mcthompson2x
04-08-2008, 11:35 PM
I put "survivors" in quote because I don't know how anyone can actually be free of the damage done to them by CIA mind-control asswipes.
I started this thread because I'm looking for some kind of help or someone to talk to. Based on some very specific info that has been reconciling in my mind I have reason to believe that I may have been involved in the Monarch program and that I may be a "hierarchy slave" although I could very easily be one of the disposables. The only reason I question is my lack of any marks except for periodic moles on random parts and a couple of birth marks. Obviously that is not the reason I believe I was in Monarch, but I have other reasons and I would like to talk to someone and compare experiences who thinks that they have been subject to Beta or Theta programming, or any kind of Monarch programming really. I've been going through a very weird mental state lately and I need some kind of basis for comparison to see if I'm going crazy, if I'm connecting dots that aren't there, or if there is something to this. I wouldn't be posting this if I wasn't seriously afraid that something was done to me, and I have a lot of organizational and governmental ties in my family as well as nearly every psychological symptom of ritual trauma sexual abuse. I have a few weird memories that I can't place in linear time, like crawling through a tunnel with demonic chalk etchings on it. I seriously don't know what to make of this, but I do suppose I could be remembering it from something else. I get a specific visual though and I remember this from when I was very young. The more I think about it, the more emotional I get and I feel like I keep hitting walls when I try to make sense of something that happened in the past in conjunction with the knowledge I have now. I don't want to type it all out here but if anyone - ANYONE - knows anything about these things, I have some serious questions that I need desperately answered...
BTW I can sense a liar or a misinformant from a mile away... So I know what to look for when it comes to dishonesty and it won't work on me.
Send me a PM!
I seriously need someone to talk to about all of this...
I started this thread because I'm looking for some kind of help or someone to talk to. Based on some very specific info that has been reconciling in my mind I have reason to believe that I may have been involved in the Monarch program and that I may be a "hierarchy slave" although I could very easily be one of the disposables. The only reason I question is my lack of any marks except for periodic moles on random parts and a couple of birth marks. Obviously that is not the reason I believe I was in Monarch, but I have other reasons and I would like to talk to someone and compare experiences who thinks that they have been subject to Beta or Theta programming, or any kind of Monarch programming really. I've been going through a very weird mental state lately and I need some kind of basis for comparison to see if I'm going crazy, if I'm connecting dots that aren't there, or if there is something to this. I wouldn't be posting this if I wasn't seriously afraid that something was done to me, and I have a lot of organizational and governmental ties in my family as well as nearly every psychological symptom of ritual trauma sexual abuse. I have a few weird memories that I can't place in linear time, like crawling through a tunnel with demonic chalk etchings on it. I seriously don't know what to make of this, but I do suppose I could be remembering it from something else. I get a specific visual though and I remember this from when I was very young. The more I think about it, the more emotional I get and I feel like I keep hitting walls when I try to make sense of something that happened in the past in conjunction with the knowledge I have now. I don't want to type it all out here but if anyone - ANYONE - knows anything about these things, I have some serious questions that I need desperately answered...
BTW I can sense a liar or a misinformant from a mile away... So I know what to look for when it comes to dishonesty and it won't work on me.
Send me a PM!
I seriously need someone to talk to about all of this...