Disconnection Notice

[kit carruthers]

an excerpt from my writings... more to come later.

Disconnection Notice > It's Time to Wake Up

Taking psychedelics in a proper introspective manner... Alone, eyes closed in meditation or in a guided atmosphere can lead you to truly enlightening states of being.

Psychedelic and dissociative hallucinations turn the internal world into the external world as you step back and observe from the space and lock yourself into the ripples and the flow of the space. Once you're truly there, you have full awareness of your subconscious mechanisms, you can metaprogram yourself, and become aware of all the bullshit backwards notions that have been imposed in you and all the past experiences that have hampered you. And when you come back you throw yourself back into the external world to play with your mind as it interacts with other people's minds and the world around you. But this time, you're conscious, you're awake. Assuming you know what you're doing in there. People can get lost and never return.

Ideally, one would find this state of being through a lifetime of regular meditation, but the general populace doesn't have this kind of patience. They want it now and I understand them. Me too. Until you truly step back into your true self and analyze your mind from that space, you have no true free will. You are a slave to your subconscious mechanisms. Things imposed in you by society, your community, your parents, your friends, your experiences and dysfunctions in your brain chemistry. Once you do this you will realize that nothing is real, not in any way important, nothing except for love and eternal spirit. Money is made up. Property is made up. Borders are made up. Cultures are made up. Not to disrespect the concept of any of the above, we developed them for a reason, but they are a product of our damaged collective psyche. What the hell do you think the hippies were talking about? Many of them felt something the average man don't. The man was afraid, so they made their tools of exploring consciousness illegal. Despite nature clearly putting them here for a reason, it jived with our current mindset...

People go through the motions of day to day life, stuck. 6 billion unconscious fools, going through the motions until they die, unaware of the complex bullshit polluting their mindset.

Once upon a time a bunch of people decided man was not a part of nature, that we were far removed and above it. Two thousand years of us fools viewing everything outside of "civilized" society as a vast wasteland full of diseases, spooky things, gross things, and soulless meat machines. But it doesn't matter because this place is just the ruins of a lost Eden and we only have to be here for a few decades before we can spend eternity in paradise. We're only destroying a planet destined for rapture.

Then we got enlightenment, we got freedom, we got science, but we're still stuck in ways people are never willing to admit. In disposing of Christian what we're stuck in is the mindset that man is disconnected, soulless. For some reason it's in our heads that science is the enemy of spirituality. And that reason is, I think... The Christian spite.

We are not merely made up of dead subatomic matter reacting to create the illusion of consciousness. Nature is not merely made up of dead subatomic matter reacting to create the illusion of life. Something flows through all of us. A universal connection, a collective energy... And it is pure. It is emotional, it doesn't adhere to our conception of logic, however it can be cold and harsh, it follows the rules of the universe. It connects all of us together as one. Humans, animals, plants, air, dirt, distant stars, everything. It is infinity, it was never created and it will never be destroyed. It was with us with the big bang and forever after. It flows through us, it is us and we are it. You are not your brain, your brain is polluted with experiences and education and has been warped around your spark of consciousness to form your personality. You merely utilize your brain, it is not you.

Nature is alive. Everything is alive as one. The eternal soul flows through everything in this universe and binds us all together.

There are two primal emotions in life, love and fear. And there is nothing in this life worth fearing. Be yourself no matter the consequence. Come the worst... Friends lost, friends gained. Trust in synchronicity, the natural flow of the universe, and everything will be fine.

Never mind life, there is nothing in this existence worth fearing. I have a feeling that even in death, everything is fine. Trust me.

Choose love. Wake up. Love your fellow man and fear nothing.

[kit carruthers]

Disconnection Notice > Are We Mirrors?

The potential for insanity is one of the first signs that we are truly intelligent beings.

As our society moves more toward approval of right brained activity now that we need not be focused only on survival, and as diving within the self through study and through drug movements flowers out, we will find some of the answers to our troubles. Troubles we weren't even aware we had. There is a reason most instabilities reside in the right brain. We are the ones who don't get caught up in the details and see the world for what it is, we are the ones who know enough to go mad. How can most people not see that society as a whole is going mad? How our own creation is bringing itself down? Us nut jobs are merely a reflection of the whole, the ones who take the world personally. Insanity exists in order to expose the cracks in the system.

The reflection is best seen in the arts. We understand society and we think nothing of it, and this opinion is becoming more and more validated.

It seems like the only thing stopping this from being realized is our own collective ego, society's defense mechanisms.

I just can't get over the idea that the answers do not all reside in our logic, that we are emotional beings for a reason. That art, theology... Angst, everything abstract, is merely a natural response to reality as it is given. And the bulk of society is still really struggling with the idea that everything might just not adhere to their conceptions of logic. They don't want to acknowledge that logic is our own invention and that there is something much bigger outside of it, some sort of logic that we can't comprehend so it comes out as emotional and abstract. Now, that isn't to say that everything in here is in some form logical, often times it is not. What I am saying is that we have an incomplete set of rules. If you are too left brained you are likely to get locked into society's definition of logic and fail to see the world around you for the way it is. The only way to truly understand the world around you is to go insane.

Insanity is the only sane reaction to an insane society.

[kit carruthers]

durr. this would be better in "Meditation / Human Consciousness / Spirituality / Ascension / 2012 Mayan Calendar"

i always do this. i suck at forums. sorry.

if a moderator sees this, could you please move it? thank you.