cl2008
23-01-2008, 01:10 AM
I believe I happened to be on the receiving end of such a communication. The speaker did not identify himself/herself. And it felt as if the speaker is a being that is not limited by gender. I dont know WHO or WHAT is that being that spoke to me. An ET? A spirit? An angel? A reptoid? What?!?
Anyway are the things that happened to me:
1) That voice told me that I will regret all suicidal, depressive, and self-harming thoughts by the time I hit age 24
I am 24 years old now and I am confident to say that I have ZERO of those negative feelings. That 'transmission' was sent to me when I was age 21. During the height of my depression and suicidal tendencies. It told me not to worry and to just hang on. It told me that by the time you hit age 24, you will regret everything hateful you said about your life.
I thought it was nothing but a stupid dream but here I am. Age 24 and feel ZERO depression and suicidal tendencies!!!
2) I was half-asleep and half-awake in my bed and unable to move my hands and legs and my whole body.
Then that voice was asking me if I seriously wanna die because of a rant I wrote in some forum a long time ago that is full of hate for my own life, as well as my overall hateful attitude towards my own life. Because all these years growing up, I didnt feel love and felt all kinds of rejection everywhere. From family, from other people, from women. It is too much and I really had alot of suicidal thoughts.
That voice told me that he/she/it is only helping me die. So you wanna die? If your life has no purpose, then why are you resisting my help? I am only helping you die since that is what you said you want.
I was struggling and very afraid of death. Trying my best to regain control of my body.
Again I thought it was just a weird dream. IT HAPPENED TO ME AT LEAST 5 TIMES!!! Now I see it as an external force trying to knock sense into my head.
3) After my breakup with the woman I totally loved, I obsessed on reading stuff on picking up women. That being seemed to have a problem with that.
It told me not to be playing with the weapons of evil and to abandon my plans to break as many women's hearts as possible because of the irrational hatred for women that developed after my breakup with her.
I ignored the being.
4) After experimenting with 'pick up women' stuff and fooling around for awhile, I came to a realization that I'm lying to myself and only causing damage. That being seemed happy with my realization.
But then again, after that realization, I also arrived at a conclusion that IT IS ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY TO GET RID OF ALL FEELINGS OF LOVE AND EMOTION IN ORDER TO SURVIVE IN THIS EVIL EVIL WORLD.
5) The being had a problem with that. However he/she/it took a more loving approach to me to 'correct' that thinking.
It told me in my dream that I shouldnt try to fight and suppress my loving nature because that is what I am made for. Something like that. Then it flashed all sorts of images into my head that show people and animals showing love to each other.
Then it followed with a dream of me being some kind of animal. I can describe that animal as something that can walk on fours or on its hind-legs... a round shape of body with fur and a tail as long as its body. While having almost useless claws.
Then after that, everytime I see a cat or a chicken or a dog I feel this great happiness inside.
***
Yes this is weird. Any idea WHAT that being is? It didnt show me its appearance. It just inserted those thoughts into my head instantaneously.
Is that my 'higher self' or 'spirit guide?'
Anyway are the things that happened to me:
1) That voice told me that I will regret all suicidal, depressive, and self-harming thoughts by the time I hit age 24
I am 24 years old now and I am confident to say that I have ZERO of those negative feelings. That 'transmission' was sent to me when I was age 21. During the height of my depression and suicidal tendencies. It told me not to worry and to just hang on. It told me that by the time you hit age 24, you will regret everything hateful you said about your life.
I thought it was nothing but a stupid dream but here I am. Age 24 and feel ZERO depression and suicidal tendencies!!!
2) I was half-asleep and half-awake in my bed and unable to move my hands and legs and my whole body.
Then that voice was asking me if I seriously wanna die because of a rant I wrote in some forum a long time ago that is full of hate for my own life, as well as my overall hateful attitude towards my own life. Because all these years growing up, I didnt feel love and felt all kinds of rejection everywhere. From family, from other people, from women. It is too much and I really had alot of suicidal thoughts.
That voice told me that he/she/it is only helping me die. So you wanna die? If your life has no purpose, then why are you resisting my help? I am only helping you die since that is what you said you want.
I was struggling and very afraid of death. Trying my best to regain control of my body.
Again I thought it was just a weird dream. IT HAPPENED TO ME AT LEAST 5 TIMES!!! Now I see it as an external force trying to knock sense into my head.
3) After my breakup with the woman I totally loved, I obsessed on reading stuff on picking up women. That being seemed to have a problem with that.
It told me not to be playing with the weapons of evil and to abandon my plans to break as many women's hearts as possible because of the irrational hatred for women that developed after my breakup with her.
I ignored the being.
4) After experimenting with 'pick up women' stuff and fooling around for awhile, I came to a realization that I'm lying to myself and only causing damage. That being seemed happy with my realization.
But then again, after that realization, I also arrived at a conclusion that IT IS ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY TO GET RID OF ALL FEELINGS OF LOVE AND EMOTION IN ORDER TO SURVIVE IN THIS EVIL EVIL WORLD.
5) The being had a problem with that. However he/she/it took a more loving approach to me to 'correct' that thinking.
It told me in my dream that I shouldnt try to fight and suppress my loving nature because that is what I am made for. Something like that. Then it flashed all sorts of images into my head that show people and animals showing love to each other.
Then it followed with a dream of me being some kind of animal. I can describe that animal as something that can walk on fours or on its hind-legs... a round shape of body with fur and a tail as long as its body. While having almost useless claws.
Then after that, everytime I see a cat or a chicken or a dog I feel this great happiness inside.
***
Yes this is weird. Any idea WHAT that being is? It didnt show me its appearance. It just inserted those thoughts into my head instantaneously.
Is that my 'higher self' or 'spirit guide?'