Back to work!

[tell me again]

I was laid off last September and not a moment to soon. Things at work had taken a wrong turn and I was so stressed one of my friends described me as 'shot out'.

I searched my mind very hard for months on what my next move should be and not coming up with any answers, I dug deeper and ended up with David's last book and then this forum. After about 7 months of exploring the topics on this site, watching Nassim and Buce Lipton's videos... I have changed so much that I'm not exactly the same person anymore.

I have been called back to work and start tomorrow. Eclipse day! It is a small painting company that paints most of the apartments in town during the month that the college students are home for summer break. It's a brutal job, 7 long days a week for a few weeks. The painters that do this every year talk about how time becomes compressed during this time. I have experienced it myself. It's like everyone else not involved in this is moving in slow motion. We even call this time of year "rush". Another term we use is "the fear" to describe that feeling of a huge wave crashing over you as you realize the monumental task ahead of you.

My question is what techniques can I use to keep from moving into that lower density of being?

I am concerned that I will become trapped in the box again.

I love my new 'enlightened' life. I garden and meditate. I've started doing my artwork after 10 years of having no inspiration. My relationships are healthier and I'm by far happier than I was a year ago.

Any advice on how to mentally prepare would be a big help.

[belfast atheist]

yeah,get a job with royal mail for a few months then you will be able to love painting.

[tell me again]

Oh, I love painting! Always have. I studied biotechnology in college and then hated the lab and ended up painting houses. I'm just getting a little old for it now. Nothing like seeing a middle aged lady up on a 24 foot ladder. :D

It's the amount of hours that get you. Last year I had one week with 70+ hours. It's crazy! It's the same crowd every year. I think I will feel better about it when I find out what crew I'm going to be with. I'm already having trouble remembering the past,(trouble with memories popping up) especially last year when things went very, very wrong. The novelty of pushing myself psychically and mentally to the breaking point has worn off and now I have less than 24 hours to get my head right.

Another problem with doing this job is that I start to feel like I'm under surveillance. Between being joined at the hip with your crew, I come home and have my husband watching over me at night. I end up not not having any free time at all and that is one of the things that stresses me out.

[les_paul_robot]

If I get a job interview I'm gonna ask if I can work a 4 day week.
I don't know what can help you cope with the theft of all your time. Carry some orgonite?

[tell me again]

If I get a job interview I'm gonna ask if I can work a 4 day week.
I don't know what can help you cope with the theft of all your time. Carry some orgonite?

Theft of all my time is right.

I'm going to try and see myself as the observer as much as possible. Also, I've thought of carrying a token of sorts in my pocket to remind me to lighten up.

I'm really going to miss this board! Anders Lindman? is that right? His ideas on the nature of reality have been so helpful. I'm going to try and remember his positive thinking post from last week.

Okay, I have 1 1/2 hours of free time left. Off to my magic carpet in the garden to see what a little meditation might reveal about this situation.

[tell me again]

The only thing I saw was the letter "E" in the tree bark. Does that mean anything?

I'm already feeling completely manic and my mind is racing a zillion miles an hour.

The actual act of painting usually calms me. Seeing how much you can change some apartment that's been trashed by some frat boys.

I'm out of here for now. I'll check back when I can.

[unusual_suspect]

If I get a job interview I'm gonna ask if I can work a 4 day week.
I don't know what can help you cope with the theft of all your time. Carry some orgonite?

I have ongoing bread and butter type content management work for 3 days a week, the pay isn't great due to recession and it's not my favourite but it's better than the 40+hours a week slog that I was doing, and with the rest of the time I am trying to branch out in to another area.

The thing that I find is getting in the way is family, I know it sounds horrible, but my other halfs mum is coming next week and his sister is coming this week, so I am having to do extra work for this company this week with little time for my side project that is more enjoyable and will potentially earn me more money.

Maybe it's the PMS, but I have had a serious illness that prompted this rethink in my work and I feel that once again I am being sucked dry, but this time it's my loved ones! My son is on his Summer holidays now, so there is the guilt about working, I am feeling under pressure to get my side project up and going plus I'm having to entertain guests that aren't even my family! To top it all off I'm having my uretal stent removed next Tuesday, which is good, but again it's another day wasted.

I feel really bad, but I just wish I could be a workaholic at the moment and get my side project together without having other people to consider, it will benefit them once I'm making money anyway, meanwhile I kinda wish they would bugger off cause each time they talk to me or ask me something it's more bloody stress!

[tell me again]

I know what you mean. I would benefit much more by part time work but it's so hard to find that sort of situation.

Our newspaper hasn't had anything worth applying for and I think it's because if you post an opening in the paper, several thousand people would show up.

I also get frustrated by questions at times, especially in the morning.

I'm already feeling manic and depressed at the same time. So much to do today just to get ready to slave away. I've got to get a better attitude about this. I was so worked up earlier that I puked. :eek:

7 months of meditation and study undone by one phone call. I'm a mental midget.

[unusual_suspect]

I know what you mean. I would benefit much more by part time work but it's so hard to find that sort of situation.

Our newspaper hasn't had anything worth applying for and I think it's because if you post an opening in the paper, several thousand people would show up.

I also get frustrated by questions at times, especially in the morning.

I'm already feeling manic and depressed at the same time. So much to do today just to get ready to slave away. I've got to get a better attitude about this. I was so worked up earlier that I puked. :eek:

7 months of meditation and study undone by one phone call. I'm a mental midget.

Yeah, but spirituality isn't all about burning some jossticks and meditating and removing yourself from real life. Maybe this is a challenge you need to face for your own development?

Can you do web stuff or write? I work remotely and have done so for a while now, there are still many business opportunities on the internet, maybe you could apply your creativity to web design or something?

Start an ebay business? There are loads of options but they all take time and effort.

I know what you mean though, I am starting to feel very pressured again, but I am sending you good vibes and I where there is a will there is a way!

[jammasterj13]

I was laid off last September and not a moment to soon. Things at work had taken a wrong turn and I was so stressed one of my friends described me as 'shot out'.

I searched my mind very hard for months on what my next move should be and not coming up with any answers, I dug deeper and ended up with David's last book and then this forum. After about 7 months of exploring the topics on this site, watching Nassim and Buce Lipton's videos... I have changed so much that I'm not exactly the same person anymore.

I have been called back to work and start tomorrow. Eclipse day! It is a small painting company that paints most of the apartments in town during the month that the college students are home for summer break. It's a brutal job, 7 long days a week for a few weeks. The painters that do this every year talk about how time becomes compressed during this time. I have experienced it myself. It's like everyone else not involved in this is moving in slow motion. We even call this time of year "rush". Another term we use is "the fear" to describe that feeling of a huge wave crashing over you as you realize the monumental task ahead of you.

My question is what techniques can I use to keep from moving into that lower density of being?

I am concerned that I will become trapped in the box again.

I love my new 'enlightened' life. I garden and meditate. I've started doing my artwork after 10 years of having no inspiration. My relationships are healthier and I'm by far happier than I was a year ago.

Any advice on how to mentally prepare would be a big help.
Try EFT(Emotional Freedom Technique).

www.emofree.com

http://eftcommunity.emofree.com/forums/

As a regular meditator myself I sympathise with you. Maybe throw some visualisation exercises in with the meditation?:)

[tell me again]

Yeah, but spirituality isn't all about burning some jossticks and meditating and removing yourself from real life. Maybe this is a challenge you need to face for your own development?

Can you do web stuff or write? I work remotely and have done so for a while now, there are still many business opportunities on the internet, maybe you could apply your creativity to web design or something?

Start an ebay business? There are loads of options but they all take time and effort.

I know what you mean though, I am starting to feel very pressured again, but I am sending you good vibes and I where there is a will there is a way!

This could be a helpful perspective. Trusting that I'm going back for a purpose. Working for this company was so important to me at one time. I had so much love for the people and the process.

I've already sold anything worth selling on ebay. Mailing the last of it today. I am a very good writer but it's hard to find any real offers of working from home that aren't scams.

Thanks for the good vibes. They are needed!

I'm going to check the emo site as soon as I post this.

[unusual_suspect]

This could be a helpful perspective. Trusting that I'm going back for a purpose. Working for this company was so important to me at one time. I had so much love for the people and the process.

I've already sold anything worth selling on ebay. Mailing the last of it today. I am a very good writer but it's hard to find any real offers of working from home that aren't scams.

Thanks for the good vibes. They are needed!

I'm going to check the emo site as soon as I post this.

I really hope you start feeling better, maybe this is something you have to go through, it might not be nice, but maybe there is a reason for it that will become clear further down the line.

[delamo1999]

I was laid off last September and not a moment to soon. Things at work had taken a wrong turn and I was so stressed one of my friends described me as 'shot out'.

I searched my mind very hard for months on what my next move should be and not coming up with any answers, I dug deeper and ended up with David's last book and then this forum. After about 7 months of exploring the topics on this site, watching Nassim and Buce Lipton's videos... I have changed so much that I'm not exactly the same person anymore.

I have been called back to work and start tomorrow. Eclipse day! It is a small painting company that paints most of the apartments in town during the month that the college students are home for summer break. It's a brutal job, 7 long days a week for a few weeks. The painters that do this every year talk about how time becomes compressed during this time. I have experienced it myself. It's like everyone else not involved in this is moving in slow motion. We even call this time of year "rush". Another term we use is "the fear" to describe that feeling of a huge wave crashing over you as you realize the monumental task ahead of you.

My question is what techniques can I use to keep from moving into that lower density of being?

I am concerned that I will become trapped in the box again.

I love my new 'enlightened' life. I garden and meditate. I've started doing my artwork after 10 years of having no inspiration. My relationships are healthier and I'm by far happier than I was a year ago.

Any advice on how to mentally prepare would be a big help.


I don't know man, but if I were in your shoes, I would feel a lot of gratitude about being called back to work. I too have been laid off as long as you and right now my UI is running low. Not to mentions that each day I check out the job boards to find that there is really nothing for me to apply for. Sure part of this may feel that you are going back to the box, but all you have to do is center yourself and put up really strong boundaries to separate you from everyone elses stuff. And who knows maybe on some level this time just your presence is going to enlighten your coworkers.

Not to mention that it always feels good to get that paycheck.

Now I want you to stand up and smile at yourself as you have a lot to be proud of.

:)

[tell me again]

You ALL are right and I'm coming out of my pity party. I've cleaned up my wonder woman lunch box and I'm starting to even get a little excited. I think what helped most is believing that there's a reason behind this, and it does make me feel good that my painting skills are appreciated. The amount of energy and time it took to become a respected lady painter in this town....

Thanks for all the help. I think I'm okay now.

[unusual_suspect]

You ALL are right and I'm coming out of my pity party. I've cleaned up my wonder woman lunch box and I'm starting to even get a little excited. I think what helped most is believing that there's a reason behind this, and it does make me feel good that my painting skills are appreciated. The amount of energy and time it took to become a respected lady painter in this town....

Thanks for all the help. I think I'm okay now.

What sun sign are you tell me again?

[wake_up_bomb]

You ALL are right and I'm coming out of my pity party. I've cleaned up my wonder woman lunch box and I'm starting to even get a little excited. I think what helped most is believing that there's a reason behind this, and it does make me feel good that my painting skills are appreciated. The amount of energy and time it took to become a respected lady painter in this town....

Thanks for all the help. I think I'm okay now.
I think it's great that you're good at something productive, I have no practical skills whatsoever! I think we have a tendency, I know I do, of building things up in our minds to be far worse than they are. I used to dread going back to school after a holiday, and though I by no means enjoyed being at school, it was never as bad as I imagined once I got back there. I'm sure this is some sort of reptilian brain related survivial mechanism.

Anyway, the point is once you get going I'm sure you'll be fine, and what you're doing is definitely worthwhile.

[hunter77]

I was laid off last September and not a moment to soon. Things at work had taken a wrong turn and I was so stressed one of my friends described me as 'shot out'.

I searched my mind very hard for months on what my next move should be and not coming up with any answers, I dug deeper and ended up with David's last book and then this forum. After about 7 months of exploring the topics on this site, watching Nassim and Buce Lipton's videos... I have changed so much that I'm not exactly the same person anymore.

I have been called back to work and start tomorrow. Eclipse day! It is a small painting company that paints most of the apartments in town during the month that the college students are home for summer break. It's a brutal job, 7 long days a week for a few weeks. The painters that do this every year talk about how time becomes compressed during this time. I have experienced it myself. It's like everyone else not involved in this is moving in slow motion. We even call this time of year "rush". Another term we use is "the fear" to describe that feeling of a huge wave crashing over you as you realize the monumental task ahead of you.

My question is what techniques can I use to keep from moving into that lower density of being?

I am concerned that I will become trapped in the box again.

I love my new 'enlightened' life. I garden and meditate. I've started doing my artwork after 10 years of having no inspiration. My relationships are healthier and I'm by far happier than I was a year ago.

Any advice on how to mentally prepare would be a big help.

i used to work abroad for months at a time and the same happend to me , it dragged to be honest and i missed my family and friends. my advice to you is to have the best laugh you can with the people you are working with and when you do eventualy get some time off relax and do somthing you enjoy, for me its fishing but everyone has something they enjoy that makes there life feel better.
as for being trapped in a box ,the only box or prison is your mind or what you percive. so stay possitive as being negative attracts the negative focus on your art or new found happiness and this will carry you through. it works for me anyway. all the best:)

[polveirbecker]

Congratulations on getting back into work. Everyone got to make a living some way or another!

[white horse]

I have ongoing bread and butter type content management work for 3 days a week, the pay isn't great due to recession and it's not my favourite but it's better than the 40+hours a week slog that I was doing, and with the rest of the time I am trying to branch out in to another area.

The thing that I find is getting in the way is family, I know it sounds horrible, but my other halfs mum is coming next week and his sister is coming this week, so I am having to do extra work for this company this week with little time for my side project that is more enjoyable and will potentially earn me more money.

Maybe it's the PMS, but I have had a serious illness that prompted this rethink in my work and I feel that once again I am being sucked dry, but this time it's my loved ones! My son is on his Summer holidays now, so there is the guilt about working, I am feeling under pressure to get my side project up and going plus I'm having to entertain guests that aren't even my family! To top it all off I'm having my uretal stent removed next Tuesday, which is good, but again it's another day wasted.

I feel really bad, but I just wish I could be a workaholic at the moment and get my side project together without having other people to consider, it will benefit them once I'm making money anyway, meanwhile I kinda wish they would bugger off cause each time they talk to me or ask me something it's more bloody stress!

Fuck man - I work a 40hr week just to keep this boat afloat... it's a fucking drag and I'm always tired and have so little time to do other things...

Like become a writer... *dream*... :p

[enga]

I know what you mean. I would benefit much more by part time work but it's so hard to find that sort of situation.

Our newspaper hasn't had anything worth applying for and I think it's because if you post an opening in the paper, several thousand people would show up.

I also get frustrated by questions at times, especially in the morning.

I'm already feeling manic and depressed at the same time. So much to do today just to get ready to slave away. I've got to get a better attitude about this. I was so worked up earlier that I puked. :eek:

7 months of meditation and study undone by one phone call. I'm a mental midget.

Some things that help me get through it are:
Knowing a favourite tv show that is on weekly will be there (something really good)...I know it's only 2 days away...1 day away ....tonight...I count it down and it helps me feel better.
Having an mp3 player or similar to listen to something while you work or on your breaks...maybe some relaxing music.
Taking something really great to eat with you to look forward to.
Working in the knowledge that none of it's real and it doesn't matter anyhow but in a kind of Zen like way (almost autopilot like)- doing it for God if you are a believer.
Break down big tasks into mentally smaller sections and tick them off as you go.....4 down 2 to go type thing.
Enjoying the company of others with you - where possible.
Booking your work holidays in advance and keeping track of how long it is til you have time off...gets better as time gets nearer.

[tell me again]

What sun sign are you tell me again?

Unusual suspect, I'm a Virgo. Libra ascending.

Lots of good suggestions here. I'm having a little coffee, getting ready to go. I'm a lot calmer than I was before. I've focused (with reminders from some folks) on how lucky I am to have a job with the way things are.

Also, I dropped of my resume at the local video store yesterday and it looks like I might have a job there in a few weeks.

I've been reading Synchronicity: the bridge between matter and the mind It's not the easiest read, but I'm plowing through. The main thing that struck me was imagining a perfect symmetry arising from chaos. I been doing a lot of drawing lately and imagining this concept and how I will draw this concept should keep my mind busy.

Wake up bomb: I think you are spot on about my reaction being a reptilian response. (spot on! trying to sound British) I expect to have scales by the end of the day.:eek:

I also believe I'm going back for a purpose other than making some $.

Well, time to get ready. Thanks for the responses! You all really helped me turn my attitude around. Have a good eclipse day everyone!

[unusual_suspect]

Fuck man - I work a 40hr week just to keep this boat afloat... it's a fucking drag and I'm always tired and have so little time to do other things...

Like become a writer... *dream*... :p

Unusual suspect, I'm a Virgo. Libra ascending.

Lots of good suggestions here. I'm having a little coffee, getting ready to go. I'm a lot calmer than I was before. I've focused (with reminders from some folks) on how lucky I am to have a job with the way things are.

Also, I dropped of my resume at the local video store yesterday and it looks like I might have a job there in a few weeks.

I've been reading Synchronicity: the bridge between matter and the mind It's not the easiest read, but I'm plowing through. The main thing that struck me was imagining a perfect symmetry arising from chaos. I been doing a lot of drawing lately and imagining this concept and how I will draw this concept should keep my mind busy.

Wake up bomb: I think you are spot on about my reaction being a reptilian response. (spot on! trying to sound British) I expect to have scales by the end of the day.:eek:

I also believe I'm going back for a purpose other than making some $.

Well, time to get ready. Thanks for the responses! You all really helped me turn my attitude around. Have a good eclipse day everyone!

I'll PM you with a site for free birthcharts, you could have a look at it and see if it helps you to make sense of things, I find astrology quite useful for that sort of thing!

All the best with today. I used to work as a painter and decorator I loved it and I would love to do it again. I found that you can drift off when you are working, you might come up with some new creative ideas!

Best get on with work now!

[fairyelfdog]

Welcome :)

[tell me again]

I'll PM you with a site for free birthcharts, you could have a look at it and see if it helps you to make sense of things, I find astrology quite useful for that sort of thing!

All the best with today. I used to work as a painter and decorator I loved it and I would love to do it again. I found that you can drift off when you are working, you might come up with some new creative ideas!

Best get on with work now!

Day 2: Woke up with a headache this morning. My first day back was pretty good. Lots of people seemed really happy to see me, so that made me feel better. The crew I'm working with works way too close to get that drifting off feeling. I've worked with these two before. They like me because I already know the job. The crew leader is a total reptoid and the lady is a 12 stepper for 8 years now. She meditates and is very empathetic and easy to be with. So they even each other out.

I didn't find any bigger purpose for being there....yet. Could it just be the money? Wouldn't that be depressing?

I was able to stay positive almost all day and only caught myself thinking ugly thoughts when I was worn out and on the way home.

Gotta get ready and head out. I have to work everyday from now till August 18th. That's how they get you at this company. But it's how the company has existed for so long. The nature of painting in this town is very seasonal so they grab up everything they can and then a select few (used to be me) get to stay and paint the rest of the year.

Okay!! time to lighten up and hit the road. Thanks again for all the support.

[enga]

The crew leader is a total reptoid and the lady is a 12 stepper for 8 years now.


Haha...reptoid..there's always one
Glad it went well.

[unusual_suspect]

I was able to stay positive almost all day and only caught myself thinking ugly thoughts when I was worn out and on the way home.

.

That happened to me today when I was working on something boring.

Well done though, hope tomorrow goes well, you might not realise the bigger purpose, but there probably is one. All the best :)

[whitenight639]

Day 2: Woke up with a headache this morning. My first day back was pretty good. Lots of people seemed really happy to see me, so that made me feel better. The crew I'm working with works way too close to get that drifting off feeling. I've worked with these two before. They like me because I already know the job. The crew leader is a total reptoid and the lady is a 12 stepper for 8 years now. She meditates and is very empathetic and easy to be with. So they even each other out.

I didn't find any bigger purpose for being there....yet. Could it just be the money? Wouldn't that be depressing?

I was able to stay positive almost all day and only caught myself thinking ugly thoughts when I was worn out and on the way home.

Gotta get ready and head out. I have to work everyday from now till August 18th. That's how they get you at this company. But it's how the company has existed for so long. The nature of painting in this town is very seasonal so they grab up everything they can and then a select few (used to be me) get to stay and paint the rest of the year.

Okay!! time to lighten up and hit the road. Thanks again for all the support.


just get an Ipod n sing ur ass thru work! think about the money and how gud abit of hard graft is for you.
Play practical jokes on ur work mates n give em sum stick! you'll be finished before u can say paintbrush.

[cryst4l]

Day 2: Woke up with a headache this morning. My first day back was pretty good. Lots of people seemed really happy to see me, so that made me feel better. The crew I'm working with works way too close to get that drifting off feeling. I've worked with these two before. They like me because I already know the job. The crew leader is a total reptoid and the lady is a 12 stepper for 8 years now. She meditates and is very empathetic and easy to be with. So they even each other out.

I didn't find any bigger purpose for being there....yet. Could it just be the money? Wouldn't that be depressing?

I was able to stay positive almost all day and only caught myself thinking ugly thoughts when I was worn out and on the way home.

Gotta get ready and head out. I have to work everyday from now till August 18th. That's how they get you at this company. But it's how the company has existed for so long. The nature of painting in this town is very seasonal so they grab up everything they can and then a select few (used to be me) get to stay and paint the rest of the year.

Okay!! time to lighten up and hit the road. Thanks again for all the support.

Maybe your purpose was to align yourself with this lady, maybe she is a meditation partner for you and you will both bring each other further along your paths. Just a thought :)