Are these feelings normal?

[bill4588]

Hello everyone, my name's Bill and I just registered to the forums! I just wanted to bring up something I've been going through to see if anyone else is experiencing the same thing. Since around Feb. or March I've been displaying symptoms of what typically indicates depression, but the weird thing is I don't really feel depressed at all. Feelings such as boredom, lack of interest in once-enjoyable activities, not really caring what tomorrow brings...stuff like that. But I don't feel sad or want to kill myself or anything, I just feel like I want more than what this world could possibly offer. Almost like I'm stranded here on this planet and I'm limited by a small number of senses. I feel like this body and my limited perception is making me feel constricted which makes me feel bored in a way. I want to experience dozens of different new senses and do things i can only do in my imagination because everything on earth just seems so bland. Maybe I'm just going through a transformation period in my life? Maybe I'm actually depressed (although hard for me to believe!)? But I was also thinking that maybe if this 2012 thing is actually gonna happen maybe my mind is just waking up and preparing me for what's to come? Any ideas or inputs?

[xpleet]

Hello everyone, my name's Bill and I just registered to the forums! I just wanted to bring up something I've been going through to see if anyone else is experiencing the same thing. Since around Feb. or March I've been displaying symptoms of what typically indicates depression, but the weird thing is I don't really feel depressed at all. Feelings such as boredom, lack of interest in once-enjoyable activities, not really caring what tomorrow brings...stuff like that. But I don't feel sad or want to kill myself or anything, I just feel like I want more than what this world could possibly offer. Almost like I'm stranded here on this planet and I'm limited by a small number of senses. I feel like this body and my limited perception is making me feel constricted which makes me feel bored in a way. I want to experience dozens of different new senses and do things i can only do in my imagination because everything on earth just seems so bland. Maybe I'm just going through a transformation period in my life? Maybe I'm actually depressed (although hard for me to believe!)? But I was also thinking that maybe if this 2012 thing is actually gonna happen maybe my mind is just waking up and preparing me for what's to come? Any ideas or inputs?


None of what you said is unfamiliar to me and a lot in the cosmos seems to have been shifting with the end of last year, and the beginning of this one. I'm sure most people would report the same.
There's a lot of "friction" going on right now and it can appear very spiritually exhausting.


The prison bars are bending and the concrete is beginnning to fracture.

[arty2000]

I hear ya:)....buckle up its getting very interesting:)

[xeon]

I've been in the same boat for a long time. I do not see things changing though...or things are moving at such a snail's pace that sometimes I want to dismiss the idea that anything will happen.

Maybe people elsewhere are "awakening" and for them it is such a grand thing...but that is kindergarten stuff for me now. I want to live and breath the REAL thing! :)

[mamakaz]

Hi Bill, and welcome, x

Simple pleasures for me, like, going to the pub or out for meals with friends, watching tv, the usual drone stuff, i find really boring and a waste of time!

And Time, Time seems to be moving at record speed, i know we humans follow a 24 hr ritual, but to me, time is moving alot faster, i cant really explain it, they (the elders of the family) say times goes quicker the older you get, but time is spinning by so fast!

So.. if time is moving quicker, then i should have less time to get bored with the usual crap, but not so...
i cant stand the tv in the background, spewing its misinfo, whats the point of going to the pub with ''friends'' that think you are a mad woman talking about chemtrails, aspartame, flouride and stuff!

So i have become quite reclusive, not depressed, just alone with my thoughts,
i dont usually say much on the forum, as i find someone always says what im thinking anyway, lol

i guess i feel unsettled, but calm, maybe waiting for something, but not sure what that something is!

[bill4588]

yeah! It's like my subconscious is waiting for something big to happen but I can't figure it out. I don't want to convince myself that it's related to 2012 because there's really no PROOF that something will happen then and I don't want to be disappointed or realize I was a quack for thinking something was gonna happen when nothing does. But at the same time, there's some interesting things happening now which makes me wonder. :confused:

You know how you feel when you've been anticipating an upcoming event and once you get close to it happening, nothing else seems interesting anymore? That's kinda the way I feel right now about life, but I have no clue what could possibly be coming. And it's not like I want my daily activities to be boring, I just can't help it. Hell, I just went on a vacation and it wasn't that enjoyable (though I would have loved it a year ago). It seems like worldly objects and experiences don't mean as much as they once did.

[anahata]

You'll find yourself getting fed up with things, stuff that's not necessarily in your long term interest. Don't let it grind you down - says she getting ground down!! :p be open to embrace new opportunities but don't get irritated with friends/family who ‘don’t get it’ yet, you’ll just get frustrated.

Nothing happens over night, unless you’re a lucky b’stard.

Have fun

[relax]

I don't want to convince myself that it's related to 2012 because there's really no PROOF that something will happen then and I don't want to be disappointed or realize I was a quack


Theres a wealth of information on this forum and on the internet that indicates strongly something will happen, the details of which are included. You're not going to get 'PROOF' until you live through it. The best thing up until then is your intuition and syncronicities in your life such as this, that others are feeling the same.

What you've been mentioning as others have said is affecting alot of people (including myself), and these threads seem to pop up everyday now which is a good sign :). A friend of mine who is just waking up mentioned the same thing to me last night, relating to the effort required to do things .

[holy_wood]

Can You Feel It - Michael Jackson and the Jacksons - YouTube

[listener]

Hello Bill , everyone ....:)

So many people who come here are sensing change of mood , thought process, vibration. Also in the ' Can you feel it ' topic ,in the awakening thread very similar thoughts and experiences.

I've been feeling much the same for months now . Usually the trials and tribulations that life chucks I can brush off after a result ,conclusion is reached, but of late I could just stay put everyday and not mingle , work , be with pretty much everyone . Apart from my husband ,my starman, who I treasure .

The great unwashed as I've come to think of them, irriate the Fxxxk out of me with their irrelevent twaddle filled conversations and gossip .

I love writing , its what I do to make sense of what's in my head and surrounding me.

I wrote this this morning......


I wondered why ,where, and how was I was going to get it back
not my youth ,size 10 bod, favourite old hat or walkabout cat
my Mojo got up and went some months ago
left me sad ,tearful and far from the flow

sat by the shore day in day out contemplating what to do
if only it were as easy as changing a shoe
would it come back, where to look
should I write another book.

Shouted ,cried ,ached for the fog to lift
this wasn't who I wanted to be , causing rifts
thought I was done with being a lost soul
but the demons insisted on chucking on another coal

My starman he talked not just spoke
showed me a way I could be free from feeling chocked
within hours I sensed my Mojo was back
I thanked my man ,now I know I'll be alright jack .



So long as we keep talking and sharing what's happening , maybe we will stay sane as the great unwashed go mad.

:rolleyes:

All good things
Julie .

[whiterain]

hi bill welcome. yeah i feel extremely similar. was depressed for a long time but over the last couple of years i really felt like i got rid of it. its strange tho because despite not really feeling anywhere near as unhappy anymore, the other symptoms like motivation etc are far worse. sorry i cant help but sometimes knowing others feel similar is all it takes

[marpat]

Hello everyone, my name's Bill and I just registered to the forums! I just wanted to bring up something I've been going through to see if anyone else is experiencing the same thing. Since around Feb. or March I've been displaying symptoms of what typically indicates depression, but the weird thing is I don't really feel depressed at all. Feelings such as boredom, lack of interest in once-enjoyable activities, not really caring what tomorrow brings...stuff like that. But I don't feel sad or want to kill myself or anything, I just feel like I want more than what this world could possibly offer. Almost like I'm stranded here on this planet and I'm limited by a small number of senses. I feel like this body and my limited perception is making me feel constricted which makes me feel bored in a way. I want to experience dozens of different new senses and do things i can only do in my imagination because everything on earth just seems so bland. Maybe I'm just going through a transformation period in my life? Maybe I'm actually depressed (although hard for me to believe!)? But I was also thinking that maybe if this 2012 thing is actually gonna happen maybe my mind is just waking up and preparing me for what's to come? Any ideas or inputs?

Sounds like you are cut off from your inner life. I went through a similar stage for a few years and the during a visit to a buddhist monastery in Scotland I realised exactly what was causing my problem. For me it was the realisation that self doubt was the obstacle and things picked up from there. The doubt killed of my spiritual life which then meant I took more interest in material things and became more dependent upon them. Now things have reverted back to normal I dont have the same outer drive but have more inner drive.

[lauren_almighty]

Hello everyone, my name's Bill and I just registered to the forums! I just wanted to bring up something I've been going through to see if anyone else is experiencing the same thing. Since around Feb. or March I've been displaying symptoms of what typically indicates depression, but the weird thing is I don't really feel depressed at all. Feelings such as boredom, lack of interest in once-enjoyable activities, not really caring what tomorrow brings...stuff like that. But I don't feel sad or want to kill myself or anything, I just feel like I want more than what this world could possibly offer. Almost like I'm stranded here on this planet and I'm limited by a small number of senses. I feel like this body and my limited perception is making me feel constricted which makes me feel bored in a way. I want to experience dozens of different new senses and do things i can only do in my imagination because everything on earth just seems so bland. Maybe I'm just going through a transformation period in my life? Maybe I'm actually depressed (although hard for me to believe!)? But I was also thinking that maybe if this 2012 thing is actually gonna happen maybe my mind is just waking up and preparing me for what's to come? Any ideas or inputs?

I know how you feel. I've been feeling the same. I've really opened up my eyes to what the world is really like and I feel stuck. How is somebody supposed to live in this world once they know the truth? It's really draining sometimes. I've had the dilemma of what to do with my life and I'm not the same person that I was. I used to be shallow and materialistic but I've realised that none of that matters. I'm not interested in the things that I used to like and my whole lifestyle has changed. Now it's like I need something more mentally stimulating instead of this dumbed down crap like tv, celebrity gossip, magazines and nightclubs.

[bill4588]

Sounds like you are cut off from your inner life. I went through a similar stage for a few years and the during a visit to a buddhist monastery in Scotland I realised exactly what was causing my problem. For me it was the realisation that self doubt was the obstacle and things picked up from there. The doubt killed of my spiritual life which then meant I took more interest in material things and became more dependent upon them. Now things have reverted back to normal I dont have the same outer drive but have more inner drive.

I think this is mostly correct (about the confidence) in my situation but reading this made me realize something else. I think the problem is that I'm TOO attached to my inner self, and most of the people I know and hang out with are the exact opposite- too detached from their inner selves. They're too concerned with entertainment and material things. Sine I never spend time with like-minded people I feel the need to revert back to myself to keep my sanity, which makes me feel insane in a way. Does this make sense to anybody? lol

[lauren_almighty]

I think this is mostly correct (about the confidence) in my situation but reading this made me realize something else. I think the problem is that I'm TOO attached to my inner self, and most of the people I know and hang out with are the exact opposite- too detached from their inner selves. They're too concerned with entertainment and material things. Sine I never spend time with like-minded people I feel the need to revert back to myself to keep my sanity, which makes me feel insane in a way. Does this make sense to anybody? lol

I know exactly what you mean. I am the exact same way.

I tend to keep myself to myself. I don't know any like-minded people and the people that I do know I have nothing in common with. I know what you mean about feeling 'insane' because I kind of feel anti-social and like I'm shutting myself off from the world. But being alone with myself definitely makes me sane.

There's a party going on in my head :rolleyes:

[cleft_asunder]

Hello everyone, my name's Bill and I just registered to the forums! I just wanted to bring up something I've been going through to see if anyone else is experiencing the same thing. Since around Feb. or March I've been displaying symptoms of what typically indicates depression, but the weird thing is I don't really feel depressed at all. Feelings such as boredom, lack of interest in once-enjoyable activities, not really caring what tomorrow brings...stuff like that. But I don't feel sad or want to kill myself or anything, I just feel like I want more than what this world could possibly offer. Almost like I'm stranded here on this planet and I'm limited by a small number of senses. I feel like this body and my limited perception is making me feel constricted which makes me feel bored in a way. I want to experience dozens of different new senses and do things i can only do in my imagination because everything on earth just seems so bland. Maybe I'm just going through a transformation period in my life? Maybe I'm actually depressed (although hard for me to believe!)? But I was also thinking that maybe if this 2012 thing is actually gonna happen maybe my mind is just waking up and preparing me for what's to come? Any ideas or inputs?

It's called apathy. Do you have mercury poisoning? People with mercury poisoning perceive the world as you do. Weather this is your problem or not, it's not the world that is uninteresting, rather you are uninterested. Stop living your life through the mind and you will experience everything as blissful.

http://www.davidicke.com/forum/showthread.php?t=78210

[wasd]

I'm having similar experiences aswell, started few months ago.

[tell me again]

Hi bill,

I'm also from Georgia and just saw some of your post.

Are you feeling more interested in things since this post? I too have been feeling a little down, but up and down for me is my normal.

Enjoy the forum!

[pythaem]

Hello everyone, my name's Bill and I just registered to the forums! I just wanted to bring up something I've been going through to see if anyone else is experiencing the same thing. Since around Feb. or March I've been displaying symptoms of what typically indicates depression, but the weird thing is I don't really feel depressed at all. Feelings such as boredom, lack of interest in once-enjoyable activities, not really caring what tomorrow brings...stuff like that. But I don't feel sad or want to kill myself or anything, I just feel like I want more than what this world could possibly offer. Almost like I'm stranded here on this planet and I'm limited by a small number of senses. I feel like this body and my limited perception is making me feel constricted which makes me feel bored in a way. I want to experience dozens of different new senses and do things i can only do in my imagination because everything on earth just seems so bland. Maybe I'm just going through a transformation period in my life? Maybe I'm actually depressed (although hard for me to believe!)? But I was also thinking that maybe if this 2012 thing is actually gonna happen maybe my mind is just waking up and preparing me for what's to come? Any ideas or inputs?

Hi Bill and welcome!!!

I've not only been feeling this for quite some time, but yesterday and today I have been actively thinking about it much more than usual, which is why I was happy to see your post :)

I know what clinical depression is. What I've been going through over the past few months is much different. The best I can make sense of it right now, is that as I'm learning how different the world is compared to what I had thought before, the value and meaning of every single thing changes. It reminds me of a Flight Club quote where he says "everything else in your life has the volume turned down" or somethin like that. Things I used to care so much about (money, stuff, even some relationships and people) just seem trivial.

I've put an end to my more shallow relationships which were based on pointless and fake interactions over booze. I don't go out and party or gamble like I used to. I cancelled my cable. I've thrown so much junk away, a lot of stuff that in the past I would never part with. I care much less about my appearance and what people think of me. I haven't washed my car in months, and I've even grown fond of how dirty it is :eek::p

The time I used to spend hypnotized by various forms of entertainment, I've spent more and more time thinking, thinking, thinking...

I don't buy most of the 2012 hype exactly, but I do absolutely feel like we're headed towards something. So right now, it feels like something inside me is basically saying "Ugh, I just gotta put up with this boring existence for now..." I love my job, my friends, family and I have a lot of enjoyable experiences right now. I'm not unhappy. My energy level is the same and I'm functioning appropriately. Everything just seems so dull! I just have a very strong and constant feeling that there is more to life than what I can see right now.

Also - time is definitely speeding up. my girlfriend said something about it the other day, and she's not into any of this stuff.

[neutral]

I've been in the same boat for a long time. I do not see things changing though...or things are moving at such a snail's pace that sometimes I want to dismiss the idea that anything will happen.

Maybe people elsewhere are "awakening" and for them it is such a grand thing...but that is kindergarten stuff for me now. I want to live and breath the REAL thing! :)

Boat is waiting for everyone to get on it. It can't leave half empty. :D

[pythaem]

Boat is waiting for everyone to get on it. It can't leave half empty. :D

<3 that comment :)

[rainmayne]

Hello everyone, my name's Bill and I just registered to the forums! I just wanted to bring up something I've been going through to see if anyone else is experiencing the same thing. Since around Feb. or March I've been displaying symptoms of what typically indicates depression, but the weird thing is I don't really feel depressed at all. Feelings such as boredom, lack of interest in once-enjoyable activities, not really caring what tomorrow brings...stuff like that. But I don't feel sad or want to kill myself or anything, I just feel like I want more than what this world could possibly offer. Almost like I'm stranded here on this planet and I'm limited by a small number of senses. I feel like this body and my limited perception is making me feel constricted which makes me feel bored in a way. I want to experience dozens of different new senses and do things i can only do in my imagination because everything on earth just seems so bland. Maybe I'm just going through a transformation period in my life? Maybe I'm actually depressed (although hard for me to believe!)? But I was also thinking that maybe if this 2012 thing is actually gonna happen maybe my mind is just waking up and preparing me for what's to come? Any ideas or inputs?

Wow... This has been how i've felt for a long time, never put it into words. I got the chills reading it! Actually, reading it kinda dulls things down even more now :/ yet... Still not really depressed.. I think people try hard to supress truths about us as humans.. And you can fool some people some of the time, but you cant fool us all, all of the time. Simply because we are what we are even if we dont know it. Knowing a complete stranger has had the same feeling makes me feel a little oneness with humanity. I think somethings going to happen soon.

[sm1973]

Hi Bill, and welcome, x

Simple pleasures for me, like, going to the pub or out for meals with friends, watching tv, the usual drone stuff, i find really boring and a waste of time!

And Time, Time seems to be moving at record speed, i know we humans follow a 24 hr ritual, but to me, time is moving alot faster, i cant really explain it, they (the elders of the family) say times goes quicker the older you get, but time is spinning by so fast!

So.. if time is moving quicker, then i should have less time to get bored with the usual crap, but not so...
i cant stand the tv in the background, spewing its misinfo, whats the point of going to the pub with ''friends'' that think you are a mad woman talking about chemtrails, aspartame, flouride and stuff!

So i have become quite reclusive, not depressed, just alone with my thoughts,
i dont usually say much on the forum, as i find someone always says what im thinking anyway, lol

i guess i feel unsettled, but calm, maybe waiting for something, but not sure what that something is!

I can empathise with a lot of points raised on this thread.
Time for me seems to be "flying" and I am very rarely "bored".

I find there isn't enough time in the day for me to do what I want to do even when I am doing what I want and avoiding doing things that I don't want to do!!!

As for thinking something is going to happen, I've had this feeling for a long time, certainly over 10 years or so and I am glad to be on this forum sharing my thoughts with like minded souls :)

[waterpistol]

Boat is waiting for everyone to get on it. It can't leave half empty. :D

i had a similar awakening to this recently, except my analogy was a bus! picture in your mind a bus queue... (here in the UK there is definitely bus queue etiquette, i.e. no pushing in!) and i used to shuffle along in the line, waiting for the bus to come. now after i had this big "a ha!" i realised that it doesn't matter where people stand, the bus does not leave until everyone is aboard! - same applies with boarding an aeroplane! ho ho ho!

but specifically for you, i would mirror some of the other comments so far, it is equally crucial to manage the awakening and development of the inner world as maintaining your focus on the external world. two books i would recommend to buy 100%

eckahart tolle 'a new earth'
robert monroe 'journeys out of the body'

try downloading some guided meditations... i think there are quite a few on biTorrent... :)

[waterpistol]

I can empathise with a lot of points raised on this thread.
Time for me seems to be "flying" and I am very rarely "bored".

I find there isn't enough time in the day for me to do what I want to do even when I am doing what I want and avoiding doing things that I don't want to do!!!

As for thinking something is going to happen, I've had this feeling for a long time, certainly over 10 years or so and I am glad to be on this forum sharing my thoughts with like minded souls :)

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[sadone]

Wow!
Finally found people that are feeling almost exactly as me. What a relief!
I've been uninterested in mundane stuff most of my life. It's been maybe a year or so that I've found out all the awakening stories on the net and though I knew something wasn't right with this life, I've cleared a lot of questions reading through these kind of sites... like a sort of CLICK! feeling when a puzzle piece falls into its place. But still I feel like I'm wasting my time with this life...no purpose whatsoever. Like a total waste of life energy. And it bugs me a lot. What's the point in that?
This is the first thread that I found on the net that isn't filled with people who are astral traveling, getting answers through their meditations, having out of body experiences, meeting their higher-selves, lucid dreaming etc. Though I meditate once in a while, I've never had anything of the sort. That bugs me too.
Mostly all of my discoveries come from me reading a lot, thinking a lot and some kind of deep inner feeling of what is wright or wrong, call it intuition.
Since forever I've been spending most of my time alone with my thoughts. Always hoping to meet a person whom I could share these thoughts and get new ideas from as well. Wish I could meet all of you in person! :)
Time may be speeding up... but I'm still incredibly bored... I never understood those highly motivated people for success, being popular, bigger houses, cars or whatever. I used to think that traveling would really impress me, and even though I 've never realized that dream, that wish is fading, like everything else in life it has lost its appeal. Unfortunately, as days go by, my interests are narrowing. Reading used to be my drug... now I'm only reading materials about awakenings, meditations, conspiracies and such. And that is starting to fade.

A totally new stimulus, new ideas, NEW REALITY is needed...as a poster mentioned - this is starting to feel all kindergarten-ish.
Feeling like I'm already in my seat (in the bus), waiting for it to leave... and, gosh...I'm sick of waiting.

[waterpistol]

Wow!
Finally found people that are feeling almost exactly as me. What a relief!
I've been uninterested in mundane stuff most of my life. It's been maybe a year or so that I've found out all the awakening stories on the net and though I knew something wasn't right with this life, I've cleared a lot of questions reading through these kind of sites... like a sort of CLICK! feeling when a puzzle piece falls into its place. But still I feel like I'm wasting my time with this life...no purpose whatsoever. Like a total waste of life energy. And it bugs me a lot. What's the point in that?
This is the first thread that I found on the net that isn't filled with people who are astral traveling, getting answers through their meditations, having out of body experiences, meeting their higher-selves, lucid dreaming etc. Though I meditate once in a while, I've never had anything of the sort. That bugs me too.
Mostly all of my discoveries come from me reading a lot, thinking a lot and some kind of deep inner feeling of what is wright or wrong, call it intuition.
Since forever I've been spending most of my time alone with my thoughts. Always hoping to meet a person whom I could share these thoughts and get new ideas from as well. Wish I could meet all of you in person! :)
Time may be speeding up... but I'm still incredibly bored... I never understood those highly motivated people for success, being popular, bigger houses, cars or whatever. I used to think that traveling would really impress me, and even though I 've never realized that dream, that wish is fading, like everything else in life it has lost its appeal. Unfortunately, as days go by, my interests are narrowing. Reading used to be my drug... now I'm only reading materials about awakenings, meditations, conspiracies and such. And that is starting to fade.

A totally new stimulus, new ideas, NEW REALITY is needed...as a poster mentioned - this is starting to feel all kindergarten-ish.
Feeling like I'm already in my seat (in the bus), waiting for it to leave... and, gosh...I'm sick of waiting.

be the driver!

i think boredom is a chronic condition where we are relying too much on mental stimulus, trust those gut feelings, keep reading the books, but look at the life all around you for the guidance and direction you desire!

there is no bus...

a good book for you would be paulo cuelho's 'the alchemist' there are lessons in synchronicity all around us in the present day... remember that the person you meet in the street could be as switched on as you are, try not to put 'people in boxes', value the potential they can have in your life...

ok mate, chin up!

[evenus_cinatus]

Your on the bus waiting for it to leave.....
Damn! That's right I'm the driver! What am I doing in the passenger seat?

[hurr]

Hello everyone, my name's Bill and I just registered to the forums! I just wanted to bring up something I've been going through to see if anyone else is experiencing the same thing. Since around Feb. or March I've been displaying symptoms of what typically indicates depression, but the weird thing is I don't really feel depressed at all. Feelings such as boredom, lack of interest in once-enjoyable activities, not really caring what tomorrow brings...stuff like that. But I don't feel sad or want to kill myself or anything, I just feel like I want more than what this world could possibly offer. Almost like I'm stranded here on this planet and I'm limited by a small number of senses. I feel like this body and my limited perception is making me feel constricted which makes me feel bored in a way. I want to experience dozens of different new senses and do things i can only do in my imagination because everything on earth just seems so bland. Maybe I'm just going through a transformation period in my life? Maybe I'm actually depressed (although hard for me to believe!)? But I was also thinking that maybe if this 2012 thing is actually gonna happen maybe my mind is just waking up and preparing me for what's to come? Any ideas or inputs?

Have you seen the film 'Young Frankenstein'? Igor dropped the brain that his master wanted and took a different one. It was labeled, "Do Not Use This Brain! Abnormal" '
Mine certainly has that label.