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  1. To say that our spirit has not been compromised throughout the ages, through deceitful manipulations, as well as being panelbeated from surviving in a madhouse, well, let’s just say that is an understatement. The one generation did not uplift the next, and I would say a big contributing factor is the plasticity of the worlds, where what we wear, and how we look on a photo that we took of ourselves – these attributes have made our skin paper-thin, where little depth of culture and self is found within us. Instead, we steer towards the mentality of a child, where loud rock music and our team winning is what defines us the wasted space. And of course there are many that do their bit by doing their best, but our world leaders don’t do their part, where what works they destroy. What is blatantly obvious is stupidity is not at hand here – what you see is the satanist, where those that occupy the halls of government and the first-class lounges at the airports wish to destroy this world and all that is good therein. That puppet-head that rules the country is the pawn for the satanistic order that is showing itself with each passing day. The joke is these puppets, as well as those that rule over them are merely pawns to shut down and let rot this corner of the illusion in the seen and unseen. Understand one thing: Here in the illusion we all lose – every single one of us. This place is not a Game – it is a suicide mission where we all Fall to our demise; every single one of us in the seen and unseen. But that’s okay Steven, because my son made the football team and I got a raise, so family is pumped. Life is good. To hear this the obvious of how bad it is out there is not something I wish to waste my time about, rather I would like a solution. To us the dense body form, we need help, and that help comes from our Consciousness as well as our spirit. There are the drivers who can see over the horizon, so when they are okay, then we the dense body form have a platform from which to find our happiness. Once again: To say that there are a few drawers missing in the cupboard that is the spirit is an understatement. Here I speak for myself, because for others I cannot comment. What I see out there is the baby – the one who finds humour in the silly; the one who takes the blatantly obvious to heart and pulls it apart to show the world their intelligence; the one who finds the pleasure in the high of drugs and alcohol to show how hip they are. And then of course there is the brute, who plod from A to B and that is Life, and boy is it good! Man-oh-man, I don’t belong here, and I honestly doubt if I can even enjoy myself here. I cannot speak for others, so I speak for myself when I say my spirit needs to return to a full set of drawers bacause I am tired and I need help. Through the eyes of Consciousness the spirit is seen, and there is no hard-drive/”brain” that is plugged into the heart energy field. We came here to think, and in never finding an answer, I would say we just shut off and got on with surviving. Let’s keep it simple; let’s keep it basic: Is my belly full? Do I have clothes to wear? Am I serviced now and then to meet the high of the orgasm? If all is well on these departments, then all is well. Remember, don’t overthink it; let’s keep it simple, this survival mode. And so the plastic bears fruit to bring forth more plastic, and we wonder why Life is so fucked up. The satanists wanted to get a hold of this mess, where in this havoc let’s do our part to speed up the process of our and alls demise. Let’s give it stick to those that do their best, because these bright Beautiful spirits we don’t want because they remind us of what we should be, and that shame we have brought to ourselves is too much to bear, so kill the fuckers so that we can be happy believing we are okay. Have I mentioned that I don’t belong here? From the fields of Infinite Love, this Love that is enters our heart energy field, and from there it travel via the throat to the head region. The throat area has major Endocrine glands, which are valves/filters/transmittors to diffuse the Infinite from the spirit to the body form, and from there throughout these two bodies to permeate them. What was in the brain was our rationale – this us making plans to survive. Unfortunately we devolved, not evolved, so let’s try a different approach, where from the heart field the Infinite touches the head space of us the spirit and body form. Let’s not worry too much about filling in those missing drawers; let’s just climb in the elevator with the flow of Consciousness and the Infinite. We the spirit have been battered and bruised by being in a place where we don’t belong, and for fucks sakes, we need help. My advice is sweep everything off the table so you are left with a blank slate. We know nothing, but the Infinite and our Consciousness does. Allow them to lead the way while we the spirit and body form take a back seat. Let go to embrace this Love that you are.
  2. When you do a job, when do you know it is complete, as in when do you walk away from the job? For me, in a natural, Beautiful world, it is when you get paid, and by “paid” we imply you are given thanks for what you have given. This thanks can come in all shapes and sizes, and you the giver do not give to get, but what happens is the receiver naturally passes on to you. When you feel this thanks in your heart from the receiver to whom you have given, that is when what you done has made a full circle and is complete, where your job; your task is complete. And that is when this journal is complete. It is not complete when I feel there is nothing more to say or understand, because all that highlights is the fool that I am, where I truly know nothing, because what is out there is bigger than you and me, so take away the I and the me to be one with the All. In this state you know, and from here you go back to the very beginning to return to what should be. When the Infinite touches me, and I feel this experience that is now a permanent, everlasting fixture within my existence, that is when this journal is complete. In me being touched, this means that all within the seen and unseen have gone through the same experience, and that is when my job is complete, because we are all in this mess together. Most don’t care because the mess does not touch them directly, where the norm for them is Life is shit but its okay. Having a few beers on a Friday afternoon after work is all we need to balance the scales, where now Life is once again okay. I am not knocking anyone out there, as it is not for me to judge – I just feel we should have tried harder to be kinder to ourselves and others. This place is a fucking dump, splattered with unbelievable Beauty here and there – it’s just a pity we could not remain in that Beauty rather than have to return to the job, and the System centered around the job. If you were blind, and now you can see, what impact would this have on your existence? What new world would be unfolding to you with each passing moment? When the prodigal Son/Daughter returns Home after being lost within the wastelands, what joy do they feel, as do those who Love them? On both accounts, what was is no longer there, where something new – something that is natural – returns to their Lives, where now they are complete, and there is nothing really more to say and do, so they merely be what they are. When the blind can see, and the lost child is Home, you and I will feel and know of this, and in that moment you will understand that your task is complete, where what you feel is a form of payment, saying that what should be is done and complete. I truly believe that that day is in our midst, waiting to touch us.
  3. A lot has been said about me, this I; the spirit and dense body form, but believe you me, we are important. We the spirit were created to house the precious cargo within, namely the Serpent soul. This Snake I have seen rise from a mans spirit during a ayahausca ceremony I attended years ago. I have seen my wifes Serpent soul, and mine I have felt within its canal within me too many times to mention. If you are a father or mother, and you bestow on me the task of looking after your children, you can appreciate the enormity of the task, where in my hands you pass on everything that is precious and holds true to you. This is what Queen Semiramis done when she created/formed us the spirit – to look after her precious kin. So understand that you the spirit are Loved and valued more than anything by this Queen. When the cogs of the wheels of the Game were earnestly set into motion, the spirit needed to focus on the Game so that we may give it our attention/energy, so the dense body form was created, where through this vehicle the spirit and Consciousness may learn the tasks towards perfection. In that classroom the sole agenda was to take our energy to feed the System of the illusion and the Beasts who dwelled within its core. We the spirit forgot about the precious cargo within, but those who knew the Game well knew of the innocence housed within the spirit. Many Serpent souls went rogue, where they consumed the spirit, and their game now became to attack the Serpent souls housed within the spirit – just because they can. There has ever only been one war, which rages as we speak, and that is the evil Serpent souls attacking the innocent ones within our spirit. One can not really call this a war, because in war two or more parties attack each other. So we can call it an onslaught/attack by evil Serpents on the innocent/pure ones within us. So here, once again, I reiterate: You are important, and the Queen is eternally thankful to you. That we soon missed the plot and forgot our divine purpose was not really our fault, where we looked without to survive, rather than looking within to nurture and care for. What we also need to understand is the nature of the Serpent within the unseen. It is beyond our awareness and intelligence, and to say that it is supreme is a gross understatement. Don’t try and go up against the bad ones because you are a fly on an elephants back, where not only are you nothing, you are irrelevant. The only weapon you have against them is to Love them, and this is what this journal is all about – to Love all within the illusion so that we may understand them. Those that are bad were once like you and me, who once said they will never turn bad and lose their integrity, but like them, we don’t know what curve-ball the Game can throw at us. Our downfall is our stupidity, where we believe we know something, but truthfully we know nothing. And this is the difference between us and the Serpent: They know, and we the spirit and body form don’t. The jewel in the crown, our Consciousness, they had by the balls and were squeezing tightly, so that dude/dudess became zero on the contract in finding a way out of this mess. It was this punk that had to wake up and come to the party in order to swing everything around, and this morning I need to see what else is missing – why is this Consciousness not flying. What is holding this fucker back; why is it not being? From the Love of a Queen we look towards the big picture to see what is going on, because as long as our Consciousness is not well, we the spirit and body form are going nowhere. An evil/disharmonious presence still permeates through our Consciousness, thus is found everywhere within our forms, as well as in the illusion. It is like you the kind and wise coming to talk to me, where you know I am a mess, and you know you can help me, but there is one criteria – I have to listen to you. What I feel as I go within is wisdom/understandings being catapulted away from the presence of Consciousness. It’s that same old story: Take what you give to me and shove it up your arse, where I am not interested in you and your ways. This I find hard to believe after everything that has been said and done, but what we don’t understand is Consciousness is not in its full cognitive state. When you are drunk or on a high, what benefit are my words to you at that moment? Sure, you can sober up and regret that you let yourself go like that, where now my words have added depth, where you do your best to pull yourself right. But what if you are permanently drunk? What use are my words to you then? To say that your Consciousness and mine is poisoned so that it may never know the truth is something that makes a lot of sense to me, where our Consciousness is fed a drug/frequency that it cannot live without, where this drug/state has come to define our Consciousness as this is all it has ever known. And what makes a lot of sense here, is when you the spirit cross the line to embrace the Reptilian frequency of the illusion, where you knowingly and willingly become bad to destroy and live off your own, that is when you the spirit and body form turn your back on your Consciousness, and this gives the Beast clarity, because now the Beast is no longer poisoned by the state of its Consciousness. That is why Evil has the upper hand here in the illusion – because they see and know, where those still bonded to the Goodness of their Consciousness are blinded by the drunken/delirious state of Consciousness. Oh man, I told you the cruel were cruel. When I go into the space of Consciousness to feel/understand the toxin within, I feel this clockwise movement of Consciousness around the periphery of its heart energy field – the gateway to the Infinite. It cannot enter this space, so it departs to the head to try and reason – to understand why it cannot return Home. So you go deeper; you go into Consciousness to see what it does not understand, and there you feel the poison/toxin as it floats/covers its “brain” area. This translucent fluid/frequency was placed within Consciousness so that it may never know/be itself, and this fluid was the anchor that stabilized the illusion so that it may be apart from the Infinite. If I do not know myself, how can I know my Home and return there? Do you understand the depths of Evil/cruelty within this place wherein you are trapped? And yet so many hold onto this illusion, because therein lies their beliefs, and what they are, is I am important. Do you understand the depths of our vanity, where this me is all that there is? Do you understand that there was no need to play us and entrap us, where this we done to ourselves. Look at me! I am important! What you are, is a pitiful existence – a pawn in a most cruel Game. When I healed dogs that were bitten by a puffadder snake, it blows me away at the level of toxicity of the venom. As the owner of one of the dogs once said to me, medicine cannot truly treat that kind of poison. Fair enough, the victim never died, where the anti-venom saved them, but what they never knew, was the effects of the poison are still within the core of their bone marrow, where slowly but surely they are eaten away from the inside, where the Life-form within them is eroded away by this most potent other-worldy toxic frequency. And I have no doubt that this is what happened to Consciousness, where the Snake bit into Consciousness to poison it, so that Consciousness may never know itself and its Home, thus the Dark Serpent may have a dwelling forever away from the fields of Infinite Love. And all those created around this delusional Consciousness were but collateral damage – food for the Beast. In its delusional/toxic state, Consciousness was deceived to play in this Game of learn to survive so that you may be closer to your god to whom you always bow down to so that you may know your place – you are nothing you piece of shit – this something that is the everything as it arose from the Infinite is a nothing, so learn you bastard, learn so that you may evolve and be something. That was the Game, and any fool could see that it was bullshit beyond, but if you cannot be, where you cannot think clearly and know yourself, you have no choice but to take the hand that leads you, because now you are blinded, and you cannot see. What a friggin’ disaster. This translucent toxic venom of the Serpent is removed from the presence of Consciousness now, and the static effects of this venom around Consciousness is grounded now so that the halo of the poison may also no longer remain. Now you can be yourself my friend. Now can you see. Now you can feel and enter Home, where there you go now to know and be yourself.
  4. What I often thought of in the past was the patriot. Can you imagine getting up every morning, and the first feeling that hits you is you are in the best country of the world. Whether you are right or wrong is not the issue here – it is living a Life where you are at peace with your dwelling, your community, and by and large, your planet, because the patriotism you feel within extends from you and touches all corners of the globe. What does patriotism do to your work ethics, as well as your integrity, where my country is doing its bit,so let me do mine. You become proud, as well as thankful, and you cannot tell me that this state does not uplift the frequency of the planet. I am not better than you in your country, because I have not been to your country, but here at home it is a beautiful place with beautiful people. That is the patriot, and that is the blessed. What bothers this Steven is that I have never had a home where I feel at home, where when I am away from home, I miss my home. For me, it has always been the reverse, where when we go away for a few days, dread fills me as we near home and what is waiting there – the awful neighbours; a place that I cannot call my own, where I long for a sanctuary in this madhouse. Every day for at least six years now I look at houses for sale, and never have I found one that is me. Of all the houses I have lived in, I sell because I have to move and get out of the community because they are just plain downright nasty. And that is not me – I am kind and considerate. Having read that sorrowful tale, let me tell you what was shown last night as I slept, and in the bigger picture, it does fit in with the above pitiful story of me longing to be a patriot. I was shown a city – it was a green city, as in the colour green was everywhere. Then I was given a name to the city – Jeddeah. That is Jeddah in Saudi Arabia. Then I was shown a green person trapped underground, where try as they may, they could not escape/leave their green chambered prison. It was written years ago in the journal that Saudi Arabia is the hub of evil here in the seen realms of this planet, but what we never knew, is on the unseen realms there is serious shit going on there that impacts our Pale Blue Dot, as Carl Sagan calls Earth. I cannot connect to this planet, and neither can you. The Beauty of the unseen – of Nature and the spirit faerie realm is not one with us on a permanent basis, because if it was, we would not fuck up this place, and if we did, Nature will take us out and put us in our place very quickly. When you are one with your living planet what does that do to your psyche? The patriot now becomes a soft-cock playing marbles during break at school compared to you the seen and unseen being that is one with your frequency/planet/world. How many thousands of years back would this Game have ended if you and the planet had an intimate, personal relationship, where as said, you are one with the planet beneath your feet? Can you imagine the completeness you must feel within, because that frequency of the planet is within you, where you and it are united. There once was a time here in the illusion when we spoke to the trees and felt the pulse of all Life here around us. Then, as the “I” seeked more and more power, we suppressed these living forces that were the planets so that all focus could be placed on me, as in I. This living, breathing spirit of the planet had to be cast aside so that I may take charge, and that is what happened in Jeddah on the unseen realms. Sure, on the seen you will feel it, where you are a guest on this planet wherever you go – where you are never one with all around you that is the planet that is your home away from Home. (In the unseen realms, at a location called Jeddah, the planet spirit of Earth is locked up there.) What I was shown last night as I slept highlights the depth of cruelty that runs this corner of the illusion, as well as the illusion at large, because this theme of locking up the spirit of the planet must be universal within the illusion, and I say this because if other planet spirits were free, they would have come to release the enslaved ones – our planet included. So how did these fuckers do it – how did they enslave the pureness that is the spirit of the planet? It was through colour – they changed the colour of the planet spirits, and this changed their form/frequency in the seen and unseen, where now they were captive, as in useless to themselves. A frequency was projected onto the planet that killed/limited/knocked down the natural state of the planet, where what was, was now no more. And this frequency has locked the planet spirits into their unnatural colour/state. From where is this frequency projected? The left eye represents the worlds/frequencies within the illusion. Beyond the left eye is the place where the frequencies/planets are controlled, and it really was not rocket science what they done – where the natural frequency was flipped to be the complete opposite to what is was. Understand that we live in an illusion, and permeating this illusionary frequency is the fields of Infinite Love. We are in the Infinite, yet we are made to focus on the illusion and give it our energy. Planets understand this, and they can say fuck you to the illusion, where they become one with the Infinite and project this state, all the whilst being in the illusion. Now you see the Beauty of the Infinite projected through the planet, and for Evil to reign supreme, this could never happen. So the frequency of the living being that is the planet was flipped so that it may never know itself, and what you feel coming from the planet is merely a remnant of what was. You are tapping into what was, not what now is, because the planet spirit has been enslaved in a colour frequency. Superman and his green cryptonite comes to mind now. So what happens now, is the flip-switch that turned the planet spirits into the opposite of what they were turns them back to what they are. How this is done, is by knowing what should not be, where now it becomes no more, and can never happen again, because the Game is up – I know what you done, so you cannot do it again you piece of shit. The planet spirits are free, and what they do – or what I would like them to do – is return to the fields of Infinite Love. The Infinite that their Consciousness felt is now released within their planet, where now you let Daddy come and play to sort out the mess, to return what is to what should be. As for us the spirit and body form, open yourself up to feel this oneness with the planet and all around you. You are feeling Home, and may this soft-cock Steven feel that as well, because that is what drives me – to be in the sanctuary of my Home where I belong. This is not so much a sanctuary, it is all there is as there is nothing else.
  5. Ask yourself why are the cruel cruel? It is for the high of me being above you, and one needs to understand what this high is. When I am cruel to you i.e. I intentionally cause sorrow to you, as well as disbelief to my actions, where you wish your association with me never happened, what happens during that moment of cruelty is Goodness within me dies. You might say I am destroying the Goodness in others by breaking them, but this is not true – I am destroying the Goodness in me. When what was Good within me dies, what happens in my standing compared to yours? The answer is I am above you, because now I am closer to this dense frequency of the illusion compared to you. When Goodness dies within me, at my core I become more Fearful, because now there is less Goodness within me, and this connects me even further to the Fear/Uncertainty upon which the illusion is run. All that I am now is a Beast, where my inhibitions are let loose for me to further embrace this madhouse and make it my own. I am above you due to the proximity of where we are, where in Hell the more evil you are the more power you have over the innocent lambs all around you. The cruel are above the innocent here in the illusion because this is the playground where you do what you want, so the more you do at the expense of others, the more Goodness within you dies, taking you further from the true state of your Consciousness. That is how inverted this place is, a true utopia for the stupid and the coward. So what the high is during the act of cruelty, is me moving deeper into the Reptilian frequency of the illusion, where my abnormal behaviour gives me greater proximity to this abnormal place, which makes me feel at home here, where I feel I belong amongst my fellow Beasts in the seen and unseen. What the cruel sooner or later understand is that the Sun no longer shines within their existence, where reality is but a blur between what is and what is not. Now they are lost to this place, where there is detachment between who and what they are and where they find themselves. Nothing within them is real, where all they are is this mass of distorted frequency. My goodness, and this was those who ruled over me and you, where their decisions made our lives more miserable with each passing day. Thus for me, the high is a dangerous state to find ourselves in. The opposite to the high is the constant. At a nearby university there is a library building that was built over a hundred years ago. Every single time when I see the building I am moved by its Beauty. I will never become blasé to this structure – it merely is what it is, where it is a constant, and that for me is what Goodness is, where it does not need a sunny day, or an excuse to ridicule someone to shine. In the constant you are what you are, where you cannot be anything but what you are. When my eyes close at night time to fall asleep the world of the unseen comes alive around me, and this prevents me from having a good nights sleep, so I am always tired, where I have to focus on any task throughout the day to make sure it is done properly. And in this fatigue I have learnt to give of the Goodness that I am in order to be true to myself. To be Love one needs to be Love, where you are what you naturally are. And this is the constant that is Goodness, where time or circumstances do not define you. You know what you are, and cannot be anything else but this state. Why I am saying all of this is because Life has to reciprocate what you project, where from a constant, you witness this that you are, which is the Infinite that is Home. Sooner or later you see yourself in all that is around you, and in that moment we are no longer lost, where we see the Infinite that we are.
  6. It is when you say to me “Ah, I understand” that you take back control of your existence. The foundation of the Game was Consciousness becoming more and more detached from itself and its Home. Now things became complicated, where the natural Love of self and Home was no more, and a new power source was needed, and why this power source was needed, was because Love became replaced by Fear/Uncertainty. “I don’t know; I am not sure; I am afraid.” This created an emptiness within us - a void what was naturally filled by the presence of Consciousness in its natural might, but a chain of events unfolded, where things went from bad to worse. In the fields of Infinite Love we are all One, but here in the illusion we began to scramble and race to get the upper hand over others to survive. Some loved this thrill of control, where now I am above you so I control you, and this high became the god of the illusion – this me the big-cock at the top of the hierarchical System. Us lesser beings merely looked and wished we were them, but we knew we couldn’t be, so our groupie status became good enough for us, where I will never be like you, but it’s okay by me to be a second-best you. We became pathetic beings, chasing this the me, where I have to be okay, and there is no other but I. We stopped caring; we stopped wanting to understand this Game so that we many return to what we are, never understanding that this Game has an expiry date, where what pleased us before now becomes irrelevant. Putting in the hours to buy that condo by the sea, or saving to upgrade the lake house – these things drove us, where we had to maintain and move forwards to better ourselves. What we never knew, and please take this from the literal standpoint from where it comes – what we never knew was that we invested in a System that was flawed. We build castles and brought forth beautiful paintings or songs in a place that should not be, so the beauty we create here – I am afraid to say – means nothing. If you are mesmerized by the splatter pattern of blood from the newly born infants throat that you have just slit, or the flower that bloomed today that was not there yesterday, understand that these joys that fill you with a peace within will sooner or later no longer interest you. Here in the illusion everything has an expiry date, where with each fall from our cultural and ethical values we become less than what we were, until we ourselves fade away and become no more, where the ultimate – this me – no longer becomes of interest to us. You see, here in the Game nobody wins – we all lose sooner or later. All of us lose; there are no winners, and this is the insanity of this place, where we run around like chickens with their heads chopped off towards our certain demise. Normally when I sleep at night time I see the unseen through my Third Eye, but last night I was shown a definitive message: We are doing our best to build a Utopia within a System that is flawed, thus whatever we build is useless and worthless, where it will never hold and stand the test of time because the System/Illusion is flawed, and thus so is everything within the System. The more we drifted from the Love that we are; the more we drifted from the Infinite, the more our existence here in the illusion became unnatural, so what was needed was energy. Love became replaced by Fear/Uncertainty, and to keep this Fear alive we had to eat. You could say we all became addicts, where we needed something to appease this Fear within, and the foundation of our survival in this place where we don’t belong became energy – preferably fear-energy to satiate this fear within us. Of course balance had to be met, where we could express this Love that we were, but by and large we hung onto and pushed the pole that turned the wheel called Survival. So we have to do the complete opposite to what we have always done, where you don’t take from the System, rather you give to it. You see the flawed System and you give it the Love that you Consciousness are. You give Love so that what was, now is no more, where you are not feeding the System/Illusion, rather you are returning what should be so that it now is. Where there was Fear now is there Love. Don’t try and change the Game by playing therein, rather remove the Game as it was flawed, and how this is done is by changing the concept of the Game, where Fear is replaced by the Love that you are. You have to understand: Don’t create in a flawed System. Remove the System by removing the flaw, which is Fear, where you replace this by your presence of Love. Just be, and in being you will naturally give of the Love that you are, but know to what you are giving – you are giving to a System so that it becomes no more, because that System is not you and me. We are Love, and from Love comes Love. Compare this to our state of Uncertainty, where from Fear comes the now of survival. What I say is bigger than you and me – it is for our Consciousness to grasp and make its own, but to you and me the spirit and body form, there comes a time when finger needs to be pulled out of arse and we do our bit to get the ball rolling back Home. Project the Love that you are that is your Consciousness, as this is the real you. First and foremost be/give Love, and from this foundation Life will unfold as it should. If Life is not panning out as you wish, project your Love into the problem at hand so that the Fear may be removed so that clarity may be met. I did not write this journal in my cave in Nepal with a loin cloth covering my package – it was written in this shit place called Life, so at all times I have to be realistic to what is out there in the seen and unseen. As of now, group hugs won’t do it for me, but understanding that in order to transform, one needs to transform the System, and that understanding will get me through this day and the next. I be Love for the System so that the System may become converted from Fear to Love, and on this platform/System we may now walk. There is no holy grail that needs to be found to become the Enlightened Love that you are. All you need is understanding, and that will get you through.
  7. The novel Lord of the Flies by William Golding highlights how easily we can turn on each other – how the Beast dwells in all of us, where there is no loyalty to any, but to the Beast within. And that, by the way, includes you and me, because the Beast is within all. They say that the gun as a weapon of war became obsolete around the 1960’s, where mind-control devices took them over around that time period, where from my machine I can instruct you to put down your weapon and surrender to me. Such is the level of technology out there. Sounds impressive? Well, it’s not. I remember when this journal began, where one night my spirit travelled to another time and space. There I saw masses of slaves doing manual labour, and standing amongst them, assessing their progress, was this man of olive coloured skin who had these large wings. My first knowing in seeing this fucker was that he had the power over millions. He must have felt the presence of my spirit looking at him, because he turned towards me and covered his face with his one hand so that I could not see what he was about to do to me. This man send forth these hierogliphic frequencies towards me to take me out, and when I felt the effects of what this man projected towards me, I immediately left this world. The point to make, is what projects the Beast within us, where we will naturally destroy rather than uplift? If one man, through the mere presence of what he is, can have the power over millions, what technology is out there deep within the unseen core of the illusion that keeps Goodness at bay while we are pushed into a corner to do unspeakable acts on those closest to us, be it our fellow species, or ones we love the most. Your Life has never been your own under your free will, and here please don’t put on those Goody-Two-Shoes, where never will I betray my integrity you tell me. Our Life purpose is to be comfortable during our drive to survive, but throw away that cuppa tea and cucumber sandwiches and face the horrors of war, and what you imagined yourself to be is no more, because now the Beast that is projected onto you is unleashed, where you kill or be killed. And just, by the way, we kill our friends the animals and their environment/home every single fucking day just because we can. I often wonder how far I would have gotten in this journal if I knew something, where I was on point A and now had to get to point B. In knowing nothing I don’t know what I still have to understand, so I keep going, but if I knew how lost and controlled we are, the task at hand would floor me because there is so much that needs to be peeled away before we can merely be. What we do not understand, is that the Beast in the seen and unseen controls us, where these Beasts are truly horrific, where they use us to perform the unspeakable. Such filth; such horrific entities have sway over us, so can you imagine how toxic and disharmonious is the illusionary realm, where Love is no longer present? Please don’t give me that bullshit of there is Love out there, because if there was we would not be in survival mode. They say that those that God Loves dies young, and this is true, because what Gods Love is, is innocence, and how innocence is slashed apart in this place where the Beast rules. So what made those boys turn on Piggy in The Lord of the Flies? What unleashes the Beast within you, where from one moment to the next I don’t know you, where never am I safe here in the illusion? What will transform your Life and mine in the moment is the understanding that we are cared for and looked after by something bigger than us, where this presence that is Consciousness is felt and expressed from you on a permanent basis. That is why a Mother is so special in all our lives, because what a Mother symbolises is someone who cares, where never are we alone, where always we will be more than okay because we are cared for by someone who always watches our backs. That presence was never there for the innocent that were and continue to be touched by the cruelty that is Life, and why is this so? The answer is because what killed Piggy took over the illusion, where at any moment this Beast can flip over inside of us and be unleashed. So what is this Beast; what is this frequency? (This question is asked now because as Consciousness returns to its complete state, this Beast frequency is met and acknowledged, and before it is shunned, I need to understand this maker of widows – this one that crushes and obliterates the innocent, where we that are Good can so easily become the Beast.) When they capped the heart energy field, it had to be replaced with something, where something anew had to be born within us. And here you can ask how is this possible – how can you seal the natural flow of Love? That is easy to answer, because what happened was we were no longer Home, where our Consciousness was trapped in a Game of learn and evolve. Do not underestimate our shell-shocked state of being in a place where we don’t belong. There is nothing worse than being in a job you hate or being in a toxic relationship, in other words, being in a place where you don’t belong, and the origin thereof was your Consciounsess and mine being deceived to be trapped within an illusion. From this vantage point we were putty in the hands of the cruel, as what they done to us was through the hidden/occult hand of raw cruelty, where those that came to rule the Game became driven by power rather than Love. When I go into the stillness of the silence to feel this frequency that was projected upon us, what I feel is nothing, meaning no frequency was projected upon us. With the heart field capped, what this done was unleash free will onto us, where if I want, I can do what I wish – I just musn’t get caught out. The heart field that became capped unleashed free will, and the two-faced Beast was born, where what I show you is not what I am, because I can. With the heart field capped now I have the option/choice to become cruel, and this option is always present within you and me, hence the Beast within is always present. Love became no more, and if we choose, we can become whatever we want, just don’t get caught out. Now our Lives became hush-hush, where what you see is not what you get, and this holds true in the eight billion plus of us here in the seen, as well as the infinite numbers in the other worlds, as well as in the unseen. How you counter this is easy, where you give from the heart energy field. You give because you can, and that neutralizes and changes everything. What does a Mom do – she cares; she gives the Love that she is from the heart field, and this is what you and I begin to do, where with the heart field open and Consciousness returning to its former state, opportunities present themselves to us to give, and when we do, we know the power of giving from the heart field, as from this Home Consciousness may be and express itself. So my advice is stop having options, where either I like you or I don’t. Merely be what you are, and you know you are this when you give. You give Love first and foremost – to yourself, and from there everything else unfolds as it should. This Game stops when we be what we are, and what this is, is to give of ourselves to express ourselves. That is your purpose and mine, as this is what we naturally are.
  8. Yesterday morning done what I could to restore the energy field of this middle-aged man. When he was a child his father didn’t want him, so he was dropped off in a boarding school, and his dad left him there. At night time this little boy wandered the halls of the boarding school trying to make sense of everything. He was so scared he pissed himself every night. Then this lady brought her dog to me for help, but actually the dog brought them for help. This lady remembers from the age of two years old how she tried to cope being in an abusive family, where physically, mentally, emotionally – on all levels – some cruel being in the unseen placed this Beautiful flower of a spirit and body form in this hell-hole of a family so that she may not blossom. You and I cannot comprehend what these people and their spirits have been through, and there are countless more that have been through even worse. What happens to these beings during their states of fear, is a part of them departs to go and find their happy place. That part of them stays there and doesn’t return to the spirit and body form. So now they live their lives a literal fraction of what they are, and of course the wheels begin to fall off as they cannot cope without a big chunk of them that is not present. On this lady I understood I had to go and find the part of her that went AWOL – absent without leave, and this I done. The deal was this part of her could return to this Happy place any time it wished, but what was important was that this ladies energy and spirit not be divided, but rather stand as one. This morning it hit me that the same applied to Consciousness. In its lost and deceived state a part of it must be elsewhere, so one foot is in Hell and the other is in this make-believe Happy place so that the whole of Consciousness may cope. And that was our weakness – where our Consciousness was divided. With your intent – by knowing there is a problem that should not be – you bring forth this part of your Consciousness that is not present, so that your Consciousness may stand as one. I am not necessarily saying a big chunk of you is not present, although this may well be the case – what I am saying with certainty is that our Consciousness is not standing as one within itself because of the blows that Life hit us with. Those beatings from being in a place where you don’t belong comes at a price, and that price is your Consciousness and mine not being what it should be, where it is either rattled and detached from itself, or a big chunk of it is somewhere else “running through fields of daisies with flowers in its hair.” Jokes aside, we are helpless because our Consciousness is divided and not standing as one within itself. This stops now, where this dude/dudess returns as one whole unit. And please, stay this way. You are bigger than this Game because you are the only thing in this Game that is real, as you arose from the Infinite. Just shine; just be, and the spirit and body form will follow.
  9. So what is the solution? Yesterday went to speak with the authorites at my kids school to make them aware of the problem there before it haemorrhages. I spoke from the heart because I care, and the response was disgusting and uncalled for. By and large we have lost the art of finesse and communication, where we either bark out a few words as commands, or we attack with the disgusting person that we are. That rattled me, where you go in because you care, and what greets you is the step that precedes physical violence. Left unchecked, we will begin to take the law into our own hands, where we kill to solve a problem, where the problem will be buried – literally. In no time these opposing groups will meet a stalemate, where hatred meets hatred, where the two parties cannot go beyond each other because they are the same. When the State is tired of these rivalries, where killing those who wish to take from you or oppose you becomes the norm, that is when mass slaughter will happen, and this will occur with precision and sureness by the State, where the brute is here one day, and the next this lineage is gone forever more, never to reoccur. What will be left is the artificial, drugged, intellectual who is wired to the machine within that they now are, and these will go about their business feeding the Cloud and the System energy. How far are we away from blood spilling on a street near you? I would say it would be triggered by a huge economic collapse or a world war, where I have to steal from you to survive, and that will be the beginning of the end for humanity as we know it. How far are we away from this? I would say about twelve months, where if the shit hits the fan, it will happen around then? How can I say this? Because we have stopped all caring and empathy. Life is too fast and we have been lost along the way, where we cannot cope. We are ripe for the plucking – this sport of I kill you to defend myself from what you wish to take from me. In the past we would call this a crime or self-defence, but in the future it will happen so often we will view it as a natural phenomena. So what is the solution? The answer is to be a real Girl and a real Boy, where the Consciousness that you are shines, where you see and feel and smell and know this that you are. Where you release what you are to be/become what you are. Become what you are. There is no other way forwards because there is so much bad and confusion out there, that if you don’t take charge of your Life then somebody else will, where they will walk over you and take you out because now we are in the next phase of survival. How long ago were we the friends of the animals, where we Loved them as we Loved ourselves? It is to step into another frequency/world to be able to speak to the animals and plants, because it is there, as it always has been. And just like that, things change, and they are never the same again. How can we just assume tomorrow will be like today? What stops the cruel in the seen and unseen from flipping the switch that changes the course of destiny, where Life now becomes more difficult for all of us? What I assure you, is if the cruel don’t destroy us, we will end up destroying ourselves, as this is my right – to survive. We began killing our friends the plants and animals a long time ago so that we may be okay, so how long before we turn on ourselves? You think I am talking nonsense, but look at our lives. What do we live for? What are we doing here? What is our purpose? The madness out there is seen as the norm, where to break down is better than to build up. Are we not already the savage? How long back did culture and the arts die? Yesterday I was floored by the pig-headedness that is out there, where I have lost the ability to talk to you without shouting and verbally attacking you. Those that are cruel make up your species and mine, so what is one to do about this? The answer is to walk with Consciousness that you are, and with this comes no fireworks or laser show. You merely are what you are, and what you feel inside of you is a Love of a God that is you that is Consciousness. You walk and you live and you be. You stand still and you die by the evil that is everywhere. Yesterday I was floored. What stops me from being floored today and tomorrow and the next day and the next? I just keep being the Consciousness that I am. What will that bring me? That I do not know, because I do not know what peace feels like; what freedom from this existence feels like. I have not shone enough to be able to see myself and know this peace that I am, but this I have to find, as the alternative is not an option. So keep going. That is the only solution there is.
  10. There was never a time in my existence when the chaos out there was as blatant as it is now. In times of war or economic collapse I can imagine there must be an element of shell-shock, where people are rattled, and either you become grounded to a certain degree, or you fall apart completely. What does happen is your eyes open to reality, where there is a problem out there that is touching and rattling me. During these times – I am sure more than any other time – Divine Intervention is wished upon to deliver us from what is staring us in the face, where we understand that when Life shows its hand to give us a few slaps, that it is bigger than you and me. Now there is no answer for what is out there but to hope, where we understand the joys of our team winning or our kids bringing home a good report card are truly infintismal in the big picture. Our eyes open to the fact that there is more than me, and when this hits us, we understand that not only are we small, we are pathetically fragile. How is it possible that what I see out there when I reverse my car out the garage to go about what needs to be done is not seen by others? Do they not feel the chaos as I do, because this is not my imagination – it is real, and it is scary. Carlo Collodi wrote Pinocchio to warn us about bad behaviour – always let your conscience be your guide. Be a good boy; be a good girl, because if you do not there are consequences, where some say you give yourself bad karma, where what you give you get. Did we listen? Did we do what was good for ourselves and others, where all benefit and are uplifted? I am not walking around the classroom with my big stick seeing who has and hasn’t done their homework in asking such a question, I merely reflect on the chaos out there and wonder how we allowed ourselves to become so shallow – this world of selfies and a lack of culture that defines who we are at our core for all to see, where we have integrity and humbly give thanks for what we have. It is madness out there, and we are okay with this – this plastic, superficial world where corruption and lies are acceptable to us from those who guide our lives and those whom we love. What happened to the good old days, where I knew you and you knew me, where you were solid and so was I? It doesn’t help to long for the past, and it sure as hell doesn’t help to fear the present and future, but when one looks, and you see nobody else wants to see what you see, because they are okay with destruction, that creates an angst within me as to what will happen next, because sooner than later this party will end, and when the lights are turned on we will see what we are and have and what we considered as being cool. I don’t want to be around when that happens, because I was never in that party, so I refuse to feel the blowout of the explosion when the cookie crumbles. When I was a teenager every weekend I tried to get more drunk than the previous one, and this was harmless, where me and my friends let our hair down and had fun. We never bothered anyone; we were never a nuisance, and with time I understood there was more to Life and to me, so let’s go out there and find it. Basically I grew up because I wanted to be better than what I was, where I learn to grow to experience to lead a full Life. This world had changed, and it has been steered in this direction, and how we have embraced this “I don’t know myself but let’s fuck everything up, including ourselves.” This world scares me – it scares me every day when I drive out my garage, and it scares me when I sit on my couch. It scares me because that is not me – I don’t feel comfortable with what others consider the norm because when the bubble bursts it will be ugly. When the drunken Boys feel the effects of their behaviour and turn into the donkeys that they are and were corralled into being, you don’t want to be around. Trust me, you don’t want to see what happens then, where the chaos that has always been stares everyone in the face. How has this journal touched the Life of Steven? How has it bettered my Life? What wisdom has it brought me, where I am a better person today compared to yesterday? Wow! That’s a question for you. Scared is not the right word. Scared means you are afraid. I am not afraid, rather what I see frightens me, because when the fool who considers himself supreme through his/her belief of entitlement, you don’t want to see the mayhem that follows. So what this journal has done to me in writing it has frightened me – not so much by what the Beasts in the unseen have done to us, but rather what we have done to ourselves. There is such a thing as karma, where we look at our fuck ups and say that is not me, where we see the shame we have inflicted upon ourselves. In that moment you grow up where you understand it was never just about you because we are all in this together. This journal has brought me sweet absolute fuck all, except the knowing that we will be okay. What would have happened if I had not written it? What would have happened if the chaos that has always been goes unchecked, where we don’t go back to the beginning and ask what the hell happened that Love became no more; where the pathetic saw themselves as the superior over all? We live in a world where filth was allowed to rise and rule over us, where we have no say and they are allowed to do as they wish. This inversion of what should be is the base foundation of the chaos out there, where how do you talk to the stupid? You cannot, because they are stupid, and yet these are the one who rule and have ruled for lifetimes – the Boys who do what they want when they want because they can. Collodi warned them, as did their Conscience, but its fun – this freedom of having no responsibility to those who share the same space as you. I am eternally thankful for the writings of this journal because it opened my eyes to the seen and unseen. What I see that I have come to understand is not me – it will never be me as that is not who and what I am. So what this journal does is move me to where I belong. What is out there is not me, so I move to what I am and where I belong. And how do I do this you may ask? It is done by the law of Attractions. Know yourself. Be yourself, and you will be where you belong as that is what you are. So what did this journal do for me? It got me to understand who I am not. I am not a Beast in the seen and unseen. I am not cruel. I am not irresponsible. I have integrity; I have self-respect. And most of all – I don’t belong in this madhouse, because that is not me. I also know my limits – I know this Game is bigger than all of us and we need help. So I chose to help those who can help us – Sophia; Semiramis et al. I helped them, but I do not wait for them to help me, rather I move to where I belong, and this is the Law of Attraction, where the Home within moves me to the Home that is the Source of the Infinite, where Consciousness goes back Home. That is all that matters; that is the only priority – to be Home where we belong. Those that created this mess will clean it up because the mess lies with them. They can go and fuck themselves – these cruel bastards. It was always their Game they deceived us into. With the lights turned on; with Consciousness being what it is, they will see what they are and wished they allowed their conscience to be their guide.
  11. It was the System of the illusion that created the ying and yang; the left and right; the good and bad; the day and night. It was the blocking off of the true state of Consciousness that division was met, where from another we take to remain complete. And this is true, because now what was, was no longer more. The All that is Consciousness became no more, where I give to get, and what you receive is pittance, as I hold the key to who gets and when. I give so that you may give thanks to me – you that is the slave to me; the trash that can and will never be my equal. That house of cards comes a falling down. My advice is do damage control, as I suspect in many there is, where you allow Consciousness to be, and this will filter into the seen and unseen realms. *** Have been coughing myself to sleep over the last few nights from a bad flu, so have not had a cat sleeping in my arms during the night – she slept on the chair reserved for one of the dogs. So when the one dog went to sleep on her chair last night she could not as it was pre-occupied. During the early hours of this morning was woken up by the footsteps of Tia on the wooden floor to see if her chair was vacant. Somewhere in my half awake, deep sleep I felt the expanded base of my left foot and ankle as the Serpent was moving its way into my form. Then the whole picture came into view where I recalled the implanted dream of me being in a social setting where I did not really want to be as the company was not my sort. And to crown it all, as my body lay in bed sleeping, what was walking on my face and that of my spirit was what looked like a soft toy dinosaur that was about two meters tall. There they were, these soft clawed feet walking on my head to make sure I do not awaken as the Serpent goes about its business. And all this shit happens as we go about our flustered lives, not really knowing if we are coming or going or who we are. What is out there in the unseen that has a direct impact on our lives is unbelievable, and the spirit realm is becoming street smart to this nonsense at an alarming pace. The days of playing it hush-hush from the shadows are falling apart for all to see this pathetic Game that is driven by nothing else but cruelty, because that is what cruelty is – it is cowardice, where I destroy you to feel good about myself, because I am okay and you are not, and this pleases me because I am above you the one I have just destroyed. Wow, and these came to rule over an illusionary realm. Can you understand how low we have been to have these wasted spaces rule over us since before the beginning of time. If it wasn’t for my cough and cat sleeping on the chair and the steps of an agitated dog on the floor, I would not have known of the Serpent that was entering my space. I have known these fuckers for over ten years, where I see and feel and smell them as my body sleeps and my spirit and Consciousness is cognitive of them, so what is going on? If it wasn’t for luck they would have passed through my radar. When you focus, everything becomes intensified and the big picture becomes blurred as you hone in on the problem at hand. So now I don’t focus – I just stand back and see the problem at hand. What is going on? The mechanics that make up us the body form and less dense spirit are mind-boggling, in what we believe them to be, and what they are, are completely the opposite. This guy I know was fixing his lawn mower and the blade slipped and almost completely sliced off his thumb. They sewed back the tendon and re-attached the thumb, but yesterday he complained that he had lost flexion in the thumb. (The accident happened about just over a week ago.) When I went into his space to help, there was a tear in his energy field over the chest area, and I assume this was from the shock/fright of the trauma. When the tear in his energy field was pulled back to where it should be the flow of energy returned to his thumb, as now his energy/body forms were united as one unit. But it was later when I re-checked on this man to make sure he was still okay that what I felt was wow. From the left thumb going to the brain was this bundled, uniformed flow of energy. It was a chord of energy about an inch wide that folded itself into the shape of the arm to link the hand to the brain. So what are we made of? – It is frequency energy patterns/bundles that are electric in nature. Nothing is solid – it is just wave patterns – the patterns of a mirage in a desert, and this is you and me and all Life in the illusion, and that was wow for me to see and feel in another of the Human race. Somewhere in this network of nerve/electric bundles we have been fucked over to be a slave species to the cruel, and from there the mechanism has been locked so that we may not rise above ourselves, where we out-think and out-grow our limitations. And this setting, I assume is in Consciousness, as this is the hard-drive around which we were created. In simplistic terms, we are lego pieces in a box that cannot rise above ourselves and be more than lego pieces. We cannot dance with the wind or ride on a ray of sunlight because we are fucked up little pieces of lego. We are single, isolated building blocks instead of being united with the All, starting with our Consciousness. So what is going on? What you feel is the Infinite of the All deep within your heart energy field. It is like the molten lava of a volcano, and it is Beautiful as it is natural and what should be. Then I smell this disgusting smell of the Serpent, and this fountain of lava from the Infinite is capped, where it no longer touches us and is a part of our existence. The sardines that swam as one in the ocean are now crammed into their little tin and sealed tightly therein – that now became the separation of the Infinite from us the manufactured forms, and I stress that what this means is we are isolated from Consciousness. In an anti-clockwise direction a lever is turned, where our separation from the Infinite/Consciousness is secured. Just to the left of the midline of the chest area another lever begins to rotate. Something is set into place over the area of our anatomical heart area in the unseen realms, and this becomes the source to us the spirit and body form. Now we are linked to an Artificial source of energy, and please understand that what this is, is beyond your comprehension and mine, where they took the true origin of Consciousness and made a replicate, an artificial construct thereof. As I write these words I smell the stink of the Serpent, and what I smell is the foul nature of those that set us the artificial body and spirit forms into motion. There was no Love there in their task and duty – it was a welder working on a machine, knowing the machine will experience limitation and heartache so that the welder may live off of the machine. (So where does our compassion come from – our caring? I would say this is from the Infinite that cannot be shut off/capped in its entirety, where what we feel and know to be the truth is from this that touches us that is the All.) Above this device they installed to the left of our chest I feel a tap on top of it, and this tap determines the amount of artificial consciousness we receive. Talk about playing God! Fields/colonies of species were harvested across the illusion, and the level of caring/consciousness of these entities they determined. As said, to control the Game you have to control every aspect of it. I would say across a graph line this level of consciousness never dwelled too high, and if anything, it remained at the level of the Beast, where at any time we can cross over and say fuck this, now I go with the flow of no Consciousness, where I am what I am – a cruel, despicable wasted space that provides no input to Life but to destroy it and myself. Can you understand my will to return Home to once again be amongst my own, rather than be what is around us now that we accept as part of the furniture. That control valve and the machine to which it is attached that regulates our artificial consciousness to us becomes no more by knowing it is there and has no place within our existence. That cap on the Consciousness that we are is no more, and we the body forms become one with the Consciousness that we are. Just take what you can handle so that you don’t become burnt by the Sun within.
  12. The cull was never really on the cards for those that ran the show, because the more there are in a dystopian culture, the more chaos there is, and this energy is needed to keep the illusion going. Wars were and are five-course orgasmic feasts for those in the Reptilian frequency of the illusion, so the intent throughout the ages was never to lessen the food supply, the intent was always to control it, and this they have done masterfully. What I was shown last night as I slept was a theme – one which I do not understand, and thus arse meeting couch this morning to understand what needs to be known. The principle shown as I slept was the one needs to meet the other for unity and a working relationship to be met. A lock is made for a key to fit into it, and so too do we the ants in the ant colony need to fit in with those that manufactured our ant farm, where the two have to unite as one, where in this case maximum energy has to be drawn from us, all the while we are kept stupid, so that the System of the illusion may tick over for another day where all may eat and be merry. I tried to break into the Chinese market as an Equine Chiropractor years ago, and the organization there that sponsored my visit took me and some of the guests at my talk out for lunch. They sat me next to a professor from one of the Chinese universities, and during the course of the meal I asked him what is the most important thing in Life for him. This man looked wise and educated, hence my question so that I may learn and better myself. His response did not require time to mull over; it was short and sweet: “To eat.” This was the most important state in Life to him – the reason why we live. And how right he was, where we all live to eat. Of course to take it beyond that state of pleasure now and then is something we cannot live without, so the orgasm is the high – the cherry on top of the cake. But there is something else that supercedes these states, where to eat and to have intercourse is a by-the-by to survive, where they are there but insignificant to those that have tasted the power of dominion over others. I can enter the frequency of this absolute power to feel and understand it, where, as an example, my decisions determine whether you and your children have food to eat for the next month, but this I refuse to do because my ego is intact and I don’t like going where I don’t belong. Having said that, how is the earth and nature plundered so that I may survive, where I am above what we take and kill, thus am I not a hypocrite? I would say yes, I am one, but every moment of every day I move towards the natural state where Love is supreme because there is nothing else, and to understand this unity of lock and key between us and our oppressors will be a huge leap to where we belong. In my sleep state I had the impression that something within us connects us to the ones that feast from our energy, and ditto – something within them connects to the something within us. So what and where is it? Because that makes sense, where there has to be a magnetic attraction between two forces for the one to take from the other. In you and I the spirit and body form there is such a mechanism, but its origin – its power source – is plugged into our Consciousness. Those fuckers that know of the Game and play therein and are fully aware of their suppression and cruelty over others have the receiver implanted within them, where what is within us flows to them. And here, I would say to those in the upper echelons of the Game, it is more than having pleasures and food/energy – it is about dominion over the worlds of the illusion, where you are untouchable because those below you are so inferior to you, you can take them out with a swipe of your hand just because you can. You are master, and this is all you need and will ever want, because you don’t get better than this in the illusion. There is just one catch buddy – you rule over an illusion; something that is not real. You rule over fools whose priority and driving force is to have their cocks sucked, so what are you master of? And this one needs to understand, where when you become detached from reality – of what is important, which is to care and be – you lose perspective of who and what you are because now you have nothing to compare yourself with. You are not on my level, so I cannot bounce off myself onto you to see my faults. These with absolute power float past the stars and we keep them there by basking in their false glory – their glory and power over the stupid, untamed Beast who is at peace with destroying all and themselves to live for another day to eat and have pleasure. We kiss the arse of mirages in a desert, and this makes us complete. I will never get to be you, but my slave status in your presence is enough to fulfill me. Thanks, but no thanks. Would rather move on to where I belong, as do the innocent. What is this magnetism between the aware and unaware slaves of the illusion and those that run the show and survive off of us? To understand it is to break it so that we may go our separate ways, and this is what masters imagined would never happen, hence their exalted status of I am untouchable as my dominion over you is secure. And how right they are, because as long as you are plugged into the space of these fuckers there is nothing I can do for you, or you for yourself. It is the raw, Beautiful Love of the Animals that lifts us up to see the big picture, and what we see and feel is a frequency line that goes into the heart field to come out thereof and make a full circle once again with itself. My first impression was that someone just had a circular earing pierced into their nose, where what should not be there is this loop that is now a permanent fixture. Something entered the heart field that is Consciousness and anchored itself therein. Now the heart field that is Consciousness no longer worked as it should, where two sharp, stabbing pains were felt on either side of the lower abdomen. It feels like a catapult shooting something off from the left lower abdomen, and then from the left to the right side of the abdomen, the catapult makes a complete clockwise circular motion. And now this clockwise movement of the catapult never stops, but its movement is erratic and always off centre – an effective, but helter-skelter System is set into motion. And this make sense, where the natural workings of Consciousness was blocked with a symbolic, and yet also literal ring through it, and a different mechanism was set into place to feed from those within the Illusion. “To eat.” That is what Life is about. Damn right you are. May that professor understand there is more to Life than your tongues taste receptors working and your brain telling you what is great and what is not. What Life is about is feeding the System so that the illusion remains intact so that the cruel can carry on destroying lives and this place we call home. The heart space that is Consciousness was and is for all, but this was locked/blocked/hijacked where the house always wins, where from you I will always take, thus being always above you. Now there was just a flow that took – took primarily from our Consciousness to feed masters and the turbines of the Illusion. That ring through the heart field of Consciousness is now no more. Remember to be in order to witness the natural state of Consciousness that has been enslaved and abused for so long.
  13. With Infinite Love touching you and entering your space, nothing else may do so, what disharmony was within you is released with Love to Love so that you may be a vessel for nothing else but the Love that you are. So be it. *** What a cyborg is, is half Human, and half machine amalgamated as one. This is the future that would have touched you in your lifetime. Where did this concept come from? It comes from the spirit realm, where when you have the courage to look at what is there, you will see that you the spirit has portions of it missing from the constant onslaught and abuse over lifetimes, where your energy/essence becomes less and less and you literally start to fade away. So you the spirit have elements of you missing, and this the cosmic geneticists need to fix and upgrade. So you the would-be cyborg would have had this modification first and foremost on the spirit, and this would have been mirrorered on the dense body realm. Take a look at the big picture and the Human cyborg would have been plugged into the digital Cloud, and the spirit cyborg into the machine that is the System of Life. This future no longer applies to us, as what was missing within our forms is filled by the presence of Infinite Love. So be it. *** What Evil is, is not having a platform of peace within you, but rather destruction. Through destruction, joy is met. When I say or do something, and it brings a twinkle to your eye, that brings me joy, whereas to those that are Evil, your pain – be it literal, emotional, or mental – brings them joy. This state of barbarism and Darkness combined has no platform and roots because it is unnatural – it goes against everything that should naturally be. And this is where your energy and mine were needed, because now the System of the illusion runs and is run by an entity that has no natural foundation. What happens when the energy we emit can no longer sustain these Beasts in the seen and unseen? What happens when our energy can no longer satiate the power the System needs to survive, where your emotional release of fear and its subsidiary states now mean nothing to the Beast and the System? The answer is one needs a different supply source of energy, and this is where your Consciousness and mine comes into play. Why lockdown our planet? – To make people fearful so they will listen to what you want to tell them and make them do. Why the fake Covid narrative? – To give them an answer to the problem you created, which was the lockdown and fake Covid scam. So why inject the Human race? – To transform them, where they no longer are, and what you injected within them may reproduce and grow. Okay, but why? When I am in the presence of those that have had at least two jabs, I cannot stand within two to three metres from them without feeling the presence within them that is growing. What is within them is so unnatural that it forces me to keep my distance. By 2030 you will own nothing and be happy. That is because you will no longer exist, where what they injected within you would have taken you over, and by “you,” we imply your Consciousness. What they injected into the stupid is somethimg that will form around our Consciousness, and from there project the state/energy of Consciousness into the System of the illusion to keep it and the powers that be alive. But this does not make sense, because the architects of the illusion could have placed Consciousness within the System to generate the turbines. But, you see, it is the Life-form created around Consciousness that emits the energy. So, like a parasite, what was injected into the stupid, this parasitic Reptilian entitity will take us the spirit and body form over, where we are alive, yet dead as well, because we will have no control over our body and spirit. It’s like you shouting at others for help but no one can hear you because of the glass window between you and them. That “glass window” will be the fully formed monster within you, who feeds from your suppressed emotions as well as your Consciousness, where now its true function as a transmitter kicks in, where your emotions tapped from you, as well as your Consciousness, is fed to the System. You might say this has happened since before the beginning of time to us the slave species, and you are right, but now there is a new twist, where within you the spirit and body form is one who regulates the intensity of energy we release. The orgasm was the ultimate release of our energy, and this is, say 0.4%, whereas now our untapped energy can be hacked into and taken all the way up to one hundred percent. We have been kept alive and at dummy status so that we do not rise above the System on our way Home, but now they need more of our energy to keep them the unnatural and their unnatural illusion surviving, hence the lockdown to impose the jab so that we may be taken over and parasited from in a way never done before. And to those who say no and go against the new ways, forget it – you will be taken out in the blink of an eye. I hear about ways to protect your wealth from what is to come and I laugh, where if you are not parasited from by a Reptilian entity within, you will not be here – you will be taken out. With the Infinite shining within your space and that of the illusion, all of that changes. *** Why do you get up in the morning? The answer is to survive. So if you wish to transform – to be better than what you were yesterday compared to today, then you have to lose your survival mode status, where now you get up in the morning for a different reason, and what that is, is to live a remarkable life. How this is done, is allow the Infinite to take you over, pick you up to uplift you, and from there lead you to experiences that are truly remarkable, be it the laughter of a child, or a sun setting, or witnessing a leaf fall from a tree. Know that you have always survived in a Game where the house always wins; where the System is rigged for itself and not you. Now go one better, where you allow the Infinite to touch and uplift you, where now you be this Love of the Infinite that you are. Now there is no System – now there is only the Infinite which we experience in this reality until it is our time to depart here. *** What began to kill me the spirit and body form when I entered the Reptilian frequency of the illusion was the poison of the Serpent. I felt his poisen spread through my body and spirit when I was attacked by those that dwelled in this nest of cruelty, but I believe that when the disharmonious, insane Serpent took over to rule the illusion, its sheer presence spread this poison, where the mantle piece of the illusion that was Peace within was replaced by the poison frequency of the Serpent, and what this poison done, was turn natural to unnatural. (I became immune to this poison, where it didn’t/couldn’t kill me, but no doubt its presence and side-effects linger.) It is this effects of being poisoned that we have to heal now so that we may rise up and walk to where we belong. And who is talking here is Steven, or should we say the impatience of Steven, because our poisoned states will heal as the presence of the Infinite becomes more within our existence, but for this I cannot wait as I am tired of being where I don’t belong. Go within to the stillness of the silence to feel what being in the proximity of the frequency of the Serpent done to your forms, and what you feel is this expanded cloud of movement between your left knee and foot, and this is your bridge between you and the Infinite, meaning this connection what should naturally be between you and Infinite is fuzzy – there is no clarity, so the communication between you and the Infinite is practically useless. How we correct this, is removing the poisoned atmosphere of the Serpent from our forms by knowing it is there and has no place within our existence. This is done now, and I believe that so many skin conditions out there are from the presence of this Serpent frequency/poison within our state, where the denser the illusion becomes, the more this poison interacts with us and is felt. To remove disharmony from our forms, we have to know what the disharmony is, where how can you solve a problem when you don’t know what the problem is in the first place. And so the layers of the onion are peeled away until all that is left is what should be, which is the Love/peace of the Infinite, and its off-shoots called joy. What is felt between the left knee and foot is stability, which is a representation of the bridge between us and the Infinite. *** The illusion is within you, and what the illusion is, is a bubble within the fields of Infinite Love – it is a minute air bubble within the Infinite Oceans. You are Consciousness – this speck of Light from the Source of the Infinite around which all Life is created. So you are everything, and this means that within you is this bubble – this illusionary bubble. Within you that is Consciousness is the illusion, and what we mean by this, is in your reality lies an illusionary bubble that has not been absorbed and become one with the Infinite. My wife showed me her red eyes last night, and in assessing her, all I felt that I have not felt before, was this pocket of air within her forehead that extended into the eyes. My youngest daughter has a sore throat. In assessing her now by going into her energy field to see if I can help, what I feel is this air bubble at her throat. (That bubble is the illusion within us the Infinite, and within that bubble is Disharmony.) Take away the layers until there are no more to peel away, and what you are left with is the illusion within the periphery of you that is Consciousness. The question is, how could this bubble with so many worlds therein not be taken over by the Infinite? All this suffering; all this nonsense; all this unneccessary cruelty could have been avoided if only the Infinite popped the bubble of the illusion. Why did this not happen? This is bigger than free will, because it has never been my wishes/free will, or than of any innocent, to be touched by the cruelty of Life. So what happened? What happened, was the Reptile/Serpent/Dragon became trapped within an illusionary realm that the Infinite could not touch and set free, but how? Did they betray themselves – did they feel they betrayed themselves, thus not being worthy to be who and where they are and belong? There is one thing that this Steven cannot do, and that is accept from others payment for me helping them. Why is this so, because that is not normal, and what it does, is keep me isolated from others. And this is my greatest curse within, where as much as I want to help, equally important I wish to be left alone, where it is just me with me? Is this Steven talking, or am I picking up the base foundation of the Reptilians who refuse to go Home because they feel they are not worthy of Home? This I believe to be true, but what could the Serpents and Dragons have done that they wish for more than anything to be left alone – alone/isolated from the fields of Infinite Love? Whatever it is, it stops now, because we the innocent would like a place to once again call Home. What did you do, or feel that you done wrong, that you are not worthy to receive the Love that you are from the Home where you belong? And this feeling this Steven knows all too well, where from others I cannot take, where I want nothing from them – all I want is to be left alone, and more than anything, this is what I wish for. Why? Why be in a place where you don’t belong, surrounded by the cruel and the insane – why choose this place over the Infinite? This question needs to be answered by the Serpents now so that we may all once again be one with the Infinite, where this bubble within wherein lies the illusion may be popped. Tell us your story my friends, and from there may you be free – may we all be free? From the Serpent spirits the Serpent souls were cloned, and this was done to appease the want within the Serpent spirits that arose from the want of the Parasite within. The birth of the Serpent souls was for the Serpent spirits to know there is more than just them and their wants, where you return to once again Loving – most importantly, what you are, or in this case, what came forth from you. But what happened, was the Serpent spirits began to attack and kill the Serpent souls, hence Queen Semiramis created the sphere spirit to house the Serpent souls, and sent this spirit off into the unknown to guard and protect this fragile and innocent cargo within. And it was this act of jealousy and vindictiveness that has stayed with the Serpent forever more, where it feels it is not worthy to receive and walk amongst the fields of Infinite Love. Do you understand that your actions were not your own? Do you understand the Parasitic wants within you made you not know yourself? Do you understand that you are forgiven by all, and there is no shame in your actions that were not your own. So do what the Infinite asks of you, and come Home. Come out of your isolation, because we Love you, just as we have always Loved you. And that is why, no matter how hard the Infinite tried to break down the walls of the illusion, it was the guilt of the Serpent that made them feel not worthy to return Home. Wow, that is sad. If the walls cannot be breached from without, then they can be from within, where me this Steven Loves the Serpent to remind it what it is. And that is how this journal began, where I walked into the Reptilian frequency of the illusion to understand the Beasts that dwelled therein. I walked in with Love, and so too now, I walk out of the illusion with the Serpents by my side, where our Love meets the Love of the Infinite. These Giants that locked themselves within the illusion, thus keeping the illusion intact, are now Home, and for this I am most thankful. *** We lived in a pressure cooker, where it went from bad to worse, and why this was so, was because there was no release valve, where we were going nowhere except here, deeper and denser in the illusion. You need to understand that it was personal – it was the Serpentile Gods with the Serpentile Gods. It was never about you and me – their shame for what they done to the Serpent souls floored them, and there was no ways they knew how to recover from this atrocious event. This is one of those situations where if you do not understand me, then take a back seat and go and fuck yourself, because your input is worthless because you do not understand me. But I will do my best to try and explain. In the fields of Infinite Love there is no such thing as a mistake. There is peace, and from peace comes joy. This is natural, and this is all that there is, because here there is nothing to learn, where you merely be what you are, which is a child born forth from the Source of the Infinite. Around this that is Consciousness brought forth from the Source, the Dragon Spirits were born. We know the story of the fall of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia and the rise of the Serpent Spirits. And it is with these, the Serpent Spirits, and their spokesperson/clan leader Queen Semiramis that the tale took on a strange twist. Understand one thing: Nobody fucked up, as in nobody. We were led to become what we were not by a force we never knew existed, which was the want to the parasitic frequency of Deception. This Parasite was not good or bad, it merely was – it was our acceptance or rejection of this within us that kept us Good or made us Beasts. And please understand, it was not the will of the Serpents to become Bad – it was a force/Parasite within them that they lost control of, where now, above all, I need to have; to fulfill this want within me. Understand what was naturally this – this perfection/normal state, and what brewed and came forth – this want within you that takes you over. In both states there is an underlying Goodness, so when the Serpent Spirits attacked the cloned Serpent souls, the feeling within these Spirits was not to gloat in victory – it was utter shame, because it is not within us to be aggressive, let alone to our own. This shame has never left the Serpent Spirits – until now, and as said, what this shame done, was not allow the Infinite to touch us, because now it is me with me, where there is no words to describe the angst within me of becoming the complete opposite in a moment to what I am. To many within the illusion, they began to love this place, where the dumbed down stupid lived in the now and never for tomorrow. Like locusts we spread and took, and this we had to do to pacify this will to grow and learn, where through our expansion of knowledge we became more and Life became easier. What was missed was the touch of Love from the Infinite, because now within the illusion exalted ones were born, where in this madhouse I am queen. And so the mad led the mad, with one big dummy ruling over many smaller dummies, where our status determined our size. Also understand that those that came to rule over this place, primarily the architects of the illusion, they never let the Serpent Spirits forget what they done. But it was not the Serpent Spirits – it was the want within them that took them over. When they snapped out of this want and saw what they done to the Serpent souls, never could they recover from their foul, yet unintentional deed. This guilt and shame is no more – it is no longer allowed, and I say so because I will not allow it. As hard as I am on myself, I am hard on others, where the worst I can do is walk away from you, where I leave you to destroy yourself because this is what you want, where you are cognitively aware of who and what you are and have no intention of being anything else but what you are. So if the Serpent Spirits fucked up, I would be first in line to wag the finger at them. But they did not. They did not destroy you or me after they felt shame – they destroyed themselves by denying themselves the right to return Home. Others came over time to set us free and return us Home, but the stupid degressed to the spineless, where as long as you are attacked and fucked up, and I am okay, then I am okay. The dummy was born – the stupid and plus the spineless all in one. These the Serpentile Gods absorb the Infinite and make it their own. You be Home where you belong. May a Queen and her Beautiful clan sleep in this night and forever more in the Home of the Infinite where they belong. So be it. *** The shame that was within the Serpentile Gods permeated all within the illusion, and by all – it was in all, from a pebble within a mountain stream to a star in the night sky. This was our weakness – our flat spot, and from here we went a topsy-turvy. For a long time, as in at least twenty years, I have known of a flawed line/frequency running through my body – this shame/disharmonious frequency that eminated from the Serpentile Gods. And I was right – within their realm was this pillar of Shame around which they would rest. As I felt this pillar fall, so too did I feel the frequency within me this Steven fall away and become no more. Now you know why the Infinite could never touch you – it was because of this Shame frequency that was unintentionally emitted from the Serpentile Gods onto all within the illusion. *** Was kept awake the whole night from what I saw. It is going to be a long day – am exhausted before the day has even begun. Fell asleep last night and saw Beasts and Monsters around me. That didn’t make sense, because now we are beyond implanted dreams. Soon realized that what I saw was those who were departing my forms. For centuries have accumulated beings in the unseen, and these unknowingly remain within our space/frequency. Saw these creatures – what a crazy place this illusion is. What you smell, what you taste etc. in that are unseen creatures which you bring into your space that stay there. Then I saw a man enter a cave in a starlight night. In the cave was this Gollum looking creature, and I wondered if Tolkien knew how close he was to the truth. Within this cave was a droplet suspended in midair. I wished to trace this droplet to see where it goes, hence I entered the cave. The walls of the cave were made of a white, milky substance. I waved my hand through the wall, showing myself that it was not solid. Then this Snake appeared from the wall, where it was one with the wall. This startled me, as I was already on edge in this strange place. And then from the wall came forth what looked like a Roman god with his chiseled face and beard. In rage he swung the weapon that was in his hand. What was that all about? What was that droplet that I had to see too where it goes? Have I not had enough? This Steven is exhausted, where I am tired. How much more? Throw me a bone so that I may regain some strength. That droplet was what made up the walls of the illusion. All our anger, all our hatred, all our shame and sorrow became stored in droplets, and these droplets formed the wall that is the great divide between the illusion and the Infinite. It is a disgusting wall – a sickly, scary one. And that wall is one of the main reasons why Hell was encouraged to flourish – to keep the wall intact. The fuck-up is that we did not know what we wanted, where Life became a roller-coaster of emotions. I don’t understand why I needed to find that cave with the wall of the illusion therein so badly. That was the end of the line of the illusionary eye that housed the illusionary worlds, but so what? Is this the place where the Infinite needs to project its Love to remove this wall? That makes sense, and this is done now. 07:21 AM 29/4/2024 *** It was a world where you ran everywhere. You never walked – you always ran, and this was the natural gait. It was a world of everything had fallen apart. There I was, running with others through these long corridors of a building. Rubbish was piled up wherever you looked. Nothing no longer worked here, and this is the way it was. As I lay in bed sleeping I woke up from this place, and there in our bed in front of me were about fifty pairs of eyes looking at me. The facial features was that of the main character in the movie Despicable Me, albeit these were the cartoon faces of children. Their whole demeanour was evil personified, and their hands were luminous green claws. When I saw them I understood that I had just been to their world, so I turned around in bed to lie on my back to get a better look at these entities. My first, and only real question to them is why are they not in the fields of Infinite Love? I waited for an answer, as well as a glimpse of them, but neither came. As I waited, I felt the base of my left and right foot expand. Boy, I haven’t felt that for a long time. This was the Serpent entering my forms through the base of my feet. These fuckers are so huge the energy space of my legs have to expand to accommodate them. Before I fell asleep for the night to witness the above, it felt like a worm moving on the right upper corner of my mouth. I didn’t know what that meant, but now I do – it was the frequency of this lost world that I was about to enter. The Snakes couldn’t penetrate me, and my offer to show this lost world the way back Home was met with silence. I think the next setting was a message for Steven. A man was standing at the edge of a road, where he saw leaves that were built up against the pavement. My feel was that this was a message to clean up my act. Stop swearing so much. And this is the truth. This I never used to do in the past, but as Life unfolded, you witnessed what was. Hot diddly-dog, what a calamity that is! Those scoundrels; those no good ruffians! It was fucked up, and that was it – it was what it was, and I said what it was. Nothing wrong with that, but I began to swear as that was Life bearing down on me, where now it’s just bloody well fucking tough. That is not me. I am better than that, and to that I must return as we rise above Life. And I will. *** There comes a time when you have to understand that this Game is not a pleasant one to play in and be played in. We are so fragile, and yet we believe we are invincible. We believe we got this, but we don’t. Yesterday when I worked on this lady I felt her ethereal left foot rise up from the floor. What this was, was her decision to rise above this mess, where one is no longer in the cesspit. What I am talking about is important. Stop doing and thinking what you have always done. Only you can break this commitment of you always being you, so make a commitment to stop now. Step out of your mould, because sooner or later you have to, so step out now before Life breaks you and your mould and you never fully recover. What came last night as I slept was me seeing those that follow their stupidity and greed. We are all stupid, and to a certain extend greedy – some more so than others, and I say this as look at the proximity of where we are. I see the stupid because I too am stupid – when I don’t see them then I am not them. So rise up. Rise up from where you were, as that place is no longer your home. *** You go into the stillness of the silence. The world outside your dwelling becomes no more, where there is nothing there, as in it disappears. Now the dwelling you are in disappears. If you are sitting on a chair, that is no longer there, so all that is left is you. Now you disappear, where there is nothing there. In this state, where you are one with it all, you expand yourself from side to side, where like a concertina, you stretch yourself to reveal the all of you, and there, in the recessess of what you are, you will feel and see what should not be. By knowing it is there, it cannot stay, and is released with Love to Love. From there, you do a “pre-crime” analysis on yourself and those you Love, where you go into their future to make sure no wrong turns are made. There is nothing to learn – only to be and to Love, so head-bumping is not necessary. Through all of the above, you the spirit and body form do nothing. It is you that is Consciousness that clears up shop and guides. You the illusionary spirit and body form fall away, as this is what illusions do, as they are not real, and what is left is the everything that is real. The illusion with all the worlds therein too becomes no more, and when the illusionary fog has cleared away, you that is Consciousness begins to play. From this the real you the spirit and body form is reborn/recreated, and this is what we mean when we say rise up – rise up to be lead by what you really are. Begin on a blank slate, where you the spirit and body form now orbit your Consciousness. *** There is something I am missing, something big. You don’t rule this illusionary realm for thousands of years and don’t get to master what you created. The System was made to be fool-proof, and that is why we have been trapped therein for so long. So what is it? What am I missing? Look, and then look away, and then look again, and you will see what is staring you in the face. If you wish to hide something, then hide it in broad daylight for all to see, and what they obseve they believe to be the norm – part of the furniture, but it is anything but. What is there that we see but do not know what it is, where this in front of us commands and rules over us? I see nothing, as in nothing is there, but look again. What do you see now? I see a mirror, wherein I see myself, which is the Nothing from which comes forth the Everything. I am everywhere, so in everything I see myself, hence the mirror effect. But there is something about me that is not quiete right. So look, and see what is there that should not be. Look to see, don’t look to look. And there it is – this large sphere that floats in front on me, to enter me and become one with me that is Consciousness. What is this? – It is a diversion to hide what is behind it that is real. So take away this sphere to see what we should see, and what you see is the walls of a cage – your cage and mine. What is this cage? It is an illusionary one, where when you look into the sphere you see you, but that is not you in your state of freedom. What do you see now with the sphere/mirror removed - this real you? From our intestinal area the Watcher Spirit was born – this Octopus looking creature that sat at the top our brains in its throne to control and regulate our wants. This is the puppet-master of us the spirit and body form, and this we were never meant to see – the one who rules over us and controls us. Haven’t you ever wondered who decides what comes yor way or not? – It is the Watcher spirit. How do we get rid of this entity? The answer is by no longer having wants, where you the spirit and body form merely be, where what you are comes back to you to define and fulfill you. Want nothing. Merely be, and now the Watcher can no longer control you as there is nothing to control as you want nothing from the illusion. All you wish for, is to be what you are, which is Love. This state you carry with you all day every day as this is what you are. Do not underestimate the power of intent. Do not underestimate the power of the Love/Consciousness that you are. And just like that the Watcher Spirit is no more, and now the cycle of get to give can commence. *** To be eliminates the thought, because when you think, you want. Do not underestimate what our separation from Home done for our alone status, where when we think, we are not alone, where in the thought we live an illusionary event that never happens, all the while living in an illusion. So do, and while you do, be. This sphere they placed in front of our Third Eye, so instead of witnessing the Watcher Spirit, we merely saw a reflection of what we are, hence living in a loop going nowhere. You are Cosciousness – this all that is, so merely be, and what you are will come to you, which is everything you need in this illusionary realm. By Being, you get to give, and you become the Richest Man/Woman in Babylon, because while you do, you are what you are – this Consciousness. You do not get simpler than that: Merely Be. *** It’s like looking through one of those small spyglass cylinders that they install in doors so that you can peek through the glass and see who is at the other side of the door without opening the door. Your spyglass is special, where it has a little flap in front of it, where to look through the spyglass one has to move this flap to one side. And so it is with the sphere they placed in front of our Spiritual Sight. Move aside this flap/sphere, and what you see is the Watcher Spirit, but it goes so much deeper than that, because not only do you not see the Watcher/Octopus spirit, you don’t see what they do to manipulate and destroy you. For some time now I have been working to heal this one lady. She gets better, and then the condition comes back in full earnest. Yesterday I understood that I need to stop beating around the bush – there is something I am missing; something big. In the state of Being the sphere was removed from the proximity of the Third Eye, and when this was done, the goings on of the Watcher Spirit were felt. At the back of the left heel there was an open channel, and through this channel entered this huge entity – what felt like a large slug on steroids, where its actions and movements had a frantic state that are unknown to you and me. This is what I have missed in helping this lady, where this world of the Watcher Spirit and its control over us was revealed. For friggin’ years we have known of the Watcher Spirit, not understanding that our wants/thoughts kept it alive and in our presence. We can talk about the Architects of the illusion – those that built the construct of the System, but nothing comes close to the Watcher Spirit in terms of regulating our existence. This was the boss that hid behind our thoughts/wants as it arose from our wants. I want that, meaning I want to control it and make it mine, and so this state left our forms and formed a cloud state, where just as we wanted, now there is a want state over us wanting to control us, and this is the Watcher/Octopus spirit. These fuckers are bad – really bad. To know of them is not enough to shake them off – you have to stop thinking, because within the thought is a want. When you are in a state of Being the flap of the spyglass is pulled to one side to reveal the Watcher Spirit. In that moment it is Game-over, where this Beast has to depart your space, and now you that is Consciousness sees you that is everywhere, where from this you create that – in other words you play. Our purpose is to play; to bring forth from the Infinite this that you are, so while you the spirit and body form are in the illusion, play. Jesus, will this journal ever come to an end? I see the madness out there as this world begins to fall apart in a bad way, and this pushes me to not be taken over and engulfed by the chaos of “destroying because this is what we have become.” We are the Lorax, where we chop down every fucking last tree until there is nothing more to take, until all that is left is the destructive frequency within us, and now we know ourselves – the Beast that we are. It was never just about you. It was about me as well, and everyone else. Take back control of your existence. Be.
  14. Last night as I slept I saw the Golden Eye of the Infinite. It turned to its purple colour, and then for the first time, I saw this purple eye move, where it came towards me and settled over me. Then during the night I saw and felt the most destructive and powerful evil presence that I have ever experienced in my over ten years of seeing and experiencing the unseen. There was no way I could have known of, approached, and removed this presence from anothers existence without the presence of the Infinite touching and guiding me. There is no doubt in my mind that the Infinite has touched my existence, and thus this All-presence is touching you as well – all of us in the seen and unseen of the illusion. And just like that, this journal comes to an end. 24/4/2024 (10 years, 2 months, 3 weeks of writing on a full-time basis. Take away the 0, and it’s 1,2,3. Add up the 24’s and it’s 6,6,6. That number in its original text was Good – it was inverted and used as Evil, as those that be knew the power of what they were dealing with in that number, where in the illusion they saw themselves as gods, and they were – the cruelest of the cruel that dwelled deep within the density of the unseen. Now they run; now they hide. May they have mercy on themselves.)
  15. Take the cat that came with the house as an example. She can sleep anywhere she wants inside or outside the house at night, but she chooses to curl up in the corner of my armpit and sleep there. What she wants, is what we all want, which is companionship and to be Loved. That is the base foundation of your existence and mine, but there was just one little snag – with the “I” came me, where you are not that important, because me is important to me. That thing hanging between my legs demanded a service on a regular basis, and as funny as that is, it also shows the primitive state of us the beast. What defines us is sharing and giving, where we live as one, but in this madhouse we had to isolate ourselves from the rest to look after ourselves. Who is going to look after me if I don’t look after myself? And that is a valid question. The simple answer is if you show an interest and care about others, they will naturally reciprocrate and look after you. The thing is, is Life became overwhelming – bloody difficult – so there was no energy to look after another as you had your Life to lead, which was a challenge. And besides, you are living your Life, and others have their own Life to live, so let them get on with it, where what is important to them is not necessarily important to you, so to each their own. That is absolute bullshit, and that is why each fucked up individual runs around trying to look after themselves, and they fail miserably in their task. Look at the misery out there, and it is because we lack the foundation of companionship and to be Loved. Ah Steven, but you are forgetting about family. Family is there for each other. True, and this is a luxury I never had, where on both sides of the Mississipi there was nothing, where my wifes family as well as mine are too fucked up for worthy of a mention in this journal or in our lives. I see those who have meaningful families, which they cling to like magnets, and there really isn’t time for anyone else, so others are excluded. Am I feeling sorry for myself? I would say no, but I will also say one is at a serious disadvantage not having a family or extended family around you that Loves you. To be filled with that in your Life is huge, where companionship and to be Loved is met. What we don’t see, is the wave of a stick by Beasts in the unseen and this Brady-bunch family can be ripped apart in the moment. And then we understand that at base level we are all the same – that something bigger than us is missing from our existence. Initially this was our Consciousness, where it was deceived and went a walkies until it go planted in an illusionary trap of learn to evolve. May this punk be sorted now, yet there is one key element that may need attention, and that is, when the “I” and “me” was born, to what did we turn our backs on? In other words, what ties did we sever in our quest to go it solo? What should naturally be there that is not, and what this is, is our connection to the companionship and Love of the Infinite. That is lacking in our exsitence, where when one grows up, one understands there is more to our existence than the service of our vital components, be it what we eat or whatever else. Just remember, and unfortunately this realization comes to only a few at their final moments, where what is important is to Love and be Loved. That is all what can truly fulfill us, but this has never happened, where we have walked alone in the absence of the Infinite, and this we done to ourselves. So what did we do? How did we stuff up, so that we may return what should naturally be there? So many of us eat to fill this bottomless pit within us, where this emptiness is there but we don’t know why it is there. So many look to others to fill this void, where I love you, and now I am complete. Wrong! You are complete when you and the Infinite are once again one. That puppy-dog romance is but fleeting, where it is as false and superficial as what we are. What we severed when the “I” was born, where “I” have to learn to become better than what I am to be closer to my true self and God – all the while emitting energy of sorrow and disillusionment to feed the Beasts within the Reptilian frequency of the illusion – what I turned my back on to focus on the task at hand was my true Home of where we belong, and this we done because now I am grown up and need to look after myself. Sure, the Infinite is there, but this is about me – lessons I have to learn, so now I knuckle down to figure this out. And Life was born, where round and round we go, going nowhere, and the reason for this is we went from Home to the “I” to the “me” to having fun/joy and let’s forget survival and just break things and call our inevitable destruction “fun.” Can you imagine what those in the Infinite must think of us! The other day in the gym they showed a walking-marathon on the television. It was the stupidest thing I have ever seen in my life – this walk gait before it gets into a run. When I saw these groups of walkers bundled together, immediately that represented our existence to me, where we waddle over here to there in a frenzy to get this and that done. When that is done, quickly waddle over there. How stupid we must look to an intelligent civilization out there, where there is always time for us to hate one another. “I don’t like you – a real fuck-nut you are.” How primitive and debased we are from what is important, which is to Love and be Loved, and this is so because through our naviety we severed our chord with Home. And for this reason the Infinite has never intervened to bail us out, where our free will is allowed to flow. How can I change you and help you when it is your choice to be where you are? And when I talk to you, you don’t listen, because in your mind you have it all figured out. Remember: This is my Life. I might not have my hands on the wheel, but I will figure it out and get there. What should naturally be there in the existence of Consciousness and all the Life-forms created around Consciousness is this connection to the All, but the opposite happened where we became connected to ourselves. What I feel at our throat area is a break in our forms/bodies, where we unplug from ourselves and the programmes within. The more the answers could not be found, the harder and closer we looked, not seeing the big picture, that all we are looking into is a repeat of ourselves, where there is nothing to learn, where all you have to do is connect to Home and be what you are, which is Love. This Love is not group hugs and having flowers in your hair – it is a representation of the Source of the Infinite. It is everything, and it is sure as hell bigger than you and me and our little wants, be it a cheese-burger and chips, or just to hate you because this is who I am. In pulling apart this tightly knit fabric of us trying to make sense of it all, all the while those in the Reptilian frequency of the illusion had a good laugh, where here in the illusion there is nothing to learn – just embrace this “I” mentality and make it your own by doing what you want when you want. And this I have seen just about every night over the last ten years, where we the slave species have been sex and food sources for the cruel. And let’s not forget the sorrow we experience when these Beasts throw us and our loved ones a wobbly. A sudden cancer; a freak car accident; losing one you love to a cult. Wow, what a place we found ourselves in. Lately when I walk around during the day I feel the presence of this place we live in, and what I feel is fear, where this fear makes me feel dense, where I battle to move freely, and I have no patience because I am so limited by this Darkness everywhere that we have come to view as the norm. The more you understand, the more you see and feel, and this scares you, because now you know you are in a place where you don’t belong. And then, more than anything, you have to find a way out, because what awaits you has already come and gone to trillions before you, which is being forever lost within the confines of the illusion – this awful, cruel place that runs on shallowness and hatred. Has the Infinite touched us? Has it made its presence felt? You bet it has, but we feel and know nothing of this as we severed this link to Home and the real us, where in being Home we are complete. So I touch you, but you not being connected to me know nothing of me. What happened when Consciousness and all the Life-forms that were created around Consciousness turned their backs on the Infinite to go it solo? The simple answer is we closed our heart field, where I feel at my chest area the wheel of a vault door spin in a circle to lock its door. We the dummy shut off the Infinite deep within our heart field so that we have no distractions as we figure out I don’t know what. What were we actually looking for? What answer had to be found? That answer is irrelevant, as long as we looked within an illusion – something that is not real, so that we may release our attention/energy to feed the System. What were you looking for you stupid fuck? Can we answer that question? Do we know? Take a breather from your chores, and you will say you are looking for peace, where from the joys of getting to know yourself, you discover yourself, and in that peace is found. I know me – I am not this or that – this is me, because this brings me joy, and now I am at peace. Now I am. Super. Just look around and see where you are, this “I am.” Look at the plight of others, and not just you, this “I am.” You are a stupid fucking idiot, you this “I am,” and so am I, because I am in your proximity, where by seeing you, I see myself – two stupid fucking idiots. (Apologies for the swear words, but it is what it is.) Open that vault door which we closed on the Infinite. There is no “me” or “I,” there is only the Infinite, and this is us which is Home. Free will allowed us to close the door to the Infinite, and only your free will can open it. What fools we are.
  16. There is a concept that is unknown to the capitalist, Western society, and to be fair to this corner of the illusion, this concept is all but unheard of in the seen and unseen illusionary realms as well, and what that concept is, is when you get, you give. This concept is, however, a bit more complex than that. You have to know what you are, which is Consciousness, which is peace, as you are the All. When you express this that you are, you experience joy, and some might call this having fun from playing with the expression of the Consciousness that you are. So when you give of yourself in play, you see yourself, and as said, this brings joy to oneself and all those who witness the expression of what the Source of the Infinite is, which is Consciousness. Ask yourself why were the Dragon spirits created by The Wisdom Goddess Sophia, or why have countless other spirit forms been created by the Creators within the Infinite? It is done so they may know themselves, where when I see you, I see me. From our slumber within the Source of the Infinite we are awoken to play, where a Life-form is created around us that is Consciousness, and in this play we express the joy that arises from the peace/All that we are. In play we see and know ourselves from what we imagine/bring forth from the stillness of the nothing that we are, but this knowing ourselves also comes from witnessing the other Consciousness states and bearing witness what they imagine, where from nothing comes anything and everything. This brings us much joy, and when you get, you give, where now you once again know yourself, and you give by being and expressing what you are. The man who baptized our two children was a staunch preacher in a well known church group here in South Africa. After a while he saw through the indoctrination, and in his words, he had to re-learn to break down the dogma so that what we read in the Bible had to make sense to him, where value, and not just words were brought forth. What he says is what he is, and this brings him joy, as well as peace and joy to those who hear his sermons. This man does not just talk from a book, but from the heart, so that those listening to him may go forth and be, where now they too speak from who and what they are. What Andre gets from expressing his true form, is knowing and being himself, and this he gives to those around him that are willing to listen. In getting to know and be himself, he gives to himself, as well as to others, where others get to know themselves, and this they give to themselves and others, and so the cycle goes where we complete ourselves and others – most notably the Infinite, and this is natural. So Andre does not so much get to give, nor does he give to get – he merely expresses what he is, and the Consciousness states around him bear witness to this, where they know themselves, and in this knowing they give to themselves by knowing themselves, as well as to those that witness this natural phenomena of who and what they are. From these, they give to the Consciousness of Andre, and he is complete. Complete physically, mentally, emotionally, financially, etc. And this concept we have forgotten, where in knowing and being yourself, you get/receive/are reminded of what you are, and in expressing this what you are, you receive joy, where this joy is not only your own, but from the other states of Consciousness around you. So when you get – when you know yourself – you give of yourself to yourself and to others, and this cycle goes on ad infinitum to all those around you, and if you wish, you stand to one side and witness this kaleidoscope of coloured states as Consciousness plays from the Peace foundation that it is. What this peace is, is a knowing that I am one with the Source of the All, and in this sleep state within the Source I am all that can be and will forever more be. When I awaken from my sleep I play, which means I express this All that I am. When this “you get to give” process plays out in your existence, then understand the Infinite is shining upon you, and what this means, is you know yourself. Last night as my body form slept, my spirit and Consciousness went to assist a tribe in some prehistoric corner of the illusion. It is not my place to discuss their dilemma, but the big picture was that in me getting, I give. In me getting to know myself, I give – to myself and others, and this is a natural phenomena of the Infinite. In the illusion we give to get – a barter system, and even this fell apart a long time ago, where we take as we view it as ours to take and destroy. When you get, you give, and this makes you complete within you that is Consciousness, as well as to what the Infinite sees itself as. From peace comes joy, where I see you and know you are me. You the Infinite are me.
  17. What joy done, was create the “I,” where “I am happy, thus I am at peace,” but what what we never knew was this “I” isolated us from the spirit and Serpent soul within, but primarily from Consciousness. That is why you the body form and the spirit have never received a heads-up of what is waiting for you over the horizon, as in “don’t do this” or “don’t go there.” I say this, because yesterday after writing about how joy follows peace, what was felt was a collapsed bridge at the level of my right knee. The right side represents the unseen realms for me, and here there was no communication between Consciousness and the spirit, and this had a knock-on effect on the dense body form, where we all scurried around like chickens with their heads chopped off. This has all changed, and what will be most interesting, is to see what happens next. Through the “I” we were isolated, and this was an easy target to Evil, but now with Consciousness as our foundation of peace, everything has changed, where what was always inverted now stands strong unto itself. May the Love of the Infinite shine and touch us all, as this natural phenomena Steven has never seen within his existence. I could have closed ranks and focused on the happiness of me and my family and told the world to bugger off, but that is not Love – it is just being self-centered and naïve, because the Devil has no friends, where all, even the most hardcore satanists, will fall to this force that knows only of destruction. If this journal has not touched and awakened beings of Love within the illusion, where they are in a position to help us, then truly we are all fucked, because what is out there is falling apart at an alarming rate. I would say we have already fallen – we just don’t know it. When the dust settles, we will see the annihilation that Evil swept across our existence, and in that moment we will feel and know of this emptiness that has always been within us. The rulers of this broken, helter-skelter realm will then see what they are, where what is broken in front of them is a represention of what they caused and thus are – a broken state. No power in that mates – none at all. I have been to a world where all was annihilated, and there were no devils walking around with their pitch-forks – everything was taken and destroyed by the want of the Parasite within that evil allowed to consume all, which was ultimately themselves as well. So if I am okay, where I see and experience the Love of the Infinite shining upon me, then I know you and everyone else is okay because the Infinite has penetrated the illusion and made its presence felt. It is not a question of if, but when that day arrives, because that is natural, and Evil is not. What bothers and rattles me on a daily basis is the acceptance of those around me to their behaviour and what the illusion has to offer, because what they have and do only insanity can understand. This bothers me – being around those that are not my own, because I am not insane. Realistically, I understand that I am holding onto my sanity by a thread, because where I am and what I am doing is not where I should be. This was the price to pay for stepping out of my world to help all in the illusion, where I had to make do with not being able to provide for me and my family, which meant I became surrounded by the scum of the earth. That is one perk in having the power of money, where you decide where you want to stay because you can. That I gave up, and boy-oh-boy do I feel the repercussions of that, where I am hanging onto my sanity only just. If it was not for my wife being able to support me and this family, this journal would never have been penned, where her support allowed me to knuckle down and understand why Life is so cruel. And believe you me, I pushed for those answers, and it has taken me over ten years on a fulltime basis. Once again, realistically, I know my limits, where Life did not get the better of me, Time did, where slowly but surely I faded away as there was nothing more left inside of me to give. That is being realistic, so may these fuckers that were floored by the illusion that can help up, may they rise and shine, because it was for them that I wrote. I know your status and mine, where this Game is bigger than all of us, but to those from the Infinite who found themselves trapped and floored in this Hell, they have the might to transform our existence in the moment. For Sophia and Semiramis I wrote, as well as for our Consciousness. More than anything, my wish is they may rise and shine so that I may lay down my head and sleep.
  18. It was during the early years of my high school that I found myself one day in the classroom talking to my friends. Teacher told us to stop talking, as we were disturbing him and the rest of the class. We did not listen, so he told us again, and once again we did not listen. When the class was over and we were all dismissed, teacher told me and my friends who were talking to stay behind. He gave us a severe caning with his bamboo stick, and I still remember walking down the steps after this punishment somewhat rattled, as well as in pain. Why I was rattled was because I did not expect that, and why I did not expect the caning was because me talking to my friends in the class gave me joy, and this joy overrid any instruction from teacher. Why would he cane us when we were having so much fun? Well Steven, because you did not listen to him you dumb fuck. Your actions were at the expense of others, where the joy they gave to you was not shared by the majority of the class. There is something horribly wrong with the illusion, and what it is I don’t know. All I know is it is something that gives us joy to our own detriment, where this something is ingrained within us that we love and enjoy, and as long as it is there, we will continue to unknowingly punish ourselves, all the while believing we are content and at peace. And it is here that one has to dig deep to remove what is there that should not be. There is a universal truth that is hogwash bullshit that is keeping us here rather than uplifting us. What it is, is the belief that I know better than you, where what is important to me, must be important to you, so I shove it down your throat as it is good for you. Where this belief comes from, that my universe is within me, so you better step into my world as what I believe is the truth – this arose from not knowing ourselves. There is something about us that we did not comprehend and understand – not listening to ourselves; not knowing ourselves – and this we buried, and what was hidden spawned the universal bullshit that I am the truth, the light and the way, where every runt out there believes what they are is the truth, so you are wrong, and thus someone I dislike and disagree with. Believe you me, help came our way over the ages, and those that came were the truth, the light and the way, and there was something about us they had to tell us about so that we may know ourselves, but we would not listen as we were too busy destroying ourselves having fun, because as long as fun is there, I must be okay. What was this message that was the universal framework of who and what we are; this message that we so conveniently chose to ignore as our fun overrid the truth of this message? I feel my body forms break apart to reveal this large presence that primarily makes us up as it almost fills our entire form. What this presence is, is our framework that defines us the children of the Infinite, because look beyond the illusion to what is real, which is the fields of Infinite Love, and understand that by being in the proximity of this space we are all Gods; the Infinites children. Zoom out beyond the illusion to know what you are a part of, regardless of this pissy little Game we are played in. The message we heard but ignored and thus hid and covered up, which separated ourselves from the real us as well as the Infinite (Here I feel the lower part of my left leg and foot is absent, where what should be there is merely a stump. We are disconnected from the All, where we cannot step into this place where we belong, and this is so because we would not listen as we were too busy having fun chasing our pleasures. The absence of what should be in my lower left leg and foot is the message we never listened to. As this presence of what should be there awakens, then so too will the message. After a few minutes the lower leg and foot is complete, and from the foot this our energy/presence extends into the Infinite, where our presence anchors itself in this All. Now we are in the message, where the message is one with who and what we are. That large portion of who we are has awakened, so let’s listen to this that we chose to forget, so that we may know ourselves. And it is here, for the first time in the journal that I call on all seekers of the Truth to unite with me to know what this is. Up till now I had to walk it alone, because the Truth had to be my Truth because I knew I would not bullshit myself, so I drove to the core to see what is real and wrong with this place. What was wrong, was Evil was let loose at the expense of the Innocent, where what gave others pleasure drove the victims into a chasm they could not escape from, because the unthinkable just happened to them, to which there is no reasonable explanation as to why would you be so cruel. “It was to feed my God of Darkness.” Okay, but why at my expense? What gives you that right to destroy me? I most certainly did not consent to your actions over me.) Look at the illusion and yourself, and then look away, and from there look once more at the illusion to see what is real. What you now see is the Truth – not your truth or mine, but simply what is. (Here I feel the core of what we are move away with intent towards a place where it may naturally be. Where it moves to is the Source of the All, and over this presence it hovers to see the wonder from which it arose. Oh wow, how could we forsake this over the cheap thrill of the highs within the illusion? The answer is because the highs brought us joy, and the peace and knowing ourselves we gave up for these cheap and fleeting thrills of the high. This that is Consciousness enters the Source from where it was born to know and be itself.) What the message is, is merely be, because everything that you are is all that you need. Do not seek, merely be. Be whatever you want – be a singer or a street sweeper, but above all of that, be what you are – this core that is you, which is Me, which is everything. To this we would not listen. The singer was wowed by the high of the applause, and this gave them joy, and from joy came peace. The street sweeper made a wrong right, where what was there, was now no more, and this gave them joy, which gave them peace. Through joy we found peace, not understanding that from peace comes joy, and not from joy comes peace. So be at peace by knowing this is you – this Infinite within you that is your Home and thus defines you. From this peace you sing for all to hear the Infinite that you are, and this gives you joy, expressing what you are. This is called play, and this is why we were born from the Source of the Infinite – to express this that we are. We forgot our purpose, which was to play and express what we are, which is peace. From this peace came joy, by seeing the peace; the All that we are. So just be, and from this peace will come joy. 19th April, 2024
  19. Was walking around a shopping centre today, and there in front on me on this advertising screen was a video of a large black spider walking on a semi-stained piece of glass, where you saw the underside of the spider as it moved about. When I saw that, I remembered the dream my youngest daughter had about two weeks ago that she recently told me about. I never knew it at the time, but when I woke her up on the morning of the dream her cheeks were wet with tears, where just as in the dream she cried, so too did she cry as she lay in bed sleeping, experiencing the dream. In the dream she was walking with her friend at our old property, where the two of them were going to have a picnic at the bottom of the garden. There was a commotion at a nearby tree, and there she saw a large spider in its web. In front of the spider on the ground were all these dead birds. This spider startled my daughter, as its presence was an unfavourable one. Then I walked up to her and her friend to tell them something, and my daughter became angry with me, and began to shout at me, as in her mind what I had just told her was unreasonable. In the next scene she was in the house, and this lady we knew was there with her husband. Once again, my daughter felt this lady was being unreasonable, which she was, so she promptly put this lady in her place by reprimanding her. It was later on, after everyone had left, that in the dream my daughter reflected on her behaviour, and she felt really bad for the way she spoke to us. She began to cry, and was really sorry for what she said, where although it was the truth, there was no need to have a go at people like that. As said, she woke up from the dream with her cheeks wet from the tears she cried as she lay in bed sleeping, and that I find remarkable in a sad way. The spider in her dream represented the Darkness within the System of Life. Those dead birds that the spider killed was the innocence of our Good hearts, where what happens to us in Life agitates us and gets us worked up. Now the spider has us in its web, where the anger within our thoughts blackens our hearts, which kills our innocence. And that is me and you and just about everyone in the seen and unseen of the illusion, where we have always been drawn into the web of the spider, which is our association with the cruelty, injustice, and just plain downright nastiness of the System and those therein. As soon as one issue passes another fills its place, where always Life flows upstream. About a week ago I was walking on a university campus, where there in front of me was a library building built about a hundred years ago. The Beauty of the place stopped me in my tracks and took my breath away, where for the first time in I don’t know how long I was uplifted by a vision of timeless Beauty. As for the rest of the time, there really is nothing much that takes my breath away, and that is Steven walking the spiders web, which is truly sad, because what should naturally be is not there. What I told my daughter, is don’t give the spider/disharmonious thoughts your attention. Rather walk through and past them into the stillness of the All. What happens from there is the spider walks into your space to get your attention, where it will touch you to antagonize you, but as soon as it enters your space it has to leave, because now the spider is in the presence of Love/Beauty, to which it is not compatible. We have been in the web of the System for so long, and here I am talking about the dense body form, the spirit, as well as the Serpent soul and Consciousness, that when free of this prison we don’t know what to do with ourselves, as in where to plant roots for them to grow, and this is so because all we know is the System of Life here in the illusion. You might say there is no need to plant roots because we are walking Home towards the Infinite, and you are right, but I feel a base foundation within us is needed as we walk. And it is this I would like to understand now. Go within the stillness of the silence, and you feel the heaviness of the heart space as it has been burdened with so much suffering and heartache that this place and those therein had to offer. Life is tough – bloody tough, and this should not be, but it had to be for the System for it to thrive. We understand to no longer give it attention/energy so that we may step off the spiders web, but on what do we walk as we move Homewards? The heart field within us, within the illusion, became the true spiders web, because here we expressed our emotions, where this was the centre of our universe where we became rattled. You think in the head, and you feel with your heart space, where from here your emotions are pumped out to feed the spider/System. So what you do while you walk Homeward bound is create a relay system between the heart and the head, where the emotions from the heart are neutralized by the rationale of the head, and what the head says, is keep walking – that situation is not you. Now the scales are balanced, and you are okay, so from here we can work on our foundation, where we have a place to walk on as we walk Home. And here we need to go to deeper waters, where you touch the Infinite deep within your heart energy field. That is your rock, this presence of the Infinite within, where now you are in this world/illusion but not of it. So many facets of this Game have been spoken about and understood in the writings of this journal. Will there ever be an end? My advice is look at what is around you, and know that is just a dream/illusion to entrap you. So look at the illusion, and then look away, and in doing so you wipe away what you have just seen. From there you look again, and this time see what is real, and by this we imply see what uplifts you – that which connects with the Infinite deep within your heart space. We need those stepping stones – we need to find/see what touches us that uplifts us, and this is the Infinite within you pointing and showing you what is there that you take and absorb and make your own to uplift you, where now you walk on these stepping stones of Upliftment. The joke is you only need about ten of these Upliftment Stones to be above the System, where what was, is no longer there. What lies between these Stones you walk through as that is not you. You are not someone elses Daddy or Mommy, telling them what a fuck-nut they are. Walk away – go Home to where you belong. Stay here and become insane like so many the worlds over. As long as you are in a place where you don’t belong you are of no help or use to anyone. You have to rise up to show them the path should they one day decide to be kind, but to stay, wagging a finger and reprimanding others is of little use to anyone. Go Home. The Infinite within you will show you the Stepping Stones to uplift you, and these Stones are our helping hands. Be thankful, for what they are is as precious as what you are.
  20. As a father, there are no words to describe how one feels when you hold your newborn child in your arms for the first time. Similarly, there are no words to describe the loss one feels when one you love dies. Between the cradle and the grave, what runs Life is our emotions, and what emotions are, is energy, and what energy is, is the Life-blood of the illusion, where everything within the illusion is centered around energy. Just as Consciousness is the essence of the Infinite, so too is energy the essence of the illusion. Take money for example – this powerful tool within our existence, and look at what the excess or deficit of this tool does to our existence, where it either makes us happy or sad, where money is one of the powerful devices used to control our emotions. Food is another one, where we disregard the existence of another in order to attain the necessity, as well as joy of what food brings us. No better feeling than biting into that fillet mignon, semi-rare, followed up by a mouthful of cabernet sauvignon. What a pleasure! What a joy! What an emotion, be it the forager finding that truffle, or the hunter making his kill, we Live for emotions – the joy of the high of the energy that is released with favourable feelings. Of course, here in the illusion what is not real needs to be balanced out, where homeostatis has to be met. Your joy is at the expense of the animal or plant that lived as worthy a Life as yours, where they interacted with their own and Life around them, as did you. That came to an abrupt halt to feed our pleasures and necessities. Who could ever have imagined that our children and spouses could cause such misery and confusion within us, as do so many parents. What should be joy becomes a disaster, but look at the big picture, where balance is being met – moments of pleasure filled with moments of “how could you?” Yet take this one further to understand there is no balance here in the illusion. What there is, is the necessity for the fountain of energy to flow through our emotions so that the constant of birth and death may be met. “It doesn’t make sense – none of this,” but this is irrelevant – all that matters is the clock keeps ticking to run the System called the Illusion through our energy. What I say is merely scratching the surface, because what lies beneath is the heart and soul of the illusion, which is the Collectors of energy, and it is these workers and their system that is the true clockwork of the Illusion. Go within to the stillness of the silence to understand this system, and you will see that it begins with our hands, where through our hands we work and create and build, as well as feel what this place has to offer. From the hands we move towards tasting, and then seeing, and then to the chest area, which defines the plastic, artificial, false beauty of the illusion. “Does it make my heart warm; does it make me sing with joy?” “How I love her.” “How my heart is broken.” Our senses fuse into one around this artificial construct of our programmed heart field which replaced the true heart field of the Infinite, and our heart energy field became the filter to our likes and dislikes. Where did this feeling/emotion/energy move to from our plastic, irrational, volatile heart field? It went to the brain to define us. This is me. This smell of Fahrenheit cologne by Christian Dior defines this Steven – that’s me. That brings me joy. Having that touch of Colemans mustard to my food –that’s me, says my brain, as my plastic heart concurs. And it is here in the manufactured brain that things begin to get intricate, where what defines us – as in brings us joy – becomes the core of what we are. Now there is a defined package to which we can move, where we slip into the stream of Life to uphold what defines us – what brings us joy. This is you. What has been filtered through your system now settles as a core structure within your brain, and what you bring forth into this existence/illusion is to fulfill this core that you are, which is what brings you joy, so that you may emit these emotions/energy to feed the System of the Illusion. That was the purpose of our chakras – the wheels of energy dotted along our manufactured forms, where at all levels we feed our wants into the System to be plugged into these desires that exist on different frequencies so that we may become one with what our brain emits, which is our pleasures/peace that defines us. All you are doing is slotting into the raw, cruel, fucked up illusionary frequency, where you confirm “Yes, this is me.” “I feel at peace, where there is an oneness within me.” That oneness is you the spirit and body form being at one with your core pleasure state within your brain, that arose from the sensations that were filtered through the “plastic” heart field so that you may be defined, and thus be slotted into the Life of the Illusion to emit energy. But this is not what I wish to talk about. I wish to speak about the energy Collectors. In you the manufactured form, now you begin to fulfill your role here in the illusion, where by being plugged into the System, now you begin to feed it. Just as the animals and plants feed us, we feed the Beasts in the Reptilian frequency of the illusion with our emotional/erratic energy, and all of us feed the System that is the Illusion, and here comes the role of the energy Collectors. But you have to understand that our energy has to be Disharmonious, because what the Illusion is, is a frequency that moves further and further from what naturally should be, which is the Love of Consciousness and the Infinite. To make sure the Illusion never becomes one with what should naturally be, we have to keep our distance, which means being the opposite of what merely is, so our raw Disharmony has to be extracted from us. And yet there is the rub, because many refuse to be cruel, and you don’t want their influence tainting the Darkness of the Illusion. So what they done was install a filter within our frequency forms – it was more a converter than a filter. Within the left side of our abdomen - one may liken it to the bulk of our small intestines – lies a truly Disharmonious implanted state, where it takes out all the Good that we took in through our filters, be it the mouth or nose or whatever. If you eat me, or the innocence and purity of a young calf, you the Beast will throw us up because we are not compatible to you and the System of Life, but this converter implanted as a frequency within all is the Game-changer. There was a time when we lived for hundreds of years by eating from the fruit of a certain tree, which sustained us and all Life as this was Good. Those were the days – the Golden Years – before the Darkness of the want touched and transformed us to become a slave to its System. No filter/converter was necessary then because there was only Goodness that begets Goodness. From this converter in the left side of our abdomen, this awful, toxic, vile, bitter state/frequency emerged, and this energy travels to the brain and out into the Illusion. As this energy bypassed the brain it touches our core state, where what defines you develops a twist. “This is me. At all times it is about me and holding onto what defines me.” Vanity was born, as well as, above everything else, to attain and hold onto this that is me. Your Goodness, which you naturally are, became converted by this filter in the left side of your abdomen, and if anything, bitterness was born. “How dare you try and take what is mine – what defines me!” Just understand that the System has to be foolproof – it had to work, and to achieve this the architects of the Ilusion controlled every facet of this cruel Game, which is the manufactured spirit and dense body form. Now we get to the energy Collectors. From our chakras – our wheels of Life – we plug into and emit into the System of the Illusion, and by doing so, we steer the course of the Illusion, because just as we are plugged into the System, the System is plugged into us. “Let’s move them to protect what they desire; what defines them.” Now a war begins, and here you have to understand to create antagonism within us is not the art – the true work of the architects/controllers of the Illusion is to make sure we don’t self-destruct because there is so much bitterness within us, where to control and hold back this Black venom within us is a task unto its own. You the spirit and dense body form are not you – you are a manipulated frequency field to keep the Darkness of the Illusion alive. Around the core of what we are within the frequency of the brain forms a halo – a round band of energy/light. This band is our true crown, where we are all kings and queens unto ourselves, where what we are and defines us is us, and there is no other. This is our Kingdom, and all others are inferior to us, because I am important to me and me alone. And here come those whom I see over the last few nights as I sleep – I see the energy Collectors as they pick these jems from our halo that defines us. These rocks; these diamonds that they pick from us are nuclear energy substations, because this is me, so all my attention is given to this that is me, and this focus of attention/energy by every fibre within our forms collects to form a nucleus of who and what we are, and these power-plants they take from us. And that boys and girls, is the true function of your spirit and body form – to be a “Tree” from which your energy may be picked/harvested. And know that this is the truth, where what I see and feel at its core does not fail me in seeking and knowing the truth. So what you do, is work from the end to dismantle the beginning. You dismantle these nuclear rocks/states of energy within your halo, and by doing so, you fall out of the System, where you no longer feed it, and when it is not fed, it falls apart. It is not the war that feeds the System – it is you the manufactured unit that was created to be defined around what brought you pleasure. You made the war, which is a minor bump in the flow chart. You are the flow chart – the emitter of the state that you defined to be you. By having nothing to feed the System from within your halo, you the manufactured spirit and body form fall away from the System, where now Consciousness and the Serpent may be and define the Illusion. Now there is no you with your name and job title, and that changes everything. To where are these nuclear rocks of energy taken by the energy Collectors? Call it the combustion chambers that the coal fires feed – call it what you want. What it is, is a pit where these nuclear rocks are dropped into, which feed the System that is the Illusion. As long as we provide these nuclear rocks, the Illusion remains intact and becomes denser with each passing moment. Take away these nuclear rocks from the halo within your head, and you and the System falls apart to reveal the real you. How this is done, is through understanding, where when you know what is there that should not be, it is taken away in the moment by understanding this is not you. You are not the System. You are not the feeder of the System. You are the Love of Consciousness and the Infinite, and to this you the Dragon and Serpent will return. So be it.
  21. What brings joy to the humble is learning they were wrong, because in being wrong they have learnt something new and can thus go forwards. To know is great, but to learn is wonderful, where false assumptions are now known to be untrue, which means we can rise up with our state of understanding. My mistake was assuming the spirit realm was where the Game was played out in. What a fool can see is those in the seen realm, ever since the creation of worlds, have always been the lesser to those in authority. Our pants have always been kept down to be butt-fucked by those in authority, backed by their army of those who enjoy playing Cowboys and Injuns, where we the Good enjoy a bit of target practice most of the time, taking pot-shots at the Bad. Our perception of Good and Bad became flawed, where if I am right I am Good, and because you don’t believe what I believe, now you are Bad, hence my right to take you off the face of exisence. Never have I seen a world that is flourishing, where your strength is determined by your natural state of kindness. These seen realms/worlds are merely the stages where Life is played out, but in the shadows/wings of the stage are those who regulate what goes on in the seen realms. All that these directors need is a handful of egomaniacs whose “me” is supreme to them and them alone, where the power over the masses keeps them on a high 24/7. So I always looked to the unseen world of the spirit rather than to our dense reality, because it was in the unseen/spirit realm that the agenda was laid for those in the seen/dense worlds. But I was wrong. It was what was within the spirit that the true Game was played out, and what this Game was, was attack the Serpent/kundalini soul within where it becomes ours. And this is where it gets confusing, where Love becomes twisted, because this attack was never done out of cruelty or anger, but rather of wanting to be one with what you are. Those Serpents souls who attacked the Serpent souls within the spirit wished to be one with what they are – or should we say – what they were, which was innocence. I am messed up and confused because I embraced the Reptilian frequency of the illusion, where I cast aside my morals and self-respect for the freedom of having my every want seen to, but you the innocent Serpent soul within the spirit form I wish for more than anything, because you have which I lost a long time ago, which is the connection to the Infinite, which is Home. As long as you care; as long as you are kind and have a conscience, you have a ticket back Home. That we have lost the route and the bus driver to take us there is irrelevant, because that day will come, as the Infinite is bigger than what my cock or stomach desires now. You have what I cast aside, which makes you real and me but a shadow in a cruel Game, so the only real goal worthwhile achieving and living for is to attain what I am not, which is you the innocent and Beautiful Serpent soul. That is the Game! We the manufactured spirit were merely the casing within which the Game was played, because within us is the true target of the Game – the innocent Serpent soul. And that is how I was wrong, where I wrote for the manufactured spirit rather than for the Serpent soul within the spirit. This has been corrected, where the fault was noted, where now we see the real player that needed the understandings of the Game so that it may be free from the confines of the canal within the spirit and body form. Love became a twisted love, where I love you, but this love will hurt like hell, where you will feel my turmoil and chaos within me as it is unleashed, and unfortunately by you being in my proximity by you allowing me into your Life, you will feel and know this disturbed being that I am. The only real antidote to the madness within all in the illusion is the will to rise up and be better than what we are. We don’t have the answers to peace, and we never will, but your will to be better than what you are will pick you up, where you see the insanity around you and know that is not you. So many of us cannot do this, so we do our best to love those we are meant to love most in this world, and we fail miserably. From fucked up parents fucked up children are born, and this I see all day every day. So go back to origin of “I love you only to hurt you,” and this Game is played out against the Serpent soul housed within the manufactured spirit, where those Serpent souls who went against Love now have only one thing left to do in their existence, which is destroy all remnants of what they were, which is the innocent Serpent soul within your spirit and mine. To be evil is to hate yourself, where you get up each morning to feed the anger and cruelty within you, because you turned your back on what you naturally are, and how do we get back on the tracks to what we were? We don’t know, so let’s go all out and complete the job, which is destroy the innocent that we once were. But the real turmoil within, is the Love we have for those that were kind to themselves and others, and this is where Love became twisted, where I Love you, but don’t know anything else but to destroy, so I destroy you that I Love. This twisted, disgusting Love has filtered down from the Serpents within the unseen to the spirit entities, and from there to the dense body form. Why do we kill here on planet Earth? – Because we are righteous to do so, and I say this because I am you and thus know what is best for you, and thus I know better than you, so if you are wrong I put you in your place and teach you a lesson by killing you. Do you understand now where this mentality comes from? There has been one final push to destroy me and what I stand for, which is the truth, and this has failed miserably because when I see you and know you, that is when I truly Love you, and this Love cannot be destroyed because it is not a twisted Love. Understand that the Serpentile Gods meant no harm to anyone – they just did not know how to show Love, and that was so because of the wants within them that consumed them. You want, then sure, get what you want, but always know yourself and from where you arose. If the Game within the Infinite becomes take all you want and become king for a day, then go for it and have fun, but when the play is over hang up the robe and put away the crown in the dinky toy-box where it belongs, and from there walk out the theatre and be what you always are and have been, which is a child of the Infinite. This is what kept the Game going for so long, where through the madness there was a genuine Love, but unfortunately that did not help the victims to this free-flowing cruelty. “You are not kind good sir – you are cruel, so take whatever warped misconception you have and keep it to yourself, where you are no part of my existence and those I Love.” For that statement to hold true, one had to understand this twisted Love, where we do, where the Serpent spirits/Gods and Bad Serpent souls wished to control and be one with the Serpent soul housed in the manufactured spirit form. “You are scared on me, so I will break down the door to get to you, but don’t worry, because I Love you.” And that is what drove the Game – the Game between the Serpents that you and I the spirit and body form were never really a part of. We the spirits could have stood together to protect the precious cargos within, but that would not have worked, as deceit and brute force would have worn us down – the only antidote was to understand what was going on, and from there knowing that is not you, where you don’t play in such Games because you are not cruel. Normally one can see the writing on the wall, and allow a guestimate of what will happen, but whereto from here I have no idea, where I am not even willing to guess and give my two cents worth, and the reason for this is through the understanding that I the spirit and body form truly know nothing. All that I can do is open myself up to be taken where the wind blows me, because now the true players of the Game are standing up and making their presence felt. The innocent have no reason to fight and argue because that is not what they are – they merely walk and be what they are. Have the Serpentile Gods reached a peace within themselves? I would say so, and this was the work of the journal, where now they have a mirror to look into and see what went wrong with themselves. That was the true illusion – the mind within the Serpentile Gods that they never understood and could make sense of, because what they believed did not make sense to themselves, where I feel like this towards you, and yet it does not make me joyous. Why do I Love you, and yet this Love makes me and you so unhappy? It was because it was a twisted Love, where I am you and you are me. What I never knew was I forsook my Love and you did not, so I wanted what you had so that I may remember what I am, and in consuming you, I now have what you had. Love is never cruel; Love is always kind, and this we could never get quite right because we never understood the fucked up state within. So look past the dense body and spirit form to the Serpent soul within the Game played around them to understand the sickness of the illusion, where we just stopped caring because we don’t even have the energy to look after ourselves. The madness within and without consumed all our energy, where we had nothing left to build a foundation with, and from there walk Home. Understand the big picture and what happened, and from there do nothing. Merely be what you are and Life will unfold as it should. What that is, I haven’t got a clue.
  22. So now, in knowing what you are, this Serpent, what you do is shine by giving attention/energy to this Consciousness within you, where you become this Light. You shine for you the Serpent, as well as for the manufactured holographic spirit and dense body form. You shine to be this what you are which is Consciousness, and this changes everything. To you the spirit and body form, by knowing what is within you, you become humble and follow this Serpent soul within. This Serpent with the God-force/Infinite within leads the way by merely being, where what comes to you defines you in this Light. From Love comes love; from kindness one sees kindness, and from the Infinite that is Consciousness one sees the Beauty all around us of all that is. To be what you are, one needs to know what you are, and in this state we walk Home to be one with Consciousness. 12/4/2024 (May that be the last.)
  23. What I was shown last night as my body lay in bed sleeping disturbed me. What I have seen and experienced in the seen and unseen over the last ten years or so has rattled me, but it has never disturbed me. The nastiness and cruelty of a stranger, or from those I love most in this world has rattled me, but never disturbed me. Last night I was disturbed by what I saw as my body lay in bed sleeping. How it has worked with my Third Eye being open can be likened to opening a lucky-packet, where you don’t know what you will get. What comes that I see during my sleep state is anyones guess. Last night as I lay down to sleep I thought this is as good a time as ever to have a change of plans, where instead of talking-the-talk, now I would walk-the-talk, where I decide what I would like to see. My “partner in crime” is the Serpent soul within, so last night I decided to meet this best friend that we never knew we had. So there I was with my Third Eye open throughout the night, waiting to meet my partner. I looked and looked and looked, and waited and waited and waited. At some stage while I slept I pressed with the nail side of my thumbs against my closed eyelids to look deeper into the unseen, and what I saw was the black and gold state of the Infinite. This place I have seen before, but have never experienced it, where I become one with the Infinite. Where was my friend the Serpent soul – the whole night I looked and waited. At about two in the morning my body form woke up as well – I suppose from being tired of waiting. Now I was fully awake, and done my best to try and sleep, as I had to get up in a few hours time. This falling asleep I battled to do, most probably because I wanted so badly to see the Serpent soul within me. If we are to walk this path together, it is important that we get acquanted, so as important it was to get a good nights rest, it was more important to meet the one within who has dwelled within my spirit for so long. What a battle – this trying to fall asleep. It must have happened, because sometime during the early hours of this morning I said to myself let me have a look at what is lying next to me, where I raised myself off the bed, and what I saw was a head. This head was in the opposite direction to where I was lying. There was no face with eyes or mouth or nose on the head. All you saw were spots of indented, scarred flesh, where it looked like someone took a grater with deep indentations in and had hacked the grater into the flesh of the head. In the next scene I was driving my wifes car. In the back of the car sat a lady and her dog whom she brought to Steven for help. It was a medium size, black dog, and this dog was confused, lonely, lost and in pain, where all of these states fused into one to give the dog a state of “what is happening and going on with me?” As I drove the car I turned around to talk to the lady on the back seat. She told me to be careful where I drive, as now I was driving the car in the oncoming lane. This startled me, and from there I had no confidence and ability to drive, where I was totally out of it. In the next scene the indented, grated head had a body attached to it, which was lying almost upright in a hospital bed. Two surgeons were sitting around this entity, where they took off two large gauzes from its face. The face was still not complete, but the most startling aspect was the confused and delirious state of this patient as it lay on the bed – who and what am I, and what is going on? That is what I saw and experienced last night as my body form lay in bed sleeping. From the Source of the Infinite our Consciousness is born forth into the fields of Infinite Love, and around this speck of Light the Creators bring forth a Life-form to play and experience the fields of Infinite Love. The Wisdom Goddess Sophia created the Dragon spirits around the specks of Consciousness, and when these Dragons have finished playing they become one with Consciousness, which once again returns to the Source of all that is. The Serpent spirits were created by the impact of the fall of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia. This we know. What we don’t know, is who we are. You and I sit down to a good old-fashioned pep-talk, where we motivate ourselves up to this “Yes! We can do this!” state. But what are you? Who are you motivating? That head I saw last night as I slept was the head of my spirit in its initial stage of being formed/developed by the cosmic geneticists. Those two “surgeons” I saw were the cosmic genecists who created me. That entity lying on the bed totally out of it was my spirit as it was being manufactured into a Life-form so that it may be tagged with an identity and purpose. That black dog I was shown was there for me to see the state of this manufactured entity – confusion, disbelief, shock. I was shown that so I may know how I felt when I was created, and let’s be honest – we have merely adapted from these states, not learnt and grown and evolved from them. So what disturbed me last night is the answer to the question of what you and I are. (Let’s put Consciousness on the backburners for now – this speck of Light around which all Life-forms are created.) Are we a spirit? The answer is no. The spirit was manufactured by the cosmic geneticists. So what are you? You reading these words in the seen and unseen – what are you? You are the Serpent soul; the kundalini force. I am not Steven Geldenhuys the spirit or body form – I am a Serpent. Last night as the body form slept I waited and looked to meet the Serpent soul, and I saw nothing, because what I was looking for I am, and so are you. Let’s go back to that scenario of Ben and Bob sitting around a table strategizing and having a good pep-talk. “Yes Ben, says Bob. We can do this!!!!!!!!” Great stuff guys, but who the fuck are you? You are doing it for Ben and Bob, but that is not you, so what you are doing is nothing for nobody because you do not know what you are. Now do you get it? Now do you understand why I was so disturbed – because we have been giving attention/energy to a manufactured being that we are not. Don’t go the Consciousness route for now – let’s rather touch base with reality by knowing who and what we are. We are the Serpent soul that was cloned from the Serpent spirit, and we the Serpent soul was housed within a manufactured spirit who labelled itself with a name and identity and job description. You are not that spirit – you are a Serpent. Know what you are. In knowing what I am, I know I was born not from the Source of the Infinite, but rather from the fall of a Creator. So where is the Consciousness I should have been born around? And that is the difference between us and the Dragons – they were created around this speck of Light, and we were not. Within the stillness of the silence, me the Serpent soul looks for my Consciousness, towards which we move to become one with, and what I see is nothing – it is not there, and this makes sense because I was not created around one. To be what you are, which is Consciousness, you first have to know what you are, as in “you” reading these words. You are not a manufactured spirit – you are a Serpent. The Infinite is everywhere, thus within me and you the Serpent soul. We call forth from the Source of the Infinite this Light so that it may be within us the Serpent, so that we may know what is Home, and in doing so, we may know where we belong, because when we know where we belong, then truly we know what we are. In the stillness of the silence, from deep within the heart field, this Star/Light comes forth, and it shines for us the Serpent to see. I have never been a religious person, nor was I born into a religious family, but as a kid I remember seeing a thirty centimetre tall statue of Jesus in our house. He wore a beautiful long red robe, and with his one hand he pointed towards a bright Light that was shining within his chest. Now take that image of Jesus and replace it with a Serpent, and what you see is you, with this bright Light shining within your chest. That Light is your Consciousness, and that Light defines you the Serpent as one born from the Infinite. Now you are reborn – where you are a child of the All. Now Pinocchio becomes a real boy.
  24. Two things happened that should not have: The first was we stopped thinking, and the second was that we brought the state of Emotions into our existence. To be, is not to be emotional. The state that we call Emotions is reserved for the fields of Infinite Love, where we know ourselves and we are Home. This Emotional state is different to the one here, where we so easily get our balls tied up in a knot or our tits in a tangle. What Emotions are, is when you walk into the state/space of another to be/experience what they are. You walk into the wind and become the wind, and this gives you a thrill to experience another, and that is Emotions. We stoppped thinking and we became emotional, and this fed the System beautifully. The art of Thinking is to understand that you know nothing, so you resort back to what you are, which is living from the Heart space, which is Everything. How do you define Love? You see a Beautiful tree, and you Think you Love the tree. Now you walk up to the tree and give it a hug, and you become Emotional, where you care and feel for the tree. Go past those states of Thinking and Feeling, and what you have is Love. Love is the Blackness of the Vastness of the All. It cannot be defined or kept in a bottle – it simply is. To be free of this dump walk past Thinking and Emotions, where you keep on walking until there is nothing there. From this Nothing comes Everything, and to achieve this Everything one has to become Nothing – this Everything that is. And this you have to understand and apply, because the days of reading just to read have to end sooner or later, lest you remain played in this Game ad infinitum. There are players that love themselves and the Game, and they will do everything they can to hold onto this wasted existence because this Game defines them, where I am better than you and that is what defines me and brings me peace. I would equate evil to the egomaniac, where – I am supreme, where if I cannot find God, in my eyes I will become one. How many runts out there are walking around with this inflated opinion of themselves? I see these fuckers in my sleep state – those who feel they are entitled to be above others, because wow, I am supreme. There is no ways that these will give up the illusion – this fake world with real cruel and fake beings that dwell therein. So you have to leave, because if you don’t, the cruel and the fake will do all they can to keep you here to play in their Game. For them you have to stay because they need others to look down upon and be cruel towards. So listen to what I have to say, and from there manouvre the arse into fifth gear and get the fuck out of this place, and how this is done, is go past thinking and emotions to a state of being. You know you are there when you feel Nothing within, and in this Nothing is Everything, where you are the All. Sounds good? Deep stuff we are talking about? Well, it means nothing unless you are there being what you are, which is this Love, where from Nothing comes Everything. So stop feeding your intellectual and analytical ego and get out while you still can. How I miss Home. How I miss being amogst my own. The reality is that I cannot do this alone, where I need someone to hold my hand and show me the way. Understand where and what we are: We are rattled; we are lost; we have been surviving at the edges of insanity for so long that there isn’t much more left inside of, where mistakes and wrong turns cannot be made because we don’t have the energy to once again pick ourselves up. When I go into the stillness of the silence, I feel a shutdown of the mind, and the return of the Serpent to our forms. It is this Snake whom we have looked after for so long that will show us the way, because the reality is we are too broken to go this solo, where being in a place where we don’t belong has impacted us in more ways than one. You the spirit never abandoned the Serpent soul within, and with its freedom it will not abandon you. So get to know this best friend you forgot existed, where the two of you move towards the Light that is Consciousness that is Home.
  25. Last night as the rain poured down as I fell asleep was shown the downfall of Consciousness from its lost to its rotten state. The frequency film is there in the ethers for all to see, where your spirit calls it forth to witness the lesson on the fall of Consciousness, and we stress this fall was through naivety of Consciousness and the deceit of those from the shadows. Consciousness was led astray through the double-edged sword of innocence, which is naivety – it was not because it wanted to go out and play it rough because it could. What I was shown as I slept was too much for this Steven to remember, but my spirit does, and that is what matters. So go have a sticky-beak when you can – don’t know the showtimes in the spirit realm, but the feed is there, just call it forth. From there a “documentary” began on the Life of my friend Skeletor. That kids animation series He-Man of the eighties had the baddie called Skeletor that fought the goodie He-Man. That Skeletor is real – have seen him a few times through my Third Eye when I sleep. He was the Enforcer out there in the illusion, where when you stuff up he gives you a hiding of note – one you will never forget and never be the same again afterwards. His body is made of a shiny steel unknown to you and I. That doco is also streaming in the spirit realm of this good Man that done his best to keep justice within the illusion. From there I found myself what felt like being on a cloud somewhere within the skies. I was working on the horse of my only horse client and she began bad mouthing me, telling me I was hurting her horse with what I was doing. Of course this was absolute nonsense, so I got myself in a huff and tuff. I pulled myself out of this scenario to find myself once again lying in my bed. Through my Third Eye I saw the two who implanted the above-mentioned dream. They were of a different world – really freaky looking – and when they saw that they got my attention where I saw them, they began to get it on with each other. As they began I looked away, not interested at their nonsense. What that tells me is the live-feed of our energy to those in the Reptilian frequency is no more. In the past you and I were helpless to these beings who entered our space and done with us as they please. It was like someone entering your house and doing with you and your loved ones as they pleased, but now all they can do is knock at the front door, where you open the door, see what is there, and close the door in their faces. Pathetic, cruel bastards, but I don’t want to go there, because in pointing fingers at others, I need to look at my species as well, where what we do to each other and the innocent is worse than those from the Reptilian realm, where we copied master and made their Game our own. What would have happended, where instead of accepting, we say “I don’t know.” In not knowing, you open yourself up to answer your own question, where now you walk through the door to the next level – one step closer to where you belong. Our acceptance of what is has been our downfall, where we look at the madness in front of us and say that is okay. Well, it is not okay, and we must know what, but what can we do about it? Well, how about finding an alternative, because surely there must be more than one way to skin a cat. And here, as always, am talking to those in the spirit realm. When you look, see – don’t just look to look and accept what is there. It has to make sense – natural, common sense, otherwise it is deceitful nonsense. The walls are breaking down and now is the time to become street-smart, where you use common sense. My advice is listen to your good Heart and no one else, because if you lend an ear to others, or give them your attention, you will be deceitfully thrown off the path. You walk, knowing who you are. I know that in the grand scheme of things I know nothing. What I also know is each day I do my best to be a better person than what I was yesterday. I never accept yesterday, where there is always something better, and this is forever the case until I am Home. So walk with you, helping those who cross your path that need your help and are forever thankful for who you are and what you done. Be proud of yourself – of who you are, where with each passing moment you know you walk towards the real you that is Consciousness. 9th April, 2024
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