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  1. Hi. The issue at hand is to dismantle the illusion. Everything that is bad in the illusion is not necessary through our fault, meaning although we always had a choice to be kind or be cruel, we were stacked against a System that we didnt understand. But to be kind is no longer enough, as i am a good person and this has not helped me one iota - if anything, i have been a target for beasts to let out their frustrations, and this is so as i have no ego, so people show me what they are. To wait for others to change and be kind will never happen, as many love where they are and what they have become. It starts with you, and it is for you, as you know there is more for you as this place is not where we belong, in the seen and unseen. If you listen to a song you like that is Beautiful, that song uplifts you, where you are lifted to a high, where you float. That energy is released and creates a form within the illusion, what is literally a frequency cloud. So when we in the illusion wished to control others, this control frequency departed us to form its cloud, and in this cloud of the frequency of control, the Watcher spirit was born, which came to control us. Similary, the architects of the illusion created worlds and species to control, but from their will to build the framework of the illusion, this frequency became independent of them and ruled what they created. Its like building a Frankenstein and then this Frankenstein controls you. Such is the Spider and the Web, where the architects of the illusion becamr trapped in their own creation. The illusion is full of stupid species and spirits, and this is their right to be stupid, as one cannot judge. If you, like me, feel like a fish out of water within the illusion, then one always has to look at the big picture rather than focus on problems. More than anything, i am driven to be where i belong, in the seen and the unseen. This setting free begins on an individual basis, as many want no other option but the hell they find themselves in. At the end of the day we have to free ourselves. Nobody else will do it for us, hence my drive to finish this journal, as where we are is amongst Beasts of unimaginable cruelty. There is a freaky-friday show out there that boggles the imagination - it is really bad. And i intend to leave asap, taking the innocent with me.
  2. I suppose now would be as good a time as ever to talk about the Spider and its Web. Over the last few days – in just moments – I feel this soft, delicate presence over me, particularly over front side of left leg. The Web is the frequency of the illusion – the intricate and yet so beautiful framework of the illusion. This is a grand, masterful act that would truly be beautiful if it did not lay the foundation for cruelty to play out on. The Spider is the keeper of the Web, making sure this architectural masterpiece remains intact. What has happened before the beginning of time is dynasties have risen and fallen. Brutal tyrannies have plagued the worlds of the illusion, and as soon as they arose, just as soon did they disappear. The same is true for individuals that are beautifully Good – they rise, to show all their Beauty, and then they fall. The reason for this rise and fall, be it Harmony or Disharmony, is the Web needs to be in a constant state of equilibrium. Too much Good, and we swing towards the Infinite; too much Cruelty, and we destroy ourselves where we stay down and don’t get up. The scales need to be balanced, and these scales take measurements in hundreds of years, so a dynasty that rules for two hundred years will touch the scales minimally. But always there has to be a shift back to the centre, where too much good, or too much bad is corrected by the Spider so that the Web doesn’t break, meaning the illusion is always intact. On this physical planet called Earth we see the Covid jab and all the destruction and sorrow it seeds, but it goes much further than that. Those at the core of the illusion know of this Spiders Web – they know that sooner or later they will destroy themselves so that the Web of the illusion is not overextended. They will Fall, just as the sun will rise tomorrow morning, as this is the natural order of the illusion. So what these Beasts are doing, is building a web on top of a Web, so that the Web below remains intact where it is not affected by the new framework/web they have constructed above the original one, hence the hack and take-over of the Human and its spirit form by a synthetic life-form. The Synthetic material in the jab is the web that is being created over our frequency form so that we may not fall and take these Beasts with us. Now we are a host, where a web of synthetic material is literally being constructed within us – a web built on our frequency, but in the big picture, this synthetic web is built on the Web/framework of the illusion. Now these Beasts can extract our energy like vampires and the Web/System will not fall to rebalance the scales as we will not fall – we will disappear and be taken over, but we will not fall. As you can see, this attempt to remain kings and queens of the hill will fail miserably, because what the scales rely on for balance is the flow of the Human spirit where it loves unconditionally. Their plan will fail, and so will we, as we are a part of their plan. Truthfully, what these Beasts understand is they are clutching on straws because there is no way out of the illusion besides going back to what we all naturally are, which is Love. You stay in this place and you become forgotten here, where you forget yourself. There are no winners, but these Beasts refuse to admit defeat, where they know their Game and existence of being cruel always implodes on itself. They never get it right, where they can have their bread buttered on both sides – be cruel, and live in peace in this state of being cruel. The Spider is the keeper of the illusion, and the illusion is its Web. You and I can stand on our heads and whistle Dixy, but no matter what we do, nothing is going to change in our existence until the Web – the framework of the illusion – is dismantled. What is this Spider? Is it the architect of the illusion? What I can tell you is it is a being of Love that is doing its best to keep the illusion alive. Without this Spider the savage that is the Beast in the seen and unseen would have plummeted the worlds of the illusion into Death a long time ago. Oh yes, many worlds have fallen as the parasitic frequency of the illusion takes over those there, and I say this because my spirit has been to such worlds where there is nothing left there except a Worm. This Spider is the friend you and I never knew existed, and yet what an awful existence it must have, where you keep the scales balanced to keep the illusion intact, and yet within this illusion is so much chaos and sorrow. It’s like you keeping your children indoors, telling them they can’t go and play outside because it is not safe there, and yet while they remain inside because you need to care and look after them, you see them experience so much heartache. Sure, there are smacks of laughter and fun, but then the scales go back to heartache. You need to always keep that balance to keep the room stable. And why this is so, is because they are in a place where they don’t belong, and you have to make sure that this place remains stable, otherwise they will implode because they are not where they belong. This Keeper is Good, but there is a stagnancy as there is an everlasting constant, meaning no matter how hard we try, we remain the same and go nowhere. The answer for this dilemma is for the Spider to release the worm; the parasitic frequency of Deception, within all. When this is done, there is no need to keep the scales balanced, as now we depart to where we belong as Consciousness takes us over and we return to the Infinite. Now there is no rise or fall; now there is simply a being of what we are. To set the Spider/Keeper free, set the Parasite free, and then we are free, as the illusion is what it was intended to be – a playground of joy and happiness. This understanding is passed now to the Keeper, because as long as this Spider keeps the Web/illusion intact, we are going nowhere. You want to help my friend, then please help us by removing the parasitic frequency of Deception from the illusion. You understand how it got here, through the curiosity of the Dragon and Serpent spirits that took on a form within the illusion. You are Love, so release this Parasite with Love to Love so that it may be Love like you. And from there, be free, meaning release your Web so that the Infinite make take it over and return it to the Infinite. We have all suffered too much. Be free.
  3. This morning woke up and lay in bed, trying to figure out what my spirit had just been through as my body form slept. My spirit found itself amongst others, as in a different species. These others weren’t simpletons, maybe just a cut above us, but in my eyes they were a bunch of sillies. We were moving house, and at one stage we were playing tennis, with the net being much higher than what we know it to be. It wasn’t a pleasant experience, and it wasn’t bad, it was just arbitrary – a waste of time and energy. My feel is my spirit is regressing to the sphere of pure Love with no identity. What was experienced was one of the stages of “evolution” the spirit went through. Dummies then, and dummies now. From my side, Guilty As Charged, with me standing first in line. 5th February, 2023 Two things happened that resulted in us within the illusion becoming Beasts in the seen and unseen. The first was that we lived in the now, without any consideration for the future, and the second was that we lost our conscience, meaning we stopped caring about ourselves. My question to the cruel is this: “Did you ever stop to consider that one day you will have to answer to yourself; that there are consequences to your actions, where one day you will be accountable for your wrongs, where you will have to make your wrongs right?” What made the Beast strong was its embracement of the Reptilian frequency of the illusion, where a god-status was felt within these savages. This power pushed them away from their conscience, where their power justified their actions – simply through the power of this Reptilian frequency that allowed them free reign over the illusion that became, and is, a living Hell for the innocent. How short-sighted can you be, where you live for the destruction of now, not seeing what your actions will do to you and those you destroy. That is insanity in its purest form, where we don’t see what our cruelty to others does to ourselves. Well that day will arrive, where Beasts have to answer to themselves. I wish them no mercy; I wish them to get what they deserve, so that they may know what they have become and how easily they chose to hate and destroy at the expense of the innocent. I wish no harm to nobody. What I do wish is for Beasts to see themselves for what they are, then I walk away as they face and deal with what they have become. That day will come, and then they will weep. I will not be there to wipe away the tears as I have been too long in their presence. I walk away from them, and everything they have touched me with I leave behind, with no bitterness or hate within me. I leave them be, and good riddance to those that chose to destroy rather than Love. Last night as I slept my spirit was taken to the origin of the implanted programme where I am in a classroom setting, don’t understand the work, and with certainty know I will fail my exams. As my spirit went through this programme I felt nothing, as in no emotion of fear. The spirit is healing. 6th February, 2023 The worst blockages are the self-inflicted ones. Release them now. You have suffered enough. Release all blockages now, because you can. 06/02/2023 The problem with blockages, is that entities can hide within and around them. Over the last year or so we have tried everything to get my youngest daughters health better – from homeopathy to my healing to antibiotic treatment to vitamin boost injections. Nothing helped. Over the last week she complained it was as if something was pushing against her chest and lower abdomen. But the biggest disasters were the headaches and constant fatigue, not to mention the chronic sinusitis. As parents we had lost all hope because we gave it our all and nothing worked. Then the blockages were removed from her spirit and body form, and last night, through a process of elimination, decided to get to the bottom of her pain and fatigue wracked life. You start with Consciousness – how is that? Then you move to the spirit, and from there to the body form. Somewhere between the last two I felt this half-meter entity wriggling inside of her. It was something between a snake and a worm. When I felt it, this entity knew it was caught out, so it began to move frantically in an attempt to hide. It moved with a frenzy over the chest area, and boy-oh-boy was the claustrophobic pain over the chest from this hyped entity bad – it felt like I was going to get a heart attack. From there it moved to the head region, causing bad headaches. This shit-show of an entity has been within her for at least ten months. My youngest daughter has a strong affiliation with her teachers, as they see the gem that she is. She loves them and they love her. Most probably all her teachers were given the Covid jab, and they shedded – passed on – the alien technology to my daughter through the energetic frequency bond that was there. And so it was that this entity from the jab grew inside of her, but this is only one side of the story. What is transmitted from certain satellites connects to these entities that have been injected within us, where there is now a relay/communication network between them. One has to first neutralize these satellites, and then release the entity within. This morning my daughter is okay, and we will continue to monitor her. Why could I not help over a year ago? In seeing the big picture, one has to peel away the layers, and only with a layer removed, could one go deeper to the next. This takes time, which is a disaster for me, as one feels helpless as one has to be patient as we go deeper to the truth. Slept on the couch last night as the room upstairs is too hot and the noise from the passing traffic disturbs me. Just before I woke up, I felt my spirit, and it was naked – I thought I was lying on the couch with no clothes on. What this means, is the spirit is carrying no excess. Now it can return to what it is. And what is this? Consciousness connects to the Tree of Life within; the spirit connects to its gift of a good heart, which feels like a shield in front of the chest; and the body form is bathed in the presence of the above two. May this shit-show come to an end, where Life unfolds as it should.
  4. And then, of course, there has to be a purging from within us. This I never knew, until I hit my sleep state last night. If there are no unpleasantries within you that define your spirit and body form, then what you have experienced that is unpleasant is brought forth and released from your forms – what was stored within comes out. A necessary, but unpleasant experience. You the body form may not be aware of it, but your spirit will. 3rd February, 2023. (And may I say “Happy Anniversary” to this journal – 9 years today in the making. Unbelievable! May the end be in sight.) Who the fuck writes a book on a full-time basis, where the book consumes them, for nine years.
  5. Remember what you the body form are – you are a biological computer that interacts with the frequencies of the illusion. Let’s say you attend an event, where there are, for example, four hundred people. Amongst this sea of faces there is someone who always catches your eye, and yours theirs. Why is this so; why are we levitated towards certain places or people; why did you marry your partner and not another? Being soul mates is a massive part of the answer, where you have met the person before in previous lifetimes, but primarily the person is on the same frequency as yours, just as a certain song resonates to you as it gels with your frequency. There is good inside of you, and there are flaws. If you are lucky, your attraction to the other person is primarily to their strong points, where these strong points, added with a touch of adulthood, eliminate the flaws as one grows older. If you are unlucky, the good within the person you are attracted to is outweighed by their bad, so when you and their frequency connect and there is a spark, this spark soon fizzles out as on the frequency band there is a whole lot of unpleasantness. Season that toxic cocktail with the stresses of Life and the dish served is a Life of hell for the poor children caught between this bun-fight. The secret recipe to a Life well lived is to have peace within. How this is achieved is to have an understanding of who and where you are, and what happened that we ended up in this frequency illusion. This understanding does not so much give peace – as peace is the wrong word here – this understanding allows for a rock-solid core within you, and what this core does, is it attracts the frequencies to you to maintain this core, as this is who and what you are. To be practical, go into the stillness of the silence and settle on this core within you, but before you do this, decide which aspects of your Life is lacking, be they wealth, health or happiness. You can have wealth and happiness, but if health is lacking you are limited from experiencing the other two states. And once again, remember what you the body form are – you are a biological computer that interacts with the frequencies of the illusion. If, for example, your health is lacking, then from your core, and by core, we can say this is Consciousness that has a handle on the spirit and body form. Consciousness sees what is lacking in your health, and restores your health to what it should be. For wealth, Consciousness scans the illusion and brings forth into your frequency what will bring peace to your wealth, where you have what is needed. This is relative – some will require thousands, and others millions. But please understand that Consciousness is bringing forth the tools within the illusion to maintain your core peace – it is playing in a game that is not permanent. This game is the opening act before the main act, which is the body and spirit becoming one with Consciousness, where the three become one, and from there return to the Infinite. You need to understand that understanding means nothing unless the fruits are plucked from this understanding. I can spend my days on a park bench knowing what I know, but this means nothing unless this understanding is used to interact with the illusion, because as long as we are here, we need to be comfortable to comply with the peace within. The trick is to have peace within, and this peace equates to understanding what happened that we found ourselves in a place where we don’t belong. Will what has just been said work? I don’t know, but I intend to find out. What I do know is in the seen and unseen I am where I don’t belong. 02/02/2023
  6. Apologies. What is written below there is a technique, where you fold in on yourself, where everything that you the spirit and body are moves towards the Light/Consciousness within. **** Last night as my body slept my spirit was taken to a place. The feel of the place was an African village in the middle of nowhere. There I saw two females lying face down on the ground. Their skin colour was one with the Earth. These two females slept and they never woke up. The first question I cannot answer, as in who are they. The second question I can answer, as in why they slept – they slept because there was nothing to wake up to because there was no Love anywhere. I woke them up so that they may see my story – why there has been no Love in the worlds of the illusion. What they do with my story I cannot say. What those two females felt like before the beginning of time is what I feel like in this day. Why live when there is nothing to live for? This is not depression talking, but reality. I need to be amongst my own, otherwise I will never make it – out of choice. I will lay down to sleep like those two females did. 25/01/2023 One could say I have come full circle. It must have been a good seven years ago I went to see a psychic for a reading. This guy was a first-class twat, where the session was more of a debate with me disagreeing with everything he said, most notably his belief system. Then, at the end of the session, he presented me with a pack of cards and told me to produce one from the pack. What I chose, from all those cards, was what and who this Steven is. The picture on the card was of a face in the sky looking out over the lands. This face was weeping. The cards description spoke of one who looked out on all the sorrow and heartache and wept at what they saw. This is me before time immemorial. This is me, as in who and what I am. This is me, a spirit of privilege, who has everything, including those around me who Love me more than anything, and yet nothing can wash away this sorrow that consumes me and has taken me over. How can I be happy when others are unhappy? This is not possible for anyone who is sane. Today I looked at the earth and the sky above it, and from there I looked for the Love that should be everywhere. Where is this Love? The answer is it is absent. Through what has been understood through literally walking through Hell in the unseen realms, and of course experiencing this Hell in the seen by meeting the brutes/Beasts of my fellow species, I understand what happened that there is sorrow and no Love. It has been one shit ride, where through all of it, I do understand. So now my spirit looks out on the planes and understands the cruelty of Life. The difference between now and then is this understanding, but what has stayed the same is the absence of this Love within our existence. I am not being melodramatic in making such a statement. When I see the smile on my children’s face it lights up my life. When I throw water in the garden and see the mist of water that dances with the sun’s rays, I understand Life is beautiful. But look past these wonders that stare us in the face and what do you see? You see a world that has lost all sanity and integrity. You see the callous and the crude that don’t even try and hide behind a smile. If you are brave enough, you will see that this world is absent of the Love of a God. That is the truth that few have the courage to admit, and this is so is because what can they do about their abandoned status? Well, how about being kind? How about being considerate? How about treating others the way you would like to be treated? How about the basics of good manners – as in a simple “thank you.” When we were abandoned by the Love of a God we fell apart, as in we never stuck together. Now it was each fucker for himself, and look where that has brought us. I have come full circle, where I once again look out across the planes and see no Love of a God watching over and guiding us. Do I feel this presence within me? Yes I do, but why is it not there for everyone else? The difference in coming full circle now is I no longer weep. Now I wait to see this phenomena materialize for all. 25/01/2023 When they took the “I” out of Consciousness, what did they do with it? The answer is they hid it from Consciousness within what we would call our nose area. When you do what should not be done, your “nose grows longer,” meaning Consciousness is telling you “stop and look what you are – what you wish to do is not what you are.” Return the “I” to Consciousness by knowing where it was hidden. 26/01/2023 When Consciousness was discovered within us, in those early days I called it the strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness. It was found hidden in our nose area, and from there it dropped down to the throat area to where it belonged. But this is not the full story, as I never understood the big picture. Consciousness in its limited state, where the “I” was removed from it, making it forget who and what it is, this state has always been located in the throat area. What I found hidden in the nose was the “I” part of Consciousness that was hidden from it so that Consciousness could not be a whole. So all those years back I did not find Consciousness in the nose area, but rather that part of it that was removed from Consciousness so that it may forget itself. Understand that I know nothing, so everything has to be figured out. It is like a detective finding these clues, which by themselves mean nothing. Only when the clues are put together can the completed picture be seen, which it has now. 26/01/2023 The question to ask, and once again, it is a huge one, is why did the Infinite never bail us out? Within the fields of Infinite Love there is more than just one Creator. Sophia is not the only one to be able to create Life from the Source of the Infinite. When these Creators knew she was in Shit Street, as in trapped within the dense frequency of an illusion, why did they not bail her out? The answer that makes sense to me can be found in the construction of the illusionary Garden. The fall of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia from her realm created an impact zone, and from this zone were “born” the Serpent spirits, with Queen Semiramis coming forth as the queen bee. This had never happened before, this fall and this “birth” from a Creators fall. The third phenomena that was a first within the Infinite was the creation of an illusionary realm – this Beautiful Garden that Semiramis created. What I am trying to say, is the frequency of the Garden was unknown to the Infinite, as the “I;” the Infinite knowing what it was, was removed from this illusionary bubble, meaning the Garden was now in stealth/unknown mode to the fields of Infinite Love. This was still okay, as with the Serpent and Dragon spirits that came to play in the Garden was their Consciousness that was one with the Infinite, meaning within this illusion there was still a link to the outside fields of Infinite Love. As the want within the Serpent and Dragon spirits grew, their Consciousness took a back seat, where this Light began to fade. Those within the Infinite sent The Glow to within the illusionary Garden so that those therein may remember who and what they are, hoping that this presence would shake their hypnotic trance where they remember this Infinite/Consciousness within. As we know by now, Semiramis in her insane state utilized this Glow to her advantage, where she stood behind the Glow so that the Serpents and Dragons may associate this Glow with her, where they saw her as all-powerful. So the plan of the Infinite to bail us out backfired and made things a trillion times worse. Now we fast-forward to the Christ Consciousness that came to bail us out. This presence was attacked and imprisoned by the elite Serpent souls that made the illusion their own, where they became the boss of bosses. I have no doubt these Serpents, where there were maybe eight or nine of them, that they had a female frequency to them, as there is no way a male frequency can be so powerful, shrewd, cunning and clever. While Queen Semiramis was knocking out fires trying to restore order to her domain, these Serpent souls ran the illusion like clockwork from the shadows. This was their ship, which they controlled, meaning nothing left or entered without them knowing about it. It is my belief that a Christ Consciousness entered the illusion to remind us all who and what we are. I believe that this messenger was intended primarily for the spirit realm, and in this realm the target was Consciousness within the spirit. By this stage Consciousness was intentionally dumbed down, where the “I” was pulled from Consciousness so that it may forget who and what it is, and this is what I believe was the primary role for this attack on Consciousness – it was done so that the illusion may be different to the Infinite, meaning for the Infinite to enter the illusion and make an impact therein, the Infinite had to talk the same language as the illusion, where this Christ Consciousness had to dumb itself down to enter and make contact with those trapped within the illusion. This is the only explanation as to how these Serpent souls could get the better of one that was sent by the Infinite. Through all of that waffle, the message I wanted to say was that with the return of Consciousness within us to its original full might, now we are in a position to communicate directly with the Infinite, which allows Divine Intervention to touch us. That is why the Love of the Infinite could never touch us – our limited state of Consciousness was unknown to the Infinite. As I have said so often: Surely there is nothing more to say. With Consciousness within touching base with the Infinite without, what more needs to be said and done? 26/01/2023 I always imagined that when you had health, wealth and happiness that you would have peace, but this is not true. Peace comes first, and from peace you receive health, wealth and happiness. Last night as I slept, and this morning, just before I woke up, there was a peace within me. 29/01/2023 This morning woke up and asked myself what can I do for me – what can bring happiness to me and my family? That question makes us understand that a God of Love is looking after us, because always we have lived with fear and uncertainty, because always we have been alone. We have never looked to ourselves, as in what can make me happy, as our noses have always been against the grindstone to make ends meet. Look to nature; look to Beauty; look to Consciousness, which has now awakened unto itself. This Love will take over, as it is real and normal and natural. 30/01/2023 What happened to our gift of a good Heart? The answer is when Consciousness became dumbed-down/obsolete, everything else associated with Love became null and void. All we had left now was our animal friends to keep us grounded as to what is real and pure. What a pity we destroyed these spirit brother and sisters by turning on them and betraying them. Those that we were one with we imprisoned, shamed, destroyed and ate. Our only ticket back Home we plummeted into the ground. We had achieved our dominion over all – our want was satiated to a point – but at what expense? Along the way we lost ourselves, and we have been searching ever since. You have everything, and yet you have nothing, because what you are is no longer amongst you. Reclaim this Love that you are. 30/01/2023 You the spirit and body form connect with your Consciousness within whenever you can. You the spirit and body from move towards this Light within so that you may become this Light. Look too happiness and peace and contentment elsewhere and it will never be found, as this can only be found within you. As you move towards this Light you the spirit and body are elevated to draw towards you happiness and health and wealth, not because you want something, but because what is drawn to you defines you. You go to the Light and you be this Light, and all that comes your way is an expression of this Light. Remember: Keep it simple. If not at all times, then whenever possible, be one with this Light, as this is who you are. Everything else is an illusion. 30/01/2023 A strength returned to all during my sleep state last night that I have never felt before. It was a coming together of who and what Semiramis and Sophia are. 31st January, 2023 One needs to go back to the sphere shape, where you go within and not without, allowing you to hold onto your energy instead of dispersing it to trivial thoughts regarding the whimsical illusion without. What else needs to be said and done and understood so that one may walk along a natural path of Love and peace and harmony? If there is anything else, I open myself up to understand it. 31/01/2023
  7. Everything primarily happens on the spirit realm, and from there filters down to us the body form. The opposite is also true, where what happens to the physical body can affect the spirit, and a good example is the Covid jab, where the alien technology invades the spirit and throws it for a six, but primarily our spirit sees and knows more than us the body form. The spirit has never known a way out of this mess, and I feel this has been from the attack and dumbing down of Consciousness within us, where we never had something to look towards for a way out. We have always been alone, and an indication of this is spirits and entities the worlds over getting on with things by themselves, where they go according to what they feel is the easy or right way, and that for me is why the worlds out there, most notably ours, is populated by a free for all mixed up generation. So to answer your question, look towards what is real, meaning look to what you have never looked too before. Your spirit looks to Consciousness within it, and this Consciousness that is the real you will guide the spirit and body. To transform the seen, one has to first transform the unseen i.e. the spirit realm. What techniques one can use is to focus on yourself, namely the body, spirit and Consciousness, rather than looking for answers within the illusion. It is a personal path where you get to know yourself. I have never been a religious person, but now, whenever I can, I spent time with myself praying to myself, where I allow Consciousness to unfold my spirit and body form as they should be. We have always needed help, and the help is Consciousness within. What we needed, was to know what we are, and what that is, is a spherical spirit of Love, with no name or identity. When we the spirit are what we are, then we play and experience with Consciousness. I am also a practical person, where words meaning nothing to me unless those words uplift and transform. I have had a shit, awful Life, and did not spend nine years writing this journal to end up writing words that mean nothing. I expect, if not demand, that my Life gets turned upside down and inside out for the better - not just for me, but others like me that wish for a joyous existence. I understand that there is only so much I the body and spirit form can do, and from there we need help. I believe this help will come through Consciousness and the spirit knowing what they are. But if you really want me to answer your question, the truth is I cannot. I have walked through Hell in the seen and unseen to find a way out of this mess, and now it is for Consciousness and our spirit to apply what has been understood. Now I wait to see what unfolds in this reality, as in your life and mine and everyone else in the illusion. The only tip I can give is that may we stop fighting and hating and just being outright nasty, so that when the transformation comes, that it may be kind to us. Play rough and become rough and you will need a few tumbles before you become rounded again. May I answer your question properly within the next few days when I see what happens to me, where I may then speak from personal experience. All I can say for now is I will never rest until Love is a normal occurance and expression within our existence.
  8. If, at the beginning of this journal, you asked me what would mark the closure of this journal, my answer would be that we are what we are meant to be. Allow me to explain what this is. Our spirit is a sphere of pure Love. Within this sphere is the body form – if one is desired, but in truth this body form is not necessary. So primarily there is only the spirit. What oversees the spirit is Consciousness, and what is going on, is Consciousness is using the spirit to have different experiences. One moment the spirit can be a male, and from there a female. It can have wealth, it can shift to a different world, it can be a child or an elderly person. Consciousness is what it is in its full might, and is using the spirit form to have different experiences. Consciousness and the spirit play, and when they are finished playing, Consciousness transforms the spirit into itself and they return to the Source of the Infinite. It is between Consciousness and the spirit, where there is no death, no aging, no disease, no sorrow. There is merely, at all time, a state of being and experiencing. So when we say “don’t think,” what we imply is don’t exist within an illusion with its useless thoughts. No thoughts mean you are in the sphere of the spirit that is overseen by Consciousness. What pushed me to this state of going within rather than without, where being without one is touched by the illusion, was once again a disappointment from noting the bad manners and cruelty of my fellow species. What changed this time, was my response to the incident. Instead of focusing on the person – the one of many out there – I turned towards myself, meaning I looked at me, where I was just me; one who was not touched by the illusion and the players therein. You are Consciousness, and you are using this spirit and body form to experience bliss. How do you heal and transform others? – You don’t. You show them what you are, and from there they have a choice to be this state or remain in the System of the illusion. The one, where you are Consciousness, experiences blessed states, and the other, where the spirit and body form are plugged into a cruel world governed by Beasts – these two states are there to be chosen by those you touch. In the former there is no need to eat, to drive, to grow old, to become weary, as these states are not known in the Infinite. How this state is achieved is by knowing what you are: You are Consciousness using these vehicles to have different experiences. Don’t think, just be, and Consciousness will guide and lead the way. Does this all sound far-fetched? If it does, it is because we have drifted so far away from what is normal. Go back to being normal – to what is real. Live in the sphere of the spirit, where with Consciousness guiding you, you are everything and thus there is no need to ever want. Above all, have fun. 1st February, 2023 There were those who I could not heal, my youngest daughter being one of them. Now, when I go into her space, showing her what she should be, I feel her spirit, which is a fraction of what it should be. Her spirit was contracting, as in it was disappearing, and this is what happens when you always keeps your side clean and do your best to be happy and Good, and what meets you around every corner is the System with its stagnant disharmony. Consciousness was intentionally made to forget itself by those architects of the illusion, and the knock-on effect of this was the spirit too was forgetting itself. Where do you go to in a place where you don’t belong? The answer is you withdraw into yourself to fade away, as what else is there to do. We had to return the spirit and Consciousness to what they are meant to be to get out of this mess. By knowing what they are, now both can heal. You the body form do your part – don’t get caught up in the System. What you do now is from Consciousness and your spirit showing the way.
  9. One last thought: What does Divine intervention mean? – It means receiving the blueprint of a God of Love upon us the created forms within the illusion. That is Divine intervention. May Queen Semiramis bestow her Love to all. That is the only way we will get out of this mess, where we are upgraded to be a child of God rather than a product from a cruel System. May we receive this Intervention from a God that is once again a God of Love.
  10. What this journal done was heal Consciousness, and how this was done, was by understanding how Queen Semiramis created the illusionary bubble – her illusionary Garden – within the fields of Infinite Love. She took out the “I” out of the Infinite, which created a void wherein she could imagine her beautiful Garden into a false reality. This was a playground really for the Dragon and Serpent spirits to play therein – it was a place that was meant to be treat and a gift to the Serpents and Dragons. What a pity this place of Beauty was infiltrated by the parasitic frequency of Deception that arose from the curiosity of the spirits as to what else is in this Garden, as in the Infinite is the all. Their curiosity took form within the Garden and the parasite with its want infiltrated all. Those that loved the high of fulfilling their wants called this place home, as the spike of this euphoria was something they craved. Within the Dragon and Serpent spirits was the “I” as they arose from the Infinite – this place of Beauty that is natural and normal. With the cravings that the want from the parasite within created, the “I” was soon replaced by “me,” as in “what is in it for me, what can I get out of it?” From the plural came the singular; from the Infinite within was born the illusion within, meaning we became plastic and superficial, living for the now rather than being the everything and everywhere. These gods that came to rule over the illusion, we were created in their image, where “I am the one and only true god, there is no other like me.” Vanity was born – it is about me; look at me; I am better than you; you are a lesser than me. Often have I given my two cents worth as to when the Beautiful Garden of Queen Semiramis became a living hell. I would say it was when the “I” was replaced by the “me.” From this blueprint, Life, as in you and me the spirit and biological computer body form, were created. We were created in the absence of the “I” – this knowing who and what we are and from where we arose. We were created superficial, with the high of Life always being chased and met. (For us men shooting our bolt would be one of the epicenters around which our Life revolved. Our high from this act kept us in the illusion, as in this is all there is, and it’s Wow, and this high fed those from the shadows our energy to keep the Reptilian system alive, and of course we created life to feed a new generation into the System of the illusion.) The task at hand now is to return from the “me” to the “I,” and please understand we are talking about Consciousness – the only part of us that is real as it arose from the Infinite. How is this task achieved: The simple answer is to know what you are. You are Consciousness that has been restored to its full state. You are not your thoughts – your thoughts link you the spirit and body form to the illusionary realm. For me, what keeps these thoughts alive is my loneliness within. I have no friends or family, and at times the insanity of my wife comes through which drives me even deeper into loneliness, so what these thoughts do is create a happy space for me in this mad world. My thoughts are of happy, fun moments that will never materialize, but this is okay, because in that moment of the thoughts I am not alone. I know what my thoughts are, and I understand in such times they are there to keep me sane, where at least there is some happiness in my life, even if it is not real. (That is my insanity to cope in an insane illusion.) What will fill this void in my existence is the presence of Consciousness in its full might, but even there, we are not meant to be alone. It is not normal to be isolated and alone. The Wisdom Goddess Sophia did not create the Dragon spirits because she was alone or lonely – she created them as an expression of her joy and happiness, meaning the happiness of others is our happiness. It was never about “me” within the Infinite, and how we will get back to this state within the illusion where the joy of strangers is our joy is something I do not know how it will be achieved. Maybe it is to share your happiness with others, where your happiness creates a ripple effect in their existence. When I was given too by the good heart of another my natural response was to also give to others – this way is natural and normal and becomes a part of who and what you are. Another example is laughter – it is contagious as it is an expression of joy. When you laugh from expressing the joy that you are, the world cannot help but laugh with you. This morning woke up and the clear message was to shut out the curious and cruel from my existence. This has been done. We have always waited and hoped for our ship to come in, but it starts with you and not what is on the ship. My advice to you, as to myself, is to be what you are – be Consciousness in its full might. How you be what you are is to know what you not are – you are not your thoughts or wants. Years ago I read David Ickes book “Infinite Love is the only Truth, everything else is an illusion.” His book was and is the truth, but for me, it left out the finer details. What happened that this Love disappeared in our existence and was replaced with cruelty? I needed to understand what happened so that I could trace back our steps and see what happened at the very beginning what went wrong. What happened that this Beautiful Queen Semiramis went from a God of Love to a cruel God? What happened to her? What happened to us that we became so lost and lonely? This journal explains all of that so that we may understand. Now at night time when my body form sleeps my spirit is being fed moments of joy and happiness so that it may remember what we should be, where these states are the norm as they are who we are. To those on the David Icke forum I bid you farewell, as what I write about now is about my return to what I am, of which you will have no interest as you will be too busy living the Life you should lead. Blessed are you for receiving what I wish I had a long time ago, this understanding of what happened that Love was replaced by cruelty. Be happy as your awareness expands and you make the illusion your playground – what it was intended to be. Have fun and be happy. 22/01/2023
  11. Where were those I Loved and those who Loved me? Why did these in the spirit realm never come and help this Steven? The answer is because they were destroyed. Only Consciousness; this God-force could save them, which it did by being reborn into its true form. How I have missed my friends. 17th January, 2023 When my Third Eye was opened, I could see the unseen when I closed my eyes to sleep at night time. As sleep fell on my world, a new world awoke to me that we were not allowed to know existed – a world of cruelty, where you the spirit and body form are a sitting duck to those from the shadows that have embraced the Reptilian frequency of the illusion. They came in all forms and shapes, the one more despicable than the other. They would come to fuck you, to inflict a disease, to possess you, but mostly to take of your energy. When I closed my eyes to sleep, like clockwork they were there. I always wondered how they managed to enter our space so effortlessly, where it was assumed these Beasts manipulated our pineal and pituitary gland to enter our space. Maybe this is still so – I don’t know – but last night it was understood how the spirit and biological computer body form were manipulated to be at the mercy of Beasts. (Let’s not get too intense and worked up, to the point where we are the innocent little victim against the big, bad wolf, because what we do to our own as well as to the animals is despicable cruelty that we have come to see as the norm.) Last night as I slept my spirit followed someone on a bicycle. There was a warehouse of sorts with a large dilapidated wooden door. The warehouse was next to a busy road. My spirit entered the warehouse and there were different levels going downwards. I saw how this one spirit was told to get in a bath of sorts, where harm would be inflicted on this spirit. Then I saw this Dark presence around me – literally and figuratively dark. He swung a lasso of sorts around me, where one moment I felt this beautiful strong energy around me, and the next my energy was gone as it was captured by this man’s special rope. An angst filled me, where I said that I must protect myself, but this was not really possible because of the manipulation of our spirit and body form. The Life of the spirit and body form shuts down during sleep, meaning little energy is required. What energy is taken from us to feed those that have embraced the Reptilian frequency is done through manipulation, but once again, their plan has to be fool-proof so that they may go about their business unperturbed. How this is done, is through the absence of Consciousness during our sleep state. When you sleep your Consciousness sleeps, and I assume the spirit and body form shuts down/sleeps to the presence of Consciousness, but either way, its presence is absent during sleep so those from the shadows can get on doing what needs to be done to us the slave species for their survival. My guess is that Consciousness flips over, where it does not shine on the spirit and body form, meaning as the eyes close to sleep, Consciousness at our throat area rolls over to face the opposite direction. Besides the helplessness of the body and spirit during our sleep state from this Light being turned around, what is as big a disaster is there is no momentum in our existence, where what was built on during the day is undone during the night by those from the shadows. We have been played and controlled in the cruelest Game by entities whose job and passion it is to destroy us and keep us limited. Never in your wildest dreams can you imagine the scale and depths of cruelty to keep our existence on a shoe-string, where we survive from day to day to keep the System and Beasts alive and happy. Your existence, and mine, is not what one would call a life. We are at the mercy of cruel Beasts in the seen, but primarily in the unseen. About thirty or forty years ago there was a front page photo – I think for National Geographic – of a young Middle Eastern girl in her war-torn country. It was one of those split-second photos, where, as the girl looked at the photographer the photo was taken. What made the photo imprint on my mind and the minds of those that saw it was the palpable fear and anxiety in the girls eyes. This is what cruelty does: it turns innocence and joy and purity to an unexplainable, cruel fear that touches every cell of their psyche. The look of that girl could be the look on my eldest daughters face within the next year or two. It could be the look on your face, or the sea of faces around you when the reality hits us that there has always been a presence of evil amongst us, and now, in the moment, and the moments forever more, that presence has shown itself and has changed our lives forever for the worse. I knew – if I done nothing – that that day would come, just as the sun will rise and set tomorrow. That day has arrived for billions before us, and sooner or later it would be our turn. This is the simplistic reality that we cannot shy away from. By not looking, we cannot pretend the Devil is not standing right next to us. We have to break this spell of fear that is around us, where by shutting up and doing our best we believe everything will be okay for us. The Devil sees you – always has – as you have been played in their Game, but what will change is this Game will spill over into your living existence, where the luxury of complaining is now replaced by living a life of tyranny governed by fear. As sure as the sun will rise tomorrow that day will come unless you stop doing what you have always done. These Beasts are clever – they are really clever. For how long have we been trapped in their Game? To keep the Infinite at bay whilst you kill and destroy and shame at free will is a monumental feat. To allow this bubble of Disharmony to thrive and become stronger in this Sea of Infinite Love is something that can only be achieved by ones more clever than you and me. They have had the upper hand over us, and will continue to do so unless we do something about it. Yesterday was a remarkable day within my existence. I felt the power of what I am – this Consciousness. I felt the presence of the real me as this Steven the spirit and body form were healed. I understood why this presence was hidden, and its full might taken from us, because this presence removes us from their Game. Now we walk in fields of Love rather than their superficial, insane illusion. And yet there are still those that follow, bitching and complaining as well as understanding, where deep down, between them and them and no one else, they love this place of cruelty where evil has no friends. You are one of many – a figure – that will be destroyed as you are lined up along their production line. And this many know, and this they accept. Why is this so? – It is because these spirits and body forms cannot see what is staring them in the face – that they are insane. Never have they looked in the mirror to see what they truly are, always believing they are outsiders in this Game where none are spared. Wake up! Become what you are, or be destroyed. 07:48 19/01/2023
  12. What works well, is imagine seeing yourself on the reflection of a piece of glass, meaning you can see yourself but your image is not that clear. At your throat area is Consciousness, and this presence is real and all present. Now hold this state/image of you, so that there is an understanding that Consciousness is real and you the spirit and body form are in the background, as in not real, but always looked after by Consciousness. Consciousness looks at the health, wealth and happiness of you the spirit and body form so that peace may be attained in these illusionary body forms. Look after yourself first so that you may be in a better position to assist others. Pose the position of health, for example, of you the spirit and body form to Consciousness, and then bring forth that image of your reflection on the glass with Consciousness residing over your forms from the throat area, and from there do nothing as Consciousness does what needs to be done to bring balance and harmony to this aspect of your existence. If you wish to help another, then see their image in the glass with their Consciousness in its all-present form at their throat area. Your Consciousness now connects to theirs, and now the God-force within them is restoring disharmony to harmony. View many diseases for what they are, namely the presence of a disharmonious entity/frequency within them. Consciousness shows this entity what it is, and informs this disharmonious presence that it can accept this Love and become this Love, otherwise it leaves the presence of the spirit and body form as this presence of Love/Consciousness is here to stay as the spirit and body form now know what they are. This presence at your throat area is who and what you are that is real – everything else is an illusion. This presence is the focal point of who and what you are. Behind you, in the reflection of the glass, is the illusion and the players therein. When Consciousness takes over these reflections and become them, then you are in this world but not of it. Until that happens, the spirit and body form are reflections who understand that only Consciousness is real. May this assist you and those you Love in the way forwards. All the best, and have fun.
  13. Woke up this morning, sat on the side of the bed, and immediately the mind kicked in with its thoughts. Thinking this and that – total arbitrary nonsense. And this was the biological computer doing what it was manufactured to do – to analyze; to compute, to make sense of, and from there go forwards within the illusion and our existence where it is the same shit, just a different day. There are two parts of you: What is real that has been suppressed; and the other part is what you were manufactured to be within this illusion. The latter part of you is the plastic dummy; the barbarian; the brute; the fucked up kid who doesn’t know who and what they are, and yet they feel that either they are the victim of life, or they are right and everyone else can just fuck off because everyone else is wrong. The biggest motivator for those from the shadows to do what they have always done, namely to be cruel, is that everyone at the core of the illusion – the Reptilian frequency – does what they do. This belief is backed by the truth that there is no opposition to what they do – nobody will come and slap them on the wrist and say “naughty boy.” Sure, there is a “death,” this place called The Nothingness of the Forgotten, where they forget who and what they are, but “this is Life; what can we do about that; shit happens!” The biggest de-motivator for those Beasts in the unseen and seen is an alternative to what they have always done, because now when they are cruel, they understand there is another way other than what they have always known and done, and this is why, deep down, these brutes in the seen and unseen attack and hit those who wish to show another way. These brutes understand that with another door open it means they will have to see themselves for what they are. In the past the norm was to be cruel and inflict helplessness and sorrow, and as said, this was okay as everyone from the shadows done this. There was nothing else to compare themselves and their actions to, and this was very convenient to the sadistic Beasts that roamed the seen and unseen because it allowed them not to have a conscience. You need to understand that in the illusion the bully with his or her inflated ego were the gods that those in all realms followed. If you were bombastic, rude, arrogant and hit first and asked questions later, you paved a road for yourself in the illusion. The literal strong always overpowered the literal weak, and that is why the male is seen as a force above the female in terms of status. The name of the game in the illusion was Survival – winner takes all, and let’s just say that for many there has never been a rule book, meaning anything goes to get what you want. And that is why, for me, this illusion is such a shit place to be in, as it makes no place for the innocent and pure of heart. It is a harsh place this illusion – a place that leaves its mark on the innocent, where the Beautiful, innocent mirror is cracked to become flawed just like the place we find ourselves in. I have no right to change you or anyone else. I have no right to interfere in your existence. What I have done in writing this journal is give you an alternative to what you have always known. Now there is another way that you never knew existed. Always have I known there will come a time in this journal when understanding is not enough, where now you have to get up and choose a path – carry on doing what you always have, or do something different. There will come a time when you have to act if you want to experience an alternative to what you have always known. There are two parts within you: The manufactured spirit and biological computer body form, and the second part being this Consciousness; this strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness/this Infinite as it arose from the Infinite. Now when I heal people or animals I understand there is only so much I can do – this is a realistic phenomena, because a programmed computer body form and a manufactured spirit can only go so far as the potential they were created to be, which with all due respect is not very far. More and more I am seeing and understanding that there is not much I can do, and this is so true in terms of my happiness as an individual and a spirit. Of all that I have come to see and understand in the writing of this journal over the last almost nine years, nothing has changed in my life – I am still the fucked up, unhappy person when I began this journal, and the reason for this is my spirit and body is merely following the programme of who and what they are, which is plug into the System and make the best of what comes your way. Understand the reality of as long as you are plugged into the System you will never be happy, because you are in a simulation where you don’t belong, as well as being at the mercy of insane, cruel Beasts that have the upper hand over you as they have absorbed the power of the Reptilian frequency of the illusion. Know what you are. A part of you is real, and another part of you is an illusion. Consciousness within you is real, and everything else about you is an illusion trapped in an awful game where everyone ultimately loses. Listen to your stupid, silly thoughts that are filled with so much pessimism and destruction, and you are in the Game and being played by it. Go past thoughts, where you dismiss them as nonsense, and you live in Consciousness. I have not experienced this alternative state, so cannot tell you much about it. Much can be said about my life and my frustrations of me knowing who and what I am, yet I cannot be what I am. I need help – always have – and this help cannot touch me as long as I decide to follow the limitations of the programmed me that is plugged into the System. There really is no other way. This journal is my gift to the unseen – to the world of spirit where from all this shit started. This strand of God; the Infinite is activated within you to be what it should be, but this means nothing unless you decide to be this power that is real. What this journal gives to you the spirit and body form is something you have never had before, which is free will. Now you have the choice to choose, whereas in the past you had no alternative but what was presented to you, which was a cruel lie that this illusion is all there is and you are nothing, so know your place below your almighty god. In uncovering how the illusion was created and how Consciousness was placed on the back-burners, it is fair to say that there is not much else to talk about. So do what you have always done and you will get what you have always received, which is a spin-cycle of going nowhere, or you the spirit and body form take a back seat and allow the real you to come to the fore. Remember: Do what you have always done and you will get what you have always gotten. You cannot be what you are unless you understand what you are – what happened that we were dumbed down into a Hell instead of playing in the fields of Infinite Love? This journal has passed on that understanding, which means nothing unless you decide to do something about it. Go to what is normal and pure and Good, or face the destruction of your own demise. With understanding comes responsibility, and the illusion and those that kept it in place knew that this would be the beginning of their end, when an alternative was given to what these bastards constructed for us. In only knowing one way – their way – now we know of another, and this forces them to look in the mirror to see what they allowed themselves to become. I have no intention of hanging around to see the wrath these Beasts in the seen and unseen will impose on themselves to try and make their wrongs right. I will not be there when a justice is met for those that so mercilessly destroyed all that was good and pure, and why this is so, is because I am tired of being in the presence of Beasts and in this place where I don’t belong. I know what I am – I just don’t know how to get there. How this is solved is by following this God-force within – this Consciousness. 16/01/2023 (May this please be the end of this journal where nothing else needs to be said.)
  14. You want to do repairs on your hot air balloon, you don’t work on it whilst floating from above the ground – you deflate the balloon; drop her to the surface of the Earth, and from there you leisurely go about your business of repairs. When we talk about Consciousness and the fields of Infinite Love, understand that this is everything, and there is nothing else. The illusionary Garden of Queen Semiramis was a bubble within this Infinite – one small air bubble in a never-ending sea. Her beautiful Garden fell to depths of frequencies that I would call Hell, and those that liked it there made sure this Hell became the all for those in this bubble, meaning these twisted entities made sure we became trapped in this place, where we never leave as this is all we are allowed to know. You cannot compare the illusion to the Infinite as there is no comparison, as even within this illusion the Infinite is present as it is everywhere and everything. The question you have to ask is how did these wasted spaces; these architects of the dense frequency illusion that built its walls to keep us therein – how did they do it? How does a 2mm tall ant go against a 200ft giant and get the better of it? Sure enough, we were manipulated and controlled and suppressed, but how did they keep the Infinite from touching us, which brings us back to the analogy of the hot air balloon – how did they suck the Infinite out of us and our space so that they could work on us with ease and comfort knowing there is no threat from the Infinite to destroy their plans for their dystopian utopia that is absent of Love? What you do, is you go to this strand; this essence; this Consciousness within you around which all Life is created within the illusion. This Consciousness, which I say is located at the throat area of the spirit and us the biological computer – this Consciousness needs to remember what happened that it got separated from the mother ship which is the Infinite beyond the illusion. Ask the question – the right question – and you will receive the answer. The question being: “What did they do to the real you; this Consciousness, that kept it separate from the Infinite that is in truth everywhere?” When I go into the stillness to understand what happened, I feel the listlessness of Consciousness, as in it is there, but it is stagnant and lifeless. From there we trace back the steps to what happened to it. As we know, the Consciousness within you was separated from the Infinite, and how this was done, was the same technique Queen Semiramis applied to create the bubble of the illusionary Garden within the Infinite, where from the everything she created an isolated pocket separate from the everything. The architects within the dense illusion did not have to re-invent the wheel, they just followed/copied what Semiramis done when she created her Beautiful Garden that was separate from the Infinite – an air bubble within an infinite ocean. So the answer lies with Queen Semiramis. How did she create this small bubble in the ocean of the Infinite? She removed the “I,” as in “I am the one and only true God……..there is no other like me” from Consciousness. “I know what I am, as I am what I am. I am everything as this is all there is” Consciousness, as in its true Infinite state, knew what it was as there is no other. To create her illusionary Garden, Semiramis needed a blank slate to create from, meaning Consciousness needed to be removed from the equation, meaning Consciousness/the Infinite had to forget what it was. Semiramis could not have Life on the Life she wished to create, so the canvas had to be blank, namely devoid of Life, and from there she could play with her imagination. So the Life that is Consciousness/the Infinite became a bubble, and from this bubble Life could be created through the power/frequency of imagination. A hypnotist can tell you to eat an onion and make you believe the onion is an apple, and you will know no better, such is the ease as which a frequency/belief can be placed within this empty bubble that was Consciousness. The intent of Queen Semiramis was pure – there was no foul play intended. From the Infinite she created a blank state, as in she removed the “I” from the Infinite in order to produce a sphere/bubble in which she could create her illusionary Garden. There was nothing wrong in doing so. It was those that wanted to enslave those within this bubble that were the bastards to be marked for eternal damnation. How they done it; how they kept the hot air balloon from naturally rising up to be one with the Infinite, was to remove the “I” from the Consciousness states within the illusion, and in doing so, Consciousness forgot who and what it was, meaning their plan to create this Hell was fool-proof, as how do you awaken something that was manipulated to be a shell of what it was? How do you awaken this God-within when it was manipulated to forget itself? It comes back to that ayahuasca ceremony I attended, where this force shook me over and over again, all the while telling me to remember what I am. This force was addressing the Consciousness within and not Steven the spirit or biological computer. How clever are those that entrapped us! And so are we. By knowing what happened – what should not have happened – we return the Consciousness within the illusion to what it should be. The “I” is returned to Consciousness, meaning what is within you that is real is restored to its full potential so that it may be one with the Home where it belongs. So be it.
  15. What would have nipped the bud of the Disharmonious illusion before it even have a chance to form was if we could differentiate between the truth and a lie. The lie was born through destitute, where you will come to believe anything in order to find a way back to peace. Hope was born, where I listen to you, and pray this is the answer we need to resolve the conflicts within and without, but deep down we knew everything was a lie, and the foundation of that lie was from being in a place where we don't belong. Many came to love this place, especially when things were going right, and if a wobbly was hit now and then, well it’s our right to throw a tantrum, because now things are not going our way, and this is not right. The brat was born, where “make sure everyone I am happy, and if I am not, you will hear about it!” Hope is below the brat – it knows of no such thing, as there is an expectancy that Life will carry them along their entitled path of privilege. And then there are those that truly worry about the state of madness around them, where they do all they can to keep the ship from avoiding unnecessarily turbulent waters. What these captains with their good hearts sooner or later understand is there is only so much they can do. As a healer and a father and a husband, and one who understands that the string is only so long as there is only so much we can do, I see my limitations in terms of where we are and where we should be. The space between these two points is huge, and for me, can only be filled through Divine intervention. I will walk and walk and walk, and that is okay, but there comes a time when I can no longer walk alone, and the reason for this is because we are not meant to walk alone. Understand that to be created through Love and then be dropped like a hot potato had an impact on us all. The Love of our God within the illusion became a twisted love, where strife and heartache and sorrow became weaved into our fabric as the norm. This is something I have never accepted as normal, where a brotherhood and sisterhood were cast aside so that it may be all about me, me and me. Is there something else we need to understand before Divine intervention shines forth upon us? If so, I open myself up to it so that we may begin being in the presence of the one who created us with Love. What do I expect from Divine intervention? We are not so much lonely entities, rather we are alone. What should be a oneness with our existence is absent, and that I miss – being in the space of Love that is everywhere. I don’t have to go somewhere to find this state as it is everywhere within my existence. I miss being bathed in Love, where no matter what, I know everything will always be okay as I am what I am meant to be and am one with my creator. Is that really too much to ask? Apparently “yes,” as one had to understand why the Love of a God became a twisted, cruel love, and from there, we had to understand what we are so that we may be in a position to receive this Love when it is made available. The other day was asked to once again help this horse, and this time around knew that Divine intervention was needed, as there is only so much I can do. This horse was helped where I could not help, and this is wonderful, but I am sure for many out there this walking alone has its limit as we understand there is only so much we can do. May Divine intervention touch us all and stay with us. If this is not possible, then allow us to understand what needs to be understood to bring forth this natural phenomena of a Gods/Mothers Love for all within the illusion.
  16. My spirit asked the permission of Queen Semiramis to find a solution to the chaos of the illusion – what happened that we found ourselves touched by the cruelty of Life where this occurrence was seen as the norm? Years ago my spirit travelled to a cosmic laboratory to see how Life was created, and those there said I had access to enter. I never knew it at the time, but they knew Semiramis gave my spirit free reign to wander the illusion looking for answers. The bummer was that I was on my own, meaning either I would make it or I wouldn’t. When this journal started I remember my spirit walking in some realm. This entity on its horse climbed off the horse and proceeded to give my spirit a serious attack, as I was not allowed to be in this realm. This was the start of the abuse, which went into overdrive when I hit the Reptilian frequency of the illusion and those that dwell in its shadows. My immunity to their poison, as well as me seeing my attackers and possessors saved me, otherwise I would have been a goner. Your Serpent children are free my lady, meaning surely now you are free. Now all you do is just shine – just be what you are, and the illusion will return to what you created it to be, which is a place of Beauty. But let’s not dwell too long in this playground – let’s rather look to going Home to the Infinite where we belong. The same has been done to the children of The Wisdom Goddess Sophia - the dense frequency in which her Dragon spirit children were trapped is now what it should be, meaning they are free so that the Dragon souls may return to them from The Nothingness of the Forgotten to where they fell. May this Creator too now shine, knowing her children are safe and free. May she call the Dragons and Serpents forth to the Infinite where they belong. So be it. What an awful ride it has been! May it be over so that we in the illusion may start healing, where abnormal turns to normal, where there is a peace as we see Home in our sights.
  17. With the task of the spirit complete, now it turns to itself, and what this primarily involves, is the spirit being where it belongs. Remember what your spirit is – it is a vessel created by the Love of a God. So you the spirit are Love, which is another way of saying you are the Infinite. When you the spirit know what you are, then you are where you belong. May this Love what you are touch the biological computer body form. The wonderful news is now the spirit can care for itself, meaning no Divine intervention is necessary, and from there the spirit will touch us the body form.
  18. When things began to go south within the illusionary Garden of Queen Semiramis, we the spirit were created to house the children/kin of Semiramis, namely the Serpent souls – what came to be called the kundalini/Serpent/Dragon force within. We the spirit were given the gift of a Good Heart, which was bestowed to us by the Love of a God, which was Queen Semiramis as she created the illusion. So surely we the spirit are free of our task of looking after this precious cargo when this Serpent soul within is free from its cavern/space within us? And surely what freedom means to this Serpent is when it is where it belongs, namely this Serpent being elevated from the chaos of the illusion to the Infinite that is real? And surely the stepping stone to this freedom for this Serpent soul is the understanding of what happened that a vessel/spirit was created to carry this child away from harms reach. So for us the spirit to be free, are we free from our task? Let’s put aside this Consciousness thing and go back to basics – we the spirit were created for a task, so is our task complete? When I go into the space of this Serpent within me, I feel it there. (The other day saw this lady who was losing it, meaning her mind and capacity to function. Her Serpent soul was attacked and abducted, and when it was returned to her, with the understand passed on to this Serpent of who and what it is, this lady was okay, so the point to make is that if this Serpent force is absent from your space then there is cause for alarm. It has to be within you, otherwise your spirit is useless and withers away.) When asked what this Serpent soul within needs to attain freedom, I feel it pulled downwards like water leaving a basin, and from there, in the space of the illusion, this Serpent hovers and looks, meaning it does not know where to go. So what you do, is go into the space of the Serpent spirit, this goliath from which your Serpent soul was cloned, and one awakens this sleeping giant so that it may call forth its double to once again be one with it. You the spirit goes into contemplation and awakens the Serpent spirit from which the Serpent soul that is within you was cloned from. By “awakening,” we mean tell it the story of what happened that we all got into this mess, and how this story is told, is by you the spirit showing this Serpent spirit what you are, as what you are is understanding and the truth. It is not your story; it is merely what happened. This is what I have missed – that everything has to be done in baby-steps. Until our task of releasing our precious cargo to where it belongs is done, we have to do everything ourselves – no help coming our way. When we are free of our task of looking after God’s child, then we can focus on ourselves. And this is fair, as we accepted this child within us and were honoured to be given this task. That is why the attack or abduction of this child within is the demise of us the spirit, as this child and its safety is what defines us. This story has been told to the Serpent spirit that is one with the soul within me, so when I go into the space of this Serpent soul within me, what I feel and see is the cosmos – this black mass, slowly spinning anti-clockwise, and then clockwise. Then this mass awakens and comes alive, and I understand it was not so much the Serpent spirits that fell into slumber as they fell from the less dense illusion into a denser space, but rather what was suspended was the frequency of the illusion itself. As an example, if the space of the illusionary Garden was water, this water fell to a dense state and became ice, trapping all those within its space in this ice mass. This frequency density is the one who needed the story to be told to it, and not the Serpent spirit. The “ice” needed to understand how it turned from “water” to “ice,” which it does now, and this releases those stuck therein, meaning they can be what they are as they are once again in the space of the less dense illusionary Garden. When I go into the space of the Serpent soul within me now, I feel it depart its cavern, meaning it goes downwards from my pelvis, and now I feel this soul within the space of the Garden – this less dense place. This Serpent soul has been elevated to where the Serpent spirit waits for it. My goodness me – now they are once again one. Wow, that took a long time in the making to return this child of God to where it belongs. It is Home, and that is something spectacular! (With the Serpent spirits free from the dense frequency that kept them in slumber, as well as this child of God that was within us now safe where it belongs, I imagine that now the puppets will begin to dance – now things will start happening.)
  19. Is this what I have been searching for, for all this time? Is this, the gift of the Good Heart, what brings heaven unto earth, where the Infinite touches the illusion? The gift of the Good Heart awakens the strand of Inherent Godness/Goodness at our throat area, and the upward flow of this force bursts forth from the head area, where now our energy is fusing with the Infinite. The regulator of this connection to the Infinite is at the nail area of our right big toe, allowing the flow of the Infinite in accordance to what we can handle. Is this gift from a God of Love the treasure I have been looking for over all these lifetimes, so that we may be free from this illusion? I would say “yes.” 8th January, 2023. So what happened? Why were we in this mess for so long? The answer is that it was never about us. We always focused on ourselves – always a self-interest. We never looked to what was beyond us, namely the children of a God and a Creator. What else is there that is beyond me? Why are others not happy? What is the origin of their unhappiness that will with surety touch me one day? In this game of survival, where the winner takes all, it was always about me. Me, me and me. That was the issue at hand – we never asked what is beyond me that needs our help, as surely the origin of all this heartache comes from somewhere. Our vanity made us look to ourselves, when there were more pressing matters at hand, such as a God and a Creator and their children stuck within an illusion – a place where they don’t belong; a place that is not Home, as Home is the Infinite for all of us. I am not trying to make anyone feel bad – am merely stating a fact so that we may learn from it. Go beyond the “me” and “I.” Make sure your happiness shines for all, and not just for you at that moment in time. Remove all barriers to once again become a child of the Infinite. Have fun. 9th January, 2023. This morning asked those that are in a position to help us – those that have been helped through the understandings of this journal – I asked them to help me. This was done because I need help. I am not made for this world – I do not belong here. If I am to stay I need help, otherwise will never make it. Never do I doubt what I have seen and come to understand in the writings of this journal. It all makes sense to me and is the truth. Now it is us the slave species that have to be touched by the Love of a God and a Creator and the Infinite, which is the most natural process there is as this Love is all that is real – everything else is an illusion. To replace insanity with sanity must be as natural as breathing. I just need their help now, otherwise will never make it. What is this gift of a Good Heart? It is our conscience; our integrity. It is the understanding to always focus on what is real, namely this Consciousness within, as this reminds us of Home. By staying true to what is real the illusion cannot touch us. Why did we forsake this gift? I would say for the allure of the illusion – for all that glitters. Our Beauty became a self-obsessed beauty, where it was about “look at me – how clever I am; what I have; what I have that you don’t.” We went without rather than going within. Why this was done, I can only assume because everyone went that way, and we didn’t want to miss out or be seen as an outsider. Those that turned their backs on this insanity were never left at peace – they were hunted down and destroyed so that they may not be a reminder to the insane what is sane. My prediction for this year is the insane will understand their insanity is not normal. This comfort zone of “the illusion is like this, so it is okay if I am like this” – this parachute will fall away and they will face the reality of what they are. If there is anything else that needs to be said or done to help those that were in a position to help us, then I open myself up to receive this understanding. If nothing more needs to be said or done, I ask for Divine intervention to help us the slave species, and all those that wish to be free of this prison of smoke and mirrors – this illusion. 11th January, 2023
  20. As a young boy, there was no real attraction towards action-hero’s during my playtime, but if you asked me to whom I looked up to, it would not have been Batman or Superman, but rather the wise old man. I always figured that if you understand everything there would be no need for violence. During the writing of this journal, I have always felt our spirit is attached to different personalities, meaning the spirit is linked to more than one entity. Now I understand what is going on. Within the illusion we have not evolved, but rather de-volved, meaning we have become more lost and confused rather than enlightened. From what the spirit was created to be, to what it is now, is like comparing night to day – there is no comparison. As hard as we tried, we never seemed to get it right, and this “I am doing my best but am getting nowhere in terms of peace and Love” has had a heavy burden on the spirit. Something has always been wrong, and we could never put our finger on it, where the normal has been replaced by abnormal; the sane removed and in its place the insane. Disharmony in any shape or form is not meant to exist, as this is not who and what we are. We the spirit never knew of the parasitic frequency of Deception – this worm that took as this is all it knew. Those that embraced this take and want formed another frequency that was to become the cornerstone of our created hell, namely the Reptilian frequency of the illusion, where now the gloves are off and there is no trying to be mister of missus nice spirit or person. Now we know this dump for what it is, so let’s rock and roll – let’s ride this Reptilian frequency wave and make this illusion our home. The more suffering, the more heartache – we love it; bring it on. Over what we would call “time,” your spirit and mine has been fucked up on more than one occasion, and there has never been a reprive where we can catch our breath, take stock of who and where we are, and from there strategize a new plan to make sense of all of this. We have fallen further and further from what we initially were manufactured to be, and let’s just say our falls have not been graceful or pleasant. Survival has dented us badly, and we have done our best to roll with the blows as we hold onto our sanity and integrity. Your spirit has lived many lifetimes, and over what we would call time your spirit has altered and regressed as the illusion got the better of it. We never started anew on a blank slate – we always carried our excess baggage with us, and what this was, was the confusion within us as to why is Life a struggle for so many when it should be a natural, free-flowing state of Love? My hero the wise old man or woman has never really existed. Throughout our lifetimes we get worse, not wiser and more refined. I do my best to be a better person than what I was yesterday, but transformation does not start with Steven this body form, but rather my spirit. So yes, I was right – the spirit is attached to different entities/personalities, and who and what they are, are the different states/personalities of the spirit as it de-volved as the illusion pulled the spirit down with it in a never ending cycle of chaos and mayhem. The spirit has moved on from one state to the next as it coursed through the maze of Life. What your spirit was when it was initially manufactured, and what it is now, is literally like night and day – complete opposites. Between now and then your spirit has grown different traits, with some being modified within us by the architects of the illusion, so to say your spirit is linked to other personalities is the truth, but these are not other entities within the illusion, but rather the different states/personalities of the spirit during its time in this hell-hole called Life within the illusion. So by your spirits understanding that the curiosity of the Dragon and Serpent spirits within the Infinite as to what else is in this illusionary Garden of Queen Semiramis created a parasitic worm within the illusion that infiltrated all and formed a want in them, by understanding this, there is no need for the spirit to carry on searching for understanding – now it can peel away the layers of what the illusion moulded the spirit to become so that it may return to its true state. Where is our gift of a Good Heart that Queen Semiramis bestowed upon us with her pure Love? The answer is beneath the layers of personalities that the spirit has been born into – moulded into – as it was panel-beated by the chaos of the illusion. I say all of this because now during my sleep state I sense my spirit and it is one I am not familiar with, meaning my spirit is going back along the line to what it should be, and along the way it is touching the different traits that it was. This has no influence on this Steven the biological body form, as the spirit in its lost and confused state never had a true impact on the body form in the more dense “physical” realm within the illusion. What will impact you and me is when our spirit is what it was manufactured to be, namely a vessel of Love to house the child of God within – namely the Serpent soul/kundalini force, which is a literal Snake in a less dense frequency form. It comes back to the heart energy field and our gift therein. The layers need to be peeled away so this force can awaken and shine. With self-respect restored to the spirit, may it happen in this day.
  21. For me, if I have integrity, it means I treat you with respect. I can be having a bad day, or a bad month, or a bad life, but never will I treat you with disrespect, and this is so because nothing gives me the right to let out my frustrations on you. I might not have a smiling happy-face because Life is getting the better of me, and I apologize for this as I cannot be anything else than what I am at that moment, but I will never be rude to you, and this is so because my integrity is important to me, where I refuse to lower myself to become a savage Beast that treats you like dirt, where I feel because I am unhappy, I have the right to make you unhappy. That, for me, is integrity, where I keep my values when Life is bombarding me 24/7 with asteroids, where I refuse to lower myself to become a Beast, where you now fight fire with fire. Life is shit, so I can be shit towards you. This I will never do. What self-respect is, is where there is an unwritten rule, where as long as I hold onto my integrity, and I treat you with respect, then you do the same to me. Self-respect is part of the law of attraction, where do unto others as you would have others do unto you; be the change you want to see in the world; kindness begets kindness, and all the other feel good sayings that are absolute bullshit because they are not realistic. What self-respect should be, is where I treat you with respect, so naturally you treat me with respect, and there is no other compromise. I do not allow you to treat me like dirt as my natural integrity does not allow for this. Goodness, in the grand scheme of things, means nothing, where if anything, it is our primary weakness. Do your best, and when your spirit departs this dense space to go to the spirit realm, you will be awed by the place you find yourself in – euphoric comes close to describing this place, but there are no words to experience the freedom from this dense place where you either make it or you don’t. Now here is the big issue at hand: These good spirits – and there are many – are being manipulated by Beasts from the shadows that are playing them in a cruel game. So where is the self-respect of the good spirits? The answer is in the grand scheme of things, they have none, because unknown to them, they are puppets that are feeding Beasts and the system their energy. In this holy-than-holier beautiful place of the spirit realm these Beautiful spirits are putty in the hands of demented, evil beings that have no conscience or consideration for others. So what we define as self-respect, where you treat me with dignity as I treat you with consideration, what we would define as self-respect is non-existent in the illusion. This is what we get from being played in a cruel Game that we are not aware of. This is what our naivety brings us, where we believe that if we are Good, we automatically find ourselves in the space of good people and spirits. And this, for me, is the biggest soul-destroying phenomena within the illusion, where no matter how hard I try, where I always do my best and keep my side clean, I will never be rewarded by being amongst my own, so that they may uplift me and me them to rise above this mess. How would you like it if a stranger walks into your home and calls your home theirs, where they are now a part of your existence, and now you have to accommodate them as well? The other night when I went to sleep, having endured another day of debilitating exhaustion, what I was shown as I closed my eyes to sleep, was me lying on the bed. Then I saw this spirit sit up from being within my space, and then it departed my space through the wall next to the bed. This I have seen before, where in my sleep state I would see this spirit bathing in the space of my wife’s spirit. Why is this allowed? The answer is because we do not have self-respect, meaning we do not have boundaries as to who can and cannot enter our space. But of course the big question is how did we lose our self-respect, and the answer may be through deception, where those from the shadows have always played with us without us being aware of this, but surely there has to be more to it than that! How is it possible that we always keep our side clean and be and do Good, yet we always get our teeth kicked in for our efforts? There is something wrong, and we need to understand now what it is. The question we have to answer is what broke down our natural defenses that allowed Beasts to enter our space in the seen and unseen? I would say that the flaw of the spirit and the Serpent soul is they have unconditional Love, meaning others are equally important, if not more so than themselves. I care about you. How are you? These noble and natural traits are what defines Life as what it should be, but there is the rub – Life is not as it should be. The answer to our predicament is that we have never thought about ourselves, because in the spirit realm we are one step closer to our God who is looking after us, so there is no need for me to look after me as God is doing that for me. Always, the belief of the Good is something bigger than us is looking after us, and from where this belief came was from the truth – that there was a time when a God of Love looked after us and wished for only the best for us. This Love of Queen Semiramis became a twisted love that hurt like hell, and somewhere along the way we have always held onto this belief that we are looked after. We are not – we were at one stage – but we have not been cared for, for a long, long time. To attain self-respect, we need to look after ourselves, and what this means, is we allow those into our space that are like us. With self-respect, we can bring into our existence those words that sound great but meant nothing, where now they are relevant as now we are looking after ourselves, meaning we only wish for the best for ourselves as we are the best we can be. The spirit and kundalini/Serpent soul need to grow up, otherwise we will never make it. Look after yourself so that you may look after others. Only Goodness comes into your space as you are good. If there is no godness/goodness in your space in the seen and unseen, then move to where there is, and allow this Goodness that you are to be incorporated into your existence. With your self-respect now up, the law of attraction will guide you to where you belong.
  22. Take your Fiat Uno to the local racetrack, put your foot flat on the gas peddle, and try and push her to 150 miles per hour. You will see that it is not possible, as she is not manufactured for that speed. My wife tells me that when menopause is hit, the body stops producing oestrogen, as the breeding lifespan of the body is now over so this hormone is no longer necessary. That the body has a serious dip in functionality in response to the absence of this hormone is irrelevant, as this is the way the body was manufactured. There is not even an option of “take it or leave it,” as this is the way things are. So please understand that there are some things you and I cannot do. As healers, or whatever profession where you push yourself beyond what is acceptable, there is only so much we can do. It is good to know what you can do, but it is vital to know what you cannot do. Those that say “nothing is impossible” are talking through their arses, because within the illusion there are limits. So understand what has just been said, as this is the truth, but also understand that within you is Consciousness that is from the Infinite – which is limitless. We have to step aside and allow this Infinite to touch us and our lives, otherwise we will always be limited. Step aside to allow this Consciousness to make its mark on your existence and those you touch. Don’t you try and change because you cannot as we have been dumbed down and limited. You cannot change what you are, so what Consciousness does is gives you an upgrade to bring forth peace and what is normal within your existence. Remember what I am saying: There is only so much we can do, which is really almost nothing. So allow Consciousness to take to the reins and take over your existence. Shift from you to Consciousness, otherwise you stay where you are. How this is done by you getting out the way so that the real you may come to the fore, and how this is done is by someone making you aware of it – which has been done now.
  23. Just for the record, this journal is eight years and eleven months in the writing tomorrow. Understand that this journal has consumed my waking and sleep state, meaning I could not rest until it was complete, meaning there was not much time for anything else in my life but this journal. The last few months the madness of the world and those that dwell therein upped my intensity, where I pushed with everything I had as I felt the tentacles of this mad world touch me more and more with each passing day. I knew I had to go hard to find the answers to complete this journal, as being where I don’t belong, in the seen and unseen, was becoming palpable, and I knew there was only so much I could handle. So I pushed so that the journal could be complete before I popped. Another note for the record books is nothing written in this journal has touched the Life of Steven, meaning no aspect of my Life has been uplifted through what has been written. Today I understood why this is so. Everything that has been written has been for the unseen realms of the illusion, as in the spirit realm. Nothing is going to change in the seen realm of this world and the other worlds in the illusion unless the unseen/spirit realms are what they should be, meaning those that are in a position to help are doing so, meaning the Love of a God and a Creator are returning the illusion to what it should be, so that it may be a stepping stone for all there in the spirit realm to return to the Infinite – this place that is real where we Consciousness belong. Today something happened that has not happened since the inception of this journal, and what that was, was this Steven focused on the seen realm, meaning those that have helped in the spirit/unseen realm are now in a position to touch those in the seen realm of the worlds of the illusion. Nothing has changed in the Life of Steven because I am in the seen realm, and this journal was written for the unseen, meaning nothing was going to change in my life and yours in the seen realm until the unseen is sorted. As of today, all of this has changed, by the focus moving from the unseen to the seen, where you and I the biological body form reside. You go into the stillness of the silence, and in this moment of contemplation, you draw all the shite, as in accumulated toxins within you, to one central cluster point. From there Consciousness shines on this mess and it is gone. Consciousness in its awakened state now begins to naturally look after us, and from there Consciousness finds our place and what is best for us in the seen of the illusionary realm. And of course all of this is speculation. Nothing is definite until our Life is touched for the better. 2nd January, 2023 Looking back on my childhood, one of my earliest memories was having these dreams in my sleep state of me failing my exams. The dreams were often, and they were palpable, such was the level of fear they induced from me. Now we know these dreams were implanted by those from the shadows to absorb the energy the dream released to feed these Beasts. What happened to me happened to everyone. Maybe you don’t remember your implanted dream, but trust me, they were there, as I alone cannot feed these Beasts. Last night another dream was implanted, where I was writing an exam in two days’ time and had not learnt for it. As soon as this implanted dream made itself known to me, I questioned this moment that was to happen. It did not make sense to me, and this questioning rather than acceptance blew this implanted dream out the water that those from the shadows placed within my presence. What this means, is the stranglehold of these Beasts over my mind is no more, meaning this biological computer body form is not what it was. The ripple effect of the transformation in the spirit realm, as well as the presence from those that can help are now being felt in the seen. This year will be a good year for the Good. The days of the wild West, where you do what you want when you want because you can, are over. What a shocker it will be for these Beasts in the seen when they see what they have allowed themselves to become, where they turfed their integrity and self-respect to become a Beast of the lands. I leave them be and move on to where I belong. 3rd January, 2023
  24. When you take in a drug, or when you have an orgasm, you get a high. Moments of Life, be it seeing a beautiful sunset, biting into that cheeseburger with all the topping, or receiving your exam marks back and seeing you have passed – these are examples of lesser highs. The highs/moments of Life keep us going, but the big question is, from where did this high feeling originate? To answer to that question, last night in my sleep state I was shown a Dragon. It opened its mouth and released green stuff from its mouth. My feeling when I saw this, was that this Dragon released a food of sorts to those that were around it that needed this food/sustenance. What befell from this Dragons mouth gave those that received it a high, as in it was something these recipients dearly needed, so when they received it, it gave them a high. As I lay in bed last night, I felt the activity of the Serpent soul within its canal within the space of the spirit. This Serpent was busy – if you know what I mean. (Having intercourse with another.) Then I fell asleep and I saw these other entities in my space around my bed. I can’t remember specifics of how they looked, but that was irrelevant, as they were there to collect something. What they collected was what was born from the intercourse my Serpent soul had with another. So when I said we are breeders, I missed the specifics of “we.” The “we” is the Serpent soul within. This was a first that I saw a Dragon in my sleep state last night. To whom was it giving sustenance, to the point where this sustenance became a high, as in something the recipients looked to, to rise them above the state they found themselves in? The Wisdom Goddess Sophia created the Dragon spirits, so let’s say that the Dragon I was shown was Sophia. It makes sense that she would give those in the illusion sustenance that they needed in this place that was now falling apart. It also makes sense that this feeding by her in these early stages of the fall of the illusion was a high that those in their lost state needed. But so what? Why show me this Dragon feeding those that needed sustenance, and when they received it, what they got gave them a relief/high from the predicament they found themselves in? No doubt this feeling of relief was passed down to those within the illusion when they needed something and then received it. How does showing me this Dragon that fed those that needed help, help us now? The answer comes back to reproduction, as in giving Life. The more we have, the safer we feel, as this creates a familiar and comfort zone around us. Sure, Life was created to feed energy to the illusion, but go back to the state you experience when you have just given birth to something new. As a father, holding my child when she was born into this world is a feeling that words cannot describe. It is a high beyond highs. We want to feel familiar. We always want to be around our own, be it friends or family, as this gives us comfort. Understand why we need the high – we need it because we found ourselves in an unfamiliar place and we didn’t know how to get out of it and return to the Infinite. Sophia feeding us in the illusion filled this gap within us by her feeding us, but we never remained fulfilled as we were still stuck in the illusion. So we began – and have never stopped – looking for the high to rise us above this unfamiliar place where we don’t belong. As a young boy I could never grab hold of some aspect of Life and call it my own, where from there a foundation could be built that defined Steven. To say I was lost and lonely is a gross understatement. Do you know what gave me the high that temporarily, in that moment, lifted we away from this strange place? Yip, you guessed right. Could it be that we need to lose this only feeling of temporarily losing ourselves from this place, or is it that we have to embrace this high by knowing its origin? To get out of this mess, the Serpent soul within needs to lose its reproductive state – it needs to stop being a mother or father, as its role was never to give Life, but rather be Life. The Serpent soul also loses the state of the high of Life – this sustenance that it needs to fill the gap of being in a place where it does not belong. This Serpent soul needs to go back to what it was by losing what it no longer needs, through it understanding the big picture of how we got into this mess. You want to change and transform to go back Home, then go back to what you originally were, otherwise you are going nowhere. At our core is the Serpent soul within. Only when this being transforms will we.
  25. How was our spirit and Human biological computer before this alien entered our form? (This entity was about the size of your outstretched hand, and entered through the area of your back below your shoulder blades – I say this because I felt it exit there. This creature was housed primarily around our brain area, and I am not sure if its brain was the R-complex, or Reptilian brain within our form. Although this creature was small in stature, its presence was superior to and thus dominated the spirit and body form, and how this was done, was by it taking over our system and incorporating its own therein. Everything was done in stealth, with us the spirit and body form never the wiser. When this take-over was done I cannot say, but what I strongly assume, is those that used us as a slave-species to feed from our energy were the ones responsible for this infiltration. Why I say this, is look at what we are: We are breeders. Our primary role is to give Life, as well as to release energy primarily through the orgasm. This is one of the few pleasures we have in life, but it was never meant for us, rather for those that turned us into a slave species. This entity was the minder of us the breeder. The next step up in our role will no longer be as breeders for Life, as this role will be taken over by machines. My strong feel is that these architects of us the slave species will plug us directly into their Smart grid, and syphon energy from us in this way 24/7. Take it one step further from that, and I would say they will plug directly into our Consciousness – this endless Life from the Infinite. But all of this will never be enough, as these entities will become meaningless gods, meaning nothing about them will be real. By sucking the Life out of others, they do the same to themselves, because what Life is about, is not survival. Life is about companionship, where I see you, and you see me, and what we see is Beautiful. This joy and peace of being and seeing what you are is the definition of Life. What these entities are doing is the opposite to Life, where they take and destroy rather than cherish the presence of those in their space. When “we” turned to “me” for these incomprehensibly cruel entities it was the beginning of the end for them, because that marked the beginning of isolation and loneliness. Now they became islands in this sea of Love and Life. When they have taken everything, and there is no more to take, then they will understand what I am talking about, but I will not allow them to carry on doing what they have done because more than anything I wish to be at peace and happy. The days of them living at our expense are over, and may the days of the animals and the plants living at our expense come to an end sooner than later. Always, look to ourselves, and we will see we are the Beast that feeds from and destroys us. We are them, and they are us, and that is why in the grand scheme of things we need help, as in Divine intervention, so that this Game of survival may come to an end.) Always we have to ask questions; never can we assume that things just roll back to where they were. How were you and I the spirit and body form before this alien entered our forms and hijacked our space, where its presence took over ours, meaning our Life was no more ours to own? When I go into the stillness of the silence to answer this question, what I feel is our gift of a good heart being misplaced at our heart energy field. It felt like a soccer ball was taken away from there, and all that was left was this gaping hole. So now we return what was there – what should be there, as this is naturally what we are. Just remember one thing: I am not writing words for you to pass your time reading them. I write to transform. I write for those within the illusion, who like me, realize there is only so much more they can take from being where they don’t belong. I write for those who say “enough is enough.” To these what I write will touch them, because more than anything they wish to be free from Beasts within the seen and unseen and be amongst their own. What needs to be done to return our gift of a good heart? Understand it is for all. It is for the sea and those that dwell therein, and not for islands within the sea, as we are all one. It shines for all. Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought it so complicated to return Disharmony to Harmony within our existence. 3:08 PM 30/12/2022 Always I wondered – what was it that drew me to having to squash the nose of my dogs as an expression of my Love for them? Where was our gift of a good heart intentionally misplaced by those that took us over? – Within the layers of frequencies on our spirit and body form that make up our nose. From this place our gift is released to where it belongs. (This could never be done unless we knew of the entity within us that took us over, as this entity misplaced our gift from God/Semiramis.) 4:08 PM 30/12/2022
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