away our heart energy field – the place through which the strand shines.

When we have finished Playing the heart space returns to the stillness/silence of the strand/Light, and we once again become one with the Infinite.

 

Our Play state; our heart energy field (this “field” cannot be described in words) was hijacked from us to keep us within the dense frequency so that we may feed the System as well as cruel Beasts.

Why would they return our Innocence to us when the body form dies? The answer is to keep the “balance /scales” of Life even, otherwise there would be complete chaos and we would destroy ourselves.

I can imagine that our time in the less dense plane of the astral/spirit world is short, because with our Innocence we will eventually see the Game – who controls us and what happened to us.

 

Game over.

When our Innocence was taken from us, a part of us dies – literally and figuratively. No more.

Our Innocence; our heart energy space returns to us now and stays with us forever more.

To those that wish it so, their Innocence is returned to them now and stays with them until it becomes one with the strand, and then the strand is the Infinite – we become one with it all; a state of Bliss that is everywhere and everything. Our time of Play is then over, and we just be as this is who we are.

 

[Karl Jacobs]

1 hour ago, steven geldenhuys said:

People speak of the heart energy field; the Love that is there, and so have I spoken about this all-important vortex many years ago in the journal.

 

Which journal are you speaking of here, Steven? Thank you.

[- TZC -]

How about we just say heyyaaeyaaaeyaeyaa

 

Worth a try

 

[steven geldenhuys]

When we begin to live from the heart energy field we no longer react to what the mind; the programme; the Game says. The mind normally responds to the mind, which releases an emotional state which feeds the System of Life.

By not reacting – by withdrawing from the state of feeding the mind, we no longer reinforce what we would call Life, and thus detach ourselves from the Game. The Game needs our reaction – we need to get all worked up and emotional, and how better to achieve this than by creating a System based on insanity and raw, undiluted cruelty.

Before we know it, our reactions become involuntary. When I see a known Human beast my back goes up against the wall, as such scum I cannot get my mind around as to why they are so cruel. Now I feel this emotion and hear my mind even when in the vicinity of such Beasts, but I no longer react to my involuntary state.

You see, what the Innocence within the heart energy field is, is the silence/stillness of the Infinite. The Infinite has nothing to say because it is everything. It merely is, whereas the frequency of Hell is the complete opposite – it has to have polarities of Good/Bad, Right/Wrong, Light/Darkness. Within these polarities we find our path, but for fucks sakes – there is no path; there is only the real place of Infinite Love. The polarities are there to send us through mazes while we feed the System – this cruel, sick Game where NOBODY wins.

 

The disaster is that we have been alone, and the reason for this is that we have become so embedded within this Game. Our naivety is our weakness, where we cannot understand why would others lie to us. What good ever comes out of  lie, so why on Earth would people lie? They lie because they are not good. They lie because they are insane, unable to understand how they are destroying themselves. Did these fools honestly believe that destruction is limited to those they control? Don’t they understand they are destroying themselves and those they love?

 

I do not write what I believe to be the truth, because this Steven is truly a lost, unhappy being. Such a lost entity could never write the truth.

I write what I see and feel. I see these Beasts from the shadows. I feel and smell them within and around me. This is what I write of – my experiences.

I also feel the presence of this Innocence around my heart energy field. I know it is there. I have seen the strand/Light of the Creator.

The point to make, is that as hard as these fuckers try to destroy all that is pure and joyous, they cannot suppress what is real. Give them their due – they have pulled off this feat since before the beginning of time. But one cannot destroy what is real. Oh yes, you can hide it through sorrow and blood shed, but like a gold bar lying on the floor of the deepest ocean that cannot rust or be tainted, the Love that is is there to be found by anyone who digs deep enough.

This morning I was reminded of a vision I saw a few months ago. I was at some university sports grounds that was packed full of spectators. These was a buzz there like no other. I stood amongst the crowd and I remembered that I had been there before, and I thought to myself that if only I had finished what I started then I would not have had to come back to this tertiary institution.

What I started in this lifetime to find a way out of this mess is not new. I have tried before and failed, and a few months back I came close to failing again as the sickness of Life got the better of me. Who knows – maybe I will fail again, but one thing is for sure, and that is that I will never rest until I am Home within the fields of Infinite Love. I know what I am, this biological computer with all its infiltrations and limitations, but I also know what I should be.

How of Earth do others get joy from being cruel to others. I say “joy” because they do it over and over again, so being cruel must make them joyous. How lost are these beings.

When I put a face mask on, I tell myself that those sick bastards that impose this fascism and cruelty will burn. I am not being bitter or hateful or condemning others when I say this. They will burn because of what they are doing to themselves. You silly, silly fools. When you face Love, which is inevitable as this is the only thing that is real, you will look at what you have allowed yourself to become, and what happens then?

 

As I withdraw from the System, an indifference is met with those that knowingly and intentionally are cruel. What this indifference does is remove their power from ones existence.

May they one day forgive themselves for what they have done. One forgives insanity, but what happens when insanity touches and destroys the innocent?

May a God of Love guide and show them the way – these last ones standing within the frequency of Hell and the Game they so calculatingly created. In your Game all lose – including yourselves. But I thank you. If it were not for me seeing the seen and unseen Beasts of Hell, I would have found a comfort zone within Hell, which would have been a fool’s paradise, as everyone would have been destroyed by your ways. By seeing the seen the unseen Beast I was spurred on to find a way out of this mess, so that I may be free from a world that doesn’t care. Thank you, you fuckers. Thank you for making me want to be better than this System, where I knew there had to be a better place than this Hell.

 

Goodbye.  

 

[Karl Jacobs]

18 hours ago, steven geldenhuys said:

I also feel the presence of this Innocence around my heart energy field. I know it is there. I have seen the strand/Light of the Creator.

 

Thank you for this important post.
I'm curious how you came to see this strand/Light of the Creator in you.

 

[steven geldenhuys]

hi

 

i built up a busy practice of treating horses. then one day as i walked towards this horse i was going to treat, i saw this speck of Light (about 3mm high) around this horse. i did not know at the time what i was looking at, but my reaction to seeing this sight stopped me in my tracks in more ways than one.

at that moment i understood that i knew nothing. i was earning a living giving horses pain relief, rather than addressing the cause of their pain so that they may remain pain free.

 

in the big picture i became humble. all beliefs were put aside, as deep down i understood that i know nothing of nothing. thus the journal is called "What the Animals Taught Me - a journal of self-discovery."

it was years later after this incident, when friends i loved betrayed me, that i asked the question "why is Life so cruel?" what happened to me happens to billions the world over every second of every day, but the difference was that i was going nowhere until i had an answer that made simple, basic, common sense to me. this opened my Third Eye and i began to see what rules us from the shadows.

 

the other day i fleetingly saw this strand again. this strand is everywhere, i just think we are so absorbed with the misery of Life that we cannot see what is staring us in the face. (the sorrow of this world and all words touch all of us - we are in this swamp together, where others pain becomes ours.) what a pity that i could not see Life for what it is through the experiences of laughter and joy. being dragged through Hell does not make us better people - it just just fucks us up more.

 

one needs to know of this strand, and then walk with it. life is about Joy and peace, as there is no time here for anything else as our time here is short. there is no better feeling than making others happy, including yourself, and this is the expression of the strand within this frequency. always find an excuse to be happy - because you can. the Light of the Creator will look after the rest, but always do your part and be kind.

 

steven

[novymir]

Yeah, it's coming...The Truth is unstoppable..."artificial intelligence" is an oxymoron...

Christ and the serpent. DONE. Within All. Not if, but when.

 

 

 

[novymir]

 

[rooey]

"one needs to know of this strand, and then walk with it. life is about Joy and peace, as there is no time here for anything else as our time here is short. there is no better feeling than making others happy, including yourself, and this is the expression of the strand within this frequency. always find an excuse to be happy - because you can. the Light of the Creator will look after the rest, but always do your part and be kind." 

that's beautiful man 

[steven geldenhuys]

They talk about space as being the final frontier, but the unknown is closer to home than we all could imagine.

I remember studying – not reading – David Ickes book “Infinite Love is the Only Truth Everything Else is Illusion.” In the book he speaks about the silence – the stillness. He says one should listen to ones thoughts as one would to a radio – the thoughts are not ours; they are not a part of us; they are separate from us.

His words regarding the silence either I never understood or I never took his advice to heart for my own good. Maybe the time was just not right for me to understand this universal truth: our mind is not our mind; our mind links us to the cruel Game of Life; as long as we listen to and react to the mind we will forever be entrapped within Hell.

 

They talk about people that have depth of character – genuine people that are well rounded and cannot be shaken by what Life throws at them. Their “depth” is their distance from what the mind tells them. They listen to something bigger than the voice/mind inside of them.

Over the last night or so I have practiced what I know to be the truth – I have gone within so that I cannot react to what is without. What I found remarkable was the immediate reaction of the mind. Our thinking is a form of lashing out – it is so superficial and uncanny to what we would expect from a civilized species. Either our mind is in the mode of “them versus us” or just “us.” We hardly, if ever – and I would say “never” – consider the greater good. It is always “us,” and applying/imposing what is important to us to others. It is our way or the highway. Our joy is by meeting other like-minded people like us, which confirms that what we are is okay.

 

Why is it so difficult to see that what the mind is, is the complete opposite to what people would call compassion and empathy, where we care about the state of our species and only want the best for all?

Within our illusionary world we see with light, and thus equate light with goodness. As we know, there is no Light and Dark, on the literal and figurative plane, there is only the Oneness beyond the illusion. Our fear has closed our eyes to what is Dark out there, and this is rightly so to a point, as fools walk into the thrill of the unknown, only to be consumed by it. But what if we knew of no fear, and more importantly, what if we used our fearless state to step into the unknown to find a way out of this mess for all, including ourselves? One cannot destroy a selfless being, as there is no being to destroy, as this being/entity considers others and not themselves, thus in reality this being does not exist.

The answer is that we would see the unseen – the place where literal Monsters dwell.

 

Within the illusion it is helpful to see the seen and unseen, but to get out of this mess one has to know the unknown, and this unknown that is our final frontier is the stillness/silence within us. In order to use words to explain this, one would say: “ We see the illusion with light, and we see the Infinite with the dark; the Infinite is the unknown/dark, and the illusion is the known/light.” I make these statements, as when I sink/drop down into the silence, there is this mass of blackness there. (Remember, we are using words to describe something we have forgotten and know nothing about. As we are limited within the illusion, so is our means of saying things. When I talk about my friend Earl as being a funky polar bear, what I imply is that if we saw him from our level of what we know, we would see a polar bear. From the perspective of the Infinite he is seen in his true state which is something you and I cannot fathom. So don’t see the words “light” and “dark” from what we believe these words to mean in our reality.)

 

The “blackness” within you; the black hole; the nothing that holds everything; the fields of Infinite Love, this is us – this stillness that has nothing to say or do as it knows everything as it is everything. It is a state of Bliss, of Joy, of Euphoria. Now compare this state to the superficial me, me, me reflex of the mind and understand how low we have fallen. We have nothing, we are nothing, but my goodness me, how important is our viewpoint and how right we are compared to the “them” out there.

We are scratching and living within a sliver of an illusion, compared to this state of Love that is Everything.

 

We the species of Hell within the worlds of Hell are slaves to cruel Beasts that rule us from the shadows. More specifically, we are their food source. As we are kept out of their agenda, it is fair to say that we are at the very bottom of the food chain. There is no others we can tread on, as there is nothing below us – we are the bottom of the barrel.

When I pass energy within my forms to cleanse myself, and this is especially needed after browsing through some of the responses to my postings on David Icke’s website forum, I feel the energy stop within the skull – as in the energy has nowhere to go from there. What I am trying to say is that our mind, within what we would call the head area, is the lowest point within Hell. Once again, in using limited language, our way back Home is downwards through our forms, and not upwards into some unknown realm. The way Home is through the silence of the heart energy field – away from the thoughts of the mind. This unknown; this silence; this “blackness/darkness” within our heart energy field is where we belong. The light of the illusion is not our home; the darkness of the silence within us is.

 

If you make an effort to be silent then you are within the illusion trying to get out of the illusion.

Just know what you are – that you are this Force within you that is everything. Anything else you hear or have an opinion about is not you. Get on with Life; do what you have to do, but do it within the stillness of your heart, as this stillness is what you are. This stillness brings joy, happiness, peace and contentment to you. You do not have to find these traits , as they are within you, but they can only be accessed if you become you.

Sure enough, the mind with say its 2 cents worth, but allow this talk to remind you what you are – the stillness of Infinite Love.

 

When David Icke spoke to me through his books seven years ago regarding this silence, I never got it, and this was because I had to make this understanding my own. Something was missing so that I could make this truth my own and be it. What was missing was the understanding as to why is Life so cruel to so many out there. It is cruel because we have forgotten this Love that is within us – this silence/stillness/strand of Love within us.

Remember this silence and be this silence. As you would exercise a muscle to strengthen it, be this stillness as you go about your tasks of Life, and with time all you will know is this silence/Love within. Then you are Home.