dragonfly
29-04-2007, 09:19 PM
when i was stepping out of my alcohol abuse and had been clean for little more than a year a joined a forum, for survivors of sexual abuse, and i did so as a rsult of myself rememebering an incident i had some many years ago, with a boy a little older than i. it wasn´t very plesant, so i found it fitting to join such a forum. However, things did get out of hand, and it ended with me getting a ban from this forum in January. Now, my point is that i have often wondered about this whole "conspiracy/illusion" thing, and not to sound out of it, but i have been thinking, if certain forums could have agents working there, and whos task it is to keep people, and in this case survivors, in a box. in the box of illusions. i felt at that time , just before the ban, that i was breaking out of some old stuff anf energy patterns, and that somehow it offended others and made them act. it is my experience, that some of us are more awake than others, and that this often causes offense to those who are not yet ready to break the cords of illusion. i say this, well-knowing that i am on a joureny and in no ways perfected or anything similar. but, i just found it hard to accept that a man like me, who simply wants all of his "soul back", was given a ban and told i was causing others to have a bad time. as i told them, and can share here, i wish all people a good life and wish them well. so, i am just thinking if this web of control can go into even the most delicate places and on forums where people really need to be safe and helped along their journey back to LIFE.