anyone else at this point?

[sarrin]

I really cant quite put my finger on it, I have been looking into the how the world really works since about september last year when I read one of ralph A Epperson books "The Unseen hand" It was just about the time the recession hit here in the uk. Until that point I had never seriously read a book before and now it seems like iam on an unstoppable quest for knowledge about everything. A sudden dissatifaction of the system came over me it was like a light bulb turning on now i need the truth.

I Havent turned the tv on in my room for a month now, I just cant trust the news anymore, I feel like i have got a whole new out look on the world i cant really explain its so strange, When iam at work and out and about I just cant help thinking how trivial everything is; people just working all their lifes just to get shiney materials things that dont matter, working just to get meaninless figures in a meaningless bank account in cyber space. I feel so unbelievably TRAPPED, SMOTHERED, STRANGLED by "the system" why is it like this? dont humans have a meaningful purpose? theres no meaning in slavery to sterling.

I used to have this set idea of what and where i would like to be by the time i was say 30, 35, 40. house, nice car, buisness of my own and now iam not looking to the future, i cant seem to picture my self there. I have lost my tunnel vision on my future, i dont know where iam going, what iam doing, where iam going to be in 20 years time, just who am i? I feel like mabey I have lost a bit of my identity but iam more aware of things.. I can just see people that are stuck in that rut "the matrix".. part of me feels bad for them their daily lives taken up by celebrity gossip, the news and mabey a bit of false hope for the future chucked in for good measure. Some people just are not ready to here the truth, some wont accept the truth, they dont want to hear it. I belive that people have to find out for themselves otherwise they wont accpet it as real.

Now it i go to a GP and tell them things like this they will throw pills at me :D proberly tell me iam depressed but its not like that. I feel sort of like an on looker to a game being played out.... still in the game but not playing it; very hard to describe.

sorry for any spelling mistakes

[biblegirl]

I really cant quite put my finger on it, I have been looking into the how the world really works since about september last year when I read one of ralph A Epperson books "The Unseen hand" It was just about the time the recession hit here in the uk. Until that point I had never seriously read a book before and now it seems like iam on an unstoppable quest for knowledge about everything. A sudden dissatifaction of the system came over me it was like a light bulb turning on now i need the truth.

I Havent turned the tv on in my room for a month now, I just cant trust the news anymore, I feel like i have got a whole new out look on the world i cant really explain its so strange, When iam at work and out and about I just cant help thinking how trivial everything is; people just working all their lifes just to get shiney materials things that dont matter, working just to get meaninless figures in a meaningless bank account in cyber space. I feel so unbelievably TRAPPED, SMOTHERED, STRANGLED by "the system" why is it like this? dont humans have a meaningful purpose? theres no meaning in slavery to sterling.

I used to have this set idea of what and where i would like to be by the time i was say 30, 35, 40. house, nice car, buisness of my own and now iam not looking to the future, i cant seem to picture my self there. I have lost my tunnel vision on my future, i dont know where iam going, what iam doing, where iam going to be in 20 years time, just who am i? I feel like mabey I have lost a bit of my identity but iam more aware of things.. I can just see people that are stuck in that rut "the matrix".. part of me feels bad for them their daily lives taken up by celebrity gossip, the news and mabey a bit of false hope for the future chucked in for good measure. Some people just are not ready to here the truth, some wont accept the truth, they dont want to hear it. I belive that people have to find out for themselves otherwise they wont accpet it as real.

Now it i go to a GP and tell them things like this they will throw pills at me :D proberly tell me iam depressed but its not like that. I feel sort of like an on looker to a game being played out.... still in the game but not playing it; very hard to describe.

sorry for any spelling mistakes

i totally understand what you mean, the highlighted part says it all lol!!

i will say this, that the more i learned about the nature of reality, the more empowering it was, and the less i felt trapped by the system :)

[whitelightrabbit]

here's my two bits:
it's a turning point!
let go of your old ideals that don't serve you anymore, and focus on the positive. take care of yourself and work on spiritual wellness, which is basically being happy. remember 'infinite love is the only truth!'

ps, dont go to the GP!

[hollo]

yes waking up is so empowering :)

a lot of ppl are going through the same things
money is just paper - possessions can weigh you down (sometimes!)
and you dont need money to be alive (its just shown that way in the media!)

have you seen - everything is ok 1 - 7? i would recommend it :D

[mrmoney]

I've been awake for about 2 and a half years, and yes, it is very worrisome in the first year and a bit. You often feel secluded, lost, with no where to go. But, for me at least, it gets a lot better after the first year. Suddenly you start to feel empowered and able to communicate your feelings to other people in a sane way without sounding insane or secluded.

[cookie_dude]

It can be hard at times, stay strong and go with the flow.

I got really scared and paranoid at time during my awakening mainly to do with the 2012 stuff. I went to the doc who sent me to the local nutter center.
I told them all about 2012 etc, and on my second visit the lady I spoke with told me they had all had to have a meeting regarding 2012:eek: She seemed more worried than me.:D
They told me I was fine and that I was suppressing my creativity. I started to learn to play the Ukulele and started to paint again. I now feel great.

It can be hard if you have no one to talk to about all this crazy stuff, luckily my wife was really great. Remember there is always someone here on the forum you can talk to. :)

[lady_oblivion]

You do become an obsever looking inwards but still having to deal with it. Try and lift your mood in anyway possible. A friend of mone is having problems atm as have just guided her and shes had a full realisation and now feels rather lost, so i've been working very closly with her to make sure she feels better about herself. I think myself i've just gotten used to the feeling LOL

[sarrin]

The thing thats really getting me, is that the what the establishment says goes, alot of people trust this established and nothings real until confirmed by the establishment. Its a huge amount of power to wield.

Thanks for the replies by the way. :D

[size_of_light]

I really cant quite put my finger on it, I have been looking into the how the world really works since about september last year when I read one of ralph A Epperson books "The Unseen hand" It was just about the time the recession hit here in the uk. Until that point I had never seriously read a book before and now it seems like iam on an unstoppable quest for knowledge about everything. A sudden dissatifaction of the system came over me it was like a light bulb turning on now i need the truth.

I Havent turned the tv on in my room for a month now, I just cant trust the news anymore, I feel like i have got a whole new out look on the world i cant really explain its so strange, When iam at work and out and about I just cant help thinking how trivial everything is; people just working all their lifes just to get shiney materials things that dont matter, working just to get meaninless figures in a meaningless bank account in cyber space. I feel so unbelievably TRAPPED, SMOTHERED, STRANGLED by "the system" why is it like this? dont humans have a meaningful purpose? theres no meaning in slavery to sterling.

I used to have this set idea of what and where i would like to be by the time i was say 30, 35, 40. house, nice car, buisness of my own and now iam not looking to the future, i cant seem to picture my self there. I have lost my tunnel vision on my future, i dont know where iam going, what iam doing, where iam going to be in 20 years time, just who am i? I feel like mabey I have lost a bit of my identity but iam more aware of things.. I can just see people that are stuck in that rut "the matrix".. part of me feels bad for them their daily lives taken up by celebrity gossip, the news and mabey a bit of false hope for the future chucked in for good measure. Some people just are not ready to here the truth, some wont accept the truth, they dont want to hear it. I belive that people have to find out for themselves otherwise they wont accpet it as real.

Now it i go to a GP and tell them things like this they will throw pills at me :D proberly tell me iam depressed but its not like that. I feel sort of like an on looker to a game being played out.... still in the game but not playing it; very hard to describe.

sorry for any spelling mistakes

It can be a bittersweet thing because you experience both joy and sadness.

If you don't understand what's happening, the sadness can get misinterpreted as depression and lead you astray again in search of distractions to cover up that pain, when in reality all that's really happening is that you're experiencing a short, necessary grieving process to let go of attachments to things that you previously thought had meaning but that you now realise don't.

It's very freeing and the price for that ultimate freedom is some temporary discomfort, but don't ever let that deter you from the wonderful path of self-happiness that you're now on.

[xpleet]

It appears that this is a turning point at which people have to start learning to completly let go of all forms of physical attachment.
We can commence this process by realizing that they (physical attachments) create a major portion of our suffering.

It shall be a slow, gradual detox, and even dropping one's own cravings for tasty food and drinks and shifting to an inexpensive, beneficial diet can be a liberating experience.


For many psychics, intuitives and energy sensitives it is getting very clear now that we will not be inhabiting Earth for much longer, especially because of this, it is crucial to prepare, mostly mentally and spiritually.

Yoda once said,

"Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose."

Nothing could be closer to the truth. Letting go is not about losing, it's about liberation.

[nectars]

I agree with xpleet, though consider looking into "Power vs Force" by David R.Hawkins and also Lester Levenson. You may find them quite interesting :cool:

[farros]

here's my two bits:
it's a turning point!
let go of your old ideals that don't serve you anymore, and focus on the positive. take care of yourself and work on spiritual wellness, which is basically being happy. remember 'infinite love is the only truth!'

ps, dont go to the GP!

Great advice.

Its not like everything is doom and gloom... just cos people like Icke are saying everything in mainstream media is not to be trusted doesnt make it so.

the elite can try and keep us supressed with x-factor and celeb gossip, but if we search for more a more meaningful life we can ignore the crap and focus on who and what we want to be.

The people who care about this kind of thing are perhaps not ready to wake up. I know that sounds arrogant but people arent interested in things if it doesnt resonate with them. They "will find it when theyre ready"

External factors cannot pierce the spirit, and thats all the elite have, external tools. Be in it, not of it.

excersise is good for if ur feeling down.

[size_of_light]

It appears that this is a turning point at which people have to start learning to completly let go of all forms of physical attachment.
We can commence this process by realizing that they (physical attachments) create a major portion of our suffering.

It shall be a slow, gradual detox, and even dropping one's own cravings for tasty food and drinks and shifting to an inexpensive, beneficial diet can be a liberating experience.


For many psychics, intuitives and energy sensitives it is getting very clear now that we will not be inhabiting Earth for much longer, especially because of this, it is crucial to prepare, mostly mentally and spiritually.

Yoda once said,

"Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose."

Nothing could be closer to the truth. Letting go is not about losing, it's about liberation.

Great advice...from you and the little green man.

[choice]

Now it i go to a GP and tell them things like this they will throw pills at me :D proberly tell me iam depressed but its not like that. I feel sort of like an on looker to a game being played out.... still in the game but not playing it; very hard to describe.


I use to say: look at life like a chess game. And the more distant u get from it, the better u see the game.

Just observe.

[3_3_3]

its a spiritual awakening. your realising who you really are and not who you thought you where. once you know yourself you will know others also. its is confusing at first for everybody i think. not so much an identity crisis but more of an identity boost. i bet theres tons of people on this forum who have gone through almost the exact same thing and all will be better off for it. i get the feeling its happening to thousands of people across the world right now. its one thing alot of us have in common.

[relax]

its a spiritual awakening. your realising who you really are and not who you thought you where. once you know yourself you will know others also. its is confusing at first for everybody i think. not so much an identity crisis but more of an identity boost. i bet theres tons of people on this forum who have gone through almost the exact same thing and all will be better off for it. i get the feeling its happening to thousands of people across the world right now. its one thing alot of us have in common.

Absolutely.

Boy would I like some 'awakened' companions or even people on there way, people that I can connect with on that level, that arnt restraining but enhancing. Its only going to speed up so I (and maybe others) wont have this problem soon. :)

[januspolanski]

Yoda once said,

"Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose."

Nothing could be closer to the truth. Letting go is not about losing, it's about liberation.

"You must unlearn what you have learned"

[biblegirl]

its a spiritual awakening. your realising who you really are and not who you thought you where. once you know yourself you will know others also. its is confusing at first for everybody i think. not so much an identity crisis but more of an identity boost. i bet theres tons of people on this forum who have gone through almost the exact same thing and all will be better off for it. i get the feeling its happening to thousands of people across the world right now. its one thing alot of us have in common.

great post, sums it up quite nicely :)

[wakeuptime]

My waking up has been something of a roller coaster ride. I felt empowered when I started discovering the truth and better each day during the process. Now I've reached the point of loss, where I'm letting go of the former me, I guess, and becoming this new person. Sometimes I miss the old life and the old me just because I was used to them, had them around for a long time. But the new way is so much more joyful, liberating, genuine, thrilling that most of the time I feel great about it.

It is a change though. I can definately relate to what you wrote.

[ryanhodgson]

Been there, done that! Yes, what you are going thru is normal. The best is yet to come....just keep reading and learning and learning and learning about yourself and "reality".