steven geldenhuys

We were manufactured to feed the System and those from the shadows. For us to eat, we have to kill, but what is far worse than having your flesh fed from, is being eaten from when you are still alive. Wow man, this is not pleasant. Ever since I was a young boy, my greatest fear was of not passing my exams as I passed through Life’s educational institutions. I would dream at night of having to write an exam the following day and I never knew my work well enough, so this raw fear took me over as I went into a flat-spin of knowing I was not going to pass the exams. You want maximum energy from Steven, implant a dream of him not being prepared for his exams. And this is what happened last night, as it has happened so often throughout my life. Our kidneys are our energy storage tanks. The left kidney for the body form, and the right kidney for the astral. The implanted dream last night was of me being around fellow students at some or other school/college setting. I was nipping as I had an exam tomorrow, and there was not enough time to cover all the work. My back was against the wall, and I didn’t know what to do. These fear-of-failing exams linger – they are not over in a hurry, and this is so to get maximum energy from me. Normally I wake up from the dream and see the ones who implanted it, but last night I was caught up within the dream while vaguely being aware of what was happening to me. There were two massive Serpents, and no doubt these two were seasoned fuckers, as they implanted the dream they knew would draw maximum energy from me, and then each one bit onto a kidney to draw my energy from its source. So here is Steven sleeping in bed having a panic attack over exams he is not ready for while two massive Serpents are latched onto his kidneys drawing energy from him. And guess what: What happens to me, happens to you, as I alone cannot feed all those from the shadows. Like me, you were manufactured to feed cruel Beasts. Do you understand now when I say that we are at the very bottom of the food chain? In knowing of the Black Glow, one has to first and foremost change what we are – we have to stop being the feeders we were manufactured to me. The Dragon children were created to play within the fields of the Infinite. We were encouraged to use the power of imagination to create within the fields, and this gave the Creator as much joy as it gave to us – to do and to be. Now we are going to play, but initially it will not be for joy, but rather to get out of this mess of Hell. Remember that you do not intentionally do anything, as your understanding is all you need. You need to get out of the picture as we cannot do much with our limited state. By knowing of the Black Glow, and by knowing what you were manufactured to be, you let go so that you may be transformed to be one with the Black Glow rather than be attached to the System to feed it. With your branded tattoo off your neck you can do what you want as you are nobody’s property. We need to get out of here with baby-steps, and the first step is to know what you are so that you can transform what you are. Remember, you are a biological computer, and now you are detached from the System and have a new “server/hard-drive” to attach to, which is the Black Glow. “Connect me to the Black Glow and not the System of Life so that I may be an expression and state of Love rather than a feeder to Hell.” This is your input command to your biological computer – press Enter – and we become compatible to the Black Glow of the Infinite and nothing else. Will these Beasts try and stop us from leaving? They know of the Game, so they knew more than us, but in the big picture we all know nothing. If we knew something we would not destroy others to stay alive so that a cruel System can function only to meet its eventual demise within the Nothingness of the Forgotten. The point to make is that our departure will put these Beasts in a flat-spin as all they have ever known is suddenly coming undone. Their power is our fear, and our fear is from not understanding who and what we are and where we belong. Understand, and you have no fear, and these Beasts have no power over you. First baby-step has been accomplished: Disconnected from the System of Hell and connected to the Black Glow so that we may express and be the state of Love within us. We are transforming on the level of the unseen, as the breaking of our mould and that of Hell can only be done on this level. May this transformation be witnessed on the seen sooner than later as I am tired of this place.

Why am I writing this journal? – So that I can know that we are not alone; so that I know we are always Loved and cared for; to know that no matter what, we are in the loving arms of something that Loves us more than anything; but most importantly, that our lives are filled with joy and laughter, as this is a natural expression of what we are at our core. I do not care who you are, or what you believe, what I know is this: There are fields of Infinite Love, and this is merely what it is. Where we are, within this place I call Hell – this place is not meant to exist. This place arose from an accident – from the fall of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia. (I once again stress that I am not a Gnostic.) We never dug deep enough; we never looked for a way out, no matter what. Instead, we got on with Life, doing our best to survive. Many held onto their good hearts, and just as many let go and allowed insanity to take them over, but for all of us, we became disillusioned and meek as the four walls of Hell engulfed us and took us over. We gave up looking for a way back Home, so we put our noses to the wheel and got on with Life within this awful place. (Shift a gear and don’t only look at your life – look at the lives of others.) What I ask now, is what is primarily holding us within Hell? How do we get out of this Serpents nest to go back Home? What is the primary anchor? I choose to choose, but we have never had free will as we have been imprisoned within a dense frequency. The playing fields have never been fair. Now we level the playing fields, so that we may choose Hell or the Infinite. Twisted minds that want to play with insanity can stay, and those that have had enough of surviving can go to the Infinite. What barrier needs to be removed to break down the walls of Hell, so that we may choose? First and foremost, choose. Choose to stay; play it safe; play with Beasts where you too become a Beast, then find your place in the sun and live out your existence until your final fall into the Nothingness of the Forgotten. Choose to go where you belong and from where the core of you is Home, then go into the stillness to understand how to break down the walls holding you within Hell. We need to come together and stand as one; we cannot do this alone. To those that choose freedom from Hell, we stand together now within the astral plane – we unite as one, and then we go into the silence of the strand of the Creator within. Now it is not me, but we, as the way out is revealed. (09:35 on 4th February, 2021) ** This morning I woke up, and as I closed my eyes to see, I saw the All-seeing Eye. This was one of the first things I saw when I began to see the unseen. I would see broken pieces that came together to form a bright, golden eye. Sometimes, like this morning, the Eye would be purple, but this morning something else happened – the purple Eye became black and infused into the Blackness around it. Before the children of the Creator fell from the illusionary Garden into a dense frequency, the Infinite sent Love to show them; to remind them, of what they are. This Love was seen as a Glow. One had to only look at the Glow, as one would in a mirror, for the children to see themselves and remind themselves what they were. Unfortunately at this time Semiramis was strongly infused with the Parasitic frequency of Deception, and she wanted all within the illusionary Garden for herself. So when the Love of the Infinite was presented to all in the Garden, as a black Glow, Semiramis hid behind the Glow and made it her own, and what we mean by this, is that she used the Glow to unite the children towards her rather than them being united as one with the Infinite. How she achieved this was by standing behind the Glow, and through her imagination, she turned the Glow to a beautiful golden colour. Instead of the children seeing the black Glow and infusing; becoming one with the Infinite and returning Home, they focused towards this wonderful splendour before them. (Love just is what it is. It is not beautiful to the eye – it just it. And yet in that simplicity is Everything. It is a state beyond the description of words.) We bowed down to this golden glow; this false God within the sky, and this gave Semiramis what she wanted – power over all within the illusion. By “bowing down” to this beauty, we gave our power away to this something that we believed to be bigger than us. And in truth, this is when the sheer/separation from the Infinite happened in earnest, as now we had our god and all would be okay. We would be looked after as this uncertainty brewed within us as the Parasitic frequency of Deception began to take us over. And that is what we pray to and look to for assistance – an illusionary glow that we believe to be real and good. The beautiful golden colour of the glow, that came to be seen as an All-seeing Eye (the one above looking after us) began to draw our attention/energy as one would draw a moth to a flame – only to be destroyed by the flame. For me, this was the moment when we became insane; when we forgot who and what we are: When we looked at the Golden Glow of Semiramis we saw beauty and splendour. The eternal, disastrous fuck-up was that this beauty was without, not within. Now we wanted, and what we wanted was not real; not tangible, so the more we wanted, and got, the less we had, as what we had was not real. In truth, what we now had was a deception – a false glow within the sky. The Midas touch of Semiramis made us want more than anything what was within the illusion. When the wealth of the world was not enough to satiate our desire for more, we became rulers of Men and the creatures around us, as this dominion over others was a drug that made us forget that by wanting everything we in truth have nothing – just an illusion; something that is not real. (What a bummer this awareness must have brought the ones who ascended to the thrones of glory, as this glory was a false one – it was not tangible, as they looked without rather than within.) Within the stillness look towards the real Glow – the one that if black that the Infinite bestowed upon us so that we may know ourselves and return Home. By looking at this Black Glow we see ourselves and know ourselves, and this breaks down the walls of Hell.

Why am I writing this journal? – So that I can know that we are not alone; so that I know we are always Loved and cared for; to know that no matter what, we are in the loving arms of something that Loves us more than anything; but most importantly, that our lives are filled with joy and laughter, as this is a natural expression of what we are at our core. I do not care who you are, or what you believe, what I know is this: There are fields of Infinite Love, and this is merely what it is. Where we are, within this place I call Hell – this place is not meant to exist. This place arose from an accident – from the fall of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia. (I once again stress that I am not a Gnostic.) We never dug deep enough; we never looked for a way out, no matter what. Instead, we got on with Life, doing our best to survive. Many held onto their good hearts, and just as many let go and allowed insanity to take them over, but for all of us, we became disillusioned and meek as the four walls of Hell engulfed us and took us over. We gave up looking for a way back Home, so we put our noses to the wheel and got on with Life within this awful place. (Shift a gear and don’t only look at your life – look at the lives of others.) What I ask now, is what is primarily holding us within Hell? How do we get out of this Serpents nest to go back Home? What is the primary anchor? I choose to choose, but we have never had free will as we have been imprisoned within a dense frequency. The playing fields have never been fair. Now we level the playing fields, so that we may choose Hell or the Infinite. Twisted minds that want to play with insanity can stay, and those that have had enough of surviving can go to the Infinite. What barrier needs to be removed to break down the walls of Hell, so that we may choose? First and foremost, choose. Choose to stay; play it safe; play with Beasts where you too become a Beast, then find your place in the sun and live out your existence until your final fall into the Nothingness of the Forgotten. Choose to go where you belong and from where the core of you is Home, then go into the stillness to understand how to break down the walls holding you within Hell. We need to come together and stand as one; we cannot do this alone. To those that choose freedom from Hell, we stand together now within the astral plane – we unite as one, and then we go into the silence of the strand of the Creator within. Now it is not me, but we, as the way out is revealed. (09:35 on 4th February, 2021) ** This morning I woke up, and as I closed my eyes to see, I saw the All-seeing Eye. This was one of the first things I saw when I began to see the unseen. I would see broken pieces that came together to form a bright, golden eye. Sometimes, like this morning, the Eye would be purple, but this morning something else happened – the purple Eye became black and infused into the Blackness around it. Before the children of the Creator fell from the illusionary Garden into a dense frequency, the Infinite sent Love to show them; to remind them, of what they are. This Love was seen as a Glow. One had to only look at the Glow, as one would in a mirror, for the children to see themselves and remind themselves what they were. Unfortunately at this time Semiramis was strongly infused with the Parasitic frequency of Deception, and she wanted all within the illusionary Garden for herself. So when the Love of the Infinite was presented to all in the Garden, as a black Glow, Semiramis hid behind the Glow and made it her own, and what we mean by this, is that she used the Glow to unite the children towards her rather than them being united as one with the Infinite. How she achieved this was by standing behind the Glow, and through her imagination, she turned the Glow to a beautiful golden colour. Instead of the children seeing the black Glow and infusing; becoming one with the Infinite and returning Home, they focused towards this wonderful splendour before them. (Love just is what it is. It is not beautiful to the eye – it just it. And yet in that simplicity is Everything. It is a state beyond the description of words.) We bowed down to this golden glow; this false God within the sky, and this gave Semiramis what she wanted – power over all within the illusion. By “bowing down” to this beauty, we gave our power away to this something that we believed to be bigger than us. And in truth, this is when the sheer/separation from the Infinite happened in earnest, as now we had our god and all would be okay. We would be looked after as this uncertainty brewed within us as the Parasitic frequency of Deception began to take us over. And that is what we pray to and look to for assistance – an illusionary glow that we believe to be real and good. The beautiful golden colour of the glow, that came to be seen as an All-seeing Eye (the one above looking after us) began to draw our attention/energy as one would draw a moth to a flame – only to be destroyed by the flame. For me, this was the moment when we became insane; when we forgot who and what we are: When we looked at the Golden Glow of Semiramis we saw beauty and splendour. The eternal, disastrous fuck-up was that this beauty was without, not within. Now we wanted, and what we wanted was not real; not tangible, so the more we wanted, and got, the less we had, as what we had was not real. In truth, what we now had was a deception – a false glow within the sky. The Midas touch of Semiramis made us want more than anything what was within the illusion. When the wealth of the world was not enough to satiate our desire for more, we became rulers of Men and the creatures around us, as this dominion over others was a drug that made us forget that by wanting everything we in truth have nothing – just an illusion; something that is not real. (What a bummer this awareness must have brought the ones who ascended to the thrones of glory, as this glory was a false one – it was not tangible, as they looked without rather than within.) Within the stillness look towards the real Glow – the one that if black that the Infinite bestowed upon us so that we may know ourselves and return Home. By looking at this Black Glow we see ourselves and know ourselves, and this breaks down the walls of Hell.

Yesterday evening this old client of mine sent me a photo of her young Sheltie dog and asked for assistance. This dog had developed an itch, where the scratching was leaving bald patches on the dogs coat. I went into the space of the dog and felt its itch, as well as this deep, boring restriction within the base of the neck. I asked the owner if the dog was microchipped, which it was. The microchip within the animal emits an electrical frequency that is not compatible to the electrical circuitry of the body. I tell people that if I go to your houses main electrical box and insert a different frequency to what is there, it will cause mayhem to your houses electrical network. The microchip causes deep muscle spasm which pulls on the vertebrae to which the muscles are attached, which has a disastrous snowball effect on the animals body. In the case of this dog, its body had an allergic reaction to this invasive frequency. The microchip was neutralised to be compatible to the dogs electrical circuitry, and the dog will be okay. Then I went to bed, and I battled to sleep. Eventually, after much tossing and turning I fell asleep, only to be awoken by this uncomfortable feeling located at the collar-line of my neck. This was the same sensation I felt on the Sheltie, except that the discomfort was not deep and boring – rather it just panned across the base of the neck area. The discomfort got worse, so I took deep, rhythmical breaths to control the pain. After about forty minutes the pain went away. A week back I was asked to check on a caracal (which is a wild cat, which to me looks like a small lynx.) I felt the disharmony of this wild animal that was domesticated – a household pet, and I reported my findings, as well as the cause, which ranged between carrying the owners disharmony to EMF frequencies. When I got feedback on the animal last night, I re-checked it again, and it suddenly dawned on me that all this animal wanted to do was die. At its young age its time was up, but us Human beings that become all emotionally attached to what we love often refuse to see what is staring us in the face. Somewhere on the horizon there might have been a glimmer of truth in Stevens initial take on the cause of this caracals disharmony, but when one honed in on the obvious, the truth is there for all to see. (The initial case history was that this animal was seen by many veterinarians and nobody could find anything wrong. He stopped eating and had lost interest in life.) But no – as practitioners we always have to jump in and save the day to show how good we are. This animal wanted to die, but because it was domesticated, it could not just lie down and do so as it would if it was still a part of the wild. Our domestication alters the DNA of the animal and makes them “soft,” which is another way of saying they become dependent on us – even for death. I was wrong on my initial take on the cause of the caracals disharmony, so understand that I may also be wrong on my take of the disharmony I felt in my neck as I slept earlier on. However, I feel strong in what I say, otherwise I would not say it. As I felt the pain over my neck, I imagined robots on an assembly line that were being branded/tagged by the ones who had created them. I imagined these robots to be stamped/plated with a tag at the base of their neck as they came to the end of the production line where they were manufactured. This tag allowed all to see who owned them, and most importantly, this tag was their submissive link to the master who formed them. During the time that I felt his disharmony at my neck, I thought of heresayers I met in the past that said: “Beware of the mark of the beast; the 666 imprint on our forms that would one day come about.” For me, what I felt over my neck was our tattoo; our brand; our tag that connected us to the system of Hell and those who run the show. We are biological computers that were manufactured around the strand of the Creator, and our tag, that we were someone else’s property, was what I felt over the back of the neck area. Yes, over time we made contracts with unsavoury entities, where our naivety and their deception always got the better of us, where we would end up the loser and not even be aware of our misfortune, but at the very beginning there was no contract. We were manufactured, and then tagged so that we remained the property of the ones who manufactured us. That is why, after all this time, we have remained within Hell – going nowhere slowly. Our tattoo; our tag, is removed by those who wish this so, by knowing it exists and has no place within the space of Love.

Yesterday evening this old client of mine sent me a photo of her young Sheltie dog and asked for assistance. This dog had developed an itch, where the scratching was leaving bald patches on the dogs coat. I went into the space of the dog and felt its itch, as well as this deep, boring restriction within the base of the neck. I asked the owner if the dog was microchipped, which it was. The microchip within the animal emits an electrical frequency that is not compatible to the electrical circuitry of the body. I tell people that if I go to your houses main electrical box and insert a different frequency to what is there, it will cause mayhem to your houses electrical network. The microchip causes deep muscle spasm which pulls on the vertebrae to which the muscles are attached, which has a disastrous snowball effect on the animals body. In the case of this dog, its body had an allergic reaction to this invasive frequency. The microchip was neutralised to be compatible to the dogs electrical circuitry, and the dog will be okay. Then I went to bed, and I battled to sleep. Eventually, after much tossing and turning I fell asleep, only to be awoken by this uncomfortable feeling located at the collar-line of my neck. This was the same sensation I felt on the Sheltie, except that the discomfort was not deep and boring – rather it just panned across the base of the neck area. The discomfort got worse, so I took deep, rhythmical breaths to control the pain. After about forty minutes the pain went away. A week back I was asked to check on a caracal (which is a wild cat, which to me looks like a small lynx.) I felt the disharmony of this wild animal that was domesticated – a household pet, and I reported my findings, as well as the cause, which ranged between carrying the owners disharmony to EMF frequencies. When I got feedback on the animal last night, I re-checked it again, and it suddenly dawned on me that all this animal wanted to do was die. At its young age its time was up, but us Human beings that become all emotionally attached to what we love often refuse to see what is staring us in the face. Somewhere on the horizon there might have been a glimmer of truth in Stevens initial take on the cause of this caracals disharmony, but when one honed in on the obvious, the truth is there for all to see. (The initial case history was that this animal was seen by many veterinarians and nobody could find anything wrong. He stopped eating and had lost interest in life.) But no – as practitioners we always have to jump in and save the day to show how good we are. This animal wanted to die, but because it was domesticated, it could not just lie down and do so as it would if it was still a part of the wild. Our domestication alters the DNA of the animal and makes them “soft,” which is another way of saying they become dependent on us – even for death. I was wrong on my initial take on the cause of the caracals disharmony, so understand that I may also be wrong on my take of the disharmony I felt in my neck as I slept earlier on. However, I feel strong in what I say, otherwise I would not say it. As I felt the pain over my neck, I imagined robots on an assembly line that were being branded/tagged by the ones who had created them. I imagined these robots to be stamped/plated with a tag at the base of their neck as they came to the end of the production line where they were manufactured. This tag allowed all to see who owned them, and most importantly, this tag was their submissive link to the master who formed them. During the time that I felt his disharmony at my neck, I thought of heresayers I met in the past that said: “Beware of the mark of the beast; the 666 imprint on our forms that would one day come about.” For me, what I felt over my neck was our tattoo; our brand; our tag that connected us to the system of Hell and those who run the show. We are biological computers that were manufactured around the strand of the Creator, and our tag, that we were someone else’s property, was what I felt over the back of the neck area. Yes, over time we made contracts with unsavoury entities, where our naivety and their deception always got the better of us, where we would end up the loser and not even be aware of our misfortune, but at the very beginning there was no contract. We were manufactured, and then tagged so that we remained the property of the ones who manufactured us. That is why, after all this time, we have remained within Hell – going nowhere slowly. Our tattoo; our tag, is removed by those who wish this so, by knowing it exists and has no place within the space of Love.

It is just after one in the morning. The dream that was implanted within my sleep state an hour or two back was of me swimming in an indoor pool spa. Amongst the crowd I saw this female I know – only through sight; have never met her in person. There is this small lump on my left testicle. In this implanted dream I found myself swimming underwater in this spa pool. This female swam behind me and kept on touching this lump to shame me. When I saw her telling others what she had just done, I found myself with my arms around her strangling her. I saw the colour go out of her face, but this was not enough, so I began beating her with both my fists. Such rage I have never experienced before. I awoke from this implanted dream, and as I lay in bed I saw and smelt the female Beast that had implanted the dream. She saw that I saw her, and she waved at me, and then proceeded to fan the energy that had accumulated around me towards her so that she could ingest it. As I saw her, I also saw her pet snake. This Serpent tried to enter me through my anus. I felt it up my backside as I lay in bed. It entered me, but could not stay within me, so it kept trying to push itself within me. Through all of this commotion I held out my outstretched arms and asked the universe how have I been blocked that such Beasts still have the capacity to do with me as they please? (Last week as I drove home I told my wife that these entities have blocked my life on a social and business level. I have always known this, especially when the psychic Carol Clarke confirmed it. In my limited capacity I tried to find and undo this blockage, but after this last implanted dream, as well as my business generating zero income for the last fifteen years, no doubt my endeavours have failed.) So I held up my hands as I lay in bed and asked that something bigger than me where am I blocked that my Life is stagnant and going nowhere except to feed these cruel Beasts. What I felt was an absence of my right hand. On the astral level they had severed my right hand. What this means is that Steven the body form could never receive from the unseen dimensions, and most importantly, he could never give. I was in limbo from this cruel act that prevented the body from receiving help and what was rightfully mine, as well as my astral form helping those I love within the seen and unseen. By knowing what the problem was, it could be easily fixed, and my right hand with its power returned to me. My journal is filled with my encounters with those from the shadows, but this encounter I would like to share on the David Icke forum, and the reason for this is that I am sure there are many out there that are in the same predicament as I was. You know what you are, and you know what you are capable of, but Life passes you by as you merely exist rather than live. If this is the case, then go into the stillness of your heart and ask where you have been blocked. You will feel what has been done to you, and then undo it as this natural state that they blocked is who you are within this realm. The Love within you will make a wrong right by knowing it exists. Don’t accept any bullshit stories that you deserve this limitation, because it is lies. They clipped your wings so that you could not soar, and this evil deed is no more. Now we are wiser to their ways. With my power returned to me, I lay in bed and thought of these seen and unseen Beasts. They will not change, because this is what they are. So I said: “All those that are cruel, what you have done to others, you now do to yourself, so that you may know yourself.” This I sent out into the ethers so that Hell may know itself, so that the ball that is rolling downhill towards its own demise may temporarily stop and see what it has become. These Beasts may choose to carry on being cruel, or they can make an about turn, and whatever they decide I really don’t care as it is their Life and not mine. Their days of being evil because they can are coming to an end. You have been caught out you sillies. I see you, and by seeing you, you see yourself. Now you cannot hide from yourself and what you have become. You want to carry on being nasty, then so be it – but now you do it to yourself, and in truth you have always done it to yourself. I forgive you, because I am bigger than you, but understand now that you are no longer a part of my existence. So be it. This evil that has allowed to spread untamed is no more.

hi thanks for that. it is appreciated. her eating pattern is not what it should be. will look into your advice. is there anything i can do to assist you with in return for your assistance. if so, send me a message. steven

this helped a lot - a link that Karl sent me: "Thank you for continuing to share your insights and methods. I appreciate your valuable information. I'm curious, have you ever attempted to 'revoke contracts' and declare yourself to be a 'sovereign being' as outlined in the link below? http://howtoexitthematrix.com/2015/04/29/declaration-of-sovereignty-and-soul-contract-revocation/ i went to sit around a table, and i called all to the table whoever had a contract with me. i told them the contracts were null and void, as they were made in a place called Hell, and no good comes out of this place. i set myself free from them and their contracts so that i may be what i am, which is Love. this Declaration of independence from contracts and those who one was bound to i passed on to all who i love and who love me - this basically is everyone.

this helped a lot - a link that Karl sent me: "Thank you for continuing to share your insights and methods. I appreciate your valuable information. I'm curious, have you ever attempted to 'revoke contracts' and declare yourself to be a 'sovereign being' as outlined in the link below? http://howtoexitthematrix.com/2015/04/29/declaration-of-sovereignty-and-soul-contract-revocation/ i went to sit around a table, and i called all to the table whoever had a contract with me. i told them the contracts were null and void, as they were made in a place called Hell, and no good comes out of this place. i set myself free from them and their contracts so that i may be what i am, which is Love. this Declaration of independence from contracts and those who one was bound to i passed on to all who i love and who love me - this basically is everyone.

It is just after one in the morning. The dream that was implanted within my sleep state an hour or two back was of me swimming in an indoor pool spa. Amongst the crowd I saw this female I know – only through sight; have never met her in person. There is this small lump on my left testicle. In this implanted dream I found myself swimming underwater in this spa pool. This female swam behind me and kept on touching this lump to shame me. When I saw her telling others what she had just done, I found myself with my arms around her strangling her. I saw the colour go out of her face, but this was not enough, so I began beating her with both my fists. Such rage I have never experienced before. I awoke from this implanted dream, and as I lay in bed I saw and smelt the female Beast that had implanted the dream. She saw that I saw her, and she waved at me, and then proceeded to fan the energy that had accumulated around me towards her so that she could ingest it. As I saw her, I also saw her pet snake. This Serpent tried to enter me through my anus. I felt it up my backside as I lay in bed. It entered me, but could not stay within me, so it kept trying to push itself within me. Through all of this commotion I held out my outstretched arms and asked the universe how have I been blocked that such Beasts still have the capacity to do with me as they please? (Last week as I drove home I told my wife that these entities have blocked my life on a social and business level. I have always known this, especially when the psychic Carol Clarke confirmed it. In my limited capacity I tried to find and undo this blockage, but after this last implanted dream, as well as my business generating zero income for the last fifteen years, no doubt my endeavours have failed.) So I held up my hands as I lay in bed and asked that something bigger than me where am I blocked that my Life is stagnant and going nowhere except to feed these cruel Beasts. What I felt was an absence of my right hand. On the astral level they had severed my right hand. What this means is that Steven the body form could never receive from the unseen dimensions, and most importantly, he could never give. I was in limbo from this cruel act that prevented the body from receiving help and what was rightfully mine, as well as my astral form helping those I love within the seen and unseen. By knowing what the problem was, it could be easily fixed, and my right hand with its power returned to me. My journal is filled with my encounters with those from the shadows, but this encounter I would like to share on the David Icke forum, and the reason for this is that I am sure there are many out there that are in the same predicament as I was. You know what you are, and you know what you are capable of, but Life passes you by as you merely exist rather than live. If this is the case, then go into the stillness of your heart and ask where you have been blocked. You will feel what has been done to you, and then undo it as this natural state that they blocked is who you are within this realm. The Love within you will make a wrong right by knowing it exists. Don’t accept any bullshit stories that you deserve this limitation, because it is lies. They clipped your wings so that you could not soar, and this evil deed is no more. Now we are wiser to their ways. With my power returned to me, I lay in bed and thought of these seen and unseen Beasts. They will not change, because this is what they are. So I said: “All those that are cruel, what you have done to others, you now do to yourself, so that you may know yourself.” This I sent out into the ethers so that Hell may know itself, so that the ball that is rolling downhill towards its own demise may temporarily stop and see what it has become. These Beasts may choose to carry on being cruel, or they can make an about turn, and whatever they decide I really don’t care as it is their Life and not mine. Their days of being evil because they can are coming to an end. You have been caught out you sillies. I see you, and by seeing you, you see yourself. Now you cannot hide from yourself and what you have become. You want to carry on being nasty, then so be it – but now you do it to yourself, and in truth you have always done it to yourself. I forgive you, because I am bigger than you, but understand now that you are no longer a part of my existence. So be it. This evil that has allowed to spread untamed is no more.

It is just after one in the morning. The dream that was implanted within my sleep state an hour or two back was of me swimming in an indoor pool spa. Amongst the crowd I saw this female I know – only through sight; have never met her in person. There is this small lump on my left testicle. In this implanted dream I found myself swimming underwater in this spa pool. This female swam behind me and kept on touching this lump to shame me. When I saw her telling others what she had just done, I found myself with my arms around her strangling her. I saw the colour go out of her face, but this was not enough, so I began beating her with both my fists. Such rage I have never experienced before. I awoke from this implanted dream, and as I lay in bed I saw and smelt the female Beast that had implanted the dream. She saw that I saw her, and she waved at me, and then proceeded to fan the energy that had accumulated around me towards her so that she could ingest it. As I saw her, I also saw her pet snake. This Serpent tried to enter me through my anus. I felt it up my backside as I lay in bed. It entered me, but could not stay within me, so it kept trying to push itself within me. Through all of this commotion I held out my outstretched arms and asked the universe how have I been blocked that such Beasts still have the capacity to do with me as they please? (Last week as I drove home I told my wife that these entities have blocked my life on a social and business level. I have always known this, especially when the psychic Carol Clarke confirmed it. In my limited capacity I tried to find and undo this blockage, but after this last implanted dream, as well as my business generating zero income for the last fifteen years, no doubt my endeavours have failed.) So I held up my hands as I lay in bed and asked that something bigger than me where am I blocked that my Life is stagnant and going nowhere except to feed these cruel Beasts. What I felt was an absence of my right hand. On the astral level they had severed my right hand. What this means is that Steven the body form could never receive from the unseen dimensions, and most importantly, he could never give. I was in limbo from this cruel act that prevented the body from receiving help and what was rightfully mine, as well as my astral form helping those I love within the seen and unseen. By knowing what the problem was, it could be easily fixed, and my right hand with its power returned to me. My journal is filled with my encounters with those from the shadows, but this encounter I would like to share on the David Icke forum, and the reason for this is that I am sure there are many out there that are in the same predicament as I was. You know what you are, and you know what you are capable of, but Life passes you by as you merely exist rather than live. If this is the case, then go into the stillness of your heart and ask where you have been blocked. You will feel what has been done to you, and then undo it as this natural state that they blocked is who you are within this realm. The Love within you will make a wrong right by knowing it exists. Don’t accept any bullshit stories that you deserve this limitation, because it is lies. They clipped your wings so that you could not soar, and this evil deed is no more. Now we are wiser to their ways. With my power returned to me, I lay in bed and thought of these seen and unseen Beasts. They will not change, because this is what they are. So I said: “All those that are cruel, what you have done to others, you now do to yourself, so that you may know yourself.” This I sent out into the ethers so that Hell may know itself, so that the ball that is rolling downhill towards its own demise may temporarily stop and see what it has become. These Beasts may choose to carry on being cruel, or they can make an about turn, and whatever they decide I really don’t care as it is their Life and not mine. Their days of being evil because they can are coming to an end. You have been caught out you sillies. I see you, and by seeing you, you see yourself. Now you cannot hide from yourself and what you have become. You want to carry on being nasty, then so be it – but now you do it to yourself, and in truth you have always done it to yourself. I forgive you, because I am bigger than you, but understand now that you are no longer a part of my existence. So be it. This evil that has allowed to spread untamed is no more.

It is just after one in the morning. The dream that was implanted within my sleep state an hour or two back was of me swimming in an indoor pool spa. Amongst the crowd I saw this female I know – only through sight; have never met her in person. There is this small lump on my left testicle. In this implanted dream I found myself swimming underwater in this spa pool. This female swam behind me and kept on touching this lump to shame me. When I saw her telling others what she had just done, I found myself with my arms around her strangling her. I saw the colour go out of her face, but this was not enough, so I began beating her with both my fists. Such rage I have never experienced before. I awoke from this implanted dream, and as I lay in bed I saw and smelt the female Beast that had implanted the dream. She saw that I saw her, and she waved at me, and then proceeded to fan the energy that had accumulated around me towards her so that she could ingest it. As I saw her, I also saw her pet snake. This Serpent tried to enter me through my anus. I felt it up my backside as I lay in bed. It entered me, but could not stay within me, so it kept trying to push itself within me. Through all of this commotion I held out my outstretched arms and asked the universe how have I been blocked that such Beasts still have the capacity to do with me as they please? (Last week as I drove home I told my wife that these entities have blocked my life on a social and business level. I have always known this, especially when the psychic Carol Clarke confirmed it. In my limited capacity I tried to find and undo this blockage, but after this last implanted dream, as well as my business generating zero income for the last fifteen years, no doubt my endeavours have failed.) So I held up my hands as I lay in bed and asked that something bigger than me where am I blocked that my Life is stagnant and going nowhere except to feed these cruel Beasts. What I felt was an absence of my right hand. On the astral level they had severed my right hand. What this means is that Steven the body form could never receive from the unseen dimensions, and most importantly, he could never give. I was in limbo from this cruel act that prevented the body from receiving help and what was rightfully mine, as well as my astral form helping those I love within the seen and unseen. By knowing what the problem was, it could be easily fixed, and my right hand with its power returned to me. My journal is filled with my encounters with those from the shadows, but this encounter I would like to share on the David Icke forum, and the reason for this is that I am sure there are many out there that are in the same predicament as I was. You know what you are, and you know what you are capable of, but Life passes you by as you merely exist rather than live. If this is the case, then go into the stillness of your heart and ask where you have been blocked. You will feel what has been done to you, and then undo it as this natural state that they blocked is who you are within this realm. The Love within you will make a wrong right by knowing it exists. Don’t accept any bullshit stories that you deserve this limitation, because it is lies. They clipped your wings so that you could not soar, and this evil deed is no more. Now we are wiser to their ways. With my power returned to me, I lay in bed and thought of these seen and unseen Beasts. They will not change, because this is what they are. So I said: “All those that are cruel, what you have done to others, you now do to yourself, so that you may know yourself.” This I sent out into the ethers so that Hell may know itself, so that the ball that is rolling downhill towards its own demise may temporarily stop and see what it has become. These Beasts may choose to carry on being cruel, or they can make an about turn, and whatever they decide I really don’t care as it is their Life and not mine. Their days of being evil because they can are coming to an end. You have been caught out you sillies. I see you, and by seeing you, you see yourself. Now you cannot hide from yourself and what you have become. You want to carry on being nasty, then so be it – but now you do it to yourself, and in truth you have always done it to yourself. I forgive you, because I am bigger than you, but understand now that you are no longer a part of my existence. So be it. This evil that has allowed to spread untamed is no more.

They talk about space as being the final frontier, but the unknown is closer to home than we all could imagine. I remember studying – not reading – David Ickes book “Infinite Love is the Only Truth Everything Else is Illusion.” In the book he speaks about the silence – the stillness. He says one should listen to ones thoughts as one would to a radio – the thoughts are not ours; they are not a part of us; they are separate from us. His words regarding the silence either I never understood or I never took his advice to heart for my own good. Maybe the time was just not right for me to understand this universal truth: our mind is not our mind; our mind links us to the cruel Game of Life; as long as we listen to and react to the mind we will forever be entrapped within Hell. They talk about people that have depth of character – genuine people that are well rounded and cannot be shaken by what Life throws at them. Their “depth” is their distance from what the mind tells them. They listen to something bigger than the voice/mind inside of them. Over the last night or so I have practiced what I know to be the truth – I have gone within so that I cannot react to what is without. What I found remarkable was the immediate reaction of the mind. Our thinking is a form of lashing out – it is so superficial and uncanny to what we would expect from a civilized species. Either our mind is in the mode of “them versus us” or just “us.” We hardly, if ever – and I would say “never” – consider the greater good. It is always “us,” and applying/imposing what is important to us to others. It is our way or the highway. Our joy is by meeting other like-minded people like us, which confirms that what we are is okay. Why is it so difficult to see that what the mind is, is the complete opposite to what people would call compassion and empathy, where we care about the state of our species and only want the best for all? Within our illusionary world we see with light, and thus equate light with goodness. As we know, there is no Light and Dark, on the literal and figurative plane, there is only the Oneness beyond the illusion. Our fear has closed our eyes to what is Dark out there, and this is rightly so to a point, as fools walk into the thrill of the unknown, only to be consumed by it. But what if we knew of no fear, and more importantly, what if we used our fearless state to step into the unknown to find a way out of this mess for all, including ourselves? One cannot destroy a selfless being, as there is no being to destroy, as this being/entity considers others and not themselves, thus in reality this being does not exist. The answer is that we would see the unseen – the place where literal Monsters dwell. Within the illusion it is helpful to see the seen and unseen, but to get out of this mess one has to know the unknown, and this unknown that is our final frontier is the stillness/silence within us. In order to use words to explain this, one would say: “ We see the illusion with light, and we see the Infinite with the dark; the Infinite is the unknown/dark, and the illusion is the known/light.” I make these statements, as when I sink/drop down into the silence, there is this mass of blackness there. (Remember, we are using words to describe something we have forgotten and know nothing about. As we are limited within the illusion, so is our means of saying things. When I talk about my friend Earl as being a funky polar bear, what I imply is that if we saw him from our level of what we know, we would see a polar bear. From the perspective of the Infinite he is seen in his true state which is something you and I cannot fathom. So don’t see the words “light” and “dark” from what we believe these words to mean in our reality.) The “blackness” within you; the black hole; the nothing that holds everything; the fields of Infinite Love, this is us – this stillness that has nothing to say or do as it knows everything as it is everything. It is a state of Bliss, of Joy, of Euphoria. Now compare this state to the superficial me, me, me reflex of the mind and understand how low we have fallen. We have nothing, we are nothing, but my goodness me, how important is our viewpoint and how right we are compared to the “them” out there. We are scratching and living within a sliver of an illusion, compared to this state of Love that is Everything. We the species of Hell within the worlds of Hell are slaves to cruel Beasts that rule us from the shadows. More specifically, we are their food source. As we are kept out of their agenda, it is fair to say that we are at the very bottom of the food chain. There is no others we can tread on, as there is nothing below us – we are the bottom of the barrel. When I pass energy within my forms to cleanse myself, and this is especially needed after browsing through some of the responses to my postings on David Icke’s website forum, I feel the energy stop within the skull – as in the energy has nowhere to go from there. What I am trying to say is that our mind, within what we would call the head area, is the lowest point within Hell. Once again, in using limited language, our way back Home is downwards through our forms, and not upwards into some unknown realm. The way Home is through the silence of the heart energy field – away from the thoughts of the mind. This unknown; this silence; this “blackness/darkness” within our heart energy field is where we belong. The light of the illusion is not our home; the darkness of the silence within us is. If you make an effort to be silent then you are within the illusion trying to get out of the illusion. Just know what you are – that you are this Force within you that is everything. Anything else you hear or have an opinion about is not you. Get on with Life; do what you have to do, but do it within the stillness of your heart, as this stillness is what you are. This stillness brings joy, happiness, peace and contentment to you. You do not have to find these traits , as they are within you, but they can only be accessed if you become you. Sure enough, the mind with say its 2 cents worth, but allow this talk to remind you what you are – the stillness of Infinite Love. When David Icke spoke to me through his books seven years ago regarding this silence, I never got it, and this was because I had to make this understanding my own. Something was missing so that I could make this truth my own and be it. What was missing was the understanding as to why is Life so cruel to so many out there. It is cruel because we have forgotten this Love that is within us – this silence/stillness/strand of Love within us. Remember this silence and be this silence. As you would exercise a muscle to strengthen it, be this stillness as you go about your tasks of Life, and with time all you will know is this silence/Love within. Then you are Home.

They talk about space as being the final frontier, but the unknown is closer to home than we all could imagine. I remember studying – not reading – David Ickes book “Infinite Love is the Only Truth Everything Else is Illusion.” In the book he speaks about the silence – the stillness. He says one should listen to ones thoughts as one would to a radio – the thoughts are not ours; they are not a part of us; they are separate from us. His words regarding the silence either I never understood or I never took his advice to heart for my own good. Maybe the time was just not right for me to understand this universal truth: our mind is not our mind; our mind links us to the cruel Game of Life; as long as we listen to and react to the mind we will forever be entrapped within Hell. They talk about people that have depth of character – genuine people that are well rounded and cannot be shaken by what Life throws at them. Their “depth” is their distance from what the mind tells them. They listen to something bigger than the voice/mind inside of them. Over the last night or so I have practiced what I know to be the truth – I have gone within so that I cannot react to what is without. What I found remarkable was the immediate reaction of the mind. Our thinking is a form of lashing out – it is so superficial and uncanny to what we would expect from a civilized species. Either our mind is in the mode of “them versus us” or just “us.” We hardly, if ever – and I would say “never” – consider the greater good. It is always “us,” and applying/imposing what is important to us to others. It is our way or the highway. Our joy is by meeting other like-minded people like us, which confirms that what we are is okay. Why is it so difficult to see that what the mind is, is the complete opposite to what people would call compassion and empathy, where we care about the state of our species and only want the best for all? Within our illusionary world we see with light, and thus equate light with goodness. As we know, there is no Light and Dark, on the literal and figurative plane, there is only the Oneness beyond the illusion. Our fear has closed our eyes to what is Dark out there, and this is rightly so to a point, as fools walk into the thrill of the unknown, only to be consumed by it. But what if we knew of no fear, and more importantly, what if we used our fearless state to step into the unknown to find a way out of this mess for all, including ourselves? One cannot destroy a selfless being, as there is no being to destroy, as this being/entity considers others and not themselves, thus in reality this being does not exist. The answer is that we would see the unseen – the place where literal Monsters dwell. Within the illusion it is helpful to see the seen and unseen, but to get out of this mess one has to know the unknown, and this unknown that is our final frontier is the stillness/silence within us. In order to use words to explain this, one would say: “ We see the illusion with light, and we see the Infinite with the dark; the Infinite is the unknown/dark, and the illusion is the known/light.” I make these statements, as when I sink/drop down into the silence, there is this mass of blackness there. (Remember, we are using words to describe something we have forgotten and know nothing about. As we are limited within the illusion, so is our means of saying things. When I talk about my friend Earl as being a funky polar bear, what I imply is that if we saw him from our level of what we know, we would see a polar bear. From the perspective of the Infinite he is seen in his true state which is something you and I cannot fathom. So don’t see the words “light” and “dark” from what we believe these words to mean in our reality.) The “blackness” within you; the black hole; the nothing that holds everything; the fields of Infinite Love, this is us – this stillness that has nothing to say or do as it knows everything as it is everything. It is a state of Bliss, of Joy, of Euphoria. Now compare this state to the superficial me, me, me reflex of the mind and understand how low we have fallen. We have nothing, we are nothing, but my goodness me, how important is our viewpoint and how right we are compared to the “them” out there. We are scratching and living within a sliver of an illusion, compared to this state of Love that is Everything. We the species of Hell within the worlds of Hell are slaves to cruel Beasts that rule us from the shadows. More specifically, we are their food source. As we are kept out of their agenda, it is fair to say that we are at the very bottom of the food chain. There is no others we can tread on, as there is nothing below us – we are the bottom of the barrel. When I pass energy within my forms to cleanse myself, and this is especially needed after browsing through some of the responses to my postings on David Icke’s website forum, I feel the energy stop within the skull – as in the energy has nowhere to go from there. What I am trying to say is that our mind, within what we would call the head area, is the lowest point within Hell. Once again, in using limited language, our way back Home is downwards through our forms, and not upwards into some unknown realm. The way Home is through the silence of the heart energy field – away from the thoughts of the mind. This unknown; this silence; this “blackness/darkness” within our heart energy field is where we belong. The light of the illusion is not our home; the darkness of the silence within us is. If you make an effort to be silent then you are within the illusion trying to get out of the illusion. Just know what you are – that you are this Force within you that is everything. Anything else you hear or have an opinion about is not you. Get on with Life; do what you have to do, but do it within the stillness of your heart, as this stillness is what you are. This stillness brings joy, happiness, peace and contentment to you. You do not have to find these traits , as they are within you, but they can only be accessed if you become you. Sure enough, the mind with say its 2 cents worth, but allow this talk to remind you what you are – the stillness of Infinite Love. When David Icke spoke to me through his books seven years ago regarding this silence, I never got it, and this was because I had to make this understanding my own. Something was missing so that I could make this truth my own and be it. What was missing was the understanding as to why is Life so cruel to so many out there. It is cruel because we have forgotten this Love that is within us – this silence/stillness/strand of Love within us. Remember this silence and be this silence. As you would exercise a muscle to strengthen it, be this stillness as you go about your tasks of Life, and with time all you will know is this silence/Love within. Then you are Home.

hi i built up a busy practice of treating horses. then one day as i walked towards this horse i was going to treat, i saw this speck of Light (about 3mm high) around this horse. i did not know at the time what i was looking at, but my reaction to seeing this sight stopped me in my tracks in more ways than one. at that moment i understood that i knew nothing. i was earning a living giving horses pain relief, rather than addressing the cause of their pain so that they may remain pain free. in the big picture i became humble. all beliefs were put aside, as deep down i understood that i know nothing of nothing. thus the journal is called "What the Animals Taught Me - a journal of self-discovery." it was years later after this incident, when friends i loved betrayed me, that i asked the question "why is Life so cruel?" what happened to me happens to billions the world over every second of every day, but the difference was that i was going nowhere until i had an answer that made simple, basic, common sense to me. this opened my Third Eye and i began to see what rules us from the shadows. the other day i fleetingly saw this strand again. this strand is everywhere, i just think we are so absorbed with the misery of Life that we cannot see what is staring us in the face. (the sorrow of this world and all words touch all of us - we are in this swamp together, where others pain becomes ours.) what a pity that i could not see Life for what it is through the experiences of laughter and joy. being dragged through Hell does not make us better people - it just just fucks us up more. one needs to know of this strand, and then walk with it. life is about Joy and peace, as there is no time here for anything else as our time here is short. there is no better feeling than making others happy, including yourself, and this is the expression of the strand within this frequency. always find an excuse to be happy - because you can. the Light of the Creator will look after the rest, but always do your part and be kind. steven

When we begin to live from the heart energy field we no longer react to what the mind; the programme; the Game says. The mind normally responds to the mind, which releases an emotional state which feeds the System of Life. By not reacting – by withdrawing from the state of feeding the mind, we no longer reinforce what we would call Life, and thus detach ourselves from the Game. The Game needs our reaction – we need to get all worked up and emotional, and how better to achieve this than by creating a System based on insanity and raw, undiluted cruelty. Before we know it, our reactions become involuntary. When I see a known Human beast my back goes up against the wall, as such scum I cannot get my mind around as to why they are so cruel. Now I feel this emotion and hear my mind even when in the vicinity of such Beasts, but I no longer react to my involuntary state. You see, what the Innocence within the heart energy field is, is the silence/stillness of the Infinite. The Infinite has nothing to say because it is everything. It merely is, whereas the frequency of Hell is the complete opposite – it has to have polarities of Good/Bad, Right/Wrong, Light/Darkness. Within these polarities we find our path, but for fucks sakes – there is no path; there is only the real place of Infinite Love. The polarities are there to send us through mazes while we feed the System – this cruel, sick Game where NOBODY wins. The disaster is that we have been alone, and the reason for this is that we have become so embedded within this Game. Our naivety is our weakness, where we cannot understand why would others lie to us. What good ever comes out of lie, so why on Earth would people lie? They lie because they are not good. They lie because they are insane, unable to understand how they are destroying themselves. Did these fools honestly believe that destruction is limited to those they control? Don’t they understand they are destroying themselves and those they love? I do not write what I believe to be the truth, because this Steven is truly a lost, unhappy being. Such a lost entity could never write the truth. I write what I see and feel. I see these Beasts from the shadows. I feel and smell them within and around me. This is what I write of – my experiences. I also feel the presence of this Innocence around my heart energy field. I know it is there. I have seen the strand/Light of the Creator. The point to make, is that as hard as these fuckers try to destroy all that is pure and joyous, they cannot suppress what is real. Give them their due – they have pulled off this feat since before the beginning of time. But one cannot destroy what is real. Oh yes, you can hide it through sorrow and blood shed, but like a gold bar lying on the floor of the deepest ocean that cannot rust or be tainted, the Love that is is there to be found by anyone who digs deep enough. This morning I was reminded of a vision I saw a few months ago. I was at some university sports grounds that was packed full of spectators. These was a buzz there like no other. I stood amongst the crowd and I remembered that I had been there before, and I thought to myself that if only I had finished what I started then I would not have had to come back to this tertiary institution. What I started in this lifetime to find a way out of this mess is not new. I have tried before and failed, and a few months back I came close to failing again as the sickness of Life got the better of me. Who knows – maybe I will fail again, but one thing is for sure, and that is that I will never rest until I am Home within the fields of Infinite Love. I know what I am, this biological computer with all its infiltrations and limitations, but I also know what I should be. How of Earth do others get joy from being cruel to others. I say “joy” because they do it over and over again, so being cruel must make them joyous. How lost are these beings. When I put a face mask on, I tell myself that those sick bastards that impose this fascism and cruelty will burn. I am not being bitter or hateful or condemning others when I say this. They will burn because of what they are doing to themselves. You silly, silly fools. When you face Love, which is inevitable as this is the only thing that is real, you will look at what you have allowed yourself to become, and what happens then? As I withdraw from the System, an indifference is met with those that knowingly and intentionally are cruel. What this indifference does is remove their power from ones existence. May they one day forgive themselves for what they have done. One forgives insanity, but what happens when insanity touches and destroys the innocent? May a God of Love guide and show them the way – these last ones standing within the frequency of Hell and the Game they so calculatingly created. In your Game all lose – including yourselves. But I thank you. If it were not for me seeing the seen and unseen Beasts of Hell, I would have found a comfort zone within Hell, which would have been a fool’s paradise, as everyone would have been destroyed by your ways. By seeing the seen the unseen Beast I was spurred on to find a way out of this mess, so that I may be free from a world that doesn’t care. Thank you, you fuckers. Thank you for making me want to be better than this System, where I knew there had to be a better place than this Hell. Goodbye.

When we begin to live from the heart energy field we no longer react to what the mind; the programme; the Game says. The mind normally responds to the mind, which releases an emotional state which feeds the System of Life. By not reacting – by withdrawing from the state of feeding the mind, we no longer reinforce what we would call Life, and thus detach ourselves from the Game. The Game needs our reaction – we need to get all worked up and emotional, and how better to achieve this than by creating a System based on insanity and raw, undiluted cruelty. Before we know it, our reactions become involuntary. When I see a known Human beast my back goes up against the wall, as such scum I cannot get my mind around as to why they are so cruel. Now I feel this emotion and hear my mind even when in the vicinity of such Beasts, but I no longer react to my involuntary state. You see, what the Innocence within the heart energy field is, is the silence/stillness of the Infinite. The Infinite has nothing to say because it is everything. It merely is, whereas the frequency of Hell is the complete opposite – it has to have polarities of Good/Bad, Right/Wrong, Light/Darkness. Within these polarities we find our path, but for fucks sakes – there is no path; there is only the real place of Infinite Love. The polarities are there to send us through mazes while we feed the System – this cruel, sick Game where NOBODY wins. The disaster is that we have been alone, and the reason for this is that we have become so embedded within this Game. Our naivety is our weakness, where we cannot understand why would others lie to us. What good ever comes out of lie, so why on Earth would people lie? They lie because they are not good. They lie because they are insane, unable to understand how they are destroying themselves. Did these fools honestly believe that destruction is limited to those they control? Don’t they understand they are destroying themselves and those they love? I do not write what I believe to be the truth, because this Steven is truly a lost, unhappy being. Such a lost entity could never write the truth. I write what I see and feel. I see these Beasts from the shadows. I feel and smell them within and around me. This is what I write of – my experiences. I also feel the presence of this Innocence around my heart energy field. I know it is there. I have seen the strand/Light of the Creator. The point to make, is that as hard as these fuckers try to destroy all that is pure and joyous, they cannot suppress what is real. Give them their due – they have pulled off this feat since before the beginning of time. But one cannot destroy what is real. Oh yes, you can hide it through sorrow and blood shed, but like a gold bar lying on the floor of the deepest ocean that cannot rust or be tainted, the Love that is is there to be found by anyone who digs deep enough. This morning I was reminded of a vision I saw a few months ago. I was at some university sports grounds that was packed full of spectators. These was a buzz there like no other. I stood amongst the crowd and I remembered that I had been there before, and I thought to myself that if only I had finished what I started then I would not have had to come back to this tertiary institution. What I started in this lifetime to find a way out of this mess is not new. I have tried before and failed, and a few months back I came close to failing again as the sickness of Life got the better of me. Who knows – maybe I will fail again, but one thing is for sure, and that is that I will never rest until I am Home within the fields of Infinite Love. I know what I am, this biological computer with all its infiltrations and limitations, but I also know what I should be. How of Earth do others get joy from being cruel to others. I say “joy” because they do it over and over again, so being cruel must make them joyous. How lost are these beings. When I put a face mask on, I tell myself that those sick bastards that impose this fascism and cruelty will burn. I am not being bitter or hateful or condemning others when I say this. They will burn because of what they are doing to themselves. You silly, silly fools. When you face Love, which is inevitable as this is the only thing that is real, you will look at what you have allowed yourself to become, and what happens then? As I withdraw from the System, an indifference is met with those that knowingly and intentionally are cruel. What this indifference does is remove their power from ones existence. May they one day forgive themselves for what they have done. One forgives insanity, but what happens when insanity touches and destroys the innocent? May a God of Love guide and show them the way – these last ones standing within the frequency of Hell and the Game they so calculatingly created. In your Game all lose – including yourselves. But I thank you. If it were not for me seeing the seen and unseen Beasts of Hell, I would have found a comfort zone within Hell, which would have been a fool’s paradise, as everyone would have been destroyed by your ways. By seeing the seen the unseen Beast I was spurred on to find a way out of this mess, so that I may be free from a world that doesn’t care. Thank you, you fuckers. Thank you for making me want to be better than this System, where I knew there had to be a better place than this Hell. Goodbye.

People speak of the heart energy field; the Love that is there, and so have I spoken about this all-important vortex many years ago in the journal. The power-plant of energy that should exist within this place within our space is not there, and this morning by accident I understood why. My youngest daughters eyesight is deteriorating. I needed to understand the cause of this phenomena, and what I felt was that the vibrant energy in her space stopped at the throat area – the head was devoid of this vibrancy, most notably over the eyes. What is important to note is that this natural vibrancy within her was waning with each passing moment. What was also perplexing was that she was born with good vision, and then at some point in her life her eyes went bad. Why is this so? Through some investigation it was found that at age seven things began to go tits-up, and what happened at this age (and this is with all of us) is that her Innocence was taken from her. You cannot mix water with oil; you cannot have unpleasant beasts in the same space as the Beauty of Innocence, and this is so because the two states vibrate at completely different levels, which means that the one does not even know the other exists. But what happens when you remove the “heart” of the Angel? The obvious answer is that the Angel falls – into the space of unpleasant beasts, where now it is a free-for-all. How did Beasts get close enough to Angels to clip their wings; to remove the essence of their innocence? That’s easy: the Angels are in the space/frequency of Hell, so anything can be done to them, as here the laws of Hell prevail, which is: Do what you want when you want because you can – just don’t get caught out, otherwise the eggs on your face, and all see you for what you are, which is a cruel bastard. This is your bad luck, as your mates can continue doing what they always have from the shadows, and you have to lie low for a few thousand years. This “being caught out” rarely, if ever happens, as the truth is twisted by the beings of Hell so that Hell may continue running as it should. The truth exposes cruel Beasts for what they are, and what they are, are powerless cowards that rule through deception and lies. With time they come to believe that their power is real, but it is not – all they have done is managed to control and destroy the Purity of Life, which allows them to no longer have a conscience as there is no Goodness out there staring them back in the face so show them what they have become. That is why, at our core, we have all been touched by the Cruelty of Life, as this cruelty has been allowed to pervade into our systems. None of us comes away unscathed. We either become cruel, like these beasts, or we become shattered and drift aimlessly through Life. We exist, rather than live. Can you imagine our world filled with the joy and laughter of innocent children? Can you imagine a world where children never grew up – where we all remained carefree and Beautiful? What took away our innocence? Why did we stop playing just to play? Now I know the answer. At age seven our Innocence was taken from us, so that we may fit into the dense frequency of these cruel beasts in the seen and unseen. When our physical body dies our Innocence is returned to our astral forms, and thus we see the less dense plane as “Heaven,” but this heaven is not without, it is within – it is our Innocence that has been returned to us. Years back I saw in my sleep state this lady that I called The Keeper of the Innocent. When you walk into a fancy restaurant they take your coat and hang it up for you in an open wardrobe. This was the image I saw of this Keeper – she took our Innocence and stored it until the time came when we would get it back. I said in the journal that our Innocence is stored when we enter this dense plane of one of the “physical” worlds of Hell, but this is not the case. If we entered a dense world in a dense state we would die off like flies within the first few weeks of birth. We need a catapult; a “lift,” and this is our Innocence that is with us when we are born into a world. What is this Innocence? – It is an expression of the strand of the Creator within us. The Light/strand of the Creator is what it is, and how it is expressed is through our heart energy field, where we are Joyous and play. When I say they took away our Innocence, what is meant is they took away our heart energy field – the place through which the strand shines. When we have finished Playing the heart space returns to the stillness/silence of the strand/Light, and we once again become one with the Infinite. Our Play state; our heart energy field (this “field” cannot be described in words) was hijacked from us to keep us within the dense frequency so that we may feed the System as well as cruel Beasts. Why would they return our Innocence to us when the body form dies? The answer is to keep the “balance /scales” of Life even, otherwise there would be complete chaos and we would destroy ourselves. I can imagine that our time in the less dense plane of the astral/spirit world is short, because with our Innocence we will eventually see the Game – who controls us and what happened to us. Game over. When our Innocence was taken from us, a part of us dies – literally and figuratively. No more. Our Innocence; our heart energy space returns to us now and stays with us forever more. To those that wish it so, their Innocence is returned to them now and stays with them until it becomes one with the strand, and then the strand is the Infinite – we become one with it all; a state of Bliss that is everywhere and everything. Our time of Play is then over, and we just be as this is who we are.

People speak of the heart energy field; the Love that is there, and so have I spoken about this all-important vortex many years ago in the journal. The power-plant of energy that should exist within this place within our space is not there, and this morning by accident I understood why. My youngest daughters eyesight is deteriorating. I needed to understand the cause of this phenomena, and what I felt was that the vibrant energy in her space stopped at the throat area – the head was devoid of this vibrancy, most notably over the eyes. What is important to note is that this natural vibrancy within her was waning with each passing moment. What was also perplexing was that she was born with good vision, and then at some point in her life her eyes went bad. Why is this so? Through some investigation it was found that at age seven things began to go tits-up, and what happened at this age (and this is with all of us) is that her Innocence was taken from her. You cannot mix water with oil; you cannot have unpleasant beasts in the same space as the Beauty of Innocence, and this is so because the two states vibrate at completely different levels, which means that the one does not even know the other exists. But what happens when you remove the “heart” of the Angel? The obvious answer is that the Angel falls – into the space of unpleasant beasts, where now it is a free-for-all. How did Beasts get close enough to Angels to clip their wings; to remove the essence of their innocence? That’s easy: the Angels are in the space/frequency of Hell, so anything can be done to them, as here the laws of Hell prevail, which is: Do what you want when you want because you can – just don’t get caught out, otherwise the eggs on your face, and all see you for what you are, which is a cruel bastard. This is your bad luck, as your mates can continue doing what they always have from the shadows, and you have to lie low for a few thousand years. This “being caught out” rarely, if ever happens, as the truth is twisted by the beings of Hell so that Hell may continue running as it should. The truth exposes cruel Beasts for what they are, and what they are, are powerless cowards that rule through deception and lies. With time they come to believe that their power is real, but it is not – all they have done is managed to control and destroy the Purity of Life, which allows them to no longer have a conscience as there is no Goodness out there staring them back in the face so show them what they have become. That is why, at our core, we have all been touched by the Cruelty of Life, as this cruelty has been allowed to pervade into our systems. None of us comes away unscathed. We either become cruel, like these beasts, or we become shattered and drift aimlessly through Life. We exist, rather than live. Can you imagine our world filled with the joy and laughter of innocent children? Can you imagine a world where children never grew up – where we all remained carefree and Beautiful? What took away our innocence? Why did we stop playing just to play? Now I know the answer. At age seven our Innocence was taken from us, so that we may fit into the dense frequency of these cruel beasts in the seen and unseen. When our physical body dies our Innocence is returned to our astral forms, and thus we see the less dense plane as “Heaven,” but this heaven is not without, it is within – it is our Innocence that has been returned to us. Years back I saw in my sleep state this lady that I called The Keeper of the Innocent. When you walk into a fancy restaurant they take your coat and hang it up for you in an open wardrobe. This was the image I saw of this Keeper – she took our Innocence and stored it until the time came when we would get it back. I said in the journal that our Innocence is stored when we enter this dense plane of one of the “physical” worlds of Hell, but this is not the case. If we entered a dense world in a dense state we would die off like flies within the first few weeks of birth. We need a catapult; a “lift,” and this is our Innocence that is with us when we are born into a world. What is this Innocence? – It is an expression of the strand of the Creator within us. The Light/strand of the Creator is what it is, and how it is expressed is through our heart energy field, where we are Joyous and play. When I say they took away our Innocence, what is meant is they took away our heart energy field – the place through which the strand shines. When we have finished Playing the heart space returns to the stillness/silence of the strand/Light, and we once again become one with the Infinite. Our Play state; our heart energy field (this “field” cannot be described in words) was hijacked from us to keep us within the dense frequency so that we may feed the System as well as cruel Beasts. Why would they return our Innocence to us when the body form dies? The answer is to keep the “balance /scales” of Life even, otherwise there would be complete chaos and we would destroy ourselves. I can imagine that our time in the less dense plane of the astral/spirit world is short, because with our Innocence we will eventually see the Game – who controls us and what happened to us. Game over. When our Innocence was taken from us, a part of us dies – literally and figuratively. No more. Our Innocence; our heart energy space returns to us now and stays with us forever more. To those that wish it so, their Innocence is returned to them now and stays with them until it becomes one with the strand, and then the strand is the Infinite – we become one with it all; a state of Bliss that is everywhere and everything. Our time of Play is then over, and we just be as this is who we are.

A week short of seven years ago I needed to understand why Life is so cruel. Now I understand. What I also understand is that unless we have touched the fields of the Infinite, we know and understand NOTHING, as this existence is where what Life should be exists. To be a master and a king within an illusion is not a title worth having. To have your little sanctuary amongst cruel beasts means nothing. So now I ask: “How does one be within the fields of the Infinite; how does one be within the real realm; how does one be Home – a place where disharmony cannot exist?” Just as a doorway was opened so that I may understand Cruelty, now I ask that a doorway be opened so that I may know Beauty. Have been there, done that, got the T-shirt – have had enough of this frequency and its insanity. Now I would like to know and be what is real – this realm behind the illusion that is everything. Just as the wild cat that once lived amongst bushes and had to hunt to eat is now lying on the couch next to me and has found its home, so too would Steven like to find his Home, as this is where we all belong. Have had enough of Serpents. Silly little fuckers that live on the high of an addiction and the misery of others. Truly a lost species within an illusionary realm. How low they have fallen. What a catastrophe that the innocent are their play things. I walk out of this mess now, and the door that has been opened to the Infinite I leave open should these beasts too wish to enter. How low we have fallen. How cruel and insane we have become. May we forgive ourselves for being so shallow and self-centered. I forgive myself, for I never knew any better. We had no right to touch others with our insecurity. How could we be so insensitive? This mess called Hell has spun out of control. With a door being opened to the Infinite, may the Love that is shine through and touch all of us.

A week short of seven years ago I needed to understand why Life is so cruel. Now I understand. What I also understand is that unless we have touched the fields of the Infinite, we know and understand NOTHING, as this existence is where what Life should be exists. To be a master and a king within an illusion is not a title worth having. To have your little sanctuary amongst cruel beasts means nothing. So now I ask: “How does one be within the fields of the Infinite; how does one be within the real realm; how does one be Home – a place where disharmony cannot exist?” Just as a doorway was opened so that I may understand Cruelty, now I ask that a doorway be opened so that I may know Beauty. Have been there, done that, got the T-shirt – have had enough of this frequency and its insanity. Now I would like to know and be what is real – this realm behind the illusion that is everything. Just as the wild cat that once lived amongst bushes and had to hunt to eat is now lying on the couch next to me and has found its home, so too would Steven like to find his Home, as this is where we all belong. Have had enough of Serpents. Silly little fuckers that live on the high of an addiction and the misery of others. Truly a lost species within an illusionary realm. How low they have fallen. What a catastrophe that the innocent are their play things. I walk out of this mess now, and the door that has been opened to the Infinite I leave open should these beasts too wish to enter. How low we have fallen. How cruel and insane we have become. May we forgive ourselves for being so shallow and self-centered. I forgive myself, for I never knew any better. We had no right to touch others with our insecurity. How could we be so insensitive? This mess called Hell has spun out of control. With a door being opened to the Infinite, may the Love that is shine through and touch all of us.

There is a wild cat living on our piece of land. We began to feed it – as it looked emaciated, and when its hunger got the better of it, it would enter our house to eat our cats food. Now the cat hangs around on the fringes of our garden. We walk up to it and give it affection and spend time with it, and this cat relishes in being a part of our lives. Every now and then it comes closer to the house and calls to us – it wants to be with us, but will not enter our house as our one cat is territorial. My heart went out to this beautiful animal, as its isolation and loneliness are not normal. (This cat is not a lone leopard or tiger – it is caught up between worlds, the one the wilderness, and the other suburban life. It cannot find its place in either as it is permanently in neither.) Take it from one who has been there and done that when I say: “No Man is an island – we belong together.” For me, this is the crux of the problem within all worlds of Hell and their inhabitants, and that is that we do not belong here. We do not fit in; this place and what we have become is unnatural. No matter how hard we try, we don’t fit in here. And the reason for this is obvious: We do not belong here – this is not Home. We are here, within Hell, but we belong on the other side of the river within the fields of the Infinite. How do we bridge this gap; what is the happy medium between the two so that our transition from one state to the next may be effortless? We need to use what we have, and this is the strand of the Creator within, but equally important, we need to assess what we don’t have. The seat of power within our space is occupied by the Watcher spirit within. Incidentally, I have felt this entity within. When it reveals itself to me it passes down through my nose. Man-oh-man, this is not a pleasant sensation. This has happened only on two or three occasions. Of all the places within our forms this entity can take seat, it is located over our Third Eye region. Why there? Is there power there it is harnessing, or is it covering something up? I would say it’s a combination of both. I need to dwell further to find that stepping stone between Hell and the Infinite. So let’s start with the Watcher spirit within. To be more specific: What is this Beast holding and hiding from us? What the strand of the Creator within us is, is access to Everything within the playing fields of Infinite Love. Liken the strand to a mirror, where through the strand the Infinite is reflected back at you. This reflection has been blocked at where we would call the Third Eye region of our forms, and this is the true role of the Watcher spirit within: to block us seeing (and thus knowing) Everything. This knowing is part and parcel of the strand within – the one cannot exist without the other, but as has been said, this knowing from seeing through and being the strand has been blocked. The Third Eye is not an organ or body part within our forms; it is a reflective location through which we become one with the Infinite. Our awareness of a Watcher spirit within our midst was not enough to let it go and be free of it. Why was this so? I feel that we did not understand this Watcher spirit, and frankly I still don’t, but now we have an alternative to the Watcher – we can replace it with what should be. As always, we embrace this Watcher and give it Love. We never turn our backs on anything. If entities do not want our Love, then we walk right through them as they literally do not exist within our realm, as Love and the illusion are two different states. The only way one can be oneself is by knowing oneself. Know and understand the role of the strand of the Creator within our midst. By being the strand we see and know all, and I am not talking about within our reality: what is implied is that we see what is real – the fields of the Infinite. This seeing and knowing that is “reflected” from the strand has been shadowed by the Watcher spirit within, and now this evil deed on behalf of the Watcher is no more. Years ago, when I began seeing these Beasts from the shadows take my energy, I remember one night having enough of this nonsense. This entity was in what looked like a wheel-chair. I told him that my energy was not his to take, so he is not allowed to take my energy. I told him to give my energy back. As hard as this Beast tried, he could not depart my space, as now he was caught out and didn’t know what to do. He gave me my energy back, and only then could he leave to go back to his world. This is the power of understanding – of knowing what is, simply because it is. And so it is now that the reflective “light” of the strand is once again allowed to shine as it should within our forms. This is our stepping stone into the Infinite that is in truth everywhere, as this is all that there is. Hell is an illusion – it is not real. That dummies chose to take control and have power within an illusion is beyond me, as what you have power over is nothing. You hold onto the air around you and you have nothing, and thus all your power is just that: Nothing! The truth will set us free.

My focus has always been on the big picture as to how we ended up in this mess. Am thankful I was pointed in the right direction within the unseen worlds – as this is where the nonsense breeds and grows from within the core of Hell. Now I would like to touch on the seen world; our world, and then relate it to the unseen frequency/world. As of 22nd January, 2021 we hear of more people than often getting sick. Panic and fear is taking hold of many, and the bit of spontaneity and fun we had in our existence is slowly being eroded away. We are losing our essence that makes life worthwhile – we are losing our joy. That our governments care for us and want the best for us is something I hold in great suspicion. I don’t believe they truly care about the man on the street. So when this world pandemic broke out, the governments were “there for us” – locking us in, literally, and destroying our economies. Fools listened to fools, but they were only the cherry on top of the cake. The cake was pure, undiluted evil that began to roll out their long plan of enslavement and genetic mutation/modification of us the species on planet Earth. Yesterday I listened to a clever man talking about the current state of the world in terms of the vaccination they want to make mandatory for this so-called pandemic. He is a clever man. People have always gotten sick and died, but as this man says: “There is a new kid on the block” that is making people sick. He says it is EMF military waves. These electromagnetic waves can be broadcast through Wifi, satellites etc. This man says to treat patients without understanding the cause is meaningless, and how right he is. The EMF waves that the military and those that control/run it are destroying us, and I believe this to be true. The difference between Sophia and Semiramis, is that Sophia is the silence/stillness of the Infinite, and Semiramis arose from the spin cycle of Sophia’s fall, which means that Semiramis is waveform in constant motion – the complete opposite to Sophia. The worlds of Hell, as well as the frequency/space of Hell itself is made up of an electromagnetic frequency/waveform – this is the spin cycle that is Semiramis. This is the original EMF, and all the other EMF’s to follow were based on this original blueprint EMF that is Hell itself. I cannot change the desk I am writing on from wood to water, as I am limited as a species and thus don’t have the capability to do so. Magicians can play with our seen world, but I cannot. But within the unseen world I can play, and the unseen always affects the seen. The unseen world – the world from which these Beasts rule – is less dense than ours, and in this less dense state I can play as I know this world and who reside therein for what they are – an illusion. I understand this world, as I understand how it came about, and with understanding we can play. What I do know is stop the spin cycle of Semiramis – because I can, and because I Love her and all Life in her domain. Her spin cycle created a static energy, and this energy was harnessed to run Hell. What about the strand of the Creator within all Life? If this strand shone the way it should Hell would not exist. One moment you would be here, and the next you would be transformed. The strand is the battery of Life, and if I said it was the power source of Hell, then I missed one vital component, and that is that the electricity that powers Hell is more from the static energy of Semiramis’ spin cycle. This static energy flows in the opposite direction to the state of the strand within, and that is why everything is always in flux – we move from here to there, never knowing where we belong or what is real. This static energy within the unseen world is grounded now by the Love that is – by knowing this static energy from Semiramis’ spin cycle exists. It is grounded/neutralised, and released with Love to Love. What happens in the unseen follows on in the seen. We were all going nowhere as long as we spun to the same frequency/waveform as Semiramis, and how Sophia is tied into this mess is through her fall that initiated this spin cycle. This spin cycle is no more within the unseen of Hell. So be it. The seen worlds will follow suit. So be it. 1/22/2021

thanks. will do.

thanks, but no thanks. the video was too disturbing. i know of the sickness out there - i don't have to see it.