Hello. I think this story fits into this topic. I hope you like it and don't label me "crazy". So here it is: I know you have heard lots of stories like this one. I am one of those "died for a sometime" people. So, here it is. When I was 15-16 (I'm 43 right now) I was tipsy. We were at the seaside, singing by the fire, partying, you got the picture. People were telling me "Don't go over to the end of the ponton, you can be hurt". Ofc, I didn't listen. I wanted a quite place for a while. I have no idea how I slipped and fell. All was partying at the beach. There was numerous of fires there. People singing, playing guitars etc. And me alone - I fell into the sea. I suddenly sobered and started swimming, but the waves and the current were against me. I started to scream for help. They didn't hear me. When people managed to notice I was far beyond my strength and started to drown. I was losing conscience and going deep. Last thing I remember is someone managed to reach me, fighting the current and the waves, almost touching my fingertips. I gave up. The whole world faded. I went into oblivion. Darkness. I was just there, inside the darkness. Somehow "floating". I was questioning "Do I exist", "What am I, who am I, what is me, what is what, what, where, time, nothingness, bodiless, how do I think, why I think, how and why..." It all lasted for a really long time. Felt like eternity. Realizing "I am". Just that. All dark. I got bored. Desperate. I felt like I will be there forever and nothing, including me exists. Because - what I was - a nothing inside the nothing. It also took another eternity. Timeless. I was, idk what inside the dark. Just thinking. Painfully. Than I saw it. A little tiny spark. And I jus wanted to reach it. I started to float towards it. It was just standing there. And I floated and floated and floated. I realized the distance is still the same. Than it hit me "What is distance?" Than BAM. There were all over small shining dots. Heading somewhere. I asked myself "Was I blind, they are everywhere, just spotting, inside the darkness, which was around me... How I didn't notice them before". And it hit me again. Notice them how? I don't have something to see. I remembered some distant feeling of a tool, which helps to see. I can't describe what is to feel bodiless. I can't describe what was forgetting all the words and all the images, all the meanings. At this point I reinvented simply "eyes". With no physical existence. Can't describe it - I just started to See. And I saw it. A huge sorta vortex, with undescribable colors, where all of them were rotating with no stop. Just rotating there. Fast and same time slow. At one direction and same time all directions. Sparkling in different colors and same time blending into each other. Undescribable. But all of those had one center - pure light. The most eye burning light. Ofc it didn't burn me - I didn't have eyes, or even the idea of eyes at this point. All I had was "How I didn't sense this, how I felt lost, how I..." And I instantly went there. Distance doesn't matter. Time too. I was so far, so I instantly got inside. It was the most extreme peaceful sensation. The most right thing to do. The most beautiful place to be. The most... can't describe. But. Something started calling me. I was at such peace and such comfort. But. It was calling me. Me. And I got confused "Why me? What am me? What I should do". It didn't stop. So, I disturbed the (idk how to call it) and asked - "Am I welcomed here" - "Yes". "Can I stay here?" - "Yes". "If me (I don't know what is me) have troubles, to cause disturbance - will you answer and help me. Am I one?" - "Yes. Ask." And I started asking. Random. Whatever ever was in my mind. First was Why all the colors - are we numerous identies, what were we, how many lives each one had. All kind of questions, How roses sound. How stones smell. Everything. They just answered. They were so old. So many destinies. I felt like a billion years old too. They knew everything. And the center is God. So I saked a final question "If I step inside and hear what this voice have to say, can I go back?" - "Yes, always!" And I stepped. Just for a milesecond. Just to... Idk. It promised me experiences, knowledge to add, important missions to fulfill, treasures to find, blah, blah... I was going to return but it bribed me with "You forgot what you left behind, people who will miss you. You are important for other souls. You will fail them all..." It wishperedme things like that. From behind. Somehow from behind, without having a body. I asked many times - "Show yourself. Let me see you." But it only showed me the tunnel. The tunnel of light. Which will lead me to... I wasn't sure what. And I gave myself up at somepoint. I did a mistake. I asked the amazing thing one last time "If I just take a look inside the tunnel, can I come back?" - "Yes. Always. Nothing matters." Last question "How?" - "Just by will." And I went back. On earth. Wet, almost drowned. People around me crazy, Explaining how they pulled me out of water. How I had no pulse, no breathing. How I was blue etc. No signs of life. Ofc ambulance came late. I spitted lots of seawater. Sobered up. Etc. Noone knows how long I was "dead". Or whatever. People think I'm insane. Imagination. I don't like to tell this story to most. Imagine the look of people's faces. Drunk lunatic speaking. Garbage, almost drowned and doesn't know what she speak off. I understand. But it felt insanely real. Took me long time. Years. To clear the memory and accept. There is something out there.
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