coming to terms with awakening....

[dark86]

I coming to terms with our race being run by satanists, and wooah its pretty hard to come to terms with.

4 months ago i read "living in a facist country" in the uk and i got so spun out by it i left my job of 10 years and £70k a year and got on a plane to spain. My thoughts where there is no way i am giving that government a penny more of my tax and also my corporate company made me feel like a slave/sheep and they had no morals. i want more from life than to hang out with middle class english ppl talking about materialism and tv all the time.

i have always been a big cynic and always asked questions, never conformed and recently I have been watching and reading lots about the Illuminati etc.

i am doing some meditation but am experiencing symptoms listed here:

http://www.whatsuponplanetearth.com/APsymptoms.htm

i am in a bit of a daze at present and am 33 year old english male.

i've yet to talk to friends or family about these beliefs - naturally.

kind regards and thx for any reply.

c

[freespark]

Hello dark..

Welcome to the forum and i hope you have a awesome journey. I am always very pleased to see posts like this because it lightens my spirits and gives me some much needed hope that people will wake up one day.

Onward and upward.

What you up to in Spain? I was also thinking of legging it myself to find a more simple way of living that doesn't invlove being chained to a desk and a bank loan the rest of my life. :D

[dark86]

eating tapas and getting burnt :-)

bus drivers smoking and on mobile phones - imagine that in police state UK- thats the death penalty back there.;)

[freespark]

eating tapas and getting burnt :-)

bus drivers smoking and on mobile phones - imagine that in police state UK- thats the death penalty back there.;)

It's funny how it hits home when you put it like that :)

[soglad]

To be honest I've always knew what society was about. I was born with a typical Virgo ability to see things how they are. Never cared much for signing myself up to establishments and having my whole being turned into a serial numbers. Jobs are just unnecessary detours of the human search for happiness and abundance, when these things are within one self, always. I try to explain why I (at present) refuse to get a "job" to my family and friends. Some of my friends understand me, and the law of attraction states, you bring circumstances and people into your life that vibrate with you, and all of my friends see the bullshit, even though they aren't aware of the Illuminati and all.

My Mother and her parents and other people continuously feed me the "everybody has to work" crapology, even though their life is a hamster cage of debt, meaningless being and manic depressive behavior, they are afraid to confront this "reality" and just pedal it more, hoping it will work for someone else. I will not sign myself up to this. The only "job" one really needs to do is make food and expand your awareness love, but a lot have people have been brainwashed to seek happiness outside of ourselves. Why ever, ever work in a factory that makes glue? Why work in an office that produces non-existent money and give it to people who then have to pay for the money they just created? Why, ever?

I was a bit lonely when ALL of the shit hit the fan. Lonely in thought I suppose, but now I've got to a higher stage of awareness and all my days are, really, pure bliss and I express myself creatively through music and share as much love as possible.....THAT, is my "job"! ;)

[purple is a fruit]

To be honest I've always new what society was about. I was born with a typical Virgo ability to see things how they are. Never cared much for signing myself up to establishments and having my whole being turned into a serial numbers. Jobs are just unnecessary detours of the human search for happiness and abundance, when these things are within one self, always. I try to explain why I (at present) refuse to get a "job" to my family and friends. Some of my friends understand me, and the law of attraction states, you bring circumstances and people into your life that vibrate with you, and all of my friends see the bullshit, even though they aren't aware of the Illuminati and all.

My Mother and her parents and other people continuously feed me the "everybody has to work" crapology, even though their life is a hamster cage of debt, meaningless being and manic depressive behavior, they are afraid to confront this "reality" and just pedal it more, hoping it will work for someone else. I will not sign myself up to this. The only "job" one really needs to do is make food and expand your awareness love, but a lot have people have been brainwashed to seek happiness outside of ourselves. Why ever, ever work in a factory that makes glue? Why work in an office that produces non-existent money and give it to people who then have to pay for the money they just created? Why, ever?

I was a bit lonely when ALL of the shit hit the fan. Lonely in thought I suppose, but now I've got to a higher stage of awareness and all my days are, really, pure bliss and I express myself creatively through music and share as much love as possible.....THAT, is my "job"! ;)


That was an awesome post!!!
Good on you soglad...I refuse to work too! I am sick of being a system rat
Thanks for sharing:D

[dark86]

thanks for that post - tops :-)

[soglad]

I just though I'd put that out there so you don't think it's just you!

I'd only wish more people would wake up to the global scam!

Peace and Bliss.

Soglad.

[dondaz]

Hi dark86,

Welcome to David Ickes' wonderful forum.

It's great to set yourself free eh!

[ripe4change]

This is my first post here. I have also gone through this process over the past year and a half. I have been lurking on this forum for a while.
I was awakened by the staged terror attacks of 911. A work colleague sent me a link to the video entitled 911 revisted. After that I delved deeper and deeper into illuminati research. It is not easy, I have felt alone a lot.
I am married with 2 kids a wife and a mortgage along with 2 cars.
I have felt like ditching this lot of it, but feel trapped also. I'm so sick of being around the zombies at my office job. I remind myself that I was somewhat like them at one time myself, that helps me be more tolerant and respectful. They honestly are clueless as to what is really going on in the world. What I find really difficult to tolerate however is those who are completely closed minded and content with the way things are. I have always been open to any and all viewpoints and have had an acute sensitivity to injustices I see around me.

[soglad]

And there lies the rub....

It's all good and well to awaken, but I think the governments have seen this coming and have things like tax, mortgage, insurance and cultural stigma associated with doing anything about it! It's these things I believe hold people back from true freedom.

For example, my Mother is sick of her present life. Her petty job, her shitty neighborhood, her shitty city and greedy society yet she can do NOTHING about this. She wants to move to another country and start anew, but the banks have her shackled. This has brought her relentless pain in her life because since she's been brainwashed to climb the corporate ladder in the first place, she's now by her own will shackled herself with the ball & chain of debt and all the bullshit associated with it.

From this frustration and belittling of this situation, she's developed mental illness from not being able to deal with her growing situation and has been in a downward spiral of dept, depression, dept, depression until she did something the other week that really had me (and my family) upset, she attempted to commit suicide. She took LOADS of random pills around the house and wrote us a letter telling us she can't handle her life, she's stuck in a life of mental illness and dept and because of this, she can only kill herself to erase it. This is our culture's by-product. Luckily, my sister heard her fall in her bedroom and called me, which I immediately called an ambulance, and things will change when she is home..

I tell this story for a reason. You get up every morning for a shitty job because you've got kids, mortgage, insurance and all the other bullshit and you know it's wrong but believe me, you MUST leave it, or it's game over in life, but I tell you, if you keep going it's all over, it's only downhill, there's no point where it gets better, only the point where you don't know anything else. Free yourself as fast as you can, leave your life, and the quicker the better, you'll only over-think the idea and convince yourself it'll be the worst thing you'll ever do, even when you haven't even tried.

Peace and Bliss!

Soglad.