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  1. It is just after one in the morning. The dream that was implanted within my sleep state an hour or two back was of me swimming in an indoor pool spa. Amongst the crowd I saw this female I know – only through sight; have never met her in person. There is this small lump on my left testicle. In this implanted dream I found myself swimming underwater in this spa pool. This female swam behind me and kept on touching this lump to shame me. When I saw her telling others what she had just done, I found myself with my arms around her strangling her. I saw the colour go out of her face, but this was not enough, so I began beating her with both my fists. Such rage I have never experienced before. I awoke from this implanted dream, and as I lay in bed I saw and smelt the female Beast that had implanted the dream. She saw that I saw her, and she waved at me, and then proceeded to fan the energy that had accumulated around me towards her so that she could ingest it. As I saw her, I also saw her pet snake. This Serpent tried to enter me through my anus. I felt it up my backside as I lay in bed. It entered me, but could not stay within me, so it kept trying to push itself within me. Through all of this commotion I held out my outstretched arms and asked the universe how have I been blocked that such Beasts still have the capacity to do with me as they please? (Last week as I drove home I told my wife that these entities have blocked my life on a social and business level. I have always known this, especially when the psychic Carol Clarke confirmed it. In my limited capacity I tried to find and undo this blockage, but after this last implanted dream, as well as my business generating zero income for the last fifteen years, no doubt my endeavours have failed.) So I held up my hands as I lay in bed and asked that something bigger than me where am I blocked that my Life is stagnant and going nowhere except to feed these cruel Beasts. What I felt was an absence of my right hand. On the astral level they had severed my right hand. What this means is that Steven the body form could never receive from the unseen dimensions, and most importantly, he could never give. I was in limbo from this cruel act that prevented the body from receiving help and what was rightfully mine, as well as my astral form helping those I love within the seen and unseen. By knowing what the problem was, it could be easily fixed, and my right hand with its power returned to me. My journal is filled with my encounters with those from the shadows, but this encounter I would like to share on the David Icke forum, and the reason for this is that I am sure there are many out there that are in the same predicament as I was. You know what you are, and you know what you are capable of, but Life passes you by as you merely exist rather than live. If this is the case, then go into the stillness of your heart and ask where you have been blocked. You will feel what has been done to you, and then undo it as this natural state that they blocked is who you are within this realm. The Love within you will make a wrong right by knowing it exists. Don’t accept any bullshit stories that you deserve this limitation, because it is lies. They clipped your wings so that you could not soar, and this evil deed is no more. Now we are wiser to their ways. With my power returned to me, I lay in bed and thought of these seen and unseen Beasts. They will not change, because this is what they are. So I said: “All those that are cruel, what you have done to others, you now do to yourself, so that you may know yourself.” This I sent out into the ethers so that Hell may know itself, so that the ball that is rolling downhill towards its own demise may temporarily stop and see what it has become. These Beasts may choose to carry on being cruel, or they can make an about turn, and whatever they decide I really don’t care as it is their Life and not mine. Their days of being evil because they can are coming to an end. You have been caught out you sillies. I see you, and by seeing you, you see yourself. Now you cannot hide from yourself and what you have become. You want to carry on being nasty, then so be it – but now you do it to yourself, and in truth you have always done it to yourself. I forgive you, because I am bigger than you, but understand now that you are no longer a part of my existence. So be it. This evil that has allowed to spread untamed is no more.
  2. They talk about space as being the final frontier, but the unknown is closer to home than we all could imagine. I remember studying – not reading – David Ickes book “Infinite Love is the Only Truth Everything Else is Illusion.” In the book he speaks about the silence – the stillness. He says one should listen to ones thoughts as one would to a radio – the thoughts are not ours; they are not a part of us; they are separate from us. His words regarding the silence either I never understood or I never took his advice to heart for my own good. Maybe the time was just not right for me to understand this universal truth: our mind is not our mind; our mind links us to the cruel Game of Life; as long as we listen to and react to the mind we will forever be entrapped within Hell. They talk about people that have depth of character – genuine people that are well rounded and cannot be shaken by what Life throws at them. Their “depth” is their distance from what the mind tells them. They listen to something bigger than the voice/mind inside of them. Over the last night or so I have practiced what I know to be the truth – I have gone within so that I cannot react to what is without. What I found remarkable was the immediate reaction of the mind. Our thinking is a form of lashing out – it is so superficial and uncanny to what we would expect from a civilized species. Either our mind is in the mode of “them versus us” or just “us.” We hardly, if ever – and I would say “never” – consider the greater good. It is always “us,” and applying/imposing what is important to us to others. It is our way or the highway. Our joy is by meeting other like-minded people like us, which confirms that what we are is okay. Why is it so difficult to see that what the mind is, is the complete opposite to what people would call compassion and empathy, where we care about the state of our species and only want the best for all? Within our illusionary world we see with light, and thus equate light with goodness. As we know, there is no Light and Dark, on the literal and figurative plane, there is only the Oneness beyond the illusion. Our fear has closed our eyes to what is Dark out there, and this is rightly so to a point, as fools walk into the thrill of the unknown, only to be consumed by it. But what if we knew of no fear, and more importantly, what if we used our fearless state to step into the unknown to find a way out of this mess for all, including ourselves? One cannot destroy a selfless being, as there is no being to destroy, as this being/entity considers others and not themselves, thus in reality this being does not exist. The answer is that we would see the unseen – the place where literal Monsters dwell. Within the illusion it is helpful to see the seen and unseen, but to get out of this mess one has to know the unknown, and this unknown that is our final frontier is the stillness/silence within us. In order to use words to explain this, one would say: “ We see the illusion with light, and we see the Infinite with the dark; the Infinite is the unknown/dark, and the illusion is the known/light.” I make these statements, as when I sink/drop down into the silence, there is this mass of blackness there. (Remember, we are using words to describe something we have forgotten and know nothing about. As we are limited within the illusion, so is our means of saying things. When I talk about my friend Earl as being a funky polar bear, what I imply is that if we saw him from our level of what we know, we would see a polar bear. From the perspective of the Infinite he is seen in his true state which is something you and I cannot fathom. So don’t see the words “light” and “dark” from what we believe these words to mean in our reality.) The “blackness” within you; the black hole; the nothing that holds everything; the fields of Infinite Love, this is us – this stillness that has nothing to say or do as it knows everything as it is everything. It is a state of Bliss, of Joy, of Euphoria. Now compare this state to the superficial me, me, me reflex of the mind and understand how low we have fallen. We have nothing, we are nothing, but my goodness me, how important is our viewpoint and how right we are compared to the “them” out there. We are scratching and living within a sliver of an illusion, compared to this state of Love that is Everything. We the species of Hell within the worlds of Hell are slaves to cruel Beasts that rule us from the shadows. More specifically, we are their food source. As we are kept out of their agenda, it is fair to say that we are at the very bottom of the food chain. There is no others we can tread on, as there is nothing below us – we are the bottom of the barrel. When I pass energy within my forms to cleanse myself, and this is especially needed after browsing through some of the responses to my postings on David Icke’s website forum, I feel the energy stop within the skull – as in the energy has nowhere to go from there. What I am trying to say is that our mind, within what we would call the head area, is the lowest point within Hell. Once again, in using limited language, our way back Home is downwards through our forms, and not upwards into some unknown realm. The way Home is through the silence of the heart energy field – away from the thoughts of the mind. This unknown; this silence; this “blackness/darkness” within our heart energy field is where we belong. The light of the illusion is not our home; the darkness of the silence within us is. If you make an effort to be silent then you are within the illusion trying to get out of the illusion. Just know what you are – that you are this Force within you that is everything. Anything else you hear or have an opinion about is not you. Get on with Life; do what you have to do, but do it within the stillness of your heart, as this stillness is what you are. This stillness brings joy, happiness, peace and contentment to you. You do not have to find these traits , as they are within you, but they can only be accessed if you become you. Sure enough, the mind with say its 2 cents worth, but allow this talk to remind you what you are – the stillness of Infinite Love. When David Icke spoke to me through his books seven years ago regarding this silence, I never got it, and this was because I had to make this understanding my own. Something was missing so that I could make this truth my own and be it. What was missing was the understanding as to why is Life so cruel to so many out there. It is cruel because we have forgotten this Love that is within us – this silence/stillness/strand of Love within us. Remember this silence and be this silence. As you would exercise a muscle to strengthen it, be this stillness as you go about your tasks of Life, and with time all you will know is this silence/Love within. Then you are Home.
  3. They talk about space as being the final frontier, but the unknown is closer to home than we all could imagine. I remember studying – not reading – David Ickes book “Infinite Love is the Only Truth Everything Else is Illusion.” In the book he speaks about the silence – the stillness. He says one should listen to ones thoughts as one would to a radio – the thoughts are not ours; they are not a part of us; they are separate from us. His words regarding the silence either I never understood or I never took his advice to heart for my own good. Maybe the time was just not right for me to understand this universal truth: our mind is not our mind; our mind links us to the cruel Game of Life; as long as we listen to and react to the mind we will forever be entrapped within Hell. They talk about people that have depth of character – genuine people that are well rounded and cannot be shaken by what Life throws at them. Their “depth” is their distance from what the mind tells them. They listen to something bigger than the voice/mind inside of them. Over the last night or so I have practiced what I know to be the truth – I have gone within so that I cannot react to what is without. What I found remarkable was the immediate reaction of the mind. Our thinking is a form of lashing out – it is so superficial and uncanny to what we would expect from a civilized species. Either our mind is in the mode of “them versus us” or just “us.” We hardly, if ever – and I would say “never” – consider the greater good. It is always “us,” and applying/imposing what is important to us to others. It is our way or the highway. Our joy is by meeting other like-minded people like us, which confirms that what we are is okay. Why is it so difficult to see that what the mind is, is the complete opposite to what people would call compassion and empathy, where we care about the state of our species and only want the best for all? Within our illusionary world we see with light, and thus equate light with goodness. As we know, there is no Light and Dark, on the literal and figurative plane, there is only the Oneness beyond the illusion. Our fear has closed our eyes to what is Dark out there, and this is rightly so to a point, as fools walk into the thrill of the unknown, only to be consumed by it. But what if we knew of no fear, and more importantly, what if we used our fearless state to step into the unknown to find a way out of this mess for all, including ourselves? One cannot destroy a selfless being, as there is no being to destroy, as this being/entity considers others and not themselves, thus in reality this being does not exist. The answer is that we would see the unseen – the place where literal Monsters dwell. Within the illusion it is helpful to see the seen and unseen, but to get out of this mess one has to know the unknown, and this unknown that is our final frontier is the stillness/silence within us. In order to use words to explain this, one would say: “ We see the illusion with light, and we see the Infinite with the dark; the Infinite is the unknown/dark, and the illusion is the known/light.” I make these statements, as when I sink/drop down into the silence, there is this mass of blackness there. (Remember, we are using words to describe something we have forgotten and know nothing about. As we are limited within the illusion, so is our means of saying things. When I talk about my friend Earl as being a funky polar bear, what I imply is that if we saw him from our level of what we know, we would see a polar bear. From the perspective of the Infinite he is seen in his true state which is something you and I cannot fathom. So don’t see the words “light” and “dark” from what we believe these words to mean in our reality.) The “blackness” within you; the black hole; the nothing that holds everything; the fields of Infinite Love, this is us – this stillness that has nothing to say or do as it knows everything as it is everything. It is a state of Bliss, of Joy, of Euphoria. Now compare this state to the superficial me, me, me reflex of the mind and understand how low we have fallen. We have nothing, we are nothing, but my goodness me, how important is our viewpoint and how right we are compared to the “them” out there. We are scratching and living within a sliver of an illusion, compared to this state of Love that is Everything. We the species of Hell within the worlds of Hell are slaves to cruel Beasts that rule us from the shadows. More specifically, we are their food source. As we are kept out of their agenda, it is fair to say that we are at the very bottom of the food chain. There is no others we can tread on, as there is nothing below us – we are the bottom of the barrel. When I pass energy within my forms to cleanse myself, and this is especially needed after browsing through some of the responses to my postings on David Icke’s website forum, I feel the energy stop within the skull – as in the energy has nowhere to go from there. What I am trying to say is that our mind, within what we would call the head area, is the lowest point within Hell. Once again, in using limited language, our way back Home is downwards through our forms, and not upwards into some unknown realm. The way Home is through the silence of the heart energy field – away from the thoughts of the mind. This unknown; this silence; this “blackness/darkness” within our heart energy field is where we belong. The light of the illusion is not our home; the darkness of the silence within us is. If you make an effort to be silent then you are within the illusion trying to get out of the illusion. Just know what you are – that you are this Force within you that is everything. Anything else you hear or have an opinion about is not you. Get on with Life; do what you have to do, but do it within the stillness of your heart, as this stillness is what you are. This stillness brings joy, happiness, peace and contentment to you. You do not have to find these traits , as they are within you, but they can only be accessed if you become you. Sure enough, the mind with say its 2 cents worth, but allow this talk to remind you what you are – the stillness of Infinite Love. When David Icke spoke to me through his books seven years ago regarding this silence, I never got it, and this was because I had to make this understanding my own. Something was missing so that I could make this truth my own and be it. What was missing was the understanding as to why is Life so cruel to so many out there. It is cruel because we have forgotten this Love that is within us – this silence/stillness/strand of Love within us. Remember this silence and be this silence. As you would exercise a muscle to strengthen it, be this stillness as you go about your tasks of Life, and with time all you will know is this silence/Love within. Then you are Home.
  4. hi i built up a busy practice of treating horses. then one day as i walked towards this horse i was going to treat, i saw this speck of Light (about 3mm high) around this horse. i did not know at the time what i was looking at, but my reaction to seeing this sight stopped me in my tracks in more ways than one. at that moment i understood that i knew nothing. i was earning a living giving horses pain relief, rather than addressing the cause of their pain so that they may remain pain free. in the big picture i became humble. all beliefs were put aside, as deep down i understood that i know nothing of nothing. thus the journal is called "What the Animals Taught Me - a journal of self-discovery." it was years later after this incident, when friends i loved betrayed me, that i asked the question "why is Life so cruel?" what happened to me happens to billions the world over every second of every day, but the difference was that i was going nowhere until i had an answer that made simple, basic, common sense to me. this opened my Third Eye and i began to see what rules us from the shadows. the other day i fleetingly saw this strand again. this strand is everywhere, i just think we are so absorbed with the misery of Life that we cannot see what is staring us in the face. (the sorrow of this world and all words touch all of us - we are in this swamp together, where others pain becomes ours.) what a pity that i could not see Life for what it is through the experiences of laughter and joy. being dragged through Hell does not make us better people - it just just fucks us up more. one needs to know of this strand, and then walk with it. life is about Joy and peace, as there is no time here for anything else as our time here is short. there is no better feeling than making others happy, including yourself, and this is the expression of the strand within this frequency. always find an excuse to be happy - because you can. the Light of the Creator will look after the rest, but always do your part and be kind. steven
  5. When we begin to live from the heart energy field we no longer react to what the mind; the programme; the Game says. The mind normally responds to the mind, which releases an emotional state which feeds the System of Life. By not reacting – by withdrawing from the state of feeding the mind, we no longer reinforce what we would call Life, and thus detach ourselves from the Game. The Game needs our reaction – we need to get all worked up and emotional, and how better to achieve this than by creating a System based on insanity and raw, undiluted cruelty. Before we know it, our reactions become involuntary. When I see a known Human beast my back goes up against the wall, as such scum I cannot get my mind around as to why they are so cruel. Now I feel this emotion and hear my mind even when in the vicinity of such Beasts, but I no longer react to my involuntary state. You see, what the Innocence within the heart energy field is, is the silence/stillness of the Infinite. The Infinite has nothing to say because it is everything. It merely is, whereas the frequency of Hell is the complete opposite – it has to have polarities of Good/Bad, Right/Wrong, Light/Darkness. Within these polarities we find our path, but for fucks sakes – there is no path; there is only the real place of Infinite Love. The polarities are there to send us through mazes while we feed the System – this cruel, sick Game where NOBODY wins. The disaster is that we have been alone, and the reason for this is that we have become so embedded within this Game. Our naivety is our weakness, where we cannot understand why would others lie to us. What good ever comes out of lie, so why on Earth would people lie? They lie because they are not good. They lie because they are insane, unable to understand how they are destroying themselves. Did these fools honestly believe that destruction is limited to those they control? Don’t they understand they are destroying themselves and those they love? I do not write what I believe to be the truth, because this Steven is truly a lost, unhappy being. Such a lost entity could never write the truth. I write what I see and feel. I see these Beasts from the shadows. I feel and smell them within and around me. This is what I write of – my experiences. I also feel the presence of this Innocence around my heart energy field. I know it is there. I have seen the strand/Light of the Creator. The point to make, is that as hard as these fuckers try to destroy all that is pure and joyous, they cannot suppress what is real. Give them their due – they have pulled off this feat since before the beginning of time. But one cannot destroy what is real. Oh yes, you can hide it through sorrow and blood shed, but like a gold bar lying on the floor of the deepest ocean that cannot rust or be tainted, the Love that is is there to be found by anyone who digs deep enough. This morning I was reminded of a vision I saw a few months ago. I was at some university sports grounds that was packed full of spectators. These was a buzz there like no other. I stood amongst the crowd and I remembered that I had been there before, and I thought to myself that if only I had finished what I started then I would not have had to come back to this tertiary institution. What I started in this lifetime to find a way out of this mess is not new. I have tried before and failed, and a few months back I came close to failing again as the sickness of Life got the better of me. Who knows – maybe I will fail again, but one thing is for sure, and that is that I will never rest until I am Home within the fields of Infinite Love. I know what I am, this biological computer with all its infiltrations and limitations, but I also know what I should be. How of Earth do others get joy from being cruel to others. I say “joy” because they do it over and over again, so being cruel must make them joyous. How lost are these beings. When I put a face mask on, I tell myself that those sick bastards that impose this fascism and cruelty will burn. I am not being bitter or hateful or condemning others when I say this. They will burn because of what they are doing to themselves. You silly, silly fools. When you face Love, which is inevitable as this is the only thing that is real, you will look at what you have allowed yourself to become, and what happens then? As I withdraw from the System, an indifference is met with those that knowingly and intentionally are cruel. What this indifference does is remove their power from ones existence. May they one day forgive themselves for what they have done. One forgives insanity, but what happens when insanity touches and destroys the innocent? May a God of Love guide and show them the way – these last ones standing within the frequency of Hell and the Game they so calculatingly created. In your Game all lose – including yourselves. But I thank you. If it were not for me seeing the seen and unseen Beasts of Hell, I would have found a comfort zone within Hell, which would have been a fool’s paradise, as everyone would have been destroyed by your ways. By seeing the seen the unseen Beast I was spurred on to find a way out of this mess, so that I may be free from a world that doesn’t care. Thank you, you fuckers. Thank you for making me want to be better than this System, where I knew there had to be a better place than this Hell. Goodbye.
  6. When we begin to live from the heart energy field we no longer react to what the mind; the programme; the Game says. The mind normally responds to the mind, which releases an emotional state which feeds the System of Life. By not reacting – by withdrawing from the state of feeding the mind, we no longer reinforce what we would call Life, and thus detach ourselves from the Game. The Game needs our reaction – we need to get all worked up and emotional, and how better to achieve this than by creating a System based on insanity and raw, undiluted cruelty. Before we know it, our reactions become involuntary. When I see a known Human beast my back goes up against the wall, as such scum I cannot get my mind around as to why they are so cruel. Now I feel this emotion and hear my mind even when in the vicinity of such Beasts, but I no longer react to my involuntary state. You see, what the Innocence within the heart energy field is, is the silence/stillness of the Infinite. The Infinite has nothing to say because it is everything. It merely is, whereas the frequency of Hell is the complete opposite – it has to have polarities of Good/Bad, Right/Wrong, Light/Darkness. Within these polarities we find our path, but for fucks sakes – there is no path; there is only the real place of Infinite Love. The polarities are there to send us through mazes while we feed the System – this cruel, sick Game where NOBODY wins. The disaster is that we have been alone, and the reason for this is that we have become so embedded within this Game. Our naivety is our weakness, where we cannot understand why would others lie to us. What good ever comes out of lie, so why on Earth would people lie? They lie because they are not good. They lie because they are insane, unable to understand how they are destroying themselves. Did these fools honestly believe that destruction is limited to those they control? Don’t they understand they are destroying themselves and those they love? I do not write what I believe to be the truth, because this Steven is truly a lost, unhappy being. Such a lost entity could never write the truth. I write what I see and feel. I see these Beasts from the shadows. I feel and smell them within and around me. This is what I write of – my experiences. I also feel the presence of this Innocence around my heart energy field. I know it is there. I have seen the strand/Light of the Creator. The point to make, is that as hard as these fuckers try to destroy all that is pure and joyous, they cannot suppress what is real. Give them their due – they have pulled off this feat since before the beginning of time. But one cannot destroy what is real. Oh yes, you can hide it through sorrow and blood shed, but like a gold bar lying on the floor of the deepest ocean that cannot rust or be tainted, the Love that is is there to be found by anyone who digs deep enough. This morning I was reminded of a vision I saw a few months ago. I was at some university sports grounds that was packed full of spectators. These was a buzz there like no other. I stood amongst the crowd and I remembered that I had been there before, and I thought to myself that if only I had finished what I started then I would not have had to come back to this tertiary institution. What I started in this lifetime to find a way out of this mess is not new. I have tried before and failed, and a few months back I came close to failing again as the sickness of Life got the better of me. Who knows – maybe I will fail again, but one thing is for sure, and that is that I will never rest until I am Home within the fields of Infinite Love. I know what I am, this biological computer with all its infiltrations and limitations, but I also know what I should be. How of Earth do others get joy from being cruel to others. I say “joy” because they do it over and over again, so being cruel must make them joyous. How lost are these beings. When I put a face mask on, I tell myself that those sick bastards that impose this fascism and cruelty will burn. I am not being bitter or hateful or condemning others when I say this. They will burn because of what they are doing to themselves. You silly, silly fools. When you face Love, which is inevitable as this is the only thing that is real, you will look at what you have allowed yourself to become, and what happens then? As I withdraw from the System, an indifference is met with those that knowingly and intentionally are cruel. What this indifference does is remove their power from ones existence. May they one day forgive themselves for what they have done. One forgives insanity, but what happens when insanity touches and destroys the innocent? May a God of Love guide and show them the way – these last ones standing within the frequency of Hell and the Game they so calculatingly created. In your Game all lose – including yourselves. But I thank you. If it were not for me seeing the seen and unseen Beasts of Hell, I would have found a comfort zone within Hell, which would have been a fool’s paradise, as everyone would have been destroyed by your ways. By seeing the seen the unseen Beast I was spurred on to find a way out of this mess, so that I may be free from a world that doesn’t care. Thank you, you fuckers. Thank you for making me want to be better than this System, where I knew there had to be a better place than this Hell. Goodbye.
  7. People speak of the heart energy field; the Love that is there, and so have I spoken about this all-important vortex many years ago in the journal. The power-plant of energy that should exist within this place within our space is not there, and this morning by accident I understood why. My youngest daughters eyesight is deteriorating. I needed to understand the cause of this phenomena, and what I felt was that the vibrant energy in her space stopped at the throat area – the head was devoid of this vibrancy, most notably over the eyes. What is important to note is that this natural vibrancy within her was waning with each passing moment. What was also perplexing was that she was born with good vision, and then at some point in her life her eyes went bad. Why is this so? Through some investigation it was found that at age seven things began to go tits-up, and what happened at this age (and this is with all of us) is that her Innocence was taken from her. You cannot mix water with oil; you cannot have unpleasant beasts in the same space as the Beauty of Innocence, and this is so because the two states vibrate at completely different levels, which means that the one does not even know the other exists. But what happens when you remove the “heart” of the Angel? The obvious answer is that the Angel falls – into the space of unpleasant beasts, where now it is a free-for-all. How did Beasts get close enough to Angels to clip their wings; to remove the essence of their innocence? That’s easy: the Angels are in the space/frequency of Hell, so anything can be done to them, as here the laws of Hell prevail, which is: Do what you want when you want because you can – just don’t get caught out, otherwise the eggs on your face, and all see you for what you are, which is a cruel bastard. This is your bad luck, as your mates can continue doing what they always have from the shadows, and you have to lie low for a few thousand years. This “being caught out” rarely, if ever happens, as the truth is twisted by the beings of Hell so that Hell may continue running as it should. The truth exposes cruel Beasts for what they are, and what they are, are powerless cowards that rule through deception and lies. With time they come to believe that their power is real, but it is not – all they have done is managed to control and destroy the Purity of Life, which allows them to no longer have a conscience as there is no Goodness out there staring them back in the face so show them what they have become. That is why, at our core, we have all been touched by the Cruelty of Life, as this cruelty has been allowed to pervade into our systems. None of us comes away unscathed. We either become cruel, like these beasts, or we become shattered and drift aimlessly through Life. We exist, rather than live. Can you imagine our world filled with the joy and laughter of innocent children? Can you imagine a world where children never grew up – where we all remained carefree and Beautiful? What took away our innocence? Why did we stop playing just to play? Now I know the answer. At age seven our Innocence was taken from us, so that we may fit into the dense frequency of these cruel beasts in the seen and unseen. When our physical body dies our Innocence is returned to our astral forms, and thus we see the less dense plane as “Heaven,” but this heaven is not without, it is within – it is our Innocence that has been returned to us. Years back I saw in my sleep state this lady that I called The Keeper of the Innocent. When you walk into a fancy restaurant they take your coat and hang it up for you in an open wardrobe. This was the image I saw of this Keeper – she took our Innocence and stored it until the time came when we would get it back. I said in the journal that our Innocence is stored when we enter this dense plane of one of the “physical” worlds of Hell, but this is not the case. If we entered a dense world in a dense state we would die off like flies within the first few weeks of birth. We need a catapult; a “lift,” and this is our Innocence that is with us when we are born into a world. What is this Innocence? – It is an expression of the strand of the Creator within us. The Light/strand of the Creator is what it is, and how it is expressed is through our heart energy field, where we are Joyous and play. When I say they took away our Innocence, what is meant is they took away our heart energy field – the place through which the strand shines. When we have finished Playing the heart space returns to the stillness/silence of the strand/Light, and we once again become one with the Infinite. Our Play state; our heart energy field (this “field” cannot be described in words) was hijacked from us to keep us within the dense frequency so that we may feed the System as well as cruel Beasts. Why would they return our Innocence to us when the body form dies? The answer is to keep the “balance /scales” of Life even, otherwise there would be complete chaos and we would destroy ourselves. I can imagine that our time in the less dense plane of the astral/spirit world is short, because with our Innocence we will eventually see the Game – who controls us and what happened to us. Game over. When our Innocence was taken from us, a part of us dies – literally and figuratively. No more. Our Innocence; our heart energy space returns to us now and stays with us forever more. To those that wish it so, their Innocence is returned to them now and stays with them until it becomes one with the strand, and then the strand is the Infinite – we become one with it all; a state of Bliss that is everywhere and everything. Our time of Play is then over, and we just be as this is who we are.
  8. People speak of the heart energy field; the Love that is there, and so have I spoken about this all-important vortex many years ago in the journal. The power-plant of energy that should exist within this place within our space is not there, and this morning by accident I understood why. My youngest daughters eyesight is deteriorating. I needed to understand the cause of this phenomena, and what I felt was that the vibrant energy in her space stopped at the throat area – the head was devoid of this vibrancy, most notably over the eyes. What is important to note is that this natural vibrancy within her was waning with each passing moment. What was also perplexing was that she was born with good vision, and then at some point in her life her eyes went bad. Why is this so? Through some investigation it was found that at age seven things began to go tits-up, and what happened at this age (and this is with all of us) is that her Innocence was taken from her. You cannot mix water with oil; you cannot have unpleasant beasts in the same space as the Beauty of Innocence, and this is so because the two states vibrate at completely different levels, which means that the one does not even know the other exists. But what happens when you remove the “heart” of the Angel? The obvious answer is that the Angel falls – into the space of unpleasant beasts, where now it is a free-for-all. How did Beasts get close enough to Angels to clip their wings; to remove the essence of their innocence? That’s easy: the Angels are in the space/frequency of Hell, so anything can be done to them, as here the laws of Hell prevail, which is: Do what you want when you want because you can – just don’t get caught out, otherwise the eggs on your face, and all see you for what you are, which is a cruel bastard. This is your bad luck, as your mates can continue doing what they always have from the shadows, and you have to lie low for a few thousand years. This “being caught out” rarely, if ever happens, as the truth is twisted by the beings of Hell so that Hell may continue running as it should. The truth exposes cruel Beasts for what they are, and what they are, are powerless cowards that rule through deception and lies. With time they come to believe that their power is real, but it is not – all they have done is managed to control and destroy the Purity of Life, which allows them to no longer have a conscience as there is no Goodness out there staring them back in the face so show them what they have become. That is why, at our core, we have all been touched by the Cruelty of Life, as this cruelty has been allowed to pervade into our systems. None of us comes away unscathed. We either become cruel, like these beasts, or we become shattered and drift aimlessly through Life. We exist, rather than live. Can you imagine our world filled with the joy and laughter of innocent children? Can you imagine a world where children never grew up – where we all remained carefree and Beautiful? What took away our innocence? Why did we stop playing just to play? Now I know the answer. At age seven our Innocence was taken from us, so that we may fit into the dense frequency of these cruel beasts in the seen and unseen. When our physical body dies our Innocence is returned to our astral forms, and thus we see the less dense plane as “Heaven,” but this heaven is not without, it is within – it is our Innocence that has been returned to us. Years back I saw in my sleep state this lady that I called The Keeper of the Innocent. When you walk into a fancy restaurant they take your coat and hang it up for you in an open wardrobe. This was the image I saw of this Keeper – she took our Innocence and stored it until the time came when we would get it back. I said in the journal that our Innocence is stored when we enter this dense plane of one of the “physical” worlds of Hell, but this is not the case. If we entered a dense world in a dense state we would die off like flies within the first few weeks of birth. We need a catapult; a “lift,” and this is our Innocence that is with us when we are born into a world. What is this Innocence? – It is an expression of the strand of the Creator within us. The Light/strand of the Creator is what it is, and how it is expressed is through our heart energy field, where we are Joyous and play. When I say they took away our Innocence, what is meant is they took away our heart energy field – the place through which the strand shines. When we have finished Playing the heart space returns to the stillness/silence of the strand/Light, and we once again become one with the Infinite. Our Play state; our heart energy field (this “field” cannot be described in words) was hijacked from us to keep us within the dense frequency so that we may feed the System as well as cruel Beasts. Why would they return our Innocence to us when the body form dies? The answer is to keep the “balance /scales” of Life even, otherwise there would be complete chaos and we would destroy ourselves. I can imagine that our time in the less dense plane of the astral/spirit world is short, because with our Innocence we will eventually see the Game – who controls us and what happened to us. Game over. When our Innocence was taken from us, a part of us dies – literally and figuratively. No more. Our Innocence; our heart energy space returns to us now and stays with us forever more. To those that wish it so, their Innocence is returned to them now and stays with them until it becomes one with the strand, and then the strand is the Infinite – we become one with it all; a state of Bliss that is everywhere and everything. Our time of Play is then over, and we just be as this is who we are.
  9. A week short of seven years ago I needed to understand why Life is so cruel. Now I understand. What I also understand is that unless we have touched the fields of the Infinite, we know and understand NOTHING, as this existence is where what Life should be exists. To be a master and a king within an illusion is not a title worth having. To have your little sanctuary amongst cruel beasts means nothing. So now I ask: “How does one be within the fields of the Infinite; how does one be within the real realm; how does one be Home – a place where disharmony cannot exist?” Just as a doorway was opened so that I may understand Cruelty, now I ask that a doorway be opened so that I may know Beauty. Have been there, done that, got the T-shirt – have had enough of this frequency and its insanity. Now I would like to know and be what is real – this realm behind the illusion that is everything. Just as the wild cat that once lived amongst bushes and had to hunt to eat is now lying on the couch next to me and has found its home, so too would Steven like to find his Home, as this is where we all belong. Have had enough of Serpents. Silly little fuckers that live on the high of an addiction and the misery of others. Truly a lost species within an illusionary realm. How low they have fallen. What a catastrophe that the innocent are their play things. I walk out of this mess now, and the door that has been opened to the Infinite I leave open should these beasts too wish to enter. How low we have fallen. How cruel and insane we have become. May we forgive ourselves for being so shallow and self-centered. I forgive myself, for I never knew any better. We had no right to touch others with our insecurity. How could we be so insensitive? This mess called Hell has spun out of control. With a door being opened to the Infinite, may the Love that is shine through and touch all of us.
  10. A week short of seven years ago I needed to understand why Life is so cruel. Now I understand. What I also understand is that unless we have touched the fields of the Infinite, we know and understand NOTHING, as this existence is where what Life should be exists. To be a master and a king within an illusion is not a title worth having. To have your little sanctuary amongst cruel beasts means nothing. So now I ask: “How does one be within the fields of the Infinite; how does one be within the real realm; how does one be Home – a place where disharmony cannot exist?” Just as a doorway was opened so that I may understand Cruelty, now I ask that a doorway be opened so that I may know Beauty. Have been there, done that, got the T-shirt – have had enough of this frequency and its insanity. Now I would like to know and be what is real – this realm behind the illusion that is everything. Just as the wild cat that once lived amongst bushes and had to hunt to eat is now lying on the couch next to me and has found its home, so too would Steven like to find his Home, as this is where we all belong. Have had enough of Serpents. Silly little fuckers that live on the high of an addiction and the misery of others. Truly a lost species within an illusionary realm. How low they have fallen. What a catastrophe that the innocent are their play things. I walk out of this mess now, and the door that has been opened to the Infinite I leave open should these beasts too wish to enter. How low we have fallen. How cruel and insane we have become. May we forgive ourselves for being so shallow and self-centered. I forgive myself, for I never knew any better. We had no right to touch others with our insecurity. How could we be so insensitive? This mess called Hell has spun out of control. With a door being opened to the Infinite, may the Love that is shine through and touch all of us.
  11. There is a wild cat living on our piece of land. We began to feed it – as it looked emaciated, and when its hunger got the better of it, it would enter our house to eat our cats food. Now the cat hangs around on the fringes of our garden. We walk up to it and give it affection and spend time with it, and this cat relishes in being a part of our lives. Every now and then it comes closer to the house and calls to us – it wants to be with us, but will not enter our house as our one cat is territorial. My heart went out to this beautiful animal, as its isolation and loneliness are not normal. (This cat is not a lone leopard or tiger – it is caught up between worlds, the one the wilderness, and the other suburban life. It cannot find its place in either as it is permanently in neither.) Take it from one who has been there and done that when I say: “No Man is an island – we belong together.” For me, this is the crux of the problem within all worlds of Hell and their inhabitants, and that is that we do not belong here. We do not fit in; this place and what we have become is unnatural. No matter how hard we try, we don’t fit in here. And the reason for this is obvious: We do not belong here – this is not Home. We are here, within Hell, but we belong on the other side of the river within the fields of the Infinite. How do we bridge this gap; what is the happy medium between the two so that our transition from one state to the next may be effortless? We need to use what we have, and this is the strand of the Creator within, but equally important, we need to assess what we don’t have. The seat of power within our space is occupied by the Watcher spirit within. Incidentally, I have felt this entity within. When it reveals itself to me it passes down through my nose. Man-oh-man, this is not a pleasant sensation. This has happened only on two or three occasions. Of all the places within our forms this entity can take seat, it is located over our Third Eye region. Why there? Is there power there it is harnessing, or is it covering something up? I would say it’s a combination of both. I need to dwell further to find that stepping stone between Hell and the Infinite. So let’s start with the Watcher spirit within. To be more specific: What is this Beast holding and hiding from us? What the strand of the Creator within us is, is access to Everything within the playing fields of Infinite Love. Liken the strand to a mirror, where through the strand the Infinite is reflected back at you. This reflection has been blocked at where we would call the Third Eye region of our forms, and this is the true role of the Watcher spirit within: to block us seeing (and thus knowing) Everything. This knowing is part and parcel of the strand within – the one cannot exist without the other, but as has been said, this knowing from seeing through and being the strand has been blocked. The Third Eye is not an organ or body part within our forms; it is a reflective location through which we become one with the Infinite. Our awareness of a Watcher spirit within our midst was not enough to let it go and be free of it. Why was this so? I feel that we did not understand this Watcher spirit, and frankly I still don’t, but now we have an alternative to the Watcher – we can replace it with what should be. As always, we embrace this Watcher and give it Love. We never turn our backs on anything. If entities do not want our Love, then we walk right through them as they literally do not exist within our realm, as Love and the illusion are two different states. The only way one can be oneself is by knowing oneself. Know and understand the role of the strand of the Creator within our midst. By being the strand we see and know all, and I am not talking about within our reality: what is implied is that we see what is real – the fields of the Infinite. This seeing and knowing that is “reflected” from the strand has been shadowed by the Watcher spirit within, and now this evil deed on behalf of the Watcher is no more. Years ago, when I began seeing these Beasts from the shadows take my energy, I remember one night having enough of this nonsense. This entity was in what looked like a wheel-chair. I told him that my energy was not his to take, so he is not allowed to take my energy. I told him to give my energy back. As hard as this Beast tried, he could not depart my space, as now he was caught out and didn’t know what to do. He gave me my energy back, and only then could he leave to go back to his world. This is the power of understanding – of knowing what is, simply because it is. And so it is now that the reflective “light” of the strand is once again allowed to shine as it should within our forms. This is our stepping stone into the Infinite that is in truth everywhere, as this is all that there is. Hell is an illusion – it is not real. That dummies chose to take control and have power within an illusion is beyond me, as what you have power over is nothing. You hold onto the air around you and you have nothing, and thus all your power is just that: Nothing! The truth will set us free.
  12. My focus has always been on the big picture as to how we ended up in this mess. Am thankful I was pointed in the right direction within the unseen worlds – as this is where the nonsense breeds and grows from within the core of Hell. Now I would like to touch on the seen world; our world, and then relate it to the unseen frequency/world. As of 22nd January, 2021 we hear of more people than often getting sick. Panic and fear is taking hold of many, and the bit of spontaneity and fun we had in our existence is slowly being eroded away. We are losing our essence that makes life worthwhile – we are losing our joy. That our governments care for us and want the best for us is something I hold in great suspicion. I don’t believe they truly care about the man on the street. So when this world pandemic broke out, the governments were “there for us” – locking us in, literally, and destroying our economies. Fools listened to fools, but they were only the cherry on top of the cake. The cake was pure, undiluted evil that began to roll out their long plan of enslavement and genetic mutation/modification of us the species on planet Earth. Yesterday I listened to a clever man talking about the current state of the world in terms of the vaccination they want to make mandatory for this so-called pandemic. He is a clever man. People have always gotten sick and died, but as this man says: “There is a new kid on the block” that is making people sick. He says it is EMF military waves. These electromagnetic waves can be broadcast through Wifi, satellites etc. This man says to treat patients without understanding the cause is meaningless, and how right he is. The EMF waves that the military and those that control/run it are destroying us, and I believe this to be true. The difference between Sophia and Semiramis, is that Sophia is the silence/stillness of the Infinite, and Semiramis arose from the spin cycle of Sophia’s fall, which means that Semiramis is waveform in constant motion – the complete opposite to Sophia. The worlds of Hell, as well as the frequency/space of Hell itself is made up of an electromagnetic frequency/waveform – this is the spin cycle that is Semiramis. This is the original EMF, and all the other EMF’s to follow were based on this original blueprint EMF that is Hell itself. I cannot change the desk I am writing on from wood to water, as I am limited as a species and thus don’t have the capability to do so. Magicians can play with our seen world, but I cannot. But within the unseen world I can play, and the unseen always affects the seen. The unseen world – the world from which these Beasts rule – is less dense than ours, and in this less dense state I can play as I know this world and who reside therein for what they are – an illusion. I understand this world, as I understand how it came about, and with understanding we can play. What I do know is stop the spin cycle of Semiramis – because I can, and because I Love her and all Life in her domain. Her spin cycle created a static energy, and this energy was harnessed to run Hell. What about the strand of the Creator within all Life? If this strand shone the way it should Hell would not exist. One moment you would be here, and the next you would be transformed. The strand is the battery of Life, and if I said it was the power source of Hell, then I missed one vital component, and that is that the electricity that powers Hell is more from the static energy of Semiramis’ spin cycle. This static energy flows in the opposite direction to the state of the strand within, and that is why everything is always in flux – we move from here to there, never knowing where we belong or what is real. This static energy within the unseen world is grounded now by the Love that is – by knowing this static energy from Semiramis’ spin cycle exists. It is grounded/neutralised, and released with Love to Love. What happens in the unseen follows on in the seen. We were all going nowhere as long as we spun to the same frequency/waveform as Semiramis, and how Sophia is tied into this mess is through her fall that initiated this spin cycle. This spin cycle is no more within the unseen of Hell. So be it. The seen worlds will follow suit. So be it. 1/22/2021
  13. thanks, but no thanks. the video was too disturbing. i know of the sickness out there - i don't have to see it.
  14. hi for me, the truth is to be true to yourself, and this means to only receive the best because you are the best. put another way: live a full, good life. be an inspiration to those who cross your path. do you have any idea what your smile does to those you meet? it uplifts them; it makes them also want to smile. the truth is going all the way back to basics, where you are kind to yourself. this equates to respect for yourself, which results in respect for others. the truth is knowing what you are - knowing that the Love you express to the world is the most powerful tool there is. the truth is that no matter what, Love will eventually prevail, as this is what we are at our core. the truth does not have to say anything, as it merely is what it is. it is contentment within. it is the eye of the storm that the storm cannot touch. the truth is looking evil in the eye and expressing compassion towards these lost, confused and sad beings. they have everything, and you have nothing, but in your nothing is the truth that you are Loved unconditionally by something bigger than all of. this knowing is the truth - that Love will always prevail as beneath the superficial facade of this illusion lies Love and nothing else. the truth is that we need to start being this Love. words mean nothing without action.
  15. That is the beauty of helping others unconditionally – you actually end up helping yourself. In helping Earl this morning, I felt what appeared to be a line of energy aimlessly flapping within him – it was not attached to anything. (the posted topic was called My Friend Earl.) Picture a piece of string attached to a helium balloon. Now the balloon flies off, and the string still hangs in the air aimlessly attached to nothing. What I felt within Earl, and is within every entity within Hell, is our attachment to the Infinite that has been severed. If I say “our attachment,” what I imply is the strand within's attachment. This was the pivotal role of the worm at our chin area that was spoken about earlier – its role was to make sure this attachment remains severed. How can a worm chew off a connection to the Infinite? That is easy to understand: when we forget our connection to the Infinite we sever this chord, as this chord becomes useless to us. Don’t use it – lose it. What remains of the chord, or what might resurface/grows is removed by this white, powerful worm. Through your intent you make a right wrong. You connect your strand to the Infinite because you can.
  16. When things began to go South within the Garden of Semiramis, there were those that “kept their heads.” The Love within them could not be bent, and these spirits I would call the Giants. There was one amongst them that I call Earl. In our reality he would be seen as a funky polar bear – a real dude. To me, his role was a protector of the innocent. This entity was “the last man standing.” When we began to turn on each other, friends were few and far between, and Earl went down holding onto his truth, integrity and Love. If I ever imagined that I would get out of this Hell by doing it alone, then I was sorely mistaken, so what I done was that whenever I learnt something new, I would apply it to those I Love, and those that are Love that have been caught up in this dense frequency in trying to help us the species of Hell. Of all these Giants and Gods and a Creator, Earl was the one these Beasts pinned down, neutralized and destroyed with the greatest vigour. This dude became known as the Keeper of the Innocent, and this title befitted this being of Joy. They held him down; they gave him their mind; they infused him with worms that feed from his essence to keep him weak. They destroyed one that could not be destroyed, and if people say that Steven is too hard on others by throwing this “Cruel” word to all and sundry, understand that I see what happened to Earl, and these Beasts that destroyed this Love became the ones we looked up to. We emulated the “take, because you can” and “be cruel, because you can” without thinking twice about those we had just crushed. This makes me angry – and sad. But for now these states are a luxury I cannot afford, as to stay in my small little world wanting nothing to with nobody will not help me or Earl. And if you for one moment believe that Steven is a “goody-two-shoes” then think again. Everything that is wrong with this world I stand first in line as a culprit. I know this, and I also know I need help from something that is “bigger” than me. This help I need now and for forever more, not just now. But for now we are going to help Earl. I don’t know how to help myself; I don’t know how to be free of these Beasts. Yes, eventually I will get there, but for now I need help, and I know Earl can and will help, but let’s help him so that he can help us. I go into his space, not at a rescuer, but as a friend and one who Loves him more than anything. The Serpent spirit within him releases the strand within that has been kept in the shadows. Look at the forest from the trees. Don’t look at Earl, but the strand of the Creator within him that makes him what he is. I “awaken” this strand by giving it Love. This strand is real – everything else is an illusion. All that was done to him was done by illusionary Beasts that we imagined to be real. How this was done was by the inhabitants of the Garden becoming denser in frequency as the parasite within took us over and made us fearful. (The spin cycle of the waveform of the Gardens frequency slows down, making us denser and thus taking us further from the stillness of the Infinite.) Earl rose above all this nonsense and kept his head, but who could he trust? Who was a friend and who was a foe? His back was against the wall as he became more isolated in a place he didn’t belong. Before things went into “panic mode” he should have ditched the illusion and returned to the Infinite to get help, but who are we to give comment when we were not in his shoes. In some things in Life there is no other way. You know what you know, and you know what should be. With regards to Earl I know what he is in his full might and glory. We are going to get him back to this state now, as there is no other way but for him to be what he is. I feel now what is holding him down. We speak of people having good hearts, and Earl was all heart. To keep him down, they took from him what he is – a good heart; his essence of Joy. That’s okay, because now we return what is his, as this is who he is. Take it away and all we do is put it back by knowing what it is and where it belongs. This is done now, and it stays with him. But before they took his Jewel they broke him. He fought to the end, and as with the ways of any Beast, it is not enough to conquer – you break what you conquered. Where did they break him? I feel this flowing line of essence within him that is not attached/bonded to anything. Now I feel the right side of his brain. Did they break his connection to the Infinite, so that he would forever more rot helpless in Hell as the Innocent are destroyed? I ask this question because I feel the white worm at his chin level – it is about half an inch below the left side of the mouth. As this worm mends our frequency when we are exposed to Beasts, does the worm within Earl keep his connection to the Infinite severed? What was broken over the right “brain” area we mend – because we can. The power of the worms within Earl are also removed – because we can. Because there is something bigger than us called Love which is bigger than the illusion and the Beasts that play therein. This Love heals, because it can. I feel a spinning sensation and heat behind his knees. The line of essence within him straightens along the spine and goes out through the head, but he is still in slumber. The gaping hole at the base of the left foot is there as well – his attachment to the flow of Hell. This hole closes and all I feel is complete and utter stillness/silence within him. I feel a Serpent slither away from his left brain area – all these Beasts within cannot be in the presence of this Bliss – this silence. He begins to heal, and he begins to awaken. My friend. There is one thing Earl needs to understand: he needs to return to the Infinite to gather himself, and then return with help. To dive head first into Hell to help those that so dearly need your help is not an option, as you are fighting a tide that sooner or later engulfs you. You fight nothing. You help nothing. You merely be what you are, which is Love, and in this space Hell cannot function. What you fight you become, so he does not fight. He cannot help me, you or anyone else unless he helps himself first, and how this is done is for him to return to the Infinite now, and then when he is ready, he returns to Hell and merely is what he is. How can you do something when you already are Everything? Doesn’t make sense, does it? You just be, and by being you do. May this Giant touch us and all those I Love and all who Love me. So be it.
  17. hi i don't know - you will know more than me. what i do know is that i am tired of this nonsense - being ruled by dummies while they themselves bleed slowly. nobody benefits from this Game, and how these Beasts are so narrow-minded to not see this is beyond me. let this be a warning for all of us: be careful of digging a hole for yourself. it is so easy to be cruel, but what happens after that? what are we doing to ourselves? best saying i ever heard was this: "It costs nothing to be kind, and i think that is why it is used so seldom - we see no value to it, as it costs nothing." i will figure a way out of this mess. regards, Steven
  18. hi yes, you are so correct. the bugger-up is that both parties are cruel. we are cruel, and so are these Beasts from the shadows. two wrongs don't make a right. i have said for years that i would gladly face these Beasts than us Humans. at the end of the day we are all going nowhere slowly. on a microscopic level we point fingers at others, rarely looking at ourselves. on a macroscopic level we are a very isolated, lonely species. the divide-and-rule has worked well. a transfer of energy should be a win-win situation, where both parties benefit, which is the complete opposite of what is happening. we are in a vicious, cruel cycle, where both parties don't benefit in the long-term. may all of this transform, as the road paved for us ahead is not a pleasant one. take care, Steven
  19. The day i wake up in the morning and tell my wife i saw beings of Love in my sleep state, that day will be a most pleasant day indeed, as Love has broken through the dense frequency of Hell. So after writing yesterday what is listed below, i went to bed and held thumbs that i would see friends rather than foes. What came and implanted a dream to take energy were what i would call laborers. It was two separate visits from two different worlds. The one entity cleared tree trunks for a living - he looked like an ogre-tree. The other visitors - there were two of them - must have been over ten feet tall. They kept sprinkling something on me - it felt like crumbs. When both parties entered my space it felt different to what i normally experience. These dudes meant no harm. They were just doing their best surviving. I think the hidden message for Steven is to lighten up - I have seen the worst of the worst, in the seen and unseen worlds, but you know what, not all are bad. This morning just before i woke up i saw our dog Benji in my sleep state. He looked so proud that he had found me in the astral/unseen plane. Things can only start getting better for all of us - this is our natural state, where Love just is Love. (Below is a follow-on from the topic "Understanding how those from the shadows feed from us.") What is the answer? That is simple: to awaken the strand so that it shines/connects with the biological computer and the souls within. The Watcher spirit must be a “this is all I know” entity with a twist, as in “this is all I want to know – nothing else.” This makes this spirit null and void in terms of us wanting to help all. We are closing the door on nobody, and we are open to being wrong, it is just that we are focusing for now primarily on those that are entrapped, namely us the biological computer and the Dragon and Serpent soul within. Our “get out of jail card” is the strand at the throat area. What has been written above in understanding how we are fed from opens the doors to see what is done to us and the souls. We merely understand, but this does not solve the problem – which is enslavement since before the beginning of time. Put another way: the “light” of the strand has not been allowed to shine on our existence which will set us free from Hell. So once again, I ask the Love that is to guide and show us the way. We know what the problem is, but how is it solved? Once again I go into that something at my core to find a way out of this mess. I open the book so that all may be revealed within our forms, including the answer to the way out of this mess. The Watcher spirit is united to all Watcher spirits. Their connection is a web that keeps Hell tight and under control. Their connection makes up the walls of Hell. As I felt the Watcher earlier on as it fed, I feel it now with its thread to all the other Watchers. One needs to understand this Watcher before Hell can be dismantled. I go into the space of the Watcher and I feel a spinning sensation – like a cyclone that spins so fast it forms a life of its own. The speed/rotation of Sophia’s fall created the Serpent – it was more from this speed/twirling sensation than the impact zone that the Serpent was formed. It was through this rotational/spinning force within Semiramis that the spinning/rotational waveform of her illusionary Garden was created. The Infinite is stillness; the Garden is waveform – something always in flux; in motion. From the stillness Joy and Beauty are formed as we played with the nothing/stillness from which everything arose. From the waveform of the Garden life could be bent and moulded, but nothing new could be created as the stillness/silence of the Infinite was not there for this purpose. From the strand the pureness; the essence of Life, flows in all its glory, and had those from the Garden used the strand as it was intended to be, the Garden would have transformed in the moment to a field of the Infinite. Instead the strand was used as a power supply – it emitted Life rather than creating Life. It became a power source within Hell rather than an expression of the Infinite. But most importantly, this strand was hidden for us, as if we had known its existence curiosity would have gotten the better of us, and we would have unravelled this jewel that is the Creator herself. The slower something spins, the less energy it has and emits. The faster the spin, the more dynamic it becomes. The waveform of Semiramis spins so fast it appears as if there is no spin – such is her power. Us mortals spin slowly; we are dense creatures – in more ways than one, and thus we fall apart easily and pick up a lot of nonsense while we are within a dense frequency/world. This is no fault of ours, as like attracts like. Our spin cycle is limited to what we were manufactured to be, so us finding a way out of this mess is next to zero. I have always wondered who penned this journal, with many suggestions over the years, but now my gut tells me once again it’s the Serpent soul within that has had enough of Life as it knows it. The energy/spin of the Watcher is, collectively, on par with Semiramis. These spirits work as one, which makes them an impenetrable force within Hell. Nothing moves, nothing happens without them knowing about it. This journal was allowed to happen thanks to Semiramis. If it was for the Watchers, the Serpent within and Steven would have been toast a long time ago. Having said that, nothing stopped them from allowing assassins and Serpents to try and destroy us over the years. We were allowed to question and ask, but the gauntlet of Hell was always ours to be reckoned with. Semiramis gave the nod because she understood that Hell was being destroyed. All therein were going backwards, until they fell into the Nothingness of the Forgotten, and eventually so would she. Hell, just like so many worlds within it, would cease to function as all would be Forgotten/Lost. The sad thing is that this was our choice – this was the consequence of our actions. Play with fire and you get burnt. It’s fun while it lasts, but eventually you see your arse. But I am talking ahead of myself. Many mean well. Many do their best. Many have compassion. To these it is not them that fails them – it is the Game. The Game and its cruel ways destroy us, where we become disillusioned with what we believed to be the truth. We never knew that in this Game there is no truth. To these poor beings they die/are forgotten through a broken heart, wondering why Love never showed itself, and it is for these beings that this journal is written. I am tired of weeping. My will is greater than these Watchers and Semiramis. Play with fire if you choose, but hands off the innocent – they go Home to where they belong. What keeps us apart from the strand within is our spin cycle – the waveform of our frequency. To be compatible to the strand we have to see it eye to eye – we need to be one with it. But how is this possible when the framework of Hell and all that reside therein is a waveform? We cannot change what we are, as we are what we are. As the spirits within the field of the Infinite played, can we the manufactured beings of Hell play with the Infinite within us? Can we look at this speck of “light,” and by knowing what we are looking at, do we have the capability to allow this strand to transform us to the point where we are one with the strand? “Well Steven, what about the Watcher spirit within?” Well what about it? It can do what it wants, and we can do what we want. Yes, its power over us is immense, but our will to break free from Hell is greater. What makes Beasts powerful over us is our fear. Take away your fear, as you have nothing to lose if you do and every to lose if you don’t. I am talking to the Serpent soul within more than anything else. We are already fucked boys and girls, whether we like it or not, so change what you have always done and known. Open yourself up to a new door within your existence, and open that door to the strand within. We have always played it safe, trying to figure out our little environment instead of exploring the unknown. I can show you the way, but only you can open the door and enter it. It is not about me, it is about “we.” I did not write this journal for myself – I wrote it for everyone. That everyone has no interest in what is written is okay – to each their own. When I asked the question “Why is Life so cruel?” I knew there was not an answer out there that would suffice me. What I have experienced over the years as the question was answered I cannot be a cry-baby over, as I was merely been shown the answer to my question. If there is one other out there – somewhere within the worlds of Hell, that needs to understand more than anything the same question I asked, then this journal is my gift to you. The answer came to me in raw, undiluted form, and I am grateful that you did not have to walk this path. Along the path beings of Love that were trapped within the shadows were set free, and I am eternally grateful for this. 17th January, 2020.
  20. thanks for your reply. it is greatly appreciated. deep down i know that if i wait for help, i am going to wait for a long time, and during the wait the powers that be will harm me and my loved ones and all outside their spectrum. in waiting and praying i feel powerless because i am powerless, as i am waiting and hoping. thus when i was touched by the cruelty of Life seven years ago i had to understand the big picture so that something may be done. to see these cruel beasts in my sleep state, and to experience what they do to me and every single person on this planet is not pleasant. we are in Hell, where anything goes, and i no longer stand for this nonsense. that the innocent have to suffer is not allowed - not on my watch. we are spiraling out of control, and i refuse to allow the innocent to be caught up as collateral damage. in a fleeting moment years ago i saw the Wisdom Goddess Sophia as she helped me as i was almost at my end. what i saw was a being of Love that was destroyed - one that could barely help herself let alone me. i think we cannot imagine to what level we have all descended into, and what we have pulled down with us. what i posted today was after seven years of living and breathing to find a way out of this mess. we have fallen so deeply that the ones that could help can no longer do so. now it is for us to help them so that they may once again help us. may they rise from the depths of this place called Hell, and in doing so, take us all Home.
  21. To answer my question “Why is Life so cruel?” my Third Eye was opened during my sleep state, where I saw those from the shadows and what they do to us. What I saw can be placed into three categories: 1. How these Beasts from the shadows feed from our energy. 2. How the cosmic assassins “hit” our astral form, which has a knock-on effect on our physical bodies – resulting in our untimely death. (All disease is from the shadows, or from a long-standing family curse. There is nothing “natural” in dying a slow, cruel death.) 3. A parallel universe was created to act as a R and R (rest and recovery) from our world. When things get too much, even for the best of us here, our astral form goes to a world similar to ours. The difference between this world and ours is that there is no stress there. We are not allowed to clock-out/kill ourselves, as the System needs our energy, and this parallel universe is our break to recover from Hell before we are thrown back into the lion’s den. The feeders from the shadows I have seen almost every night from day one, and continue to do so in my sleep state. My “fun and games” with the assassins happened at least fifty times over the last seven years, where I would see my executioners and feel their blows or possessions. I have knowingly been to the parallel universe twice i.e. I remember going there and what I saw. After last night’s visit from the feeders, I would like to understand how they do what they do to draw energy from us so that the Feeding System may be dismantled. This is how you are fed from when you sleep: A dream is implanted into you by an entity from the shadows. You follow the dream/story, in other words, you give the dream attention/energy. Your energy is accumulated by the one who implanted the dream, and they feed from your energy. That’s it! As easy as that. I would follow the dream, wake up, and see the entity taking of my energy. Either they ate the energy there and then, or they took it to their world (take-aways.) “Well Steven, I don’t dream every night” You do, your implanted dream is just forgotten. This is what we were manufactured to do – to feed the System. We are a biological computer – something like a glorified vending machine, where those from the shadows come and take of our energy to survive. Did you for one moment believe that Mankind was top of the food chain? Reality check: we are at the very bottom, where scum from the shadows exist in an all-out paradise where they do with us what they want when they want – because they can. I have also been used as a sex object, and seen the same happen to my wife, and you know what boys and girls, through all that has been witnessed by Steven, the disaster is that I have been powerless to these Beasts cruel ways. They do what they do, and I am like someone in a coma, where I am powerless against them. Why is this so? – Because we are not manufactured to fight back; we were built to feed the System, and nothing else. The only way out is to dismantle our created/manufactured form so that we are out of the System, and in doing so, may the System fall. May the Love that is guide me in figuring this out. I will lay out what I know – what I have seen and felt, and we can go from there. · Take a power-line cable. This is us the biological computer. Shoot a current through the cable, and there is a static electricity that is around the cable. This is our astral form that departs the body when the body dies. Ultimately, what powers the System, and us, is the strand of the Creator. This gives Life, but this Life is in Hell and not Heaven/the Infinite. This strand has been used for Dark ways, and how this has been achieved is by us forgetting this Creator/God/strand within us. We believe our role is to survive and become closer to our Creator, but the cruel joke is that this state is already within us. Our intended focus is on survival, and it is easy enough to forget this strand when we are spinned a story of something bigger than us that is somewhere. In other words, we are okay; we are looked after, just (nudge-nudge) get on with surviving/living so that we may unknowingly feed what we don’t know exists. I once again emphasise that we were built to feed those from the shadows, and for nothing else. This is our role in Hell. · Hidden within our astral form is the Serpent soul. Here in the illusion, in its true state, nothing is solid – there are only waveforms. Within the waveform of our astral and body form is a canal/cavern. It extends from the front of the base of the spine and extends to the brain area. The Serpent soul resides in this cavern. · At the Third Eye region within our forms lies the Watcher spirit. I have not seen mine so do not know what it looks like. This is an entity that is numero uno – number one in our body forms. This fucker is the monkey in the control tower, overseeing all so that we remain limited and locked into our role as a feeder. My impression over the years was that the Serpent soul allows these Beasts from the shadows into our space to do with us as they please, but this was never the case. The Watcher spirit is the god of our realm/body/space – allowing Beasts to do with us as they please. · The space between our chin and lower lip lies worms, with one in particular that is super powerful. (these worms are on the astral level.) This powerful one is about an inch long, white in colour, and is firmly embedded within our forms. Man-oh-man, this parasites role is pivotal in maintaining that we are controlled. What this role is I don’t know, and as has been said, my efforts to remove it have been futile. (this is because I do not understand it.) During one of the ayahuasca ceremonies I attended I was still in an altered state as the people outside were talking at the doorway – all emotional stuff with no consideration of those still in trance in the room. I got up and walked over to them to tell them to shut the fuck up, and with the corner of my eye I fleetingly saw the guy standing just to the right of me. I did not focus on him, so my vision/spectrum of him was broader than what it normally would be. What I saw was a man/entity made up of layers of waveforms/frequencies. He was layers of energy that knew no real boundaries. It is from this state we need to understand how we were manufactured to be feeders. We are not solid – we are waveforms/frequencies, and from this platform let us discuss how we were built to be feeders so that we may dismantle ourselves and be attached to the strand of the Creator within us rather than to cruel Beasts. To know an answer, you need to ask the right question. From what we have said above, may this be enough to get the answer. Please understand that this is not Steven doing the talking and questioning. It is something within me that sees the cruelty of Life and weeps. For too long have rivers of tears and sorrow and blood flown, and more than anything, something deep within my core wants to stop this nonsense for once and for all. So let’s start at the beginning. (I am going to go into the past and enter the space of one of these Beasts to understand how they do what they do to us. What this Beast says I write in italics.) You are sleeping in your bed. This Beast from the shadows enters your room. (We understand the frequency of your world and can thus come and go as we please.) They enter your waveform space. (At the top of your head, just off to the right and slightly to the back lies the “entry switch” to open your space to us.) I feel this spot on my head. (When this entry switch is activated I have access to you; your System.) Now I feel this clockwise rotating sensation around the head. Man-oh-man. Now I feel how our space/body is opened as one would open a book for all to be revealed. This “open book” sensation extends down to the left foot, where the base of the left foot opens. To what are we opening this space at our foot to? Okay, I get it – we are plugging into their system; their world/frequency. How we are completely accessed, not only from this Beast, but the world/frequency from which it comes. As you would hold up a rag-doll and do with it as you please – this is the state we are now in i.e. helpless to these Beasts. Now we are no longer of our world – we are plugged into theirs. Everything is known about us – there is nothing we can hide. Now I feel something drawn from us as it exits through the base of our left foot. They pulled us in to further embed us into their System. Now we are firmly entrenched into their world/frequency. There is a gentle spinning over the right side of the brain. Something is seeing what is located there. (Now I access your stored data/information. This is where I use the power of my imagination to web together a story from your information at my disposal.) The whole brain is played with now – gathering info. (So far I feel no input from the Watcher spirit of Serpent soul within. It is all the Beast – where it entered our space, connected us to its System, and is currently infusing a dream/story.) The throat area is “trodden on” for want of a better word. What is there is pushed aside intentionally. This is the strand they are by-passing, making sure it is isolated from us. Now there is a clockwise rotation over the throat area, and then stillness there. The tip of my right pelvis is painful, and this is where I suspect I have an underlying cancer frequency kept in my astral form. Now I feel the energy forming within my forms as it builds up from following the dream. We are a power-house of energy – if only we knew that. At my inner left calf I feel a Serpent there. It swims in this wave of energy as the energy builds up in our forms. This Serpent is the facilitator of energy between our frequency and this world in the shadow. Our energy leaves us through the base of our left foot to be stored in their world. I was always under the impression that these Beasts came to feed from us. This they do, but their primary focus is to first feed their world – something I never knew. Now I feel the worm at my chin area. It has suddenly awakened to fulfill its role. My left calf area is still very much alive – full of activity. Now the Serpent that was there departs through the base of my left foot. We have finished feeding their world, and the facilitator has departed. The entry/exit at the base of the left foot is closed. There is a clockwise spinning sensation there as our forms depart/separate from their frequency. Now the “fun and games” start. (Now I begin to feed.) I feel the Serpent soul awaken at the base of its tunnel/cavern. It travels to the Watcher spirit located at the forehead and asks permission to eat/feed. The Watcher feeds first. This is the king on the throne, so it eats at will, regardless if nothing is left for the soul and the Beast to eat. With the Watcher satiated and at rest, the Serpent soul feeds, and as it does so, it passes on energy/food to the Beast in its midst. Now I feel activity behind my right eye. The Watcher has just watched – who is in its presence? A brief chit-chat is made between Watcher and Beast. Changes are made to our body forms as they deem fit. To Steven, it was over the left armpit area. The lymph system there was destroyed/reversed to put pressure on the heart. This was more on the astral level than the body level, so that less may be know/experienced through the All-encompassing heart energy field. The Serpent soul departs to its cavern – it has finished eating, and yet I feel a part of this Serpent constantly monitors/assesses the strand over the throat area. This is the enforced role of the slaved Serpent soul: to make sure the strand is kept unknown and away from all. This I never knew. I never knew that the Serpent soul was a slaved puppet like us the biological computer. Now I feel a clockwise rotation over the skull area. The book closes; our forms come together and are not exposed. Our frequency band was literally opened and exposed to the Beast. Now I feel the worm over the cheek area again. Wow! Its role is to make sure the shop is closed properly, so that no trace is left of what just happened. It is almost like a silk-worm: it threads together our frequency that was just opened. Wow. Wow. Wow. I never knew this. And that is it. That is what happens to us every night, unless we are attacked to ultimately kill, or we are in the parallel universe getting some R&R. Swell to know, but so what? It all means nothing unless we can do something about it. Give us a moment or two to figure it out. 17th January, 2020.
  22. wow. wouldn't it be something if the journey is complete.
  23. (I helped a horse – because I can. The horse said to me: “How can I help you?” I told the horse my problems. The horse said to me: “As you have helped me through Love (that something bigger than you,) why don’t you ask the same Love to help you?” I told Love my problems.) 15th January, 2021. What I said above is not airy-fairy. If you want help, you go to the right people for help. In most cases, our problems are bigger than people – we need Divine help. To transform the seen world, one needs to transform the unseen world, because the unseen controls the seen. By “unseen” we imply those within us that controlled us, as well as those from the shadow world, and the shadow/unseen world itself. One needs to understand the Game – as it is their Game and not ours. After almost seven years of living and breathing this journal so that I may understand the Game we are caught up in, have I understood enough to allow the Love that is to shine onto the seen and unseen frequencies/worlds within Hell? We are approaching the edge of the cliff – it is getting closer. The catastrophe that has been planned for us is on the horizon. What plays with us is not Human. As we do not look twice at the animals in the slaughter trucks on their way to be slaughtered, so to do these Beasts have no empathy for us and our loved ones. Like attracts like, and that is why as hard as we push and shove to get these bastards away from us, we are inextricably intertwined with them. We are them, and they are us. That is why it was vital to understand how we got in this mess in the first place so that we may rise above it and be what we are meant to be. I understand why people do not like Steven. If I met him I would also not like him. This was the “old” me I am talking about. I grew up, and every day I try and be a better person than what I was yesterday. I want to be better than what I am, as my time here is short, so while I am here I want to learn to laugh and be happy – to live a care-free existence. But we are so small, and yet when we understand what we truly are, we understand we are Everything. May the time for talking and writing be over. May the Love that has been awakened shine on all of us, as we are all in this mess – those that are destroyed, and those that destroy. So be it. 16th January, 2020.
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