william_mac
12-08-2007, 03:05 AM
Hello,
I've apologized in person to my offline friends, so I might as well do it here on the David Icke forums where I've been rather harsh and incredibly rude concerning two specific threads labled "speaking in tongues" and "whites have becomes the minority in the US".
I apologize for being a jackass, and I hope I caused no hurt feelings.
Why have I been a jackass? Well... I'll tell you. Here is what has been going on with me: I'm currently working very hard in collaboration with a fellow named Daniel Homrich of The Passport (www.ThePassport.org) trying to get funding for a new trip to the Phillippines and Nepal in order to document child sex trafficking, and perhaps to Amsterdam. This has been sucking a lot of energy from me. In addition, I've been interviewing former sex slaves (children, all of them) that were trafficked here mostly from Mexico to Atlanta. It's been absolutely heart breaking, especially since local police has been some of their highest paying customers (the kids don't get the money). So, that has been one reason why my spirits have been low.
In addition, I've also been interviewing in preperation for a new documentary (even though I have several more I will be doing in between) for a few months from now about black and latino minorities in Georgia being fucked over by the police on so many accounts. The more I've done research and interviewed for this piece, the more sad I've gotten. I've uncovered that the police are arresting for these people and then selling the prison labor to companies for free labor. In fact, one man told me that he couldn't get a tatoo because that was considered defiling "state and federal property". Most of these men and women were caught up in a whirlwind, and it was not their choice, and some of them were never even convicted... bah.
Also, I've been having to deal with police (as has Daniel Homrich) and we've been receiving threats, which is common, but it's beginning to scare me. Tomorrow I will be interviewing a 2006 Independent candidate for Georgia Governor who was tortured for speaking the truth by local officials, and that is something else that has been taking my time.
I've only been able to get 2 to 3 hours of sleep per night the last two weeks, and have been taking Adderall in order to stay up.
In addition to all of these things that I am not getting paid for, and am doing as a personal labor of love, I also freelance 50 to 100 technical articles a week in order to pay the bills, but the people I am writing for have been stiffing me, and I'm getting poorer by the minute, and I can't even afford to drive to the corner and buy any alcohol that would make me feel better, ya dig? I mean, I'd hang myself if I could afford a length of rope, it's that bad.
In addition to that I'm on staff with a music magazine called SIR magazine and I have a huge feature 3 days past due that I was supposed to write with Shop Boyz who did the hit single "Party Like a RockStar" and is one of the most famous hip-hop groups in the SouthEast, and their PR guy is screwing me over, and so is the magazine, and I'm getting flack from both sides.
Why as this caused me to act like a jackass? Because when you're spending so much time in the grimey, slutty, underbelly of life around constant pain and grueling conspiracy you start to loose your happiness, innocence, optimism and patience. I will literally see someone walking down the street whistling with a happy refraing and want to shake him and say "DON'T YOU KNOW WHAT IN THE FUCK IS GOING ON IN THE WORLD!!" and make him feel as sad as I do, and as frustrated as I am. That's what happens, you start to get angry at optimistic and light hearted people, and you want them to feel like you do, and that is wrong.
When I was called a racist I got so angry that I just bursted out into cussing and tyrannical rants. Only because I have been so much work for these minorities and have become such friends with them, and it is so contrary to my nature that I considered it such a huge insult that I just blew up, I literally wanted to smash something...anything. Good thing no one was actually aroud.
But, I got some sleep last night, I turned my brain off today, and I've been relaxing and I feel better. I ate a nice hot meal (I've only been eating soup or a piece of toast and jelly every day the last 2 weeks because I'm too busy to eat). I've been reminding myself about my past, and the good times I used to have. I've been reminding myself about the things I love about America.
For example, I have an old record player and quite a lot of vinyls, and I've been playing old classic jazz and blues today that remind me of my time spent in New Orleans before the Hurricane Sisters raped the Big Easy right out of our beloved Crescent City, but it also reminds me of beautiful Savannah, Georgia as well.
I'm no better, nor any worse than anyone. So, I apologize and I won't let those verbal assalts escape from my finger tips on this forum again. I don't have a right to.
-William
www.William-Mac.com
I've apologized in person to my offline friends, so I might as well do it here on the David Icke forums where I've been rather harsh and incredibly rude concerning two specific threads labled "speaking in tongues" and "whites have becomes the minority in the US".
I apologize for being a jackass, and I hope I caused no hurt feelings.
Why have I been a jackass? Well... I'll tell you. Here is what has been going on with me: I'm currently working very hard in collaboration with a fellow named Daniel Homrich of The Passport (www.ThePassport.org) trying to get funding for a new trip to the Phillippines and Nepal in order to document child sex trafficking, and perhaps to Amsterdam. This has been sucking a lot of energy from me. In addition, I've been interviewing former sex slaves (children, all of them) that were trafficked here mostly from Mexico to Atlanta. It's been absolutely heart breaking, especially since local police has been some of their highest paying customers (the kids don't get the money). So, that has been one reason why my spirits have been low.
In addition, I've also been interviewing in preperation for a new documentary (even though I have several more I will be doing in between) for a few months from now about black and latino minorities in Georgia being fucked over by the police on so many accounts. The more I've done research and interviewed for this piece, the more sad I've gotten. I've uncovered that the police are arresting for these people and then selling the prison labor to companies for free labor. In fact, one man told me that he couldn't get a tatoo because that was considered defiling "state and federal property". Most of these men and women were caught up in a whirlwind, and it was not their choice, and some of them were never even convicted... bah.
Also, I've been having to deal with police (as has Daniel Homrich) and we've been receiving threats, which is common, but it's beginning to scare me. Tomorrow I will be interviewing a 2006 Independent candidate for Georgia Governor who was tortured for speaking the truth by local officials, and that is something else that has been taking my time.
I've only been able to get 2 to 3 hours of sleep per night the last two weeks, and have been taking Adderall in order to stay up.
In addition to all of these things that I am not getting paid for, and am doing as a personal labor of love, I also freelance 50 to 100 technical articles a week in order to pay the bills, but the people I am writing for have been stiffing me, and I'm getting poorer by the minute, and I can't even afford to drive to the corner and buy any alcohol that would make me feel better, ya dig? I mean, I'd hang myself if I could afford a length of rope, it's that bad.
In addition to that I'm on staff with a music magazine called SIR magazine and I have a huge feature 3 days past due that I was supposed to write with Shop Boyz who did the hit single "Party Like a RockStar" and is one of the most famous hip-hop groups in the SouthEast, and their PR guy is screwing me over, and so is the magazine, and I'm getting flack from both sides.
Why as this caused me to act like a jackass? Because when you're spending so much time in the grimey, slutty, underbelly of life around constant pain and grueling conspiracy you start to loose your happiness, innocence, optimism and patience. I will literally see someone walking down the street whistling with a happy refraing and want to shake him and say "DON'T YOU KNOW WHAT IN THE FUCK IS GOING ON IN THE WORLD!!" and make him feel as sad as I do, and as frustrated as I am. That's what happens, you start to get angry at optimistic and light hearted people, and you want them to feel like you do, and that is wrong.
When I was called a racist I got so angry that I just bursted out into cussing and tyrannical rants. Only because I have been so much work for these minorities and have become such friends with them, and it is so contrary to my nature that I considered it such a huge insult that I just blew up, I literally wanted to smash something...anything. Good thing no one was actually aroud.
But, I got some sleep last night, I turned my brain off today, and I've been relaxing and I feel better. I ate a nice hot meal (I've only been eating soup or a piece of toast and jelly every day the last 2 weeks because I'm too busy to eat). I've been reminding myself about my past, and the good times I used to have. I've been reminding myself about the things I love about America.
For example, I have an old record player and quite a lot of vinyls, and I've been playing old classic jazz and blues today that remind me of my time spent in New Orleans before the Hurricane Sisters raped the Big Easy right out of our beloved Crescent City, but it also reminds me of beautiful Savannah, Georgia as well.
I'm no better, nor any worse than anyone. So, I apologize and I won't let those verbal assalts escape from my finger tips on this forum again. I don't have a right to.
-William
www.William-Mac.com