Been Awakening For Months...My Story

[whiteknightd]

I have been awakening for almost a year now.

I was at a point in my life where everything was a mess...confusion galore. I was living my life like a zombie...narcissistic, consumed with materialism, taking prescription pain killers and speed, steroids, etc (like the typical movie star lol). In my desperation, I asked God, whatever he was, to show me the way.

Then after that, I started getting signs but overlooked them. Strange things began happening in my apartment and I began to feel a presence like I was being watched. A light fixture fell off the wall for no apparent reason and shattered one time, my dishwasher began turning on by itself (not one of those automatic ones). Lights would fuse out. At the time, I viewed them as mere coincidences.

Then I ended up meeting up with someone I hardly knew who lived in West Hollywood. I stayed at his apartment for a few days and we used drugs and discussed the turmoils we had in life. This person seemed like he knew everything about me and was almost exactly like me minus our physical appearance. He then began to creep me out a little because he would mention random things like cannibalism, and how people get there organs sold on the black market. Me being naive, just wrote everything off. The night before I left, we were chatting it up and strange stuff started happening in his apartment like mine. His dishwasher went off, one of the lights in another room randomly turned on. The next day I left and was in the parking lot of the complex. It is an underground parking lot that once your car is in there you cannot get out unless someone opens the gate for you.

He told me to call him when I reached the gate and he's "open it for me". This phrase will also stick out in my mind because it is prophetic and spiritual given what happened next. So I drove to the gate, stopped, and began to pick up my phone to call but the gate just opened instead. I remember being a little creeped out but thought nothing too much about it. Then I drove through the gate, and that is when everything changed.

It was like having my eyes opened for the first time. I noticed things I hadn't before and it felt as if I reached a higher dimension of consciousness. I began to see the spiritual nature of things and battle going on all around us. The person who I was visiting has literally dropped off the face of existence...at least in terms of the internet and social networking.

Soon after my experience in Hollywood, I began seeing number patterns everywhere. It started with 111 and 11:11. The person's apartment number I stayed at was APT 111 so I saw a pattern. I then started seeing even more number patterns and developing very powerful psychic intuition. I thought I was going crazy and was scared and paranoid.

After a few months, I decided to stop being afraid and embrace what I was experiencing. Once I did that it started increasing. The number patterns, the psychic intuition, spiritual experiences, noticing synchronicities, etc. I began to see patterns and connections in my life and all those in it. everything seemed connected! lol

I then began being led to research the illuminati and end-time prophecy by signs I had be receiving by what I dub as my "spirit guides". I then began to research more and starting finding the truth and waking up even more. Things started appearing as if they were literally choreographed, mainly at work. Something just didn't seem right; like its fake.

Anyways, I then noticed that my TV began to stop working at my house. Then when I would stay in hotels, the TV in my room would never work so I viewed it as a sign that I needed to not watch TV and instead educate myself and research. I did that and then realized about TV being invented as a means of brainwashing and mind control, etc.

I have now become obsessed with researching as much as possible and raising my vibrations higher so that I can become stronger and increase my awareness moment by moment. So far so good.

Here I am today and I feel so detached from "reality" but it is a good thing since it is not reality at all. lol. Just one big lie.

[els27]

hello :)
thankyou for sharing your story.

I agree that it is one big lie. but I also think it is lovely to try and enjoy this experience in this reality. I think that we wanted to come into this reality, for whatever reason, and it is enjoyable to experience some of the peculiar senses that we have. I just had truly amazing toast. Sex is wonderful. Feeling frozen grass crunch underfoot is special.

I like this journey, it's good that you are awakening, so am I xxx:)

[fuls]

Im glad, I've been going through the same thing, it started 7months ago for me. I had a kinda similar story, drugabuse, alienation from society, etc. It was a dark time for me, and the book "the power of now" made it all clear for me.

I know exactly what you mean by being obsessed with researching and raising your vibrations lol, there comes a time when we have to stop looking outside of us though.

[lavista4u]

Be careful with what you come in contact with...its not as simple as it seems...there are beings that pretend to be nice guys and show you the way and lead you to hell.

be very very careful of the new experiences..we are in end times and beginning of something new..the bad guys can't come in there...they want to hold on to nice guys like you.

The reason you are getting depressed etc is the changes your body is going through for 2012...its all part of the ascension...bad guys will feel healthy..good guys bodies are being adjusted for the new earth.

search dolaras cannnon on youtube..to understand what is going on..it normal if you feel sick or are depressed..you are letting go of your old body

[whiteknightd]

Lavista,

Thank you! what words of wisdom. yes i have noticed that i have to be careful because what i'm going through has at times turned me paranoid but i realize that i was maybe letting it control me too much. I see myself as a medium for spirits and realize that there are good and bad ones.

and i have been looking very bad lately lol. i have been good looking my whole life and very vain but lately my looks have deteriorated but i like it! lol. because i realized it is a blessing in disguise. it stopped me from looking in the mirror and being focused on my physical self, which was killing me.

its also prophetic to me because when i left the apartment in west hollywood, my "friend" said something like "you won't have your looks forever". that has always stuck out. oh yea, this guy also has the same name as my guardian angel. coincidence? probably not.

[redorbluepill]

Thanks for sharing your story; it's so interesting to see how we all arrive at this 'point.' Lol, I'm not even sure what I mean by point since we are constantly trying to progress; but you get my point. :)

Edit: Isn't it so interesting to notice all of the synchronicities and connectiveness of everything. It raises the question have these synchronicities always been present in our lives, and we've simply not been aware? I'm inclined towards yes. An amazing thing, consciousness. You truly are aware of what you're conscious of.

[unenlightened_waffle]

Be careful

Perhaps the two worst words in the English language! (when put together that is)

Be fearless not fearful do not listen to people who are scared, you have to face life fearlessly. Overcome your own fears and others! If you start worrying you get stuck.

It took me a long time through what you would call awakening only to be shown that my fears are what stop me from being free and yes it is that simple. Everyone can handle every situation and the sooner we all realise that (me included) then the sooner we become our true selves, there maybe more but I have not demolished all my fears yet, so I cannot tell you but I know this is the key.

[infinite tea]

You are a point of consciousness with no mass, no form, no location and no name. Experience flows through "you" at a rate determined buy your resistance to it. The less you resist the faster it flows and the more you will notice your reality/dream changing as you are seeing by the sounds of it :-)

Try meditating on your third eye, close your eyes and look into the middle of your eyebrows whilst relaxing as much as you can. Ask to be shown the truth and be aware of what thoughts, visions or experiences transpire. The more you see the easier it becomes to let go, the lower your resistance and the faster your growth into yourself.

Great story - I had the same thing 5 years ago (asking God to show me the truth and then starting this crazy journey) - keep going and things get better and more amazing all the time :-)

[metallikitty]

I just had truly amazing toast.

heck yes. the simplest things can be sooooo exquisite. buttered toast is one of those exemplary everyday delicacies. ;)

[dedicate]

You people are being reeled in (or is it 'real'd-in') by whiteknight.-- an illuminati name if I ever heard. Nothing he says is true, but it's exactly the way it is, yada yada, plagiarizing The Matrix script, an already plagiarized piece. Sad to see the Icke community fall for this Shite or even see it posted here.

[redorbluepill]

To the OP; do not be discouraged by the negative people that will attack you in life and on this forum. You speak of a highly developed intuition; so I think you know lower vibrational energy when it appears, but just some kindly advice nonetheless. :)

The best advice I can give you is to be skeptical of any advice. You already have all the answers.

[rakkoo]

Hi i liked your story or experiences for a better word, i have become to think its all bout understanding each other.

the more i read peoples post on websites about there biographies
the more i feel we are experienceing the same sort of stuff thats going on in the world. i to took pain killers and speed thinking it was making me more enlightened. i stopped taking stuff to see if my awakening was for real or
narcotic fueled?

made no differance i was already awake at 5 years old due to near death experience i had as child.
i was snuffed out and murdered by a bed pillow, and saw strange white light beings and stuff, then after that experience my life was a bag of shit.
full of depresion and made no use or sense of my self.

i hear people talk about awaking but i saw all that stuff in my life when i was a child 40 years ago im 45 now, and think wow welcome to my world. i had this stuff going on back in the 70s . buts its not my world is it because i see more and more people having the same experiences.
anyway at least i dont feel alone with it any more now your hear .
thanks and best regards

[whiteknightd]

You people are being reeled in (or is it 'real'd-in') by whiteknight.-- an illuminati name if I ever heard. Nothing he says is true, but it's exactly the way it is, yada yada, plagiarizing The Matrix script, an already plagiarized piece. Sad to see the Icke community fall for this Shite or even see it posted here.

lol. sorry my friend. no illuminati member here. being enlightened is not a bad thing if one uses it for good rather than evil and corruption. we are all capable of attaining Christ-consciousness. how do you think the "illuminati" have remained in control? your fear and paranoia are fueling their fire.

"condemnation before investigation is the height of ignorance" -Albert Einstein

[whiteknightd]

Hi i liked your story or experiences for a better word, i have become to think its all bout understanding each other.

the more i read peoples post on websites about there biographies
the more i feel we are experienceing the same sort of stuff thats going on in the world. i to took pain killers and speed thinking it was making me more enlightened. i stopped taking stuff to see if my awakening was for real or
narcotic fueled?

made no differance i was already awake at 5 years old due to near death experience i had as child.
i was snuffed out and murdered by a bed pillow, and saw strange white light beings and stuff, then after that experience my life was a bag of shit.
full of depresion and made no use or sense of my self.

i hear people talk about awaking but i saw all that stuff in my life when i was a child 40 years ago im 45 now, and think wow welcome to my world. i had this stuff going on back in the 70s . buts its not my world is it because i see more and more people having the same experiences.
anyway at least i dont feel alone with it any more now your hear .
thanks and best regards

i think we're discovering more and more that there are thousands out there like us. we are more similar than we thought. this is a form of unification and i believe it is culminating to 2012. people's higher vibrational energies are rubbing off on each other and spreading like wildfire.

thank you for your kind words.

[dedicate]

My name is whiteknight, and I'm an Matterialist. I've been awake now for almost one year and would like to share my experience. I was at the end of my tether, taking pills and drinking hoping the confusion would go away when I reached out to God for answers.

Soon I realized things were not what they seemed. I began to see every-thing just sort of different, as if from an-nother dimension, or like from a new reality. Also, It was like I was being watched all the time, and a people came into my life like messengers from that other place.

One day later I met an old friend in a bar down the street, who had told me he had just come back from an David Icke appearance in Leeds. He said it was really interesting and this guy had been speaking about numerology, and the possiblity of a secret organization called the Illuminati who control everything including most governments. I laughed at what he was saying, because all that sound more bizzare than anything I ever heard. After all, we are free in England. Not like he was saying.

Yada Yada Yada... or as Hamlet once was heard saying, "Words. Words. ....... words."

[redorbluepill]

lol. sorry my friend. no illuminati member here. being enlightened is not a bad thing if one uses it for good rather than evil and corruption. we are all capable of attaining Christ-consciousness. how do you think the "illuminati" have remained in control? your fear and paranoia are fueling their fire.

"condemnation before investigation is the height of ignorance" -Albert Einstein


Well said and nice quote.

[xeon]

Your story is inspiring, good luck in your journey.

I am fascinated with the whole idea of synchronicity, and I hope we all get more and more of these kinds of experiences. :)

[redorbluepill]

Your story is inspiring, good luck in your journey.

I am fascinated with the whole idea of synchronicity, and I hope we all get more and more of these kinds of experiences. :)

I used to notice them from time to time, but I see them every day now.

[luten2012]

I have been awakening for almost a year now.

I was at a point in my life where everything was a mess...confusion galore. I was living my life like a zombie...narcissistic, consumed with materialism, taking prescription pain killers and speed, steroids, etc (like the typical movie star lol). In my desperation, I asked God, whatever he was, to show me the way

I wasn’t taking pain killers or speed but back in 2006 this is exactly where I found myself, I had to know the truth as to what was really happening in our universe because the world I had been presented with all my life had never 100% convinced me.

Then after that, I started getting signs but overlooked them. Strange things began happening in my apartment and I began to feel a presence like I was being watched. A light fixture fell off the wall for no apparent reason and shattered one time, my dishwasher began turning on by itself (not one of those automatic ones). Lights would fuse out. At the time, I viewed them as mere coincidences

I’d hear key words in my head telling me where to go and my intuition feelings were going through the roof, What I began to learn was my third eye (Brow Chakra) was buzzing all of the time when I got to these places. Books began to literally fall at my feet in book shops. One of them was Children of the Matrix by David Icke a day after watching an interview on youtube of him talking about shape-shifting, I didn’t even know he was an author at the time but assumed he was just a random guy talking on youtube, and what’s interesting is that Children of the Matrix is the most reptilian themed book of Icke’s and that’s exactly what he was talking about in the interview on youtube. But also I’d initially first heard of the Reptilian race of Aliens 9 years earlier while reading up on UFO’s and Aliens and it always stuck in the back of my mind. People began to enter my life that were spiritually aware, one of the best things about my awakening is that I met my best friend in the process as he was going through the same thing.

The reason you are getting depressed etc is the changes your body is going through for 2012...its all part of the ascension...bad guys will feel healthy..good guys bodies are being adjusted for the new earth

It might not be as simple as bad guys and good guys but I agree with you to an extent, I can easily be led down a negative spiral of depression and I’ve had bags under my eyes for 2 years now, my body feels like it is deteriorating and I’m only 22! I’m loving being awake but it’s almost like it’s put a burden on my physical body..

…I’ve loved reading this thread and encourage others to add their story, a reoccurring theme as the original post mentions in the sequence of numbers 111 1111 and on digital clocks 11:11, I remember having a dream 6 years ago now before I was aware of a voice repeating 444 444 444 444 over and over again which then turned to 11-11 11-11 11-11 over and over..Other number sequences are 1331 1441 and 2112. All you have to do is google 11:11 and you get over whelming results of thousands of people going through the same thing.

In regards to our bodies being put through change while this spiritual awareness is happening to us I believe the key healer and helper in all of this is meditation.

Try to discover what your most powerful chakra is and work on it, mine has always been my third eye as I’ve mentioned but as a result I can get awful migranes if any unwanted energies pass through.

Take care everyone

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[verndewd]

My name is whiteknight, and I'm an Matterialist. I've been awake now for almost one year and would like to share my experience. I was at the end of my tether, taking pills and drinking hoping the confusion would go away when I reached out to God for answers.

Soon I realized things were not what they seemed. I began to see every-thing just sort of different, as if from an-nother dimension, or like from a new reality. Also, It was like I was being watched all the time, and a people came into my life like messengers from that other place.

One day later I met an old friend in a bar down the street, who had told me he had just come back from an David Icke appearance in Leeds. He said it was really interesting and this guy had been speaking about numerology, and the possiblity of a secret organization called the Illuminati who control everything including most governments. I laughed at what he was saying, because all that sound more bizzare than anything I ever heard. After all, we are free in England. Not like he was saying.

Yada Yada Yada... or as Hamlet once was heard saying, "Words. Words. ....... words."

+1

[verndewd]

My story began when I was a kid
I knew that I was more social programming than original and wrote a piece in 9th grade about it. The teacher was impressed by the perception.
When I was in 7th grade I drew a bankers hand pointing at my forehead and I had my fists clenched saying put up your dukes in the dialogue bubble. the name on the bankers suit sleave i titled the beast.

At 17 I questioned the idea of christ realizing after years of reading the bible that something was wrong; And I and a friend would stay up looking at the stars talking about the existence of space time and matter and how consciousness fit in. From age 13-17.

I havent been a diligent study for the collective but it seems that the only information I was interested in suited the realization of true reality. Philosophy theology science, I was even taught by a former ny catholic priest who studied metaphysics in barbados at the age of 18. Thats when I realized matter is consciousness. As Bernard medford stated one evening as we talked " I have a theory that everything is just vibration".

Well the very next day I realized that and it freaked me out because everything started looking like a wave pattern.

I also was luciferian at the time. I didnt get deep into it I just got into it enough to realize that symbols and intent can manifest energy. By 20-21 I ditched luciferianism in lieu of quantum physics after a friend turned me on to Fred Allen Wolf. After reading paralell universes and the dancing wu li masters by gary zukav I was able to get a firmer idea on the information I had carried around seemingly since I was born..

I started doing psychedelics a few years later while reading the Iching and the tao , when I made my first major ego breakthrough. Since then its been a struggle but not as much as when I wasnt awake, and its easier to learn and use information.

[whiteknightd]

My name is whiteknight, and I'm an Matterialist. I've been awake now for almost one year and would like to share my experience. I was at the end of my tether, taking pills and drinking hoping the confusion would go away when I reached out to God for answers.

Soon I realized things were not what they seemed. I began to see every-thing just sort of different, as if from an-nother dimension, or like from a new reality. Also, It was like I was being watched all the time, and a people came into my life like messengers from that other place.

One day later I met an old friend in a bar down the street, who had told me he had just come back from an David Icke appearance in Leeds. He said it was really interesting and this guy had been speaking about numerology, and the possiblity of a secret organization called the Illuminati who control everything including most governments. I laughed at what he was saying, because all that sound more bizzare than anything I ever heard. After all, we are free in England. Not like he was saying.

Yada Yada Yada... or as Hamlet once was heard saying, "Words. Words. ....... words."

I love you

[tracker]

Whiteknightd

That was a good write up , and shows a similar pattern to what happened to me .

Your story is not new here , many people have had these experiences .Whilst I admit I can not speak for them I have read many times situations like yours and mine popping up now and again .

That strange feeling of being watched is not paranoia , it's the truth .
When our instinct kicks in like that , its never wrong .

usually when these situations arise its not the situation that can make things bad its how we deal with it . You seemed to have dealt with it pretty good as where others can get paranoid .

its a strange feeling isnt it ?
but ever so exciting .


:)

[whiteknightd]

good story verndewd...you are definitely a highly intelligent individual.


one more thing i forgot to mention in my story...and it's perhaps the single most disturbing thing that got me really "creeped out" to realize that some was drastically not right.

before i was leaving, the person whose apartment i was staying at asked if i was forgetting anything. i said not that i know of. then he reached in a shelf at the bottom of his room and pulled out a pair of boots. he asked if they were mine. i remember getting chills and feeling a little uneasy because i do not remember bringing those particular boots with me. in fact, i could have sworn i did not bring them with me but i just told myself that i had forgotten and was just being paranoid.

but what if i wasn't? to this day, i honestly don't think that i brought those boots with me. very surreal.

maybe he was an alien lol.

[eekberg]

Hello im new to this forum but i would like to share some myself, mostly because its shockingly similar to some of yours.

Well.. just like yours my life was a mess, like 3 months ago me and 3 of my friends sat at my friends appartment and smoking some marijuana when i got "enlightened" it felt like i had all the awnswers and i couldnt get out of this thought, the more i thought about it the more it felt like i had it all figured out.
After a while, all material stuff went broken time after time, all these symbolic things i started to see, just the day after we smoked i hit a frickin owl with my car, its the first time ive ever seen a wild owl..
and a while back (same scenario) i looked at my friends TV and thought of it as probably one of the most deadliest weapons to society. and since like 2weeks back my tv-box or w/e u call it isnt working for no aparent reason and i got the same thought as you, its probably ment to happen to keep me from watching it. I dont know if its just me but lately almost every movie ive seen (i watch alot) got some bigger-picture story about religion or end of times and such. btw the lamp in my bedroom went out, 2 lightbulbs at once the other night.

my life has fully changed, im so convinced now from all ive read and heard that everything is going to change real soon, the only downside i got is that everyone is on me to get good grades as i graduate in a month then get a job as soon as possible but i find it impossible to manage and to find any meaning in it

[verndewd]

one thing I forgot to mention is that I was introduced into this by my uncle chris who was into transcendentalism, I was like 4 or 5 yrs old and I remember group meditations and intuitive excercises, like placing a hand over a card and trying to feel what the card was.
I dont think I was that good at it but I remember them reading jonathan livingston seagull to us and that had a huge impact on the way I looked at life. Still one of my favorite books.

[els27]

I love Richard Bach's books Jonathan Livingston Seagull and Illusions :)
once I meditated like Bach suggests in his book Illusions. I had separated from a long-term partner and was a bit upset and confused. I asked the universe to show me where to go next. The universe led me to my current partner and his circle of friends, they are wonderful and many see the world as it really is. the world is so magical, if you let it be so.
wonderful to meet you all xx

[lee13]

Hi, enjoyed reading your story..You sound like you have learnt the hard way. We got a lot in common. Enjoy that rocky road, its the way forward.

[lee13]

You sound fantastic. Well done, wish that there was more people like you about

[ladygoogoo]

I have been awakening for almost a year now.

I was at a point in my life where everything was a mess...confusion galore. I was living my life like a zombie...narcissistic, consumed with materialism, taking prescription pain killers and speed, steroids, etc (like the typical movie star lol). In my desperation, I asked God, whatever he was, to show me the way.

Then after that, I started getting signs but overlooked them. Strange things began happening in my apartment and I began to feel a presence like I was being watched. A light fixture fell off the wall for no apparent reason and shattered one time, my dishwasher began turning on by itself (not one of those automatic ones). Lights would fuse out. At the time, I viewed them as mere coincidences.

Then I ended up meeting up with someone I hardly knew who lived in West Hollywood. I stayed at his apartment for a few days and we used drugs and discussed the turmoils we had in life. This person seemed like he knew everything about me and was almost exactly like me minus our physical appearance. He then began to creep me out a little because he would mention random things like cannibalism, and how people get there organs sold on the black market. Me being naive, just wrote everything off. The night before I left, we were chatting it up and strange stuff started happening in his apartment like mine. His dishwasher went off, one of the lights in another room randomly turned on. The next day I left and was in the parking lot of the complex. It is an underground parking lot that once your car is in there you cannot get out unless someone opens the gate for you.

He told me to call him when I reached the gate and he's "open it for me". This phrase will also stick out in my mind because it is prophetic and spiritual given what happened next. So I drove to the gate, stopped, and began to pick up my phone to call but the gate just opened instead. I remember being a little creeped out but thought nothing too much about it. Then I drove through the gate, and that is when everything changed.

It was like having my eyes opened for the first time. I noticed things I hadn't before and it felt as if I reached a higher dimension of consciousness. I began to see the spiritual nature of things and battle going on all around us. The person who I was visiting has literally dropped off the face of existence...at least in terms of the internet and social networking.

Soon after my experience in Hollywood, I began seeing number patterns everywhere. It started with 111 and 11:11. The person's apartment number I stayed at was APT 111 so I saw a pattern. I then started seeing even more number patterns and developing very powerful psychic intuition. I thought I was going crazy and was scared and paranoid.

After a few months, I decided to stop being afraid and embrace what I was experiencing. Once I did that it started increasing. The number patterns, the psychic intuition, spiritual experiences, noticing synchronicities, etc. I began to see patterns and connections in my life and all those in it. everything seemed connected! lol

I then began being led to research the illuminati and end-time prophecy by signs I had be receiving by what I dub as my "spirit guides". I then began to research more and starting finding the truth and waking up even more. Things started appearing as if they were literally choreographed, mainly at work. Something just didn't seem right; like its fake.

Anyways, I then noticed that my TV began to stop working at my house. Then when I would stay in hotels, the TV in my room would never work so I viewed it as a sign that I needed to not watch TV and instead educate myself and research. I did that and then realized about TV being invented as a means of brainwashing and mind control, etc.

I have now become obsessed with researching as much as possible and raising my vibrations higher so that I can become stronger and increase my awareness moment by moment. So far so good.

Here I am today and I feel so detached from "reality" but it is a good thing since it is not reality at all. lol. Just one big lie.

I suggest you go to a competent astrologer. You are probably having
a major uranus transit that explains the electricity issues and the unusual events.
Glad to hear you are having an awakening. Go for it.

[ladygoogoo]

I love Richard Bach's books Jonathan Livingston Seagull and Illusions :)
once I meditated like Bach suggests in his book Illusions. I had separated from a long-term partner and was a bit upset and confused. I asked the universe to show me where to go next. The universe led me to my current partner and his circle of friends, they are wonderful and many see the world as it really is. the world is so magical, if you let it be so.
wonderful to meet you all xx

I met a man at a party on Cape Cod quite a few years back he worked for US coast guard base up the street. He told me quite a story of having
been taken on an out of body journey with a seagull that really
opened up his mind to reality of world.
Of course I can't remember the details but he mentioned the JLS book.
Glad to hear you asked for help and were guided to right people/situations.

[w0rm]

Your story makes me think: "Why the fuck doesn't this stuff happen to me?"

My 'awakening' was and still is entirely mundane.

[whiteknightd]

dude! follow your intuition and research as much as you can. be in tune with your spirituality (whatever it is to you) and you will start noticing. try not to overlook things and realize that there are no coincidences in life.

my experiences go through phases. sometimes its overload and other times its nothing and i get frustrated because i've become addicted to it lol.:eek:

[whiteknightd]

I suggest you go to a competent astrologer. You are probably having
a major uranus transit that explains the electricity issues and the unusual events.
Glad to hear you are having an awakening. Go for it.

thanks Lady GooGoo!

any suggestions? i went to a psychic already that i was "guided" too. i didn't even need directions, i just used my intuition and found her (it was cool) but she wasn't as helpful as i thought and way too expensive.

you mentioned a uranus transit. what is that? PM if you can :D

[verndewd]

Your story makes me think: "Why the fuck doesn't this stuff happen to me?"

My 'awakening' was and still is entirely mundane.

That is a common delimma for everyone, it sounds so practiced to say persevere or just ask yourself but those ideas do eventually pay off.

Yesterday I ditched some blockages and asked that my path be sped up , and this morning was hit with some occurances that made the decision to the path clearer.

it does work and its likely the information coming to you is so subtle you cannot define it. try to look at coincidence as returning data.

So an example would help

As I said , yesterday I ditched an ongoing flirtation with a neighbors wife just tire of it blocking my passage knowing I wouldnt do to another man what id hate to be done to me.

I gave many small fetishes up just wanting to get on with it.


That night I heard them both fighting , it actually deprived me of sleep and I was awakened abruptly by a repeat offender to me getting a good nights rest and crows were yaking their heads off like mad outside.

I took this to mean it was time to move on physically and have undertaken the steps to initiate that process.

So even really upsetting messages are trying to help you, its not like you will immediately have a mystical experience You have to take the steps to set yourself up for it first by being able to translate the incoming messages.

If youre expecting the waters of a river to split or something you arent minding the subtle ways we are instructed.

[whiteknightd]

Verndewd, i notice the crows every now and then too. i work at a bank, and for the longest time every time i went outside to smoke, i would hear a crow and i took it as a sign or foreshadowing that a "storm is brewing" lol

[verndewd]

Verndewd, i notice the crows every now and then too. i work at a bank, and for the longest time every time i went outside to smoke, i would hear a crow and i took it as a sign or foreshadowing that a "storm is brewing" lol

I used to drive scrap trucks, anything from 1 ton to 80k pounds and once did a tandem,, Hated it driving.

But anyway wherever id see a crow or raven ( like you can tell at that distance) it wouldnt be soon before I saw a police car. it was extremely consistent.

[whiteknightd]

I used to drive scrap trucks, anything from 1 ton to 80k pounds and once did a tandem,, Hated it driving.

But anyway wherever id see a crow or raven ( like you can tell at that distance) it wouldnt be soon before I saw a police car. it was extremely consistent.

ya i noticed that too. either a police car or ambulance.

[w0rm]

What I'm saying really is I don't think these kind of things do happen to everyone. I've been researching for over a year now and besides a few synchronicities here and there nothing has made me step back in awe.

I'm glad that you have had them, but I truly believe that the majority of people that research these things will not experience what you have.

Not to say they won't learn just as much, though.

[oneup]

Your story makes me think: "Why the fuck doesn't this stuff happen to me?"

My 'awakening' was and still is entirely mundane.

hahaha seconded

[verndewd]

What I'm saying really is I don't think these kind of things do happen to everyone. I've been researching for over a year now and besides a few synchronicities here and there nothing has made me step back in awe.

I'm glad that you have had them, but I truly believe that the majority of people that research these things will not experience what you have.

Not to say they won't learn just as much, though.

I come from a family of intuitives , my sister gets dreams about things that will happen, on occaision I do to but mostly my messages are during the day as inspirations and empathy.

My aunt just has certain urges to comply with intuitive notions and my great great aunt used to gove her prophecies to the moron church,,,heh I mean mormon.

It took years of learning the subtle ways and years of meditation to finally have some convincing experiences. It doesnt happen over night, you need to learn how to translate the world in spirit.

[whiteknightd]

good information Verndewd.

i do think that things are accelerating these days though given the times that we are in. for instance, i feel like i've made years progress in only a few months. maybe i'm just lucky though.

[verndewd]

good information Verndewd.

i do think that things are accelerating these days though given the times that we are in. for instance, i feel like i've made years progress in only a few months. maybe i'm just lucky though.

not lucky just naturally inclined to it, a repressed childhood feeling or something; we have our work cut out in seeding these ideas, you should read my thread the enochian method and test the differences in your experiences , we all need to know each others paths or ways so that we can understand our own and help others better.

[whiteknightd]

i will do that.

there is also a theory on volunteer souls by dolores cannon. i enjoy her theory.

[crf250 rebel]

Verndewd, i notice the crows every now and then too. i work at a bank, and for the longest time every time i went outside to smoke, i would hear a crow and i took it as a sign or foreshadowing that a "storm is brewing" lol

hi i read your story and sounds very much what i have been threw.could you please explain a bit better about crows as i get a lot of them around my area and notice them and think theirs something strange about them weird i known but cannot explain it very good just get a weird feeling

[whiteknightd]

well, i'm not expert but i just would get a weird feeling. like something bad is in the air. kind of like a foreshadowing or omen that things are making a turn for the worse or that i am around negative energy.

i no longer see or hear the crows because i switched locations where i work.