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  1. It is our interaction with each other that keeps the System of Life alive. We do more than express our opinion when we call a twat a twat or a wonderful person a wonderful person – what we do is interact with the machine of Life. And yet it is those moments in the presence of others we like that makes Life worthwhile living. Through love and heartache, and all the other emotions of the rainbow, we are embedded into Life within Hell. When I was touched by the cruelty of Life it was from friends that I loved who turned their backs on me and told lies about me. What was important to me i.e. friendship, fell apart, and from there I just saw people for who and what they are. I don’t have an ego, so on a subconscious level when people enter my space they don’t have to put up appearances, as I am what I am and have nothing to hide. People don’t show me their good side; they show me what they are, and boy-oh-boy how ugly so many of us are. By withdrawing and wanting nothing to do with Life connects us even deeper into the machine, as there it is, but it must leave us alone. Now we walk with a ball and chain around our ankles. Yesterday and this morning I reflected, and I wondered what happens when we are over the hurt, as well as the highs that Life threw at us? To those of you that have had a carefree life, understand that many have been cut deep by the cruelty of Life. These cuts run deep, and whenever we think they are healed, they pop open and we once again feel the pain. We try our best to make amends so that we may move on and get on with Life, but the reality is that we live in a maze of highs and lows. Last night as I lay in bed I understood that one needs to sever the umbilical chord with all Life. We need to stop doing what makes us Human, which is interacting with others through emotions. We are not Human, we are Love, and for us to be Love we need to shake off this Human side of us. What I am trying to say is be Kind, because this is who and what you are, and don’t be anything else. Don’t be Human, where you want to connect to others, as you are not connecting to them but to Life itself. Put another way: Always keep your side clean as you float away from the existence of Life. What the cruelty of Life does is lock us into the System – we become its prisoner as we swim from one emotion to another trying to get through this maze of filth, hoping to find a friend along the way. I met a friend. My wife was the only good thing that even happened to me in my life, and she turned out to be the worst thing that happened to me in my life. Sure, I can learn from all these experiences and move on, but here’s the rub – I don’t want to move on. I am tired of playing this game called Life. It’s not for me. Oh yes, I will get the upper hand, but I don’t like playing this Game. By not connecting to others, you rise up and dissociate from Hell. I am not saying you become a snob and ignore people. What I am saying is that we have always been in this fight together, holding hands and being there for each other, no matter what. Well guess what – this brothers and sisters in arms doesn’t work. All we do is feed monsters that rule us from the shadows. I refuse to carry on being a part of this System and to our answer as a way out, which is “Stick together.” I assure you that I will always be a part of my species, but this connection is through the Love that we all are. We need to start living in Love and not in Hell. I will never walk away from those that ask for my help because they want to be helped, but I will help on my terms, which is Love and not emotions. There comes a time in your existence where it is you with you, and this is because you are leading your life and not the life of others. It is you with you. All the hurts and highs have been washed away. What happens from there? Do you climb back in the ring and go another few rounds with Life, or do you move on and get on being you? For me, I have been there, done that, got the T-shirt. Kindness begins with you being kind to yourself. You be happy for you. Detach from Life, because believe you me, you won’t find your happiness there. You cannot uplift others when you are on the same plane as them. To uplift, one needs to rise up, and how one rises up is to disconnect from what we were attached to. “Well Steven, that all sounds great, but it is easier said than done.” I am not talking to you, I am talking to your astral form and the Serpent soul within you – I am talking to the unseen. We the biological computer need to understand the change in plans, where we no longer do what was always done. Now we float away from this mess called Life within Hell. Now for the first time you have free will: To stay or to go. Stay and fight the fight, or go Home. If you fight, then fight with yourself, as the innocent are coming Home with me.
  2. Now one goes through a reflection phase. Once the dust has settled, where too from here.
  3. Let go of all injustices that have been done to you, and let go of all injustices that you have done to others. We have lived in an insane place where others have forgotten to care – about themselves and others. Just let go of the past and start anew. Burn those speeches you have rehearsed so many times for when the time was right to confront those insane, cruel monsters that broke your heart without theirs skipping a beat. Just let go and start living. Our time here is short. 12:15 3/5/2021. The question one needs to ask is what makes the frequency of Hell unnatural? What keeps us on the road to self-destruction? Queen Semiramis saw the field the Sophia created for the Dragon children to play in, and she too wanted such a field for her Serpent children. Semiramis created the illusionary Garden, and she told the Dragon and Serpent children to come and play in her Garden. Many bit of the apple; they took of the frequency and entered the illusion. The invitation of Semiramis to play in her Garden was meant well – there was no ill intent. But what her invitation well done was create an impulse that was never before felt within the fields of Infinite Love. What this was, was curiosity. “What else could there possibly be?” This new impulse was harmless within the fields, as Love is Love and there is nothing else, but within the illusionary Garden this curiosity could take hold and form into an entity. The parasitic frequency of Deception was born within the illusionary Garden, and we were all none the wiser to this worm that infiltrated our illusionary forms as we played within the illusionary Garden. This worm meant no harm – it merely was what it was, a frequency that we created from an unknown state called curiosity. This parasite is what locks us into Hell, and keeps the ball rolling downhill where, sooner or later, we implode. Then we become Beasts, and from there fall into the Nothingness of the Forgotten, where we forget what we are, which is damn-fine folke. What happens that allows us to cross over from a frequency where we do our best to survive and do good, to one where we feed from the innocent and destroy their lives at will? I remember once having a dream implanted, and when I awoke from the dream to see who had implanted it, I saw thankful entities what were courteous and kind. They had to eat, so they took from my energy, but this never stopped them from having a good heart. Why could these Beasts from the shadows not be the same – humble and thankful? The fall of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia created an impact zone. From her impact Life was born, namely the Seprent/Serpent with Semiramis at their helm. The illusionary Garden of Semiramis was created by her, who is half Seprent, half Dragon, thus the frequency of the Garden at its base foundation is reptilian. When one crosses over to become a Beast, one embraces this Serpent frequency, and this is why when I see those monsters in my sleep state, be they Human looking or other shapes, they all turn into a snake at the drop of a hat. Their forms, be it Human or other, are just a front to fool themselves that they still are what they were, but this is not the case – they are snakes now. Do whatever you want when you want – Life is a ball here in the shadows, but the flip side is that you are a full-blown reptilian. What I disaster! What a fall from grace! And all of this shit – all this heartache, misery, confusion, fear, survival, arose from a worm implanting itself within our forms. This dude takes, he take our energy, and as he takes we think it is us taking, but this is not the case. We survive to keep this worm alive and we don’t even know it. Now we come to the good part! I was awoken from my sleep state last night to see someone who had female energy draped in a brown monks robe with the hood over the head to cover the face. She had a staff in her hand, and she pushed the top of the staff towards me. I felt something enter my abdominal area. This force would spend the next half hour or so healing my body and astral forms, as well as the Serpent within. A good chunk of that time period was over the left, lower side of my mouth. From the left corner of your lips draw a line down to your chin. In this area resides the parasitic frequency of Deception – that worm that feeds. This force within me worked hard on removing this worm, as it has been embedded within all Life since before the beginning of time. Now the frequency; the understanding is out there. Go into the silence and remove this parasite from your forms by knowing where it is and understanding that it has no place within your existence. In that moment it is released with Love to Love. Now we are no longer unnatural; now the ball can spin in the other direction. When the worm was removed from my space, I felt a lot of negativity within me being released. This is the stored energy/frequency through association of being in a place where we don’t belong and doing what is unnatural. We are thankful to this entity that came to help all of us. Now Hell can stop spinning on a collision course. For the first time ever, cruelty will no longer have the upper hand over the innocent and all Life. With the parasite removed, the System falls apart, and the strand of Inherent Goodness/Godness that the System by default suppressed, can now come to the fore. For this I am most thankful. 4th May, 2021
  4. It was as if a graveyard had just come alive. What came last night were a mass of skeletal beings. They swept over the lands, feeding from those they encountered, and me and my family as we lay in bed sleeping were in their path. What they were doing was what you and I do every day – they were surviving, just like us. There is no difference between their existence and ours, because at our core we are all surviving. This is the down side to being in a place where you don’t belong: you become unnatural; you become a savage. Shame, those bony mongrels were once like you and me – more than anything, they just wanted to be happy. I do not want to save their Beasts, where I live my life to help them, as this is not necessarily the answer. Many don’t want to be saved. What I want to do is give them an option, where they can save themselves. Then I can walk away, knowing they will be okay when the time is right for them to make an about-turn in their existence. So what can Steven do to help, and by help we imply placing these entities in the right direction Homeward bound? (I once again stress that there are no beliefs from my part, as beliefs entail that me/we are right and everyone else is wrong. My goodness me, my ego is in check. As much as I understand we are all in this mess, I know that I cannot help anyone unless I help myself, and how I help myself is to uncover the raw truth so that the truth may set us free. I do not see The Wisdom Goddess Sophia or Queen Semiramis as greater than me, because from the perspective of Love there is no hierarchy. The night Semiramis came to visit me in my room I was blown away by her power – it was majestic, where one cannot help but bow down to this all-powerful presence. Her power was beautiful, but at whose expense? For what did she use her power, to control and suppress, or to set free? Her power pushed me down so that I may know how small I am – her power did not lift me up and set me free. Semiramis was power, she was not Love. As us men know, ego and power go hand in hand, and it stands out for all to see – and it is disgusting. You have an ego to rise above others, and eventually there is only one way, and it is to fall, as what you are is unnatural, even here in Hell. Lift others up, and your rise up with them. Those that don’t want to be lifted, you leave them be – with the means to help themselves should they one day wish to do so.) What I give to those that came last night, as well as to their kin and all those like them in Hell, is my Love. When we walk past a beggar on the street we don’t look at them. Maybe this is so because we don’t want to see the pity in their eyes, or maybe we understand that we cannot help ourselves, let alone them as well. I acknowledge these Beasts from the shadows, and I give them Love. My arms embrace all of them. When one crosses over to live within the shadows and become a Beast were you feed from the naïve, what you do is lose your conscience – your good heart. This is why I have been so shell-shocked by the cruel behaviour of my fellow species, because us Humans should know better. I have been floored by unkind and cruel people, and that is why I have time for these Beasts from the shadows but little consideration for my own, as we truly have lost our way as we think nothing of destroying the innocent. We should have known better. What we do to others we do to ourselves – times fifty. When I go into the space of Sophia and Semiramis now I feel movement around their heart space. What this means is that they are beginning to once again express their Love, so that all may be touched by their Love. For this I am thankful. 3rd May, 2021 (Happy birthday mom. May you leave this frequency soon so that you may no longer suffer. Love you.)
  5. When you are getting ready to go to bed and you smell these fuckers around you, then you know there is fun and games coming your way. The dream was implanted, and when I awoke from it to see who implanted it, I saw a Human looking male. This guy was dramatic – his outstretched arm and chest were parallel to me as he waited in this pose for my energy to accumulate so that he may eat from it. He took a handful of my energy and put it in his mouth to eat, and let’s just say the ecstasy on his face was something to behold. This was short-lived, as I told him to give my energy back. Rage and shock took him over as his moments of pleasure were removed from his space, and I felt whatever pet he had enter my forms and attach to my kidneys so that they may get my energy directly from the source. This I have felt before – where a Serpent will bite directly into my kidney and draw the energy from there rather than go through the implanted dream process. As shocked as this fucker was, as angry was I. I pulled their teeth, telling them that all power they have is no more, as they have abused their power. All harm they done in the past, present and future was made null and void. What they done to others was undone. I went on and on depriving these shits of what they saw as normal. The backlash from them was something else. They attacked and attacked, but this meant nothing to me, as my anger was not only towards them, but also to myself for my dismal inadequacies in still allowing filth to enter my space. I called on the strand of Inherent Goodness/Godness at my throat area, and told it to come to the party – to become active. This strand could have been Casper the friendly ghost, because I felt it there, but it was useless and meant nothing in terms of being an active participant in my existence. Everything I tried to activate this strand did not work. Let’s say, for example, that you have a restricted pelvic joint. A message is sent from this joint area via your nervous system to the brain, informing the brain to fix the problem area. If, after a period of time, the brain cannot fix the joint restriction in the pelvis by, for example, sending more blood to the area to remove the toxins there, the section of the brain that is linked to the health of that pelvic area will alter its state. Now the disharmony at the pelvic area creates a disharmonious area, what I would call a “flat spot,” over the brain. After a further time period the brain would see its flat spot as normal, and we begin to live with our pain, as this is the way things are. When I heal a patient, I have to feel for this flat spot on the brain so that this normal may once again be seen as abnormal and corrected. I have to feel the changes on the brain so that I know the healing may be lasting. We, the biological computer, and all Life within all the worlds and dimensions of Hell are formed around this essence of Life – this strand of Creation within us. If this strand was active there would be no Life – there would only be Oneness for all within the fields of Infinite Love. So as we know, our strand, and all the strands within all Life are pretty well fucked up, as in useless. How is this so? Using the above example, let’s say our strand is the restricted pelvic joint. An impulse is sent to the central computer/brain telling it of the problem there, and efforts are made to fix the problem. But what if the problem arose from the central computer/brain? Our strand is linked to the Creator, and what if the problem is with the Creator, which it is – and this is why our spark is flat. That Queen Semiramis and The Wisdom Goddess Sophia are down and out and fucked up is a given – this I have seen. What is also a given is that everything written in this journal is to help them and you and me (in that order.) What we need to address now is to awaken this flat spot on Sophia and Semiramis so that our strand may light up and be what it is. I go into the space of Semiramis with the intent of making this wrong right, and what I feel is no disharmony within her forms. What I feel is this presence within this Darkness that is detached from all, in other words, there is no flat spot, but there is also no connection between her and Life, meaning the spark/connection between her and Life/ the strand is not there. We do the same with Sophia, and the feeling I get is of a lot satellite in space, just drifting – there is no connection to nothing. Have they forgotten their children? Have they forgotten themselves; the one through abuse and the other through insanity? I remember the one ayahuasca ceremony where a voice kept on saying to me over and over “Remember what you are.” This voice shook my body as I lay on the mattress, where my physical body moved from side to side as this voice tried to “wake me up” so that I may remember what I am. Now I know what I am, and I know that this strand is pretty useless, as a Creator and a God have forgotten what they are. How do we fix this problem? There is no problem at the pelvic region and there is no problem at the brain, the problem is that there is no nervous system/link between the two. To receive all the help we can get, I ask now this voice what we need to remember, so that this understanding may be passed onto all Life, and of course Sophia and Semiramis. What do we need to remember? I feel the Blackness of eternity, and in this Blackness I feel this circular motion around my throat area. This is the strand that was given from the Source so that from the stillness Life may be expressed. From nothing/the stillness, comes everything/Life. Life begins to Play. The strand creates a form/body, and through this body the stillness/Source may experience itself. I feel this Life that I am from the Source. This is creation, and this is what The Wisdom Goddess Sophia created from the Source so that the Source may Play and express itself. This state of what I am I infuse into Sophia and Semiramis so that they may know what they created, and thus know what they are. (Semiramis also created, albeit an illusion.) 07:44 2nd May, 2021
  6. They hammered me last night in my sleep state. Implanted dreams kept me pinned to the floor – they went full-out with maximum emotional connection to their story/dream. Was a bad night. 28/04/2021 Why has there never been Divine intervention, as in this frequency of Hell has been infused with Love, where Love wins and has the upper hand, and not the cruel? My guess is that we have been so focused on persevering and getting things right that we have never stood back and allowed Love to take over. For my guess to have some validity, we had to have known what we are, what ruled us from the unseen, and what happened that we got into this mess in the first place. All three of those boxes have been ticket – the understanding is out there -and Steven has stood back to allow Love to intervene, because my goodness me, how small, fragile and insignificant am I compared to what is real. The one advantage the innocent have always had over cruelty is that what innocence is, is Love, and Love is natural, whereas cruelty is unnatural. The truth is real/natural, and lies are unnatural. That is why telling a lie is the ultimate sin, because it pulls you further and further away from the truth, which is what you are. When I walked up to that horse all those years ago and I saw that speck of light around it, something within me made me understand that what I am compared to what I have just seen is light years apart. I knew then that I truly know nothing, and even now, after all the horrible shit I have been through, I know that I am so small and insignificant compared to what we all should be. So with understanding, and with being what is real/natural, it is only natural that the fields of Infinite Love may shine upon us and touch us. I really and truly have no more understandings to pass on. What I ask for is to be what I am. What this is, is the me that was born from the Source of the Infinite – the children that The Wisdom Goddess Sophia created to Play. I do not want to be holier than holy and be close to my God; I do not want my beliefs to be passed onto others; I do not want the filth out there to suffer, because they will do that to themselves. All I want is for me to be me. Joy, Laughter, Bliss Happiness, Contentment, Peace – these are all what we naturally are. Am I asking too much, for me to be me? I don’t think so. My request is valid. After about the two years mark I was certain this journal was over. Over five years later here I sit still typing. Wow! Yesterday evening Steven took the first step out of his confined, locked-up world – I attended a community meeting. As I sat there amongst the crowd I understood how small, fragile and lost we all are. We do our best while cruel Beasts from the shadows feed from our energy. I understand now that there are no nasty or cruel people, there are only fucked up people. To be cruel to others, and not understand that what you do to them is what you do to yourself (times fifty), surely you must be truly fucked up. Why would we knowingly self-destruct and destroy ourselves? To each their own. I am nothing, and please understand that I am nothing! And yet within me and you is everything. I am tired of being nothing. I am tired of being lonely. I am tired of being not where I belong. I cannot shed any more tears as I stand over the lands and see how beauty is destroyed by others who do not even blink an eye as they crush the innocent. There is only so much you and I can do. I do not ask for Divine intervention. All I ask is for me to be me. Then we are Divine, and no intervention is needed. 30/04/2021
  7. At six thirty, on the evening of April 26th, 2021 I released the frequency of this journal with its understandings into the frequency hologram of Hell, so that all within Hell may benefit. It has been like creating a computer program, and when the program is complete, you press Enter and let the program run into the System. We re-write the old program by filling in the gaps as to what happened before the beginning of time that resulted in us getting into this mess. Now the System understands – how and why it was created and where we should all be, including the System/frequency of Hell. So be it. (980 089 words) There are many worlds within the frequency of Hell, and there are also many dimensions. In frequency, we can say that there is a horizontal band for example, and the worlds and those that inhabit them are similar. I remember being chased and almost caught by a fox as it shot at me with its weapon. This was on one of the different, yet similar world to ours. Now imagine layers of frequencies above or below this horizontal band. I call these spaces dimensions, as what is there is entities we cannot put into words. What came last night was from a different dimension. The frequency of the journal went out into all frequencies and dimensions, as what came last night was to test the authenticity of Steven. I was sleeping face down when I smelt the entity around me. It almost like pre-empted me to turn around so that I could have its focus and attention. The implanted dream was of me being in a room with other people. We reached out and took gifts. I climbed a ladder and retrieved a pearl. Someone showed me a device on a necklace that was connected to the pearl, as in they worked together in harmony. My friend wanted this magnificent and one of a kind possession, so I gave it to him. Then a voice was speaking that had the presence of something larger than life. This voice was reprimanding this one lady. As the voice spoke I countered it – defending this lady. I awoke from these implanted dreams that were to test me to see what entity had implanted them. It looked like water, and protruding from the water was a face, but all one could see was the faces round nose. I swore at this entity as I wondered why it just didn’t look into my energy field to see the being that I was – why these stupid tests. Go within and clean up shop. Still your mind, and in this state allow the Love that is to go within your forms to clear up the Disharmony within. Man-oh-man, we have all stuffed up, so we don’t want you in the way with your guilt or uncertain emotions. Just be quiet as the Love that is clears away the frequency crap within you. The world without you is a representation of the world/frequency within you. Clean up shop inside so that you may emit from within to without. The beautiful world/frequency that is within you will then manifest without you, as this world is a reflection of you. Place this cleaning up shop process on auto-correct, where it is always on. You just play your part of the deal – be kind to yourself and others. 27/04/2021
  8. When the parasitic frequency of Deception took us over within the illusionary Garden of Semiramis, in simple English, the head began to rule the heart energy field. Reason took over spontaneous knowing. But what kept us down, where we had no option but to reason, rather than know, was the Watcher spirit. One needs to ask why would someone keep others down and out, as how can you be happy when your tyranny has made others miserable? The only answer that makes sense is our insanity, where we saw that our needs were seen to rather than what is best for the greater good. One could call this tyranny an expression of survival, where if I don’t kill or suppress you, you will do the same to me. In no time we became Beasts. The removal of the Watcher spirit allows us to rise and stand independent within ourselves. 14:05 on 25/04/2021 Am unsure if have written about the effects of shock on us, so will mention it again here. Any shock to the system, be it anything from bad news to physical trauma, temporarily shifts the astral from the body form. If the two bodies are not aligned properly once the effects of the shock are subdued, we can never fully recover from what happened to us. Our fragile state becomes even more fragile, and as hard as we try, we just can’t move on and get ahead with our lives. That is because we are out of sync within. As a unit we can stand united and strong, but shock separates all within, from the cells within us the biological computer, to our union with the Serpent soul within, and all those within the seen and unseen to whom we are bonded. The effects of being dumped on a planet/frequency where we don’t belong had a shearing on our forms. This has been healed, but the shock of being placed in a world where we don’t belong, where you kill or be killed, the shock of this horror story that continues to this day has not been addressed. I am also including those within all the worlds of Hell – those who were matched with the planet to where they belong, but sooner or later became disillusioned as the reality set in that this is not their true Home. In Hell you ultimately have two paths: become a Beast, or fall into the Nothingness of the Forgotten (this is the souls suicide.) Either way, sooner or later, we become destroyed, regardless what the mystics, poets or optimists tell us. This journal says “Toss that!” – we would like another option, and that is return to the fields of Infinite Love where we the strand belongs. We remove this shock now from our forms that arose from us being in a place where we don’t belong. The removal of this shock is also applied to the Dragon and Serpent spirits, and their initial subdued shock within the illusionary Garden when they understood that something was wrong with them, but they never had the courage to face themselves and see what they were becoming. Put simply: the shock of being in a place where we don’t belong is removed now from all Life-forms within Hell. This has been done so that we may move forwards to where we belong. So be it. 09:29 on 26th April, 2021. So I will give you my take on what we should have done as we found ourselves in a place where we didn’t belong. We should have looked at ourselves; we should have had the courage to see what we had become. Know what you are. From seeing ourselves and knowing ourselves, there was work to be done on ourselves, because we don’t like being savages. (To this day blood is spilt and nature destroyed so that we may survive.) From day one, it should have been you with you; how can I be better than what I am? The courage to know your faults would have destroyed the parasitic frequency of Deception within you. From there it is you with you. Now you look after yourself, for two reasons: the first is that you Love yourself and only want the best for yourself, and the second is that in your world what makes you truly happy is the happiness/contentment of others, and as you are okay, you help find the happiness of others, so “me” and “we” become us. This for me, is the trick of Life that we all missed: we never had the courage or time or inclination to look at the Beast we had become and remove this Beast from our existence as this is not the entity/frequency/body/person that we want to be. We accepted this shit that stared back at us in the mirror, and before we knew it, we embraced others like us and destroyed the weak, or we just kept quiet and got on with living. It is for none to judge, but it is for all to move on and be what we are, which is kindness, so that the strand within may unfold. The trick is to care. Begin with yourself, where there is no filth from the unseen and seen playing with and controlling you. From this foundation you find your feet to know yourself, and from there open yourself up to help where help is needed and appreciated. The old Steven wanted nothing to do with anybody, but this door is broken down to help the innocent. You cannot believe how tired I am of writing this journal, or on a deeper level, I am so tired of surviving and being in a place where I don’t belong. Have I said enough, where we may pick ourselves up and be happy in our world as we walk Home? I have nothing more left inside of me.
  9. It was twice in the journal that I quoted The Lady (the demon that controlled Ann Haywood) from the book The Demon Syndrome by Nancy Osborn with Ann Haywood. The first quote was: “The companionship of the unseen is nothing new. It has always been with us but never apparent.” The second quote was: “Every human being has been assigned a spirit entity that watches over each soul.” The spirit entity is what I call the Watcher spirit, and the soul it watches over is the Serpent soul, your BFF (best friend forever.) This Watcher spirit is what, in our limited sense of reality, will look like an octopus to us. Once again I was wrong. According to Steven, the Watcher is controlling us the biological computer, but this is not true, and I say so because The Lady knows more than me according to what is happening within the unseen, and she said “…….a spirit entity watches over each soul” – the Serpent soul. Years back I had to go into the centre of town to solve a then three year problem with our municipal electricity account thanks to incompetent government officials. As I walked out the building I was assaulted in broad daylight on a busy road by two scum of the Earth. These fuckers harassed me, which was bad, but what I found a thousand times worse was that nobody came to my aide. Nobody! This is something you have to experience to understand – to witness how spineless we the Human species have become. This is why evil has swept the lands – because scum, cowardly villains know they will be met with no opposition. What power would those two thugs have had if someone walking by and told them to me leave me alone? How many innocent would have been saved over the thousands of years if we stepped forward and said: “Leave them alone!” Well now is your chance. Tell the Watcher spirit to leave the Serpent soul alone. As a third party intervene and make a wrong right. Just like me, hundreds of millions before me have asked for help from Divine intervention. The track record of help coming our way has been abysmal – so many have been slaughtered holding onto their beliefs till the very end. I do not want to be one more of them. I cannot wait and hope. There is a Serpent soul within me. One night this ogre looking fool came towards me in my sleep state. I saw my Serpent soul standing its ground and hissing at this humungous entity. The message was clear: “Stay away from Steven!” Yet within this Serpent soul resides a Watcher spirit, so that we may all know our place in Hell. The Serpent that I have sworn at so often in this journal because I never knew any better – I just assumed this snake within me was a foe, this soul has loved me more than anything. And now, through understanding, I intent to make a wrong right. I cannot wait for Divine help, because I do not know how long I will have to wait, but I will say one thing: the Serpent soul within I will help now. As a third party I tell this Watcher spirit to depart the Serpent soul so that it may be free and no longer controlled. This abuse on the innocent will no longer happen under my watch. Just as the biological computer called the Human race needs help, so too does the Serpent soul within us need help. Grow a spine and tell the Watcher spirit to leave your Serpent soul alone. It would have done the same for you.
  10. When I saw that Serpent arise from the body of the man lying on the floor during that ayahuasca ceremony all those years ago, I was blown away. With time I came to understand that a Serpent is within all of us – this is the Serpent soul; our best friend we never knew existed. I am not being sarcastic – this Serpent within is inseparable from you; it loves you immensely, but is overwhelmed by what is out there, as are we. Months back I was asked to check on this one lady who was not well. I was blown away to feel this octopus entity on her astral form over her forehead area. What I felt was the Watcher spirit, and this is in all of us. The Watcher spirit is the Games warden – it makes sure everything in Hell is kept intact. That is why we all do our best, but at the end of the day all we have is hope. We are not in control of our lives and our destiny, and the reason for this is that the Watcher rules our roost. This morning as I lay in bed I tried to feel for my Watcher within. I felt nothing, and maybe this is because what I am is the Watcher, but honestly I don’t know. The saying: “If you don’t control your mind, someone else will” is a sad testimony to us the species of Hell, because we do not have a mind. Our genetic make-up defines our character, but our mind is that of the Watcher spirit. This octopus is potent, and once again I will be honest: I don’t have the foggiest idea of how to get rid of it so that our lives and that of the Watcher may be separate so that each may go their own way. Why have all those within all the worlds of Hell never returned Home to the fields of Infinite Love? Why have those advanced, highly intelligent life-forms out there never sussed this silly game we call Life? The answer is because their lives/existence has truly never been their own, thanks to the coordinated and controlled invasion of the Watcher spirit within our lives. We are all going nowhere – that includes the good, the bad, and the ugly – until this Watcher spirit departs our forms. This entity is the glue that holds Hell together so that all may remain within Hell. What makes sense is for the strand within to shine forth, as this will remove the presence of the Watcher spirit, but my guess is that the strand is suppressed by the one suppressing us. What also makes sense is that the strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness within us is not the Watcher spirits too suppress. Who gave this entity rights over something that does not belong to it? The strand is from the Creator, and thus is for the Creator to control and no other. We ask the Creator; the Wisdom Goddess Sophia, to awaken/release the strand within out forms so that we may become an expression of this strand. With the strand within awakened this will remove the Watcher spirit from our space. There is only so much that you and I can do. The bottom line is that we all need help, and now is one of those times that we need help. We ask the one from whom the strand arose to awaken the strand within all of us so that we may be our own, independent entity.
  11. Years back in my sleep state I was shown a glimpse of what is going on out there as we go about our business doing our best to survive. The setting was this yacht of sorts. There were about six or seven really pretty girls on deck. (Don’t recall seeing men – had my eye on the girls.) There was this frenzy about these people, as in something exciting was about to happen. They all lay down on the floor of the deck, waiting in eager anticipation for what was to come about. Their bodies morphed into giant slugs. Then I was at the setting of a fire in a building. Those trapped in the fire were beyond themselves in fear. A “firefighter” came to the aide of one of the frantic people, where this “firefighter” then proceeded to morph into a slug and attack this man. (They attacked to transform, where the victim became infused with the slug genetic code, thus expanding the numbers of this race.) The next setting was of this prostitute having sex with this guy. Same thing – as she was humping this guy, she morphed into a slug to attack her victim, who freaked out when he saw what was riding him transformed into. Then it was Stevens turn. Now I was no longer a spectator. As I lay in bed, I saw this slug engulf me. I saw its little tongue swirl within me – this was to alter my genetic code so that the code of the slug could transform me at will – as what happens to those before me. I filled myself with Love, rather than fear, and this wasted space left my space. I can give you more tales of what I have seen. No doubt you have also seen, but as there is no sound explanation for what you have just seen, you erase the moment from your reality. What I am asking you to do, is step out of your comfort zone and open yourself to what is within and without you – in the seen and unseen. If you are too afraid to look, then the hiding place of these monsters is safe, and they can continue with their games of control. Expose the thief, and his power is no more, as his power was through deception – of you not seeing them. See them, know them, and tell them to bugger off. Everything that has been written in this journal is for our astral/spirit form to comprehend. Through the unseen the seen transforms.
  12. Over the years I have done my best to find a satisfactory definition for being in the state of silence. What does it mean to be still? When you understand that the chaos, cruelty, incompetence, and sheer insanity is there to keep us locked into the illusion, especially on an emotional level, and you understand that there will always be something to ponder over and get worked up about, then you ask yourself the question: “What then?” The madness will not stop, so when do you decide to take the adult step and bail ship? When do you decide to go beyond the rainbow and not come back; when do you detach from this madness? The answer is when you decide to. The silence is not meditating or finding quiet time. The silence is a state that is you. It is you detached from the chaotic frequency within and around you. The silence is living a decision that you decided to make and take. The silence is at last you becoming an adult, where we don’t get all emotional and caught up in the literal insanity around us. It is about you and you and nobody else but you. Searching for answers and following those who feel they know better cannot carry on forever. There has to come a time when it is you with you. This will not stop the insanity out there, but it will stop the insanity from touching you. You cannot change the world, but you can change your world. The life of others is not yours to live, but there comes a time when you decide how to live your life, where the insanity is not allowed to touch you. As I am sitting here writing these words, there are things that need to be done – important things that, for example, affect my health and that of the community thanks to the incompetence of those in authority. These things will not go away until those who have failed are held accountable for their failures and correct them. This takes time and energy, and this I will do. But within me is the silence – this detachment from the chaos of the seen and unseen. As long as Steven lives on this planet he will do. The intent of his doing is to be happy and live Life to its fullest. This can only be achieved by being in the silence. The spoken word, or expression of the silence, is kindness. Kindness means you have respect for yourself and others. Through respect, like attracts like. Answers are found, rather than frustrations. There is filth out there that I have no intention of interacting with – this is the street-smart reality of Life. I do not avoid these entities or people, as this is rude, rather they are not in my world, as in my world it is filled with kindness, which is respect for myself and others, which these filth don’t have. The trick is to be fearless. When you are fearless you can see what needs to be seen and done. Know to be fearless, but also know not to be stupid. Don’t go where you will waste your time and energy. Don’t go where you will get burnt. How will we know these things? – By listening to yourself and always being kind. Remember, it starts with you. Expect and receive the best for yourself, because you are the best. So be it.
  13. (What many of these dummy secret societies do is use hand signals as a form of communication. Each hand signal has a code, or meaning to it. On a deeper level, each hand signal represents a frequency, which connects to the frequency of the society that is within the unseen. Wow, if only these fools knew how they were used to be abused. If only you knew what you were playing with from the unseen, and how these entities care for none but themselves! I have met the planet we should have been sent to. It is beautiful, but it is not Home. My astral form with go there for R & R (rest and recuperation) because we need this recovery time. We will receive from this planet, and for what we receive we will be thankful through the act of giving. We will give our kindness, and our understanding of where we are from and what happened where worlds were born in a place we all don’t belong – including these worlds. My astral will be one with this world, and we will become best of friends. Each step together is homeward bound. Sex in its true form is a state of play – this is something we have to experience on this new home of ours for us to understand. The other morning I was given this word that came to me with a forceful energy from the right side of my brain. The word was Nyatsi. I looked up the word, and in an African language it means the lover of a married person. In the primitive frequency that we created on planet Earth this I am not, but in the new planet, I am a lover/friend to one whom is married to the frequency of the Creator, as only the frequency/strand of the Creator that is within our true planet can create something so beautiful. We are all Nyatsi’s. The astral form in its transformed and heightened state connects to us the body form, where “gifts” will be bestowed upon us to lift us out of the mess we find ourselves in. To each their own as in how and when these “gifts” will be presented. Remember, take to give – to yourself and others, and always listen to your good heart – never give just to give. Give where it will uplift, and never forget the simplicity and power of a smile or a hug. What Steven does to connect to this Gaia; this planet, either directly or through my astral form, is I use a hand signal, which is in truth a frequency. I cup both hands separately, as in each hand can hold water therein. Then I place the one hand under the other, which symbolizes for me a cup that runneths over. What we are talking about is done with Love/Kindness, otherwise it cannot be done at all. The release of the strand of the Creator within is the outcome of being one with this Gaia/planet, so that we may all be Home. Until the strand is released, we are all but an illusion. So be it.) 20/04/2021
  14. Went to bed last night and I just couldn’t fall asleep. A part of me was awake – waiting and anticipating something. Over the years I learnt to see the unseen more clearly by gently pressing against my closed eyelids with the nail side of my thumbs. So after about an hour or so of lying in bed trying to sleep, I decided to see into the unseen. This was the first time I could say that I was curious to see, as the track record of seeing into the unseen only brought forth what was out there, namely monsters. What I saw was the world/frequency we were earmarked to initially inhabit. I did not see landscapes or pictures, rather I saw patterns and symbols. This was the core construct of this world that I saw, as are patterns the construct of all worlds. Emit a light energy of sorts onto the pattern and voila – a holographic world is born and appears before your eyes. What I saw was beautiful and cannot be described in words. Then I fell asleep and a dream was implanted of me being in a large communal kitchen that was filled with people. This group of men were taking these people, one by one, and throwing them outside, as in this is their kitchen and nobody else is allowed there. I awoke from the dream to see the one who had implanted it – he was sitting on a sun-deck sort of chair and was literally and figuratively looking down on me, as in who do I think I am? How I awoke from the dream was from the sensation that something was tickling my feed in a forceful manner. I remember lying in bed sleeping and then I jerked my legs away from what was touching my feet. As soon as I saw the guy in the chair I felt what was around my feet enter by body forms at my ankle region. From there, I turned on my back and said to myself: “Let’s see what happens to those that do what they want when they want – because they can, but actually they can’t?” In that moment what was within and around me just fried away. From there, something happened that I cannot really recall ever happening in my life – I went into a deep, peaceful sleep. What I awoke to from this sleep I would like to talk about. To live, means that we are in control of our lives and our destiny. Nobody within the seen and unseen worlds of Hell was ever lived – we have all survived. Here on the blue planet, what is the core of our survival technique? Another question that gives the same answer, is what is the focal point and height of our pleasure here on planet Earth? “Well Steven, the answer is obvious, and what is wrong with having sex?” Of course, there is nothing wrong with sex, especially between people who care for each other and are connected to each other. That we have de-based this act to a primitive savagery, where we see the act as the one and only goal throughout life is something that as a species is best kept to ourselves so that others don’t see how low we have fallen. One of the regular occurances I have seen from the unseen is how a naked couple hovers around me, while the two of them are getting intimate. Their job is for their aroused state to rub off on the couple whom they are around in the seen world. These intimate couples I have often seen around me, and no doubt they are the world over. The point to make, is that for those from the shadows that rule over us, the orgasm is vital to their existence. In between seeing the patterns of this world that was made for us, I saw fleetingly a lady. She had the form of a Human, but when you looked at her it was as if there was a world within her. The colors that made up her face and hair were something else. She asked an open question, as in she already knew the answer to the question. She said: “Were you born from savages?” When I fell into that deep, peaceful sleep, my guess is that my astral form was taken to a place where this planet/frequency could define what we the Human species had become. What I am about to say is not to be funny, sarcastic or derogatory – I am saying the truth. When I came around from this deep, peaceful sleep, where we the species of Hell had just been defined, what was there that we were – that was for all to see? I awoke from this deep sleep to two definitive states: the one was that I had an erection, and the other was that I wanted more than anything to have sex with someone. This is the core basis of our lives, and it is the one sure pleaser – sex! That is funny, but it sure as hell is also sad. It started with the realization of the term “What then?” That was the first sentence written in this journal seven years, two months, two weeks, and three days ago. Could those cruel fuckers ever imagined that their cruel deeds would bring forth a journal where I am listening to the planet we should have inhabited, where seeing the Creator, as well as what many would define as god, namely Semiramis, has been as natural as breathing? My question to you, as you walk the path alone so that you may know yourself, is “What then?” What is beyond survival and the orgasm? Do you want to know of Life beyond this savage and baseless state, because believe you me, we have never lived. There is more to our existence than surviving. Your path is not to perdition. I have walked the path, so the pathway is open for you. You just need to answer the question “What then?” What happens when you have fucked the beauty king or queen of your dreams more times than what you could ever imagine? What happens after seeing all the beautiful sunsets the worlds over for a trillion times and more? What happens after you have held your loved ones in your arms and told them you love them? What then? My advice is go home to the planet that was manufactured for you. She is waiting for you. Have a good rest, and from there go Home to the fields of Infinite Love.
  15. Stubborn; hard-arse; own worst enemy; not willing to embrace change; not willing to do what is best for everyone; inconsiderate; selfish; self-centered – from where do you think all of these traits arose? They arose from us being dumped in a place where we don’t belong. We were meant to inhabit another world/frequency – not this one. As the frequency of this world is not compatible to our frequency, there was a shearing/separation within our frequency. Instead of us uniting and connecting with the world that was ours, what the blue planet done was create a shear instead of a connection within our forms. That is why we are all so fucked up, with me standing first in line. I refused to let go of my kindness/sanity, and this created even a greater division within our species with those that chose to let go and do what they wanted – because they can. Well, you can’t, because I won’t allow you to, and neither will your body forms allow you to from now on because we are all connected to the frequency where we were initially meant to be, and this connection has healed the shear within our forms. I remember writing within the first month or so of this journal about us being likened to a crystal class with a small crack in it. The glass is beautiful, but that small crack stuffed everything up. I didn’t know it then, but now I know – that crack was from our separation from being in a place where we don’t belong. We were intentionally dumped on the wrong planet/world/frequency. Those that were dying somewhere needed a sudden and huge amount of energy, thus we were sent to a frequency that was not compatible to ours so that maximum disharmony may be emitted by us. My goodness me – hasn’t their plan worked like a dream! What I am trying to say is that there is an open window coming our way. Opportunities will come for us to uplift ourselves, and these opportunities arose from our connection to the frequency we were built to be compatible with. Take these opportunities when they present themselves. Transform then you – you the individual, and you the species of planet Earth. In helping yourself, spread your happiness to all. Don’t spread your beliefs, but your happiness, which is another expression of kindness, and from there, allow your happiness to catapult you to the fields of the Infinite. Stay in Hell, and die in Hell. Go to the fields and just be what you are. I have always said that we have no right to impose what we feel is right on others. What this journal gives others is an option – stay in Hell, or get out. When I said that “we are all connected to the frequency we should be,” I have not imposed my will on others. What has been done is what should have been done – we were all wronged. Now we all have equal opportunity to embrace this “new” us, or we can go back to what we know – living to please the ego, and living to be miserable. But what I will say, and have so often said, is that a time will come when the cruel bastards in the seen and unseen can no longer prey on the innocent – those that are kind and are doing their best to survive in an awful place where they don’t belong. The innocent pass through the window where they can no longer be touched by Hell. When the window of opportunity presents itself to you, my advice is take it, but take it with understanding. Use your gift as a stepping stone to the fields of the Infinite, otherwise you remain within this different/wonderful reality that the gift presented for a few more thousand years. The world we were meant to inhabit was to create a Life far superior to the one we have known, but having said that, it was still a harvester world where those from the shadows fed from our energy. My advice is the following: always be kind; open yourself to receive the gift/s that are naturally yours through your new-found connection to the world/frequency you were mean to inhabit; use these gifts to make you happy, and make others who want to be happy also happy in the process; allow your state of bliss to elevate you to the fields of the Infinite by understanding how we got into this mess in the first place. (Our curiosity created the parasitic frequency of Deception, and this parasite formed and took us over within the illusionary Garden of Semiramis.) There comes a time when it is each person to themselves. We are all united, and always will be, but the path we walk as we get to know ourselves we have to walk alone. Start yours now, and get it over with as quickly as possible, because believe you me, it is not nice walking alone.
  16. Woke up this morning a few hours before sunrise, and as I lay in bed, I just allowed my higher self to touch my body/lower self. Nothing happened, except that I heard a voice that said: “Your species have been relocated.” Within the first few weeks of writing this journal, I quoted Credo Mutwa, the Zulu shaman. I cannot recall the specifics, but I think I wrote that Credo said we came from the Brown planet. At the time of writing this I thought nothing of it, but this morning when I heard the message I was blown away, as it made so much sense. Drop the birds into the ocean and tell them all to now swim rather than fly, and what you get is chaos, where it is every fucker for themselves – and understandably so. To be what we truly are I cannot define. Years back I remember going in my sleep state to the world of magicians, where performing magic is as normal as breathing. And yet, even in this world of highly evolved beings, I saw those hiding from the shadows feeding from their energy. What if those magicians from that world knew of the Game and how they were played and preyed upon? What if they knew of their true Home and how they got to be separated from the fields of the Infinite? Surely this understanding will send them Home in the blink of an eye, as already they are on such a highly evolved/less dense frequency? Without understanding we eventually all fall. One time while we were on holiday at the coast I saw in my sleep state this space ship come and dock on the edge of the cliff where we were staying. Those inside were scouts – they were dying, just as those on their planet were dying, and they came to look for a way out of their predicament. These dying dudes had technology that was hundreds of years beyond ours, and yet their time was coming to an end and they could do nothing about it. Stay in Hell, and die in Hell. This applies to all within the worlds of Hell, as our “advancement,” no matter how spectacular, always takes us away from the natural flow of what is, namely the fields of the Infinite. Surely the stepping stone to be what we are, and from there the catapult towards Home begins with us being where we were manufactured to fit into? This makes so much sense. Were we relocated at the last minute in order to be dumbed down so that others who were dying could feed from our energy? I remember writing about unlocking our latent, or “junk” DNA so that we may be omnipotent. Was this infinite potential within us locked up when we were placed into a frequency/world where we don’t belong? This makes sense to me, but let’s find out. Where there is an emitter there has to be a receiver – the two go hand in hand, because when the one is isolated from the other, both are deemed pretty useless. We the biological computer were manufactured to resonate to our frequency/world so that the two may be compatible to each other. Our relocation prevented this from happening, thus we have been like ducks out of water, doing our best to survive but all the while being bloody miserable. Now you know why – we are not in the world/frequency that we are compatible with. This problem is so easily corrected through understanding. As you know you are in a place where you don’t belong, you connect to the frequency to whom you are compatible. For Pete’s sakes, just be what you are – just emit your frequency, preferably through the stillness of the heart energy field. When you transmit; when you are what you are, the receiver/world where you belong, will pick up your frequency and you will belong where you were manufactured to be. This places you on a higher state, and from there, you pass Go – you go directly Home. This connecting to my true frequency/world I will do, and we can take it from there. As we are made up of layers of energy, so too are there layers of frequencies all around us. Connect to your frequency/world to unlock within you what was locked by us being thrown into a place where we don’t belong.
  17. I have always maintained, and always will, that talk is cheap. Yes, we have to clean up shop by understanding who we are, where we are, and what happened to get us in this mess, but what happens then? Steven says you be kindness, which is an expression of who you really are, which is the strand of Inherent Goodness/Godness within you. To know means nothing, unless you be and do. My father spent almost every moment of his spare time reading spiritual books. As a person, and a father, all that reading about all this meaningful, deep stuff got him nowhere – it never bettered himself one iota, not as a person or a father. I have met walking spiritual encyclopedias who literally have a degree on spiritual matters, and yet these people cannot even pass on fatherly love and patience to their young children. So who is fooling who? Have we all forgotten the basics, which is practice what you know to be the truth. And then there is Steven. What does Steven have to offer Steven for the last seven years of being a recluse and writing this journal? Of course I am being hard on myself, as to change what happened before the beginning of time does not happen overnight. When I sat down to write this journal I had no idea where I was going – I never knew about Sophia and Semiramis and those from the shadows. A story unfolded before me, and each day I wrote about the story – primarily through what I saw that we were not allowed to see, namely how those from the shadows rule over us and we are merely their food source. Well, bully for you Steven. Bully for you for not being afraid of those fuckers from the shadows, and bully for you for persevering no matter what. But what happens now, because you know what – talk is cheap. If I have to wait for Divine intervention, I might have to wait a long time. I don’t have much faith in hope, where I hope that things will be okay. If Divine intervention comes I will meet it as I walk the path Home, but on to sit on my arse and wait is not an option. One could say that for the last few years I have lived in the night. When I close my eyes to sleep I see the unseen and understand – so that we may all understand. This is the true dimension here in Hell, where what happens within the shadows affects us on the illusionary physical stage. What happens when one passes the dimension of Beasts? I would assume one enters our true state of what we are, namely the fields of the Infinite. From there, it makes sense that this state has a direct impact on us the illusionary physical form, and it is then that the cheap talk is replaced by the truth of being what you are. Now we are an expression of our true selves. But all this talk is cheap. Let’s see what happens.
  18. To be what you are, you need to know what is keeping you stuck to the illusion. Yesterday evening I was drawn to the bat that was flying about two metres above my head. The bat I have seen and known its message for some time now, but last night I took the time and effort to reflect what is my greatest fear – the bat says face your fears. We hold onto the illusion because we want to control it, and this control is to prevent our greatest fear from becoming a reality. My greatest fear is that my children will not be cared for, and I suppose this is the fear of many parents out there. No doubt the cruelty and injustice of Life has already touched them at their tender age, but no matter what, I always want them to be safe from the seen and unseen scum within our dimension. For this to happen, I have confronted the seen and unseen filth and put them in their place so that their wildfire of self-destruction does not touch my children. Let’s just say that Steven has no intention of carrying on with this most unpleasant task. Instead of knocking out fires and living a really shit life, what about just being what I am. By knowing and being what you are, which is kindness, which is an expression of the strand within, you are in a different space/state to those that are unpleasant. During my sleep state now I no longer see the unseen or can remember where I have been. What I experience is moments of bliss as I move from here to there. The answer out of this mess had to always make simple, basic, common sense to me, because this is what the truth is – it is simple, as simple as the innocence of a child. Understand the Game, and know of the Game, and then say “thanks, but no thanks” to the Game. Move away from that most unpleasant state, and as you know, be kind whenever you can. You do not get more simpler than that. 16/04/2021 Extract from journal (Replace “Love” with kindness. Love is a very watered down word. It means a lot of different things to different people.) ……….In a nutshell, the most important and only real force that matters, namely Love, is largely absent in this frequency. It is the most important force, because it is the only force that exists in the grand scheme of things. Do you understand how inverted we are. Our natural state is to be Love, and yet we are so limited, weak and fickle. We men cannot resist staring at a pair of tits, and women undergo a radical personality change coupled with mood swings during their menstrual cycle every month. Not only does the moon affect the tides of the oceans, or so they say, but also turns the female species into raging wolverines for a few days each month. We are all being played and driven by disharmonious forces that have a hold over us, which manifested through our core state of uncertainty. In our natural state of Love we would have showed the Demiurge the finger and laughed in her face at what a sad pathetic being she is, yet we followed ignorance by being seduced and believing the lies, because at our core we forgot what we are – namely Infinite Love. To be in a state of Love every fibre of your being is compassion and ecstatic bliss. You don’t focus your love on a person or animal, rather you are Love. You are Everything and Everything is You. Everything is Love. When I said that everything in this frequency is irrelevant, then I meant everything. There is no pain, suffering or hardship, because it does not exist. Disharmony is what we created, yet in the big picture it does not exist. So once again we need to ask ourselves how do we define what we don’t know so that we can look forward to it? “Steven, how do we become what does not exist in this world/frequency?” This is one of those many times where I become humble and look to others that know far more than me. Nikola Tesla was one of the geniuses that inhabited this frequency. He did not succumb to the limitations of Mankind, but rather lived in a world where he made the rules by tapping into the knowledge grid of Infinite Love. He knew that everything in this world/frequency was vibration, and he knew how to harness this energy for the good of all. I am going to quote what this man said regarding what this world should have been post the First World War, as what he said is my representation as to the base foundation of what this world should be. Unfortunately I cannot define the state of Love, as this is something that you have to experience to understand. However, what I can do is build a bridge for you to cross over to experience this state. This bridge we can define through the words of Tesla, and this bridge is the base foundation of our natural state. This is what Tesla said regarding post WW1: “Out of this war, the greatest since the beginning of history, a new world must be born, a world that would justify the sacrifices offered by humanity. This new world must be a world in which there shall be no exploitation of the weak by the strong, of the good by the evil; where there will be no humiliation of the poor by the violence of the rich; where the products of intellect, science and art will serve society for the betterment and beautification of life, and not the individuals for achieving wealth. This new world shall not be a world of the downtrodden and humiliated, but of free men and free nations, equal in dignity and respect for man.” As far as I know, Tesla died a lonely poor man. I am sure that he did not strive for wealth, but rather for the “betterment and beautification of life,” however the world was not left a better place through his inventions when he died. His patents for harnessing and creating free energy were not shared so that humanity could prosper. I am told that the weather modification and earthquake forming machine called HAARP that is based in Alaska is a by-product of Teslas inventions. Once again, goodness is inverted or hidden so that evil may continue to flourish here on planet Earth, while we are watching the game or enjoying that cup of coffee. You need to imagine a world where there is respect for all life, where everything is equal and One. You need to imagine a world where your ego and all-importantness is absent. Imagine a world where everything is in peace and harmony and you don’t exist. If you exist, then you will want to place your spin as to how things should be, and this will merely limit the grand magnificence of Infinite Love. Take away your ego/personality and flawed spirit, and be Love. Love is glorious magnificence; it does not have limitations or an ego. It is a permanent state of sheer joy. The greatest inversion of all has been to replace our natural state of Infinite Love with a lost, uncertain ego that thinks he or she is really important. We have been turned into the image of our ruler, and from this state everything has been turned upside down, literally and figuratively. One of the ironies of being Love, is that you automatically fall into a state of silence. There is nothing to say or do as you are Everything. In this frequency of Life it is the complete opposite; as we feel uncomfortable, especially in company, if there is nothing to say. When you are Love, and you talk, then the intent of the word transforms. The power of the spoken word is omnipotent when it originates from the source of Love. In our ignorance we have forgotten the power of Love. That simple four letter word is in Everything; it is Everything. Build a bridge where the change starts with you, where you respect and love yourself and then those closest to you. Charity begins at home. Know that you are not your name or your personality or your mind. The alternative to what you think you are is Love. Please BE Love.
  19. Extract from journal: [It was the ego of Steven that told those that dwell from the shadows to take their fertilization process and shove it up their arses, but I can only assume that the spirit of Steven agreed to be part of the fertilization process. Over the course of the last few nights, these entities cloak themselves in black so that I cannot see them, only their silhouette, and they busy themselves working frantically around my abdominal area. The other night, I saw one of them – it was one of those that could not survive in this frequency, so it was completely covered in a spherical space suit. It put the head part of the suit right against my face to get a better look at me, and then I could see what it looked like. It was not Human. Its body was tubular, and had a reddish tint, and the face had eyes and a mouth. It was not so much of an evil entity, as rather an aged one that had knowledge beyond time and space. Having said that, let us not forget on which side of the fence these entities come from. My spirit is not stupid, and is street smart to their intentions. What I find remarkable is the Love that the spirit has to help where help is needed. The role of Kwinn is an automatic reflex; the spirit does not think, it does, and this is a trait of unconditional Love where one does not for an instant think of yourself, but rather the other whose need is at hand. Now and then during the day I feel this strange sensation around my abdominal area. Something is going on there, and it is not a massive fart that is brewing. You have to remember that everything is energy vibrating; don’t think of ourselves as solid. When something is formed in the appearance of our solid world, it is so easy for it to shift frequency to waveform and depart from our world without us being aware of the process. Steven is not afraid of these entities – never has been and never will be. What is going on over my abdominal area I am not afraid of. I have the power, as all of us do, to put a stop to this fertilization process. This is done through our free will coupled with the understanding of what we are through our link to Infinite Love. Steven will go along for the ride and see what happens. What I don’t appreciate is that everything is always done covert with these little pricks – it is done from the shadows. Our phantom rider has come every night to make sure that I am distracted in my sleep state, so that I cannot see what they are doing in accordance to what has been done with the fertilization process. Steven just makes sure every morning that any disharmony or blockages of the previous night are neutralized, to him, and everyone else.] [It was the early morning hours of 26th March 2016 that the fetus within the spirit was taken away. A woman in a flowing black robe, that partly covered her face, facilitated the process. This lady was a being of great empathy and understanding. I can’t remember the details of how the fetus was removed. All I can say is that there is technology out there that we could never even begin to imagine.] *** [It was the early morning hours of 13th March 2016 that I awoke and saw these figures working around my abdominal area again. Over the last few weeks Steven has been overwhelmed with Life, and has not had the effort to see what comes in the night. The attitude is “So what!” and thus one has no energy or interest to see these sillies. So what came a few hours earlier shook no interest to see what they looked like, but what they done to Steven allows us a deeper understanding of how easily we can be led astray. As Steven looked at these entities working at his abdominal area, Steven told them all to get lost, and then they stopped what they were doing and all looked at him. Then Steven felt this strange warmth over his entire left wrist area, and a voice said: “Now you are one of us.” What happened was that they put something into my blood to change it, so that Steven may be more compatible to their frequency. A while later I saw in a fleeting moment an image of a female warrior, who was fighting in battle. A male voice was then heard, and it said that it was going to die around me now so that it may be in peace. The point to make, and this is not something that I have thought about before, is that there must be massive in-house fighting amongst those that are in dimensions closer to the Demiurge than our dimension. With these beings, their difference to us is that they know what they are, and don’t pretend to be anything different. They don’t want to be, or have to be liked – our smiley face and best-foot-forward scenario is not important to them. You could equate these entities to our outright rotten sadistic street gangs, the only difference being is that there is no law that these warring factions have to be afraid of – it is one tribe against the next. When these beings changed Stevens’ blood, what was interesting to remember is that in our lost state, we want more than anything to be accepted and cared for. So when something that has power over us says: “You are one of us now,” there is a reflex joyous acceptance, as now we can fit in with something and they can look after us. Whether our mini overlord master is good or bad is totally irrelevant; what is important is that we have been welcomed into a group where we can belong. (Unfortunately they are always bad as they all ultimately fall under the patronage of the Demiurge.) It is now that I understand why we so easily are drawn into a belief system, and why drug addicts refuse to let go of their habit – it is because we are welcomed to fit in and belong, and in doing so, we surrender our independent knowing and free will, as we want more than anything for someone to look after us. This is the core state of the uncertain spirit; it wants to be cared for and looked after. So what is wrong with wanting someone to look after us you might ask? Well, we are not being looked after; we are being parasited off! The seduction by these entities is accessed through our Dark side, where we have forgotten our true, natural state of Love. As we are lost and don’t belong, we don’t consider that those that opened their “house” to us are there to plunder and destroy us. We surrender our independent knowing and common sense to the religions and politicians of the world. A drug addict refuses to let go of their destructive habit as they have been welcomed by demons. These demons want the addicts high that the drug gives, as this energy is like multiple trultiple orgasms to the demon. So in the big picture, what the addict is doing is not so much giving themselves a high, but is rather feeding the demons attached to them. And I stress brothers and sisters, that all the shit and disharmony in this frequency started with us “walking through someone’s front door” when they welcomed us in and we felt accepted. This started when we were initially lied to and accepted that the Demiurge will look after us, and it hasn’t stopped since. When this different frequency blood was implanted into my blood and someone said to me that I am one of them now, Steven was indifferent to this remark as deep down he loves these entities and wants to understand them. I know that I am an expression of Infinite Love, and I know that I don’t have to fit into any group and be accepted so that I may belong. I am afraid of nothing, and I don’t need some twats to open their door so that I may be part of the Fucked up Club. I am who I am, and at this moment in my life I am not happy and content, and this has been the general theme throughout my whole life, but I know that I am Infinite Love, and sooner or later I will be Home and in this state. We don’t need to belong or be accepted, as we just need to remember what we have been made to forget.]
  20. Yesterday at around midday I turned into the main road of the local town at the busiest intersections of the area. There was cars and buildings and people and noise everywhere – typical scenario of city life. As I turned into the main road I saw a Blue Crane bird standing high up on a street light. The bird was in its traditional crane stance, with its one leg up in the air. Wow. To see such a majestic, powerful pose by a creature of nature in the middle of the urban bustle blew me away. The moment was surreal. In the book Animal Speak, the author Ted Andrews says this of the crane: “If the crane has shown up in your life as a totem, it could very well reflect that you are about to recover what had almost become extinct within you.” I could not have said it better. The strand of the Creator within us is almost that – extinct. It was almost totally forgotten. Apologies for being negative, but awakening this strand within Hell is like a faerie being born and living in the city dumping grounds. Maybe it is what the dumping ground needs – maybe we need sunshine in our lives.
  21. By knowing what you are, you can be what you are. You are this kindness within the heart energy field. This kindness has not been Home for a long time. It’s Home is the strand of the Creator within, which is located at a place we will call our throat area. This is where Home is my friend. Within this speck of light is the All. You have always been an expression of this state that you have forgotten. Go there now, as this is where you belong. Now you are one with yourself and the All. 07:05 on 13th April, 2021. From here, what I done was call out to those I have helped over the last few years: Sophia, Semiramis, Earl. My goodness me – they can come and hold my hand and walk with me, just I have been with them and have done everything to help. One always gives to those who need your help, but it never becomes lob-sided. They must start to give back – because they can. I am sure I have been helped and blessed many times over the years, where I am not aware of this helping hand, and for this I am grateful. I know our Creator fell into this mess to be with us, and in the process became destroyed by those and their cruelty.. She has always been there for us, but we were too busy fighting and surviving. Now Steven gets all soppy and says “poor little me” after taking a few knocks here and there. I am not soppy – I have had enough of this mess. Now I would like to become aware of this helping hand – I would like to see what the Creator can do for us. To see animal spirits, where they let me know they are with us every step of the way, is something I am most thankful for. Now I would like to see and experience the transformation. What happens to me, happens to you, should you wish this so. The difference between you and me is I asked questions you never asked. I asked why Life is so cruel. Take away the questions and we are all the same. So what befalls me befalls all, that is, anyone who wishes to receive what has been given. The outcome of this journal is for everyone – all within the worlds of Hell; those who have fallen; those who are falling; and those who are existing in ignorant bliss. I have been to all of these stages at some of the worlds within Hell and met those from there. Your life and mine is like theirs, we are all just at different stages of the time-line. There is nothing more I can do. I understand the thrills and turmoil’s of Life are there to keep us pinned to the illusion. Wow, what can a cup of coffee or a five-course meal do to lift our spirits as the world is falling around us. I am beyond these fixations of the illusion. Why did we never discover the strand of the Creator within us a long time ago? The answer for me is that we have chartered these waters so long ago that we forgot what it is to be Home, and thus we are fearful of the unknown. To take that final leap of faith is not everyone’s cup of tea. Rather the Devil you know than the unknown you don’t know. Well, I say stuff this. I will take that jump, and I will do it now. 5:19PM on 13/04/2021. Went to sleep last night, and the first thing I saw when I closed my eyes was the strong presence of an Aliens face – the common big round eyes type of Alien. Then I fell asleep and saw about three of them hovering parallel to my body. I felt their injections go into me as they worked with speed and precision on my body. Felt the needles on the top part of my body and saw how they were working, and then one of them moved down to my lower body and I felt his injection go into the top of my left foot. Then I felt something large being pulled out of the top of my left foot. The whole performance lasted about five seconds – that is how fast they moved. They worked on my true form – the layers of illusionary waveform energy/frequency. Before I got out of bed this morning I asked to feel what was the purpose of them working on me, but I felt nothing. What I am posting below is from the only other encounter I can recall with entities that came to work on me. This was written six years ago in the journal. When I said “Demiurge” I implied Semiramis, and when I said “spirit” I implied our astral form. Remember that I started this journal with a simple question and a blank slate. What I write is from what I see, because in truth I know nothing. (I suspect this fertilization plan of Semiramis will not go through. When I met her in my sleep state I experienced an insane, cruel being, and as I have said, everything written in this journal is to help those in the unseen who need help, most notably Queen Semiramis. My take now is that she is tired on playing a game that has failed and continues to do so within the worlds of Hell. Now her path is Homeward bound and no longer towards the continued destruction of her children.) THE FERTILIZATION PLAN OF THE DEMIURGE (Does the Demiurge have this fertilisation process planned for everyone? I don’t think so. What happened to me was not sinister. Somehow, somewhere, it is meant for the greater good of all.) It was the night of the 20th December 2015 together with the early morning hours of the 21st December that Steven was flattered by what these entities had planned for him. As he lay in bed to fall asleep, there were these distinctly odd shapes around him. He told them to get lost, and then he gently pressed against his closed eyelids with his thumbs to further see with clarity what was going on around him. He then saw this dense black smoke that was rotating towards him. What then appeared from the smoke was a white foetus. The form was alive and looked at Steven. It was not Human; it looked like something between a baby crocodile (without the teeth) and a lizard. The foetus looked calm and at peace. I don’t remember what happened next. Then Steven was drawn into this most intense dream. There were a handful of us, and we were taken away from our home and were lost. Eventually we were all together in this large hall awaiting to be re-united with our parents – it was all very emotional. Then Steven awoke from the “dream” and there were these entities that were standing in front of him as he lay in bed. They had these black cloaks draped over them. As the one departed, another would fill its place by standing in front of him. When the spirit of Steven saw these high priests, without giving a thought as to what was going on, he told them to give his semen back. We then knew that what had transpired that night was an artificial insemination process between the spirit energy of Steven and an embryo of an entity that resides in a dimension close to ours. The connection between the two was made in the dense black smoke. When Steven saw the high priest standing in front of him, there was a flash of an image as to what was really going on when we were in the hall waiting to be united with our loved ones. What happened in the hall, was that the spirit of Steven was taken away to go and have intercourse with an entity that he could not remember how it looked. The dream and the time spent in the hall was a mere distraction while the spirit was led away to inseminate this entity. (By intercourse, don’t imagine two beings fucking, as this is not necessarily the case. There was an intertwining of two frequencies with the specific purpose of producing an offspring, and this procedure need not necessarily be carried out through the only way we know – our primitive humping or giving ourselves a hand-job for artificial insemination.) When Steven awoke and told this priest to give his semen back, it was one of the few times that Steven got a reaction from those that dwell in the shadows. These priests were hovering over him and taking the spirits energetic semen, and their response when told to give it back was one of anger. This cloaked entity began to point fingers at Steven, gesturing that he must not be foolish, but rather allow them to take his semen. When they were told to fuck off and leave the semen behind, this priest began pointing fingers towards Stevens’ wife, implying that they will turn on her if he doesn’t allow them to do what they want. To highlight their intention, these two dragon forms shot forth from the priests’ side, and moved towards Stevens’ wife. By this time, Steven was the hell in upset with what transpired over the course of the night. Why was everything always covert? Why do these really silly fuckers have to always play cloak and dagger? As if there was a glass window between our dimension and theirs, Steven tapped on this “glass” and called forth the Demiurge. We asked her why she did not just ask if we wanted to be part of an insemination process. We told her that we love everything, including her, because on the contrary, she needed love the most. It can only be assumed that what transpired in the night was the Demiurges attempt to link her species with the light energy of the spirit, and if I say light energy of the spirit, then I mean our inherent connection with Infinite Love. Why would this be done? I don’t have an answer, but others do. I read an article written by V. Susan Ferguson on the Waking Times internet site. The heading of the article was: “Researcher links AI [Artificial Intelligence], Geoengineering, Smart Dust and Morgellons to ET’s [Extra Terrestrials or Aliens.]” The researcher in question was Harald Kautz-Vella. In the article Harald Kautz-Vella says, “Most of the people in the world are wrong when they think that AI is something that we [meaning humans on earth] have developed. True to some extent. But there is a second type of AI that is much older and not of terrestrial origin that we are facing. Hard to prove, but it looks like the AI we are working on is seeded by these original extraterrestrial AI.” Harald Kautz-Vella says that by extracting light from our DNA, Morgellon’s [disease] lowers the scalar potential of the DNA. “They are flattening us down, lowering ‘our vibration’, extracting energy. Sucking out what one could call the life force. …This could be one aspect of the aluminum-connection to Alzheimer and dementia. …This is beyond any known concept of mind control.” Harald Kautz-Vella “wants the intelligence community to know they have been fooled. They believe they are controlling this, but they are not. Apparently the deceased man [a whistleblower who linked smart dust to alien technology] was suffering because of the misuse of this technology and is very concerned, admitting that the ETs had lied to them. This is exactly what I have felt and known for around 30 years now. The technology that the ETs gave our governments is a Trojan Horse designed to invade, infest, poison, and conquer our planet.” This is Harald Kautz-Vellas solution to the dire predicament that humanity faces, and I could not have said it better: “The information is out there, but it’s just fucking information doesn’t change a thing. What does change things is in Spirit. The only thing left for me [Harald] to do is take on the quality of change that is possible for me. Our egos are part of the Matrix system. Our egos are the thing that is keeping up the separation. It is keeping us from feeling the pain we cause. The core problem now is to dissemble our [small-identity] selves. Every single person on the planet will have to do this alone, it is nothing to be lectured about. It is something that needs to be done! Every single person needs to do this out of his own Will, out of his own power, from the Being side, not from the ego side. The first step is to get ourselves back into empathy and seeing what we have caused. Become what we were before… You have to rescue yourself!” How we rescue ourselves is twofold; firstly by seeing the game in which we are being played, and secondly by knowing the power that we emit from our heart energy space, and then manifesting this power in our everyday lives. When Steven was talking to the Demiurge last night, the clear message that he had for himself was to never make a pact with the Devil, be it the World Bank, the International Monetary Fund or the Demiurge herself. They all lack compassion and empathy for life. Any agreement or pact is certain misery and suffering for you and your loved ones. The Love of Stevens spirit loves the Demiurge and wants to help her and her kin, but let us be realistic and ask if she wants to help us. We don’t need or want her help, as we are Everything, yet her intention is deceit, lies and chaos for those that come with a hand stretched out to help. It always comes down to our role as Kwinn, where we want to help no matter what. We must know now that Love without understanding does not have a favorable outcome. Those who work from the shadows have ridden on our backs feeding off us for too long, and now is the time to say no more! Stevens’s awareness of how he was played last night prevented him from once again becoming a father – this time around to an entity in another dimension. The spirit of Steven was targeted to copulate with an entity from the Demiurges plane of existence, and remember that from the spirit, the manifestation is made into the “solid” or physical form. It is our belief that last night’s process of fertilization was to produce an offspring that is half alien spirit, and the other half is Human spirit. When this form is born, it will be energetically attached to its mother and father. This form would then suck out the life force of the Human spirit, thereby making itself and its mother omnipotent. As the mother is attached to the Demiurge, the “queen bee” would be in a position of having limitless power at her disposal. The days of living off the energy of our misery would be over; she would have her own power supply to Infinite Love, albeit through her offspring. How clever you are lovely lady! How clever you are.
  22. Now my astral form is no longer a player of the Game – it is within the walls of the Game. This is the place where insanity is seen as the norm. Now we are no longer preyed upon – we merely find ourselves amongst dummies that cannot see they are dummies, and as always, we be kindness to all. One day here is enough. You touch this state with kindness – not because they need it, but because this is who and what you are. Who needs what is not for us to say, so merely be within the presence of the machine. You leave your imprint of kindness for all to see so that others may see this kindness and remember who they are. Now we understand within what we have existed. Now we know what we are and where we have been. We know this is not us, and it is not where we belong. The spirit of the animals have felt the awakening and union with the strand of the Creator within them, but I have not done so. You go within the silence/stillness of the heart energy field, and now you let go to go beyond the illusionary machine. The only place left to go is to the strand of the Creator within. These are the unchartered waters that we have forgotten about. Your guess is as good as mine as to what happens next.
  23. went to visit my 90 year old mother this morning. what Hitler wrote about the mother touched me deeply, as it is sad to see someone you love fade away and no longer remember. reading Mike Kings books i understood that everything is one big lie. covid is one of many. this is the nature of reality - that we have all been had for thousands of years. big time!
  24. https://www.realhistorychan.com/the-mother.html
  25. Trust me when I say that we have been through more than what we can handle. The heart energy field is the power-house of us the biological computer. This area has been damaged in more than one way as we tried to find our way through Hell. My advice is to interface with the digital, holographic illusion, where you go on a one-on-one to heal your damaged heart field. As healers and practitioners there is only so much we can do within the illusion. The next step in healing, as we walk Home, is to interface ourselves with the Game itself, namely the digital, holographic illusion. Put another way: plug yourself into the “machine” so that it may heal/transform you. The currency of the transaction between you and the machine is kindness, where you learn from and assist each other on your path Homeward bound. As was said, first clean up shop – allow the illusion to heal your damaged heart energy field. As I am writing these words, I feel my literal heart having this irregular sensation. What I feel is the healing to the heart energy field of the biological computer called Steven, and all its related components i.e. the astral, the Serpent soul etc. You may not feel your damaged heart field and how it is being healed by the digital, holographic illusion/machine, but trust me, it happens when you go into the silence and connect to it. Remember to always show you kindness to the hologram whenever you interact with it during the silence. In other words, be yourself. This is your payment for what you received, but it does not stop there. Always be what you are – be kind. Always keep your side clean.
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