steven geldenhuys

Let’s talk about forgiveness. We were all thrown in the deep end, and none of us could swim, resulting in us making fools of ourselves. Looking back on my life, I made a fool of myself more often than not. If I had to do it all over again I wouldn’t. I would give the invite a miss – thanks, but no thanks; don’t know that place; not familiar with it; good chance of me stuffing up and making a right, royal idiot of myself. Unfortunately we were pushed into the situation; we didn’t have a choice, and what I knew would happen did – twats were made of ourselves left, right and centre as we went forwards through trial and error. To others like us, as well as to ourselves, forgiveness is a given as we all stuffed up whilst doing our best – it’s called being Human. Then we began to settle in and find our niche, and this is when things began to turn ugly. You see, when you stuff up others invariably get hurt in the process, and in truth there is no excuse for this as others have to be considered as we do not stay alone on an island, so what we do should always take others into consideration as they belong in the same space as us. The insanity of Life spawned from us doing the complete opposite of what we naturally are: the considerate became inconsiderate. But we are bigger than all of this, and to forgive a fool is easy as one pities a fool as the writing is on the wall for them, which all can see, except the fool. The forgiveness I am talking about is to forgive a Beast that destroyed you, where this vile act gave them pleasure. The self-esteem of this wasted space is so low they need the intoxicating high of seeing you destroyed, where now they are above you as you hide in your little hole with your heart and soul shattered into a billion pieces. How does one forgive such filth? Well, let me start by saying that forgiveness is easy, really it is. You say to the guilty party, either directly or indirectly, that you are bigger than them and thus forgive them, and then you move on. For most of us there is a clear cut line, where we either forgive or we don’t, and I believe that most of us do forgive, because to carry the burden of what was done to us as well as not forgive is too much. We throw the Beast out the basket as it is too much for us to carry. The danger is when we sit in the middle, where we forgive, but at the same time seize every opportunity to remind those what they done to us, because truly, it was horrific. We throw it in their faces what they are so they may understand the monster they are, because only a monster does what they done. And this is the only coping mechanism we have, where we say “look at what you done to me.” This is not forgiveness, because forgiveness means we get up and get on with Life, and to show the monster the scars it inflicted upon you is not getting on with Life. So how do these victims forgive? Of course there are often two sides to a story, as we are all not perfect, but because you are a fool doing your best, nothing gives another the right to destroy you. (Just remember, I am taking it one further, where those that destroy enjoy destroying, and this is not deep stuff as in those from the shadows or dystopic secret societies – it can be something as plain and simple as one such as my wife.) How do you forgive a tyrant that destroys you because they feed from the high of seeing you in the low? For me, such forgiveness is not possible as there is no reasonable answer to explain insanity, because to get a thrill from destroying another one has to be insane. This I accept, that one cannot truly forgive what was done as the act crossed the line to savagery and barbarism, but where too from there? I refuse to spend the rest of my life being miserable for what was done to me. (The logical step, which everyone takes, is divorce, as what one seldom sees one soon forgets about, and this makes sense, as why be around others that enjoyed destroying you.) But surely there has to be another answer, and for me, that answer is to heal what was done to you. This healing comes from one that is bigger than us, and whom this is, is our spirit as it sheds away the old so that it may reveal what it naturally is. How do you forgive a Beast? – By removing the pain that the Beast inflicted upon you. Your spirit lets go of the bad, as well as the good – all that was done to it. Just let go. Don’t try and figure things out as there is no answer/understanding to insanity.

It is too the spirit one has to turn to transform. Over the ages the spirit has formed an identity – it has defined itself – and this definition needs to be undone. I am not this Steven, and neither are you your name or identity. When the spirit was created, it was to be a sphere to accommodate and care for the Serpent soul – this child of God/Semiramis. The spirit was beautiful beyond, but as the illusion became more dense, and the spirit had to dig in deeper for survival, the spirit found its niche by forming an identity, as in “In this chaos, this is who I am and stand for.” Well that is absolute bollocks, because you remain what you are and not what the illusion makes you to be so that you may do your best to fit in. When I look at some in our world, I see beauty, but this beauty is beyond the body and their spirit. What I see is a remnant of their spirit the way it should be, and what this is, is something that words cannot describe. What I see merely is. In our limited capacity we want to give this is’ness a hug, where we hold it forever, but rather don’t interact with this state – rather stand back and be it, as this is what you are. Don’t look for hero’s or role models – start being what you are. The attacks on me are throwing me for a six – it takes a few days to recover from them now. What I need now is what I have always wanted, namely to rest and be at peace by knowing the glow of Infinite Love is bathed upon me, where no matter what, I will be okay. To sleep and to be awake and to be at peace the spirit has to cave in on itself where it loses its identity. Last night in my sleep state I saw through my Third Eye how this lady and her son came on their motorbike to stand guard over me as I was down and out. This lady had a knife, and she told me that she had already killed eleven with it. When the coast was all clear, the two of them got on their motorbike and road off as they knew I would be okay for the night. The more dense the spirit becomes, the more it becomes like the body form, where it too begins to bleed or die, as we see the spirit as a solid form. This we stop doing now. We reverse the process by understanding we go back to what we originally were, which is this sphere of light. How the spirit does this reversal is by stop giving attention to what is around it. Yesterday I paid for what I bought with a card machine. The machine did not work, meaning I could not take what I bought. What I done was stare more intently at the machine, trying to figure out what was wrong with it. Something within me was aware of this intensity that we gave to the illusion, and it said back off and stop giving so much attention to the problem. The more intent we are, the more we give attention to the illusion, and the more we define ourselves. Back off and let go. Lose what you are as you unravel to be what you were created to be. 10th May, 2022

Yesterday evening what I asked others to do to themselves I done to myself. I went into the stillness of the silence and removed all beings from my forms. I cannot help anybody unless I first help myself. And when I want to help, as in I can help, I send those Home to the Infinite rather than them shacking up in my space. It took three sessions totaling about half an hour to dismiss all, including the parasitic frequency of Deception. I stress that what was released from the space of the spirit were others that were compatible to me, as in like attracts like. They were friends having a hard time like me – birds of a feather that flocked together. They got on with their existence and me with mine, but we were bonded by being in the same space as this gave us a sense of security and grounding. So I may have forgotten about them and they of me, but this bond still remained – that lifeline that is always there when one cares about another. From there went to sleep, and through the night felt parts of my body and spirit having this electric heat to them. As I lay in deep sleep I wondered what this was all about. What it was, was a buildup to what was coming. They must have used some device from their frequency/world that shocked my body, spirit and Serpent soul within. There I was lying in bed, and the next thing my body forms jerked upwards and were held in that suspensory state while this disharmonious electricity coursed through me for about five seconds. It filled all my forms to the point where I saw this static electricity as it coursed through me. I also saw the faces of the two who were at the other end administering this shock to me. Their intent must have been to separate the body, spirit and Serpent soul where they were not working as one, meaning our natural defenses were down. I say this because throughout the night dreams were implanted and there was all this activity around me. Now they could dig in and do with me what they want. Shame. What a bunch of sillies. The more they attack the stronger I get and the further they drift from what they naturally are. The days of playing games are coming to an end boys and girls. If you don’t know this by now then you will soon find out, and then where is it from there? When you see what you have become and what you have done what will you do? The only way out of your corner is to face yourself and what you have done. My goodness, what a place to be. My advice is lose the self-hate and loathing asap and then get on with making a wrong right by tracing back your steps so that you may understand where it started going pear-shaped. Only understanding will get you through – self-destroying won’t.

Within the illusion there is intent. Either your intent is good or bad. You might say that many are on the fence, where they don’t really care, well that makes them just plain useless, giving them a bad intent. Now here is the thing: We are all inherently good, where we can be bad, but after a while we say “this isn’t me; I might not know how to stop, but what I do is not me as it is not right.” There is the Beast in the seen and unseen that are what they are, but this is the exception rather than the rule. So by being inherently good, the illusion should have steered towards the Infinite, as this is the next logical step to what we inherently are. All of this makes common sense, because the saying that “Love conquers all” is the truth. What the parasitic frequency of Deception done was throw the above-mentioned hypothesis out the window and created a whole new super-structure, which for me, is the ultimate cruelty, where Life is held in suspension, where we neither destruct or construct. We just be, neither progressing nor regressing in terms of where we are and where we should be. We could have fucked up, but our inherent goodness would have swinged us onto the right path again, rather we remained suspended in mid-air going nowhere. When Queen Semiramis saw what The Wisdom Goddess Sophia created for the Dragon spirits, she too wanted such a beautiful place, so she imagined the illusionary Garden. It was merely an observation of “that is beautiful, I shall also create such a wonder,” where there was no jealousy or competing with the Jones’. The curiosity of the Dragon and Serpent spirits (as such an illusion was never created within the infinite) got the better of many and they entered the illusion, and this unknown state of curiosity took on a form to be what we would call a worm. I call this worm a parasite as none were the wiser to it, where this worm took to take, but the most important factor was that the frequency of this worm rubbed off of those whom it infiltrated, where they too wanted to take. So now we get back to intent. You eventually see who has good or bad intent, and that determines the way the cookie will crumble – either we construct, as in become highly evolved, or we destruct, where we become brutes that allow pleasure to consume us, either through what we eat or what flavour we take on to shoot our bolt. But what if there is one within the illusion that truly has no intent – it is what it is as it was created this way and knew of no other way besides being what it is? What this entity does, is in enters the illusion and hold this mirage into a fixed form, where the illusion now is what it is, where there is no other but this frequency state. Now the ball doesn’t roll up or down – it just stays in a suspensory state, so no matter how hard you want to push to be better than what you are, you stay still in a fixed position. This is not entirely true, as within this illusion the ball has to roll, as in movement has to take place, as that is what particles/frequencies do – they move. Within this movement the Reptilian frequency took centre stage, and that is why the cruel are the powerful – why in this place Love does not conquer all. The breakthrough for me was seeing an act of Love/Consideration, where a being that looked like a rhino tucked in one she loved within the space of my spirit and body form. The Consideration of this rhino-looking lady from another world made me understand that the unconditional Love of the spirit allows others to dwell within its space. This explains why we never sussed the parasite within us, because within our space there were others that dwelled, with no questions asked from our side, because Love is what it is – it is Considerate. When you go minimalistic and keep the bare minimum you know what is in your home/space, but with others in the room you no longer focus on the finer details. So when I went into the space of Sophia and Semiramis earlier, it was to remove those within their space so that they may just be them and themselves. What was felt after a short period of time was this mass; this presence within and behind their left eye. This was the parasitic frequency of Deception that suspended these two omnipotent forces within the illusion, making the illusion be suspended within the Infinite. This parasite departed their forms through the left side of their upper head, so that it may return to the place from where it arose, namely the fields of Infinite Love. Now that state of curiosity that arose within the Infinite could return to the Infinite. And what answer did it find within the illusion where it took on form? The answer was “Infinite Love is the only Truth; everything else is an illusion.” In other words, the Infinite is everything and there is nothing else. This understanding of the parasite within removes the parasite from the illusion – the frequency that kept us suspended, going nowhere. You see, to speak of something means nothing unless you know of what you are speaking about. In feeling the parasite within them, Sophia and Semiramis could remove it with Love to Love. May we now no longer want.

hi. my feeling over the years was that the spirit of the species of the Human race have a unifying bond. (I cannot speak on behalf of other species out there.) deep down we understand that we are all in this together, but a truth that we fail to acknowledge, as we dont have the answer to, is why are we regressing instead of progressing? why after all this time cant we get it right? when i asked why Life is so cruel, the answer to the question was the opening of my Third Eye to see what is, without the fancy paper wrappings. what i see is real, as in it has a direct impact on our existence, and this impact is there because we are not aware of how we are being played. when i saw this entity tuck her husband into my space so that he can get better, my spirit never flinched by having this ogre in my space, and that is why i maintain that on the spirit level there is much love, but the disaster is that this love means nothing with understanding. we stand as one, and without knowing the truth, we fall as one, where nobody wins, regardless how strong is our love. this "come into my house - all are welcome" i took as a figurative unification, and for the life of me i never knew it to be literal. if this i never saw with my own eyes i would never have guessed we house others within our space. my question is how must it look when we interact with the frequencies around us? how does the illusion really look with us in it? i dont think that what i see is my shadow projections, but am open to being wrong. i see the active particiapants that rule us from the shadows. what is out there is mind-boggling, and it cannot carry on doing what it has always done. these fools that hold on to their beliefs that i encounter whose sole purpose is to destroy me are so filled with insanity they cant even see what is good for them. that i am fucked up i have no doubt. that i am spectacular i also have no doubt - as are all those going about their business doing their best to make this world a better place. that the spirit realm within the illusion is transforming i have no doubt, as i see what i see because more than anything i need to understand the truth. my advice to others is dont take to heart what you hear. the truth has to be your truth and not mine or someone else's. just dont be afraid of the unknown, and how this fear is overcome is by steadfastly finding what you are and where you belong, where everything else is irrelevant, especially these fools that tried to destroy.

We imagine ourselves to be centre of the universe, with some level of intelligence. Let me tell you about my day and night that I had yesterday. Was mowing the grass yesterday afternoon, when now and then, from the corner of my eye, would see a spirit standing in the garden. This spirit stood as a pillar, as in its presence was there for a purpose. Then yesterday evening I was sitting on the couch and I felt my heart beating at a faster pace, and there was a lightness within my abdominal cavity. Went to bed exhausted, and during the night, while I was sleeping face down, I saw this Snake slithering just above me – it was moving around me all the time. I found it strange that the tail of this Snake was not pointed, rather it ended in a round bulb. Turned on my back to see what was going on, and through my Third Eye I saw the face of a Human-looking male that was about 30cm from my face. This was a cruel, nasty man, and he was giving a scathing verbal attack, but what I found unusual was that he was not talking to me, rather he was looking just to the left of me and talking to someone there. Then this piece of shit disappeared and I saw a spirit that I find hard to describe. Take the face of a rhino, without the horn, and indent the face with the ears protruding at the top of the head, and you have a general idea. What was most telling about this spirit was her level of distress. I saw her stand next to me looking super-worried, and then I saw what she was worried about, and to whom the nasty man threw his tantrum at. As my head lay on my pillow, to the left of my head was the face of a male looking rhino. The face of this spirit had a long square snout. This dude was down and out, and was seeking refuge within me. When I sat on the couch and felt that strangeness within me – this was this entity that was already within me finding solace. So there I was, lying in bed sleeping, watching this spirit standing next to me is severe distress as she comforted this spirit that was half within me that was injured in some way or the other. With her one hand, she pushed and pushed and pushed, and then I understood that she was pushing her husband into the layers of my body forms so that he could be snug within me. Before she done this, I saw how they kissed each other – the love between these two was something special to witness. While this whole scene was being played out next to my bed, I saw these eyes behind these spirits that were looking at them from the shadows. It was just two eyes slanted upwards with a glow within them. Cruel, sinister eyes, finding the joy of a plan that came together where two parties were fighting and destroying each other. And here I sit on my couch writing these words, wondering what will come of my life in this day and years to come, while others in the seen and unseen are holding on for survival as they are attacked by cruel entities. What I am trying to say is that the illusion is in a mess. What a shocker when I found out that many species will fight with everything they have to remain in this cruel, false existence. That is how the illusion has fallen, where we like a fight, where we destroy and suppress. By “we,” I imply many races within the illusion. And here we were, thinking it was just us, and maybe a few aliens here and there in their flying objects. The illusion is teeming with different life-forms, and from what I saw last night, there are those that have it worse than us. Shame, and there was Steven holding his hand in the air saying “here we are, come and help us please,” not understanding the enormity and complexity of what is going on out there. Actually, it is not complex, it is just stupid beyond. Sophia and Semiramis have work to do, which will be done. As I sit here, is there still a spirit finding solace within the layers of my illusionary forms. Yes. And we thought it was just about us. Wow. How little do I know. What I do know, however, is that there is something bigger than all this mess, and that something is me and you and all out there that express and are their inherent goodness. The only thing we lacked was guidance as we found ourselves alone as Sophia and Semiramis; these masses of everything, found themselves floored by the density and insanity of the illusion. If this journal has done one thing, it has set them free through understanding, where the layers were peeled back so that they may remember what happened to them and what they are. Somewhere during the goings on of last night I asked to be shown what I am – what we all are. What I felt and saw was the presence of a white horse that moved past me. Its left shoulder area brushed against me – that is all that I saw of this horse, but what was felt from this spirits presence was the answer to the question of what we are. From this horses presence a power filled me so that we may understand what we are compared to what we have been so used to. This omnipotent presence is the basic from where we should be – this is where we need to bounce up to. So when you go into the stillness of the silence, understand there may be others within your space, that maybe are passing through finding solace/healing in you, or have been there for a long time and are a lost spirit that don’t know where to go and what to do. In the stillness of the silence, where you just be, understand that your space needs to be filled with an omnipotent power, otherwise we are a dead-celled battery. Know what is normal and abnormal. Know that the illusion is teeming with life that we could never in wildest dreams have imagined. Know that through all of this emotional hatred that is found everywhere, that this shit will come to pass. Layer for layer, this insanity will be peeled away to reveal the Truth – that there is only Infinite Love and nothing else.

You take the illusion and place it within you. Now you are everything, as everything is within and without you. You are now master of everything, and as you are still wet behind the ears, as in you know nothing, the Infinite that is within and without and everywhere guides you as you merely be. This is your natural state, where everything is you and you are everything. That is the only way you will ever be free of the illusion – where you make it your own. 5/5/2022

Live within, meaning tell the spirit to look within to the Infinite and the Serpent soul, rather than looking without to the illusion. Everything you see without you take within so that you may play with the illusion rather than be a spectator. Now you are master; now you are no longer a slave. There is no more advice I can give. Now you and I are in God’s hands. Just remember to always keep your side clean. Be kind. This is a natural state.

What is the mind; what are our thoughts? What we hear is the confused state of the spirit as it tries to make sense of the frequency/world in which it finds itself as it drives the body vehicle. Those on this side of the Reptilian frequency find a niche where they may slot into this frequency/world and go with the flow. Life can be shit and tough, but that’s Life, and these spirits and their body forms are often the unfortunate ones, because as they do their best, they imagine that everyone else is doing the same, and the harsh reality of what Life is can often scar these good people and their spirits irrevocably. Then there are those that see the rotten/bad streak within Life and ride this opportunistic wave to make headway in this frequency world. Walk over the innocent, either subtly or bombastically – it doesn’t really matter, as the end results are the same. With spirit one, where there was confusion at the insanity of Life as they done their best, spirit two half begins to accept this insanity, as it works to get them ahead. Yes, in the short term it works like a bomb as you mow across the masses and reach the top, but what you never knew is that you are now one step towards the downward spiral of the Reptilian frequency. Spirit one may be knocked and be down and out, but spirit two is being drawn into a whirlpool that drives them to the shadows. Spirit three is content with Life and does not want to reach the stars and conquer the world of sport or business or whatever – they are happy with going with the flow. The difference between them and spirit one is they don’t become confused by the insanity/unjust cruelty of Life, rather they accept this and also become unjust and cruel. These are the many out there, where the more insane they become, the crueler they are, until the spirit loses itself completely and just wanders. What is left is a raw savage that has lost its spirit. What protects us from such Beasts is that many don't know if they are Artha or Martha - they are totally out of it. Spirit one ends up captive/controlled by those from the shadows. Spirit two crosses over and embraces the Reptilian frequency. If there is a Serpent soul within the spirit, this Serpent soul takes on the cruelty of the spirit and devours/eats the spirit. I believe that not all species have a Serpent soul within, but am open to being wrong in saying this. I say this because the pack of Beasts I saw last night in my sleep state were scavengers and hunters of the illusion that hunted from the shadows. We the spirit of the Human race were tasked to look after the Serpent soul “children” of Semiramis, and our gift/power to do so was our good hearts/Consideration. We were being sent to a paradise when there must have been a major shift/cataclysm within the illusion. Either this shift occurred, or we were intercepted/captured to be a food source to those from a different dimension of the illusion. Thus I feel that not all the manufactured species within the illusion have Gods children within, meaning that Snakes do not overwhelmingly inhabit other dimensions as they do ours. Who control at the upper echelons of the illusion? I would say there is no kingpin/boss. Semiramis done her best to maintain order out of the chaos – she done her best to get things right, but as insanity and a lust for power took her over, there was no stopping the runaway train. In terms of absolute might, she was the queen bee, but the actual power was in the hands of the indifferent parasitic frequency of Deception as it took and festered, turning most insane as they also began to want. So that voice in your head is your spirit that is trying to make sense of, as well as fit into a frequency where it doesn’t belong. Thus all the reasoning through life-coaches or books won’t help in the long term, as the spirit needs to understand who and what it is. We know the original role of our spirit – to look after the Serpent soul within, but what we don’t know is what the spirit was like in its true/original form. The spirit takes this question and places it within the Infinite that is within the spirit: “What am I meant to be so that I can be what I am?” The answer will reveal itself, and until it does, the spirit remains within the stillness of the heart energy field as it understands that the answer cannot be found within the frequency of the illusion. There is too much chaos there now. We know what is within us; this Infinite, and to this we will turn for an answer.

As you and I eat, so too do those from the shadows eat. We eat of others, just as they eat of us. The implanted dream was of me riding a bicycle, doing competitive training against a few others. The road had potholes, and this was the only similarity to this world, as the ones who implanted the dream were of another world and thus used an element of their imagination to weave together the story/dream. My body form was lying on its side as my spirit and Serpent soul pulled themselves out of the trance/dream they had just given attention/energy to. I saw the pack of Beasts that were around my wife, taking of her energy as they were busy doing with mine. The leader of the pack was a Human looking female with short black hair. She was shouting orders to the pack when she looked at me and saw that I could see her. Not knowing what to do or say, she just looked down. It was then that I saw her Human-looking features transform to that to the pack around her. They were Beasts on four legs and their facial features were unknown to us – between maybe a fox and a wolf. What stood out were their sharp teeth and this embedded growl within their look and demeanor. Whoever this female pack leader was in her world, she decided to cross over and embrace the Reptilian frequency of the illusion to be one with those that ruled from the shadows around the world she occupied. In her mind’s eye she still looks as she did when she dwelled amongst her own, but the reality is that by her crossing over to become a Beast, she becomes one of them to the point where what she looked like is even no more. She imagines herself to be female looking, thus when I initially saw her I saw what she would like to think she is, but when I saw her with her façade dropped, she looked just like the Beasts that she had crossed over to become. Let this be a warning to all of us: It is so easy to embrace the ways of a savage, but beware of the consequences – you lose your spirit and soul and your integrity. As David Icke says: Never give up. So I looked at this charade in front of me, where these Beasts were sweeping across the path of my wife and I, implanting a dream and taking of our energy, and of course I could not be upset with them, as we do the same, albeit a billion times worse. We take and kill a living organism/animal, leaving behind a trail of fear and blood. And yet, is this what these Beasts seek when they feed from us – this essence of terror? I imagine so. So I lay there, looking at these Beasts, seeing the wind being knocked out their sails as they had been caught red-handed. I told this one Beast to give the energy he was holding in his hand back to my wife, which he did by throwing it back into her forms. Then I asked a question: “What needs to happen to me so that I may stop feeding from others so that others may stop feeding from me?” I took this question and placed it within the Infinite located within at my chest area. From there I done nothing – I was just in a state of being as I felt changes within my body, primarily the head area. Now here is the deal: When you ask such questions to transform the spirit to what it was originally meant to be, you embrace the answer in its entirety. It’s all or nothing. As you humbly ask, so too do you humbly receive, and when you receive, give thanks for what you have received. How I would love to be within the frequency of Consideration, which I believe is the planet/frequency that was created for us before mission control decided to dumb us down to be a food source. We took, and what we took others took from us. We were just the middle-man/woman as we sent the animals to the slaughter houses. Just as animals feed us, we feed Beasts from the shadows, but the big picture is that our fear and uncertainty feeds the destructive/negative force that fills the illusion. All of this shit; this negativity, you now swing around when you see a wrong and you ask a question so that it may be made right, where there is a win-win for all. This question you pass on to the Infinite within and the answer/transformation will come to the spirit so that it may find peace and what it was initially manufactured to be. With all the confusion gone we may enter a different realm on our way Home. This is how the spirit grows, where it understands that within it is the potential to make a wrong right, where there is a win-win for all, meaning the spirit and what it interacts with flourish. Now the spirit is on the path to living its full potential. What this is, only the Infinite knows as we have forgotten what we are.

Tomorrow marks two occasions. The first is that it would have been my mom’s birthday. As long as I can remember, she worked six days a week. From an early age Life fucked her up with the death of her father when she was three, and the subsequent step-fathers into her life that were monsters to say the least. She became a figure from circumstances, meaning that she was a mothers arse to me. Life and work got the better of her, but through all of that there was one light that shone the brightest, namely that she wanted only the best for me. She never had the time or know-how to apply what she felt with her whole being, so although she laid no foundation and was not there for me, that she cared I am thankful. This caring left no life-skills for me to grab onto and make my own, but I understand she tried her best in a world that rattled her throughout her whole life. So happy birthday for tomorrow mom! The second occasion is that this journal is eight years and three months old tomorrow. I have never written from eight till five every day over this time period, but what has happened, is that every fibre of my being has lived for the answer to the question “What more needs to be understood to be free from the illusion?” The answers to this question have consumed me over the last ninety nine months, where I have not lived but rather been a student. What I have learnt I have passed on to the spirit realm, and those that have come in the night during my sleep state is testament that the frequency of this journal has spread far and wide within the illusion. I have rocked the boat, and the many ritualistic attacks on me by beings in different worlds are testimony that many species are afraid to see what they have become, so shut up Steven so that we may carry on doing what we have always done and have a good night’s sleep as well. To be fair to these Beasts, they are merely surviving, but the acceptance of who and what they are puzzles me, for why did they never seek to better themselves, where it a win-win situation for all? This question we the Human race needs to also answer big time, because when you take and destroy and are nasty because you can, the road ends sooner or later, and then there is nothing more to be destroyed besides ourselves. Talk about poor, long-term strategic management. The question we should have asked at the very beginning when we found ourselves a slave species is “how can all benefit; where it is a win-win for all?” This template would have taken the focus away from “me” to “we” and the Life we know of now would not exist. I have said it so often that this journal is finished, only to prove myself wrong, that I am no longer embarrassed by my error. If it means keep going to find something else we didn’t know of, then so be it. My wife has always said that only I can decide when this journal is over, and yet how is this possible when I know nothing, where the Truth has to be shown to me so that I may understand? This was always my logical answer to her, and yet she is correct, as I started the journal so only I can finish it. This means Steven has to step out into the world and start living. This I will do on one condition – that my days of living amongst seen and unseen Beasts are over. I am not going to hire a nanny or body-guard, rather what I will do is pass on an understanding that I understand cruel Beasts and choose to no longer have anything to do with them. By living, I choose to apply what the animals taught me throughout this journal. I choose to be natural; I choose to be Love; and I choose to have only this state around me and nothing else. We need to stop surviving and start living, where we rise above this mess and go forwards Homewards bound. Our God now has Love and not a twisted Love, but we need to do our part and live in the presence of this God, namely within the stillness of the heart energy field whenever we can. This state must become our new normal should we wish to depart the illusion. Tomorrow marks the day when I begin to live – where I am no longer a student, but a participant in Life living what the animals have taught us. This departure from Beasts by knowing they exist and wanting nothing to do with them marks the great shift within the illusion, where those continue their decimation as they fall denser into Hell, and others rise up to be what they naturally are. The days of sitting on the fence and going with the flow are over, so my advice is choose before Life chooses for you. It costs nothing to be kind to yourself and others, and that is the first step back Home. Embrace the God within - you are no longer alone, as within you is the Infinite. May tomorrow be a new beginning for us all. It will be, as this is my choice.

That we are all inherently good is what I believe. That many of us have been dumbed down to be stupid, ignorant, self-centered trailer-trash is what I also believe. That we have been infiltrated, limited and used as a slave species is what I believe. What I also believe is that the days of doing what you want when you want because you can are over. Beasts will now be accountable for their actions from their twisted minds. When they see Love they will see what they became. That the innocent had to suffer is unforgiveable. Did they really think their Game could last forever? Now it is no longer about what I believe. Now the Truth shall set us free, for it is out there for all to see. Now there is no shadow to hide behind, for now we see ourselves. May God have mercy on these Beasts that allowed insanity to take them over, where destroying was embraced as the norm. I would no longer like to write in this journal, as I feel enough has been said. No longer writing about what comes in the night as I no longer have an interest in that. So where too from here? Do I leave those in the spirit realm hanging from a thread? The other day I helped a young lady who was being parasited from by those in the seen and unseen. A flicker of life returned to her, and I was asked to write something for her so that this light may become stronger. “What I would like to achieve every day for myself is to lead a spectacular life. Yesterday I watched my grade 7 daughter play a netball match. When the one girl in her team threw a goal her whole face and being lit up. To see that, for me, was spectacular. To be spectacular is natural. The flip side of the coin is there are Beasts in the unseen realms that are unnatural. These entities thrive on sorrow and hatred. They are energy parasites, and I understand them as my spirit sees them in my sleep state, and I feel and smell them when I go into the space of others to help. Because what these Beasts do is unnatural they have to work from the shadows so that they cannot be caught out. Their covertness is their power over us, and in many cases they work through Humans where we do their bidding, which creates nasty and unpleasant people. So to be spectacular one has to understand that these Beasts exist, and that our spectacular state is natural, and their cruelty is unnatural. This understanding removes this filth from our lives. Always live in the silence of the heart, as that is where the true God resides. If you think and analyse and are confused then you get drawn into a fight, where these Beasts will always win and destroy you as now you are playing in their game. Live from the heart so that others can see how spectacular you are, and for this they will be eternally grateful to you for showing them what it means to live.” May what is written in this journal be enough said for all, as I would like to stop writing and be spectacular. 1st May, 2022

Now it’s time to play Daddy and give a speech. If you want to be free of the illusion, then you have to do the complete opposite of what you have always done. When you go within and find nothing, then you have everything. When you go without you are within the illusion and you are played in a Game where you cannot win, because the Game is played by cruel Beasts, and it is their Game and not yours, so they will always win. By “win,” we imply they will destroy your spirit and body form and capture your Serpent soul. These entities from the shadows have taken their gloves off, and now they are fighting for their survival. They are hitting me, and they are hitting me hard. They are pulling me into their fight where I allow myself to give my attention to them. They are doing everything they can to survive in their illusion. My animals are also being taken out in the process. My dogs are in pain and find it difficult to breathe. This is from the psychic attacks that are destroying body and spirit. You listen to Daddy now you fuckers. You go within all the time, and when you have nothing; when you have stillness, then you have the nothing of the Infinite which is everything. If you do not have nothing, then you have an illusion wherein cruel Beasts reside that will take you out because they are holding onto all that they know, which is to be cruel, and besides, they like it there in this place that is not real. Go within and be everything. Go without into the illusion and you are a goner. Their gloves are off and they will hit you with everything they have and you will be destroyed. Stop reading and listening and start doing.

It’s just after four in the morning. Have been awake the last hour or so. Of all that has been experienced over the years in my sleep state, what came in this night was the most impressive. Twice a week Angela comes in to help clean our house. She is from Zimbabwe, and as with Earl and the god of Wrath and the animals, she is one I love dearly. I see her good heart and integrity and I see myself, and I am thankful that I am not the only one in my life to see the insanity around me and understand that this is not normal. The opening scene of the implanted dream during my sleep state a few hours back was of me sitting at a desk with an erection, and Angela standing next to me fuelling the erection on. Understand that as my body lay in bed sleeping, and my spirit and Serpent soul within followed this implanted dream/story, I felt the heightened electricity course through my forms by the want that lust invokes within us. The two of us moved to different settings, all the time spurring each other on to take the final step. From there I found myself in an elaborate hallway with beautiful wallpaper and paintings. From these structures a tiny dart was shot to me. The dart must have been about 4mm long and 1mm wide, so I could not see it – rather I had to sense it and then avoid it. So once again, my energies were acutely honed as I was shown this dream where I was the main actor. The next scene was of me being in a warehouse with different room settings. A group of people were there to attack me. In the first fight scene I used a set of colouring pencils to inflict harm on one of the assailants. From there I done an in the air cartwheel as I got into a rhythm were one by one these people were knocked out by me. Throughout the whole show the choreography was brilliant. Then I awoke from this most impressive display to see an idiot sitting in a wheelchair. You know those mirrors they had at the fun-fair, where you look into the mirror and it distorts your image, well this fool looked like he was seen through one of those mirrors. He opened his mouth to feed of the massive amounts of energy that had accumulated from me giving attention/energy to the implanted dream, and as I saw him open his mouth to eat, my whole being experienced a blackout. Now my body, spirit and Serpent soul within were as one in a state of being, where we do nothing but just be. When the fool opened his mouth to eat of my energy, that must have been the cue for those that implanted the dream, because then as one they attacked. Something within me must have sensed this because in the moment I went from being drawn into a highly provocative, to an intrigued state by all the action around me, to seeing an idiot, and then just being. I am telling you now that all the Beasts within the illusion attacked as one. My definition of a Beast is one who attacks without reason or logic. They attack because this is who and what they are. That is a Beast. I write what I write so that all may understand – that is the only reason why I write. What those in the spirit realm do with this understanding is their prerogative and not mine. I write with Love so that an understanding may be met as to why we do and say what does not make simple, basic, common sense, where if anything, what we are is downright nasty. Why would you attack just because you can? That does not make sense. When my forms blacked out after seeing the fool eat of my energy, in anticipation of the attack that had just commenced, what the attack was, was everything that has even been done to the spirit to harm or limit it was thrown at me all at once. It was an attack by all from everything that was ever done to the spirit, and during this bombardment all I could think of was how could they go so low as implant a sexuality between me and Angela. The attack was to destroy me for once and for all so that these Beasts could go about their usual business of attacking because they can. Now here is the thing: You cannot destroy me because I am natural – I am what is real within an illusion. You cannot destroy what is. From the outset of this journal it has been stated there can never be a “them versus us.” We are in this shit together – the only difference is what are we as individuals going to do about it? From all those Beasts that attacked me a few hours ago, their answer is “nothing,” and this I respect as it was never about me versus the big, bad, cruel world. Yes, Life made me bitter, but I never wanted to attack, rather I needed to understand. So my departure from this part of the illusion where it is free-for-all thanks to a lack of understanding in terms of who we are and what happened to us; this departure was to be “let’s leave on a blank slate so that we may start anew.” There was to be no “I told you so” or “just wait and see what happens to you.” I am not like that, because deep down I have respect for all. I know when my words mean nothing as they fall on the ears of fools that are comfortable in their own skin, and to this filth I leave them be, but across the board I wrote for all within the illusion so that this understanding is a frequency that is out there that can be tapped into when the fool sees the filth they have become and wish to do something about it. My departure was to be smooth and transitional, but after the attack that came my way, now everything has changed. When you hit someone and they don’t go down or even flinch, what you threw at them boomerangs back at you. In the moment you understand the problem is with you and not them. Now a conscience is born within you, and this changes everything, because whereas in the past where you attacked just to attack, from now on every attack is coupled with a conscience, meaning you stop and reflect what you are doing rather than just doing it. This journal was for me and all who wished to understand why Life is so cruel. I believe I have seen and understood enough to walk away understanding why this is so, and for this I am eternally grateful. It means nothing that only I understand, so what I came to understand by seeing the unseen was passed to all within the ethers of the spirit realm of the illusion, especially to those who could once again rise to help all. This I have done. The final attack on me created a circumstance where Beasts finally understood what it means to have a conscience. You CANNOT do what you do because it is cruel. This I never taught them – this they taught to themselves where what they done, what they have always done, came back to hit them in the face and wake them up. Now they have a conscience, and because of that the illusion will never be the same again.

In my sleep state last night my spirit found itself on the coach of a train. This coach represented everything the spirit had accumulated over its existence. I was departing this coach, and I went through the things that were stored there. I distinctly remember the spirit looking at these priceless possessions, wondering how could it leave such gems behind. The spirit showed someone beautiful ornate cutlery and crockery that belonged to my spirit, saying “look, how can we leave behind such beautiful objects?” Whether these objects that I saw were real objects, or symbolic of Life lessons/understandings that were accumulated within the illusion, I don’t know. What I did well know was that the spirit was leaving all of this behind to start anew. Never for the life of me did I think this would happen, where the spirit moves to a place where it belongs within the illusion, and yet this makes simple, basic, common sense. You move to where you belong/fit in, where you can express who and what you are, namely this Consideration for others and yourself. Doesn’t that make common sense? As long as you are plugged randomly into the illusion, you are game to those that feed and live on Disharmony. Now, through the understanding of who and what you are, and what the illusion represents, you create an existence for the spirit where it belongs. My guess is that this frequency/world already exists – we just go there with our entry ticket of our gift of Consideration. This gets you through the door to where you belong. As a healer this I never knew – that as long as the spirit is randomly plugged into the frequency of the illusion it and the body form can never heal, as other elements/entities that do not wish us well are at play. Plug the spirit into a frequency that is made for the spirit and all heal and flourish – body, spirit and Serpent soul. On us the dense physical body and our existence, what happens now is that this frequency where the spirit belongs superimposes the one we are in and transforms our dense frequency. How this transformation happens is the frequency of Consideration takes over the dense frequency in which you found yourself as this is the one you choose to be plugged into/affiliated with. Now there is a shift from where you were to where you should be, and we stress that the primary change happens on the spirit and Serpent soul level. I write for the spirit and not us the body form, because to transform the body form the spirit transforms first. (That is a complex way of saying what will happen to us the body form I don’t know – let’s just wait and see.) There is a world/frequency waiting for the spirit, and for this I am most thankful. I always reached for the stars – looking for a gateway to the Infinite. I never knew the spirit had to be first one with itself and where it belongs before this leap into the Infinite that is everywhere it taken. I told you I know nothing.

The gift that was bestowed upon our spirit when it was created/manufactured was the gift of Consideration. Because I consider/care about you, so would you call me a good person with a good heart, but this is naturally what I am – what we all are. When you are a considerate person, you understand that to be in a position to express your gift, you must be okay. So you understand that as long as your God-given gift is expressed, you will always be cared for and be okay, as this is what you naturally are. The trick is to now find a place where you naturally belong. The parasitic frequency of Deception that arose from the curiosity of the Dragon and Serpent spirits within the Infinite that took form as a parasite within the illusionary Garden fucked everything up. From being and expressing their imagination within the Infinite, the Dragons and Serpent spirits developed a want, as in I want that so am going to take it. It’s mine! What made this want worse was that it was hidden within them – this unknown state – so when it showed itself it was explosive and nasty. Of course things had to come to a head, where there was a cataclysm. The Serpent and Dragon spirits fell into a slumber by being knocked out by the density into which they fell, and of course Sophia and Semiramis followed suit to try and do damage control. The spirit was created – that’s you and me – to house the Serpent soul children of God/Queen Semiramis. It has been said that during a fall there was a battle between the Serpent and Dragon souls, and the Serpent souls obviously got the upper hand as the illusion in the unseen is populated by Snakes. What I don’t know is what happened to the Dragon souls. On a few occasions I have heard their calls of help from deep within, but over the years in seeing the unseen I have never seen a Dragon soul. This means that either they are “dead and buried” or are one with the Dragon spirits within the Infinite. I have not been the only one looking for a way back Home, so maybe someone found a way back Home for these entities. My focus has been to neutralize cruelty so that we have a fighting chance of being what we are meant to be as we return to the fields of Infinite Love. Obviously many like it here – this helter-skelter insane illusionary frequency. Those that don’t like it here are so destroyed on all levels that they don’t really have a voice – their focus is to get through each day. What I am trying to say is that I don’t have time for in-house fighting. I am writing a journal for me that I am giving to all within the unseen so that they may understand what they are and where they truly belong. I seek the truth for me so that I may be what I am meant to be. That is all I ask: To be what I am meant to be, which gets us back to the spirit with its gift of Consideration. Can you imagine a world where we considered others, and it was not just about me, me and me? If we considered, this world would not exist – we would be dwelling in a completely different place, and it is to that place that I intend to walk in on my path to the fields of Infinite Love. You want to play it mean; play it dirty, where you want me to follow your way because you are right and have no interest in what is best for me, then you are no longer a part of my existence. I choose to be what I was manufactured to be – a spirit that has a gift of Consideration. You don’t know me, and I don’t know you, but I know myself and what I choose to be. I am a considerate person and spirit. That I have not found another like me is maybe the sign of the times, where it is every spirit for themselves, or maybe I have been too engrossed in finding the truth that I have never truly lived and seen what else is out there. Well now I intend to live. I will be what I am meant to be – a spirit of Consideration. I will consider this Serpent soul within me, and this soul will consider me the spirit and body form. Where too from there I don’t know. What I do know is the frequency where others don’t want to rock the boat or they feel they need to impose their will on others, that frequency is no longer a part of my existence. I have no interest in them, as much as they do in me where they understand that their insanity may just not be the norm. To these entities in the seen and unseen I leave be, and the word out to Semiramis and Sophia is that these warped entities leave me be. I write for me, so that all may be free, and if they don’t like what I write then leave me be. The place to wherein I walk is the frequency of Consideration. This Steven cannot go and save every innocent spirit and physical being out there, but what I can do is make the spirit know itself, and by the spirit being itself, it creates or is drawn to an existence that is compatible to it. In this frequency my spirit will dwell – devoid of Beasts and finger-pointers, as they are not compatible to this frequency. Now when I go into the stillness of the Silence, or when my body form goes to sleep in the evening, it is too this place that my spirit goes and is safe and content and at peace, because I am amongst those that consider, even if it means that I am there alone. This is my haven as this is where I belong because I am in the frequency of Consideration. To this place the innocent spirits will flock, and when their body form dies they will not be reborn into an insane asylum, but rather into a frequency that is a representation of the unseen Considerate frequency, which for me, is a stepping stone to the Infinite. You wish to unleash your latent DNA, and my question to you is ”for what?” – So that you can become a freak or a party-trick? To become what you are meant to be in the seen realm, first find a compatible frequency within the unseen so that with each passing moment the seen and unseen of this new or found frequency of Consideration become one. This is what I will do. What the plans of Semiramis and Sophia and the Infinite are, I don’t know. As I don’t know their plans, I will make my own, and who knows – maybe my plans are theirs. What I do know, is that I wrote for all. As much as I am saddened and vilified by how low we have fallen, where we see insanity and cruelty as the norm, I have written for all. Now I just choose to be the opposite of what I interact with during my wake and sleep state; now I choose to express what I was born to express – my consideration of “how are you; I walk with you; I am expressing what I am and am thus euphoric and at peace.” And through all of this waffle I promise you that I know nothing. The Serpent soul within needs to do some serious connecting to the strand of Consciousness within so that the new home of the spirit is now met. This home is for the innocent and the considerate. The days and nights of my spirit and soul dwelling amongst those that don’t express their gift of Consideration are over. What will happen to this lost, lonely fool called Steven? I don’t know. I will just always do my part and be considerate, especially to myself, because I also have a right to be happy. In seeing my gift others will see theirs.

Was sleeping rock-solid last night when I was awoken to this presence around me. Turned half on my side from a prone position to see what was going on. There were about two of them – female energy, and they had half an angelic feel to them. Now I was curious, so I turned completely over to lie on my back to see what was going on. By now I saw only one of these ethereal beings. She took something from somewhere within or by the side of her, and with her fingertips she placed this object into my face. And so it went – placing another one into my face, collecting another and inserting it into my face, and on and on it went. I felt each worm as it sucked itself into position within my spirits face. Then I saw her take handfuls of these parasites and throw them onto my face. Then she must have poured them over my eyes area, as I felt them form a band around my head. Can you believe it! The games they play. Now here is the thing: The power of Deception comes from others not being aware of what you are doing to them. Like a thief in the night you come and play your tricks on those that are none the wiser to your presence and wicked ways. This power is remarkable as you have entered the space of another to break and destroy them, or with the case of me last night – to make sure they remain in line and don’t break rank. But here is the rub: Your power is only effective as long as it is covert. When others find out what you have done it is game over – you are yesterday’s news, as are your wicked ways, in that they no longer work as all are now the wiser to them. Why do these beings do what they do? Maybe because they are told to do so, but surely the obvious is that if you limit others you are also limiting yourself? It doesn’t make sense. Why lock others and yourself up? The answer is that these entities don’t have the courage to admit to themselves what they are. How many of us can look in the mirror and face the Beast we have become? How many of us can say sorry to ourselves and others for what we have done? How many can make an about-turn and say let’s rather go Home? Why is it so difficult to walk away from everything you have ever known and been? I suppose because this is all we have ever known. This we understand, but how about building the courage to face something completely different that is completely natural. What we have done and where we have been is not us and what we should be doing. Look at the Beast staring back at you from the mirror, and when you don’t like what you see, in the moment it is no more. There is no time to feel sorry for ourselves – get up and make a wrong right by being what you naturally are, namely a being of Love. Now and then the old Steven comes through, where I fight myself and all Life, telling the world to leave me be. When this happens I don’t stop and analyze and over-think it – I just let it pass, and the following day I am okay. The Game has been sussed, thus the power of Deception is no more. To all those who think they are still playing, my advice is just let go; just be.

Thought it will be a good idea to fall asleep last night in prayer state, so I done so. A question came up – an obvious question: How were we turned into a slave species? Put another way: What turned off 95% of our DNA, where this DNA became latent/”junk?” The answer to this question came through a feeling rather than an understanding. (Remember that I am talking on the level of the spirit and not the body form. Hit/limit the spirit, and this blocks the Serpent soul from expanding/being, and of course the knock-on effect of the spirit being turned into a slave/limited being is that us the body form become savages/dummies.) To answer the question of how we were turned into a slave species, on the face of my spirit I felt a worm wriggling. It moved from my left nostril to the side of my jaw. You just want to scratch this itch as it moves around – an absolute awful feeling. Then from my right nostril down to the side of my face another long worm wriggled. And so it went – when the one stopped moving another would appear. As I felt this process move from my face area to the inside of my head, I had this sudden image of my spirit wearing a crown – I also felt this compressed form around my head as I saw it. The crown was not made of gold or thorns, but rather of frequency worms. That is how they suppressed us; that is how we became a slave species so that we may feed Beasts our energy; that is how our DNA/our “enlightenment” became latent and junk – “junk” as in it was no use to anybody now. This crown of frequency worms was manufactured to draw the energy from the spirit. They gauged to what level we would fall – be turned off – and the appropriate number of worms were placed within the head of the spirit to all but shut it down. We lived on a sliver – just barely – to feed Beasts our energy. Then I fell asleep as I lay in bed, and I was shown what happened as the spirit awoke after having this crown placed within it. The spirit looked through a small arched window out into a sky riddled with stars. I had the feeling we were being flown/transported somewhere, but I can be wrong. In the next scene I was out in the open in broad daylight. There were many people around me. It was the funniest thing – we walked around and around a structure. Eventually as one we walked – I think I recall it being in an anti-clockwise direction. In hindsight now, what this walking as one done was made sure that our programming/limitation sync as one where we are all the same. Within the first few months of beginning this journal – which is now over eight years ago – I wrote about upgrading our double-helix DNA to a triple-helix etc., where we begin to awaken our latent potential that we were initially all blessed with when the spirit was created. I never knew the full story then as to why our DNA was shut down, and I also never knew how to awaken our DNA – the spirits full potential. Now I know. You the spirit and body form go into the stillness of the silence where you just be – you do nothing, you just be, as the intent of this silence is already understood by the Serpent soul within. By knowing what the problem is, namely this crown of frequency worms, the Serpent soul removes these energy sapping parasites by knowing they exist and have no place within our space. But here is the deal, which the spirit knows all too well: The Serpent soul unleashes the potential of the spirit to what the spirit can handle. We don’t want the spirit and body forms going loco by absorbing too much that they cannot handle. Another deal that the Serpent soul understands is that what is expressed by the spirit and body form is the love of God that was bestowed upon us when we were created/manufactured. We were there initially to look after the Serpent soul, but now the Serpent soul looks after the spirit and body form. When the parasitic frequency of Deception was solidly ingrained within all within the illusion, what this frequency done to the Serpent soul within was create a temptation/desire. It too wanted the forbidden fruits of lust, greed, etc. So while the spirit and body form looked to survival within the dense illusion rather than looking after the one within we were tasked to care for, the Serpent soul within also had a new Dark agenda. It required balls of steel (on the male front) and the internal depth and beauty of the female species to hold onto our integrity and say “no.” Few could do this as our limitations prevented us from seeing and experiencing what else there is other than the desires of the flesh. So grow spirit – grow to what you were manufactured to be. We speak to all within the illusion, and not just us the slave species. Those that have the tapped potential to be what they are, release the parasitic frequency of Deception within and allow the strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness to take you over. Then just be within the fields of the Infinite.

That is why we never stood a snowballs chance in Hell – the density of the illusion; the parasitic frequency of Deception; the manipulation/modification of the spirit to be a food source to those from the shadows; and of course, the joy of Beasts from preying on and destroying those that were unaware of the Game they were played in. Read all the philosophical and mystical books you want – we never stood a chance. We needed help, but before help could come we had to know ourselves – what went wrong that we became all so fucked up? We then had to help those that could help us. Wow. Wow. Wow. May that help be near its completion. The manipulation by Snakes that embraced cruelty is something I no longer accept to be a part of. Has the Divine intervened? Yes, they have and are still in the process of doing so. I say this because I feel their presence. Are we free of Beasts? As of last night “no.” I will pray in this day to end our involvement with cruel Snakes. I have had enough of them.

This morning when I went into the space of Sophia I felt and saw blackness. Then the blackness in front of me lifted, as if someone had lifted a ramp there. From this elevated ramp, that was tilted away from me to form a decline, a swirling motion appeared, where this ramp of blackness formed an arc that steered to the left. This arc then turned further to the left to come around me. This action from the Infinite that I saw and felt as a blackness in motion was passed onto Semiramis, because when I went into her space I felt the same action. When I said that energy is needed to feed those from the shadows that understand the plight and predicament of the illusion, rather than being awed by the smokescreens to fool those within the illusion, what I said was the truth. But this is only a small fragment of the truth in terms of the bigger picture. What the presence of the parasitic frequency of Deception done to the illusion was create a want and take, as this is what a parasite naturally does. So please understand that by eating, you are not so much filling a hunger to survive, you are primarily filling an action of want and take. What you want and take is irrelevant, as long as you want and take. When you see the space of what we would call air all around us and everywhere, within this air/frequency is the frequency of the parasitic frequency of Deception, which takes. As has been said, there is always a want within the illusion, and taking to eat to stuff your mouth and stomach is a part of this want. If you want to help a mermaid you don’t drop them in the middle of a desert – you drop them in a sparkling blue ocean. So too is it with those within the illusion – if you want to help them, then transform their environment. That shift that I felt this morning that Sophia orchestrated I believe was to remove the worms from within and without our space – the worm/parasite frequency that became an integral part of the illusion. I say this because when this shift came about I felt these frequency worms depart from within my face area. They were also in you and everyone else within the illusion. Within the space of what we would call air, and within our space was an integral building block that came to be one with the illusion, namely worms/parasites, but they were not so much the problem – the problem was what they defined and sought, namely a want and take. And then last night when I closed my eyes to sleep I saw what looked like a group of the kings guard. I saw females that looked Human but were not as they came from another dimension. Their posture and the way they carried themselves caught my attention – it was a remarkable sight to witness, where everything about them screamed professional, loyal, honest, dedicated and committed. They were dressed with their fancy garb that came with the job. Then from amongst them came the one they served. This was a large entity, and I could not make out any facial features – I just saw this large presence come towards me where it put its head right against me to see what was going on. When I initially saw this fanfare around my bed I also felt this strange presence within my abdomen – it was like something was placed within me. Later I understood that those that came were the ones who placed this presence within me. The story behind the story is that those that came last night in my sleep state came to return the changes that were made within. You see, some like things the way that they were and are, as they worked damn hard to keep order out of the chaos. So don’t rock the boat! What they don’t understand is that sooner or later all boats within the illusion sink – ever the arse-kissers and those who think despicable beings are their BFF/best friend forever. But this is not for me to explain to others. What I ask for is that there is a natural state of harmony and love where Life is not about survival but rather about being an expression of Gods love. There is no balance, there is no ying or yang or black or white – there is only a natural state of something that is bigger than us that we have all forgotten. What this presence does is lift us up to be a state that cannot be defined by words, as one merely is what you are. We all need to be lifted; to be elevated to this state, regardless what castle or kingdom you have built for yourself and those you love. So keep your empire and your beautiful heart-presence – just give it an upgrade by embracing what naturally is – this glorious state of the Infinite that is the only thing that is real within your illusionary paradise. Am I still stuffing my face? Yip! The transformation begins on the Serpent soul, and then the spirit, and then us the body form. To elevate the Serpent soul one needs to transform its environment. This process has begun.

Last night as I lay in bed I thought of the unpleasantness of the people I meet. Wow, don’t they even try and be happy? Through all the madness and insanity can’t they make an effort to smile and look for an excuse to laugh? I thought of my children – how tired the one is, and how withdrawn the other is. I wondered why they can’t see what they have, namely two parents that do their best to create a home full of love. Then I went to sleep, and this morning, just before I woke up, a dream was implanted to these two men fighting. It was like a dance-fight, and those who implanted the dream put a name to one of the fighters – someone I knew – so I followed the dream even more intently. When I awoke from the dream I saw this lady standing next to my bed. She had this scarf over her head, and she looked Indian. When she saw that I could see her she felt awkward and left my space. Her presence was replaced my another Indian-looking lady, who was about four feet tall. The whole crew were not from our world – they were another race from another dimension. This little midget began to eat of my energy that had accumulated from me giving attention/energy to the implanted dream. Shamelessly she stood next to me and ate of my energy as I watched her do so. When we depart our physical bodies, the spirit goes to the spirit realm, and this place – for many – is a truly wondrous plane of existence. Then, when we have rested long enough, we return to the body form to hit another lifetime. But there are those who have sussed this game out – all this bullshit about learning and evolving – and they understand that we are all caught in a Game that is played out in a place where we don’t belong. Now the reality hits home that, as with the dense physical realm, in the spirit realm it is also about survival. Now they have to eat to acquire energy, as what and where we are in unnatural and thus requires energy. Eat or die, in this reality and the one of spirit where the smoke and mirrors have been removed to see the land of Beasts and assassins and every fucker for themselves. So this morning I woke up and I thought to myself “Wow,” after all that has been seen and done, we are still at the stage of implanted dreams and witnessing the raw unpleasantness of my fellow species. Nothing has changed. So what I done was find a reason to be happy and joyous – because I want to be – and from there I stood back to understand what was going on. What I written about in this journal is an awareness – an awareness of what is real in this cruel Game called Life. I know nothing, and in that state of nothing there is something I know, and what that is, is the core of what is going on, and has been going on since the fall of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia. I am aware of what happened and what rules this deeply septic place I call the Illusion, which is just that – an illusionary realm. The Serpent children of Semiramis have been taken over by insanity which has made them cruel cowards – not all of them, but many of them. The Snake is the dweller of the illusion – this is their home, where cruel, covert Snakes prey on the innocent and uninformed. This I all understand, and what I also understand is me. We can talk about Consciousness – what we really are – and it all sounds wonderful, because it is, but for now, what are we? We the Human species are a slave species. We have been taken over by others so that we may be a food source. Think fast-food companies out there that give so we may eat, well we are the same. We were manipulated so that others may feed from us. That is your role and mine and everyone else’s out there. Not so glamorous eh? So what I write, from what I see, is an awareness. It paints a picture of what happened before the beginning of time of what happened that we all got into this mess. The Watcher spirit; the parasite of Deception; the Serpent soul; Sophia and Semiramis – all of these form a tapestry to tell a story. Somewhere in that story is you and I – a food source to despicable beings controlled by a Watcher/octopus spirit that makes sure that our hope will never become a reality; that we remain groveling in the mud and shit; making sure we be thankful for the scrap of joy that is thrown our way now and then, if ever. I write, and I heal those that ask for healing, but more than that, what am I? What I am, as are you, is a slave because we were manufactured to be slaves. How does the slave become free of its bonds, and even if it is free of its chains, to where too does it run? Where is the place to where it can go where it will be safe and looked after? That answer is nowhere, because the slave has been manufactured to be a slave. You cannot change what you are. Yes, I have an awareness of the big picture and what I am and what I should be, but this cannot change me, because within the layers/frequencies of the spirits left forearm there is a control device that controls us, and integrated within the frequencies of our head region lies the Watcher spirit. At the manufacturing plant we were put together to be like this so that the illusion may have a food supply to those that reside therein that understand the Game. How thankful am I that I showed this tapestry to Sophia and Semiramis, because I can show it to you and others, and as much as it makes for an interesting non-fiction read, it means nothing as it cannot change our existence. This morning I went into prayer and I connected to The Wisdom Goddess Sophia. I felt this stream of what felt like a thick, black roll of tar that began coursing through me. It moved from space to space within my forms, and what was happening was that Sophia was altering the slave to a being of freedom. Then I connected to Semiramis, and I felt this same black stream pass through me and pop out through the left side of my head, releasing the Watcher spirit. What all of this means I cannot say. What we could not transform as we were what we were, Sophia and Semiramis could. Where too from here I don’t know. Just understand that the only way we could get out of this mess without assistance was to stand together as one, and I am not talking about billions of us – I imply even just a few of us. With understanding and a kinship of compassion this illusion could have eroded away, but this would not happen – such is the state of insanity and divide-and-conquer that has consumed our existence. Thus I am thankful that my spirit and soul had the foresight to show ones who could benefit from being shown the tapestry so that their freedom through this understanding may result in our freedom. Sophia creates anew to transform, and this transformation is passed to Semiramis to sow within the illusion. What will happen now is anyone’s guess. We just need to keep our faith and not lose hope. Things will transform. There is something bigger than you and me that will help. I say this because this help has been felt.

When I say “wake up,” it is not daddy talking to children, it’s me talking to myself. So now, every morning before the day begins I pray. What this prayer involves is connecting to those that are in a position to help but have never been able to for a long time due to the wild West of the illusion going completely out of control. I suppose one has to be a mother to understand Sophia and Semiramis, and what this understanding is, is that you don’t abandon those you Love – no matter what. If your child falls into a hole, you don’t tell them “cheers, good luck, I hope for the best for you.” By reflex, when they fall, you fall with them to be there for them. This is what happened to The Wisdom Goddess Sophia and Queen Semiramis. When the Dragon and Serpent children fell, so too did they, and the density of the illusion eventually consumed them to the point where their wings were not merely clipped, but rather broken and removed. When those fuckers from the shadows began to attack me because I was not allowed to see what I saw, my spirit and body took a strain. My initial antidote to those who I saw attack or possess me was the Love I had for the animals. I would fill my whole beings with this Love, and this would get me through. But as time progressed the attacks began to wear me down, and at one stage I was in a bad way. It was during this stage that one night in my sleep state I saw this lady lying on the floor. She was lying there because she never had the strength to get up. I saw how she rolled over to face me as I lay in bed below her, and then I saw how she dropped some of her saliva onto me. This was all she could do to help me – there was nothing else left inside of her to help. What I saw in my limited vision and understanding was The Wisdom Goddess Sophia in her broken state. Besides the density of the unnatural illusion, what befell her children (which came to be all Life within the illusion) befell her as well. She was a goner. Semiramis stood strong and done her best, but things fell apart and there was no fixing the illusion unless one understood the root cause of the snowballs systematic obliteration into Hell. So what I write is for those that can help but are not in a position to be able to do so. I write for them so that they may understand what happened that they ended up in this mess, as we all did. When you understand then you are healed. This morning I went into the space of Sophia, and what I felt was her drawing out the parasitic frequency of Deception from the Serpent soul within me. All we ever wanted – all of us – was to be loved and cared for, where we know, no matter what, that we will be okay. Now we go one better than that: Now we no longer want, we just be. This is what the removal of the worm from the Serpent soul within means. Then I went into the space of Semiramis, and what I felt from her was the drawing out of this parasite from all the Serpent souls within the illusion, and with that drawing out I felt a liberation, as in a freedom of her children. Now she too may just be, as this want within her that her children will be loved and cared for is no more. Now she and they just be. I am forever thankful that I became immune to the poison of those that attacked me over the years. I am thankful that I could make an about-turn, where it was always just about me, because as hard as I tried, this me could never find happiness. It was to the happiness of others that I found mine, where two mothers may once again be in a position to just be. Does this Steven need help? You betcha – big time. Will help come? – I don’t know, but then again, it has never really been about me.

When the unseen was revealed to me, it was clear there were two factors at play. The first was that we are an energy/food source to those we do not know exist, and the second was that the unseen is a Gentleman’s club – you get in only through invite because it is all very hush-hush. I allowed myself in to see this place within the shadows where those that embraced the Reptilian frequency of the agenda dwell. Now it was a turkey-shoot to see who would destroy this whippet-snapper who dared intrude so that he may understand the cruelty of Life. Those were shit times in my life, where I went to sleep at night time to be met by cosmic assassins and Serpents that came to destroy, but these times were nothing compared to my waking state as I dwelt amongst my own. We the Human species are far worse than those from the shadows, and I say this because by and large many of us are two-faced cowards, where we show the world of opportunity one side and the innocent another. Those Beasts in the unseen know what they are, but we Humans sit on the fence – we don’t know who and what we are, and thus we are unpredictable and volatile, meaning that you will never truly know another. This is sad because it isolates you in a sea of faces, where the more people are around you the lonelier you feel. I always assumed it was about energy, where it is keep the slaves lost and confused as we draw their life- essence/energy from them. This is the case, but behind those scenes something far sinister has played out for a long, long time. What that is, is the attack of Serpent souls on other Serpent souls. I would not call it a war, as a war is when two or more parties willingly attack each other. Yes, there are factions of Serpent souls that fight each other, but the attack has primarily been by the Serpent souls that have embraced the Reptilian side of the illusion; this Dark side, against those who have not. These attacks have been through the base of the left foot of the spirit that houses the Serpent soul within, in that this cruel game has always been covert, but over the last two years or so I believe that this sinister infiltration to attack and destroy has been pushed out into the open. The Snake has shown itself to the Serpent soul within, and as we the Human form guess what is happening to our world and to us with lockdowns et al, the innocent Serpent soul within knows what is now on the horizon that has always been underground. There is an attack by evil Serpent souls on innocent Serpent souls and we the spirit and body form are caught in the middle. As important and clever and analytical we think we are, we have all missed the boat, myself included. When I need clarity as to the big picture, the image I always return to is of Mary lovingly holding her child within her arms. I have never been a religious man and never will be, but when you understand that we the spirit and body form were manufactured within an illusion, and the true children of the Infinite are Dragons and Serpents, you will understand that we are not primarily the Creators children – the Dragons and Serpents are. So the image of Mary holding her child through our eyes is two Human forms, but through the eyes of what is real, what Mary is, is half Dragon half Serpent, and her child is the Serpent. It is not so much the image of mother and child that grounds me, but rather the state of Love between the two. This Love; this unconditional Love is what reminds that maybe we should look further than our noses as to who is right and wrong, and rather see this state of Love and how it may be achieved. Don’t look left or right, rather look to what is real, namely this Love, and how you may attain this state. Religion says we were made in the image of our God. Within the illusion our God is Queen Semiramis – a half Dragon half Serpent being. You see, “we” do not really feature, because those made in the image of God were the cloned Serpent souls, which is a Snake within the unseen spirit realm of the illusion that resides in your spirit and body form. Within all of us is the strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness/Consciousness, and this strand/image is from the Infinite from which all arose. So within the illusion the Snakes are made within the image of God, and within the big picture we all arose from the Infinite as the Infinite is within all of us. We all need to stand back and see what is going on. There is an all-out attack on the innocent Serpent souls within our spirit and body form, and what this attack is, is destroy the body and spirit – the safe-haven of the Serpent soul, so that they may be exposed and then destroyed. No more covert operations through the base of the left foot – now it is about breaking down defenses to destroy for once and for all. What is left of the spirit and body forms and Serpent souls will be dumped into Smart cities where our Consciousness will be directly plugged into artificial intelligence to feed those on the throne. What is left of the destroyed Serpent souls will too be plugged into this system, albeit from the spirit level and not the physical/more dense world of the illusion. Last night I sat on the side of my bed and I went into the space of Queen Semiramis to see how she is. A quick check-in took about fifteen minutes. I sat there and I felt something being formed within me. I was “growing;” I was forming, and I soon realized that the Serpent soul within was being made in the image of Semiramis. Now this baby had grown up. This was not to fight those that are coming to attack, it was merely to be what it is. Remember that within Semiramis is the Infinite and a part of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia, and it is to these images that the Serpent soul within is being reborn. This is not about you and me – it is about Serpents that have embraced cruelty and insanity and have now fledged an all-out attack on the innocent Serpent souls. Why has this illusion remained intact since before the beginning of time? – It is because we saw ourselves as important; we are the exalted ones; we are striving for our place at the right side of our God. WRONG!!!!!!!!! We the spirit and body form were manufactured within an illusion. To make sure we never know the truth, the Serpent was made to be seen as something despicable – a vile and disgusting creature. Now the truth would be hidden forever – that within you is a Serpent that God loves more than anything as this is Gods child. We need to wake up and step off our thrones. Lose Gods child within and you lose yourself as now your task of what you are – a beautiful gift to Gods child – is no more. Then you and I have failed my friends, and all will be lost. Why does the Infinite not intervene? Only we can get ourselves out of this mess by remembering what we are and what is within us. Wake up. Wake up fast. The attack has already begun.

Within the illusion everything is energy/vibration/frequency. My youngest daughter done an experiment for school, where for the last twenty one days she took two of the same size and type of plant, and to the one plant she spoke positive words to, and to the other she spoke negatively to it. The positive spoken to plant is vibrant and healthy, and the large leaf on the other plant died. What we say, what we do, what we think, has an impact on all life around us. If Life gets you down, leading to disharmony within you, you emit this state back into Life, as in the structures and environment around you, and so the vicious loop is complete, where disharmony feeds disharmony. Within the walls of your dwelling is memory, which is a subtle way of saying your dwelling is as alive as the plants outside. What we, and Life project, gives life/character to objects that we would assume are lifeless. The big picture is that we live in a sea of negative frequency that is all around us, so it does not matter how positive you wish to be, as Life around you weighs heavily from the frequency pollution that is everywhere. So what you do, is you consciously plug yourself into the vortex of energy/frequency that is all around you. Start with the place where you stay, as this location has a direct link with you as you chose it and it chose you. Go into the stillness of the silence, where you do nothing but just be. You do nothing as your pre-planned intent is already there, so now you just be. In the stillness you be one with the frequency of your dwelling, and from this energy vortex you connect to all energy within the illusion. Now we have the Serpent soul within which heals the spirit and body form, and from there the soul connects to and heals all Life to which it is attached. Our homeopath always treats my wife for pollution. He cannot define from where this pollution arises – it could be environmental, food, radiation, towers etc. He doesn’t know, and we don’t know, but the Serpent soul within does know. Now this soul not only heals/harmonises the spirit and body form, but all to which it is attached. Now the soul within rules/governs all Life to which it interacts with. I say all of these things because last night in my sleep state I saw how the house we are moving to was healed. My spirit met a lady last night in my sleep state. She took me to a room within the house, and she showed me the spot from where the disharmony dwelled. She told me that this is where the thoughts were localized, and from there I saw how layers of the building opened up to reveal the disharmonious frequency as it grew into the buildings frequency. This was removed in the moment by knowing it was there. Now the illusion is yours to play within. Just as disharmony has been purposefully pumped into the meridian lines of our frequency, now your Serpent soul pumps Love therein just because it can. This is how your world transforms, as in the limitations of all you have ever known are no more, and you experience more as more of Life is revealed to you.

Closed my eyes to sleep last night and fell asleep, and I saw the face of a Snake that was about as big as my body. There was some or other marking on the side of its face. My whole being began to get flustered as I thought to myself there is no way I can go up against something like that. What one does is go to the heart of the matter – go to what primarily is so that the raw truth in its entirety may be revealed. The Snake I saw last night must have been one of those in the upper echelons of the illusion. Wow, it is potent beyond – not for the faint heart or mere mortals like you and me. And yet, having said that, when you know what you are and where you should be in relation to the big picture, there is nothing to fear as our understanding removes all uncertainty. What I really want to talk about is the implanted dream last night in my sleep state. There are some of us that are rattled by what Life throws at us, and the disaster is we remain rattled – we never really find our sturdy feet after experiencing the cruelty and insanity of Life. How one overcomes this is through communication, where you talk to the shit that destroyed you just because this is who and what they are – they were either born like that or Life changed them to become like that, but let’s not become too analytical as the mind-boggling reality is that most unpleasant people were born that way. Life has not been there for me, but I never allowed myself to lose my integrity because I had it rough. Yes, I became withdrawn, but I was never cruel, and when I said things that I should not have, like the one time I made my mom cry, I promised myself it would never happen again. If I ever fell, it was once that never became a habit. Always I done my best to consider others, because always I have just wanted to be happy, and I understood that this happiness begins with me. The reality, as has been said, is that sometimes we are rattled/abused/bruised by others, and this has such a profound effect on us that we cannot recover. The incident remains etched within our forms like a scar that is there for all to see. Talking to the perpetrator will help, but it also won’t help as you will see one with no regret or remorse – you will see an idiot that will remain an idiot because they were born an idiot and enjoy being an idiot. If I said we were populated with bad stock, this is a harsh and bitter pill to swallow – that there is rubbish that is comfortable living in their own skin; they are what they are and have embraced the filth that they are. So the “talk and get it off my heart” does not work. What will? The answer is through the implanted dream. We need to start healing so we can go forwards, and for this to happen we need help, and this help needs to come from one who knows more than us. The Serpent soul within me implanted a dream for the spirit to follow, as the spirit is what is damaged – heal the spirit and the body heals. In the implanted dream was the man who broke me years ago through his vile and evil nature. All the spirit needs is a release, where retribution may be met for those that were cruel to us. This release is needed so that the spirit may move on. So in the implanted dream this man done something wrong in building this house for me. (This house was other-worldly.) I gave this man a serious hiding for his misdoings, and this the Serpent soul understood was needed to release the memory of the one who broke me. This release of anger from my spirit was what it needed to heal. So to all the Serpent souls out there: Heal the spirit and body form around you as they need your help. As a spirit I know my task – to be so that the Serpent soul within may grow and glow. This task I will fulfill, but my spirit cannot help my body form called Steven as Life has broken and bruised and scarred me the spirit and body form. How this is resolved is through the Serpent soul within. In the past implanted dreams were used to draw our energy to feed those in a dimension close to ours, and I would surmise the Serpent soul within as well. Now the implanted dreams are there to heal the spirit and body form. For this we are eternally grateful.