shenoma
26-06-2007, 01:08 PM
Two years I was obsessed with the story of Montauk, read all the books, did much research on the internet has I could found, and dreamed of going there someday. I did, how I got there is not important but why I went is. When I first read the Biggest Secret I wanted to fight the reppies, but then I realize how self defeating that was, instead I needed to love them a great deal. I went to Montauk to send a great deal of love to them and to offer myself has well. At the point I didn't like humans that much (I still do at times), I thought even dieing was worth to see real other beings then mere humans, it would be prove of my believes in aliens.
I walked down Path 13 by myself, with copper wire rods in hand to search out energy. It was just a few minutes before the park was closing, the sky was grey and cold. I went down other trail from the main one and waited for anything to happen, I could feel eyes on me at all times. I said out out loud I was there to be taken freely with my own free will, that I would love them has much has I could, and not to fear or to hate them for what they have done. Then, nothing was left to say after that. I could sense their fear of me and left.
The person I was with came running after me, he said the park was closing and we left. For months before I wasn't doing to well, but going there helped in someways. I left a lot of negative energy there, I was free is someway, like I over came my fears. I passed one of my testes and my advice for anyone is not to be afraid and to love with everything you got.
I walked down Path 13 by myself, with copper wire rods in hand to search out energy. It was just a few minutes before the park was closing, the sky was grey and cold. I went down other trail from the main one and waited for anything to happen, I could feel eyes on me at all times. I said out out loud I was there to be taken freely with my own free will, that I would love them has much has I could, and not to fear or to hate them for what they have done. Then, nothing was left to say after that. I could sense their fear of me and left.
The person I was with came running after me, he said the park was closing and we left. For months before I wasn't doing to well, but going there helped in someways. I left a lot of negative energy there, I was free is someway, like I over came my fears. I passed one of my testes and my advice for anyone is not to be afraid and to love with everything you got.