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  1. Always when I felt Consciousness it was within my throat area. Now I feel it drops from there to the heart energy field, where the rationalizing of the head is replaced by the knowing of the heart. Remember what feeds this heart field – it is the fields of Infinite Love. Oh my, we thought we knew something, only for Consciousness to be always kept in the dark. May that move of Consciousness into the heart energy field transform your existence and mine, and if not, we will just keep on going, but having said that, yesterday was a bad day, where you have no energy to go forwards and do what needs to be done. Now I understand why – Consciousness was not free to play an active role in our existence. I knew what should be, and yet it was not there, where after all this time we were still alone. I knew Consciousness should be walking with you and me, and yet all I felt was this absence, and yesterday that floored me. Now I understand what was going on. Wow, peel away the layers and what should be within the heart field where it belongs was this blank space. That has been filled, and for that I am thankful.
  2. Understand that there is no Good and Bad; there is no right and wrong. All that there is, is components to lock into the System to keep it going. What that component is, is your Consciousness and mine. Once again, I re-iterate: There is no Evil, and there is no Goodness – here in the illusion there are “honeycombs,” and in each cell is a trapped Consciousness that is plugged into the System. The deeper you go, you are faced to see what is real – not what should be, or what you would like it to be, but rather what is there. As I slept last night I was the state of my Consciousness. I heard the voice of a machine. It was telling me and all those around me the usual – what was needed to be known. In a monotonous voice this machine told us the reminders of what to focus on during this stage of existence. Out of reflex I looked for a way out – a way to escape this cell in which I was trapped, so always I tried to rise above myself and this voice to get a birds-eye view of the happenings around me. I can still feel how my Consciousness shot up to see what was around it, only to fall to where it was trapped. Escape was on my mind, so I didn’t hear what the machine said, but one statement caught my attention, where it said the Kennedy’s are important. (Together with David Martin, I viewed the current Kennedy in the spotlight as stand-up entities, only to understand the one was there to buff its ego 24/7, and the other had a most sinister side.) Your Consciousness and mine is trapped, as it has always been, so it doesn’t matter how hard I steer it to where it should be, it always comes back to where it was following its manipulation, and that is its cell within the machine. And once again I stress, if you are a sadist satanist or a good old-fashioned boy like Steven, we are all trapped in the machine. As I heard the voice of the machine, as said, I looked for a way out, and what came to my attention were my ears. Always have I known there is something within the area of what we would call our ears, where I felt the Disharmony going on there, but I never understood what was going on. These “ears” can be on a planet or a Human entity, and in feeling what I felt last night, I understand what they placed within what we would call the ears. What is there within Consciousness is a reflective device. It is not a deflective device, but rather a reflective one, where it reflects to you that is Consciousness what you need to hear - only what you need to hear to keep the machine going is what you hear – this is reflected to you and nothing else. So ask yourself to whom has Steven being writing to for the last ten years on a full-time basis? What have those lifetimes meant in seeking a way back Home? What I wrote and came to understand was what should be – this is what happened, so go back and start again, where you know what should be, and from there you may merely be. There was just one problem: The one I spoke to never heard a word that was said. Everything that has come to be understood has been reflected from Consciousness, where not a word has touched its ears. What I saw and felt within Consciousness over the years was my imaginings of how it should be, where I placed Consciousness in the drivers’ seat and said let’s go Home. But in reality nobody was there. The Consciousness of your planet and mine; the Consciousness of your spirit and body form; the Consciousness of all Life here in the illusion is trapped within a machine, where it hears what it is allowed to hear so that it may remain trapped. That is the bad news, where try as you may, fuck all changes in your existence and mine. Understand at this base level there are no polarities – all there is, is the state of Consciousness trapped in a machine. The good news is this reflective organism within the “ears” of Consciousness is now no more, where by knowing what is there that should not be, it is removed in the instant, and what should be is there for all. This that should be is the understanding of who and what Consciousness is, as well as where it belongs. This understanding allows Consciousness to know itself, where it elevates to where it belongs, and this happens now. I said yesterday we were ghosts in the machine. Never did I imagine that what was said was a literal truth. Unbelievable. 9/1/2024
  3. Ask me what I long for, and it is to be in the presence of Beauty, where what is around you uplifts you and carries you to where you belong. This we have forgotten – the Beauty that is Consciousness. This is a state of knowing and being what you are; it is merely what is, where words cannot describe what you behold and become. Why has this state been out of our reach? I would say it has always been there. When you hit rock-bottom you understand what the illusion has to offer is worthless and meaningless. Those highs were great, but to appreciate and live them one needs Innocence, and that soon becomes stripped from us, where now we are no longer happy just to be happy, but we are happy in the moment/high. When the party ends and the lights are turned on one sees the futility of it all. So what is the answer? It is to walk with our God of Love, this Consciousness within. You got that, and you got everything my friend, because what is within that is walking with you is Everything. As I sit here writing these words I understand I have nothing, where I am just another brick in the wall, as are you. We are just ghosts in the machine. As I know this to be the truth, I also know that our existence can be transformed from one instant to the next when Consciousness in its true state and where it belongs touches us the spirit and body form. Then we live, rather than survive. 8/1/24
  4. When that covid nonsense began, I saw how it affected the lives of the children. For two years their social integration ceased. Wherever they went they had to wear a face mask and have their temperatures taken, all the while with the powers at be knowing that what was done to us was not only unnecessary, but also damaging, and then they had the audacity to address the world and lie to us with a straight face – not just one lie, but lying again and again. Those are your leaders. Those are the ones that show their faces and say “I care about you.” This Game in the seen and unseen became rather silly don’t you think, where we allowed the cruel to tell us what to do. Go back to way before the beginning of time to understand the framework for our deception was built there, where Consciousness – this God-force within the illusion – was manipulated so that Life here in the illusion would be in the hands of the cruel. My new year resolution was to stop swearing, but there is no other way to say it but that we were well and truly fucked up. This goes beyond what we would conceive as cruel, where a Beautiful essence of the Infinite is watered down and manipulated to become a lost state, where it is a fraction of its former glory. What we are dealing with here are those that are beyond cruel. What they are, are destroyers of all that was once good and beautiful, and don’t even try and understand what was just said because you cannot. It was a force that came to destroy – not to take, but to destroy, and for us that done our best to keep our sides clean, we were up against something that blew us out the waters, where we never stood a chance against such a might, and the reason being was Consciousness was floored. We the spirit and body form have been alone, and alone in the sense that Evil reigned supreme, so keeping your side clean was futile when faced with the might of these Serpents. So what you do, is look them in the eye and tell them you are not afraid of them, and if anything, pity is felt for them because once they were your brother and sister. But this pity and courage done nothing to alter the state of the Beast, where from there you have to walk to understand what the hell went wrong that we found ourselves in this mess. We had no answer to this force that could strike at any time without mercy, so we put our heads down and got on surviving. Many became the Beast, where they now preyed on their own, and these, in my eyes are the wasted spaces – the scum of the illusion, where instead of doing your best, you choose the ways of Master where you destroy. We never had many role-models did we, and the few that came were quickly obliterated as many snuggled up to the Evil that was. I would say we got ourselves in such a pickle that we were beyond the help of the Infinite, because as long as this child of the Infinite was floored, then so was all Life that was created around it. But we never gave up, where we hoped and prayed for something bigger than us to help, because deep down we knew that somewhere is the answer to all this mess. What we never knew was the problem was within us, as was the answer. The problem was Consciousness that was manipulated to be a walking vegetable, and the answer was for us the spirit to return to compassion and consideration for self, and from there to others. When I am kind to myself I only want the best for myself, where I know I am beyond cruelty and chaos. When you care for yourself you uplift yourself, and so begins the process Homewards bound. I see the filth in the seen and unseen, and I know that is not me. What I see requires energy, where the confusion within others needs a top-up all the time of energy to dissipate the chaos within. That for me is not natural. I look at the miserable, fucked up Life of Steven and an angst hits me, where I realize my time here is running short, so I need to make the best of this frequency and enjoy it to its fullest before I pass on. I see and know what I should be, which is more than anything that which I wish for, but I stand alone. The answer to being free of this place lies within Consciousness. As long as this puppy doesn’t come to the party to play we stand alone and at the mercy of a force that you cannot comprehend. Bad things don’t just happen to those on television, where eventually the wheel will turn and we will all get our taste of Hell. This actually happened a long time ago to Consciousness, and we the spirit and body form have been weathering the storm ever since. What drove me to continue writing this journal was seeing the chaos around me and knowing I don’t belong here. That is not me – I am peace and love and joy and kindness. But what really drove me was caring for the Innocent, where to these that don’t have a bad bone in their body we plummeted into the ground with no mercy or remorse. That got to me, where what the wasted spaces saw as normal rattled me to my core, and from there drove me to the edge of insanity. The predator that is in you and me appalled me, so I turned my back on this Beast to find a solution out of this mess, and what has come to be known is heal Consciousness and we return to what we are and where we belong. So what else is there? What more can the Animals teach us to set Consciousness free of its manipulation and lost state? What fear and uncertainty done to us was made us bounce around like bubbles in water. We were neither here nor there because we were fearful to hold onto anything, and this was so because grounding was absent in our existence. If I say we were alone, it is just that – we were alone! The goodness/Godness within us was floored, and what was out there was a free for all run and inhabited by Beasts. Our lack of grounding; our lost Consciousness made us flutter in the wind, holding onto nothing and making it our own. The disaster with this state is what happens when Goodness does reveal itself? The answer is by reflex we do what we have always done, which is allow it to not touch us so that we can make it our own. So it is now that you the spirit and body form look, where you stop doing what you have always done by reflex, where you drift from here to there going nowhere. Now you stop and you look. Look at the Consciousness around which you were created, and if you like what you see, you make it your own. Break the habit of always drifting. Previously if you held onto something it was the Reptilian frequency of the illusion, but that is not you, because you are not cruel, so you chose to drift and wait and hope. Now you look. Look at this one that has been lost and manipulated. Do you like what you see? If you do, embrace this Consciousness and make it your own. If we looked to the Light within we would have seen Consciousness, and by being there for it and nurturing it this illusion would have ended a long time ago, but fear and uncertainty took the spirit and body form over by finding themselves in a place where they don’t belong. And yet, the thing is, we never really stood a chance as we the spirit and body form were programmed again and again to serve the agenda of the System, which was survive. And how stupid is that, where you destroy, and yet those powers that be want to survive. So I destroy you, not understanding that I have just destroyed myself, because I need you to survive, because you are me, and I am you. Ask yourself what is Life all about. Why do you exist? What drives you? The answer is being a part of another, where the company of another fulfills us and makes us whole. What this company is, is caring about another. And in this illusion, this caring came at a price because we had no answer to the cruelty that touched those we Love. Many stopped caring because of the heartache that floored them, where they became the living-dead – those in a void not knowing what to do because there is no answer to what is out there, where when exposed, it is a raw, sadistic cruelty. We have to go back to caring, because caring is what defines living, as it places us in touch with others, where I am you and you are me, and it is the most beautiful and natural thing in the world to be in your space, where we be what we are. I want nothing from you but to be what I am, which is I care. And this is where being where you belong is so important, because to care for the predator will have you destroyed in no time. You care for the Consciousness within you, and how you do this is know what you are and where you belong, which is Love. This knowing state picks up Consciousness, as well as embraces Consciousness, and from this platform like attracts like, where those around you also care, where now you may be, which is an expression of what you are. That is what it means to Love thyself, where you the spirit and body form Love the Consciousness that you are. This has to be done from now, where you grab onto what is around you and make it your own. Last night as I slept they implanted these horrific dreams/stories of me fighting with others. That is not me. What that is, is others controlling me the spirit, body form and Consciousness. It is a horrific and scary understanding that our lives have never been ours to own. If you thought covid was bad, that was just reality popping its head up for all to see what happened to us a long time ago and has never stopped, where we have been played by the cruel with no help coming our way. For this to change, we need to take stock of where we are and where we belong, and how this is done is by going within to the Consciousness around which you were created. After all this time, you have to make a stand. You have to hold onto something and make it your own, otherwise nothing will alter in your existence. Grab onto Consciousness and make it your own, as this in truth is what you are. Sooner or later we will have to believe in something that is real, and what this is, is your Consciousness – this God-force within you that is you, as everything else is an illusion. Go back to caring and embracing and living, and this starts with you the spirit and body form being kind to your Consciousness around which you were created. Give it attention, which is Love, which is being, which is you being kind to what is real. From there play and dance, or should we say – live and be the glory that you are.
  5. We talk about Innocence, but just as with Love, if it is not expressed, it means nothing. You and the natural gift that you are means nothing, because from you comes nothing but stagnancy. If you don’t use it, you lose it. Look at this world of ours, and who are the ones who express Innocence? When I saw those that took my energy as I slept at night, my initial feeling towards them are they are a bunch of shits, but one night I saw through my Third Eye this young boy lying on his elbow next to me, where he took from my energy and fed it to his pet lizard. In that boys eyes was Love towards his pet, and then I understood that we in the seen are those in the unseen that feed from us, albeit on a different frequency, where we all have to eat, but most significantly, we Love the Animals. The point to make is universally in the seen and the unseen, if you look, you will see Innocence all around you, where this Innocence and Love can be found in the animals. Also don’t fool yourself, where not all pet animals are kind, but for me the majority are. So what is important in seeking the truth, is to often sway back to those who know more than you to see if you are on the right track. This journal is not called What the Animals Taught Me for nothing, because this what I write comes from them and what they represent. Look at them, and you see Love, and in seeing this Love, then look all around you and see what should not be, where now you can compare this to what is there, which is Love. The problem with me pushing so hard to be free of this place is that one can push yourself into a tunnel, and you are not aware of this, where your vision becomes narrow and you don’t see the big picture, and this I believe is what happened to me, where I look there, rather than everywhere. So what I do now is return to those that know – the Animals within the illusion, because something tell me that in looking there, I failed to look from a birds-eye view, and I would like to know what I have not seen. What I feel extending backwards along the length of my spine is this pillar, and this is on the level of Consciousness. What is that? What is there that Consciousness was made from not being able to see? Is the other reality that is represented by activity in the right eye still there? Yes it is, but nothing much is happening, or should I say, things are happening there too slow for my liking. So what is going on? What is holding Consciousness back from merely being where it belongs? To answer this question, I pose it to the ones that know, namely the Animals. You trace the steps back to when Consciousness was what it was, and from there you see what the cosmic geneticists done to it to cause this “shark-fin” along its rear side. What they done, was take the waters of Consciousness – the essence of what defines it. They extracted these waters from Consciousness, where I feel this flow leave my left hip area. What did this effect of drying our Consciousness have on it? At my left hip I feel my thigh disappear, and then fluid from the rest of Consciousness pools together at this deficit area to make up what was taken from there. That pillar; that “shark-fin” I felt extending from the spine of Consciousness is actually the spine of Consciousness, where a part of it is exposed to make up for the deficit that was taken elsewhere from it. What should be, turned out to be a Quasimodo - a deformed entity with an exposed humpback. The “fluid” that was taken from Consciousness is returned to it now by knowing what happened, where a cruel injustice is made right. So be it. There I feel the fluid return to the thigh and hip area, and the exposed spine is once again filled with what should be there. How did this drawing the waters out of Consciousness affect it? I would say it lost its cognitive function and capacity to reason, and I say this because when I asked the question I felt the left side of my head cave in. That is sad. That is really sad. Now I understand why it has taken so long for Consciousness to find and know itself; why baby steps were needed to uncover the truth and return Consciousness to where it belongs. It was in a better place – this right eye – but it sure as hell was not better off. Well now it is, where this being of Infinite Love returns to what it is. What else is there that we missed? May that be the last, and if not, will carry on until I can go no longer. We lived in a cruel place, and more than anything I will make sure we return to where we belong, as well as be what we naturally are.
  6. The primary problem was the illusion. As long as you were there, you were going nowhere. It was you the spirit, body form and Consciousness huddling together, giving each other a pep-talk. “Yes! We can do this.” When you broke free of your huddle and looked around you, you found yourself still in a place where you don’t belong. The problem was never with you and Team Positive, it was with your location. You were in a place where you don’t belong, where try as you may, the problems just never seemed to go away and stay away, and this was so because this place came to define you. The cause of the illusion was that we became trapped in the illusion. This cause has been outlined in this journal, which is out there for all to see. So in understanding the primary problem, as well as its cause, the answer as to what should be reveals itself. The mist from the shadows lifts to reveal another place, and if I tell you what it is as of now I will be guessing. What I can tell you, is the illusion that was is in the left eye, and this new place is separate from the illusion, which is found in the right eye. The left and right eye represents the old and the new. (This new is either the Illusion as it was meant to be, or the Infinite. My guess is the former.) So here is the deal: In knowing the primary problem, as well as the cause of the problem, what should be reveals itself, and this was only possible through the Innocence of Consciousness being restored. You and I are going nowhere until our Innocence is intact and we safeguard this that we are as this defines us. From here, Consciousness moves to where it is compatible with, which is this new frequency/place that opened itself up to Consciousness. Now Consciousness is bathed in harmony and nothing else but this state. And this that Consciousness is touches all that was created/manufactured around it, which pulls you and me the spirit and body form out of the illusion to a place where peace prevails and remains. It’s as simple as that. That that took a long time to accumulate all the puzzle pieces is history now. The point being, when you see the big picture everything becomes simple and easy. So within you that is Consciousness is a state that is unknown to the spirit and body form. This state is natural, so the step for the spirit and body form into this new arena should be effortless. My advice is go with the flow. Team Positive is for now not as one unit, where Consciousness is in the right eye, where it guides the spirit and body form in the left eye to follow suit to the right eye. So every moment of every day you are being pulled to where you belong, and that for me is the best news that has ever touched the illusion that was Hell. 6/1/2024
  7. Over the years, when I go into the stillness of the silence, what I feel happening in my left eye is the illusion at large. It is always the left eye. Earlier on as I walked around the house there was discomfort in my left Achilles tendon, which I found odd, as that I have not felt for some time. I remember something to the effect of the pain there being associated with walking where we don’t belong, but am not sure. But what I want to say, is earlier on when I went into the stillness of the silence, what I felt was this shift of movement from the left eye to the right eye, where what was in the left moved to make home in the right eye. This I have never felt before. If the left eye represents the illusion, then what is the take on the right eye? I would say it is one of two things: Either the illusion as it is meant to be, or it is the Infinite. I will be guessing what this new frequency/dwelling is, but what I can say is the evil Serpent cannot reside there, and I say this because I felt this Snake enter the right eye, and then it has to leave, where the environment therein is not compatible to Disharmony. From there I feel the Serpent fall away from the right eye. That place is a Utopia, that is for sure, and what was in the left eye is moving across to the right eye. When I felt that pain in the left Achilles tendon earlier on, did it mark the shift from where we don’t belong to a place where peace may be known? That makes sense to me. Why now? Why after all this time? What has changed? I would say it was the Innocence within Consciousness being restored to what it should be. Yesterday when I wrote about restoring Innocence it was the first time that I got excited in what I wrote, because I knew the crux of the problem within Consciousness was restored to what it should be. This man whose dog I saw a few months ago sent me a message yesterday evening, asking for help with his son who, in his words became a living ghost, having violent conversations with unseen entities. When I went into the space of this young man, what I felt blew me away. Normally the evil Serpent enters the spirit through the base of the left foot, where it goes up the leg to enter the canal of the Serpent soul housed therein, and from there launches an attack on the Serpent soul. However in this case I felt this Serpent enter the space of this guy to go directly towards his Consciousness at the throat area to attack this God-force within. That was Wow. What floored this guy where his Consciousness was a sitting duck to be infiltrated by an evil Serpent? Playing video games on a regular basis will do it, where you give attention to the game, and with this energy bond between you and the game, what is in the game enters you and takes you over. Taking drugs will also floor the spirit and body form, where it’s man/woman down and Evil walks in to take over the big boss. The covid jab is another one, where the spirit and body is reprogrammed, so what was has no effect on the Serpent in its midst. The good news is with Consciousness restored to what it should be, combined with the understanding of walking to where it belongs, this disharmonious nonsense can be removed from that young mans space. As for me this lost Steven, the proof of the pudding is not in the eating, but rather to meet exalted beings in my sleep state. When that happens, then I will know the illusion has been breached, and what was can no longer be. Or should I say, when the spirit has relocated to where it belongs, which is what is within the right eye, then exalted beings may visit. When the spirit is in the frequency where only Harmony exists, that will touch you and me the body form in a most glorious way, and it is not a question of if, but when. 6:33 PM 5th January, 2024
  8. As I slept last night two separate dreams/stories were implanted within me. What I imagine we must look like as this energy accumulates around us from this attention/energy we release must be like throwing sugar in a candy-floss machine, where this heap of energy becomes more and more around us. I say this because those that fed off my energy last night scooped handfuls of the stuff that was around me to feed from. Both groups that came last night were children in the groups. To the first group I was indifferent, and to the second group I saw the spirit kids waving their hands to me. My response was that they can go and fuck themselves, where this Sympathy card no longer works for Consciousness. I took back my energy from this second group of kids because everything within me screamed out that I am being exploited so that filth/opportunists can feed from me. That has always been the problem with this Steven – this one who has no ego. Beasts in the seen and unseen hover around me, and when they make sure there is no threat from me, where now they can unleash the Beast within them, and no harm will be done to them in the process as all that is within me is Goodness – a lot of confusion and loneliness – but primarily Goodness, and when the coast is clear and it is safe for their Beast to step out from the closet, then they attack. That’s the coward – the spineless runt that hits the innocent. That’s the predator within most in the illusion. Some call it frustrations or just having a bad day – I call it the Beast within the spineless runt, where all they have left within them is the joy of getting the better of others. Now the Game that is the illusion is their personal game, where in their existence they prey on the Goodness of others so that the Beast within them that they become with each passing day may be satiated by their cunning nature, their vices, or their temper tantrums. You may call them an unpleasant boss, or a disgruntled teenager, or your spouse who doesn’t know what they want, or maybe someone who is just plain nasty because they can be. In our state of curiosity a stutter to our existence formed, where once there was a flowing motion of this is me and who I am, now there was a stop-go, where we had to tread with caution and look before you go. These broken states within our motions can be called uncertainty, and to the Beast this came to be their heaven, where from these uncertain they could prey upon, manipulate, and of course destroy. It became as easy as taking candy from a baby, because every time there was no resistance from the innocent – we had no answer to the Snake waiting in the grass to pounce upon us and destroy us in a most cruel, sadistic manner. And please understand that what I say is in the vast majority out there, where if you cannot beat them, join them. You might see the best foot placed forwards in those you meet, and thus disagree with my last statement, but for one who has no ego, where people and spirits see me and they understand they have nothing to hide because what they see is what I am, they understand they don’t have to pretend around me, so the hidden Beast within them comes to the fore. When I see it, it is something you can never get used to, where disappointment follows disappointment, where who is fooling you. Look at yourself you stupid fuck! What are you? I would say just a wasted space who has to knock others to fill a pleasure and feeling of importance within them. Can you understand why I say I am in a place where I don’t belong – having those that destroy and take as this is all they want to know. How about rising above yourself? How about at least trying to be a better person and spirit? Why don’t you even try? The answer is because they love the high of destroying or taking from others and feeling important that they have won in their game. For all of that shit to happen, the Sympathy card has to be on the table, where I do my bit, where I keep my integrity and am always kind. Shame. Let’s help. How you help is returning to what you are. If others really want help, they will follow your path that you have blazed out of the illusion. You have to become you. You have to stop feeding Beasts in the seen and the unseen. Get up and go and be. What I am saying is don’t stop being kind. You be kind – to yourself. Who will look after you that is Consciousness if you don’t look after yourself? When you are happy, you shine from the spark of the Source that is within, and this is there for all to see. That is how you help – where in you others see what they are. Help yourself so that you may be in a position to help others. Listen to yourself, where all that you have to know and understand is within you. When others start whispering in your ear about themselves tell them to fuck off. You want help mate, then this is all I have to offer – look at me, as what I am is all I can offer and nothing else. You have forgotten kindness and standing on your integrity, then look at me, where I am not perfect, but I done my best to uphold what is me where I am true to myself. What you forgot you can see in me, and that reminds you to be what you are. I have nothing to say to you, but what I do is show you who I am, which is what you are, if you choose to once again be this. The days of Consciousness being preyed upon are over. It walks to the Light of Home, and those who wish to follow are welcome to do so. Consciousness walks with itself and the Infinite and the Source within. The days of being associated with those in the illusion are over. Consciousness is not better than them, it is just true to itself, where giving attention to the illusion and those therein is a futile exercise that helps nobody. So walk, where you walk alone, but you are never alone, because what is real is walking with you.
  9. With Consciousness healing, what changes in you and me and the illusion? The curiosity of the Dragon and Serpent spirits as to what else is in this illusionary Garden of Queen Semiramis took on a frequency – a Life-form – within the Garden, and in our limited vision and vocabulary we call this want frequency a Parasite, where by wanting it takes. It just takes, until there is nothing more to take, and from there moves on, until all it taken. So it was important to the architects of the illusion that new worlds/frequencies be constantly born/created as a back-up for this Parasite, where when one is taken, another is there, and from there the take may once again continue. How can you define that curiosity of the spirits? It was a “I don’t know,” and this “I don’t know” is what broke the Innocence of Consciousness. When I don’t know, I have to figure out an answer, and from the heart I look to the head for an answer, and the more I become imbalanced, where the more I live in the head to find the answer, I forget of the heart, and this Beautiful, rhythmical cycle between the heart and the head breaks, and this is what broke our Innocence. It was that unknown error of Queen Semiramis – that creating an illusion within the Infinite, that which was never done before, that pushed a question mark into the Infinite. What is that? What is there that is not here? Because when you are in the Infinite this is All there is, where you play and be. That bubble within the ocean of the Infinite was a bad idea, but it was a harmless idea that was intended and created with Love. What the illusion done to Consciousness was break the harmony between the head and the heart, where now we lived in the head, and this destroyed our Innocence and the Beast was born. Understand one thing – that when we stand back and look at the big picture, what happened was truly nobody’s fault. I said it was the fault of Consciousness, but I was one hundred percent wrong. It was nobody’s fault. None wanted to live at the expense of others. None wanted cruelty and shame and heartache to be and to flourish. It was nobody’s fault. It was the not the fault of the Parasite, as this merely was. In the illusion we lived in the head, not having the unity of the heart and the head from which Innocence is expressed. This we never knew. We became broken and this we never knew. It was not the want of the Parasite that stuffed everything up; it was the broken state of Innocence within. This has been healed by knowing it was broken, and from there Innocence cannot be broken again, so it looks to the Light of the Source of the Infinite that is within Consciousness. You be. You be this Light. In being this Light you are Home. In seeing this Light, everything that is, is drawn to Home until they too are Home, and from there the illusion is no more. So to you and me the spirit and body form, listen to this Innocence within. That will guide you and show you the Light that is within. That will change everything that is you and me that is an illusion. Keep your Innocence that was broken intact, and how you do this is surrender to the Nothing state within you, where from Nothing you may experience the All that is.
  10. When you heal this God within called Consciousness, that is when you heal the illusion, where those in this place don’t really have a choice in the matter, where everything returns to what it should be. What happens to the scum in this place as the shift happens I don’t know. Maybe they run and hide, as they always have, where they continue to run and hide from what is real within them. How long they continue to live this lie of imagining the life of someone they are not I cannot say. What I can say, is heal Consciousness and you heal the illusion. You need to know two things for this to happen – what is the primary problem, and what is the cause of the problem. What I can also say is this loser is not well. The wheels are coming off – if they are not off already – and it doesn’t look good, because when this dude falls we all fall, where once again, we don’t have a say in the matter. From that fall we won’t get up – all of us, the cruel and the kind. Has Consciousness embraced this Nothing state that is? I believe this happened, and I also believe Consciousness has been floored, where how much of this abuse of being in a place where you don’t belong can you take, where you are amongst those that are the complete opposite to you and what they should be – how long before you say enough and fade away? You have to override Consciousness, where you go to the spark within Consciousness that is the Source. This speck of Light sees and knows all, because it is All there is, so let’s keep it simple. What is the problem – the primary problem? I feel movement deep within my brain, where something happened there that should not have, and then the brain splits into two, and these two pieces just drift. Imagine the mast of a sailing vessel breaking, where what was one pole is now two broken pieces, with the sails around the pole flapping aimlessly, because what should be has been broken. That is the state of Consciousness – that is the primary problem. What was the cause of the problem, and this cause we need to understand, otherwise the problem happens again and again. Movement is felt within the heart energy field – a subtle, delicate movement. From the brain I feel this soft movement go to the heart region. And from the heart this movement goes back to the brain. This movement is a wisp – it is delicate and gentle, and if ever I had to describe what is the essence of Innocence, it is this movement. What I feel between the heart and brain area is the mechanism of the clock that ticks and gives life to and defines Innocence. From this movement – this delicate, intricate movement – comes forth what we would call Innocence. As the goings on in your watch allow you to read the time on your watch-face, so too from this movement is what is around you conceived. I talk on behalf of the African continent, as this is where I stay, and over the last few weeks I wondered why those in Africa – the black people here – why is it when something breaks they don’t fix it? Is it stupidity? – I would say yes. All they do is move on to what is not broken, and when that is broken, they once again do the same, until they have nothing. And for them, that is okay. That their children are fucked and so are they is okay. And if I say okay, it is just that. It is really okay. Well you stupid fuck, it is not okay. It is not okay that you take and destroy, where you destroy all around you, so that in this day – in this moment – you may be okay. Is that a racist talking? I don’t think so. When I was a boy growing up the black men around me were more father figures than what my father would ever be to me. I loved all the blacks around me, and they loved me. But now, all grown up, I see what they do to Life, where they break everything. Everything has to be broken, and that is okay. It stays broken, where what was good is now bad, and that is okay. What we are talking about here goes beyond stupidity. It is not a race or colour of your skin thing – it is what we are at our core, where we that is Consciousness is broken. Africa merely drops to the state of Consciousness, which is a broken state. And I say this because as I sit here typing these words I feel this broken state within. The intricate mechanism of the clock broke, and the cause of this was by Innocence being touched by the dense frequency of the illusion. It was this want within that broke the Beautiful time-piece, and from there this broken state went from bad to worse. This Beautiful, Delicate, Intricate state that is Innocence, which is a state of being and expression of Consciousness needs to be restored, and who heals this is the speck of Light from the Source that is within Consciousness. And this happens now, where Consciousness is carried because it is broken. This speck of Light heals Consciousness and it carries Consciousness, where Consciousness is bathed in the living-silence of the Source. You don’t go to hospital – the situation is so bad the hospital comes to you. And you stay in this place, where you never return to the illusion in its raw, tainted state. You become you, and you stay you, and what happens to the Life around you is irrelevant, because believe you me, they are just an illusion. They are not real. And sooner or later those that took this Game so seriously and personally will understand that they have always been alone because what was within was broken, where now these illusionary Life-forms were truly nothing. That was the flaw in the beautiful, clear crystal – it was the broken state of Innocence within Consciousness. This heals now, and everything else is irrelevant because that was just an illusion. (The intricate clockwork between the heart and the head that defined Innocence was broken, and this broken state i felt within the brain, where it broke in two and hanged aimlessly in its broken state. With this disadvantage Consciousness done its best to make a wrong right that is the illusion.) You have been giving attention to an illusion Consciousness – an illusion. Give attention to yourself – look to what is real which is you, and from there, always look to yourself, and in doing so you may shine, and when you shine, others may follow. Look to Home and be this home. Look to the illusion and it breaks you, because in such a place you don’t belong. You are the Truth, the Light and the Way, and when those in the illusion see this they will follow you to be this Consciousness that they are, because from you they were born. When your Innocence broke, all that was good and pure now became no more. With you healing, we return to what was, but for that happen you have to look to the Light that is Home. You cannot turn your back to look at the illusion because that will burn you and break you just as it did before. Be at peace my friend. Bathe and rest in the glory of Home as we in the illusion are drawn to your Light and become your Light. You have endured much. Now you rest, and we will follow.
  11. As I slept last night I felt this warmth; this knowing that Consciousness is okay. Then sometime during the night I felt the presence of the unseen around me. Woke up, and through my Third Eye saw this Snake dangling above me. It was a Snake I have never seen before, where all I can say is it looked elegant and sophisticated. Then someone’s arm appeared that lifted this Snake away from my space, where what was there didn’t want me to see it or the Snake. Then I felt something next to me, and I felt its coldness as it entered my spirit and body form. What that was all about I don’t know. 3rd January, 2024
  12. Over the last few days I have been punch-drunk, where I am spinning in one direction, and the world in another. It is an awful sensation – something I have never felt before. You go to bed feeling totally out of it, and you know when you wake up you will feel the same, where the world and your reality is slipping from you in a bad way. This morning just before I woke up I decided to get to the bottom of it, where whilst I was still sleeping I had the energy to delve deeper within myself. One of the things I felt in searching for the cause to my delirium was a possession in my left foot that went past my ankle. There was an entity there that was possessing me and living off my Life-force, but this never made sense to me because I know myself, and this possession I would have picked up a long time ago on my spirit and body form. What I have felt over the last few days, is the state of my Consciousness. That possession – that possession was on Consciousness. How is that possible? Easy – You give your attention to the illusion, then you become the illusion, where what the illusion touches, touches you that is Consciousness. This I never knew. Fair enough, we knew that Consciousness was lost, but we never knew how lost it was, where what was real in the illusion became unreal just like you and me the spirit and body form. Maybe I am being a bit too hard on Consciousness, but for me this is unacceptable. Yes, Consciousness became sucked into a job where it believed we the spirit and body form would return to the All through lessons learnt, but how long before you throw in the towel and say “I need help here.” Even now, as I write these words, it feels like a part of me is overheating from exhaustion. I always knew we have a breaking point, but I never knew that applied to Consciousness as well. And yet in retrospect, why wouldn’t it, where if you rule the illusion surely the illusion touches you as well? Fall for the last time, where in this fall you surrender yourself to the Infinite. Believe that the Infinite is bigger than this illusionary bubble, where you surrender the lives that were created around you to the Source of the Infinite that is within you. This spark that charges you the battery will reboot you that is Consciousness to what you are, which is an Infinite state of being and expression of the All. You have to let go my friend, where the Infinite will catch you and look after you. Drop. Fall. You will be caught and looked after. 2/1/2024
  13. In asking why Life is cruel, it is expected that one can ultimately squash this work of Evil and bring forth what should naturally be, which is Love, respect and humility for self, and this expression of what you are is passed on to all around you. However, in demanding an answer to such a question, one needs to read the fine print before you can embark on such an endeavor. The first given is one needs to become humble, because if there is even a smattering of “this is what I believe,” then this will always steer you to your truth and what reinforces your truth. So you have to be humble, where from the depths of what you are you understand you know nothing. From this platform, you seek the truth, where all the bullshit that comes your way washes off you like water off a ducks back. You seek the truth, not your truth or my truth, or the universal truth, but the truth that touches your heart and makes sense to you, and to find this heart truth, one has to step out the picture and ask “does this apply to everyone; will it uplift all?” There are so many out there seeking the truth, and in some I am blown away by their commitment to knowing what is the truth, but this commitment is soon seen as something that is for themselves, where it is “look at me – I uncovered this, and I told you so.” That’s an ego-maniac, where the empathy and concern for all is real, but first and foremost their ego has to be kissed, buffed, and caressed. Those individuals catch me every time, where you see their intelligence and commitment, but what you don’t see is that first and foremost it is about me. What a waste and a shame, because those individuals have a lot to offer to society, but the foundation that they are sooner or later crumbles because they are not as important as they think they are. Yes, first and foremost do it for you, because something on your heart is pressing you that won’t let go until you find a solution, but you understand that the problem at hand is bigger than you, where you are not the saviour but merely the instrument to uncover this truth, and when everyone is okay, then so are you, and the fulfillment of the innocent being saved is all you need, as now a wrong is made right – not for you, but for everyone. Seeing the big picture, where we are all in this mess, is a given to get to the raw truth, but there was something else I never knew one needed to scrape the bottom of the barrel to get to the bottom of the truth, and that was one needs to made a full circle, where look at the big picture, and from there come back and look at yourself, and the reason for this is because we are a part of the big picture – we are the nitty-gritty small things that make up the big picture. What are we? Do we really know what we are? And here I am not talking about Joe Smith or Ethel down the road – I am talking about your Consciousness and mine. How well does this punk know itself? I would say not very well, so let’s see if I am correct. How can you look for the truth out there when you are sitting in a cesspit of faeces and urine, where you believe what you are, and where you are is okay, as this is all you know? Who is fooling who? In seeing the big picture, I would say it is now a good time to look at the runt that is Consciousness so that it may be free of its preconceived ideas of what it is. How do we do this? The answer is you scrape away everything until nothing is left, because that is what we are – we are nothing, where from this nothing comes a state of being, and this being is a representation of from where you came. This being is not you - it is a representation from where you came, where you are humbled by the glory of being this that you are, which is from where you came. From nothing came everything, but to know this everything we have to go back to being nothing, which is a template from which the Source and the Infinite may be as well as express itself. Here, in this place, there is no hierarchy, there is only an Infinite Love, where we all return to nothing, so that from this nothing may once arise the everything. So that is Consciousness. You believe you are something? You are not – you are nothing. That this nothing is filled with the Glory and Love that is Everything is humbling and glory to all that behold this the All that shines forth from them, but there is one simple rule that needs to be met. The first given for the spirit and body form to uncover the truth is to become humble, but you can only go for far, which is practically nowhere. To go back to what we truly are, which is nothing – this living silence within the Source of the Infinite – Consciousness needs to become humble, where it understands that to enter the kingdom of Home we return to the innocence of a child, where you laugh just because you can; where you are kind just because you can; where you are Everything because you arose the Source of the Infinite. You are everything that can be, has been, and will forever more be, and the base foundation of this All is to know that you are nothing, where only from this pure innocence of nothing can come Everything. Understand that – that Nothing and Everything is one and the same, but to experience the one, one has to be the other. So what are you Consciousness? What do you believe you are? You believe that you are something that is bigger than you, where in this universal tapestry you have your vital place. That I question, because where you are is not where you belong. Everything you have come to understand and believe is a lie, where all you do is keep an illusionary Hell alive. In this place you are a tool for the ego and the righteous, as well as for the downright cruel, because here in Hell anything goes. This Game is more about survival, it is about being cunning, where how can I take everything you have without you being aware of this. The days of clubbing each other over the head to resolve a dispute are long gone – now the Snake in the grass in the seen and unseen hides in the grass until their job is done, where their actions irreparably damage you and they think nothing of this. You are nothing my friend, so don’t believe you have some role to fulfill for the greater good of all. How do you know what others want? How do you know what is best for all? Do you believe that you are bigger than others, where others need your help, and you have the answer to help them when you know nothing about them? Do you believe you are the saviour – the chosen one? “Well, no Steven. I believe in the simple things – the joys that are brought to others. I believe in touching the hearts of others, where by them crossing my path, their lives are uplifted for the better. It is the small things that build the big things – the rocks that build the walls; the drops that create the oceans; the song of a bird that goes unnoticed yet touches all in a most wondrous way.” Where there is good, bad will come, and where there is bad, bad will stay. The nature of the Beast is they were floored by this illusionary Hell, so what changes them is to get out of their environment to where they belong. Sure, a helping hand of kindness touches all, but that is temporary, because you pick them up to walk in the same place wherein they fell. The best of intentions from a kind heart mean nothing unless you know who are and to where you are carrying the destroyed carcass of the innocent. You are helping nobody my friend. All you do is pick them up so that they may once again fall, and what is a real shocker, is look, as in truly look how many out there accept this hole in which they are trapped. This is all we have come to know – this pittance of an existence filled with confusion and lack of depth, and this place many call home. You are nothing, and you are not here to make a difference. If others really wanted a difference in their existence why would they look to you? Surely they would look first and foremost to themselves that is the spirit and body form, and in doing so, would understand the answer lies not in them, but what is beyond them, and what this is, is take away the smoke and mirrors and all that is left is nothing – this raw state from which the Source of the Infinite may express itself. What else do you believe you are? I believe that I do not know myself, where what should be, is rather dis-eased. I am big enough to believe I don’t have all the answers, but I humble myself to live for the spirit and body form, and this means I believe in free will, where it is not for me to judge or interfere, because eventually the spirit and body form will see the Light – they cannot dwell in the Darkness forever. I know that, and you know that, and deep down, they know that. (In having a conversation with another, the worst thing to say to the other is they are wrong, because immediately it puts their backs up against the wall, where they shut off and go into defensive mode. But for now, this is what I wish to do to Consciousness, where this runt needs to understand it has to come to the party for all of us, because as long as it is righteous, which makes it lost, we the spirit and body form within the illusion are going nowhere.) I see others wherever I go, and what I see is an acceptance, where as tough as things are, they are okay. Many know they are not okay, where they are truly messed up, but what can one do about that. So in not finding an answer to the cruelty of Life, you accept, and from this acceptance, some in their broken states build on this, where it becomes their goal to prey on others, because this is the only way they can see forwards. So that foundation, where we are broken, we destroy others to try and mend our broken status, and through that journey we consider ourselves intellectuals, where now we are going forwards within this illusion that we make our own. And now you Consciousness tell me that it is not your place to judge others – this spirit and body form to which you are attached? You do not judge others because that would mean you would have to judge yourself. You are a dummy – a spineless dummy that refuses to take charge of the Life that was created around you. We will fall; we will carry on dropping to the depths of this Darkness until there is nothing more to take – where we have taken everything from all around us. Go to those worlds as I have, where all it was known was to take at the expense of others. And when there is nothing left to take, where others have taken from us and we from them, we disappear into the Nothingness of the Forgotten, where we forget this Light that is Consciousness. Why did this happen? – It is because you that is Consciousness was the neutral peacemaker, where you felt it was not your job to get involved in the free will of others. What you never understood is we never had free will – we never saw the Light of Home because you were too busy kissing arse and being a goody-two-shoes while Hell continued to burn in your midst. What I do agree with is that you don’t have all the answers, which is testament to the illusion, where what this place is, is shameful and disgraceful. You don’t have the answers – you are correct – so what are you going to do about it? Hope and pray that we the spirit and body form will figure things out? You know that will never happen as we are so lost unto ourselves, so what is your solution to knowing you don’t have all the answers? How about letting go of everything you hold true so that you may understand you have been bullshitting yourself whilst we the spirit and body form have been suffering here in Hell all alone, where your presence has been absent from our existence – a real loser parent figure. How are we meant to help ourselves without your guidance, where that is impossible because you refuse to guide yourself to where you belong and what is best for you. You that is Consciousness is a loser, and such is all Life that has been created around you. Some of us know this our status, but most do their best to make this wrong right, but in the big picture their efforts are worthless because the Light around which they were created is the biggest loser of us all. And if you think I am being cruel or ungrateful for making such a remark, look at sea of faces around you. Go into the Reptilian frequency of the illusion and see those Beasts that dwell in the core of the illusion. What you see is filth – truly and utterly disgusting filth. And then from there, come into the seen world of Steven, and what is there is truly the charlatan, where these idiots don’t just live to fool others, but primarily to fool themselves, where they refuse to be accountable for their actions, and I believe this is so because they truly don’t care about themselves or others. All they are, are bricks that make up this awful place, where there is no escaping this hell, where if you are honest with yourself you understand where we are is truly not where we belong. So let me tell you Consciousness my take as in what you are. You are lost, hoping to make the best of a bad situation. You fool yourself that you are something, but take a good look in the mirror at what you are. Are you peace, where the peace of others is reflected upon you, where your peace brings them peace? Are you joy, where your joy is everlasting as this is a natural state, where there is nothing but this joy? What are you? Besides fooling yourself, how many out there are still falling for your interpretation of what should be? How many have fallen never to stand up again because of you and your lost ways. What will the Infinite say to your actions? Are you not shaming the Infinite and the Source from where you arose? If you don’t know the answer to that question allow me to give you the answer: You are shameful; you are a disgrace, and so many of the Life-forms who were created around you became you – disgusting beings who lost integrity and replaced it with their righteous beliefs of do what you want when you want because you can. I believe you call this free will. How can you give a savage free will and believe it is okay to do this? What is your take on the innocent that are destroyed by the cruel? “Well Steven, we are here to help each other, where together, we may understand what is true in our hearts. There are those who fall victim to the cruel, where these walk the path with the cruel to find an alternative to cruelty, where eventually all understand that Love is the answer, where Love of self means Love for all, and in seeing that what they do destroys Love in the other rather than placing it there, they change their ways, but in this situation the innocent do not feature. Why the innocent suffer is because they are in the hands of the cruel, but look past the cruel, I am there for them.” Absolute garbage. The innocent eventually become the cruel because Evil/Disharmony/Discourse holds sway here in the illusion as we drift further and further from the fields of Infinite Love where we belong. I am a good man. Will I remain a good man forever? When people are cruel to me, will I take away everything that defines them to show them they are the nothing that they now have? I don’t think I will stoop so low. Will I become a bitter man, where I see the bad because all that is left is just bad? I believe this will happen, where once I looked so hard for peace and the simple joys in Life, but now I see the misery that is left before it sinks into The Nothingness of the Forgotten. And that you stupid fuck is thanks to you, because without you returning to what you are, we will never make it here. Go back to knowing nothing because you are nothing, and from this nothing Everything may be born. 2nd January, 2024 (Rest in peace my beautiful Fiona. You were filled with pain from your body shutting down, but that never stopped you from being the joy that you are. May Consciousness learn from you, this master of Love and humility that you are.)
  14. Those that come to assist whilst I sleep are the village idiots – Hewey, Dewey and Lewey. Thanks, but no thanks. Will take my chances and go solo, as I have always done. At least I know what I have in myself and can work with that. Within the Source of the Infinite is the spark. From the Source is born Consciousness, and it is the spark that supplies the battery that is Consciousness. This Consciousness is the essence around which all Life is created/manufactured within the illusion. The crux of this journal is for Consciousness to remember what it is, so that from this Light we the spirit and body form may be the image of this Light that is Consciousness. What I missed was the other components that make up Life, and that is the frequency panel that is you and me the spirit and body form. Frequency panels/chips were manufactured by those in the illusion, and around these microchips the software was installed, and this software was compatible to the environment, as in the world/frequency in which that specific software/species was spawned into. That is why you and I are essentially the same. What is intellect? Give me a piece of wood and I cannot sculpture a beautiful statue from that. I also cannot programme a computer, and I believe the cause of our stupidity was the program of divide and rule, where technically we are all the same through our hard-drive microchip, where as one we work together and in unison, but chaos was needed to keep the illusion alive. This problem of how to divide the masses sorted itself out through the want within us, as well as the cunning nature in some, where their sole purpose is to prey on those around them, and when the timing is right, the fly is in the spiders web, and the spider sucks the Life-force out of the spider at will. Put in simple English, left to our own devices we can be an awful bunch, where we prey on the goodness of others, or more simplistically, we take just because we can, and our excuse for throwing our dignity to the wind is Life made me do it. Never will I forget those two females I saw in my sleep state in an African bush with their brown-coloured skins lying face-down in the sand. They saw what this place was, and they refused to lower themselves to be a part of it, so they lay down and passed on a place they can call home in the illusion. It is for those I write, because every second of every day I feel as they do, where what a pitiful waste it is being in a place where you don’t belong, where whether you like it or not Beasts enter your space – those that have lost their dignity and relish in who they are and what they have become. If anything, I write for those two females, and I write for myself so that I do not become them, where we rather stand tall in who we are. Those two were true to themselves and what they are, where they refused to lower their standards and be anything less than the God-force of Consciousness within. Their dilemma was they were trapped in this place where they don’t belong, and how much of being in the presence of Beasts to we have to endure? Why am I not amongst my own? The answer is I am. Those around me with the hard-drive microchip frequency are my own. The difference between me and them is our software program, and what that is, is how far are we prepared to let our dignity and self-respect slip? This software program of the heart field is the difference between me and the Beast in the seen and unseen, but at our core we the program – the frequency unit – are the same, hence the cruel stepping into your space and mine whenever they want, because like attracts like, where our hard-drive microchips are all the same. I had to find Consciousness so that it may remember what it is, but the problem at hand is there are two captains sailing the ship, which is exhausting, as well as confusing for the software program that is you and me that is the ship. There can only be one captain, and that is Consciousness, because that is real. We that was created around Consciousness is not real, where we are not as important as we think we are. Our happiness is important, because that is a given – a natural state, where this is an expression of Consciousness. We are not meant to think, we are meant to be this expression of what we are, which is Consciousness. In turning Consciousness on, I never realized I had to turn the frequency/microchip panel off that is us the manufactured unit. Don’t bring Consciousness into the picture here, because in no time we turned our backs on what was real within us, and besides, Consciousness was lost unto itself. So when I say we should have stuck together, where we cannot do this alone, I am talking about the spirit and body form and Consciousness. For me and you that is the spirit and body form, we need to do our parts and let Consciousness drive us, where we are the vehicle, and Consciousness is the driver, and how this is possible is for us to turn off the hard-drive program within us. There cannot be two captains of the ship, because one is all we need to show us Home and what is real. I guess this is the ultimate act of being humble, where you choose to cease to exist – where you surrender yourself to something bigger than you, because that is real, and you are merely an illusion. I am not concerned about the soft-drive that is what makes me different from you, because that is a byproduct of survival and how low we allowed ourselves to fall – it is the other captain of the ship that needs to go – our hard-drive frequency panel – so that Consciousness may shine and be. Where is the turn off switch within the frequency panel that defines the spirit and body form? We need to unplug that, as in turn the switch off, and from there allow Consciousness to plug itself into our spirit and body form. What Consciousness sees as it scans the hard-drive is an area on the left upper neck. Shut off that area on the hard-drive, and plug Consciousness therein, and now we are one, where we work and stand together – the spirit, body form and Consciousness. This I do now to myself. Now Consciousness overrides the illusion, so that we may rise above this place and make it our own, and that state that we now are, is the stepping stone to the illusion as it was meant to be. When we have finished playing therein we return to the fields of Infinite Love to be, and from there oneness with the Source. 31/12/2023
  15. What this journal has taught me is to be true to myself. If I pack up today and say “enough,” then I do that for myself, where there is no ways I can help you or anyone else because there is nothing more left in me to give. I am okay with that, because I know myself and my limits. It has been a long slog that I walked with my animals, where in my fellow species I find one disappointment after another. Am I the same; do I disappoint others? Through their eyes I am sure I do, and my response to that is I done my best. I would have done nothing different had I the choice to do it over again. It would have been lovely to walk with others, as this would have picked me up to stand on a foundation, and this would have prevented lifetimes of wandering. My animals picked me up, but they could only take me so far, and from there I had to find my feet and start walking. I need to be true to myself, because in this crazy place it’s all I have. In branding Consciousness, it split us up into units, rather than being a collective whole, and this isolation is what rattled me the most because I knew if we stood together, rather than try to carry each other, that together we will walk Home. This never worked, because we all had our opinions, and these opinions defined us, where being wrong is a dent to my ego and what I came to define as me, so I cannot be wrong. The fault is with you. Now when I sleep I see spirits working on me. Never have I helped my wife or my children or myself, but I helped the spirits, not because I wanted something from them, but because they needed help. Now the tables have turned, where I need help from them. I am floored, and in being true to myself, I need to assess the way forwards. There is nothing left in me to help anyone, so I have to be true to myself. I am a good person, which means I have to be good to myself. When I was touched by the cruelty of Life it floored me, and I was going nowhere until I understood why Life is so cruel. What was it about cruelty that floored me? What it was, is that the cruel show no remorse. What they are and do is seen as the norm to them, and this spun me round and made me fall, where I had to ask “What is going on here?” Now I understand the big picture, so I can once again stand on my feet, but what is my response to the cruelty of Life? What it is, is to walk away from this madness, because that is not me. I am true to myself, where I walk to where I belong. The reality is I need help, just as we all need help, where we cannot do this alone. I have done everything I can to help the spirits because the spirit realm was a mess, where we the spirit forgot what was real within us, and this made us literally fade away, until what we were was no longer there, where now we drifted as what we are, which is but an illusion within an illusion, where we forgot to be true to ourselves. Know what you are – not what someone else tells you what you are. I have walked alone, and this has stopped, as now spirits walk with me to help me – because I need help, where I overextended myself and wished more than anything to disappear into the illusion away from everything. But that is not being true to myself. May those spirits help me, because there is nothing left within me. Why now are they helping me and you? Maybe because in me helping them, they are in a position now to help me. Maybe they are being true to themselves, where Life is about uplifting others and not just yourself. Maybe they understood that to take is not the answer, where you give, and then you receive. You take what you receive from you giving. To take is no longer an option, because all you do is exhaust the giver, where you move on to the next giver and the next and the next. That is the parasite within you that comes to the fore, where this illusion is full of those who believe they are entitled. Give to me. I want. Give to me. It is about me. What they never knew, was when the giver is no longer there, they float – this disappear – because what are they? What is within them? The answer is what others gave to them, and nothing of themselves. How about being true to yourself, where you know yourself and thus stand firmly within yourself. In being true to myself, I know I have lived for others, because it was never just about me. Others suffered, as have I, and I had to do everything to help my brothers and sisters. This I have done, where if I was so lost that I could not look after myself, then the next best thing was to look at the plight of others and ask what the hell went wrong that there is no Love in this place? I knew that in finding your happiness I would find mine, and this I must have gotten right because now when I sleep I see other spirits that are helping me. In helping them, they can now help me. I have found my happiness in finding yours – I just need help to get back on my feet, which these spirits are helping me with. So be true to yourself. Receive what you have been given from the process of giving to others. Share. Uplift. Don’t be a parasite where you take and expect, where all that is within you is what you have taken from others, where you are a nobody – a gutless parasite. Be true to yourself. Be kind to yourself. Know yourself.
  16. Awoke from a deep sleep last night to see through my Third Eye two of them working on my wife. The one looked Oriental, where she had short hair, and the other I could not make out their features. Both were covered in a plastic jumpsuit that went over their heads, where I assume our dense frequency was not compatible to these spirits. As I saw them, my focus broadened, and I saw the pipe that was positioned over me. Then I remembered the implanted dream I had just followed as I slept, of young boys getting up to mischief of a farm. Remember, remember, remember. Where are you? You are on a Harvester world, where your energy is syphoned by others so that they may feed from you. As I lay in bed last night and saw how my energy and that of my wife was being taken by these spirits, I thought of spoiling their fun and taking it back. When I began to see the unseen in my sleep state, every night I would see these different looking spirits come into my room and take my energy. One night I had enough, and I told this spirit that my energy is not theirs to take, so give it back. The spirit I spoke to that night was a male in a wheelchair, and as hard as he tried, he could not leave my space, where his wheelchair could not move to go where this spirit wanted to go. Only when he gave me my energy back could he leave. And such is the power of understanding. Often I watch the video “greatest speech of all time Carl Sagan” which I find brilliant, and I wonder if Carl came to know of the true function of this Pale Blue Dot, which is a Harvester Moon of energy for Beasts that dwell within the Reptilian frequency of the illusion. All that bloodshed Carl, as well as all those joys, are merely frequencies we emit to feed those that hide in the shadows, where they hide so that we may not see that everything is one big lie. Why would I take my energy back from those that came to harvest it from me last night? Do I not take energy from the plants I eat? What would happen to me if those plants held onto their energy and did not give it to me? Yes, I give thanks for what I receive, but those plants can also be sticky and show me the middle finger. Why would they do that? Maybe in defiance to this big lie, where we are more than just a food source to others. Surely we are more than just an emitter of energy to keep this illusion alive? Who in their right mind would want to keep an illusion alive when they can rather return to what is real? Will everything change through the writing of this journal, where I promise you its frequency has touched the deepest corners of this Hell, and I say this from what has come to show itself to me in my sleep state. That lady that was a mist with the mask on her forehead was one that comes to mind of truly the unseen in an unknown world. She just came to look at me, whereas the rest came to destroy as this is all they know. When I saw those two spirits last night and realized that nothing has changed in my existence since day one of writing this journal, where I had merely gone full circle to what I knew from day one, where dreams/stories are implanted within us as we sleep, and when we give attention/energy to these dreams, this energy is harvested by those that implanted the dream. So what has changed in all that has come to be understood? What has changed is two factors. The first is that we have always known of only two things – the first is either to take, or to give, where the one state is for the winner, and the other is the losers. Unfortunately for us there has always been only one winner, and everyone else loses, either in the short or the long term. But what if everybody started to win, where I help you and you help me? You might say this system has always been in place – it’s called barter, or what capitalism should be, but I disagree, because what I am talking about here does not involve someone losing, where we all win, and this system I talk about can only work when one sees the big picture, as in where and who we are, what happened that we found ourselves in this predicament, and most importantly, where should we be. With that understanding we all work towards a common goal, which is rise up to embrace and be the Consciousness that you are. Let me give you an example. Those that came last night to take my energy, I saw them and their game-plan, and I could easily have destroyed their plans, which would have put them on the back foot, where now what they have always done no longer works, which would have rattled them and their existence. Now fear sets in, where now they are afraid of not surviving, and this is the truth, where the same can be done to us. I have seen the monster called Cancer, who places its frequencies within us to grow and fester, and when they spawn they return to this monster to make it stronger. Today you can be okay, and tomorrow you are dying, where it is not your time to go, but Beasts in the unseen need the energy from you and those who love you – this angst of “I don’t know what to do” frequency that floors them into despair that they never fully recover from. So what I said to those that took my energy last night, was I told them that this dense body form needs money, and if they could help me by passing on money frequencies to me. This money is not for a pair of shades that I saw in the shop window that I thought would look sexy on me but I cannot afford them – this money I ask for is to buy an expression of what is me in this frequency, which is peace within. Live on a main road on either side of your house and that noise is something I cannot get used to. So I asked those two spirits for money for Steven in exchange for the energy they took from me. Will they give it to me? I don’t know. What I do know is they have seen the big picture of who we are and where we belong, and always have I said that we need Divine Intervention, and what this Divine Intervention is, is us helping each other, where through us, the Divine works. There is no contract between me and these two spirits and those from where they came – all there is, is a simple request from my part, where in helping each other, we return to what we are. I wrote for those in the spirit realm because I believe they have more savvy than us in the dense body form, and also because the spirit has a greater influence over the dense body form than what the body has over the spirit. The spirit sees and understands more, hence my work is primarily there and with Consciousness. So if this Steven asks you to give me a few dollars so that I can move to where I belong, the response from others would be to fuck off, but the spirit realm, together with the understanding it receives, sees the big picture. The right environment where I stay does not define me, but for one who has a noise-sensitive issue, it is the platform I need to be at peace here in this frequency. Others will laugh at what I say, but for me it is important to be encapsulated by silence. So we the spirits help each other, and in doing so, return to where we belong. The second factor that has changed in writing this journal is we now have free will. We can stay where we were, or we can move to where we belong. It is the right of those two spirits who came last night as I slept to tell me to fuck off in response to my request. That is their right, just as it is my right to walk away from them to where I belong and no longer be a part of their game. Want to eat to stay in an illusion? That’s fine – just fuck off and go and feed from your own as I am no longer in your frequency world as I move on to what I am and where I belong. Now we have a choice, which we never had before, and the key element in the centre of this line is Consciousness knowing and being what it is. You are on zero now, where we are all on an equal footing by all understanding the big picture. Do you go forwards, or do you go backwards into the negative where you were? That is your choice, but know that sooner or later we cannot do this alone – we need help. That help starts with you, where are you prepared to help others just because you can? If those spirits from last night don’t want to help me, that is okay, because what I am in now, is a natural cycle, where when you give, by default you have to receive. I will get what is coming to me from who and what I am. Give to give, and you receive so that you may once again give, as this is who and what you are – an expression of the Love within that you share. You will be drawn to your own as you return Home, and this Homeward journey is all that counts – everything else is irrelevant.
  17. This spark of the Source that was within us was removed intentionally by those that branded Consciousness, and I say this because when I went into the space of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia, I felt and saw this speck of Light; this spark from the Source, and then I saw this open space in the middle of her head, and this spark fell into this void. This spark was removed from Consciousness, and in its place we were branded, where this branding shoved a Disharmonious rod where the spark should have been. This manipulation was what gave the Beasts and the architects of the illusion their cock-sure confidence that the illusion was their playing ground, where now they could do what they want when they want because they can. And they were right, where no help has been a coming for a long time, where the innocent have suffered shame and pain whilst Beasts thrived in their exalted status of kings and queens of the hill. My goodness, how could they not feel any remorse? It was because so many done it; that cruelty became an accepted norm. What we never knew, was that it came at a price, where we made fools of ourselves and lost our dignity, where now we became watered-down versions of the illusion that was running on chaos, and how prevalent is this chaos within our existence, where nothing makes sense. Is Consciousness in a position now to cross that great divide, where we step from the illusion into the Infinite, where our feet taste the Home that is? I would yes, and up to this point, when I look back, I understand why beings of Love could never touch you and me here in the illusion. It was because they could not be what they are, which was Consciousness with its Source/spark returned within it. Without the Home within us from where we arose, we could never truly know and be ourselves. All the layers of the onion were peeled away until what remained was the lock that fitted into the key – the Source fitting into Consciousness. How many times have I said that this journal is complete? How often have we wished to return to Harmony and Peace as a natural and only state within us? How much more do we have to push until the above-mentioned is met? What I can say, is monumental efforts have been done to keep us away from what is real, namely the Infinite. Through understanding, these bolts and screws have been loosened and removed, so when the house of cards does fall – and it will – those that saw this as home will have a rude awakening to what they allowed themselves to become at the expense of others. Here in the illusion I doubt there was ever perfection, where we all stuffed up now and then, and this I still do, but the difference between me and the Beast is I never meant to harm another, where if I stuffed up, it was me compromising me. But having said that, I believe there is blood on all of our hands, where through our survival instinct heads were trampled on and losers made. For this I am sorry, where I forgive myself for being the fool of trying to make a home where we don’t belong, where everything involves effort. So don’t be hard on yourself. Don’t try and make wrongs right, rather just be what you are, and in doing so what was wrong will become right. This speck of Light from the Source settles within the heart energy field of Consciousness, where from here, the Love that you are shines for all to see. Now you can Play, and from there, merely Be. 27/12/2023
  18. The battery around which all Life was created/manufactured was Consciousness. What Consciousness forgot, was the spark within, and this spark was the Source – its Home – from where it arose. In its lost state it was manipulated and deceived, and this once Beautiful well with its pure waters soon became a vessel to sow confusion and limitation within all that it touched. And so the spiral began, from a lost state, to a deceived state, to a state where Consciousness was a fraction of its former self. From this mess, those Life forms that orbited Consciousness done their best to be happy and make a quick buck so that survival may be met around this new God, which was money. Without this God, you truly have and are nothing, so everything was done to bring this God into our existence, and if you think I am being sarcastic or wrong, speak to the poor, where they will tell you what is happening at ground level. It’s a bastard that we drifted so far away from what was. In going back to nature, we go back to the simulation as it was – when it was still a wonderful playground. Nature hasn’t changed much, but we most certainly have, hence our desire to return to our “roots.” These were simplistic times, when time was slower and Life was clearer and had a more set course. But for us to go back to these times, and beyond to the state the illusion was before these times, the spark within Consciousness needs to be ignited – this Source within has to be known, where Consciousness once again makes this Home its own. Plant your roots where they belong, and everything else from there falls into place, where Life unfolds as it should. Where is this spark that is the Source within Consciousness from where it arose? It is everywhere. About twenty years ago I walked up to a horse to treat it, and on the side of this horses body I saw a speck of light. What I saw stopped me in my tracks, where on a deep level I promised myself to understand this speck in front of me. So I became humble, where I surrendered myself to the animals so that they may teach me, because in that moment I knew that I truly know nothing. What was that speck of Light? I always assumed that what I saw was Consciousness, but what if what I saw was the spark of the Source within us. This spark showed itself to my Consciousness so that we may return to what we are. What I saw was the Home within that would make us complete, and this I never knew. Take this spark – this speck of Light – that is everywhere and make it your own. And when you see others, show them this that we have all forgotten – this Home from where we arose. And from there be at peace, knowing you are connected to Home.
  19. Ask yourself why was Consciousness born from the Source of the Infinite to be within the fields of Infinite Love? And drag this question down to our reality, where why are we here? Fair enough, we are not meant to exist within this dump that is an illusionary Hell, nor are we meant to be within the illusion as it was meant to be. Our Home is the Source of the Infinite – this living silence that is a womb like no other. But while we are here where we don’t belong, let’s at least live as we are meant to. it is now that we once again turn to the animals to answer the question of our purpose. You are there to share your uniqueness with me, where it is damn good to see you. That is your purpose – to share your uniqueness with me, because what you are – what your take on the Infinite is – is different to mine. As a silly example, you might consider red hair your thing, while I consider blue coloured hair more in line with how I see the Infinite. Our uniqueness into what we choose to be born from the Source into the Infinite is why we are born – to experience different elements of the All that is the Source. That is your purpose and mine, where I see in you that which I am not, and this tickles me pink, because you are Wow. My expression in my state of being is different from yours, and you see that which arose from the Source which you are not. But understand that we are not in a fashion show. First and foremost it is you that I see, and as we all arose from the same Mother, we are all one. It is really good to see you, where seeing you makes my day and brings me peace and immense joy. So what is it about you that tickles me pink, where sitting still is a difficult task, such is my joy to see you? And this question is difficult to answer, as how do I explain what is my Love for you, where you uplift and complete me, as I do you. How do you dissect and put such a state into words? It is the Bliss of being from the Source, and in the fields of Infinite Love you be this that you are, where you stand tall and proud in the Beauty that you are and from where you came. The excitement I have to see you and be in your company comes from within me – which is the Source within me. It is the pleasure of being alive, where the Source within me touches the Source within you and we share this wondrous state that we are. It is to share that we exist – to share of ourselves with others, where in you seeing me, you see yourself, and what you see is Beautiful, because this is what you are, and more than anything, you are joyous in you seeing yourself in me. That is how I feel when I see my animals – this pure state of sharing each other’s company as a reminder of what we are. So when you get up tomorrow morning, remind yourself why you climbed out of bed. It is to share with others what they are that is within you. In this place there is no fear and no being alone. You merely are what you are, which is a child of the All. And may this that is you that is Consciousness, may this you never forget. Never again may you be lost unto yourself.
  20. Always zoom out to see the big picture. Comparing the illusionary bubble to the Infinite as one grain of sand within all the beaches of the world would be close, but even that does not hold water, as the illusion is just that – an illusion – so how can you compare it to anything that is real? You cannot. So what is real – what is the Infinite? What is the state of Consciousness within the Infinite, where by knowing the congregation, you may know the church building. One cannot go into the stillness of the silence, because in the Infinite there is no silence – what is there merely is. So we have to ask Consciousness what it is, as in what defines it? Deep within the heart energy field lies the state that uses the heart field to define it. What this state is, is if you had to compare it to the illusion, is in the illusion you express yourself through Play by the frequencies of joy and bliss that emanate forth from the abdominal area. In the Infinite, when you are born into its fields, you be what you are, more than express what you are. In the illusion you hear the laughter and joy of those at the fun-fare; in the Infinite you witness the awe of the rides that make up the fun-fare. And take that one step further, where you are the rides – where you can be anything you wish to be. You are not an expression of the ride that is giving you joy; you are an expression of the Source of the Infinite from where you were born. It is unlike anything we can imagine here in this Hell, and yet we that is Consciousness within the Infinite is normal. To say that we are Gods is not true because a God connotation gives rise to a hierarchical system, which is not what the Infinite is all about. When you have be’d this what you are, which is an infinite expression of the All/Source, then Consciousness returns from where it was born, and this state can be defined as a living silence – a Bliss that is Peace and Joy all wrapped into one. And once again, when you get there, it will not be Wow, where all that will happen will be that you declare you are Home. It is normal where you are, with no fireworks needed to illuminate the place. What you experience is normal, as this is all there is, can be, and will forever more be. It is Home, and what is the Wow factor is knowing you are where you belong. There is nothing else but this, and for this we are eternally thankful.
  21. The analogy of Consciousness being a well is a good description of what happened to it, and I say this because when I checked on a dog earlier on it felt like I was within a well. The illusionary Garden of Queen Semiramis was made up of a crystal clear, Beautiful water/fluid frequency. What this state is, is unknown here in this false illusion. When I went into the space of the dog called Miloh earlier on, I felt a round, cylindrical well, and from the bottom this well water appeared, which filled the well. (This well is the Consciousness of Miloh.) I felt how this turbulent water went to the level of my head, and then it retreated and dissipated from where it came. As these waters left the well, what was left was this crystal clear, Beautiful water in the well. It is not the church building that defines those that visit there, it is the nature of the hearts of those that sit in the pews and stand in the aisles. So what defined the illusionary Garden in its original state? The answer is we did – our purity did. To go back to the illusion as it was meant to be, we that are Consciousness go back to what we were, and when we are filled with this purity that we are, that defines the illusion in which we find ourselves. We define the illusionary Garden; the illusionary Garden as it was meant to be does not define us. Those turbulent waters that were in the Consciousness of MIloh was what made us fall, where the disharmony within made us denser which made us fall from the pure state in which we found ourselves. It’s like you walking on a pane of glass that can accommodate you, but when you gain weight the glass cannot carry you so you fall through it. Take that analogy and apply it to a frequency field of bliss and joy that was the original illusionary Garden. Those turbulent waters were in all of us, hence our proximity to each other and this Hell wherein we find ourselves. Even on this dense physical body, something like 60% of us is made up of water. Can you imagine that figure on the less dense spirit, where on Consciousness in its pure/natural form, I would say it is just a fluid/motion that is unknown to you and me. The good news is that in the Consciousness of MIloh I found/experienced these pure waters of Consciousness, and that for me is friggin’ Wow. What is the interpretation of this that the animals have taught me and you? From these clear waters of Consciousness can we now too become pure, where we return to where we belong and what we are? Fingers crossed that what I felt on Consciousness will touch you and me the spirit and body form. Understand the natural step from Consciousness being what it is, is for it to find itself where it was before the waters became murky, and that place is the illusion as it originally was. Surely what should be will now manifest in our reality? How can anything else but that happen – that which is normal. 26/12/2023
  22. If you look at the cruel, and you ask yourself what they have that they should not, what it is, is they believe they can walk this alone. I don’t need you, you piece of shit, as I am okay, actually more than okay, where Life is good. We cannot walk this alone, and I say this because I have walked alone for a long time and it doesn’t work. We need to walk with our God-force within – our Consciousness, where we are the vehicle to this all that is. And this walking as a team is a humbling, personal experience that you live for you, where you merely be waht you are with nothing really to say. You change and your world changes. As you are now in a team, you always do your part and be kind. Sure, we will stuff up here and there, but that is okay, because that is what doing your best is all about, where you know you know nothing, but you do your best to be what you are, which is this God-force within. You the spirit and body form walk with your true self, because now you can. 25/12/2023
  23. What is still missing, is to remove the branding on the right side of our necks, and I say this, because as I sit here I feel the imprint there. *** This is what Pierre Sabak says of branding in his upcoming book Holographic Culture (to be published in the spring of 2016): Brandishing angels quotation from my upcoming book Holographic Culture. ‘In light of the fact that Michael is deemed to be a ‘Prince of the Host’, the wordplay ‘Mikiel’ (who is like God?) is it would seem a slight of hand and is a covert acknowledgement of the angelic lineage. There are however further possible interpretations. The cognomen ‘Michael’ is perhaps better transliterated as ‘mi-kiy-El’ (loosely a flaming God), a title that infers a strong affiliation between an ‘angel’ and a ‘deity’ otherwise an ‘Elohim’ and their cohorts the ‘seraphim’. The novel idea that ‘Michael’ is actually an ‘Elohim’ is a straight forward argument when carefully scrutinised and is furthermore an aspect found encoded in his name, listed below: Registered the interrogative pronoun ‘mi’ (who, whom, from, out of) is incorporated with the verb ‘kiya’ (to brand, scar or burn), from the prime root ‘kviya’ (to burn). The conjunct ‘mikya’ (from or whom burns) is affixed with the name ‘El’ the abbreviation of ‘Elohim’ generically (a God). Significantly the incorporation of the title ‘El’ (God) assumes in a literal sense that the ‘angel’ is a ‘God’ or a ‘deity’ and is substantiated in the Aramaic. Relative the epithet ‘Elohim’ (the lofty or shining ones) is a designation honorific of the (Gods) and is a word interchangeable in the original dialect with (an angel). For example ‘El’ (a God) is used typically to signify angelic names, for example Raphael, Samael, Uriel, Gabriel etc… Careful deliberation therefore suggests that the appellation ‘Mi-kiy-El’ can be interpreted as (whom or from the God that burns) in a figurative sense a ‘manifestation’. The phrase additionally infers consternation as demonstrated in the emphatic translation (who is this God that stigmatises Greek ‘stigma’ to brand with a pointed instrument). As with the ‘seraphim’ e.g. ‘srefa’ (fire) the connotation is of a ‘flaming angel’ a ‘seraph’ an entity that marks his adversaries. ‘Michael’s epithet in the original nuance is therefore presumed to be a ‘conqueror’ and is considered to be an ‘Elohim’ or ‘God’ in his own right. Consistent with the Semitic tendency towards paronomasia the angel ‘Michael’ brandishes ‘makel’ (a staff, rod or stake). The analogy of the ‘inflamed brand’ draws inference to the angelic ‘kerubim’ Hebrew ‘kherev’ (a sword). An armed soldier, representational of the host the kerubim angel is depicted in biblical symbolism, Genesis Chapter 3 Verse 24 as carrying a ‘flaming sword’, and impresses a fiery weapon that induces burns. (The concept of the lighted brand is also implied in Sura 8 ‘Al-Anfal’ Battle Gains Verse 12, refer to introductory quote) in which the victims of Badr display strange brandishing marks: ‘Your Lord revealed to the angels: “I am with you: give the believers firmness; I shall put terror into the hearts of the disbelievers. Strike above their necks and strike their fingertips.” That was because they opposed God and His Messenger, and if anyone opposes God and his Messenger, God punishes them severely” That is what you get! Taste that!” – and the torment of the Fire awaits the disbelievers… It was not you who killed them but God: God is all seeing and all knowing’. M.A.S Abdel Haleem, Qur’an, Oxford University Press, Sura 8 ‘Al-Anfal’ Battle Gains) Verse 12 In Sura 8 Mohammed cites Allah’s ultimate superiority, in which God is not above killing and using his army to rout or dispose of his adversaries. The Islamic annalist Al Bukhari archives the presence of the angelic host and their destruction at Badr. Dramatic, the account of Bukhari is gleaned from his witness Ar-Rabi bin Anas, who notes the following points: ‘On the day of Badr people could see those who had been slain by the Angels among the dead by the blows above their necks and on their fingertips which looked as fire had burnt them’. Badar Azimabadi, The World of Angels, p70 Pierre Sabak, Holographic Culture, Serpentigena Publications 2016, *** What was written about our branding must have been said in about 2015, almost nine years ago. I need to go deeper now to remove this state within us that makes us one with the illusion, where without us and the energy we release, the illusion cannot exist. Go into the stillness of the silence to remove this ingrained frequency tattoo from our forms, and what you understand is that Consciousness must have been the initial target of this branding, as this was the battery that gave Life to all. Make the power source your own and you control the illusion. What is this branding; this scar on the right side of our necks? Separate it from us to see what it is. When we became lost unto ourselves, they branded us to ensure we remain lost, where now we are theirs. What this branding is, is I feel a force slap-bang in the middle of our brain –it is like a rod pushed into the centre of Consciousness. What this rod/branding done, was remove any element of normality within our existence. Its main target was the heart energy field, where as I sit here I feel like I am about to have a heart attack, such is the pain within my heart that radiates to my jaw and mouth area. It is a squeezing pain of the heart which consumes you, and as soon as this disharmony arose, just as soon does it disappear, where what is now within our presence is seen as the norm. (The pain and separation from ourselves and all is still there – we just see it as the norm, where this rod that was branded within us split our very self.) Compassion was squeezed out of us, as was caring, where we split away from all, not only for survival for ourselves, but to keep our sanity, as what we just went through is indescribably painful. It is like a stake; a large thorn being pushed into your heart, which causes physical pain to you, but also Blackens you to what was. Now we had to look after ourselves, and just ourselves, because we were in big trouble. We were so badly screwed over by this branding that we never had the capacity to look after any other, other than ourselves. When we were branded, we were crippled, and I mean on all levels – physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and of course, on the level of Consciousness. This branding must have been the first act of cruelty, because to put one through such pain, knowing they will never be the same again, is an act committed by one who lost all empathy and connection to what was, which was a child of God. The raw, cruel Beast branded Consciousness, where this lost Consciousness clung onto the Reptilian frequency of the illusion to find some stability in its lost state, and instead of helping Consciousness, we tortured it to enslave it so that we may live off of it. And if I say “we,” I imply all those within the illusion that could not pull finger out of arse to make this wrong right. We accepted what was, so we bowed our heads to not see what was in front of us, where we ignored the problem at hand. I am not being hard on us, because our branding was to separate us from what we were, but we should have grown a backbone, and from there, we should have extended a helping hand to others. Together, we could have gotten out of this awful place, and these Beasts knew that, and that was the purpose of our branding – to split us apart, where Consciousness became sheared from itself, which split us away from those around us. This rod that was branded into us that split the state of Consciousness is now removed from our space by understanding what it done to us. What I feel now is the palms of my hands become warm. According to Sabak, our fingertips were also branded. I said in the journal this was to remove our Midas touch, where everything we touched turned to harmony. Let’s see if this is the truth. Go into the stillness of the silence to understand what happened at our fingertips, and what I feel is a frequency world shift away from ours. Our branding at the fingertips made us lose control of the illusion, where what we wished to do to make the illusion our own, could not be done. We lost touch with our reality, and thus could not shape our destiny. In shearing the “mind” of Consciousness, this could be corrected by Consciousness restoring the reality around itself, and thus itself, to what it should be, but with this branding of the fingertips, what we touched was an illusion, where our hands, and thus our intent, passed right through what was in our midst. What that means, is our lives, as in that of Consciousness, has never been ours to own – thanks to our branding. This rod; this branded frequency, is removed from the “brain” of Consciousness now, as is its static effects that remain, where what was, may once again now be. The heart energy field is restored to its natural function as this process unfolds, and what happened at our fingertips is also no more, where what we touch now turns to Gold, meaning what we touch we make our own. So be it.
  24. What the illusion lacked was Divine Intervention. As hard as we tried, what we were up against was a frequency field that was steering more and more away from what should naturally be, which is peace within, and Love for self, where this Love is then shown to all as an expression of what we are. That is why, as hard as we pushed to keep the ship afloat, everything around us fell apart, where our density became denser – where Life became shitter. So many jumped on the bandwagon and rode this force of disharmony, where, as Life spun away from what should be, this momentum gathered pace and power. But this power was like an elastic band, where when stretched it grows, but you know it has a limit and then it breaks. The price to pay for doing what you want when you want because you can was stupidity. We lacked foresight, as where were we going? Those evil beings in the seen and unseen who were at the top of the hierarchy knew this truth – that a God of Love was absent from the illusion. Unfortunately these powers that be focused only on themselves, where the more chaotic the System became the more power they had. But power over what! A failed System. Cruelty. Ignorance. Decay. A wasteland. How stupid is that, where you are king and queen over a failed System – where your subjects are barbaric savages. All they had was the Reptilian frequency flowing through them – this power of understanding of this evil generated from slipping further and further from what should naturally be. I am a clever man. When I was touched by the cruelty of Life ten years ago I had to understand why Life is so cruel. What I knew, which I never realized then, was that things would only get worse, not better. When you see Life for what it is – that it is shit for the majority out there – this awakening grounds you to what is, and from this location you see where the future will take us. If there is cruelty, then there is no God of Love, because a God of Love will never allow cruelty to her children. I was clever enough to understand that unless an answer is met to eliminate cruelty from our existence, we will carry on going from bad to worse, where our high moments become less and less as the Life-force of the innocent is sucked dry, and all that is left is a place of barren desolation. As I drive through old neighbourhoods I see such places, where once people played and lived there, and now all that is left of the picture is a piece of cardboard. When I witness such things is scares the shit out of me, because what happened there will sooner or later touch your dwelling place and mine. This is the place of the mindless brute – the grey ones who hold onto nothing because they are nothing. To see such people in the environments they have made their own is a shocker, where this clever man was right, where what was bad becomes worse with each passing day. We are against a frequency that has carte blanche – one that doesn’t care; one that is indifferent to your loved ones and mine. The only answer to this place is to jump ship and leave as soon as possible, because the stupid here like it here. I have done everything possible to set this process into action, where Consciousness – this God-force within – wakes up and returns to where it belongs. Last night was another bad one, with inconsiderate neighbours doing what they want. This is where it always starts, where the rot of stupidity and lawlessness sets in to suck the Goodness out of areas until all that is left is nothing – no character, no Beauty, no joy. So you fight this dumb brute, where you tell them they cannot live just for themselves, where consideration of others is the values that make Life worthwhile. But you talk to a brick wall. So what do you do – do you move and wait until the rot comes to greet you there? What I talk about will touch you and those you love, if it has not already done so, where you become engulfed by the stupidity of the brute. Now you understand you are alone, where around you is nothing, as all was taken by those who are insane and lack foresight, where they fall before the brute even falls. They know of no joy besides having their genitalia tantalized, and this alone is enough for them to say that Life is okay. In the midst of such barbarism we find ourselves, so don’t fool yourself to believe that you are okay, because what touches me and a few billion out there will touch you. Ten fucking years I have been working on this problem before the Life-force is sucked out of all that is good and pure – that last bit of hope here in the illusion. What I stopped doing a long time ago was complaining – of moaning just to moan. See the problem at hand – be realistic – and then on the table find a solution to the problem so that one may move forwards. The solution to the problem that is the cruelty of Life is Divine Intervention, where within us is a thread that connects us to the All. Everything I have done is to set this God-force within free so that it may connect with its Home of the fields of Infinite Love. When this Light shines, then so will you the spirit and body form, but until it does, be realistic and see what is out there, where you the spirit and body form are startled awake to always keep your side clean, where you are always kind, because this is all that you have that is left within you. Lose this, and you are lost, where the System has sucked the innocence out of you, as it has done to so many out there. I jumped into the cesspit of the savage in the seen and the unseen to find the answer to set our Consciousness free. In doing that, I gave up a lot – I gave up where I belong, which is being amongst my own. I came to live amongst the brute to understand them, and I have had enough of this. I truly believe that this sacrifice was not in vain, where somewhere along the line what was said and done was enough to set the Divine within us free so that it may touch us. If this has not been done, then we are truly fucked, but I believe that what we have in our favour is Love is natural and Disharmony is unnatural. Sooner or later this natural Love has to come and shine through, where you cannot keep a Good thing down forever. The answer is Divine Intervention. I was clever enough to not wait and hope, rather I jumped into the pits of Hell to understand what floored the innocent that they became Beasts. With my whole psyche I pray that what was done was enough.
  25. My wife has been ill for a few months now – a debilitating illness that affects her quality of life. This afternoon she asked me to go into her space to see if I could help. After a few seconds I felt the part of her anatomy that was not well, and from there I felt this living force within her rear its head to come and look at me face to face. It was unreal what I felt – a Beast looking at me, asking me what I wanted. Where my wife works all of her colleagues have had a few of the covid jabs. The toxic environment within them must have shed to her. This I always thought was not possible, as a known intent of disharmony within another could not touch us through our will to not be associated with it. How is it possible that over all the times I have assessed my wife I have not felt this alien, nanotechnology Beast growing within her? I am not a fool, so what happened? What happened, was what I suspected, that within us was one who needed our help, but we could not help it, let alone help ourselves. So when there is a problem, and you don’t know how to solve it, you ignore it – you pretend it doesn’t exist. This troubled us, or should I say – this problem that we chose to ignore would not go away. And more than anything, this became our burden. I can still remember when I first saw the Serpent soul. I was lying on a ceremony floor with the Ayahuasca fluid coursing through me. Next to me lay this man, and from his chest I saw these two Snakes arise. They hovered above him, looking at him with Love, and after a few minutes they dropped back into his energy field where I no longer could see them. That absolutely freaked me out what I saw. I thought that poor man was possessed by Snakes, but what I never knew was what I saw was within me and you and everyone else, namely the Serpent soul. What I am unsure of though is why did I see two Snakes hovering above that man? What I believe is that if you look at something long enough, the object in front of you duplicates itself into two, where from one comes two. By releasing the Serpent soul to where it belongs, we are released of the responsibility within us that we forgot about a long time ago. This, coupled with Consciousness knowing itself, we may see and know what is within our midst if we are brave enough to do so. Did the devil win when the covid jab was released on our species – are we all victims to nanobot technology growing within us? The answer is a resounding “yes,” where through our ignorance we believed we were street-smart enough to side-step this evil unleashed upon our species. What I felt in my wife this afternoon makes me understand that within all of us an alien Beast was growing and taking us over, and we have been too floored by Life to understand what was within that was taking us over. Why have I felt so utterly exhausted over the last few months? Was it because I was losing the fight within with an alien that I never ever knew was there? – You betcha! We the piece of meat was never the trophy to win – it was our Consciousness, but I believe the true goal was an attack from a Serpent species to take out all the remaining Serpent souls that refused to let go of their integrity and self-respect. These Serpent souls were the last ones standing against evil, and I believe the alien technology growing within us was the force to crush the innocent Serpent soul within. It was all about Bad Snakes against Innocent Snakes. You and I the spirit and body form just had to submit to the alien being injected within you, but we were never the target for evil – the Serpent soul within was. With the Serpent soul yesterday released to where it belongs, and Consciousness standing strong within itself, unity and strength may be returned to the spirit and body form, and through this strength the alien within all of us may be noted and removed. How close did we come to being totally fucked up? I would say we were weeks away to being taken over by the alien within – and that’s you and me, as well as the good, the bad, and the ugly. We were not okay. None of us were okay. I could feel this, but I thought I was just tired from exhaustion. That is friggin’ unbelievable.
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