kblood
21-06-2010, 10:06 AM
I have experienced many things in my past, and since many of them did not make much sense or seem possible, I repressed the memory of them. An example would be lucid dreams. As a kid, I looked forward to going to sleep, and tried to figure out what I would want to dream of and what I would like to happen in the coming dream. But I grew older and I forgot all about it.
And when I became about 15 it began being too much. Too much that probably should not be ignored began coming back to me, and I spent about 2 years trying to get on with my live, but not succeeding. Luckily I was offered to live at a place where I would get help. A place where they use meditation and massages as therapy, and they helped me find myself and I found a way to remember my suppressed memories.
This helped me get on with my life, but recently I realized that I had not only found a way to dig into my suppressed memories, but I am also able to willingly suppress memories, if there is good reasons for it at least.
I is a bit confusing, because I did not realize I had done it, before I remembered what I had suppressed. That made me realize it had been a conscious choice of my own this time, but then is that not true every time we suppress memories, that it is at least in some part of us, something we choose to do?
I think that it is not always the case, because sometimes other people do this to others. What we know as mind control or brainwashing. But does anyone else have experiences like this? Having remembered something that was forgotten, and just knowing that the reason it was forgotten was because life seemed easier and simpler without remembering it, maybe without dealing with it, or simply because nothing could be done about it?
And when I became about 15 it began being too much. Too much that probably should not be ignored began coming back to me, and I spent about 2 years trying to get on with my live, but not succeeding. Luckily I was offered to live at a place where I would get help. A place where they use meditation and massages as therapy, and they helped me find myself and I found a way to remember my suppressed memories.
This helped me get on with my life, but recently I realized that I had not only found a way to dig into my suppressed memories, but I am also able to willingly suppress memories, if there is good reasons for it at least.
I is a bit confusing, because I did not realize I had done it, before I remembered what I had suppressed. That made me realize it had been a conscious choice of my own this time, but then is that not true every time we suppress memories, that it is at least in some part of us, something we choose to do?
I think that it is not always the case, because sometimes other people do this to others. What we know as mind control or brainwashing. But does anyone else have experiences like this? Having remembered something that was forgotten, and just knowing that the reason it was forgotten was because life seemed easier and simpler without remembering it, maybe without dealing with it, or simply because nothing could be done about it?