Attacked by torturous thoughts

[hmz16]

I am noticing the more I love everything, the more pictures in my mind come up of nasty and evil and perverse things..

are entities injecting these thoughts into me? Because they are creepy and scary. I know that the more I fear this the more they got me, but just for it, have you ever experienced such things? I feel a malevolent entity being in my room, watching me and urging me to quit reading information.

at first I thought it could be my own egotistical mind fearing the unknown,
but I noticed a pattern:

each time I browse this website, or read about pure love/truth, my body gets disabled and it is like the situation you are frozen of fear, that someone is watching me and wants me to not "enlighten" myself. this especially happens at night.
I have read somewhere that some people very much living a truthful life have had occasions where they were attacked by fear thoughts or physical demons/aliens at night, or of seeing entities in the dark.
I can sometimes have a hard time whether its my mind letting these things come in just because of humanism, or if I am litteraly experiencing an injection/attacks of thoughts so that I will click away the website and stop reading about truth.

ideas? lots of love

[liami]

I am noticing the more I love everything, the more pictures in my mind come up of nasty and evil and perverse things..

are entities injecting these thoughts into me? Because they are creepy and scary. I know that the more I fear this the more they got me, but just for it, have you ever experienced such things? I feel a malevolent entity being in my room, watching me and urging me to quit reading information.

at first I thought it could be my own egotistical mind fearing the unknown,
but I noticed a pattern:

each time I browse this website, or read about pure love/truth, my body gets disabled and it is like the situation you are frozen of fear, that someone is watching me and wants me to not "enlighten" myself. this especially happens at night.
I have read somewhere that some people very much living a truthful life have had occasions where they were attacked by fear thoughts or physical demons/aliens at night, or of seeing entities in the dark.
I can sometimes have a hard time whether its my mind letting these things come in just because of humanism, or if I am litteraly experiencing an injection/attacks of thoughts so that I will click away the website and stop reading about truth.

ideas? lots of love

dive right in to it, if you can't acknowledge your dark side you won't understand that its a choice between love and fear/hate.

we all have the capability to be evil and enjoy it cos thats how we've been programmed, however our humanity is divine and cannot be taken away. its your choice that defines your/our reality IMHO. and tell the daemons to FUCK OFF! they cannot hurt you if YOU realise that you are an eternal spirit, don't be afraid you have always been here and you always will.

For what its worth i profer this advice.

btw its a rocky road on the dark side of yerself, trust your humanity!

[groupofone]

I, too, have had these feelings, but I think they're paranoid ones. I think it's you thinking that it's possible that entities could be around you.

Now, it's also possible that by looking at all these symbols all the time and these references to these conscious entities, or whatever they are, we invoke some sort of energy.. negative.

I think by embodying love and ridding yourself of the fear and preconceived perceptions you will be able to freely look at any information.

[godgoo]

I am noticing the more I love everything, the more pictures in my mind come up of nasty and evil and perverse things..

are entities injecting these thoughts into me? Because they are creepy and scary. I know that the more I fear this the more they got me, but just for it, have you ever experienced such things? I feel a malevolent entity being in my room, watching me and urging me to quit reading information.

at first I thought it could be my own egotistical mind fearing the unknown,
but I noticed a pattern:

each time I browse this website, or read about pure love/truth, my body gets disabled and it is like the situation you are frozen of fear, that someone is watching me and wants me to not "enlighten" myself. this especially happens at night.
I have read somewhere that some people very much living a truthful life have had occasions where they were attacked by fear thoughts or physical demons/aliens at night, or of seeing entities in the dark.
I can sometimes have a hard time whether its my mind letting these things come in just because of humanism, or if I am litteraly experiencing an injection/attacks of thoughts so that I will click away the website and stop reading about truth.

ideas? lots of love

The only advice I could give you here, if your getting flashes and such. Is just realise to yourself, that what ever it was it was independant.

It happened to me when I was in my twenties. I kept imagining my family being injured and in trouble, drowning and everything. But it all went away, just don't worry about it. It's your mind it's independant.

[godgoo]

The only advice I could give you here, if your getting flashes and such. Is just realise to yourself, that what ever it was it was independant.

It happened to me when I was in my twenties. I kept imagining my family being injured and in trouble, drowning and everything. But it all went away, just don't worry about it. It's your mind it's independant.

I was having visions of them being in car accidents, being murdered. It was horror. The more I worried the more it kept sparkin in my mind and I became depressed. Then I just reasoned with it and decided that it was independant and it went away almost overnight. And then I was free.

[godgoo]

I was having visions of them being in car accidents, being murdered. It was horror. The more I worried the more it kept sparkin in my mind and I became depressed. Then I just reasoned with it and decided that it was independant and it went away almost overnight. And then I was free.

I thought about this time for a very long time after. And I put it down to my age. I put it down to my brain developing, which I think that's what it was. I was sort of trapped in reality and a dream world. I know the reasoning centre of the brain doesn't develop fully until atleast 21 years of age.

Also I had a very hard knock to my head, roughly around that time, maybe coincidense?

Sometimes we just have to grow up and it isn't easy.

But Iam also a natural born worrier and at that time I just worried the clock round :)

[ianhuman]

very interesting thoughts hmz. i have actually had a very similar thing happen to me! most nights I take time to just sit in silence and reflect on my life, and i try to encourage feelings and thought of love and charity, but often it is when i am doing this that the most dark thoughts that i have had in that day appear. Like, sometimes i will have them during the day, but i get them the most when i am trying to have my time to focus on positive energy.

At first i thought it might be some kind of dark force inside my room, so i tried reflecting in a different room, and even outside once! But it kept on happening.

At one stage i actually blacked out, or at least that is the best way i can describe it, and when i came too i felt very uneasy and half of one of my fingernails had been torn off. has this happened to anyone else before? I was scared that maybe whatever dark force is making me have these thoughts wanted a part of my body to use for some purpose.

i understand what you guys are saying about acknowledging your dark side, but honestly this feels like more than that.

oh and p.s. hi everyone! First post! :)

[godgoo]

I can sometimes have a hard time whether its my mind letting these things come in just because of humanism, or if I am litteraly experiencing an injection/attacks of thoughts so that I will click away the website and stop reading about truth.

ideas? lots of love

It's because your worrying about it, so you just keep fireing that annoying little demonic neurone.

[lordzoma]

Negative entities 100% exist. I have dealt with this plenty of times. It's not your reasoning center of the brain developing, and it's not random thoughts going through your mind or evne just the dark part of your mind.

Our thought process is part of the MIND and is not part of CONSCIOUSNESS. One of the basic tenets of meditation is stilling and calming your mind. The will power of your consciousness has to be able to take control of your mind and settle it down.

Your mind is manipulated by many factors outside of your conscious awareness. Subliminal messages, symbols, electromagnetic energy from haarp, from gwen towers, deadly orgone from power devices, cell phones and their towers. Our mind is also part of the body computer which is damaged by biological toxins, genetically modified foods, sometimes trauma from when we were children or from other physical traumas. Furthermore we're energy bodies, and our mind is also subject to manipulation from astral entities, which naturally include orion reptilians and other negative spirits.

So what can you do?

Focus on the things that you can change and affect that are not part of your conscious mind. Put some black tourmaline around your room and on your person. Buy or make some orgonite to transform negative energy into positive energy in your home environment. Burn some sage in your house. Learn some meditation techniques. Take a look at things like emotional freedom techniques which help release physical trauma from the body. Recognize that the biggest battle in people's lives is often a spiritual one. Trust in yourself.

[unenlightened_waffle]

Hello, had similar thoughts of evil a while ago, it was when I was in full swing of trying to overcome evil and forgive/love everyone, it got to a point on an arduos night where I had a realisation that I could do whatever I wanted and that anything I wanted I could have. I will not go into it too much detail but real evil thoughts came into my head and a part of me (at the time) wanted to do it and it was like I was given an option.

I faced it and love prevailed though it was close, now I look back on that moment as my big turn where I dedicated myself to love instead of hate and now those thoughts are gone (i think!) and I am alot happier for it, not sure if everyone has this during their awakening???

I sympathise with you but you must face this and accept that you are possible of great evil, but you have the power to choose.

IMO it is your animal nature making a final stand against you, trying to stop you from evolving, but if you hide these thoughts away I believe it will cause you alot of trouble.

Hope this helps

[fekdemasons]

I am noticing the more I love everything, the more pictures in my mind come up of nasty and evil and perverse things..

are entities injecting these thoughts into me? Because they are creepy and scary. I know that the more I fear this the more they got me, but just for it, have you ever experienced such things? I feel a malevolent entity being in my room, watching me and urging me to quit reading information.

at first I thought it could be my own egotistical mind fearing the unknown,
but I noticed a pattern:

each time I browse this website, or read about pure love/truth, my body gets disabled and it is like the situation you are frozen of fear, that someone is watching me and wants me to not "enlighten" myself. this especially happens at night.
I have read somewhere that some people very much living a truthful life have had occasions where they were attacked by fear thoughts or physical demons/aliens at night, or of seeing entities in the dark.
I can sometimes have a hard time whether its my mind letting these things come in just because of humanism, or if I am litteraly experiencing an injection/attacks of thoughts so that I will click away the website and stop reading about truth.

ideas? lots of love

Two things ,

First , you might have sleep apnea ... this means you stop breathing 100s of times every night ... I have suffered for years... When oxygen is cut off to the brain we halucinate...

Check with your Doctor
second ,

Self induced panick attacks , after all the entities are thought forms , we create our reality (according to some) so we make them real by giving our energy...

My advice is this , draw the reiki power symbol in each of the four corners of the room..

Say a prayer and ask for protection from Archangel Michael.. He da head angel and general ass wooper ..

He will watch over you if you ask with pure intent...

If these dont help , try seeking out spirit release (not excorsism ) ... I had SR via a female hypnotherapist... TO my mind the spirits we make manifest are our darkest hidden worst personality traits ...we try to seperate them from ourselves as spirits to justify that we are good 100 %..

Or maybe they are Astral lower entities ... I really cant say...

Good luck to you..

[godgoo]

sleep apnea

I am sure I nearly died once because of this. If I hadn't of woke up when I did I don't think I'd of been here.

[fekdemasons]

I am sure I nearly died once because of this. If I hadn't of woke up when I did I don't think I'd of been here.

YOu have a safety mechanism , it wakes you up ... Part of the fight or flight..

But if you suffer with the condition I'm afraid you dont get much REM sleep wich is what rests the brain and keeps us sharp..

I reckon most obesity causes SA and cronich fatigue syndrome is down to a combination of the two and a cycle of the two...

i.e. Feeling low on energy , eat sugary snacks , stay seated , sedintery...

poor sleep , exhaustion , depression , sugary snacks , peaks and troughs ...

Fatigue etc etc ...

[darryl84]

I recommend reading the 'Power of now' by eckhart tolle, understanding that you are not your thoughts, but the awareness of them, and realise that when you observe the thoughts from the supra perspective without judging them and consequently getting into a debate with them - what this does is stops the energy source of these thoughts and this leads to them dissolving, the more you practice this state of mind, the quieter your mind becomes, and more connected and aware of what you are, you become.

You are all that is, your awareness of this increases in the silence between thoughts and noise, staying in the present moment or/and meditating may help you, i do the former, and probably should do more of the later aswell, which i hardly do.

[godgoo]

I recommend reading the 'Power of now' by eckhart tolle, understanding that you are not your thoughts, but the awareness of them, and realise that when you observe the thoughts from the supra perspective without judging them and consequently getting into a debate with them - what this does is stops the energy source of these thoughts and this leads to them dissolving, the more you practice this state of mind, the quieter your mind becomes, and more connected and aware of what you are you become.

You are all that is, your awareness of this increases in the silence between thoughts and noise, staying in the present moment or/and meditating may help you, i do the former, and probably should do more of the later aswell, which i hardly do.

I used to get picked up in the morning by a relative, and I used to sit down and worry that they wasn't going to make it. That they was going to die on the way. It was bad.

[darryl84]

I used to get picked up in the morning by a relative, and I used to sit down and worry that they wasn't going to make it. That they was going to die on the way. It was bad.

Ok, but did you understand what i wrote? It seems it may have slipped your comprehension, not to worry that does not matter, maybe re-read my post again?

[lordzoma]

I recommend reading the 'Power of now' by eckhart tolle, understanding that you are not your thoughts, but the awareness of them, and realise that when you observe the thoughts from the supra perspective without judging them and consequently getting into a debate with them - what this does is stops the energy source of these thoughts and this leads to them dissolving, the more you practice this state of mind, the quieter your mind becomes, and more connected and aware of what you are you become.

You are all that is, your awareness of this increases in the silence between thoughts and noise, staying in the present moment or/and meditating may help you, i do the former, and probably should do more of the later aswell, which i hardly do.

What you're saying is fairly similar to what David Icke describes at great detail in many of his current lectures.

It is the division between MIND and CONSCIOUSNESS.

The thoughts that bounce around in your brain are part of the MIND, and that means it is influenced by other people, other entities, your surroundings, and your physical body and its bio-chemistry.

The CONSCIOUSNESS is your awareness and recognition of who you are. In relation to the OP, you can have the worst thoughts imaginable to you, like picking up an axe and chopping your family into bits and burning your house down or whatever nightmare scenarios you have. Those thoughts are present in the MIND. It is your CONSCIOUSNESS that is aware of those thoughts, and might be thinking 'why am i having these thoughts and why can't i get rid of them'.

Most people don't understand the difference, and they think that they ARE their mind. If they have dark thoughts all the time due to an astral entity (as an example) then they might think that they themselves are evil simply because they have all of these negative thoughts all the time. They may even end up acting on them.

I think that it is imperative that people recognize that their consciousness is more than just the thoughts that they have in their brain. Consciousness cannot be influenced by external forces and represents who you are and who you want to be. It is your mind that will bring in doubts and negativity, because we happen to be in a negative world. That much should be obvious. The state of affairs on this planet is and has been negative for a very long time. David Icke calls it the Schism.

Ultimately it is the task of willpower to overcome the mind and act on your consciousness. Being disciplined is not easy, that is why it's called a discipline. You may want to get physically fit but your body physically craves the sweets and pushes those thoughts of eating into your mind, then it is up to the willpower of your consciousness to decide if it will stay in shape because it's your true goal, or whether you will indulge and eat even though it goes against what you want to do.

[1977]

This is apparently something that everyone goes through—overcoming that dark side of themselves. Read Jacob Boehme's writings and he talks about being mentally tormented by the 'devil' before his enlightenment.

I profoundly disagree with Jung's idea that the "shadow self" has to be "integrated," however. The shadow is a foreign attachment that needs to be purged, according to Boehme, with the Kundalini fire.