auron
11-04-2007, 07:54 PM
Hello all! Auron here :)
I am a 23 year old from the Manchester area of England. I have been a regular visitor to this site/forum for over a year now, and have decided now to join in with the great discussion that unfolds here everyday! Since i was young i have always felt different from the other people around me, and was always considered by the teachers as a "disruption" to the class. I would usually rebel against everything, and hated being told what to do and what to think by adults:mad:
So anyway i left school at 16 with below average grades, and didn't have a clue
as what to do with my life. I worked at a supermarket for a few years doing the usual life routine: get up - go to work - go to pub - get pissed - go home and repeat the process. When i was about 19 i started smoking weed and for a while
it was great! But after about 6 months of drinking and weed and taking many other drugs in excess amounts, i started with the whole thing of "Hey! where are we all from? what are we all doing here? what is the meaning of life?" etc.
I'm sure a lot of you will know what i mean :)
Anyway with all these ideas going through my mind, and understandably all my mates were thinking i was going crazy with all the deep discussion i would
try on them. No one wanted to know as they were not interested in these type of conversations - everything i would say would go straight over their heads! They were more concerned with trivialities like what was on T.V last night and all of that mindless drivel.
I then started to withdraw from so-called "society" as i thought there was no-one in this world that understands me, and i would just stay in my room on my P.C reading things, trying to satisfy my thirst for what all of this world means. I was getting nowhere :( and started getting extremely depressed about everything and was having thoughts all the time about killing
myself, as this world was totally dumb and pointless.
I was about 20 at this time and hated everything in the world. It was around
3 or 4 months later i came across a DVD of some comedian and decided to watch it. WOW!! The guy on stage was amazing! here was someone shouting about the world and its many failures just like i was doing at other people. He was then describing how his life used to be full of drink and drugs and eventually gave it all up, and how much better his life was after it :)
Then ended the show with one of the most amazing lines i have ever heard:
"We are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectivley, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves" - The legendary Bill Hicks.
Holy shit!! That was the most amazing thing i had ever seen up to that point in my life! I just had to find out more about this fellow. A quick internet search revealed that he had died at the extremely young age of 32 in 1994. I
was shocked and saddened by it all. I then decided enough is enough. Fuck being depressed about everything! I'm still alive and this guy is dead. I then decided i had to quit all this poison i was taking (ecstasy, speed, coke... you name it), and after a few months i was feeling absolutely fantastic! (i was still
smoking the odd joint and drink here and there for about a year after and that, and all that has stopped too!)
With a completely new outlook on life, new friends started to appear in my life
that were more understanding than my old ones. Around this time (about a year and a half ago), a friend of mine suggested trying magic mushrooms. So we did! It was a beautiful day and had the most amazing experience in my life!:D Everything at that moment was a feeling of pure love for anything and
everything around us! All the negative emotions were gone and my life was changed forever!
It was around this time i started to really take things seriously, and read as much as i could from many different sources what the heck i had experienced with the mushrooms. When i was researching about these magical plants, i was also coming across information on the net by accident about this huge worldwide conspiracy that is taking place. Well i had always thought that the world was run by bent/corrupt politicians, but i was absolutely staggered by how deep it actually went! Then i came across some written stuff by a guy called David Icke! I had heard of the guy before "He's a nutter!" "He's crazy"
but what i was reading by this guy was far from crazy! It was PERFECT sense
confirming that i was not alone in this way of thinking! Straight away i was amazed and had to learn more about him:)
That was over a year ago and have since read all his books and watched all
his talks on video. I also meditate regularly and always feel an amazing glow of love around me all the time, and i can honestly say that no matter what you read and hear all the time about the fucked up things in this world - it is only a tiny fraction of what really does exist and that we are ALL Beings of Pure love! This dimension what we call reality is nothing compared to the rest
existence where nothing but infinite joy exists Forever.
This world of negativity is coming to an end and all that will remain is infinite wisdom, joy love etc!
So hello all!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
Auron
I am a 23 year old from the Manchester area of England. I have been a regular visitor to this site/forum for over a year now, and have decided now to join in with the great discussion that unfolds here everyday! Since i was young i have always felt different from the other people around me, and was always considered by the teachers as a "disruption" to the class. I would usually rebel against everything, and hated being told what to do and what to think by adults:mad:
So anyway i left school at 16 with below average grades, and didn't have a clue
as what to do with my life. I worked at a supermarket for a few years doing the usual life routine: get up - go to work - go to pub - get pissed - go home and repeat the process. When i was about 19 i started smoking weed and for a while
it was great! But after about 6 months of drinking and weed and taking many other drugs in excess amounts, i started with the whole thing of "Hey! where are we all from? what are we all doing here? what is the meaning of life?" etc.
I'm sure a lot of you will know what i mean :)
Anyway with all these ideas going through my mind, and understandably all my mates were thinking i was going crazy with all the deep discussion i would
try on them. No one wanted to know as they were not interested in these type of conversations - everything i would say would go straight over their heads! They were more concerned with trivialities like what was on T.V last night and all of that mindless drivel.
I then started to withdraw from so-called "society" as i thought there was no-one in this world that understands me, and i would just stay in my room on my P.C reading things, trying to satisfy my thirst for what all of this world means. I was getting nowhere :( and started getting extremely depressed about everything and was having thoughts all the time about killing
myself, as this world was totally dumb and pointless.
I was about 20 at this time and hated everything in the world. It was around
3 or 4 months later i came across a DVD of some comedian and decided to watch it. WOW!! The guy on stage was amazing! here was someone shouting about the world and its many failures just like i was doing at other people. He was then describing how his life used to be full of drink and drugs and eventually gave it all up, and how much better his life was after it :)
Then ended the show with one of the most amazing lines i have ever heard:
"We are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectivley, there is no such thing as death, life is only a dream, and we are the imagination of ourselves" - The legendary Bill Hicks.
Holy shit!! That was the most amazing thing i had ever seen up to that point in my life! I just had to find out more about this fellow. A quick internet search revealed that he had died at the extremely young age of 32 in 1994. I
was shocked and saddened by it all. I then decided enough is enough. Fuck being depressed about everything! I'm still alive and this guy is dead. I then decided i had to quit all this poison i was taking (ecstasy, speed, coke... you name it), and after a few months i was feeling absolutely fantastic! (i was still
smoking the odd joint and drink here and there for about a year after and that, and all that has stopped too!)
With a completely new outlook on life, new friends started to appear in my life
that were more understanding than my old ones. Around this time (about a year and a half ago), a friend of mine suggested trying magic mushrooms. So we did! It was a beautiful day and had the most amazing experience in my life!:D Everything at that moment was a feeling of pure love for anything and
everything around us! All the negative emotions were gone and my life was changed forever!
It was around this time i started to really take things seriously, and read as much as i could from many different sources what the heck i had experienced with the mushrooms. When i was researching about these magical plants, i was also coming across information on the net by accident about this huge worldwide conspiracy that is taking place. Well i had always thought that the world was run by bent/corrupt politicians, but i was absolutely staggered by how deep it actually went! Then i came across some written stuff by a guy called David Icke! I had heard of the guy before "He's a nutter!" "He's crazy"
but what i was reading by this guy was far from crazy! It was PERFECT sense
confirming that i was not alone in this way of thinking! Straight away i was amazed and had to learn more about him:)
That was over a year ago and have since read all his books and watched all
his talks on video. I also meditate regularly and always feel an amazing glow of love around me all the time, and i can honestly say that no matter what you read and hear all the time about the fucked up things in this world - it is only a tiny fraction of what really does exist and that we are ALL Beings of Pure love! This dimension what we call reality is nothing compared to the rest
existence where nothing but infinite joy exists Forever.
This world of negativity is coming to an end and all that will remain is infinite wisdom, joy love etc!
So hello all!!!!!!!!!!!! :)
Auron