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  1. (I helped a horse – because I can. The horse said to me: “How can I help you?” I told the horse my problems. The horse said to me: “As you have helped me through Love (that something bigger than you,) why don’t you ask the same Love to help you?” I told Love my problems.) 15th January, 2021. What I said above is not airy-fairy. If you want help, you go to the right people for help. In most cases, our problems are bigger than people – we need Divine help. To transform the seen world, one needs to transform the unseen world, because the unseen controls the seen. By “unseen” we imply those within us that controlled us, as well as those from the shadow world, and the shadow/unseen world itself. One needs to understand the Game – as it is their Game and not ours. After almost seven years of living and breathing this journal so that I may understand the Game we are caught up in, have I understood enough to allow the Love that is to shine onto the seen and unseen frequencies/worlds within Hell? We are approaching the edge of the cliff – it is getting closer. The catastrophe that has been planned for us is on the horizon. What plays with us is not Human. As we do not look twice at the animals in the slaughter trucks on their way to be slaughtered, so to do these Beasts have no empathy for us and our loved ones. Like attracts like, and that is why as hard as we push and shove to get these bastards away from us, we are inextricably intertwined with them. We are them, and they are us. That is why it was vital to understand how we got in this mess in the first place so that we may rise above it and be what we are meant to be. I understand why people do not like Steven. If I met him I would also not like him. This was the “old” me I am talking about. I grew up, and every day I try and be a better person than what I was yesterday. I want to be better than what I am, as my time here is short, so while I am here I want to learn to laugh and be happy – to live a care-free existence. But we are so small, and yet when we understand what we truly are, we understand we are Everything. May the time for talking and writing be over. May the Love that has been awakened shine on all of us, as we are all in this mess – those that are destroyed, and those that destroy. So be it. 16th January, 2020.
  2. So let’s get something straight: What if I am wrong? I see what I see in my sleep state, and this is what it is, so let’s not throw the baby out with the bathwater, as what I see is there. In the book The Demon Syndrome by Nancy Osborn with Ann Haywood, the demon that controls Ann Haywood Ann calls “the Lady.” To say that this Lady is a powerful mother-fucker is a massive understatement to her immense power. In the above-mentioned book on page 164 the Lady says to Ann: “Every human being has been assigned a spirit entity that watches over each soul. ……… Although they are seldom seen, the superior beings are more often sensed. Soon, many more of us will witness the presence of these terrible-looking, awesome beings. It is part of the eternal plan. The companionship of the unseen is nothing new. It has always been with us (humans) but never apparent. Now, everyone will begin to see with their own eyes and hear with their own ears, and be full of fear. The guardians will have much more authority than they do now.” To get my ducks in a row, allow me to say the following: · We are a biological computer. (Yes, I can tick that box.) · We, the biological computer are a food source to cruel Beasts that rule us from the shadows. (Box ticked.) · Within us resides the Serpent soul. (Big tick. Yes. The truth.) · The Serpent soul is our Watcher spirit/Guardian. (WRONG) How wonderful it is to be wrong, as that way we can learn something new. So let’s try again: · We are a biological, holographic computer form that hides the Serpent soul within so that we may be a food source to this Serpent and many from the shadows. Our holographic form is to hide the Serpent within, so we believe that we are living this life for ourselves and our loved ones. Our bodies die, we go to a less dense plane, and when we are ready, we come back to the denser “physical” world to learn life lessons. (Right and wrong, as nobody is learning nothing boys and girls – we are merely feeding the Serpent and those from the shadows.) · The Serpent within may want to opt out of the Game, so a Watcher spirit is there to watch over the Serpent soul, not us the biological computer. (The truth.) We have no Watcher spirit/Guardian. We are not that important or relevant. It is the Serpent soul hiding within our forms that has the Watcher spirit to make sure it does not AWOL. How could I have been so wrong? The Lady said to Ann: “Every human being has been assigned a spirit entity that watches over each soul.” I read incorrectly. The spirit entity watches over each soul; the spirit entity watches over each Serpent soul, NOT the human being. So let’s backtrack. When I got the message the dogs tumour was once again growing, I went into the space of the dog to find out what was going on. I felt the Serpent entering its form at the base of its left hind foot, and I filled the dog and the tumour/Serpent with Love. But something was not right; something was off centre. This Serpent was not the same one as when the massive tumour fell off. What I felt within this dog this time was something I have never experienced before – it was a Life-form like no other. It was a Serpent, but when I allowed myself to spend time in its presence, I felt it had four heads. These heads were prodding and protruding all over the dog’s head, and what I found really interesting was that this entity spent a lot of time over the dogs Third Eye region – the pineal gland. It kept probing and feeling there, which I found unusual. Now it makes sense. This morning I asked where is the Serpent soul, and I felt it in its canal. Then I asked where is the Watcher spirit, and I felt an awakening over my Third Eye region, and then I knew that the Watcher spirit and the Serpent soul are NOT one and the same, but rather two different entities. I never knew it at the time, but within this dog I felt another Watcher spirit – one that was interacting with the resident Watcher. They were communicating with each other, hence all the activity over the Third Eye region. When I began to see those from the shadows in my sleep state, the message to all was Steven is not allowed to see what he sees, so take him out. I would be lying in bed and see this snake slithering towards me in mid-air. It entered me slap-bang between the eyes at the forehead, and then I would feel it all curled up within my body. Who let these fuckers into my space? Am I correct to say it is the Watcher spirit located over the Third Eye region? Yes, I would say that I am correct. My goodness me. So where to from here? This Watcher is the paw-paw that does not belong. The few times I have seen the Serpent soul within me and that of my wife, these souls had an angst and panic about them. I always took this as a reaction from me seeing them, but this was not the case – their communication was in secret to avoid the Watcher spirit. The Lady mentions “the presence of these terrible-looking, awesome beings,” and how right she is, as what I felt within this dog was indescribably evil. If you hide in my closet to watch and monitor me then you have power over me, as I do not know you are there. But what if I open the cupboard and catch you out? In that instant/moment your power is no more. Is the awareness of the Watcher within us enough to shut it down? I would say “yes,” especially since we want nothing to do with it. I shut my Watcher down now as I know it’s there and want nothing to do with it. It cannot return or be replaced. Now the Serpent soul may be free to release the Dragon soul so that they may awaken the Dragon and Serpent spirits.
  3. Anything you do within Hell will be countered by Hell, as you are within a frequency that has the majority vote – on the contrary, it is the only vote. For some weeks now I have been treating a dog with a horrific tumour in its mouth – the size of the tumour was about the size of your hand. The cause of the tumour was from the infiltration of a huge astral Snake – the tumour was an expression of the Snake within this reality. Look at the tumour with our eyes, and you see a tumour. Look at the tumour from the eyes from those from the shadows and you see a snake showing its ugly head within the realm of the seen world of planet Earth. By understanding the problem, the tumour was destroyed by the dog by empowering its astral form to understanding what was going on. We were all ecstatic that the dogs horrific ordeal was over. A minor portion of the tumour remained attached to the dogs mouth, but we were confident it would soon be completely gone. (This was about five weeks ago.) Yesterday I got a message that the tumour was full-steam ahead with its growth. I went into the space of the dog to understand what was going on, and there it was: I felt the Snake – it had entered through the base of the left hind paw of the dog, travelled through its body, and was showing itself in our reality as a growing tumour at the base of the dogs mouth. This Serpents presence I felt the most at the base of the dogs paw as it pushed itself through there into the space of the dog. This entry into our forms through the base of the left foot I have personally felt many times as these monsters entered my space to do with me as they wish. Unfortunately for them their wish was not granted, as they had to retreat as their foul ways are known to me, but this does not stop them from affecting countless beautiful, innocent beings. And they most certainly never stopped trying to destroy Steven over the years. At one point it became a heightened competition to see who would be the one to take me down. This is the bugger-up in standing alone to find a way out of this mess: one does not cover all bases, and one does not see the obvious. To be free from Hell, where you are in this world but not of it, one needs to be different from Hell – the one needs to be oil, and the other needs to be water, so that the one stands separate from the other. The majority rule of cruel bastards has to be no more, or even better still – there are no Beasts within our seen or unseen existence. What I done to this dog last night, as well as to all I Love and all those who Love me, was that I allowed the strand of the Creator to take over the presence of this animal and all its associated states/frequencies e.g. biological computer, astral, Serpent within. Now the presence/space of the dog was no longer the frequency of Hell, but rather the strand of the Creator. This state is “different” from Hell, and thus a repeat comeback or presence by cruel Beasts cannot happen. You do the same to yourself and those you Love. Go into the silence. At your throat area is a speck of light – it is about 3mm long. (I saw it a good fifteen years ago around the horse I was about to treat, but I did not know what I was looking at. What happened at that moment was that I was stopped in my tracks, where I looked at what I was doing to help the animals in a different light. Instead of me helping them, I opened myself to learn from them, hence the journal is called “What the Animals Taught Me – a journal of self-discovery.” If you are sitting somewhere as you go into the stillness/silence, imagine that if someone walked past they would not be able to see you as you are no longer there – all that is there is this strand. Now take this strand and fill your entire existence with this strand. It fills you; it engulfs you, and it most certainly covers that hole at the base of your left foot where Beasts can enter your space. (This portal at the base of the left foot is not the only entry into our space – there are others, but the speck/strand will cover all of them.)
  4. hi yes, you are right - i am hard on our species. there are no doubt many good people out there. may i meet them before my time is up here so that the scales may be balanced, as i have only really met the bad ones. i went to your site regarding Mollison, and there was a video of him channeling Eisenhower. the video portrays "icke" as a wonderful person. mike kings research regarding his ways, especially during the Second World war depict a cold, calculated monster. so who is right and who is wrong? i would go with mike king, so where does that place Mollison? for me everything is one big lie, as the foundation of what we believe as real is actually an illusion. one can get caught up in so many dog-fights as in who is right or wrong, and i refuse to do this. the best is respect for all, and one finding ones own path, so should things go wrong one can only blame oneself, which i will never do, as i only done my best - not just for myself, but for all.
  5. A few weeks short of seven years ago I needed to understand the cruelty of Life. To answer my question, my Third Eye was opened when I closed my eyes to sleep, and I began to see those from the shadows that use us as an energy/food source. By “shadows,” I mean that our world/existence is shadowed by another world, and the cruel bastards that dwell therein use us as an energy supply. I have seen so much, and I have understood so much, but in terms of breaking free of these bastards nothing has changed. I am still a free meal to these fuckers that come in the night and do with me as they want because they can. But let us not forget ourselves. How much blood is spilt every do so that we may feed from the flesh of animals? How many lives are stood on as the corporate ladder is climbed to get to the top so that dominion may be had over all? “Yes Steven, but this is called Life; it is what we have to do to survive.” Exactly, and that is the exact same sentiment of those from the shadows. They are cruel – and so are we. We are biological computers that have a Watcher spirit/Serpent within us. My astral form has been to these cosmic laboratories where we are manufactured, and I have seen my Serpent and the Serpent of others. What I say is from what I have seen. This mass roll-out of vaccinations in the year 2021 and the years to follow on planet Earth is to upgrade us the biological computer. The lackeys that drool with excitement over this roll-out and the removal of our freedoms are merely puppets to those from the shadows. The upgrade of our biological computer is to harness our energy more efficiently, as well as to make sure we remain locked into their System more efficiently. Will enough say “no” to this decimation of what makes us Human? Honestly I don’t know. You are asking the wrong person, as I have little faith in my fellow species. We are a bunch of dummies – too fucked up to see further than our noses to just be kind. May I be wrong in saying that help will not come our way, just as it never has since before the beginning of time. We have to figure this mess out ourselves, and it is now that I would like to do so. The answer for me is at the Source – the strand of the Creator within us. The Dragon spirit was created by the Wisdom Goddess Sophia to play within the fields of the Infinite. Any parent will tell you that nothing gives them more pleasure than to seeing their children playing, and this is why the Dragon spirit was created – to use their imagination to play within the fields of Love; to create something from nothing as an artist creates beauty from a blank canvas. As what all Life should be – a win-win situation, the Creator and her children found Bliss and Joy in each other. I am not a Gnostic, and I have no formal belief system that defines who I am. I merely want a way out of this mess, and this meant looking where few have looked before me. If someone had found a way out I would have found them and this would have saved me being dragged through the mud over the last seven years. Sophia fell, as did her children. The Serpent was born from her impact zone, and Semiramis created the illusionary Garden. This beautiful place too fell, and we were born/manufactured within a dense frequency that I call Hell, as were many other species and worlds. We need to remove what we have become so that all that is left is the strand of the Creator around which all Life within Hell is created. We pray, and we ask a God for guidance, but what are we praying to? What is this God? We look without, not within. Within Hell there is no Love and there is no Imagination, and this is so because we have forgotten what we are at our core. Put another way – there is no Play; there is only survival. These dummies that created us done so for their survival – they did not do it for their Joy. This means they needed help, and thus took from the Creator and her children a strand. Around this strand all Life was created. Now the Dragon was no longer Playing – it was in slumber. Now the era of the Serpent was born, and what an awful existence it has been for all – a Life of deception and take and do what you want, as long as you don’t get caught out. Get caught out and go back to the beginning and start again. Don’t get caught out and stay in the upper echelons of the hierarchy, only to fall once again into the Nothingness of the Forgotten. I have seen this place and those that dwell therein. What a fall from grace: one moment you are invincible, the next you are piled up with others staring into Nothing, as this is what you have finally become – nothing. What I need to understand now is what many would call God. The word I use instead of God is the “strand” of the Creator – that speck of light around which Life is formed. If I say that you are God, what I imply is that around and within you dwells the strand of one that is Love – one that is bigger than you and me. This strand is real, and the place where the Dragon spirits played is real. We dwell within the realm that Semiramis created – the illusionary Garden with its oh so many Serpents. To define the strand, which is what we are, we need to isolate it, and how this is done is to remove all that is around the strand. We remove the biological computer with all its excess baggage’s of Disharmony; the Serpent within; the frequencies of Hell who interact with us; the illusion; the parasitic frequency of Deception. Now all that is left is the strand, and it is this state I would like to understand so that I may be what I am – that which is real. I go into the stillness/silence so that the strand may be heard and understood, and I become one with the strand, and what I feel is a healing of my body form. This makes sense, as if you Love someone and they are sad you give them a hug; if they are broken you fix them. This is wonderful, but I do not want to be fixed; I do not want someone or something to fill this bottomless void that I call Loneliness. I want to go Home. I am in a place where I do not belong, regardless of how many paradises you throw my way. The answer comes back to the state of Play – the Bliss and Joy of being, of existing. To become what you are has a beginning; a starting point, so why not make this point while you are the biological computer? The trick is to know yourself – know what you are. You are no longer a biological computer with a Serpent within. You are the strand that is God; that is the Creator. My wife and I created our children. We are not better than them; we are one with them. Understand that in the fields of the Infinite there is no hierarchy – there is only the state of Love. No one look up or down at others – there is only Love, a state that you and I cannot really understand and fathom. Know yourself. Know what you are. You are the strand of the Creator and you are Beautiful. How does this tit-bit of information help you and me? What changes can we expect? I don’t know. I have not been to the other side – the place that is real – so I cannot tell you what to expect. What I do know is I expect the complete opposite of what I have. I expect Love and not loneliness. I expect to be cared for, rather than having to always survive. I expect to be Home – a place where I belong as this is all there is – rather than a wilderness where anything goes. I know what I have been, and now I know what I am. May the visible transformation from the one state to the other happen sooner than later.
  6. It has been weeks now that my right ear has been infected and blocked. Last night I understood that I was carrying for someone else, as if the problem was merely my own it would have been cleared up. (The other case scenario is the problem being a manufacturers flaw, but this was not the case with me as my flaw was cleared up.) It was the Serpent within; the Watcher spirit whose flaw I was carrying. When I assessed the Watcher/Guardian Angel to find the flaw, I found parts of my bone marrow in my legs absent, and I felt a shift within me that made me go “Oh Wow!” How does this relate to the ears? The flaw of the species of Hell is that we do not know the difference between a truth and a lie. This is vital to keep Hell in chaos, as the lie divides the masses, as some are drawn to the truth and others to the lie. This “divide and conquer” keeps the masses at each other’s throats, which releases the energy to keep Hell ticking over. But there has to be a backup plan to make sure Hell, its walls, and those that reside therein stay there and never find a way out. Welcome in the Watcher spirit – the prison warden of the biological computer; us the Human beings. This was the original role of the Serpent within – to keep an eye on us to make sure we know our place and stay there. This relationship developed into a friendship, and this friendship remains until we disappear into the Nothingness of the Forgotten – that end of the road for all in Hell who do what they want when they want because they can. Every fucker, bar one or two, that I see in my sleep state at the side of my bed or hovering above me – every one had their unmistakeable Snake by their side. The ones without Snakes were the cosmic assassins who brought their guns to shoot me, or their whips to slash my throat, or their poison. These scum were not even aware of their Snake within, as they were too busy enjoy playing Bad Cop-Bad Cop. With the friendship between the Serpent within and the manufactured biological computer, something had to be done. What was done was that the Watcher spirit was manipulated – which is a nice way of saying that it was broken. The core of this manipulation was that the Serpent within would never know the truth, or put differently – it would not know a lie. What this done was create uncertainty within the Serpent, which was the beginning of the end in terms of taking its power away. Through the ears we heard the truth, but we never knew the truth as the Serpent was manipulated, and thus the ears became part of the flaw within. To what use are ears when one cannot hear the truth? “Yes Steven, but what about a sixth sense; a knowing of what is true and untrue?” The answer is that uncertainty put a spanner in the works and buggered everything up. Our friend was and still is there, but it was powerless to the hive mind and any intruders that decided to come and visit in the night – or day. (Having said that, many do not have their Watcher spirit/Guardian Angel, and these beings become the living dead – just going through the motions day to day. Many Watcher spirits become nasty to the point where they prey on the seen and the unseen, and they see this as the norm – until they find themselves in a place of desolation where all forget them, as they have forgotten themselves which is the Love/strand within.) The truth will set us free, and as this was not allowed, the truth was never to be known. We had to figure it out, but this was not really an issue as we were too busy surviving or doing our best to be nasty. We never stopped to question. We never looked within and asked “how can I be a better person so that myself and others may benefit?” We never questioned where we were and where we belonged. At what point within our existence does the Serpent within make itself known to us? Your guess is as good as mine, but understand one thing: the Serpent within has become intertwined within your existence – it is you, and you are it. Both became helpless to the System and the path that leads to Nowhere. (Incidentally, the sex drive was a major part in our manufacturers manual, as the orgasm was a five-course energy meal to the Serpent within. That is why, to this day, we are a sex driven and sex obsessed species, especially the brute we call “man.”) That shift that I felt last night within the Watcher was it being restored to what it was – where it knows the truth. The truth and Love are one and the same, as they come from the essence of the strand of the Creator. A giant cannot harm a 95 pound weakling who has the truth, as the truth is real and everything else is an illusion. An illusion is harmless to what is real, on the contrary – the one does not even know the other exists. May the truth set us free.
  7. (I am inserting this message here on the 31st December, 2020 because this needs to be said before applying what is written below. The Watcher spirit; the Serpent within, is connected to the hive mind – the frequency/waveforms of all the Watcher Serpents. That is why we are all the same, give or take to what extent we have lost our compassion and empathy towards ourselves and Life. This morning as I lay in bed I felt this force to which the Serpent within is connected. It is powerful beyond. Over the years I have not been kind with my view towards this Watcher within, as this friend never stopped the cruelty that came my way – from the seen and the unseen. Now I understand why this is so: it was because the Watcher was helpless as the collective/hive mind took it over. The “predator” mentioned below is the Watcher spirit, but not in its singular state, but rather the collective. As an individual entity the Serpent within has empathy and kindness, but as a collective force through its connection to the hive mind, the Watcher/Serpent becomes the predator from the depths of the cosmos. This connection of the Watcher spirit within to the hive mind is broken now by knowing it exists and us wanting nothing to do with it. We unplug the Watcher from the hive mind now so that we the biological computer, as well as the Dragon soul and the Watcher spirit/Serpent soul may be one with the Infinite. So be it. To complete the big picture, one needs to ask to whom is the hive mind connected to – what is the source to which all connect? For now, I would say Queen Semiramis. We connect this lady to the Infinite, and by doing so, all that she is connected to becomes one with the Infinite. This connection is not done through our will or by force, but through pure Love, as this lady was our surrogate mom within the illusionary Garden. She was/is good, until the Parasite took her and the children over. Just as she cared for the children within the Garden, we care for her now by uniting her with the Infinite. Then there is Nimrod. The term “Fallen Angel” is, in my opinion, given to one that falls. One falls by accident – not on purpose, and thus the title of Fallen Angel one would bestow towards Semiramis. Sophia’s second fall was on purpose, or should we say out of reflex to be with her Loved ones. These two frequencies/states/mothers were part of a cataclysm that would make the rivers flow with blood, but as has been said before in the journal, Nimrod was indifferent to the mess that unfolded and carries on to this day. One would call this dude the Prince of Darkness, and I would like to enter this Serpents energy state now to understand why would one turn their back on the Beauty of All to experience and become the desolation and loneliness of Life, as well as the tormentor of the Innocent. Why would an entity/state of Love want to become the complete opposite of what it is, which is Cruelty? Just as there is the euphoria and high of experiencing and being the Bliss of Love, so too is there a high in the wastelands where nothing dwells. To be alone with nothing that once was everything is something special and profound. One cannot really understand these words until one embraces the Darkness, and to do this one has to turn your back on all that Is. The Beasts in the seen and unseen that consider themselves groupies to this Prince do not understand what he is, and thus can never be a part of what he is, and this is because they have forgotten the Love that Is. They are merely followers; they have forgotten what this “different entity” turned his back on, and thus can never be one with him in his world. Besides, the loneliness is what drives the desolation of the Darkness, so in truth there is no place for any besides this “Prince” in this state that he chose to fall into. He never chose to be cruel, and is not cruel – he merely chose to be different. It goes without saying that the fallout of his state intertwined with the illusion. That is why everything is upside down – why nothing makes sense; why the lie is seen as the truth; why a friend is an enemy; why sorrow and loneliness is the norm. The parasitic frequency of Deception made us fall to a place that was unknown to us, but as bad luck would have it, we hit the static shock-wave state of the realm of the Prince of Darkness, and this is when we had to go into overdrive in order to survive in a world/state that does not care. This dude meant no harm to us – we encroached on his frequency/world and it became a part of us to the extent that it took us over. What happened next is that we drew this entity out of its isolation – it became intertwined within our world. Now there were others, and it became “game on.” Now both parties influenced each other in a disastrous way. To each their own. We leave him be. Initially we latched on to him; he did not latch onto us. On the contrary, he never wanted anything to do with us. The groupies out there that affiliate with this powerful force of Darkness have learnt to align stronger to this state than the average John Doe out there, but all they end up doing is destroying themselves as insanity takes them over. That the innocent have to suffer because of this is unacceptable, and so what we do is return this state/frequency of this Prince back to him. It is no longer a part of our existence – it was never ours to embrace in the first place. We leave this Serpent be. May he be at peace. So be it.) ** The implanted dream last night was a nasty one. These Beasts are cruel – they hit below the belt. Carlos Castaneda quotes his shaman Don Juan Matus by saying: “We have a predator that came from the depths of the cosmos and took over the rule of our lives……” “They took us over because we are food to them, and they squeeze us mercilessly because we are their sustenance. Just as we rear chickens in coops, the predators rear us in human coops, humaneros. Therefore, their food is always available to them.” The full passage of what Carlos mentioned was written in the journal years ago. What Matus says regarding a predator that feeds from us I have seen in my sleep state for almost seven years now. I have seen and I have experienced, and yet this understanding of what we are and why we are here has not uplifted me to the state where I am free of these predators/Beasts. Why is this so? What Matus says of the predator is the answer to why “we are held prisoner.” He says the predator “gave us their mind,” and this is why they do with us what they want. Our brain is their brain. That is why it is so easy for them to hack into our memory data, string together a story, press “enter,” and we have a story/dream that we follow. By following the dream we give it attention/energy, and this is one of the ways that the predator feeds from us. I have seen these predators that implant these dreams so often I no longer look at them when they come at night – been there; done that; got the T-shirt. As long we have their mind we are going nowhere slowly. We have upgraded the pineal and expelled the R-complex of the brain over the years, but this make-over meant nothing to nobody, and this is because we are playing with their mind. How can we change something that is not ours? We cannot, because as soon as it is changed, the predator merely changes it back to what it should be. Within all Life is the key to the Infinite. Our Life, as the Life of the plants, animals and all the species of Hell have been manufactured around the essence of the Creator. I call this essence the strand of God, and by “God” I mean the Creator of the Dragon spirit – the ones who were created by the Wisdom Goddess Sophia to play within the space she created for them. For me, Sophia is the Creator. We look up at night and wonder where we belong within the vast spectrum, and we wonder who watches over us, but the sad truth is that we are alone. We were manufactured by cosmic geneticists. If you question the last sentence then ask yourself why hundreds of millions of innocents have been slaughtered over the ages and no-one came to help them. Nobody came because nobody was there to help – there were only Beasts that were playing with us as we waited to be scooped from our humaneros. I refuse to be controlled by cruel Beasts – the seen and the unseen. The strand of God; that essence; that “battery” around which all Life in Hell is manufactured resides over our throat area. Why it is there I don’t know, and in truth I believe its exact location has no real significance, but what I would like to do is replace the mind of the predator with the strand of God within. How this is done is by understanding what we are compared to what we should be. The fields of Infinite Love are everywhere – they lie beyond the illusionary Garden of Semiramis within which we reside. I choose these fields over the humaneros in which I and those I Love reside in. The strand replaces the mind of the predator because it can. So be it. 24th December, 2020
  8. As long as there is a survival mode within the species of Hell, there will be cruelty, fear, horror and sorrow. Another word for survival is “take.” Take and do what you can in order to survive, regardless what happens to those you take from – they are irrelevant as it is “them versus us,” and what matters is us. How does one stop this cut-throat awful way of life? We survive because we are lost. If we were Home there would be no need to survive as we are Home, and what this means is that we are looked after. Put another way: we don’t need anything because we have everything because we are one with the natural flow of Love – the Bliss that us mortal beings cannot fathom, but when we know it, it will be embraced as we will understand that this is who and what we are and there is no other. How does one change a Beast, where it takes its bags and goes back Home? The answer is to let him/her understand that what they need is not necessary; what they conquer and pillage for is not important. By controlling others we subdue them, but this is just a game so that we may be in charge. This game is for ego-maniacs that consider themselves on par with their God, where they believe that their work and Gods works are one and the same. But we are regressing, as we have to stick to fundamental basics, of which there are two: The first is that we are lost, and thus have to survive, and the second is that we have to eat to survive. The air we breathe is a given to survive, and we can take care of ourselves by slotting into society and earning our keep for our clothes and the roof over our head, but the one fundamental basic in survival is that we have to eat. Oh yes, we can survive longer without food than water, so surely water is more important, but what we are talking about is more than just a survival necessity, as with our lost state comes an addiction frequency; an imbalance in who and what we are. This imbalance is portrayed in what we would call “eating.” On a deeper level, we do not so much eat to eat, rather we eat to take. The eating may nourish our bodies, but this is a small segment in the act of feeding. Originally we began to eat to take, and this act had nothing to do with looking after our bodies. We took, because the more we had the safer we felt. But, once again, we stress that it goes deeper than survival – it is about an addiction to fill a gaping hole from our lost state. The high of Life only lasts until the next high, and each high is as fleeting as its past and future one. So what if we offered the Beast stability, where it no longer needs to take, as it has everything it needs. Fair enough, not everyone is like Steven who is a fish out of water here in Hell, who wants to return Home as this is where I belong. There are many who like what they are and what they do. Personally, I call them short-sighted scum, as they prey on the misery of others to be satisfied, but let’s be fair and say “to each their own,” where we leave these Beasts with their belief system, as it is their life to lead and not ours. However, on departing, let us give them a gift. This gift they can accept or reject. This gift is given because to be Love one has to give Love. There can never be a “them versus us” scenario within your existence, because if there is, it implies you are better or worse than others. In the big picture this division will keep the gates of Hell firmly intact. We want to equalise the playing fields so that everyone has an equal opportunity to return Home should they wish to do so. In the “cloud” of what we created here in Hell is what I would call a Supreme Beast. This Supreme Beast is not the cruel Beasts that I see and experience in my waking and sleep state. It is something that we created when we emitted the energy/frequency of “I am lost, and thus I am afraid.” Just as computer data is stored in what they would call a “cloud,” there is a cloud of energy/frequency that I would call the Supreme Beast. In our quest to survive we became Beasts, and our dissipated energy coagulated and formed as one to become the ultimate illusionary master of Hell. This Supreme Beast became addicted to our fear state, and it is this monster we feed as it is addicted to us. So when I say that to eat is everything here in Hell, understand what is eating from us, and you will understand why we eat. We eat to take, as to take was a means of survival. As we survived our emitted energy of Fear created a master that became addicted on our Fear. Yes, our lost state created Fear within us, where we took to survive, but this blew up in our faces where the energy levels of Fear that we emitted formed and took on a life of its own that became our master. The parasitic frequency of Deception was created through the deception of Semiramis. This “deception” is not true deception; it was an honest mistake from her part, as I believe that she did mean well when she offered us the opportunity to come and play in her illusionary Garden. This parasite that infiltrated all of us was indifferent. It was not cruel, nor did it know control. It just took; it just fed. That something could be in our midst that takes rather than creates may well have formed insanity within us, as such a state of taking is not known in the fields of Love. This worm took, but it meant no harm, and was indifferent to the ways around it. Having this worm within our state, coupled with our lost state, led to what we would call insanity, where it is every fucker for themselves, regardless of others. This fear that led to insanity emitted an unnatural energy, and from this energy the Supreme Beast was formed. This dude became addicted to our energy emissions, and the more it wanted the more we had to emit, hence us never being at peace. Its addiction became ours, where we always have to take/eat. Feed/give the master a gift, and it no longer needs us, and we can be on our way Home. So what is this gift? It is a gift where we and master no longer have to take; we no longer have to eat. The gift is the only true thing that we really have, and that is the strand of the Creator within us. This strand is over the throat area. It is a gift that can be given and at the same time kept, as it comes from an endless Source. If you are wise, give to this Supreme Beast the strand of the Creator over your throat area. What you give is you – a limitless essence of you. Now you are free of the monster you helped create.
  9. hi Doug Thanks for info. Appreciate it. About seven years ago my Third Eye was opened. What this means, is that when my eyes closed to sleep at night i began to see what we are not allowed to see. What i saw was how these Beasts from the shadows feed from our energy. They access our sub-conscious mind and form what we would call a dream. When we follow the dream/story we give it attention/energy, and this energy they harness and feed from. This process i saw just about every night for the last six years and nine months. As i was not allowed to see this unseen, the cosmic assassins soon arrived to take me out, as well as the many snakes that possessed me. I would see the snakes, and then feel them inside of me as they curled up there to destroy or possess me. What i write is from person experience and not a belief system. There is an evil system that is naive as their power is fleeting, as what they do goes against the natural order of what is. Yes, i understand these Beasts, as this ignorance is all they know. It is a pity they never looked further than their noses to see what else is out there. No doubt they enjoy their power, but it is fleeting - one moment they exist, and they next they are in the Nothingness of the Forgotten. Surely it cannot be fun destroying others, but fun or not, one thing is for certain - they destroy themselves. I have seen this Forgotten place and those that dwell there. Steven
  10. nope. we are at the bottom of the food chain here in Hell. saw these fuckers every night in my sleep state. fill myself with the only true love that is here, which is the love within the animals. my saving grace was this love and seeing my attackers and possessors. many have fallen before me. i was lucky. i became immune to their poison. will reach the source, as this is what we all are. thanks for the reply. all the best, steven
  11. We are a biological computer that has been programmed to be a food source; an emitter of energy so that those from the shadows (that we eventually also become) may feed from us. As long as we feel that we have lessons to learn, and that we like and miss our world when we depart it, we remain in the loop of coming back (being reborn) into this frequency of planet Earth. The same is true for other species in other worlds. When we become disillusioned and start to see through the lie, we once again Fall as there is no way out of this madness, and what I mean by this is that we lose our empathy – where we take of the energy of others to survive. This transition from “learner” and “do-gooder” to Beast is smooth and effortless, as already we the species of Hell feed from the animals and plants around us, and we destroy in the name of Survival and its close friend Greed. I always wondered what gave these Beasts from the shadows the edge over us, where they do with us as they please, while we are a deaf and dumb paralysed mute against their cruel ways. The answer is us holding onto our beliefs, which creates the ignorance within us to what is out there and playing with us and our loved ones. The edge these Beasts have over us is that they accept what is within Hell and they make this state their own and play with it. We, on the other hand, hold onto what is Good, and we refuse to do what is bad. We are 100% correct in doing this, because what we are doing is holding onto our sanity in this awful, crazy place called Hell. We refuse to be cruel, because this is not who we are, and once again – rightly so. But, and this is a big BUT, we do not understand where we are. Knowledge is power, and the knowledge of these Beasts in knowing where they and we are, gives them the power over us. We are in Hell boys and girls – we don’t know it, but these Beasts do, and this knowledge releases their inhibitions to embrace Hell and all that it offers. This broadening of their horizons opens them up to possibilities and strengths compared to us that hold onto our righteousness in a place where love brings primarily sorrow rather than joy. Note that I say they have “knowledge,” compared to understanding. With knowledge you see the tree; with understanding you see the forest. The loss of empathy is the beginning of the end in terms of us destroying ourselves as all basic, common sense and reason is lost. We become stupid in the sense that we become insane, and one moment we are in bliss taking and doing what we want because we can, and the next we complete our final Fall into the Nothingness of the Forgotten, where we forget the Love within ourselves – what we are at our core. There is something “bigger” than us, but this is not what many would call a God. It is a state of beauty that fills everything and encompasses everything. My children are not lesser than me – I would say they are their own individuals that stay in the same space as me. I am not “bigger” than them, just as what is “bigger” than all of us does not see itself in this light. Love is Love. There is no hierarchy or reverence in Love – it merely is, and it is beautiful in a way that words or the imagination cannot describe. The way out of this mess is to know what we are, so that from this foundation we may be one with this Love – the fields of Infinite Love. We are a manufactured biological computer. Take my word for it when I say that a God – any God, would not create such a fragile piece of shit like us that has to destroy to survive. We have been manufactured within the realm of Hell, and as I have said before in the journal, I have been to these “laboratories” where Life-forms are made. The core of these Life-forms and Life itself is the strand of Love, and these celestial geneticists knew that in our quest to survive to meet another day the last thing we would look for is the Love within. We look without to survive – not within, and we live for the present and prepare for the future, rather than trace our steps backwards to understand how we got into this mess. It’s a Game called “go, go, go.” This Love; this space of beauty is everywhere as it is everything. That we were manufactured by celestial geneticists to keep the Fallen Angels alive as their food source places us on a massive back-foot in terms of getting out of this mess. We are a raw, manufactured slate, which makes us absorb all the lies that come our way. We make these lies our own, and this gives us our personality and genetic traits, but my goodness me, have we ever taken a step back to look beyond ourselves? Through seeing these Beasts in my sleep state practically every night for almost seven years now, I have come to understand Hell and its cruel ways. Through seeing these Beasts, I see what I don’t want to be, and as so many of my fellow species are like these Beasts, I shun those within our world as well as those from the shadows. They disgust me, because they go against everything that should be, which is laughter, joy, peace and innocence. The mistake I made was to not hold onto anything or anyone as I wanted no part of this mad world. I did not care to understand others, and the backlash of this is that I never got to understand myself. In seeing Beasts through my Third Eye I was forced to see and understand myself so that I may not become like them, and most importantly, end up where they all end up. You are a biological computer. To get an “upgrade,” you do the following: · First and foremost you must wish to be upgraded more than anything, as you understand that you are in a place where you don’t belong, and what you are is not what you are meant to be, as your essence is Love and nothing else. · Then be this Love that is everywhere by understanding it is there, and understanding that this is who and what you are. This Love becomes the core within you the biological computer. · Within the Game; the illusion, everything is energy/particles vibrating. Trust me when I say that these particles are not good for you, as they keep you dependent or suppressed with Hell. I make this statement as these particles are made within Hell for Hell, and not to set you free from this place. Understand that the core essence of Love that is within you allows you the biological Human body computer to play independently within this Game. In other words you are in the Game but not a part thereof. The first thing you play with is the particles/energy of Hell, as these particles make us some really cruel Beasts – in the seen and unseen worlds of Hell. You play with these disharmonious particle/energy forms that contribute to Life and make up Life by not allowing them into your existence. All that you encompass (you, your Life and those you love) as well as all that encompasses you (the unseen) are shielded from this disharmonious energy/particles of Hell. This is done because our time here is short, thus we don’t wish to fight off the seen and unseen nonsense within and around our forms. We choose to become a transmitter of Love and joy rather than a receiver to disharmony. · With the shield to disharmony up, now you are in a position to play with the frequencies in Hell. From your core state of Love, you wish for – you draw to you what would make your happy. Everybody would wish for money, as without money one cannot do much here, but as we all know, having money for the sake of having money does not bring happiness. (What brings happiness in our world is communication, where we share our lives with others. The joy of being in the presence of something that warms your biological heart energy field is what makes one happy, be it a person, animal, or nature.) So if you need a car to get somewhere as walking there takes up most of your time during the day, then go into the space of your silence and imagine the car you have in mind to buy. The car is not to show off, but to make Life more practical and comfortable. The frequency of the car now becomes yours – it is a part of you and will manifest within your existence. But before this happens, we need to go one step back: To manifest the car in your space you need to go into the showroom and buy the car – with money. So what you do is imagine someone you have heard about who has limitless money. Money is not important to these people as it is as limitless as the air they breathe, and this state has a specific frequency to it. You draw on this frequency that is around this person and you make it your own. Now the money will come to buy the car to make your Life more comfortable. My advice is draw frequencies to you that will allow you to lead a full life. Become an inspiration to yourself and to others. Be humble; be simple; keep your feet on the ground, by my goodness me – live a full life. One of the frequencies I drew to myself was of a well-known adventurer and traveller. I do not wish his life, as I have my own to lead, but what I am thankful for is sharing their frequency that they have created so that adventure and travel may come my way. This frequency I could have created myself as I wish for it from my core state of Love, but having a frequency that has “been-there-done-that” the experiences will manifest faster within my reality. Understand that we are not grabbers by taking on the frequencies of others. I promise you that when a frequency is taken/duplicated from a Life-force, one is given from you as well – if anything, it is your core Love. We are all in this mess together, and what makes one happy is communication, which is a mutual sharing because we can; because it makes us happy. · Next is to lose your biological identity – that form that is you and was molded by the greater or lesser extent that you held onto your empathy – the strand of Love within around which you were manufactured. This step is to prepare for the departure of our biological computer body form, as well as to open ourselves up to the wonders of the seen and the unseen while we are still within our planets frequency. Get in the habit of ignoring your thoughts so that spontaneity may come to the fore rather than predictable outcomes. What you wish for; the frequency you duplicate from others is a given – it is there, but now we need to get on with living Life. So we have to break the old mould so that the new may flood in. Ignore the predictable, routine thoughts, as well as the emotions of what makes us sad or happy. (Remember, this is to break the old you.) And lastly – and this is a tough one to understand – let go of everything you love. What we would call “love” has many definitions, but the general outcome is sorrow and heartache as this love is so disappointing, as we never knew who we are and from where we arose, which is a place called Hell. As you begin to depart this biological body computer, or decide to open yourself up to the wonders of what is, allow this Love that has become your known core to take you over. This Love, and you, as it is you, returns to the fields of Infinite Love where we belong. We are now Home and we stay there.
  12. You are beautiful I look at the mountains, and they are beautiful. I look at the sea, and it is beautiful. The mountains and the sea look at me, and what they see is beautiful, as only one with such beauty can see the beauty in them. But I cannot see what they see. I see their beauty, but I cannot see my own. So now I turn to the sea and the mountain, and I took at me through their eyes. What do they see so that I may know myself? What makes me and you beautiful? What is this beauty so that we may know ourselves so that we may glow? Our beauty is the joy of being alive; of sharing our lives with others. But what if there is no beauty around you? What if you stare at four walls every day and call it having a job? My answer is that you have become lost in your quest to survive. You have turned your back on beauty to make ends meet to survive to see another day, or you have been born into a really bad circumstance where those around you are cold, insensitive and cruel. To many both have happened to them. My advice to you is find the beauty once again. Find it in a friend, a sunset or whatever else takes your breath away. Find this beauty so that you may know yourself and be yourself. This is what you are; this is your natural state, and before you know it you are always in this state of beauty, as around every corner Life mirrors you. Know what you are, and then be what you are, and understand that this is not a gift but an expression of a presence that is everywhere. This is you. This is your natural state. You are beautiful, and this beauty transforms all that is wrong with our world. This beauty reminds others what they have forgotten. You want to live a Life well lived? You want to live each day as if it is joyous holiday? Then never forget your beauty, because you are beautiful.
  13. What came last night in my sleep state to feed from my energy was someone/something that had just crossed over into the existence of feeding from a limitless food source. Just as we feed within the worlds of Hell, so too do those from the shadows feed from those who feed from the worlds of Hell. The difference between us, the feeders, and them the feeders, is twofold: their food supply is limitless and for free, and ours is not; and secondly, they don’t have a conscious, whereas we should. The one that implanted the dream and devoured from my energy last night shone an enthusiasm for this utopia where anything goes – this fool was in a paradise where you eat this wonderful energy for free; you fuck these unknowing manufactured slaves when you want; and you kill and destroy who you want, and they can’t fight back because they don’t know you exist. These fools are in a paradise; the paradise the children were led to in the story of Pinocchio, before they found out they were had and turned into donkeys – or should we say: “Before they fell into the Nothingness of the Forgotten, where they became lost forever.” I have met the god of Hell – Queen Semiramis. She was once Love, just as all were. The Dragon and Serpent spirits were once her guest within the beautiful illusionary Garden. The parasite within took her over, as it did with all within the Garden, and Semiramis became cruel as the Dragons went into slumber and the Serpents became insane. I have seen what the Gnostics call The Wisdom Goddess Sophia. What I saw was a being more dead than alive – the dense frequency of Hell has all but destroyed her. This journal is my gift to her – to set this beautiful being free by allowing her to remember what happened to her and her loved ones. By knowing, she may understand, and by understanding she may transform. The species within all the worlds/frequencies of Hell do not have a God. We were manufactured to keep the illusion alive. I have been to these “laboratories” where life-forms are manufactured. They have shown me how easy and effortlessly we are construed. I have seen and so often felt the Serpent within all of us, that uses us as a host to live out its existence within the false/illusionary realms of Hell. In Hell this Serpent is the unknowing true god within, but what the animals have taught me is that the strand of God within is the only thing that is real within the illusion. This strand we have forgotten, so we got on the back seat of the car while the Serpent within drove us around and played with us. This Serpent within has a love for us, but it is a twisted love – it is a “break you down to build you up,” and it is a” know your place” kind of love, where you exist for them and the illusion. So when I speak of a God, it is one that I have chosen through the understanding of what this journal has taught me. It is an entity/state of Love whom I choose to become affiliated to. I know my place within this manufactured illusion, and I refuse to carry on being a part of this cruel dimension. My energy is now expelled to be a representative of a kind God of Love that respects all, including themselves. I latch onto the winning team, one that goes forwards to embrace the Infinite. This Hell is likened to one grain of sand within all the beaches of the world. The rest of the sand is the Infinite. That is how small and irrelevant this illusion is that is run by cruel Beasts. So what is the way out of this mess, because whether you are within the worlds of Hell or dwell within the shadows, the bottom line is that you have to eat. If I stop eating today my body will become weakened; it needs food to sustain itself. So what is the answer for us and for these Beasts from the shadows? For me, the answer is a sequence of events, which are as follows: 1. Know the mess we are in and how we got there. If you want to see the sunshine, see the mud you are standing in so that you may get out of the mess to enjoy the sunshine more. 2. Be thankful for what you receive. Allow this thanks to humble you, as without what you have received you would not exist. Never take anything for granted. 3. Have respect for yourself and for others. Always keep yourself open to be in a position to help, should others need your help. This help can only be given when you respect yourself and others, as by being kind to yourself you have the capacity to be kind to others. 4. Know that heartache and sorrow does not exist within the realms of Love. If you choose to unconditionally love a God that is bigger than you, then understand that this Love works both ways, where your God is always watching your back and wanting the best for you. If we cannot see over the hill as to what tomorrow brings, our God can, and this removes the Darkness of uncertainty from our existence. 5. Be happy. Your God of Love does not like miserable faces and hearts. Open yourself to be happy, and your God will fill you with happiness, as this is what you opened yourself to receive. 6. Always be bigger than what you are. You are in a relationship with a God of Love, and this relationship has no boundaries. Open yourself to the wonders of the Infinite rather than the limitations of a frequency/world. See yourself as a child of the Infinite rather than a limited cog within a cycle of Life that is going nowhere slowly. 7. Life is a gift, and so are you. Shine forth so that all may see the star that you are. 8. We are all just passing through, so enjoy the time spent here – there really isn’t time for anything else, so leave the nasty, the cruel and the unkind to their own devices. They are happy being what they are, and your input within their existence is not wanted or appreciated. Leave them be, and take the innocent with you, and these cruel Beasts will never bother you again. 9. Open yourself up to return to the Whole, where we are one with everything, rather than an individual part. We are a piece of the puzzle, which ultimately completes the puzzle. 10. Know yourself. Within you is a strand of God, and it is beautiful. You are not lesser or greater than this strand, so just be what you are. Be the God within that you are. You cannot embrace your God, and your God cannot embrace you unless you know what you are. I have been shown why Life is cruel, and I am thankful for this understanding. Now I would like to be shown how Life is kind – where the strand of God within others and myself shines for all to see. This doorway has been opened, and through this door I now walk.
  14. As my body lay in bed sleeping, my etheric body flew over this world during its early times. I flew over dwellings scattered throughout this world, and each one had one thing in common – they all had a fence around them. This “fence” was a circle of water around the encampment. I saw a horse that had just been killed. It was straddled over the legs of a man as he sat on the ground. The horse was about fifty centimetres high – these were the times before it evolved to be a means of transport. Many years back we wrote in the journal about the initial king of the Jungle – the python. I have never been afraid of what I saw in my sleep state, but witnessing this beast in its predatory mode before it killed was something that “made me sit upright and pay attention.” Man oh man was this snake with its hunchback torso a scary sight to behold. No doubt this original python also evolved, as I remember going to a place in my sleep state where I was at the waters edge of this turbulent sea. From the sea arose this long serpent – a real mother-fucker of note. It came from the waters to hunt on land. No doubt this monster preyed on early Man as well, hence the ring of water around their dwellings. The question one needs to ask is what was in this water that kept this beast as bay? A large majority of the Human body; up to 60% is made up of water, so it is fair to say that the frequency of Nimrod; the god of the Waters, is within us. This king of Hell made his home within the waters, so no doubt his frequency is within us. What did early Man know? What did he put in the waters around his dwelling to keep this beast at bay? I go into the frequency of this water-fence to understand what it is, and all I feel is this powerful stability within my heart energy field. One could call this water-fence a stop sign to all those who are not allowed to pass. As the parasitic frequency of Deception grew within all of us, we begin to fight within – within our good hearts of understanding, and within the space with those we loved. We destroyed ourselves and those around us, which opened the water barrier for the Serpent to infiltrate our forms. Now we were no longer safe, and it is fair to assume that we have lived in fear ever since. To those that wish it so, allow this water-fence to be within and without you, by knowing it existed and can once again exist should we wish it to. Call forth its frequency and it will come to you. This time learn from your faults. Be kind.
  15. And now we give our two cents to explain our relationship with the System of Life. We are born into a world/frequency and are given one fundamental unspoken and unwritten “truth,” and that is: “The System loves us.” It loves us because it provides. It gives us the tools and means to survive. We eat of its fruits; eat from the flesh of the beasts that have been offered to us; have the arms and legs to build dwellings; and have the intelligence to problem solve should any obstacles to our survival come our way. These gifts create the second unspoken “truth,” and that is: “Be thankful.” This second “truth” is the beaut that keeps us locked into the System of Life, because as the System loves us, it is a given that we must love the System back. When we don’t; when we question this awful place, a helplessness unfolds within us, as surely the fault must be with us. We have failed to be happy – we have not done our part within this System. Life gives, and what do we do – we become dummies that throw away the opportunities that Life offers us. So we get on with Life as best we can, but now the relationship is broken, as we do not love Life as much as Life loves us. (We know that something is wrong with Life, but we don’t know what, and we dare not question, as this means we are being even more ungrateful.) This holds us in a twisted/confused state, as how can we be so cruel to not love something that loves us? Many of us are stoic – we hold onto our beliefs and faith. We believe that Life is Good, and as long as we do what we have always done, we will be okay. Yes, we face troubled times, but this is Life testing us – making us stronger, especially in our belief that Life is Good. Those of us that are not as strong as the believers develop a crack within our psyche. We understand that we have not been good to embrace and love Life for what it has given, and our crack develops into a vice. We look to the highs of Life to pick us up so that we may continue to function. But after every high we feel a guilt, as we took from the System of Life that loves us, but we don’t share this same sentiment. What if we understood this “truth” that the System loves us is one big lie? What if we understood that we have been conned by a cruel Beast called Life that does not love us or provide for us? What happens is that we roll up our sleeves and create our own system. This system is based on respect for yourself and others, as well as compassion for Life – including your own. Is this not what makes us Human? We say thanks to the System of Life, but “no thanks.” We choose our own way, one where there is once again recognition and interaction between all, creating a bond that is bound by mutual respect and an understanding that if you are okay then I am okay. Do we disregard the System of Life; do we turn our back on this Beast that is one big lie? Well this would be disrespectful, wouldn’t it, and this is not who we are. We play with the System and make it our own, where we interact with the System according to our rules – which is respect for ourselves and others. If you respect me, as you respect yourself, and I do the same to you, is that not a foundation worthwhile building, as from there we may bask in this understanding that I am looking after you, and you are looking after me. This is the unspoken and unwritten way – that we care about each other. As the world begins to fall apart in more ways than one, maybe we should consider bailing ship and begin this new way of Life. When we begin this new Life depends on you and nobody else. (Extract from book: What the Animals Taught Me – a journey of self-discovery)
  16. At the end of the implanted dream I saw this man in a white laboratory coat with a clipboard taking down notes about me. It was not so much an implanted dream, rather my etheric form was taken and placed in a classroom setting. It felt strange where I was, as a college student would feel being placed in a kindergarden and be asked to take their exams. My etheric form was doing its best to do well in the exam where I had to write a short story about some or other character. Then I buffed the story up, and my front page has scribbling on, so I tore a page out of my writing book to paste and glue over the scribble. A fluster began to brew in me as my 50 word manuscript was not panning out as it should, and teacher was asking to add descriptions in the story which I had not. Then I said to myself, as I sat in my row in the classroom taking this test, that this is not necessary, as it is all nonsense. I do not have to write a test and more importantly – pass the test, so that I may move on. This is all nonsense – the test; me; the classroom; and what they asked of me. We are all a frequency – a manufactured holographic frequency who is unaware of the strand of God within us. For the system of Hell to stay alive we, the frequency need to be linked to the frequency of Hell. This union is necessary, as our reaction to Hell is the energy release that Hell needs to stay alive. This is why we were manufactured: to engage and react to what is around us. If we are too slow to take the bait then those from the shadows – those we don’t know exist, are there to give us a little nudge; a push in the wrong direction. That is why our actions and what we say are insane – they come from insane beings that play us like a puppet on a string from the shadows. When we stand on our stepping stone and feel the mist from the fields of the Infinite touch our forms, what happens is that we begin to detach from the System, as we begin to understand that everything is one big lie. Life as we know it is a lie – it should not exist. This Steven wants nothing to do with this entity called Life – it disgusts me. I want nothing from it, and I refuse to participate in this cruel, sick joke. The disaster with this attitude is that one does not truly live, and this I understand, as I understand that in truth one does not live – one survives. What I mean is that despite everything, I want to be happy, content and at peace with myself. How can you be happy when you do not want to engage and embrace Life, as to sit in a room alone is not much of an adventure? With the mist of the Infinite touching us, we become detached from the System, so now we live rather than survive, and most importantly, we live according to our rules and not that of the System. These fools that created us can now no longer put us in a cage in their laboratory and play with us and our loved ones. Now we no longer just live, we glow with the strand within us shining in its full might. This process has begun in all those who stand on their stepping stone and observe the Infinite and feel its mist. When you heal; when you want to transform, you allow the patient to stand on their stepping stone and observe and experience this phenomena of wonder. This God-force touches you and it never lets go – you become stronger with each passing moment. 8/20/2020. (Extract from journal: What the Animals Taught me – a journal of self-discovery. Spent last six and a half years seeing in my sleep state those from the shadows that rule over us.) Quote steven geldenhuys Members 0 4 posts Report post Posted yesterday at 08:37 AM When you were one, but now you are two, the ones who created the two always keeps the higher ground when the two breaks away from the one. In simple English, when Haman and his crew created us, they knew of the ways of the Infinite, and kept these ways from us so that they may always have the higher ground; the advantage over us. That way they have certainty that when things go tits up they will be okay, but most importantly, their higher ground guarantees their advantage/control over us. So what is their higher ground; what gives them the advantage over us? I would like to understand this now so that I may use their advantage as a stepping stone towards the Infinite. In all the time that I have written this journal, I have not progressed one ounce, and I would like to understand why. Their advantage is that they kept their close connection to the Infinite. They see the Infinite as a swirling, beautiful mass – but this mass/state is a “distance” from them in that they choose to be separate from it. They understand that to maintain their position in the hierarchy – where the System does not suck them in and make them another statistic/slave of Hell, they need the Infinite as a distant beacon to remind them of where they are in relation to the Game. This makes me understand the warped state of those who orchestrated this place called Hell. The Game is just that – a Game. Why is it played? It is played for the same reason as to why we all play games – for the pleasure thereof. To understand the agenda of these orchestrators of Hell one has to be insane – which I am not, hence I have no inclination to understand them and their insanity. But what I do well do is take their advantage over Hell and make it my own by knowing it exists. Why do I do this? I do this not to take over the Game from these Beasts, but rather to be within the presence of Infinite Love, and this is true for all who wish to attain this higher ground – this stepping stone is to attain the Infinite, and it is used for no other purpose, otherwise your stone is no more. So be it. Unlike these Beasts, I wish to play within the fields of Love, so from my stepping stone that is in close proximity to the Infinite, I open myself up to be embraced by the Infinite. So be it. 17/08/2020. For the child within, and many within the frequency of Hell, this is not a nice place to live in. We exist, we survive – we do not live, as there is not something bigger than us who loves us more than anything who is watching our backs, hence the sickness and insanity of a species lying stagnant within a disturbed frequency permeates our existence. The pleasures we are offered, be they a rusk to dunk in your coffee, or a flight on your jet to your private island to indulge in your joy of molesting children, is something the System throws our way to pacify us, but wow, how easily we accept our lot and what we are – a herd mind where cruelty and self-centeredness is the norm. I choose to give up these pleasures of the flesh, in that I see them, and I understand there is more to Life than them. I choose to rise above this mess and depart it. Who will watch my back? – The Infinite will. 18/08/2020. I believe that it is from this viewpoint of the Infinite that one may transform oneself within the frequency of Hell. Once you are in the fields of the Infinite – where you belong, there is no need to be elsewhere, as this is where you choose to be, and rightly, where you the strand of God belong. From your viewpoint of the Infinite, you could say that you have one foot within the Infinite and one foot within Hell. By “you,” we imply the child within and the etheric/auric field. I am at the point where I no longer write about what I see in my sleep state. I have had enough of this mess. 19/08/2020. Quote steven geldenhuys Members 0 4 posts Report post Posted yesterday at 08:56 AM Went to sleep last night with an aching elbow and painful shoulder. If I lie on my left side its bone touching bone without any cartilage between, so I have to sleep either lying on my back or on my right side. Slept on my right side, facing my wife, and I woke up to see this large Billy-goat humping my wife. This goat was lying on top of her and fucking her. As I watched this, I saw this paw at my face level, motioning me to turn around and see what was happening to me. Another Billy-goat was striding and humping me, and to rub in the humiliation, it wanted me to turn around and witness how I was raped – just as my wife was. So where is our power oh great Human species? What is our role here – besides to chase the pleasures of Life? Work hard to play hard. Ooh hah! Look how great and powerful we are! I fell asleep again, and a short dream was implanted. It was a silly dream of someone being unfair to my youngest daughter, but the dream was enough to harness enough energy for those who implanted it. I woke up again, and I saw a straw through a cup lid that was being inserted into my wife’s head. The ones who implanted the dream within me had also implanted a dream within her, and were sucking the energy up through the straw. Wow. As the cup lid went into the illusionary form of my wife’s head, I saw something depart from her head. In other words, as the cup lid entered her head, something was pushed out of the head to make way for the cup lid. What I saw move out the way was an adult formed foetus of sorts, and what came to mind was what Louise Hay said in her book “You can heal your life” by loving the child within. What I saw for a second around my wife was her child within – this is the manufactured part of us; the core of what was produced from the laboratory. This is what we have all forgotten – this child within that is abused by the powers from the shadows. The outside shell of this child is the body and etheric forms, which are lifetimes of accumulated genetic data that make us what we are – good or bad or indifferent. This is the greatest disaster that our survival mode inflicted on Life within Hell: We forgot about the child within. We looked without rather than within. What we accumulated; what we had, defined who we were, and this made us happy or sad. And while we had our nose to the grindstone, ploughing away at Life in order to survive, the child within – the core part of what we were manufactured to be – was being destroyed by foul Beasts. If Steven is raped, then it is done by another Human who is possessed by an awful demon, who is drawing from my energy via the person who is raping me. What comes at night to feed from our energy is Beasts that feed from us directly – no Human involvement is needed. But the greatest tragedy befalls the child within, as this child has been completely forgotten, and in this abandoned state, they are abused by whoever they please, and are helpless to these attacks, as they have been forgotten so there is no one to care for them. Why were we manufactured within the genetic laboratories of Haman? To be forgotten and abused. How sad is that! To understand is to know, and to know is to get up and do something to change what was, so that our understanding may transform ourselves and all Life. What I understand is that this Steven does not exist. The child within me exists, and it is to this child that I say: “Rise up, and allow the strand of God within you to shine. Your strand is within your heart energy field, at the centre of your chest. I love you, and my Love for you awakens your strand so that it may glow. Now you are not a child of Haman – you are a child of the Wisdom Goddess Sophia, as this strand of Love is from her. Shine my friend, because you can.” The strand of God was not hidden at our nose and toe area. It was initially at the heart area, but we the body and etheric form pushed it out the way as we got down to business of surviving. We stopped listening to our good hearts; we forgot the child within. Haman knew this would happen – he counted on it happening, and boy oh boy, didn’t his orchestrated plan work beautifully. Your Game has been exposed you Beast. No more do you prey on the innocent; the child within. My guess is that Haman is an off-shoot of Nimrod/ the god of the Waters/ the Fallen angel. It is one who is devoid of sympathy who is capable of such cruelty. Nimrod “fell” by turning his back on the fields of the Infinite in order to experience the void of nothingness, where everything is possible. But to allow this System to run on its own, without any effort from his part, he needed to create Life. And so the child was born. 13th August, 2020. Quote
  17. Went to sleep last night with an aching elbow and painful shoulder. If I lie on my left side its bone touching bone without any cartilage between, so I have to sleep either lying on my back or on my right side. Slept on my right side, facing my wife, and I woke up to see this large Billy-goat humping my wife. This goat was lying on top of her and fucking her. As I watched this, I saw this paw at my face level, motioning me to turn around and see what was happening to me. Another Billy-goat was striding and humping me, and to rub in the humiliation, it wanted me to turn around and witness how I was raped – just as my wife was. So where is our power oh great Human species? What is our role here – besides to chase the pleasures of Life? Work hard to play hard. Ooh hah! Look how great and powerful we are! I fell asleep again, and a short dream was implanted. It was a silly dream of someone being unfair to my youngest daughter, but the dream was enough to harness enough energy for those who implanted it. I woke up again, and I saw a straw through a cup lid that was being inserted into my wife’s head. The ones who implanted the dream within me had also implanted a dream within her, and were sucking the energy up through the straw. Wow. As the cup lid went into the illusionary form of my wife’s head, I saw something depart from her head. In other words, as the cup lid entered her head, something was pushed out of the head to make way for the cup lid. What I saw move out the way was an adult formed foetus of sorts, and what came to mind was what Louise Hay said in her book “You can heal your life” by loving the child within. What I saw for a second around my wife was her child within – this is the manufactured part of us; the core of what was produced from the laboratory. This is what we have all forgotten – this child within that is abused by the powers from the shadows. The outside shell of this child is the body and etheric forms, which are lifetimes of accumulated genetic data that make us what we are – good or bad or indifferent. This is the greatest disaster that our survival mode inflicted on Life within Hell: We forgot about the child within. We looked without rather than within. What we accumulated; what we had, defined who we were, and this made us happy or sad. And while we had our nose to the grindstone, ploughing away at Life in order to survive, the child within – the core part of what we were manufactured to be – was being destroyed by foul Beasts. If Steven is raped, then it is done by another Human who is possessed by an awful demon, who is drawing from my energy via the person who is raping me. What comes at night to feed from our energy is Beasts that feed from us directly – no Human involvement is needed. But the greatest tragedy befalls the child within, as this child has been completely forgotten, and in this abandoned state, they are abused by whoever they please, and are helpless to these attacks, as they have been forgotten so there is no one to care for them. Why were we manufactured within the genetic laboratories of Haman? To be forgotten and abused. How sad is that! To understand is to know, and to know is to get up and do something to change what was, so that our understanding may transform ourselves and all Life. What I understand is that this Steven does not exist. The child within me exists, and it is to this child that I say: “Rise up, and allow the strand of God within you to shine. Your strand is within your heart energy field, at the centre of your chest. I love you, and my Love for you awakens your strand so that it may glow. Now you are not a child of Haman – you are a child of the Wisdom Goddess Sophia, as this strand of Love is from her. Shine my friend, because you can.” The strand of God was not hidden at our nose and toe area. It was initially at the heart area, but we the body and etheric form pushed it out the way as we got down to business of surviving. We stopped listening to our good hearts; we forgot the child within. Haman knew this would happen – he counted on it happening, and boy oh boy, didn’t his orchestrated plan work beautifully. Your Game has been exposed you Beast. No more do you prey on the innocent; the child within. My guess is that Haman is an off-shoot of Nimrod/ the god of the Waters/ the Fallen angel. It is one who is devoid of sympathy who is capable of such cruelty. Nimrod “fell” by turning his back on the fields of the Infinite in order to experience the void of nothingness, where everything is possible. But to allow this System to run on its own, without any effort from his part, he needed to create Life. And so the child was born. 13th August, 2020.
  18. When you were one, but now you are two, the ones who created the two always keeps the higher ground when the two breaks away from the one. In simple English, when Haman and his crew created us, they knew of the ways of the Infinite, and kept these ways from us so that they may always have the higher ground; the advantage over us. That way they have certainty that when things go tits up they will be okay, but most importantly, their higher ground guarantees their advantage/control over us. So what is their higher ground; what gives them the advantage over us? I would like to understand this now so that I may use their advantage as a stepping stone towards the Infinite. In all the time that I have written this journal, I have not progressed one ounce, and I would like to understand why. Their advantage is that they kept their close connection to the Infinite. They see the Infinite as a swirling, beautiful mass – but this mass/state is a “distance” from them in that they choose to be separate from it. They understand that to maintain their position in the hierarchy – where the System does not suck them in and make them another statistic/slave of Hell, they need the Infinite as a distant beacon to remind them of where they are in relation to the Game. This makes me understand the warped state of those who orchestrated this place called Hell. The Game is just that – a Game. Why is it played? It is played for the same reason as to why we all play games – for the pleasure thereof. To understand the agenda of these orchestrators of Hell one has to be insane – which I am not, hence I have no inclination to understand them and their insanity. But what I do well do is take their advantage over Hell and make it my own by knowing it exists. Why do I do this? I do this not to take over the Game from these Beasts, but rather to be within the presence of Infinite Love, and this is true for all who wish to attain this higher ground – this stepping stone is to attain the Infinite, and it is used for no other purpose, otherwise your stone is no more. So be it. Unlike these Beasts, I wish to play within the fields of Love, so from my stepping stone that is in close proximity to the Infinite, I open myself up to be embraced by the Infinite. So be it. 17/08/2020. For the child within, and many within the frequency of Hell, this is not a nice place to live in. We exist, we survive – we do not live, as there is not something bigger than us who loves us more than anything who is watching our backs, hence the sickness and insanity of a species lying stagnant within a disturbed frequency permeates our existence. The pleasures we are offered, be they a rusk to dunk in your coffee, or a flight on your jet to your private island to indulge in your joy of molesting children, is something the System throws our way to pacify us, but wow, how easily we accept our lot and what we are – a herd mind where cruelty and self-centeredness is the norm. I choose to give up these pleasures of the flesh, in that I see them, and I understand there is more to Life than them. I choose to rise above this mess and depart it. Who will watch my back? – The Infinite will. 18/08/2020. I believe that it is from this viewpoint of the Infinite that one may transform oneself within the frequency of Hell. Once you are in the fields of the Infinite – where you belong, there is no need to be elsewhere, as this is where you choose to be, and rightly, where you the strand of God belong. From your viewpoint of the Infinite, you could say that you have one foot within the Infinite and one foot within Hell. By “you,” we imply the child within and the etheric/auric field. I am at the point where I no longer write about what I see in my sleep state. I have had enough of this mess. 19/08/2020.
  19. At the end of the implanted dream I saw this man in a white laboratory coat with a clipboard taking down notes about me. It was not so much an implanted dream, rather my etheric form was taken and placed in a classroom setting. It felt strange where I was, as a college student would feel being placed in a kindergarden and be asked to take their exams. My etheric form was doing its best to do well in the exam where I had to write a short story about some or other character. Then I buffed the story up, and my front page has scribbling on, so I tore a page out of my writing book to paste and glue over the scribble. A fluster began to brew in me as my 50 word manuscript was not panning out as it should, and teacher was asking to add descriptions in the story which I had not. Then I said to myself, as I sat in my row in the classroom taking this test, that this is not necessary, as it is all nonsense. I do not have to write a test and more importantly – pass the test, so that I may move on. This is all nonsense – the test; me; the classroom; and what they asked of me. We are all a frequency – a manufactured holographic frequency who is unaware of the strand of God within us. For the system of Hell to stay alive we, the frequency need to be linked to the frequency of Hell. This union is necessary, as our reaction to Hell is the energy release that Hell needs to stay alive. This is why we were manufactured: to engage and react to what is around us. If we are too slow to take the bait then those from the shadows – those we don’t know exist, are there to give us a little nudge; a push in the wrong direction. That is why our actions and what we say are insane – they come from insane beings that play us like a puppet on a string from the shadows. When we stand on our stepping stone and feel the mist from the fields of the Infinite touch our forms, what happens is that we begin to detach from the System, as we begin to understand that everything is one big lie. Life as we know it is a lie – it should not exist. This Steven wants nothing to do with this entity called Life – it disgusts me. I want nothing from it, and I refuse to participate in this cruel, sick joke. The disaster with this attitude is that one does not truly live, and this I understand, as I understand that in truth one does not live – one survives. What I mean is that despite everything, I want to be happy, content and at peace with myself. How can you be happy when you do not want to engage and embrace Life, as to sit in a room alone is not much of an adventure? With the mist of the Infinite touching us, we become detached from the System, so now we live rather than survive, and most importantly, we live according to our rules and not that of the System. These fools that created us can now no longer put us in a cage in their laboratory and play with us and our loved ones. Now we no longer just live, we glow with the strand within us shining in its full might. This process has begun in all those who stand on their stepping stone and observe the Infinite and feel its mist. When you heal; when you want to transform, you allow the patient to stand on their stepping stone and observe and experience this phenomena of wonder. This God-force touches you and it never lets go – you become stronger with each passing moment. 8/20/2020. (Extract from journal: What the Animals Taught me – a journal of self-discovery. Spent last six and a half years seeing in my sleep state those from the shadows that rule over us.)
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