View Full Version : 3ill I didn't call you deranged! No Vendetta!
edelweiss pirate
28-04-2007, 12:18 PM
I wrote:Quote:
Originally Posted by edelweiss pirate
Did you check out that Borges story Gift?
Pretty cool huh?
There's a lot of fairy-tale physics which is currently being quickly revised and binned, string theory is one and the 'tiny dimensions' theory which so hopelessly tries to account for dark matter.. parallel worlds is another..
There may be some truth to it, I believe that other dimensions are there, or rather, that they are 'here' but we cannot perceive them... but jumping from this to saying there are millions of other Earths with you and me slightly different has NO basis in fact or reason of any kind... It's is a head fuck pure and simple, designed, along with the 'am I really alive?' crisis, to get people's head suitable deranged to be ready for luciferic initiation...
Why should there be another you and me doing something else? There's no reason, it's just some Illumie Hollyweird's scripwriter's nervous breakdown fantasy.. That's all it is....
3 ILL wrote:
Hmmmmm....... Disaggreed. Frankly I take offense to the suitably deranged comment. If you want suitably deranged, take a look around at the "Real World." Yeah so fucker all to that comment. I'm not the one responsible for mass genocide, the slow and intentional poisoning of the populous, jailing and torturing innocent people, Religious persecution, mass child molestation, or the dumbing of the populous. And since when is it suitable to be deranged?
Is it suitable for me? If so than I'm pretty well fucking off aren't I? Is it suitable for you? Does it suit you to call me deranged? Does it suit your agenda? Your basing this on a story. Sounds like another group famous for villifying open-minded people, and labeling them mentally inferior or deranged, all based on whether you believe a story.
Suitably deranged. That's fucking precious. I'll have to remember that.
3'LL
Well, I didn't... Come here and discuss this civilly please!
Can anyone find a point where I call 3ill deranged? I can't.... Can anyone read between the lines for me....
This is pure horseshit of course but I want a stop to it 3ill.
edelweiss pirate
28-04-2007, 12:22 PM
3ill...
The point I'm making is that Luciferic initiation involves inducing schizophrenia..
I've been there...
Are you telling me that I can't call the Luceriferian Illuminati 'deranged' now?
I think that's taking PC religious tolerance too far... don't you?
I've found a great peace with my beliefs, but dormant beneath lies a beast hungry for blood. I openly admit this and do my best. One way is to vent my frustrations as articualtely as possible, while still being blunt. Throwing dead symbols at each other isn't even a piss compared to some of the awful things I've done to good people, so to me it's the lesser of two evils. I do apologize if I offended or put you off balance.
I belive in Infinite, pure and simple. Infinite cannot be divided. Infinite is the most bountiful, and lowly. It's not only every possible scenario, it's every possible comination of Every scenario, and every possible combination of every possible combi..... well, you get it. It may seem redundant to you, but it makes perfect sense to me, on the basis that everypossiblity would have to be extended off into, well, Infinity.
If you want to know what tickled my pickle.
"....to get people's head suitable deranged to be ready for luciferic initiation..."
"Why should there be another you and me doing something else? There's no reason, it's just some Illumie Hollyweird's scripwriter's nervous breakdown fantasy.. That's all it is...."
Now, these aren't just things I've read, or things I've been told, they're combinations of things I'd thought about early on, filled out later by the works of better men. I had many of the pieces early on, but only when I looked to other's ideas did I find the paths of connection. These things mean alot to me, as it was these concepts that SAVED me from derangement. I should be a murderer.I've had the knife to people's throat, and the gun to their head, honest and true. I've been in that moment more than once, with people I love dearly. If I hadn't made a different choice and jumped the timeline, I'd already be behind bars, and in numerous parallel dimensions, I already am.
The fact that I did formulate my own ideas on Infinite and parallel, put's me in league, by your standards, with the above comments. Frankly, I'm not quite ready for luciferic initiation, and being an amateur comic book writer/artist does put me very close to your statements, coupled by the fact that this isn't something I was taught but based on my own conclusions and fleshed out made sense by the writings of others, you can see where, from my perspective, that's a tad offensive. And I will admit, I'm an awful caricature of what comes to me. I usually try to mirror people, but it's a bit more like a funhouse mirror. What can I say, I'm fun like that.
However, One of my favorite things to do is converse and share information, ideas, concepts openly. To each their own, even the illuminati pricks, I guess, as my purpose this trip round isn't to stop anyone from doing anything. Not my bag, and frankly, most of the humans let themselves be controlled, which does lessen my sympathy for them. No my purpose is to mock, jest, point out the absurdities. If I am a warrior, humor is my sword, and the skins tough from being birthed into shit and barbwire, so I don't need a sheild.
Excuse if I'm stil being a bit harsh. I have to stop and make myself laugh every once in a while. Truly, I am an awful person and a real nice guy at the same time. I try hard to be the latter. I'm a hipocrit by certain standards, surely. Honestly the thing that irked me wasn't just the comments above, but their placement AFTEr your admittance of a limited understanding of what you were in my opinion, insulting. However it is partly me, as I am a bit touchy about the crazy thing. Again, that's just what it is. I'll apologize again for being so vile, but do understand, sometimes I'll argue my point, venom tipped, if I feel the need, Otherwise the frustrations of the hell we live in get to be too much. Again this isn't an excuse, and I don't expect everyhting to be hunky dory. Just laying it down for you friend.
Hope to pass far more respectful words between one another in the future.
Peace,
3'LL
Edit:
Here's a little proof that I'm capable of being a real nice guy. This little guy was abandoned. We found him about a week after my birthday, and he couldn't have been more than a week old at the time.
http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d200/thecancerman37/kit6.jpg
http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d200/thecancerman37/kit2.jpg
Duality is a bitch.
3'LL
edelweiss pirate
28-04-2007, 03:46 PM
If you want to know what tickled my pickle.
"....to get people's head suitable deranged to be ready for luciferic initiation..."
"Why should there be another you and me doing something else? There's no reason, it's just some Illumie Hollyweird's scripwriter's nervous breakdown fantasy.. That's all it is...."
Now, these aren't just things I've read, or things I've been told, they're combinations of things I'd thought about early on, filled out later by the works of better men. I had many of the pieces early on, but only when I looked to other's ideas did I find the paths of connection. These things mean alot to me, as it was these concepts that SAVED me from derangement. I should be a murderer.I've had the knife to people's throat, and the gun to their head, honest and true. I've been in that moment more than once, with people I love dearly. If I hadn't made a different choice and jumped the timeline, I'd already be behind bars, and in numerous parallel dimensions, I already am.
Yeah ok, if it works for you and you're happy I guess that's the aim of the game...
It's just that I was nearly recruited by the band of brothers and all those movies (matrix, Fight Club,Jacob's ladder) and all the kooky theories of the universe like parallel universes (I still reckon it's bollocks)... kind of conspired to send me nuts...That's what it's all about, trying to destabilise the initiates sense of reality until they lose it totally and get reprogrammed.
I kind started doing really far out magical stuff and that sent me nuts too, I just couldn't believe what was happening... Jesus, had a mental couple of months man, hearing voices, full on hallucinations that REALLY were there.. The fuckest uppest but coolest thing was that all I had to do was think of the sun and it would break through the clouds and shine on me.... In fact I can still do this neat little trick... Everytime..tested it a million times.. I even leave a big ragged hole in the clouds...
At the last minute I pulled back and decided not to 'join' becuase my nana turned out to 'know everything' and told me all about the 'builders' (if ya get me) in our family... Thing is the way she told me about it it sounded like they suffered their whole lives... anyway, I tried to slow down my mind with weed and fortunately got some sleep and got better... SO I'm wary of anything to do with enlightenment and shit because it's the enlightenment who run the show.. I just don't trust 'em and never will... I even used to get business men in the street turn to me and say "trust us!".. WTF! There definitely is a psychic network out there, but I reckon once you get into it you never get out...
Infinity? I think it's overrated . I don't think the universe is infinite because that implies chaos to me, like that story of Borges.. depressing thought.... I say I don't understand infinity because it is kind of a nonsense to me... Nothing can be infinitely small or infinitely big.. I just don't actually think it exists.. But having said that I've talked about infinite possibility in the past.. which isn't really infinite, it just means anything can happen, not that everything can happen..... For me it's a way of scaring people or making them stop thinking.... Just my views...
Anyway mate, glad we sorted that one out.... Like your drawings btw...
Yeah ok, if it works for you and you're happy I guess that's the aim of the game...
It's just that I was nearly recruited by the band of brothers and all those movies (matrix, Fight Club,Jacob's ladder) and all the kooky theories of the universe like parallel universes (I still reckon it's bollocks)... kind of conspired to send me nuts...That's what it's all about, trying to destabilise the initiates sense of reality until they lose it totally and get reprogrammed.
I kind started doing really far out magical stuff and that sent me nuts too, I just couldn't believe what was happening... Jesus, had a mental couple of months man, hearing voices, full on hallucinations that REALLY were there..
At the last minute I pulled back and decided not to 'join' becuase my nana turned out to 'know everything' and told me all about the 'builders' (if ya get me) in our family... Thing is the way she told me about it it sounded like they suffered their whole lives... anyway, I tried to slow down my mind with weed and fortunately got some sleep and got better... SO I'm wary of anything to do with enlightenment and shit because it's the enlightenment who run the show.. I just don't trust 'em and never will... I even used to get business men in the street turn to me and say "trust us!".. WTF! There definitely is a psychic network out there, but I reckon once you get into it you never get out...
Anyway mate, glad we sorted that one out.... Like your drawings btw...
Straight. Most of my enlightenment is really bastardized cocktail from self-study and research. Stuff like Chaos Magic, sex magic, Pop magic, the kind of stuff that doesn't take itself too seriously. Mix that with a bit of "Law of attraction", punk style inhebriation, some of davids writings, and you get a Bohemian Zen. (which I lovingly named my once-and-future comic studio)
I've had some interesting experiences in another apartment fighting demons. I honestly think that place was a weak spot between this and the lower 4th, as the history of the house was very dark, and the past inhabitant had set in on fire in order to save his kids and make himself look like a hero. The person before that had a guy try to murder them there. Personally, it sent me to the looney bin for a couple of weeks and I won't even go into what I've done.
The darkness helped me purge my own demons to an extent, and going up against one of those ugly fourth motherfuckers makes my own personal inner reflections look tame.
Peace, friend,
3'LL