duckingdafta
13-09-2008, 02:16 AM
Hypothetically:
I have a problem with memory as most say they do also, but then I hear them recalling a load of stuff taught to them from school or uni, and recite quotes from books galore. I can read, I have no problem understanding a lot of what I read in 'simple terms' and if I actually like what I am reading, get quite into it and explore ideas from it of my own.... my problem is..by the next day, if ever I am asked a question, say about NWO, Freemasons, beliefs... etc.. I haven't got a clue about the details all of a sudden. I know I have been told I know things (as well as being the usual mad man..) but this doesn't help. I only know things because I think I have a kind of vision of where the info came from I don't have to re-read it, I seem to just know it again but not word for word, only the bits I think are true or needed ... I have a very down to earth partner who, like a lot, only believe with evidence.. she claims I taught myself this to hide what I know...but why would I hide it from myself?.. she also says I can rant for a good hour without breath about 'stuff' and it's effect's on our lives that scare the shite out of her at times.. but I never remember what I said!..so the conversation suddenly stops.
I've looked into my history and that of my partner briefly and have come to (some say through paranoia) the conclusion that there are too many 'coincidences' that brought us together through what has happened in our lives and who we are related to (although now outcast on both sides)...this involves people connected to 'things' bigger than we could possibly handle..
So .. now I decided without actually knowing for sure My mind is completely fried or damaged medically and being controlled/abused to carry out an agenda of some other person other than me..
What Do I Do Now?
offer your solution...in this hypothetical situation.
I have a problem with memory as most say they do also, but then I hear them recalling a load of stuff taught to them from school or uni, and recite quotes from books galore. I can read, I have no problem understanding a lot of what I read in 'simple terms' and if I actually like what I am reading, get quite into it and explore ideas from it of my own.... my problem is..by the next day, if ever I am asked a question, say about NWO, Freemasons, beliefs... etc.. I haven't got a clue about the details all of a sudden. I know I have been told I know things (as well as being the usual mad man..) but this doesn't help. I only know things because I think I have a kind of vision of where the info came from I don't have to re-read it, I seem to just know it again but not word for word, only the bits I think are true or needed ... I have a very down to earth partner who, like a lot, only believe with evidence.. she claims I taught myself this to hide what I know...but why would I hide it from myself?.. she also says I can rant for a good hour without breath about 'stuff' and it's effect's on our lives that scare the shite out of her at times.. but I never remember what I said!..so the conversation suddenly stops.
I've looked into my history and that of my partner briefly and have come to (some say through paranoia) the conclusion that there are too many 'coincidences' that brought us together through what has happened in our lives and who we are related to (although now outcast on both sides)...this involves people connected to 'things' bigger than we could possibly handle..
So .. now I decided without actually knowing for sure My mind is completely fried or damaged medically and being controlled/abused to carry out an agenda of some other person other than me..
What Do I Do Now?
offer your solution...in this hypothetical situation.