ofgilead
08-01-2010, 11:46 PM
In October I came back to New England from a monumental trip across the country (mostly the west coast) all summer. Things seemed so certain when I was on the road and when I cam home.
I fully anticipated writing stories and understanding astrology. Those were the two strongest desires I came home with.
Now that I'm home, I feel like I've lost it. That passion I so recently had has fizzled and left me with questions and confusion. I've put writing aside for the moment. It just isn't happening. I sit down with my word processor and what comes out is so disappointing and unfulfilling.
In the meantime I began digging into astrology. I cast a basic birth chart, and I've read quite a bit about the signs, and houses. When I open these books though I feel like I'm trying to force the hamsters to run. It just isn't clicking.
Now, I understand to a degree the power I could wield if I learned astrology. Understanding the cycles of just about anything. Making sense of why we feel the way we feel at certain times. The lessons that need to be learned at a particular time, and the possible ways of learning the lessons. What relationships with other people mean. Etc. Etc. I am certain I can make sense of life if I "look to the stars".
But it ain't happening. I feel like I'm stuck in quicksand, unable to take another step. I'm not sure how to approach whatever it is i want/need to approach.
As little as I understand what I'm asking about, I'll start with something. Hopefully it, and you guys, can help me in the right direction.
Where can I continue my search in understanding my life through astrology?
Maybe one of you can help me kickstart with a natal chart, and perhaps a bit of question answering in relation to it.
My Birthday is May 20, 1986. 3:47am. (birthplace: Waterbury, CT. USA)
I don't expect a handout, but maybe a hand to hold for a moment. Like I said, all my certainties seem to be slipping away. And the last thing I want to do to remedy these feelings is start running before the gun goes off.
I fully anticipated writing stories and understanding astrology. Those were the two strongest desires I came home with.
Now that I'm home, I feel like I've lost it. That passion I so recently had has fizzled and left me with questions and confusion. I've put writing aside for the moment. It just isn't happening. I sit down with my word processor and what comes out is so disappointing and unfulfilling.
In the meantime I began digging into astrology. I cast a basic birth chart, and I've read quite a bit about the signs, and houses. When I open these books though I feel like I'm trying to force the hamsters to run. It just isn't clicking.
Now, I understand to a degree the power I could wield if I learned astrology. Understanding the cycles of just about anything. Making sense of why we feel the way we feel at certain times. The lessons that need to be learned at a particular time, and the possible ways of learning the lessons. What relationships with other people mean. Etc. Etc. I am certain I can make sense of life if I "look to the stars".
But it ain't happening. I feel like I'm stuck in quicksand, unable to take another step. I'm not sure how to approach whatever it is i want/need to approach.
As little as I understand what I'm asking about, I'll start with something. Hopefully it, and you guys, can help me in the right direction.
Where can I continue my search in understanding my life through astrology?
Maybe one of you can help me kickstart with a natal chart, and perhaps a bit of question answering in relation to it.
My Birthday is May 20, 1986. 3:47am. (birthplace: Waterbury, CT. USA)
I don't expect a handout, but maybe a hand to hold for a moment. Like I said, all my certainties seem to be slipping away. And the last thing I want to do to remedy these feelings is start running before the gun goes off.