My little story

[cyberdaemon]

Ive been thinking on this all my last 20 years and i never found out whats the source to this.Its not that i hate the reality and people.I do not hate people.I do want to live.Hell yeas i want ;) Life is good! But there is an important data missing from this "dream".

In a fantasy world it takes only 1 scientist to build an army of super robots , people can actually have ANY superpowers , simple mutagen or virus can turn you into totally different species with its own abilities and life cycle.Yes all that can be bad.Evil.Terrible.But why there is no reality , where a radiation actually creates new life instead of this "retard show" we have ? It can also generate monsters , yes , but so what! (I know wishing monsters aint good , but thats just me) Life is to take risks and im ready to take them.I just need the damn reality element.By the way.To be more exact , im not talking about lack of "supernatural" elements.Do not post any stuff here , because its "supernatural".Im talking about visually "exaggerated" reality.

If a person gets bitten by something or someone , why cant they just turn ?
What stops them ? Whats wrong ? I LOVE Underworld movie , but never seen anything that follows the movie pattern ? Why ? I never said that i want werewolves that hunt people or vampires that kill somebody.Its just these abilities and reality elements im after.But some how stuff like healing factor simply wont work.What am i done wrong ? Am i evil ? Im i being punished for something ? I do know that lots of you would read me a lecture about spiritual balance and being in harmony with the world.Ive done my homework.If you come here , just to talk about that , STOP!Turn around and go away! NOW!

I never said i hate this reality , i never said i want people to die.commiting suicide is lame.I never said i want to escape! There is lots of good in real world.Lots of nice stuff and funny elements.But in my hearth im always been little "away".Its not actually my obsession , that i must get "in any way no mather what prize".Its just i feel right now being part of this more than with any other elements together.All the world secrets and power mean nothing to me.No money attracts me.Sexual energy seems "secondary" too.All i want is the world to have more "visual effects" :/ Little wish , so everyone would enjoy the benefits of the "true magic".

I got some videos , you must see to understand me more.Im the only one who asks THIS question ? These videos are actually not my visions , just little extensions to help you to see what i see.Or want to see as everyday readlity.Im not really afraid of all that , i find it exiting and cute ;) I quess i never grew up :P


If your too lazy to search for them by yourself i posted them here.

Stalker
Truly interesting game.Good concept of what word mutant should mean.
YouTube - Broadcast Yourself.
S.T.A.L.K.E.R Trailer 25 - YouTube

World of Warcraft videos - these define what i generally mean under magic
World OF Warcraft - YouTube
YouTube - Broadcast Yourself.

Unerworld My favorite movie theme
YouTube - Broadcast Yourself.
Lycans/Vampires have never been so perfect.Any other version of them quiet sucks.

Warhammer online - another good video of magic
Warhammer Online : Age of Reckoning - Cinematic Trailer GC - YouTube

I dont really care if you dislike my views.I just wanted you to know and rise this question , which is probobly the most pointless :P I did actually felt some precence of a spiritual world , when i was typing this thread , as if there is a force that actually wants me not to post this.They failed.Lets see if theres any good penefits behind this at all ?

[cruise4]

I haven't got a clue what you are talking about, unless you are asking how to become Gandalf the Wizard, for self glory reasons?

[kblood]

I haven't got a clue what you are talking about, unless you are asking how to become Gandalf the Wizard, for self glory reasons?

Being Gandalf and self glory reasons truly contradict each other, so much it seems you cant believe it.

It seems to me that you are on to something Cyberdaemon. I have been able to find a few people who are a bit special just by chatting with them, and getting to know them in games like WoW. Also these games makes magic seems possible. I try to simplify it all though. I have friends I belief to be werewolves or have been vampires. Seen the series Angel and Buffy? Well, they arent really hiding the truth that well. I have come to realise that "Angel" is actually played by the one previously known as Dracula. The person playing "Spike" or whatever that blond vampires name is, seems to be the real life "Lestat de Lioncourt" who has gotten himself alot of fame in books. At least James Marsters seems to have become somewhat mortal again. David Boreanaz (Angel/Dracula) might or might not have become mortal. Not sure if finding a way to be like that and still walk in the sunlight is proof enough that they have become like mortal beings again.

Some people are simply hiding by different personalities these days. All it takes is the courage and resources to look for them. They might even let you know who they really are. Sure took me a long time to find the real Lestat. Some years ago a small Lestat fanboy tried to make me believe he was Lestat :o I even believed him for some moments of the time. When Lestat finally showed himself though, he didnt try to prove he was Lestat and he didnt deny it either. To find some of the beings like this, it really takes a great deal of research and some tricky ways to make them come out.

Seems to me David Boreanaz and James Marsters are names and personalities that have helped them get back in touch with life. They are probably also part of the ongoing global "awakening". Who knows, it might even be more than just global?

[mada88]

Lets get out of the good and evil mind set cos its really silly. Right and wrong, good and bad the list of these goes on forever.

[cyberdaemon]

Lets get out of the good and evil mind set cos its really silly. Right and wrong, good and bad the list of these goes on forever.

I never said that.I know that true evil does not exist , just lost souls.But what about these spirits , that i felt ? That some anonymous force was trying to stop me from writing this :P I once felt that even if i was simply thinking about specific "paranormal" elements , well on my stuff actually.