steven geldenhuys

The curiosity of the Dragon and Serpent spirits as to what else is there in the illusionary Garden of Queen Semiramis took on a frequency/Life-form within the illusion, and this frequency unknowingly penetrated all, creating a want and a take within them. This want and take state that was emitted from those in the illusion created an independent frequency of its own, which was a “cloud” of want and take. Understand what this cloud was in its deep and true form – it was a shield to prevent us from being what we are, and what this done, was literally suck out the essence of what we are. Instead of being joyous and giving of ourselves as an expression of the Love within that we are, an emptiness formed – a literal emptiness. In wanting and taking, we are never satisfied, so when we have taken what we wanted, what is next? Always there is a want and a take to fill this emptiness within us, where everything is never enough, and this is so, because now we are a shell; an emptiness, compared to what we were. I have seen this cosmic Thief frequency, and in my limited vision it is just that – a thief. But what I never knew was how this Thief stole from us. Now I know. What I saw was more an opportunist collector than a thief. The true Thief was the Want and Take cloud that hung over the illusion that deflected what should naturally come our way to define the expression of who and what we are. Understand that this Cloud touched all within the illusion, including Semiramis and Sophia. When this Cloud was removed by knowing it was there, I felt the Life-force return to them. What it felt like, was someone returning the stuffing to a mattress. Before the essence returned to me, it felt like I had a skin and there was nothing inside of me. As what should be returned, it felt like the filling was returned to once again make me whole. What made this illusion the perfect storm for Evil to thrive and take over and call this place home? The answer is pure luck! Now there was a parasite within all, that created this raw, core drive to want and take. To mirror this quiet, suppressed frenzy within, a Cloud frequency was born, which deflected and drew out of us who and what we are, which is the Love that Consciousness is. This defined us, but this became no more, and this want and take became a form of an addiction. Always there was a striving forwards. Never was there a peace and contentment. What I am saying, is our essence that defined us to be Consciousness was expelled from us and replaced with a never-ending uneasiness – what else is out there; what am I missing; why is Life so shallow and hollow? I talk about a Cloud of want and take, but to be more specific, this Cloud hovered over each and all within the illusion, and I mean all, including the planets. That thin film of “plastic” that was hovering over the outer left, lower calf area – that is the Cloud that deflects what we naturally are. From the foundation of what we are, we may receive to once again express what we are, so that all, including ourselves, are uplifted. Because of the parasitic frequency of Deception and the Cloud, they ensured that we received neither – neither our natural state/essence of Love, nor what comes naturally our way to express what we are. Is this why Consciousness forgot itself, because what we were was sucked out of us and replaced by a want? I don’t know, but that makes a lot of sense to me. The Cloud and the parasite created an environment where cruelty may flourish, and boy did it! Shame, now Johnny becomes a dull boy, because there is no Cloud or parasite to keep the playground open. It is absolutely remarkable to what depths this journal has fallen to uncover the truth. With the Cloud and the parasite no more, may Life return and unfold as it should.

What we want, comes to rule over us. You want control, where your fight for survival means win at all costs to stay alive, well guess what – your control state takes on an independent Life-form of its own to rule over you. The analogy of the fire, and the smoke that comes from the fire, where the smoke forms a cloud, and this cloud permanently hangs over you and controls you – that is the truth. From our will to control the Game so that we may survive, the Watcher spirit was born to control us. I have seen and felt this Octopus in others as it hangs over the brain controlling our very existence in the seen and unseen worlds. Often I felt one of the tentacles of the Watcher spirit within me hang down my one nostril. By surrendering our control we surrendered the Watcher from our existence. There is another around us that we have created from our will – the one I refer to as The Thief in the journal. The parasitic frequency of Deception created a want and take frequency within us, and this “want and take” became independent of us and took on a Life-form of its own. The cosmic Thief was born. Everything that should naturally come your way, as this is who and what you are that defines you – all is removed from touching you by the cosmic Thief. What you should grow into to be what you are in this realm for the purpose of uplifting you and those around you is removed from your space before it even gets there. This fucker is there – it has always been there. Picture a circular piece of plastic hovering just off the surface of your outer left calf area. When the frequency of what should define and uplift you comes your way, this plastic film covers you the seen and unseen so that the frequency that should be yours cannot detect you, and you miss out on what should be naturally yours. This Thief was one of the major factors in our existence that kept us down – where we should be naturally uplifted to rise where we belong, we were kept down by not receiving what was naturally ours. You give Love, and the natural order is to receive Love – in whatever means possible. With The Thief in our midst, you receive nothing. And that my friends, was part and parcel of the Cruelty of Life – that was the most destructive side-effect of the parasite in our midst. By knowing this take frequency; this Thief, is in our midst, remove it now by knowing it has no place within our existence. There is nothing worse than being in a place where we don’t belong. As long as The Thief frequency was in our midst, we were going nowhere. By walking on a path, we imply don’t stop to fret and wonder. Keep walking, and Life will unfold as it should. When you worry, or are fearful, what is happening is you are stopping still and not allowing the Infinite to carry you to where you belong. Just keep going with the stillness of the silence as your companion. You are walking with God and a Creator.

Of course, to wait for the contentment of a God and a Creator so that we may be content is not really an option. Within you is the Infinite, as well as Consciousness that is coming unto its own. We the spirit and body form cannot do much, being the dummies that we are. Consciousness draws into your existence that which will bring harmony to your status of health, wealth and happiness, which will lead to your peace. The trick is your peace is there to share with others, and when you see the happiness in others that is within you, you are content. Your contentment will then uplift a God and a Creator to be the same. Now that the pathway has been set, let’s walk it.

What I am writing now is for closure – it is not to harp on what was or what is out there, as those days are long gone, where I gave fools my time and attention of trying to figure them out. I talk on behalf of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia, where she asks those with the Reptilian frequency within them; a.k.a the cruel – what is it you truly wished for when you took the pleasure of shaming and destroying others? What was your upliftment, where you would commit your foul deed again and again, with no regret or remorse? What drove you to unspeakable cruelty upon those that done no harm to you and those you love? Is there an answer to such a question? What pleasure is there in shaming and destroying the innocent? To be cruel, one has to be insane, and in insanity one knows not what one does. So the real question is what drove us to insanity, where simple, basic, common sense and empathy, as well as self-preservation, were thrown out the window? My goodness, in this journal some big questions have been answered, but I cannot find an answer to the question of why play it dirty when you can be the Love that you naturally are? Can we blame the parasitic frequency of Deception, this worm within that created a want in all of us? Sure we can, and what is wrong in achieving/attaining your want? – Nothing, but it should never be at the expense to others. With the parasite within us, surely we were big enough to know what is right and wrong? And sure, we have all fucked up; we have all made mistakes, but we learn from them and make sure we never do them again. So why did Beasts destroy and shame with no remorse or regret? Why? To answer that question I need to delve into the psyche of the insane, and I have no intention of doing so. The only answer I can think of, is Life has been tough for all, and fools chose the easy way out, where to become a scavenger and predator of the innocent was easy. But this does not answer the question of “why become cruel?” What do you attain in becoming cruel? What do you get from it, where you will do your dastardy acts again and again? Truly, there is no answer as to why we would destroy others, and in the process of doing so, we destroy ourselves, where we sink further and further away from what we truly are, which is the Love within Consciousness. I am scrounging what money I have to go and buy two new tyres for my car that has 295 000km on the clock. I don’t have much, and am ashamed at saying so, and yet when this journal began those from the shadows offered me a limitless credit card in this realm and any other out there if I would walk away and leave this journal be. “Don’t rock the boat Steven.” Back then I even had less than I have now, and yet I knew that money and the power that came with it were not the answer to my miserable, unhappy state. I am not special, so if I can see that money is not a fix-it-all solution, when why cannot others also know this? Is being self-centered the starting point to cruelty, where I don’t care how you are, as long as I am okay? That makes sense to me, where I disregard you, as you are not important to me because I cannot get anything out of you that will be advantageous to me. Maybe that is why we have always been alone – because we want to be alone. Having others in our space means sharing and caring. So we take, and we are detached from those we take, because we are alone, so there is no regret or remorse, as there are none in our space other than ourselves. Our aloneness means we are everything, as there is no other besides ourselves. So we become gods, where what is out there is for me. From whom we take there is no attachment to. So why be cruel? – It was to make sure there was always enough to fulfill our alone status. We take, and there are no consequences or actions for our taking, because there is only me and no one to answer to but me. So to you the Beast – you want to be alone? Well now you are. Enjoy.

When I go into the stillness of the silence, what one would call a deep form of contemplation, I find peace. The bugger up is that as soon as I come out the silence this peace is no longer there. And that is why I have always maintained that we cannot get out of this mess alone – we need help. We need to go further than peace, and this is when we find contentment, which for me, is a combination of peace and happiness. What makes you content? – The answer is when those you love are happy. To witness their happiness brings about a contentment within you. To get out of this mess is great, but to where too? To which state are you moving towards? One needs to know where you are going to in order to get there, and yet what we yearn for; what we are, is so simple, and what it is, is seeing happiness in those you love. A loving parent will know exactly what I am talking about, where there is no real you, as you are not important – the happiness of your child is important. Of course one needs to find peace within ourselves, but understand in the spirit realm there is no bus you have to catch to the job that demands so much of you. In the physical and spirit realm, contentment is the flag on the top of the hill, and this we have never attained, primarily because we have never shared our happiness with a God and a Creator, and here I am talking about Queen Semiramis and The Wisdom Goddess Sophia. To understand the big picture, go back to the beginning to a field within Infinite Love, where the Dragon spirits were created by Sophia. The Dragon spirits were created to play with the power of their imagination in this most Beautiful place, and their play brought Joy to Sophia. Semiramis created the illusionary Garden for the same purpose, where the Dragon and Serpent spirits may play. Why Sophia created the Dragons, and why Semiramis created the illusionary Garden was to share this expression of Love that they are. Go and stand on a beautiful beach of the world and witness the sunset, and this wonder is empty unless it is shared with another. So please understand, for you and I and our spirits to experience contentment, it is only possible with the freedom of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia and Queen Semiramis. The joy of a Creator and a God is our joy, and our joy is their joy. This fundamental basic is the cornerstone of what is, which is the complete opposite to what we have always had. I must have spent a good hour yesterday removing the cruel Serpents that were impregnated within Sophia to keep her in a helpless state. Every square inch of her was filled with a Reptilian frequency. We were all going nowhere unless Sophia and Semiramis returned to their natural state of what they were in the fields of the Infinite. Once again I stress – what is our end goal; what do we want? All I have ever wanted was to be what I am meant to be, and over the last twenty years or so, my drive every day is to be where I belong – in this reality, and beyond this reality in the fields of Infinite Love. In this reality, as well as in the spirit realm, I need help – I cannot do this alone. And what is this help? What this help is, is the joy of a Creator and a God. When they are happy, I witness their happiness, and this makes me content. Now do you understand when I say I need help; when I say I cannot do it alone? There is you and your God and/or your Creator – there are two of you. One of you needs contentment to uplift the other to experience this state, and from there you and Sophia and Semiramis are what you are, which is the state you were before the parasite made us fall. Are we capable of expressing this state of contentment, where we may uplift Sophia and Semiramis? Yes we can, but this state is temporary. In terms of health, wealth and happiness I am not content, and the reality is I need help to attain peace in these states. This help will not come from my fellow species, hence I turn to a God and a Creator for help. The million dollar question that will solve our dilemma, is what will make Sophia and Semiramis content, where their contentment shines upon us and makes us content? The only answer that makes sense, is for them to be what they are and where they belong. In the case of Sophia, she needs to return to what she was before the Dragon spirits were created – where there is no contentment so to speak, as she has yet to Create something that will give her joy by her sharing what she is with her creation. With Queen Semiramis, she needs to return to the state of being born from the impact zone of wherein Sophia fell. What I am saying, is it is them with them, and with nothing else. When they are what they are, and we see them as they should be, we may be reborn in their image. What this reborn state means in simple English, is we shed what the illusion made us into and what we became through association with this cruel place. Our rebirth – our way out of this mess – begins with The Wisdom Goddess Sophia and Queen Semiramis returning to what they were, and from there shining on the innocent so that we may return to a state of contentment, where to be is all we need as we are everything and have everything. And that is what this journal is all about – returning a God and a Creator to what they were by them understanding what happened that we got into such an awful mess. But it is also so much more than that – it is awakening the building blocks of the Infinite that forgot themselves within the illusion. Consciousness in its enlightened state shines upon and superimposes the body form and spirit, where we the spirit and body merely are. So the billion dollar question is: Has enough been said and done to return Sophia and Semiramis to be what they are and where they belong? That I cannot say. What I can say is realistically I have a breaking point – be touched by insanity where it never stops, and there will come a time when I will stop. There is only so much I can take in this place where I don’t belong. I will go for as long as I can, but for fucks sakes, these two ladies need to come to the party and start dancing with us. That is my wish: That this journal is complete – that enough has been said and done to set these beautiful ladies free from the illusion. Their freedom marks the beginning of our freedom. 21st March, 2023

If you see people walking into a river to be baptized, they are touching on the truth. The spirit is meant to be bathed in Water. Those that suffer from abuse, be it physical or emotional, or whatever other type of abuse, I always say it is not so much the moment that the abuse is taking place that is bad, but rather the waiting for it to happen. Being in a place where I don’t belong, I can relate to this waiting game, where one is constantly on standby to be touched by the insanity around you. It’s like electrical wires being exposed rather than insulated, and one waits for the shock to happen at any moment. Last night as my body form slept, my spirit submerged itself in this pool of Water, where it done a cartwheel therein. My first reaction was that I am drowning, but then it came to be understood that this bathed in Water is a natural and normal phenomena. Is this baptism imply being touched by the Love of a God? I would say “yes.” Ask for your spirit to be baptized and it will be. What is happening, is the Love of a God is touching you. What happens next I cannot say.

If you ask me what is a Life well lived, I would say it is uplifting others. There is just one snag – to uplift others, one has to be uplifted first, and the issue at hand is we are all universally the same. We see the same colour from the light spectrum, we all have to eat, without water and air we the body form dies. Generally speaking, we are all the same, and this is so because the illusion has compressed us into a tight knit uniformity and community. Settle in and join the club because you ‘aint going anywhere besides here in the illusion. So we do our best to fit in and find our niche – we the cog fits into the tight knit uniformity. So it is fair to say the illusion moulds us, but more importantly, it limits us. We are compressed to be the same, and I am not talking about the same programme that is us the manufactured biological computer. Understand the complexity and advancement within the shadows of the illusion to create us the body form and spirit. Understand the technology these cosmic geneticists have to create Life around the building block of Consciousness in its forgotten state. An applause to these creators would be fitting right now, because truly, what we are, and what we imagine ourselves to be, is nothing compared to what is beyond our limited range of understanding. One needs to rise up beyond this range of limitation. Not only should we expect being free from our limitations, rather we should demand it. Consciousness coming unto its own will push aside the boundaries of what we define Life to be. I just need to know if there is anything else limiting us from rising above what we have always known to be normal. When I go into the stillness of the silence to see if anything is missing, I see a twirl of blackness, as if someone is spraying black foam in the Blackness of the all. Then there is a spinning in a horizontal clockwise direction. This swirling gently separates the body from the head. I feel the body disappear, and all that is left is the head. It is here, in this unit, that we have been programmed to be a specific organism with its range of functions. This mannequin head needs to be replaced with another, otherwise we will carry on being Joe and Mary Smith. It is this programmed head unit that Consciousness touches and transforms, where there is now freedom to expand and grow and be, rather than be limitations. But of course we have to go back to basics before we are going anywhere else. If you are a parent, create a Garden where your children can grow and be. If you are a member of society, touch those around you with an expression of the Love that you are. But remember, to uplift others, one has to first be uplifted. So rise up to where Consciousness within you takes you. We have all been touched by the Cruelty of Life. Wow, wouldn’t it be something to be touched by the Love of a God, as well as Consciousness within in its true state. Wouldn’t that be something! I expect nothing less than this.

It was the largest scam in the history of Mankind - lock down the world, and then do everything you can to inject everyone on the planet with an unheard of and unknown vaccine. Those that looked saw alien technology in the vial. Those that felt frequencies, felt the presence of an alien inside the Human host. And then we all just looked away and continued to complain about and fight the System. We stopped wondering about the obvious - what was happening to what was injected within us? Well, the answer was the injected baby within grew until it was big enough to take us the body and spirit form over. From there, it could launch its attack on the unvaccinated so that the Consciousness within all of us may be taken over. It would have been the end of us the species, and few have the capacity to absorb and understand that reality. These fuckers lost. Consciousness in its remembered state was what made the difference. Now the true battle awaits us the cruel - where we see ourselves for what we are. There is a chapter in the Bible that has only two words, namely "Jesus wept." When you see the shit-show that is about to unfold by those that have done what they want when they want because they can, you will weep. My advice is walk away - it is between them and them. One can call it "judgement day," but really it is an awakening to the fucks that they are. it is between them and them. Walk away.

This is an alien invasion - from the body, to the spirit, to the real target - Consciousness. These aliens are dying, and their target to stay alive is our Consciousness. May the awakening of Consciousness to be what it naturally should be - may this be done in time to ward off this full-out attack on us the species. For these aliens it's all or nothing - win or die - with of course no consideration to us the spirit and body form. Wow, the alien invasion was never from without - it was from within us. A possession, a take-over, a kill of the host, and then a feeding from Consciousness within. All of this i would never have thought or believed until my personal encounter of an alien within a man imposing its frequency on me and those i love. Be vigilant.

(What i write here now is not part of my journal - it is a message to all out there to what has also just been born in our world. The Covid jab shoved alien technology as well as an alien form into our body form. What i witnessed today was the birth of that technology and an altered species within us the Human form. My family and i went to see a careers councillor this afternoon. As i sat there, listening to this guy, i felt the frequency of the Covid jab within this person as it tried to shed itself onto my frequency field. This i have felt before in others who had the jab, but in this man seated in front of us it was fifty times worse to what i have felt in others. What was inside of him had grown to its full capacity, and it was forcing its presence upon our frequency to take us over. In my sleep state over the last nine years i have seen those who try and possess or kill me - i see them, feel them, and smell them. What i experienced today from this man sitting a few feet from my family was unlike anything i have experienced from those from the shadows during my sleep state. it was unbelievable, and even now, hours after seeing that man, i am still shaking off the effects of the invasion from what was inside of him. I write now to tell all that what was injected in the Human species from this Covid jab has come alive within the vaccinated. Now they are coming for the unvaccinated - these alien life-forms within the vaccinated. Now get this: this fucker we saw today was not even vaccinated. And there is no ways shedding can have such a powerful alien presence within him. My guess is this man has a vice, and through this vice this alien presence that is in the jab entered his form. It must have come from the jabbed and entered the breach in his defences that his vice opened. Your spirit needs to see these aliens and know they have no place in our space. If there is ever a time for Divine Intervention on our planet and in the spirit realm, it is now. Otherwise we are fucked. May God help us all.)

Over the last nine years when I close my eyes to sleep for the night, I see the illusion for what it is, as well as those that dwell therein. It has not been a pretty sight. How often have I gone to bed wishing from the depths of my heart that I see beings of Love in the night, meaning Love has touched and penetrated the illusion, and the days of the rule of Beasts is over. So let me tell you what I saw in my sleep state last night. My spirit was in a place that was unfamiliar. There were people around, and a few of them were my family members. The feeling was one of an extended family, where I might not know you, but you are welcome to stay. The focal point of this place was the child that was born. This baby was Beautiful, and as it was carried around this place, it progressed from lying to walking and talking. This child was nobody’s child, and yet it was everybody’s child. It was born from no one, and there it was to unite all through the Love that it is. The birth of Jesus Christ was the birth of Consciousness. “I am the truth, the Light, and the way.” That was no man or spirit talking – it was Consciousness, and it was telling the Consciousness within all of us to wake up and remember what we are. I did not see a being of Love last night as I slept – what I saw was the awakening/rebirth of Consciousness within the illusion. And that is Wow!

This is what I never knew – that the Infinite/Oneness is within all of us. Consciousness is an expression of the Infinite, and when Consciousness returns to what it is, it returns to the Infinite that is everywhere and is the all. From a burning log, an ember shoots off and becomes separate from the log, but this ember must remember from where it came, and in doing so, it will remember what it is. This Infinite within is more than the heart energy field. I would say, that in Consciousness awakening, it naturally gravitated to Home, and this Home is deep within the chest area. One had to awaken Consciousness for this Infinite within to be found. Take away all the fluff, and these two states are what is real – everything else is an illusion. Understand that Consciousness has just awakened, meaning it knows nothing, so what it does, is turn to Oneness within, which knows everything as it is everything. Consciousness plugs into Oneness, and by the two of them holding hands walking together, guidance and Love is passed to the spirit and body form. When you pray; when you go into the stillness, all turn to the Infinite within. This is the Holy Grail that carries all and thus knows all, as it is the all. In our limited state we would know it to be the deepest form of Compassion there is, where every aspect of our forms is One with the Everything. It is Beauty, Empathy, Peace, and the Love and guidance of a God all rolled into one.

There is something our domesticated animals have that we the world at large lack, and what this is, is unconditional love, where the animals care more about me and you than they do about themselves. Another word for unconditional love is compassion. How we bridge this gap of being alone, where we express our state of oneness with all, is to remember what this natural state of compassion is within us. From the stillness I go into the space of my animals to understand what they have not forgotten – where they express this compassion which they naturally are, which breaks down borders, as this language is seen and understood by all. From deep within their chest area is a “nuclear fusion” state that is not of this world, or any world within the illusion. This state is so naturally powerful it cancels out the me – this definition of who and what we are. There is no ways you and I are bigger than this state, and when we acknowledge this presence within that is bigger than us, you understand there cannot be a little me in this equation of who and what we are, as what is within obliterates the ego of “this is me!” What is within the chest area of my animals is something powerful, and this should be naturally within us. How to activate this state, is to understand there cannot be pain and suffering in the natural order of things. This “nuclear fusion” state within the chest area is the representation of Oneness – our link to the all, and in this link, I am you and you are me. You are not allowed to have pain and sorrow, so when I unite with you, Disharmony is no more. And please understand I am not writing words that sound great but mean nothing. With this natural state of unconditional love/ Oneness/Consciousness as what it should be, there is no you; there is no I/me, and there sure as hell is no disharmony. So often I have seen the animals take on the Disharmony of their owners, where through their unconditional love they see/know more than us, so when they see the Disharmonious frequency on their owners spirit, they take this frequency upon themselves so that the owner may not suffer. As I said, we are more important to them than they are to themselves, and this is so because there is no them – there is only a you, as in how are you, you are not allowed to suffer, so your suffering becomes mine because I care about you. The repercussions of this unconditional love within the illusion were catastrophic, as now the one who loves you more than anything gets pulled down with you, where both fall, as there was never a way out of this mess. What the animals never done, was pass on this Disharmony to Consciousness, and most importantly, awaken this Consciousness with those they love. This was the key to everlasting love and companionship, where Disharmony has no place in the space between us. Now that Consciousness is awakened in a Creator and a God, this Light within them shines and awakens Consciousness within us. Now unconditional love has that missing link so that the animals no longer fall with those they Love. What we are talking about here, is overcoming our state of isolation – where we are alone in this small, tiny air bubble within the vastness and depths of the oceans. We need to start connecting to the All, and this connection starts from you. What you naturally are, that you have forgotten, is Compassion – this is the “nuclear fusion” device within you that overcomes the “little me” and our alone status. How it is awakened is by knowing it is there and should naturally be. Please understand this Compassion is more than Consciousness – it is a Oneness, where all Conscious states come together to merely be. We are not talking about group-hugs, or going out to hug a tree – it is a connecting to the Sea that is beyond the illusion, and as said, it starts with you by you remembering this Oneness within you. I initially said that Oneness and Unconditional Love and Consciousness are the same. Each piece of the puzzle is different, but when they unite, they are One picture. And so it is with Consciousness. United, they form a natural Oneness, which takes us back to Unconditional Love, where you are me and I am you – different in isolation, and at the same time, together through our natural state of Compassion. Why did the domesticated animals have this Compassion and yet we forgot about it? The answer is they were not pulled into the System of Life. They stayed at home living their lives with us. The destruction of the System of Life – of the illusion itself – was what made us lose our compassion. With the System returning to what it should be, awaken this “nuclear fusion” device within you. It is more powerful than anything within the illusion as it arose from the fields of Infinite Love, where there is only a Oneness state. Release this force in doses you can handle, and remember, there is no you there is only a “we.” You are a piece of the puzzle, and make sure you are the happiest and content piece there is, and all the while, in your happiness state, there is an undercurrent within you that connects you to the flow of All. So be you – the Beautiful, unique piece that you are, and at the same time there is always this connection to the All that is the Oneness of the Infinite. It is a brave move to walk into the river and allow its flow to sweep you up and carry you. What you are doing, is unleashing this Compassion; this Oneness within you. This Compassion is the flow of the river, where now we are no longer alone. We are riding with the Oceans of Love.

When I closed my eyes to sleep last night, this group of spirits appeared around the bed. The group was four to five rows deep. The spirits looked like a generation of people that still lived off the land – strong and sturdy, with features that held much wisdom and generosity. They just stood there looking at me and my wife, and they were glad to see us. The message was that the spirit has lived in two worlds – the one being the seen, and the other being the unseen, as in the spirit realm. And through all this time, the spirit has been where it does not belong. It has become what the spirit is not meant to be – which is a survivor that is “blessed” with the highs of Life. This is all we have known, because this is what we were manufactured to be – paws in a Game. We are still in the Game. The challenge now is to let go of everything that has come to define us, and from there be open to receive a Gods Love, primarily from Queen Semiramis. (My take on this lady was that in the Infinite she was a being of Love, as are all within the Infinite, and when she entered her beautiful illusionary Garden with the Dragon and Serpent spirits, the parasitic frequency of Deception took her over, and her Love became a twisted love. For me, Queen Semiramis came to be called The Demiurge, this scoundrel ruler of the illusion. I have never read a book on Gnostic beliefs, so I cannot comment on what the Gnostic believed The Demiurge to be. As said, I do not believe Semiramis was the big, bad wolf. There were a group of Serpents that were the epitome of evil. These were the ones who attacked and imprisoned the Christ Consciousness, and to make sure no more surprises like this were to come from without or within the illusion, the frequency construct of the illusion was torn so that the bubble of the illusion within the Infinite became a deflated space, with nothing to hold it upright and proud. A Darkness fell, where there was no longer Life within the illusion. We could not pick ourselves up and rise above this Darkness because the illusion and those therein could not hold onto their energy. Whatever we gave off, especially Goodness, was bled from the illusion. Now evil was there to stay, where it would grow and fester and establish itself within this wasted space that once was a beautiful Garden. Hatred, fear, sorrow, helplessness and shame grew in this Garden now as we could not rise above the ship we were on that was sinking with each passing day.) Through understanding what happened, this wrong has been made right. Now the illusion is returning to what it should be, and the Love of a God/Semiramis can once again shine. Why did that group of spirits come to visit last night? Why did they come and say hello to my spirit? – I don’t know. The only message I got was that the spirit has lived in two worlds – the one in the spirit realm, and the other in this dense physical realm. Neither realms should exist, and I believe that those from the spirit realm came last night to acknowledge this profound and sad truth – that we have been in a place where we don’t belong. We know what we are – we are Consciosness; that strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness that is within, and in truth, is everywhere. Now the spirit peels away the layers of what it was constructed to be, as well as what Life burdened it with. Now the spirit looks beyond the seen and unseen to what is – this Infinite force within. When we are what we are, we are all Gods, as this natural state is an expression of Home.

There can never be a “them versus us,” because what this does, is it creates division and separation, which draws us further away from the understanding we are all one – that there is only a oneness, an isness. Realistically, this is not possible, because we are all different, and this is so because at our core we are nothing (as in all lost), meaning there is no foundation that unites us beyond our differences. So whether we like it or not, there is a division and separation out there. This is my reality that I am different to others, where more than anything, I choose to be free from this illusion so that I may be Home where I belong, and this reality is very different to that of many out there. Years ago I was woken up from my sleep state by a god that I came to know as my friend the god of Wrath. I called him a friend because he came to show me how it came to pass that brother turned on brother, where we began to kill each other just because we can. I called him a god because his presence was so powerful that my body as it lay in bed could not breathe properly, as his forceful presence pushed my lungs to one side. My thoughts too slowed down as my mind was compressed. I called him a god of Wrath because he took it upon himself to make a wrong right. Don’t listen to him and he hits you that you lie down for a few lifetimes. This brandishing the axe took its toll on him, as all that was left of this omnipotent god was his face – the rest of him was decimated by fighting the fight of trying to restore Harmony to the System. His face was made of what looked like clay, and it was the face of an old man. I no longer call him the god of Wrath, but my friend the Clever One, as he is beyond being a Titan on his path to looking for a way out for us and himself. He is one of the handful whose space I go into when I check on Sophia and Semiramis to see what can be done for them, and what can be passed on from them to assist in finding a way out of this mess. When I checked on The Clever One earlier on, I found disharmony embedded over his left chest area, just as I did on the spirit of the cat I saw in the week. Why is this Disharmony there? There can never be a “them versus us.” I am at the stage of my existence where I need to start walking, and yet around each corner I am stopped flat in my tracks by the madness and incompetence out there. Every time, I hit a brick wall, and then I walk around it, only to encounter another. What is happening, is I am encountering the “them” out there, and please understand they are out there. What was this message from this Clever One that Disharmonious frequencies were within his presence? How we got into this pickle initially was by the Serpent and Dragon spirits asking what else is there in this illusionary Garden of Semiramis? From the Infinite they dipped into the illusionary Garden where their curiosity took on a life-form and became the parasitic frequency of Deception within the illusion. This frequency became a presence unto its own, and I called it Deception because no one knew about it. In a “them versus us” there is always curiosity – why are they like that; how could they be so self-centered and foolish? So we have to remove this “them versus us” state within us; we have to remove this curiosity so that we may understand there is only Oneness – the Infinite. What my spirit will do, is do what this Clever One has done – I will no longer be curious. In walking out of this mess I embrace the Disharmony and make it my own. I make it my own so that I may know what I have always known – that this is not me; I am Love. Why did I have to embrace it and make it my own? – So that there is no “them versus us.” To the Beast: I know you. I became you, and thus you are me and I am you, and yet know this – that we are Love and nothing else. (As I type these words I feel the Disharmony over my left chest area. It could have been anywhere else, but as I felt it there over the cat in the week, it was the Clever Ones way of telling me he embraced Disharmony to remove the “them versus us” state from his presence.) Am I any different in embracing this Disharmony? Yes I am. My spirit sees the shit all around me and it moves on. Just as I have Goodness inside of me, I also have Badness, and I embrace both as I am neither. There is only the Infinite, and you may ask me “surely this Infinite is Goodness?” Within the Infinite there is only an isness, where you are the everything that is everywhere. From the left side of my chest this Disharmony moves to be one with the Goodness within me, and now neither states are within me. Now I can walk towards the Light, as now this Light shines within me.

It’s worthwhile re-posting the article of Paul Joseph Watson. How many choose to be slaves? How many choose to do to others what master does to them? How many like it here? To those of you who want out, what awaits you? My guess is as good as yours. All I know, is to be suppressed; to be deprived of our birthright of freedom and happiness, is the greatest cruelty of them all. I choose to get out. I don’t care how long it takes – I will find a way out, and for the Love of a God, may this already have been done. What comes in my sleep state over the next few nights will reveal where we are. *** Not being able to comprehend freedom can best be illustrated in an article written by Paul Joseph Watson which I found on Alex Jones’ Prison Planet website. The title of the report was: “Can a slave ever truly understand freedom?” The article tells the account of Shin Dong-hyuk, who is the only person to have ever escaped from a North Korean death camp and lived to tell the tale. He was born inside Kaechon internment camp (Camp #14) and remained there for over 22 years, witnessing the public execution of his mother and brother, suffering torture, beatings, near starvation and all manner of cruel and inhumane punishment. Dong-hyuk chillingly describes how he felt no emotion whatsoever at seeing his mother hanged and his brother shot as a result of him informing on them after he overheard the two discussing an escape plot. Watson says that this emphasizes how the unremitting indoctrination and brutality of the state, in its most savage form, even has the power to obliterate the ability to embrace the innate concepts of family and love. Dong-hyuk explains how an old man with whom he shared a cell saved his life by tending to his wounds after a barbarous torture session at the hands of camp guards. “I was 14 and the first time in my life I got human affection….I had never felt before those human beings could be social animals,” said Dong-hyuk, adding that he never experienced such feelings outside the camp. However, the most incredible aspect to Dong-hyuk’s story is that he actually wants to return to the prison camp in which he was born because he preferred his simple existence there in comparison to life in ultra-modern South Korea. “I would like to return to North Korea – my home – to a labor camp for prisoners….I want to live at the camp where I was born,” said Dong-hyuk, adding that he preferred the suffering of beatings and starvation over the suffering of not having enough money in South Korea. Noting that he rarely ever saw anyone commit suicide in the camp yet saw stories on the news every night about South Koreans killing themselves, Dong-hyuk said he missed life in the camp. As Paul Joseph Watson correctly points out: “Dong-hyuk’s story serves to illustrate a chilling proposition – can someone who has only ever known slavery ever yearn for or even understand the concept of freedom?

The illusionary Garden of Queen Semiramis was created with Love. This Love was the foundation of the illusion, and there is no ways a parasite/worm could have single-handedly brought this paradise playground into a living Hell, where it fell from bad to worse until it was only a question of time before the place destroyed itself. Earlier on when I asked to check on the status of the System of Life within the illusion, a sharp pain was felt over the side of my left ribcage. I can’t comment on the biblical story of Christ, but what I can say is Jesus being stabbed whilst on the cross is a symbolic truth. The illusionary Garden of Queen Semiramis was too strong and Beautiful to implode upon itself – there had to be foul play, and what this was, was the System was pierced so energy may be lost so that we may never rise to be what we naturally are. Goodness/Consciousness had to be defeated, and how this was done was to cut the sails so that the ship may never naturally go forwards. The construct of the Garden of Queen Semiramis was literally pierced so that no matter how hard we try, we will never have the energy to stand up and be what we naturally are. And that my friends, is the insanity and evil in our midst, where Beasts held you by their side making sure you are going nowhere. Your good heart; your kindness, was taking you nowhere because the System was bleeding and thus could never build the momentum to be what it was meant to be. Stab a slit into your hot air balloon and see how far you get. Who was this cruel to commit such a foul act? Those Serpents that attacked and imprisoned the Christ Consciousness – my guess it was them, but finger pointing is irrelevant. This wrong is made right. The stab in the “fabric” of the System of Life is returned to what it should be. Now we rise up.

Who ruled over the System of Life, as in, who called the shots within the illusion? The answer is the Serpent who embraced the Reptilian frequency and made it their own. This was the fighter, the aggressor, the brute whose power is might. The nurturer was pushed aside as these raw savage tried their best to sophisticate themselves but failed miserably. As the System of Life returns to Love this warrior Serpent is naturally expelled from the Systems new state of Love. I say this because I felt it leave our forms.

The flow of the System of Life is in an anti-clockwise rotation, and from there it spirals into a central point. At this central point it falls downwards, and from there it hangs as the System continues to fall in on itself. It was this System one had to heal in order to find a way out of this mess. Over fifteen years ago I walked up to a horse to treat it. As I approached the horse I saw a speck of Light about 2mm long against the side of the horses body. What I saw, which I never knew at the time, was Consciousness; the strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness that had forgotten itself and what it was. As the Darkness of the Reptilian frequency fell within the illusion this Consciousness forgot itself as there was no beacon to which it may compare itself and know itself. The Light that was the Love of Queen Semiramis was no more as her Love turned to a twisted love that was cruel and hurt. How you heal the System is returning a beacon for all to see, and by “all” we imply Consciousness within the illusion. This beacon is Queen Semiramis and The Wisdom Goddess Sophia in their true form, but primarily it is Semiramis as the illusion was her birth child. By returning Semiramis to a God of Love, there is a beacon for the System to look and move towards, and this is how the System returns to a natural state of Love. To heal ourselves and others was an option that no longer worked because the System was falling apart and pulling us down with it. Heal the System and heal a God, and we naturally start moving to where we belong. That strand of Consciousness that I saw against that horse all those years ago is now illuminated, as is the Consciousness within you and me, because the System is now returning to what is. In other words, the Light/Love of a God has awakened the Light/Consciousness within all of us, and now Life is flowing as it should. What is this natural flow? – It is a clockwise spiral upwards to a focal point, where this point then falls downwards into the heart energy field, which then rotates outwards only to fall in on itself. This is the stillness of everything that is everywhere, where Life becomes as it should. Love returns to the Love of the Infinite, which is happening as we speak.

Everything written is for the spirit and the spirit realm, as well as for the players who found themselves trapped within the illusion, most notably The Wisdom Goddess Sophia and Queen Semiramis. Yesterday I saw a cat who would not eat, and was failing in strength in its hindquarters. The spirit of this cat got into a brawl with an entity from the spirit realm, and this cats spirit was the loser. I found this entity over the left chest area of this cats spirit. This Beast had won the battle, and now was taking the spoils of victory, namely residing within this spirit and feeding off its energy. Shame, this cats body would have endured a slow, debilitating, wasting away of its life, and its spirit would have remained compromised in the spirit realm. This Beast was removed by knowing it was there, and then this cats spirit was made aware of the strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness at the throat area. Shine this torch and there is no need to fight as this Light removes nonsense from your space and allows the spirit to Glow and Grow to what it should be. When the owner and the cat left, I went into the space of the cat to make sure all was well. What I felt and saw was this cats spirit filling its body form, where the two bodies became one. This has always been our downfall, that our best friend – the spirit – has firstly, never been enlightened as to what it is, and secondly, that the spirit has never been one with the body. This spirit and body form being one is a Game changer as the dense frequency of the body form is no longer there. Instead of huddling up in the trenches, we are now looking over all, and when needed, become one with all. Your best friend is your spirit, and this dude/dude-ess has been detached from you the body form so that there may be no communication and unity between the two. This connection has been blocked at the base of the spine, and I suspect at the inner left and maybe right ankle there has been foul play, where the spirit has not been allowed to be one with the body form. This has never really been an issue, this miss-communication between the spirit and body, because the spirit has always been oblivious of the Game it was played in by Beasts within the Reptilian frequency of the illusion. But now that the spirit understands, a serious upgrade is needed by all, meaning go from dense frequencies to less dense frequencies to eventually no frequencies. What I felt on that cat as its spirit entered its body with this understanding of the God/strand within was remarkable. A God was born, and all this God was, was an understanding of what naturally should be. The blockages as the base of the spine and at the Achilles heel have been removed by you knowing they were there. Allow your spirit to rise up within you and take to the wheel of you the body form. It will drive you to where you belong, and when the road comes to an end, the body becomes no more and the spirit bursts forth with the Light/God within and is Home. Until that moment happens, you the body form Play. Play your game that is free of sorrow and strive. Invite others to play with you, and if none wish to do so, that is okay, because you have everything as you are Everything.

Woke up last night from my sleep state, and through my Third Eye saw a lot of activity around my body form as it lay in bed sleeping. My response to this commotion was to get a closer look, so I turned on my back to see what was happening around me. The frequency band that was being drawn from my forehead was about as wide as my head. Some creature was pulling this frequency band from out of me. What this frequency band was, was my DNA frequency codes. The building blocks that defined me the body form and less dense spirit form were being removed from me. The creature that was doing this looked like a lizard of sorts, and my heart said this entity was there to make a wrong right. What has been done to us has to be undone – hence the presence of this entity last night. When I now try and go into the space of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia and Queen Semiramis I cannot, and the reason for this is their natural state in which they are now in will literally blow me away, as my forms are too dense. Help those who need our help, who when helped, can be in a position to help us. This has been done, and now they are helping us. “Good stuff! Any changes on Steven the body form front?” – Nope, but will get there, as I know we are no longer walking alone. Now when we ask; when we pray, we are listened to, and help will come our way. Just remember one thing: The Love of a God touches all. 7th March, 2023. Entertainment is there to alleviate boredom. But it is so much more than that – it is the ying, where Life; the System, is the yang. What the System does to keep us down with our heads held low in shame, entertainment picks us up and puts a spring in our step. There cannot be a System without entertainment. At the age of about thirteen I attended a Christian school for two years. The teachers there dressed in priest robes and were called “brothers,” where the priests taught an education while they lived their faith. I remember one day a brother was talking about what the Pope said regarding sport – he said that the role of sports stars was as important as his role of being the Pope. I didn’t understand what this brother meant, but now I do. Entertainment and religion are distractions while we are played in a cruel Game where there are no winners – at the end of the day we all lose. Entertainment temporarily makes us forget about Life – it is our get out of jail card, where we escape the System so that balance may be restored to this insane asylum. Last night my spirit was taken to a shopping mall of sorts that was the epitome of entertainment. It’s like you wanting a piece of chocolate mousse cake. I go one step further and present to you the whole cake. The place my spirit went to last night can be likened to taking you to the bakery where the cakes are made, and you become an integral part of the cakes – you and the cakes frequencies are one. In this entertainment mall where my spirit was found last night was the place where the boys in the Pinocchio story were taken where anything goes – where it is fun, fun and fun. This place was the ultimate, where you were one with the frequency of entertainment. And it was all plastic – all a distraction of having fun while you are actually doing nothing and going nowhere. Entertainment is the fun expression of insanity, where you can take your hat off and let yourself go – where you can live a little. And if your team doesn’t win, or your kids don’t make the team, well, that is Life – we are used to disappointment. Hopefully there will be a next time. Always ask yourself what is important. In twenty years’ time when you look back over this time period, what was important that defined you and your life? For me, what is important is to do Gods work. When I was about ten years old, one of the projects at school was to give a report of what religion you followed. As a family we didn’t attend a church, so to put something to paper for the project, my dad took me to the Methodist church just outside the centre of town. I remember standing there, looking at this stone building, and what came to mind was an emptiness – for me, there was nothing in this place that was worthwhile mentioning in my project. The places of worship that I have been to in my life were places where words were spoken that were hollow – there was nothing to them, because for me Life is not about the spoken word but rather what Life presents to us. We are not meant to be served a cruel and unjust System, were are meant to be presented with only the best because we are the best, and this is so through our birthright of being born from the Source of the Infinite. I don’t expect anything less than the best, and neither should you. You need to know what you are, and you need to know that you are not alone. Look to the System, and you will get your highs and lows, and with each passing day the lows will become a standard as the Light fades more and more as the illusion gets out of control. My God is not of this world and of the religions of this world. I do not speak to others of my God, as our relationship is something that is expressed rather than spoken about. See me, and you see my God, and I will not talk to you about my God as I am more interested in your Life that what I have become. What was the purpose of taking the spirit to this place of entertainment last night? – The message was get off the bus that goes nowhere. Look to what is important. Sure, have fun, but in everything you do, walk with the Light of God, as this picks you up to where you belong, which cannot be done by your team winning. Call this God whatever you want – the Infinite; Consciousness; the strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness. It is not in the name; it is rather in who and what you have become.

I was big enough to understand we are all in this mess. There was no way I could do an online course to better myself, as I understood the problem was not with me – there was something out there that was irrevocably wrong that touched all, and this had to be understood. It wasn’t about being successful, where we get that dream job or marriage partner; it was trying to get our head around the problem of Life not flowing as it should – where things go from bad to worse. Most of us do our best to be better than what we are. Most of us don’t ask for shit to come our way, where there is always one obstacle after the next. To look to a drug or a self-help group may help momentarily, but we were merely given temporary tools to circumvent the obstacles Life threw at us. If Life is so difficult – always met with challenges – then surely there must be fault in the spirit realm and with the spirit, and to take it even further, surely there must be fault with our God of Love. I don’t look for problems; I don’t look for heartache and strife, so why is Life so shit? The only “pill” we have to make Life better is by forgetting the past and its bad. We forget the reality so that we may move forwards so that we may find our peace and happiness. On the spirit realm our forgetfulness is facilitated by the less dense realm in which we find ourselves. “Boy, is it nice here!” And in that moment the shit we have been through in the dense physical realm is forgotten. We forget in order to take the pain away, and that is why so many of us are the living dead, where we refuse to embrace Life because we know what Life brings us, so we deliberately forget to live and savour each moment. By living in a daze, we live in our drug of forgetfulness to protect the little bit of strength we have within us. Always look to the big picture. Always go to the root cause of the problem. The curiosity of the Dragon and Serpent spirits as to what else is in this illusionary Garden of Semiramis; this curiosity took on a Life/frequency form within the illusion, and this parasitic frequency of Deception transformed the illusion and all those within to wanting and taking. That’s it! That was the root cause of all disharmony within the illusion, where a System was created that failed before it even began because it was about me. Am I okay? As long as I am okay, I am okay. Well, with an attitude like that, we fell as the System fell around us. So to alter the System, one had to do the complete opposite to what was done. Are you okay? Take that one step further and ask the gods and a Creator trapped within the System “are you okay?” The obvious answer was “no.” So now we work on them, peeling away the layers until they are okay. Good stuff! But there comes a time when you have to ask yourself an important question, and that is “are you okay?” In grabbing the bull by the horns, in terms of biting into this illusion and making it my own so that I may understand it, the focus has always been to those trapped and floored by the illusion. “The Wisdom Goddess Sophia, are you okay?” “Queen Semiramis, are you okay?” Let’s get you okay, first and foremost because I Love you, and secondly, because I don’t like what Life gives to me and the innocent within the illusion. And so it goes, day after day, year after year – let’s do what we can in this day to make sure you are okay. I understood that we could not focus on ourselves if we ever wanted to be okay – we had to help those that could help us but were not in a position to do so. How this was done was making them remember what they forgot – what we all forgot as we done our best to keep the one foot moving in front of the other. By remembering, we may understand, and by understanding we may return to what we naturally are. Every day I go to Sophia and Semiramis and the others. Every day – how are you? What can be done to get you what you naturally are in this day? Yesterday was one of those typical days – do what has to be done around the house, but always, in the back of my mind, this pull to go into the space of Sophia et al to see how they are. What more can be done for them, where by helping them, they might help us. Through the course of the day my wife mentioned my one daughter wasn’t feeling well. In truth, I heard her, but what she said was dismissed by me as I never had the energy to look into the energy/frequency state of my daughter. Always look to the big picture. It is never about you and me, but rather those that can help, because they need our help. If there is shit in the land, don’t look to making Life better for you, rather fix the problem so that all may move forwards to where they should be. This morning was awoken by my wife telling me that my one daughter was ill and would be missing school and sport today. I flew from a prone to a sitting position in a second, and was awake in the moment. When is this shit ever going to end? When can I focus on me and those around me? When do you let go of helping those that need help so that you may focus on you and your happiness? Put another way, how can you be open to receive when you are always giving? The answer is what I done to understand the big picture of our demise was for all, especially the Beasts of the illusion, and what I done to understand was because I Love all. I have passed on understanding, but what I cannot do is live your Life for you. Everything has been done so that you may get up and walk knowing a God of Love is walking with you, but what I cannot do for you is live your Life for you. As of today, I am in the minus one – I have fallen backwards, because yesterday I should have had the energy to look into the health of my daughter, but this was not possible as the focus has always been on the big picture – help those who can help all of us. When do I let go? When do I start focusing on me and those around me? I have not neglected myself and my family because I knew leaving them to the System and the cruelty of Life would be fatal. I needed to get help – for all of us, and this help was making us remember what we forgot. Have I done enough? I have gone back, to the very beginning, to understand what went wrong, and now I need to go forwards by having faith this understanding has been enough to set a God and a Creator free so that they may walk with us, where we are no longer alone. What has changed between now and before the beginning of time? The answer that I have worked so hard for is that we are no longer walking alone. Now I need to focus on my children and myself, knowing a God of Love is walking with all that wish to receive this Love. “How do you know this Steven – that God is walking with us?” The answer is to start walking; to start living our lives, and seeing if God is walking with us. I will begin to walk and see if God is walking with me. What I am trying to say is I no longer have the energy to nourish and uplift Sophia and Semiramis and those around them. I no longer have the energy to enter their space. What does this tell me, as I will never abandon them, no matter what. What it tells me, is by looking after them now I am wasting my time and energy, as they are okay. Start looking after yourself, making sure you are okay. The difference between now and then is that we are no longer alone. This is what I meant by having faith, where you jump into the deep end without knowing what will happen. May we all remember what we forgot so that now, for the first time, we may go forwards. Be a force of Love. Be the Love that you are. There is nothing else but this Love. Walk with your God of Love and be the Love that you are.

There was never a beacon to see where we should be, which would have allowed us to see how far we drifted from what we should be. With every step down the ladder the abnormal was accepted as the normal, and the down side to this is we never saw the impact of this dense frequency on our psyche and the status of our spirit. If I had to look back on the time spent writing this journal, an outsider would ask why the total commitment – why is the journal written at the expense of focusing on my life and my happiness? Why the push? Why the get up and go, only to fall again, and then continuing to go? There is no me, there is no family around me that I must provide for – there is only the task at hand to complete this journal. What I cannot do is assess myself, as I am too close to myself. Like a bat with its sonic radar, I need to project myself onto something, and what comes back at me is me that I can see and assess from a distance. Now I project myself against the Infinite, and what comes back, as in my status of how I am, is a shocker. On the physical body form there was nothing left inside of me, as in I was surviving on fumes rather than a strong frequency band that made up my body form. This discovery I could handle, as I knew the spirit was the primary form, and as long as the spirit is okay, it will make sure the body form is cared for. But what I found on my spirit were parts of it that were absent. Chip away at a marble block and eventually the pieces will begin to fall. So what I never knew – and I speak for myself as I cannot speak for others – was that this Life of Steven was the do or die for me, where we find a way out of this mess, or our spirits fade to nothingness, where we lose ourselves as we could never find ourselves in this strange place. The spirit of my youngest daughter was hanging on a thread before she would fall and fade into the illusion. This one lady who was in a bad way whose space I went into to try and help was in the same predicament. Always do your best; always look on the bright side of Life; keep going, because we will get through this. Sure. Keep going to where? Where were we? What was around us that kept pulling us down? Why the constant effort? Why never a reprieve? Coming back to reality, because let’s always keep it real as to what is happening in the seen and the unseen, is that our governments are not there to make sure we get the best and are looked after. These spineless runts have sold their soul to the devil for kick-backs to experience luxury in an illusion. What can we the masses do? – Kindness is the foundation to any resistance because it is the opposite frequency to what is projected upon us by wasted spaces in the seen and unseen. They may bully us and threaten us, but they cannot fight us because we are on the opposite frequency to what they are. My dilemma is if I sit and wait for my fellow species to be kind, I am sure I will wait a long time. And I am not being judgmental; I merely see to what level we have fallen and the impact this dense frequency has had on all of us. We are in a bad way, where the norm is insanity and the sheer, raw, stupid wasted space that we call a “life-form.” The answer is to look “upwards” – what some would call a faith or religion. The System that we have been ushered and fallen into has been controlled by Beasts in the seen and unseen, and of course by the stupid; the moron who knows how to ride the System to get to the top. Know your own; see them a mile away, and then ride their backs, whilst kissing their arses, until you are at the top. (Typical example is Flint town in Michigan, where the council make decisions to keep the place poor and violent, where the federal government lets this chaos rot as they are equally incompetent.) The answer is often so simple, but the outcome will never prosper as we feed the answers into a System that is made to fail. The System needs to be broken down, and this could happen in the moment if we were looked after. Realistically, I don’t have faith in my fellow species, and I say this because we are more fucked up than what we could ever imagine. We are tough, we are resilient, we are good, but keep on knocking us down and we will fall. We have fallen – many times. Look around you and you will see the broken. I stand with them – I am realistic. But to stand and wait and watch will not help us and those we love. We need help, and that is why I wrote this journal – to peel back the layers to understand why help never came, and from there to make a wrong right so that help may come. Always we look to the carrot at the end of the stick. It is tough, but that cup of coffee later will make it okay – just for a moment, but that moment is better than the nothing that was there leading up to that cup of coffee. We are thrown scraps and we are thankful for what we receive. What about the poor, the homeless, the abused, the sick, the elderly that lose all self-respect? “Well Steven, what about them? How can I help them when I cannot even help myself?” – Damn right! I didn’t spend nine years of my Life writing this journal for nothing. I wrote it for nobody but myself, because I cannot help anybody until I first and foremost help myself. There was nobody I had to explain myself to – to justify what was said. The story of our demise and its origin had to make simple sense, as this is what the truth is – it is simple. The old has to be broken down to usher in the Love of the Infinite. This we can do, because there is so much good in all of us, but the reality is we are in a bad way. May the Love of a God and the Infinite touch us all. Am I willing to have my mould broken so that I may stand as one with the Infinite? Am I willing to throw aside what the System has moulded me into so that I may unfold to be the real me? This I am willing to do – to start on a blank slate. We cannot carry on doing what we have always done. For the Love of a God to touch us, do our part by being open to receive. Throw away everything you believed to be true and real, because you were led astray by Beasts in a place where you didn’t belong. I walk out the door; out the System to meet my maker – the Infinite, and I do this because I know if I stay I will never make it here. This journal has been for the spirit realm – for all within the unseen. Months ago during my sleep state I saw the exodus of those there to where they belong. These spirits with their weird and wonderful features were tired and worn out to their very end. My spirit now follows them to where we belong. I have no fear of the unknown. What I fear is fading into nothingness in this place we don’t belong. Many before me have followed this route, where these Beautiful spirits will rather disappear into nothingness than allow this cruel place to taint them and their ways. For them, I will find a way out, and then I will come back for them.

Now we can start talking about this reality, as in your Life and mine. Two things are needed for you the body form to be happy. The first is you being a kind person, where from this garden you can grow, placing you in a position to allow others to grow who enter you space. Your kindness to yourself and others is the fountain that will allow you to always flow and grow. The second aspect that is needed for our happiness is money. Without this, we lie down and die because there is nothing we can do without money. How much money do we need? That is answered by the kindness that you are. You need enough to sustain your kindness, meaning your good heart will determine how much you need. But here we once again need to be realistic, as few are financial gurus out there who can turn cents to millions. And I suppose this is where the hidden clause reveals itself – the protocol that overshadows our kindness and our contentment as to how much money we have. What has been done in writing this journal is for the Infinite to touch the illusion in its seen and unseen states and all those that reside therein. When I pray now; when I go into the stillness, be it for myself or others, I talk to the Infinite, and the Infinite touches the seen and unseen of the illusion which touches me. The more we are touched by the Infinite, the closer we get to it, until we become it. There is never a little you and an almighty God out there that is above you. There is a you that has been condensed by the dense frequency of the illusion. The more the Infinite touches you, the more the layers are peeled away to reveal the real you. But let us always come back to reality, as in this reality of us the body form. The one and only true reality is that we need help from what is real, which is the Infinite. Without this your kindness and money will never materialize as they should, because Life will always be throwing you a curve ball. Our prayers need to be answered. So many of us have good hearts, but the reality is Life is harsh, and this harshness gets the best of us down. We need help – all of us, including The Wisdom Goddess Sophia and Queen Semiramis. The second thing we need is to be in a position to see and acknowledge this help and make it our own. This would never be possible unless we understood the cruelty of Life that came to shadow all within the illusion from this Darkness that saw itself as omnipotent that the power of the Reptilian frequency of the illusion gave to it. This power was: There are no inhibitions; do what you want, because you can, because you will never be held accountable for what you do because there is not a God of Love and thus there is no conscience within you that needs to be held accountable for. Simply put: Destroy, because you can. Those you destroy you absorb their energy and this makes you strong. If I said the illusion in the seen and unseen was Hell, take this as the literal truth, because this is what it was. We were alone, and these Beasts knew this. Sure, we need to keep our side clean and be kind, and we need money as this is the exchange medium of this frequency. But these two aspects will never materialize and prosper and grow unless we are touched by the Infinite. Know what you are. Make sure you are kindness. Know that you are no longer alone. Know what you want, and ask the Infinite for this. And if you are really clever, just ask for one thing – that the Infinite touches all within the seen and unseen of the illusion. That is all we need – a Gods Love.

Lately I don’t look at my cars back tyres, because there is something there I don’t have the capacity to deal with. What it is, is the tyres are wearing thin and I need two new ones and I don’t have the finances to buy them, so I don’t look at my tyres that need replacing. I know there is a problem there – something that has to be addressed – but I choose to ignore the problem at hand because I don’t have the solution to solve the problem. What I lack is courage, and this lack of courage is backed by a harsh reality that I am alone. Sure, we hear about these Walt Disney feel good stories where everything just comes together and pans out for the best, but I look more to history, where billions before us have met their untimely deaths by tyrants as they cling to their belief that help will come their way. Deep down we are not fools – we know the icing on the cake is thin, and what lies beneath this layer is a rot that has festered and been there a long time. We choose to look the other way and pretend all is well because we don’t know what to do to avoid the inevitable. We hold on so tightly to our faith – to the thin air around us – as we try to escape this reality by doing our best to survive. The opening of my Third Eye was to take the bull by the horns and face this evil that we refuse to look at or acknowledge, because deep down we knew we were defenseless against Beasts. You don’t fight these fuckers because they will pull you down to their level and destroy you. Rather, you understand them, where this understanding sets you free from them. You are free because they are free, where they now have a choice to return to what they naturally are, which is Love, or remain playing it dirty with their pitch-forks. Don’t underestimate the bond we have with all within the illusion. Our link with Consciousness in its forgotten state united us all, meaning we could never turn our backs to these Beasts and forget them. The problem, as in them, has always been there, and as we could not find a solution to the problem, we chose to not look what was staring us in the face. What came to me over the last nine years during my sleep state came to you and those you love. The difference between me and you is I chose to see what you chose to ignore, as we never had the means to cast aside these Beasts from our space. One had to go back to the very beginning to understand what went wrong in such a beautiful illusionary Garden. What happened that your brother and sister took pride in shaming and destroying your helpless spirit and body form? What happened that the Love of a God became a twisted Love that hurt like hell? We could never walk away from the problem as we were sinking knee deep in this mess. There was nowhere to go too, and there no help coming our way. The excuse for these Beasts to justify their cruelty is they don’t know any better – this is who and what we are and we embrace who and what we are; we do not fool ourselves we are something that we are not. You cannot argue with their statement because we were in Hell – the place of the cruel, and let’s be honest with ourselves when we say no help came to carry the innocent away from this awful place. In understanding the cruelty of Life, the steps could be traced back to make a wrong right – to return an insane God to a God of Love. If you ask me how I spend a chunk of my day, I go into the space of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia and Queen Semiramis and others that can help us, to assess how they are. What is understood from what the animals taught me is applied to them, peeling away the layers until a God and a Creator are what they are meant to be. The only practical component of this journal is to always be kind. We the body form cannot do much to return to where we belong, but the spirit in its wisdom and understanding can return to a being of Love. Just as I cannot look at my two back tyres, I could never look to some or other God because I knew there was nobody home to help us. I also knew there would come a time when we needed help, as there is only so much abuse we can take before we fall and stay down. I believe that enough has been said and done in this journal where we can take a step back and see who walks with us now. Already I see the signs from those who Love us. As for my two back tyres, I know help will come my way. I know the tide has turned where Goodness is starting to shine. Now I get up and walk, and I do so because I walk amongst my own – beings of Love in the seen and unseen.