Radical perception Change

[agrinemenon]

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- reposted from another forum where i got no replys figured id get more luck here. If mods wanna delete the original i dont mind.

I have been watching Icke Dvds With my Wife every night and have been spending and inordinate amount of time thinking about reality and the matrix.
I was in my bed last night and had this experience. What triggered it was rather silly, I was thinking and just so happened to be pretty blazed on some good buds. anyway I was imagining belief changing small details like changing A dark room to light so I could see. Then I started imagining flicking the switch with my mind. then I realized Believing in a switch flicking by itself was pretty hard but the thought of somehow a light turning on outside the window and illuminating the inside of my room was believable. As soon as I thought this thought. BOOM at 2:00 in the morning some bright ass lights in my neighbors yard Started Shining in my freaking window. these usually never turn on this time of night because its obvious they FLOOD my window with light. . Anyways my brain wasnt quite ready for this because I have only been exposed to the immaterium once when I had a VERY enlightening SHROOM trip. This time I felt SPIRITUALY weak like I wasnt ready for such a BIG hole in my egsshell! I was Scared and holding my head like i was going to crack up. I was HYPER aware of my meat body! I felt like a sort of SPACE connected to my conciousness and APART and infinite once seperate. like my mind is A POOL connected to a OCEAN if you will my mind was just a pond then ALL THE SUDDEN WHAM the pond has a waterfall at its edge!
I know i must sound like a "nutter" cause I felt like one. I had to stop panicking I felt scared because I had this feeling that my eggshell breaking would attract enititys to me like a attena and me not having a strong enough spirit would be faced with HORRORS. One of those pictures of a ethreal reptilian that looked like a shadow following a human kept flashing. At last I summoned all of the inner strength I could and then this overwhelming confidence and happiness flooded over me. I cant describe how im different but I just am now. I cried at first and almost felt sorry that I wasnt ready. but then I realize NO ONE IS READY for when this shit hits you bro. We should have known from a young age. People who have less instruction in these matters probably go insane once you get a hint. Once you KNOW
EEEEAAARRRGGGHHHH

[kassondra8]

Anyways my brain wasnt quite ready for this because I have only been exposed to the immaterium once when I had a VERY enlightening SHROOM trip. This time I felt SPIRITUALY weak like I wasnt ready for such a BIG hole in my egsshell! I was Scared and holding my head like i was going to crack up. I was HYPER aware of my meat body! I felt like a sort of SPACE connected to my conciousness and APART and infinite once seperate. like my mind is A POOL connected to a OCEAN if you will my mind was just a pond then ALL THE SUDDEN WHAM the pond has a waterfall at its edge!I know i must sound like a "nutter" cause I felt like one. I had to stop panicking I felt scared because I had this feeling that my eggshell breaking would attract enititys to me like a attena and me not having a strong enough spirit would be faced with HORRORS. One of those pictures of a ethreal reptilian that looked like a shadow following a human kept flashing. At last I summoned all of the inner strength I could and then this overwhelming confidence and happiness flooded over me. I cant describe how im different but I just am now. I cried at first and almost felt sorry that I wasnt ready. but then I realize NO ONE IS READY for when this shit hits you bro. We should have known from a young age. People who have less instruction in these matters probably go insane once you get a hint. Once you KNOW
EEEEAAARRRGGGHHHH

Beautiful way of putting it. :D You don't sound like a nutter at all, lol! I have had a similar experience...my mind just felt like there was sooo much more room, I could think about many concepts all at once. Everything made sense, I felt like I could answer any question. I miss that... Oh and the reptilians, my boyfriend senses them in the room with us occasionally. One time when he felt a presence he saw my features morph into a female reptilian face. :eek:

That sounds like an awesome experience!

[infinite tea]

It's scary until you realise that this is a dream and the only thing you have to be scared about is your own imagination :-)

I spent 2 years shitting myself the whole time at these freaky things happening until I put two and two together - All is One means YOU are ALL of it, but you are not your body or the person you believe yourself to be - you are everything, the outside is a representation of your inner self, conscious and unconscious hence the light turning on when you thought about it turning on :-)

Hope this helps.

[agrinemenon]

I appreciate peoples thoughts on this. The "spirit world" or AETHER, warp, immaterium, whatever is the thing I have sort of figured out a inkling of a understanding of, here goes, My personality or ego sort of felt like a buble containing my soul energy which was awash in infinite soul energy.
there is infinite energy to create souls. How Big could our bubble get to contain more soul energy? or do I simply open the bubble to let the soul energy sweep over me? how do we tap into this infinite soul energy for some sort of use beside sounding like a nutter? Maybe I should look into ASTRAL travel. I do dread the anything that might be on that other side, being WELL aware of the fould creatures which could lie in wait in a place I dont have fully understood nor think im capable of at this point.

[brandonh]

It's scary until you realise that this is a dream and the only thing you have to be scared about is your own imagination :-)

I spent 2 years shitting myself the whole time at these freaky things happening until I put two and two together - All is One means YOU are ALL of it, but you are not your body or the person you believe yourself to be - you are everything, the outside is a representation of your inner self, conscious and unconscious hence the light turning on when you thought about it turning on :-)

Hope this helps.

Well put. Great post.