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  1. I totally sympathise and kudos to you for trying! I had the same response with my family.
  2. A truly sinister dream which, if it was a movie, I would have enjoyed watching. However, I don't envy you enduring this for two years as it must have been truly traumatic! God knows what snapping the tooth off and stuffing it down your shirt means, but I think that's the freakest bit of all, as it's so bizarre.
  3. So weird that you wrote this, as for the last 4 nights or so, I have been woken up by birds tweeting really loudly around 1am ish. I live in the countryside and so I am used to all the normal sounds at night, but this was unusual enough for me to take note on what was happening. No idea if it means anything - probably not - but it was strange nevertheless!
  4. Gmail was down earlier but it is now working again for me right now.
  5. I've seen all of those films and loved them all. However, Prince of Darkness really got under my skin. For some reason this film kept coming back on me when thinking about the bigger spritual aspects of current events. The clip you posted where the woman puts her hand through the mirror to summon the darkness beyond, really freaks me out. Always did. I have no religious beliefs, but I do beleive that the PTB end game is to bring through something from the 'beyond' and give it physicality in this reality.
  6. Sorry, i'm a bit late to this party as it's the first time I have clicked on this thread, but I just wanted to say that your marionettes are amazing!
  7. Desperate times call for desperate measures I guess...? https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-9022047/Queen-94-Covid-vaccine-weeks-Prince-Philip-99.html#comments
  8. Or maybe into researching the stem cells in this particular creature... https://www.nytimes.com/2012/12/02/magazine/can-a-jellyfish-unlock-the-secret-of-immortality.html?pagewanted=all&_r=0
  9. ..."it has now emerged that frontline NHS workers will no longer be prioritised for the vaccine - which trials have shown is 95 per cent effective. Chris Hopson, chief executive of NHS Providers, said the initial supply will still be directed at the elderly and care home staff.." https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-9017607/NHS-workers-bumped-vaccine-priority-list-Pfizers-HALVES-deliveries.html Too many in the NHs have been vocal about NOT taking the vaccine, so I guess the PTB think they have dodged a bullet by saying they would be amongst the first to get it. After glorifying the NHS to the public, they certainly don't want same public to know that NHS doctors and nurses are not happy about being the first in line to try the vaccine out. If a doctor or nurse won't take it, then why would they?? However, the drive to kill off our old peeps is still on track....
  10. That magic money tree they have must be the size of a Giant Redwood. And of course there is this.... https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-9017473/MPs-slam-Bank-England-losing-track-50BILLION-banknotes.html
  11. ... and also this https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-9015711/Leaked-photo-Pentagon-UFO-task-force-shows-sliver-cube-hovering-Atlantic.html.
  12. I have a lot of time for Neil Oliver. His voice is one of sanity amidst the madness here.
  13. Article in question is on the front page of the Daily Fail - Britains most widely read 'newspaper' for plebs. https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-8983215/Tory-MP-rages-police-bundle-old-woman-van-protesting-outside-Parliament.html
  14. Scottish news just announced tonight that the Health secretary of the Scottish parliment is ' inviting' all four and a half million adults in Scotland to get the vaccine which is to be made available from December and the army is to help with this, with the most vulnerable to get it first.
  15. Edit: Just to say it was the Firth of Clyde and not Firth of Forth and 44 not 46 years later!
  16. The sheer horror of what is unfolding is bad enough when viewing it intellectually, but when it comes down to the personal experience and involves those you love, it just rips your heart out. I have tried to counter all this covid crap with reasoned argument, but I can't force the ones I love to read anything other than the MSM. They are genuinely not remotely interested in researching any other interpretation of events, as it would take effort and time they can't be bothered to give. My own daughter will accept this vaccine in the belief that she will be immune and can have a 'normal life' again. Weirdly, her life is anything but normal, living as she does like a hermit, afraid to go outside incase she gets mugged or raped, etc. She lives in fear. She is autistic, was home schooled by me (seriously thought she would be totally open to alternative stuff because of that- but apparently not!) and her life is all about gaming, painting and creative writing. She gets her opinions from her online friends (she's a real child of the digital age) and considers my ideas as uninformed and weird. I am unable to get through to her and when I try, she emotionally blackmails me by withdrawing from me. I love her more than life itself, but if I am going to lose her to a vaccine which will take her life and her mind, then I have nothing to lose but to force her to take on board that what I am saying is real, and not the bollocks she thinks it is.
  17. It was the long hot summer of 1976 and it was here that I had my first weird experience with the paranormal. I was 16 years old at the time and working on the Isle of Arran in a hotel for the summer. The hotel was on the edge of a bay looking westwards towards the heads of Ayr over the Firth of Forth. The staff chalet was about 20 feet from the main hotel. The other staff had stayed behind inside the hotel for a late night chat with the owners, but I was tired and wanted to get to bed, so I left alone and walked to the chalet. It was a very clear night with no wind or clouds. It was very quiet too. When I opened the door of the chalet, I glanced out the window before putting the light on. What I saw there would change my life. Beyond the window was a stretch of garden bordered with a hedge large enough to block the edge of the sea and the small beach down to it. The sea was about 80 feet from the chalet. Beyond this hedge I saw a large glowing triangle hanging in the air like nothing on this earth should be able to do. It was huge. For some reason despite the shock of what I was seeing, I quickly turned around to check to see if the shape I saw was a reflection on the glass from behind me. It wasn't. I turned back to the window and opened it wide to look out and the thing was still there. It wasn't moving or pulsating or anything. It was just hanging there. Everything was totally silent - including that thing. I felt as if I was glued to it unable to move (shock). I noticed that it seemed like a triangle on its side and I also noticed it hung beyond and above the hedge - important details in working out the size later on. I never saw a reflection on the water so it must have been closer to the shore given my eyeline. It was solid and I noticed that the light got denser in the centre but there were no lights as such as the whole thing was emmitting a solid yellow white light, which gave no definition other than its shape. In retrospect I realised that anything that bright would not have defined edges as such but it did. I'm sad to say I wasn't thinking very rationally and just stood frozen with my mouth hanging open whilst all the time thinking 'WTF is That?' I became aware of a crunching noise outside the chalet door and realised almost immediately, another staff member was approaching the chalet ajoined to mine. I screamed at her to look out the window and as soon as I shouted to her the triangle shot off in the blink of an eye. She saw nothing on her journey to the chalet nor from her window. When this thing left, it was soundless and I was left with the impression that it either took off in a direct straight line at a speed I couldn't fathom, or it was swallowed up by the night space around it like it shrunk to an atom in an instant. I can't remember the babbling I did after it left but I refused to go outside and when my room mate came in and I told her what I'd saw she never beleived me. No-one did. I spent the rest of that night afraid to sleep incase it came back for me. Why I thought that, I don't know. My mind was totally blown by this experience and on its heels,a few days later I had a spontaneous out of the body experience. I never had anything like it before and again my room mate who was in the room at the time of this OOBE, thought I was either just nuts or some kind of attention whore. I'm just an ordinary person, not given to showing off or sharing intimate stuff, but this experience became one of a few that have intruded on my life and left me searching for answers. Back in 1976 no-one talked about this stuff and it was not easy to get written information about it. Obviously nowadays, there is such a wealth of opinion which I have taken on board. When you get slapped in the face with something that shouldn't exist and in which you have had no prior knowledge of, it leads you to acknowledge that this world we live in, is a vastly stranger place than what we are taught it is. It was the begining of a journey for me, which 46 years later, I am still on.
  18. Thanks, we will do all we can to get there even if it breaks their stupid rules.
  19. F***ing knew it. Cant wait to see how Sturgeon reacts to this. No doubt Scotland will be on the receiving end of her need to go one better than Boris. My brother needs to get to Glasgow for an important appointment for probable kidney dialysis which has already been cancelled twice due to lockdown restrictions affecting travel and we need to leave today or tomorrow to get to it. We live in the hebrides and our ferries are all cancelled due to gales for next few days. Coupled with imminent lockdown, its looking increasingly likely that this will be another cancelled appointment. At this rate, my brother will be notched up as another Covid 19 statistic, when really it will be renal failure. Tell me i'm not the only one who harbours homicidal thoughts against these bastards.
  20. ..."The project is being funded by billionaire and Microsoft founder Bill Gates and pioneered by scientists at Harvard University".... ....."SCoPEx is, however, on hold, (NOT!!) amid fears that it could trigger a disastrous series of chain reactions, creating climate havoc in the form of serious droughts and hurricanes, and bring death to millions of people around the world.".... Bill Gates must be getting off on the thought of all those 'millions dying'. If he can't get get us one way, he will get us by another.
  21. Bloody hell...I am currently on the NHS website frantically trying to opt out. No way am I taking the chance i'd be able to 'feel' anything without anesthesia before I pop off.
  22. Real glad to know you are coping despite the horrible withdrawal. No idea what DDS massage is either! Good luck with your journey!
  23. What's the update on your journey with quitting? Would be really interested to know :)
  24. You do what you have to do to have quality of life and I don't think anyone could criticise you for what works for you. Given the times we live in, it may make it harder to stay off the tablets as the anxiety is drip fed into your mind on a daily basis. However, staying off them for the length of time you have already stayed off them, may mean you are nearly through the worst and your 'head' will become clearer and more functional. What to do...? In my case my head was never coherent anyway and the plus side of being on antidepressants, meant I could think clearer and have control over my reactions. The desensitisation was a blessing. Looking at the world through a goldfish bowl was preferable to looking at the world and seeing it how it was. Sometimes, you just have to get out of your 'mind' in order to live in the 'real world'. Steph made a good point which i've read in other places too, (let me paraphrase..) in that there would be something very wrong with you if you could remain sane in such a profoundly sick world. The thing with antidepressants is that the void of depression is replaced with a thick skin of non feeling. It's a safety net of sorts. I'm not sure coming off them after all this time would reverse any damage they have already done to me. I'm also doubtful if my mind would ever stay coalesced if I managed to come off them. I wouldn't advocate them to anyone and I know others who have been on for a short period of time, where they have really helped and had no withdrawal when they stopped. Others too have been on them and hated what it did to them. There is no right answer really. I do agree with Steph though that "Psychiatry is a pseudo-scientific cult of deception".
  25. I've been following this thread with interest. I have been on SSRI's for 20 years and have tried to come off them a few times without any success. The withdrawal was severe and disabling and indescribably horrible. It wasn't a matter of enduring it until the worst side effects were over, as after 6 weeks I was begging to be put back on them as I had no function to live at all. It felt as if my brain was having electric shocks all the time and I had severe anxiety and shaking. Even coming off them slowly, caused my function in life to crash. I have to say that in the beginning they helped my enormously as my anxiety was disabling. When I was prescribed these tablets I was never given a test to see if it was 'a chemical imbalance' and I was prescribed on symptoms only. Psychiatric services where I live are useless and have never helped me. I think anyone coming off antidepressants has to be very careful and honest with themselves, in that living with withdrawal 24/7 for months can do even more harm than good. However, that does not mean I wouldn't try again. Life and how I react to it plays a big part in my illness and if chemical imbalance is part of the illness then I don't know how I can deal with that. I do feel that nature and nurture play a big part of why people end up taking these things as how we think and how we react to the things that we have no control over make us sensitive to meltdown. If you go to a doctor with anxiety or depression their first action is to prescribe tablets whereas I think their first action would be to determine what (if any) kind of therapy may be useful. Mindfulness/CBT/ therapy is the only help available that the Psychiatric service offers to most folk. It may work for some but for me it has been a total waste of time. Talking to others with the same illness has been far more useful. All this stuff happening in the world just now doesn't help!
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