Hello Nikki, I think it's a combo of psychosis, spiritual awakening, spiritual battle,, and the fact that you had knowledge of David Ickes research and theories which mixed in your psychosis. Also, if you never read the Bible and you thought this was from God, maybe try and understand that in the Bible when you repented, you have to ask Jesus to also come into your life. I think you are going through spiritual warfare too. Satan rules this world and it makes sense why the people in charge are Satanists. This is an awakening for you spiritually to ask God to forgive your sins and also invite Jesus into your life. If you accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior, you have the power to cast demons out you when you receive the Holy Spirit. I don't think it was all psychosis and I'm sorry you were put in the mental hospital and they mistreated you and other patients. Most people that work in mental hospitals are evil and power-happy like cops here in America. You are battling demons that are messing with you. Jesus is the only one great power spiritually to stop it. We are living in a very spiritual world that we cannot see. I will pray for you to come to Jesus and to protect you.