actually revealing too much of what one's aware of their programming is a good way to get the programmers to double down. Although that could be a trick of the mind, ie accepting that one has something (in this case 'trauma based mind control) and then so seeing more it, though that leaves the question, can trauma be totally denied and just not fed into at all (while in a healthy way)??
in convict prisons, the guards who punished the other convicts the most and were prized for this were former convicts, at what point is that just trauma recreating itself vs intentional mind control ?