middle_ager

I think that's a sound argument - re: GM weed and weaponisation. It's all very interesting. I've been wondering if there is something about intense sexual energy being present when I'm staring into the dark - that energy being exacerbated by the weed - that's teh function of the weed. It happened last night - I really need to stop actually as the reality is i'm hooked. Anyway - I keep seeing all this stuff - there are so many realities over our own. And then I sit, the morning after, and it's as though nothing ever happened. communing with entities last night - now watching the washing machine go round - bizarre. I need to stop the weed, it's become a problem.

I'll be honest, your question provoked some thinking. I'd not really thought about it being my imagination on drugs which then made me realise that I have a bias towards explanations that are magical and wild. My imagination is brilliant and always has been - I think growing up reading Roald Dahl was a sound tool to start it off. It is possible that it's my imagination. I've loved exploring alternative explanations since the X files as a child. I lean-in towards it being 'real' per se but who knows. It's a shame there's no easy way to determine true/false. Lately my thinking has leaned towards increased ESP ability while high - but again - could be imagination.

It's fucked up isn't ?! I can understand your experience causing you the issues it has - I've masked most of the distress but yeah! I'm staying off the weed. On a surface level I tell myself I still don't know what to make of it but underneath I'm pretty sure it was all real and a glimpse of something behind the curtain. Thanks for the message mate, sorry for the late reply, I gave up checking for responses after a few weeks.

Sorry for the late reply - I stopped coming back to check after a while. In answer to your question - the experience with the translucent craft - it was visual - yes - but the greater part of it was this knowing - as though I had always known this was going on. Expanding outwards I knew that all of us were subject to it aswell. you used the term intuitive knowing - that sounds about right - I've thought of it as an unconscious knowing. I'll say the same when I saw the technological simulator - I just KNEW. It's hard to explain. I had this download happen at one point - it wasn't like that - that was weird - God knows!! I have no idea what was going on in my brain December '24 to Feb. 25. I've always had bizarre dreams - but this was all - the download was literally like a download (while I was awake) and was all trans-human - technological bits being strapped onto a body in a coccoon of sorts - anyway. Thanks for your interest. Nothing like that is happening now. I'm not convinced it was psychosis - I'm rambling.

I'll give you a summary of something that's gone on - basically I started over using cannabis, but what I think is relevant here is that I was inducing self hypnosis in many ways by staring into the dark of my bedroom. Literally keeping my eyes open and staring. The weed helped me stare for prolonged periods. Although of course I'm open to suggestion re: what follows. I've thought about psychosis/the nature of psychosis and I don't feel this was it. Frankly I'd rather it be psychosis. over the course of a month I saw: *technology - in it contained everything, every life playing out - a giant simulator - I was outside of the simulator looking in and aware that millions of lives were playing out in it including myself and my family - it was a technological rectangle in shape - vast - but definitely technology. A night in December I stared into the night sky and for a moment, a brief moment I saw a huge structure in the sky. *Another time I could see a translucent reality over my own - I was laid in bed and I could see both my astral and physical body. A modular type craft, also translucent, came down and drew something out of me at the abdominal area, an energy. Its' 'driver' realised that I could see and came and inserted something in my eye - which I felt in the physical as pressure and a draft of wind. What I remember of the entity driving this was that it was not human and had the quality of an inca-type mask to it in appearance. In this vision I knew that this happened all the time outside of awareness. Incidentally I've had a twitcy eye since. *Several times I will say 'astral projected' to a great barrier - at its' face I just felt terror. A vast, vast barrier through which I could not pass - it's also technological in nature - the quality fo a chain mail but much greater. The 'I' that that goes to this place is not me, it is not me a person, it's me inasmuch as it's like my inner voice but without sense of physical body etc. It's hard to describe. *And last night I woke to a shadow with red eyes staring at me. LEt me say I've not smoked weed in 6 weeks now. I'm not psychotic - functioning to a point but I'd like to hear what people think. I'm inclined to think everything David Icke has said is right. I think it's relevant to say that I may be a bit sensitive - without being under the influence of anything I've had an OBE, seen a UFO and a shadow figure previously looking over someone. It's a hard lot to keep to yourself.