ashyr
19-06-2007, 04:14 PM
Greetings.
i thought i should start a thread stating some of the weird things i have been experiencing recently in my constant struggle of enlightenment vs living in a modern world. pushing the boundarys and awakening.
recently my body has been doing some weird things
(even thought i have been taking m-state materials for 3 months last year, i dont think its in light of this. it was happening before this.)
my shoulders and neck muscles are getting tense all the time
i have to move my head to the left and right to make it crack/release the tension. its gettting very anoying i have to do it very often. sometimes every 5 minutes. and it usually cracks at least 2-5 times.
also when i work myself into a state of deep thought or when i envoke emotions or feelings while talking or relating to a certain thought or subject. building a whirlpool of thought in front of me about a focued subject and trying to deal with it or find the next stepping stone, i'm getting this feeling of DROWNING.
there are also physical signs that i can feel when i get really HIGH on a spiritual level after focusing on something or discussing something really deep i get the feeling more and more often now, much like the feeling of water up the nose when your swimming or when u have had heaps of water up your nose and that kinda lasting effect u can feel not the stinging but that weird feeling that lingers long after, its hard to describe. i keep refering it to the DROWNING feeling. has anyone else experienced this?
also i have had in the past i can remember back the first time i noticed it was around the same time i found david ickes work about 7-8 years ago, but not so much now. a very very very COLD/FEAR like fealing that makes me convulse and shake uncontrollable. yet im not cold in temperature im just ON THE WAVE, in the moment. experiencing everything to its extent where its so overwhelming im in AWE and start convulsing my legs spasm and stomp up and down my body is shaking like SHIVERS but deep inside my chest right in the middle is a very very very BURNING sensation like a raging fire in my chest. like acid eating me up but not physically, but mega energy. but the rest of my body feels freezing. really im not cold its just like a fear thing. even though i let go of thought of fear and death etc i still get it.
what else.
oh the feeling of having a FOREHEAD that is 2 feet tall. its a bizarre feeling. almost like my mind is expanding or has expanded and i can feel my forehead as being higher than it is.
also ive been sleeping for like 12 hours or more at a time. sometimes i stay awake for a day or two . expanding my concoiusness or doing something really envolved with my time. but i can easily sleep 12 hours a day. always have been able to. but now i do it alot. without effort.
i naturally have a very high motabolizm, my body produces EXTREME ammounts of energy, my endurance is extreme, i am an extreme drummer and dont play the drums like most people. i sort of like have an epileptic fit on the drums and can do it for a very long time. my divine proportion is bizarre. my skin is like elastic and beautiful like a milky skin on a female. i have SPOTS or moles and freckles all simetrical. i have a mole @ the base of my spine and also have this weird indentation at the top of my butt crack. almost like a 2nd arse hole but not. i dont care if you laugh but i thought i would share that. um i also have this very very weird CONE or BONE stickign out the back of my head. jsut above my neck. some people must have this but mine is very obvious.
all and all i think this is part of my change and journey to EXPLODING my true uniquness and place in this universe. and as a realised soul. understanding my purpose again.
is anyone else having weird things happen or things about there body changing or coming out that is new and bizarre or divine?
i thought i should start a thread stating some of the weird things i have been experiencing recently in my constant struggle of enlightenment vs living in a modern world. pushing the boundarys and awakening.
recently my body has been doing some weird things
(even thought i have been taking m-state materials for 3 months last year, i dont think its in light of this. it was happening before this.)
my shoulders and neck muscles are getting tense all the time
i have to move my head to the left and right to make it crack/release the tension. its gettting very anoying i have to do it very often. sometimes every 5 minutes. and it usually cracks at least 2-5 times.
also when i work myself into a state of deep thought or when i envoke emotions or feelings while talking or relating to a certain thought or subject. building a whirlpool of thought in front of me about a focued subject and trying to deal with it or find the next stepping stone, i'm getting this feeling of DROWNING.
there are also physical signs that i can feel when i get really HIGH on a spiritual level after focusing on something or discussing something really deep i get the feeling more and more often now, much like the feeling of water up the nose when your swimming or when u have had heaps of water up your nose and that kinda lasting effect u can feel not the stinging but that weird feeling that lingers long after, its hard to describe. i keep refering it to the DROWNING feeling. has anyone else experienced this?
also i have had in the past i can remember back the first time i noticed it was around the same time i found david ickes work about 7-8 years ago, but not so much now. a very very very COLD/FEAR like fealing that makes me convulse and shake uncontrollable. yet im not cold in temperature im just ON THE WAVE, in the moment. experiencing everything to its extent where its so overwhelming im in AWE and start convulsing my legs spasm and stomp up and down my body is shaking like SHIVERS but deep inside my chest right in the middle is a very very very BURNING sensation like a raging fire in my chest. like acid eating me up but not physically, but mega energy. but the rest of my body feels freezing. really im not cold its just like a fear thing. even though i let go of thought of fear and death etc i still get it.
what else.
oh the feeling of having a FOREHEAD that is 2 feet tall. its a bizarre feeling. almost like my mind is expanding or has expanded and i can feel my forehead as being higher than it is.
also ive been sleeping for like 12 hours or more at a time. sometimes i stay awake for a day or two . expanding my concoiusness or doing something really envolved with my time. but i can easily sleep 12 hours a day. always have been able to. but now i do it alot. without effort.
i naturally have a very high motabolizm, my body produces EXTREME ammounts of energy, my endurance is extreme, i am an extreme drummer and dont play the drums like most people. i sort of like have an epileptic fit on the drums and can do it for a very long time. my divine proportion is bizarre. my skin is like elastic and beautiful like a milky skin on a female. i have SPOTS or moles and freckles all simetrical. i have a mole @ the base of my spine and also have this weird indentation at the top of my butt crack. almost like a 2nd arse hole but not. i dont care if you laugh but i thought i would share that. um i also have this very very weird CONE or BONE stickign out the back of my head. jsut above my neck. some people must have this but mine is very obvious.
all and all i think this is part of my change and journey to EXPLODING my true uniquness and place in this universe. and as a realised soul. understanding my purpose again.
is anyone else having weird things happen or things about there body changing or coming out that is new and bizarre or divine?