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sheepy
09-05-2009, 03:46 PM
This is rather long so apologies in advance for the long read...

I (female) have a very good childhood friend (male) who is exceptionally intelligent, very well educated (holds a Ph.d from Oxbridge) and a published physicist (who I shall call J). In a word an intellectual. We grew up together and our families are close friends.

Over the years (I am now in my late 30s and he in his early forties; neither of us have ever been married) we have kept in touch mostly by mail or by phone (we live in different countries) and we occasionally visit each other a couple of times each year.

I have always admired his academic talent and his ability to "think outside of the box", to be cerebral about everything and to draw rational conclusions.

There were a few years (2003-2007) when we were not very much in contact but in 2008 we began communicating more frequently. In fact, since 2009 communication has been on a daily basis (several times per day).

In December 2008, while on a visit to the UK, J lent me a book entitled The Magick of Aleister Crowley which he insisted was a must read and to let him know my thoughts on the content. In addition to this he sent me by email a link to The Equinox http://www.the-equinox.org .

On my way home on the plane I began to read Crowley's Magick but no sooner as I had opened and read the first few pages that I started to have a very bad feeling about the book and my intuition told me that it was no accident that I had been given Crowley's book to read.

Upon my return home (from January 2009) J started writing daily and for a lack of a better word I shall describe it as evangelizing Thelemic Philosophy or Scientific Illumination. However, Crowley & Co did not sit well with me. And so, being the skeptical creature that I am I started to do my own research into Crowley, Thelema, Satanism, the Freemasons, the Illuminati, etc. My journey took me to many different sources and like many on here I was horrified to learn the truth about Crowley and all that is associated with him and the Illuminati.

Now what concerns me is that my friend, (who openly admits to being a Freemason, praying to the hierarchy, having met the Devil (who he describes as being terribly misunderstood by mankind and who is in fact rather a decent chap, etc) recently proposed to me (please note that our relationship is not a romantic one) promising a love which will last an eternity (this life and beyond) and the role of high-priestess should I accept to be his wife.

Since declining his outrageous proposal he has been routinely emailing, calling and texting me in a way which I can describe only as "ritualistic".

For example, every morning he sends me a text message wishing me a nice day and a hug. This is usually followed by a flurry of emails (sometimes up to 10 or 15) the content of which I would describe as inappropriate from preaching the Thelemic Way to discussing sex rituals and the like. Before bed-time he sends a good-night text and a hug. I have repeatedly asked him not to send me emails and text messages of this nature as I deem them to be both invasive and inappropriate, but to no avail.

In recent months the messages have become progressively worse. For example, he now sends me emails wherby he discusses openly masturbation and his sexual desires and subtely texts me to let me know that he is praying for me. Prayer is a synonym for masturbation. Hug is also a synonym for masturbation or sex. Female masturbation he refers to as hyg (notice the Y) and male masturbation as hig (notice the I).

There is much more I could share but my question is this: is this behaviour typical of witchcraft and if so could it be that he is trying or has cast a spell on me?

I ask because the first person I think of when I wake up is him and he is the last person on my mind when I fall asleep.

I should clarify two things:

1. that I have no romantic feelings for J and my intention within our relationship has always been clear; and

2. he repeatedly emphasises that sex is holy or a holy act

Any insight would be greatly appreciated!

*As an aside, I do not belong to any religion per se, but I have a very strong belief in God, in the existance of Good and Evil and the truimph of Good over Evil. I also strongly believe in the afterlife. The rest I believe will be revealed to me along life's journey.

**I am torn between either a) not having anything more to do with J or b) persuading him to leave the cult which he finds himself in.

I look forward to your thoughts and comments. :)

sheepy
09-05-2009, 03:50 PM
I forgot to mention that as a going away gift, J gave me some rose petal tea compressed into small hearts which I needless to say have not brewed. :eek: My intuition tells me that these too may be influenced by the magick of Crowley & Co.

armoured_amazon
09-05-2009, 04:05 PM
Ew, stay away from him. Regardless of magic, if he can't respect your wishes, you don't want to be involved with someone like that. I have a similar friend. Fortunately, we don't see each other very often and he is loved up. But he's too deep into his magick and freemasonry (family line) for me to waste energy trying to convince him to give up his position. So I don't.

sheepy
09-05-2009, 04:14 PM
Ew, stay away from him. Regardless of magic, if he can't respect your wishes, you don't want to be involved with someone like that. I have a similar friend. Fortunately, we don't see each other very often and he is loved up. But he's too deep into his magick and freemasonry (family line) for me to waste energy trying to convince him to give up his position. So I don't.

The irony is that if our families were not such good friends and we had not grown up together, I would normally think that this guy is a total creep! :eek: A little quirky perhaps but I know deep down that J is a very gentle, kind, caring and loving individual. Oh, the paradox! :(

armoured_amazon
09-05-2009, 04:19 PM
The irony is that if our families were not such good friends and we had not grown up together, I would normally think that this guy is a total creep! :eek: A little quirky perhaps but I know deep down that J is a very gentle, kind, caring and loving individual. Oh, the paradox! :(

It's a shame. :(

sheepy
09-05-2009, 04:24 PM
On the flip side, I have learnt a lot about Crowley & Co through him and I can attest that much of what is written / speculated here seems to be reasonably accurate.

mike martin
09-05-2009, 06:05 PM
I shall give you the insight of another self-declared Freemason.

Change your phone number and email address.

Freemason or not the bloke is an obvious perv. Bin him and close off all lines of cummunication, don't let some misplaced shared history let you remain a target for his frankly disgusting and stalkerish behaviour.

Mike

sheepy
09-05-2009, 07:16 PM
I agree Mike. I think it is time to sever all communication with him.